Rebel Millionaire

Katrina Ruth: Welcome. Hi humans. What is happening? Interesting. Interesting. Very interesting. There's people. Hello to the people. Hi Kendra. Kendra, I feel like I haven't seen you in a long while.

Katrina Ruth: I am doing the thing that you do when you go live, which is you just kinda fuck around for a little bit, you fix your hair, make sure your posture is good. You see which head tilt looks better, which side. Thank you. I forgot I had this top. Found it in the closet. Have many clothes that I've forgotten about.

Katrina Ruth: Now, my hair looks fine. I think I could adjust it just one time. Just one time. Let me share this little stream over. Where have you been though? Watching without commenting.

Katrina Ruth: Hello Anne Marie.

Katrina Ruth: Why did my little wizardry woman not copy over? I tried to copy my wizardry woman when I'm sharing it. Where is she? Who is she? What is she? And she won't let me share.

Katrina Ruth: So, you know when ... I'm very clam. I refuse to be swayed, but my little princessy, empress ... she's an empress, excuse me, excuse all of you. The empress will not allow herself to be shared. I mean, it's very emporessy of her. I think you'll agree. She's just like, "No bitch." Too bad, I'm gonna find you in the keyboard emojis, you wirely little empress. Where are you? I won't do that dancing lady, I won't. I don't feel like flamenco lady today. Today is the day for the empress. Where is she? I'm fantastic. I was able to share the empress over to the daily asskickery group. You'll be very happy to hear it.

Katrina Ruth: Now, you know the thing that you've gotta do when you come on the live stream? Let me just tell you the things. Let me tell you the things that you must do when you come on to a live stream, in case you didn't know.

Katrina Ruth: Hello Shannon.

Katrina Ruth: Now, firstly a man told me once that if I twirl my hair in front of him it means I wanna have sex with him. Can anybody give me their ... can somebody tell me whether this is true or not? 'Cause I twirl my hair a lot on the live stream, I don't know if that means I wanna have sex with all of you. Who's even here? Let me see. Let me consider the options.

Katrina Ruth: So far I've only ... well it's not telling me everybody is here, so I don't know really, but I always feel a little bit alarmed when I start twirling my hair on a live stream. I feel like, "Do people suddenly think that that means I wanna have sex with everybody? I'm not kidding, he stood at my kitchen bench and he said to me, "Just so you know I know that you wanna have sex with me because you're twirling your head at me and you're biting your lip. I'm like, "I was not biting my lip." I said, "I'm twirling my hair because it feels fantastic." He said, "Do you wanna have sex with me?" I was like, "I take offence". I didn't say that. I didn't really know what that means. I was like, "Fine, you might be right." But I still don't think that it's a valid actual rule.

Katrina Ruth: Can somebody vote? Claire says, "I think they say that because it's something people do when they're nervous."

Katrina Ruth: He said I was staring at his lips. He was quite certain about himself, let's just put it that way.

Katrina Ruth: No it wasn't a plumber. It was a friend. Who's a friend? He was just basically saying that he could read my energy and just being quite cocky about it.

Katrina Ruth: Anyway, he may have been very right, but that's really neither here nor there. I don't think that it's an automatic thing that if you twirl your hair at somebody ...Ella, is it a thing 'cause I twirl my hair constantly especially when I'm on a live stream. I'm constantly twirling my hair. I suppose I am thinking about sex quite a lot though. So, could be for that reason.

Katrina Ruth: The lip biting thing, I don't know. I can understand lip biting if you're really in the passion of it, but I don't think I just walk around looking at people and biting my lip, or staring at their lips. Maybe I do. I don't know.

Katrina Ruth: So, that's what I was trying to say though. When you come on a live stream ... firstly I have a cloak here just in case, this is a cloak just in case I need it. I didn't put my cloak on today. Secondly, when you come on a live stream, you must adjust your hair. Everybody knows that. I've already done it. I didn't it before I went on live but then you do it again just to be sure.

Katrina Ruth: The next thing that you've gotta do is if you're smart, you wanna make sure that you jump onto the computer and check how you look there because the phone is a liar. The phone, she's a seductress and a liar. The phone will have you thinking that you can see from here up or something, but really it's gonna be from wherever it is, so I can see it on the screen from there up, but on my phone I can't see that much. So, what if I had, I don't know a crock top under and I didn't want you to see my stomach? Then too bad, it'd be too bad for me.

Katrina Ruth: Alright, I'm adding this little empress emoji over here on my personal page and then I'll be ready to talk about some things, many things.

Katrina Ruth: Claire says, "Someone told me we twirl our hair when we are tired." I just twirl my hair 'cause it looks fabulous, but now ever since he told me that I've always felt concerned that I may be, accidentally twirling my hair at people and then that wherever I go around the Gold Coast people just think I wanna have sex with them, which is not necessarily true. In fact, it's generally not true is the truth of the matter, but maybe I'm just accidentally giving off the wrong impression all the time. I suppose it's not harmed me so far. [inaudible 00:07:32]. Cool.

Katrina Ruth: So, "Hey, twirling is used to release tension. Sometimes it's sexual tension." Oh well, there we have it. We have the relationship expert amongst other things telling us exactly what it means. Now I know. That's what it means. If I twirl my hair at you, that's definitely what it means, just so you know.

Katrina Ruth: So, I've had the most fascinating weekend, I must say. I've had a most unusual ... I don't know how to say this, I don't know what I'm putting out there with my energy right now but I've had some very interesting conversations this weekend. It's been quite fascinating. I think I've changed something in my energy. It might just be the it might just be the breasts. Or it's the hair twirling, obviously. It's definitely the hair twirling, and the lip biting. I wasn't even biting my lip at anybody. I didn't bite my lip at a single person all weekend except maybe in rage, possibly.

Katrina Ruth: So, what was I even gonna talk about? Resolve.

Katrina Ruth: Hello Lisa.

Katrina Ruth: Resolve. We're gonna talk about resolve. And specifically what we're gonna talk about is whatever the fuck comes out of my mouth 'cause I already kinda got bored of the topic of resolve. I think I wrote about it already, so now I don't know what I wanna talk about. So, we'll just sit here for a moment and we'll think about it.

Katrina Ruth: Shannon, "What would you like to talk about?"

Katrina Ruth: I don't know, I just kind of go through these periods and then I'm like, "Do you think that you just ..." see, I can't stop touching my hair, but I think I'm really just using it as an excuse to touch my breast, and I thought that that might be a phase that would wear off after a month or so. It's not even been a month, it's been 12 days actually, look how recovered I am. I'm like a recovery genius.

Katrina Ruth: Today my mother said to me, "Did you have a boob job?" I never told her. I told the whole internet but I didn't tell my mother, so anyway, she was remarkably unruffled about that actually considering that she heard from somebody else and not me. She just asked me how my recovery is going, and I said, "Fantastic because I'm a recovery magician." I didn't say the word magician 'cause my mom wouldn't really care for it. I said, "Recovery maestro." I didn't say maestro either. I said, "Because I'm amazing at healing and recovery." It was something along those lines.

Katrina Ruth: And I thought that that face of wanting to touch yourself might wear off after a few weeks or a month, but then one of my clients ... it's not a prop, it's just how I walk around the house, what are you talking about? One of my clients/friends ... unruffled is an amazing word, isn't it? We should use it more often as a community. Yes, one of my clients/friends told me that 10 years later she still can't stop touching her breast all the time.

Katrina Ruth: Now, I might say that I've had an unreasonable amount of requests from my male friends for me to send photos, which I find kind of hilarious 'cause I don't think that they would normally be asking me to send photos of my breasts. In fact, they don't normally. My friends, my actual friends, I'm not talking about romantic interests. And now all of a sudden it's just a common every day request. Apparently I'm being quite stubborn and rude that I'm not sending through photos so that they can give some kind of official Amazon review.

Katrina Ruth: The resolve thing. Let's come back to that. I think that we just do it on purpose sometimes. You have these days, or for me it's been kind of yesterday and today ... yesterday I had an anxiety day, which I don't really care for that much. I'm making light of it now but I did write about it yesterday and it's a real thing, or everything is a real thing, whatever. I don't wanna go on, and on about it again. But yesterday was an anxiety day, and then today was next level grumpy bitch day. You know grumpy cat from Friends? Is grumpy cat from Friends? Where is grumpy cat from? Grumpy cat's on the internet somewhere. Let's find grumpy cat. I've definitely been grumpy cat all day.

Katrina Ruth: I just snapped at one of my friends on a message when he asked me where I am in the world, like where I physically am. And I gave him an answer that according to his reply ... or his reply to me and said, "Don't talk to me like a client." He gave me a coaching client answer, and I said, "I did not." I said, "I'm just rolling my eyes at you because I already told you earlier today where I am. Australia, and now I had to tell you again, and what's with men and not paying attention to details? And then I said, "Sorry. I'm just having a grumpy day."

Katrina Ruth: Smelly cat is the one from Friends, but there is a grumpy cat. Hopefully when I posted earlier on Facebook today that I was having a grumpy day ... I received him. I'm receiving all manner of messages at the moment that are just kind of hilarious, but also fabulous. But I got a helpful message earlier today when I posted that I was grumpy and said, "I know what you need, and it's not ... whatever, reframing, "It's penis." And I'm like, "Alright, that's super fucking helpful. Thank you." You're right.

Katrina Ruth: Do you think I'm being quite staccato on what I'm saying today? I feel like I'm not remotely connected to anything. I'm just dropping random ideas, one after another, without linking any of them up together. And it may or may not go anywhere at all.

Katrina Ruth: That's right, I was looking at grumpy cat. Okay. Now, I'm interested. Here we go. There's grumpy cat. So, I did a really good deep post about why I was grumpy, and I made some really good points about shifting things, and then of course it's a guy ... messages me, and sends me a meme. Some sort of meme that I won't repeat, but then ... No. There's nothing ... just undid my whole post basically and said that really why you're grumpy is your need penis. And I'm like, "Yes. I'm fully fucking aware of that. No need to point it out." Don't worry, I'll resolve all issues as I always do. This is my happy face. This was my happy face today. There it is, grumpy cat.

Katrina Ruth: Thank you Kobie. It wasn't even a grumpy cat meme. I thought of the grumpy cat memes myself.

Katrina Ruth: What are we up to? Should we start the conversation? Should we begin the show? So, I had an anxiety day yesterday. That was not fun, not fun, not fun even though I'm well rehearsed and well versed ...

Katrina Ruth: What did Shannon say? "We should talk about how bum-diggity you actually are while drinking vino."

Katrina Ruth: This is my first bit of wine today though. I haven had any wine to drink. Rudely when I was on my live stream last night with Linda people were accusing us of being drunken school girls, which we found supremely offensive, whilst also quite flattering.

Katrina Ruth: Anxiety day is not that fun, but I'm well versed in how to deal with it. Today was a grumpy day. Today was a fuck the world day, but at the same time I had a great day in many ways.

Katrina Ruth: And then I thought to myself ... thank you. Thank you Yvonne. Then I thought to myself, "Maybe I just create these grumpy days, or anxiety days from time to time to then remind myself of how fucking strong I am, and how determined, and how resilient I am.

Katrina Ruth: I already wrote a whole book about an hour ago. My children got to stay up an extra 30 minutes 'cause I was busy finishing the blog instead of putting them to bed, but now they're asleep. Linda's around somewhere as well. She may or may not appear. She's doing a big training upstairs, but she might be nearly done now.

Katrina Ruth: So, I don't need to repeat the whole jolly blog, I already wrote about that, but essentially after I wrote the blog, then I thought about it, and I thought, "I'm pretty sure that we just create these really grumpy or annoyance anxiety days in order to ..." like a contrast, you know what I mean? It's a contrast but it's also a lesson teaching.

Katrina Ruth: Okay. I feel like I'm not remotely in in flow at all and it's very much annoying me. I feel like maybe this is how the normal people feel when they are live streaming, where they feel a little, kind of disconnected and like a feeling of, "Am I being remotely interesting? Does anybody wanna listen to what I have to say? Should I just finish the live stream right now?" These are all the things that I'm thinking. Tell me something. I'm waiting for the super flow to come and super flow is just like, "Fuck you bitch. I ain't coming along today at all."

Katrina Ruth: We're gonna be in LA quite soon, aren't we? It's only next week that I head back to America. America. I'm gonna go here, there, and everywhere. Who wants to do something fabulous with me in America? I'm doing many things already. I may or may not accept your offer, if you make me one.

Katrina Ruth: Do you think I'm having an anxiety comedown? You might be right.

Katrina Ruth: Karen says, "I've been in a fowler today too. I desire a full-time nanny." You should get to have whatever you desire, Karen. I'm pointing it to you. I ordained you. I don't know why you need to be ordained in order to have a full-time nanny. "Loved your blog today." Thank you.

Katrina Ruth: Well, the blog I'm very happy with. I wrote the blog and I felt fabulous about it. I felt super flow. And now I'm on the live stream and I feel disconnected and grumpy about it. Aftershock. I ate mini white potatoes for dinner though, so I should be feeling better soon. It's my magic food. The more potatoes I eat, the leaner I get, and the happier I get. It's definitely coming ...

Katrina Ruth: Lisa says ... Lisa poses an interesting question, she says, "What do you really wanna say, Kat?" What do I really wanna say? I wanna say why are they ... this is something I probably was definitely not gonna say. I wanna say why are there so many fucking men who wanna have sex with me and none of them are here in the Gold Coast? That's what I'm grumpy about. Things I thought I would never say on the internet. Why am I getting so many messages from men who I really do wanna see, and then none of them are here on the Gold Coast, why am I manifesting that none of them are here? That's what I wanna know. Okay. I can't believe I just said that. And I've only had three sips of wine as well. That's my real problem.

Katrina Ruth: What's happening? Why am I manifesting all these amazing conversations? And there's a backstory there. And then I'm just creating resistance around the actual physical manifestation because I'm just trapped on the Gold Coast, and everybody knows this, no men to have sex with on the Gold Coast. Well, it's happened on occasion, for sure, but I think I'm creating some kind of block around it. Okay I think I'm going through some kind of Katfession. These are the things that I normally say to Linda, but freaking Linda is upstairs on the training, so now apparently I'm saying them to the whole internet.

Katrina Ruth: "Why do I think that is?" Linda's theory is that I don't really wanna have sex with anybody because there's just one person that I wanna have sex with. She has theories, that one. I don't know if she's right or not. She might be, or she might not be. Who knows. That's her theory. Was that Linda who said that? Of course it was. Maybe it was Kelly, I saw Kelly today as well.

Katrina Ruth: "Are they actually good enough for you?" They're actually all amazing, is the truth of the matter. That's the truth of it. That is the truth, but there's only one that I'm in love with. My God, what's happening? Am I on some kind of truth serum? Somebody get Linda down very quickly to save me before I keep saying things that I shouldn't say. This is entirely her fault because we did a live stream yesterday about wearing masks on the internet.

Katrina Ruth: "Maybe your boobsicles aren't ready for the passion that's gonna get unleashed on them>" the breasts are ready. And they've got full sensation in them as well by the way. One of my friends said she didn't get sensation back for four to six months. I cannot fucking believe I just said that. It's an organic wine, it's obviously the fault of the organic wine. That's the most revealing ... I didn't call this live stream reveal, I called it resolve. I don't know if she's right or not. I refuse to accept that that's the only possible answer. Anything's possible, doesn't make it definite though, does it? I don't know about the answer. I'm like, maybe you're right. Maybe. Maybe not. But that's pretty much what I'm grumpy about.

Katrina Ruth: What are we gonna do about it? What are we gonna about it as a community and as a team? I have to decide whether I'm in sexual resistance on purpose.

Katrina Ruth: "You need to resolve this." Now I get it. [inaudible 00:20:43]. Thank you Lisa. I need to resolve this situation.

Katrina Ruth: Well, I just find it kind of infuriating when you're having four incredible conversations at once with incredible men, and none of them are here. What is that about? But she might be right. She might be right. Maybe I don't really want any of them except for one of them. Everybody fucking knows anyway, it's not exactly a secret.

Katrina Ruth: Apparently I should drink more because clearly I can keep my mouth more secretive when I'm drinking than when I'm not drinking. What am I up to. I've had about 50 mils of wine and I'm now saying the most revealing stuff that I've ever said on the internet. Well, the whole point was to drop the mask. "Fly them in." Don't worry I'll see them when I need to see them, but maybe she's right and I only wanna see the one one. Bloody hell.

Katrina Ruth: I use inargi all the time. Alright. Well, this is embarrassing. I feel like I should leave now. Who wants to join Empress? Maybe I'll just tell you something. By the way if any of those men are on this live stream, you can just leave right away. Nobody invited you along. Everybody knows what I'm talking about anyway. Everybody who's in my inner circle meaning my ... well, I don't necessarily mean my client inner circle. I mean the inner circle of Kat, but either way.

Katrina Ruth: Resolution. Does need resolution. Resolution's always coming. That's true. I trust in the process. I trust in the divine unfolding of all things. One must trust in divine unfolding of all things or what else does one have? Ella. Ella knows many things about many things. That's what I've established since getting to know you, Ella and I don't even know you that well, but I know that you know many things.

Katrina Ruth: Now, what am I up to? I'm gonna tell you something to distract you from all my embarrassing reveals. I didn't really say anything at all anyway. You can put two and two together all you like you're only gonna come up with 49 and a half. Here you go. You might as well join Empress.

Katrina Ruth: I did the best read out about Empress the other day ...

Katrina Ruth: "Maybe you're waiting for men with a golden gun." I feel like I should understand what that means and I don't. Does that make me really dumb or really naïve? Empress is open for registrations, just so you know. Can't really be bothered talking about it but there's a pinned comment there.

Katrina Ruth: Here's why I also may be grumpy. I'll give you another reason, I'm just gonna deflect you now. Deflection. I was supposed to go to Barley tomorrow and I've now cancelled. And now I'm like, should I have cancelled? Should I have not cancelled? And I don't know. I'm in a bizarre questioning state. I think what I'm gonna go do tomorrow is buy a house and a car, and that will sort me out. I already planned it though.

Katrina Ruth: Okay. I had a friend request here from Fred , can anybody vouch for Fred? He has no mutual friends in common and he appears to be holding a gun in his profile photo. He is holding a gun and somebody just said the man with the golden gun. He appears to have no teeth on one side of his teeth, and I'm not joking. He's holding a gun, it's a big one. Hang on ... Has a lot of tattoos, he looks nice. We should probably stop talking about him. It's not a golden gun. Linda, I've just done something really stupid.

Linda: What have you done?

Katrina Ruth: Because you weren't here I just told the people on the live stream things that I would normally tell you on an audio. And it was really bad. I'm not kidding. I just said the actual truth about why I'm grumpy. I said because-

Linda: Are you still live?

Katrina Ruth: Yes. But it's all on now. I said because these four men messaging me amazing conversations and none of them are fucking here on the Gold Coast for me to have sex with them, and that's the real reason that I'm grumpy.

Linda: Which group are you living?

Katrina Ruth: The whole world. I don't even know what I'm doing. I'm not even drinking wine. I mean, I've had half a glass but ... and then I said, "Let's be honest, we all know the truth is that it's because it's only one that I love." And I've dropped you in it as well while we were at it.

Linda: Oh did you?

Katrina Ruth: I said that you said it's probably because I only want the one one.

Linda: Well, that's true.

Katrina Ruth: She doesn't know what she's on about, just 'cause she's the one that hears all my audios all day every day. She's making shit up. This is what happens when you're on a fucking training upstairs instead of being down here for me to talk to. I just start telling the whole incident, the most revealing things in the world.

Linda: [laughs].

Katrina Ruth: Anyway, hopefully nobody watches this replay.

Katrina Ruth: "An orgasm is being called." Says Karen. I already had many of them, all weekend long. I'm pretty sure I'm up to 20 since Friday night. It's gotta be some kind of Guinness World Book of World Records ... yeah, I need an award for that for sure.

Katrina Ruth: I'm not even kidding. I'm on fire. I'm sensually aroused and on fire at the moment. I don't know what's happening. Something's changing in my whole energy system. I was always like it anyway, but it's gone to the next level. Okay. Wait. Alright. I got another message. I was like, don't tell me it's another one but it was Rasheda, so that's fine. It was a woman.

Katrina Ruth: "Super flow is on." I don't think the super flow is here. I think I'm just still saying shit that I probably shouldn't be saying on the internet. Well, it's also because we talked about dropping masks last night. Just so you know. Okay. I think she's left now.

Linda: What?

Katrina Ruth: It's your fault because last night we live streamed about dropping the mask.

Linda: Oh it's my fault.

Katrina Ruth: You can make a guest appearance if you like.

Linda: In my pyjamas.

Katrina Ruth: Well, I've got pyjamas on too just on the bottom half.

Linda: Hello.

Katrina Ruth: I'm blaming you.

Linda: Why are you blaming me?

Katrina Ruth: Because last night we talked about drop ... Can we share a throne? It's not gonna work.

Linda: Our asses are to big.

Katrina Ruth: Hey.

Linda: Can we take this up?

Katrina Ruth: No. You have to look at our breasts now.

Linda: You got some lighting going on, girl.

Katrina Ruth: Because last night we talked about dropping the masks and now, tonight you're not here to save me and I'm just moping around downstairs, so then I end up telling the whole incident, the things I would normally tell you.

Linda: But this is just what happens.

Katrina Ruth: No. I've never told the whole internet that before.

Linda: You obviously meant to or you chose to.

Katrina Ruth: Well, maybe it's a new level of freedom that's coming through. How's your training?

Linda: Amazing. Amazing.

Katrina Ruth: How many people did you have on your training?

Linda: Live 130.

Katrina Ruth: Celebrate Linda. Send her a love heart shower. Let's ordain her. I don't know what I'm ordaining you as.

Linda: Off the hood. Loving it.

Katrina Ruth: As a training princess of the online trainings.

Katrina Ruth: Well, last night we live streamed with our capes on about dropping masks. Don't forget to buy my shit by the way 'cause I'm not really in the mood to sell it right now, but just so you know, don't forget. Leave the pinned comment.

Linda: I just get so much humour from just staying with you. This is great.

Katrina Ruth: Therapy.

Linda: This is just ... I'm not- [crosstalk 00:28:23]. What are these things?

Katrina Ruth: That's me.

Linda: What?

Katrina Ruth: [crosstalk 00:28:29].

Katrina Ruth: Send her some more Kat emojis.

Linda: What are they? How is that even possible?

Katrina Ruth: Send some flying Katrina so that she can see them. We want it all John, don't be offensive.

Linda: I want a flying Linda too.

Katrina Ruth: Look. Look.

Katrina Ruth: I mean, look it says one percent and press play.

Linda: Oh my god, this is the best fucking thing I've ever seen in my life.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. Bronwyn made them for me.

Linda: I need some of those in my life.

Katrina Ruth: And some sex. Oh no, that's me.

Linda: This is incredible. I learned something new today.

Katrina Ruth: "Where did the flying Katrinas come from?" So, on your phone, you know how on the right hand side you've got the little emojis? And then to the inside left of your emojis on your phone you'll see a little sticker ... you gotta be on your cell phone, your mobile phone. It won't work if you're on your laptop.

Linda: Oh my God. Can I do it?

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, if you're on your phone and you join my live you can send some flying Katrinas. I'm pretty sure they're devil Katrinas. "You can't send any emojis tonight." Why? Are you on some kind of emoji diet? Have you overdosed on emojis? Have you made a commitment to yourself to not send any emojis for 30 days?

Linda: Oh my God, this is like ...

Katrina Ruth: The red jackets look like what?

Linda: They look like witches.

Katrina Ruth: Witches. Yeah. They're devils. They're flying devil Katrinas. I didn't care for that one at all.

Linda: Are they holding a spanking thing?

Katrina Ruth: Well, that would be normal and appropriate.

Linda: Just like last night. And capes.

Katrina Ruth: I think I've said enough revealing things for one evening. I call the live stream resolve and I was gonna speak about staying the course, and holding the vision of your goals, and instead I just told everyone how grumpy I am about not having sex right now.

Linda: And instead you just unleashed whatever the fuck came out.

Katrina Ruth: Don't worry I'll sort it out.

Linda: Proper now.

Katrina Ruth: I always do.

Linda: I think I need me some wine too.

Katrina Ruth: I think I need to drink more wine because I'd had one sip of wine and then I just started saying all that shit. I literally said stuff that I would normally just say straight to you, and then I was like, "What am I doing?"

Katrina Ruth: "All you can see is bitmojis."

Linda: You don't need me anymore, you got them. You just [inaudible 00:30:40] every day in an audio.

Katrina Ruth: I cannot get into the habit of telling the whole world the things I tell you. I'd be kicked off Facebook.

Katrina Ruth: "It's the wine." Well, I only just had a little bit of wine.

Linda: The wine?

Katrina Ruth: There's no white wine left in this house, is there? You drank it all.

Linda: We can sort something.

Katrina Ruth: "Love this so much, Linda."

Linda: Thank you.

Katrina Ruth: Alright. Send me some emojis.

Linda: I have to ... is it on your page?

Katrina Ruth: Well, how can we connect to this in a professional and adult way back to the conversation about resolve? Hopefully-

Linda: Resolve.

Katrina Ruth: Hopefully certain people don't watch this replay. I'm gonna be embarrassed.

Linda: Oh my God, that's us.

Katrina Ruth: Well, no. Not really 'cause whatever. I might as well just be transparent. Do you know what this is? This is a sign for me to be even more transparent.

Linda: I wanna send you some ...

Katrina Ruth: You're just gonna send me ... oh no. You gotta press this, that's where the flying Katrinas are ... I don't know. Where's the flying Katrinas?

Linda: Or maybe 'cause it's ...

Katrina Ruth: This one. This one. This one. I'm gonna send myself my own Katrina's. Oh my God. This is the best day of my life. I've never been ... I'm going crazy about it. I've never been able to do this before 'cause ... I'm just pushing buttons.

Linda: This is the weirdest live stream ever.

Katrina Ruth: And everybody's been pushing my buttons all weekend. So, I'm just gonna push these buttons. Oh my God.

Linda: Look at that.

Katrina Ruth: That's the best moment of my life. That is my best live ... one percent, one percent for everybody.

Linda: I actually thought they look like witches.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. They do. Alright. I'm very excited. Okay turn it off. She's annoying.

Linda: That's you darling.

Katrina Ruth: She's speaking over the top of me. Shut it down.

Linda: Shut it down. Shut myself down.

Katrina Ruth: Get rid of her.

Katrina Ruth: Anyway, I just had an important point, was it? How, if you look at the emojis on the left hand side, the cape live stream was professional. We were professional as fuck. If you look at your emojis on the left side of your screen, see? No, left. No, on the right side of your screen, so I'm pointing right 'cause it's mirror words ... mirror-

Linda: Is it?

Katrina Ruth: You know. Like if I point to our left then it's gonna point to their right. See? And see the little stickers?

Linda: They look like witches.

Katrina Ruth: They are. That's why I always call them devil Katrinas. Whenever I see them, I'm like, "Look at the devil Katrinas.

Katrina Ruth: Leah, we were completely above board last night. We'd had no alcoholic beverages.

Linda: None.

Katrina Ruth: Actually, it's true because the livestream crossed over past midnight, so we were completely sober for that day because you reset your soberness at midnight right?

Linda: I even got told off because I had a proper training tonight and I should be fresh.

Katrina Ruth: Oh my God. That's true, you did.

Linda: I did. I was so very serious on my training. It was incredible.

Katrina Ruth: So, I was gonna make an amazing point. It was really just for me and not for anyone else, but still I wanna get back to it. It was, I think, maybe the reason I just told all of that to Facebook, about my sexual needs ... was maybe it means I meant to express it in a more open way in general.

Linda: Maybe. Is that what you'd want to take out of it?

Katrina Ruth: I think I already do.

Linda: Like what you wanna teach yourself about that situation. About that concept.

Katrina Ruth: I don't know. I think I express myself quite well. I don't know why it came out.

Linda: Love it.

Katrina Ruth: Maybe it wasn't that bad after all. I'm not gonna watch the replay just in case, because I have a personal rule that ... well, the problem ...

Katrina Ruth: Blake says he missed my sexual needs. Please tell more. You've exactly hit the nail on the head. Everybody's been missing my sexual needs.

Katrina Ruth: Well, what I had said was that I don't understand why I'm having four amazing conversations but none of them are on the Gold Coast. They're all in other places around the world.

Linda: 'cause you've created it somehow.

Katrina Ruth: But one's here in Brisbane and it's only an hour away but still, it's fucking Brisbane.

Linda: Owning it too. I wonder why you created that/

Katrina Ruth: And then the recap version was that Linda in her wisdom and profoundness had said ... and when I said, "Why am I creating sexual resistance?" She said, "Maybe it's 'cause you don't really wanna have sex with them, which I found an annoying because it might be true.

Linda: Well. Well.

Katrina Ruth: I'm not sure if it is true.

Linda: I do say really fascinating and smart things. You know fascinating things come out of my mouth all the time. All the time.

Katrina Ruth: I've gotta go to Brisbane tomorrow anyway. I have to go there to see a car.

Linda: What are you doing there?

Katrina Ruth: I gotta go see a car. That's a true story. You know that. That's a true, above board story.

Linda: There's lots of cars.

Katrina Ruth: No. That car is in Brisbane.

Linda: Okay.

Katrina Ruth: The exact one happens to be in the same suburb where somebody lives, which is a coincidence.

Katrina Ruth: "Subconsciously you may be revealing." Linda is always fucking right. This is the problem when you have [crosstalk 00:35:47].

Linda: Did you hear that? Did you hear that? Can you do a [inaudible 00:35:49] of that?

Katrina Ruth: Could you just clip it out and have her repeat it like a 100 times?

Linda: Yes. I will. I'm gonna call your team.

Katrina Ruth: Don't worry, I'm always right as well. Oh I will get on a plane, don't worry. I'll get on a fucking plane. No doubt.

Linda: [inaudible 00:36:03] steak on your cheek.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. That's happened before for sure. No. I'm seeing the car anyway. I've gotta go buy a car. It's like a James Bond car.

Linda: Is it the one you sent me?

Katrina Ruth: It's the Mercedes convertible that I was looking at in the [inaudible 00:36:20] the other day, but they had the black one on the Gold Coast, and they've got this gun metal grey one in Brisbane. It looks amazing. It looks like a spy car. So, I'm gonna go look at it. That's a true story.

Linda: Like a James Bond car.

Katrina Ruth: It's a legitimate non sexual story. I'm not even joking. That's why I'm going-

Linda: For once.

Katrina Ruth: It's not ... for once. For once. Listen to her. [inaudible 00:36:43].

Linda: I get all the stories behind the scenes, that's why I say for once.

Katrina Ruth: Somebody's gotta hear the stories, don't they? It's true. Shotgun. "Yeah, this guy's bad ass." That's right, we forgot about the guy with the gun.

Linda: Brandon.

Katrina Ruth: What was the resolve comment about? I don't wanna get the car in gold. It should be in pink except I'm already pretty ...

Linda: You did speak about a pink car.

Katrina Ruth: I can't drive around town in a pink Mercedes convertible because everybody would know where I am all the time. I'm already standing out enough as it is. Don't you think?

Linda: Well, you keep breaking the internet every day.

Katrina Ruth: It's too much too muchness.

Katrina Ruth: "You should have your stickers if you're on your mobile phone. If you're on your desktop then you won't."

Katrina Ruth: Brandon wants to WhatsApp you.

Linda: What's up?

Katrina Ruth: He said what's up.

Linda: What's up man.

Katrina Ruth: He said that's what's up.

Linda: That's what's up.

Katrina Ruth: Do you think there's something about [inaudible 00:37:38] energy where we raise the temperature? Because last night I started sweating when we were on the live stream together and now I'm getting over heated again?

Linda: Maybe.

Katrina Ruth: It never happens on my own normal live streams. I'm like, holy shit.

Linda: Gotta put my hair up and take my scarf off.

Katrina Ruth: Just so we know, just to maintain a little bit of control back, I'm always right as well. Just so that everybody is aware.

Linda: All of us are always right, aren't we?

Katrina Ruth: That is true. That's a great point.

Linda: According to our truths, we're always right.

Katrina Ruth: That's an excellent point. She nailed. It.

Linda: See? I told you just fascinating stuff just starts dribbling out of my mouth. I can't help that.

Katrina Ruth: That's so good.

Linda: It's just-

Katrina Ruth: I think you can find a better way to dribble it.

Katrina Ruth: Fascinating stuff keeps dribbling out of your mouth. It evolves out of you in an essentially conscious manner.

Katrina Ruth: Somebody said super flow. I think it just kicked in. [inaudible 00:38:34], delivered.

Katrina Ruth: Now I have to take my pants off. I'm getting really hot. Do I have any pants under this?

Linda: Wouldn't surprise me. You do.

Katrina Ruth: I'm taking my pants off.

Linda: She's taking her pants off. Should I take my pants off too?

Katrina Ruth: It's really hot.

Linda: I can't take mine ...

Katrina Ruth: I'm boiling.

Linda: I'm not wearing ... I'm just wearing undies.

Katrina Ruth: I'm burning up.

Linda: I'm just wearing undies. I'm wearing the same colour.

Katrina Ruth: Alright. Well, I put on clothing in order to get on the live stream, but I've got my pyjama shorts on underneath. Clam down. Everybody is just ... calm your tits.

Linda: Now we're just talking about tits because your obsessed. Obsessed.

Katrina Ruth: Look. You didn't even see my new bra.

Linda: That's amazing.

Katrina Ruth: That's one of the ones that I got yesterday.

Linda: I like it.

Katrina Ruth: It's incredible, isn't it?

Linda: Yeah. Have you shown them?

Katrina Ruth: Nope. Won't. Won't.

Linda: I get the goods. I'm so lucky.

Katrina Ruth: I got a message earlier from one of my amazing men who said to me, "Why have we not seen your new breast yet?" And I said, "We? Do you mean the royal we? Who's we?" I said, "Well, I suppose you can see them shortly on the live stream [inaudible 00:39:49]."

Katrina Ruth: "Turn your phone ..." No. I won't.

Linda: No.

Katrina Ruth: Inappropriate. What?

Linda: What?

Katrina Ruth: [crosstalk 00:40:00] my whole breast a live stream?

Linda: Was there even something in your existence that there is something called inappropriate?

Katrina Ruth: I'm gonna save them for the people that get to see them.

Linda: Okay.

Katrina Ruth: Which is basically every single woman that I know who's just grabbed hold of them since I've got them, apparently.

Linda: I know. The next day I got ... no. When did I ... I came back and you were like, "Look."

Katrina Ruth: You were straight in there. You were just like, "Oh yeah." I think you actually said, "Oh yeah."

Linda: I'm like, "Oh yeah." They're great.

Katrina Ruth: I was like, just standing casually in the kitchen as you do.

Linda: It was amazing.

Katrina Ruth: "Are you trying to help them find Kat emojis?" I thought it was a conversation about boobs.

Linda: We need to put some boob emojis in there as well 'cause everyone wants to see them, and everyone wants to squeeze them, so people can just send you some boos.

Katrina Ruth: You're supposed to squeeze them. You're supposed to squeeze them upwards.

Linda: But I think that's a great idea. Tell your team. So people can just give you booby grabs.

Katrina Ruth: They do anyway. I don't need to tell them. They do it everywhere I go.

Katrina Ruth: "Tell the team."

Katrina Ruth: Hang on, we were saying something important. You were saying-

Linda: Everything is important.

Katrina Ruth: You were saying you're always right, which is an excellent point.

Linda: So are you.

Katrina Ruth: Thank you.

Linda: And so are you.

Katrina Ruth: Thank you. I'm saying thank you for them.

Katrina Ruth: You can send your own thank yous though.

Katrina Ruth: It's true. Doesn't it make life just fabulously easy if you're always right?

Linda: Yeah. Of course.

Katrina Ruth: It means that I didn't do anything embarrassing or stupid after all about what I said. It means it was exactly what I was meant to say. Confessional. As if it's a fucking secret anyway.

Linda: The boobs?

Katrina Ruth: No, that I really am kind of, only mainly interested in one person.

Linda: But I would've noticed.

Katrina Ruth: Which bit?

Linda: The boos. I think anyone would've noticed even-

Katrina Ruth: I was talking about the men.

Linda: Oh the men, right. I thought you meant you weren't gonna tell anybody you got boobs done. I'm like, well, people would probably notice anyway.

Katrina Ruth: No. Not that bit. I was talking about it's not a secret about the men stuff. What you said.

Linda: Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: But I still maintain that I ... that maybe ... I don't know. I'm stopping right there.

Katrina Ruth: But you're definitely always right. I'm coming back to that.

Linda: I like that. I've been talking about that all night. I'm always right.

Katrina Ruth: We've been ... Have you? On your training?

Linda: Oh no.

Katrina Ruth: Or just in general?

Linda: I could ...

Katrina Ruth: We've been talking about that for months though. We've been saying that it's literally impossible to screw anything up because you are always right.

Katrina Ruth: Well, I journal that every day. Every day I write I always make the right decision and everything always works out perfectly for me.

Linda: Same. Exactly.

Katrina Ruth: So, then every time I do something where I'm like, Oh my God I will literally ... you should've seen be earlier, I was like. I can't believe I just said that. Why did I say that? I only had two sips of wine as well. I was like, "What the fuck just happened?"

Linda: You can't blame it on the wine though.

Katrina Ruth: And I have a rule that I won't delete content online as well. I used to do it a few times. We talked about that stuff yesterday.

Linda: Yeah we did.

Katrina Ruth: But I did use to do that some years back when I would feel or self conscious about how I put myself out there. Now I have a personal rule that I will just not delete content no matter what. So, I won't delete the live stream even though it could be watched.

Katrina Ruth: So, therefore I trust that it was exactly what I was meant to say.

Linda: Yeah, of course.

Katrina Ruth: I never screw anything up. And everything ... And did I say that everything works out perfectly [inaudible 00:43:15]?

Linda: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. I always-

Linda: That's my belief now.

Katrina Ruth: I always make ... It is so [inaudible 00:43:21].

Katrina Ruth: "I can't see them sideways either." I don't know. I can't help you.

Linda: Which ones? The boobies?

Katrina Ruth: The devil Katrinas. I think she means the devil Katrinas.

Linda: Boobies or the devils?

Katrina Ruth: No. The angelic boobies, devil Katrinas. Two different things.

Katrina Ruth: I started to look [inaudible 00:43:38] two or three years ago. I chose it. You know you get to choose your beliefs people. You just get to choose them.

Linda: I like to [inaudible 00:43:44] but I've never done before. I wanna take a photo of that.

Katrina Ruth: Take a photo of [inaudible 00:43:47]. Yeah. Great. Why don't you live stream the live stream?

Linda: I should.

Katrina Ruth: So, I started to look [inaudible 00:43:55] a few years ago but I always make the right decision, everything always works out perfectly for me, I'm on my [inaudible 00:44:02] times, stuff like that, right? [inaudible 00:44:07] and at first it was like, it'd be cool if you believed that or it'd be nice if you believed that, or yeah I can, sort of, maybe start to believe that.

Katrina Ruth: Now I 100% fully, completely do believe it. So, even though I feel like I just was very vulnerable and exposed myself, and was a next level idiot beyond what I normally am, I've already [crosstalk 00:44:26].

Linda: Is that even possible?

Katrina Ruth: I can't discard any levels of idiocy and clownliness. Clownlyness everyday. But I don't really mean it about the idiocy. I've already shifted it and reframed it, and I'm already like, "Oh well, clearly that was exactly what I was meant to say tonight, and everything's perfect.

Linda: Everything's always perfect. All the time.

Katrina Ruth: Maybe not only will I be okay with this live stream replay [inaudible 00:44:49] maybe I'll just deliberately point it out.

Linda: Maybe. Send it. Sent it. To the Gods.

Katrina Ruth: To somebody.

Katrina Ruth: Anyway, what say you?

Linda: Pardon?

Katrina Ruth: What would you like to say? Speak up.

Linda: Speak up?

Katrina Ruth: Address the room.

Linda: Address the room.

Katrina Ruth: Sorry I didn't have any wine to offer you...

Linda: That's right, where's my wine?

Katrina Ruth: You drank the whole bottle.

Linda: I don't know but-

Katrina Ruth: She doesn't drink red wine.

Linda: I don't even normally drink much.

Katrina Ruth: That's true. She doesn't. That is true.

Linda: And I had a whole bottle of wine last night.

Katrina Ruth: Well, yeah. And she doesn't drink red wine. I have enough red wine in here that I could open my own store. I have a seller's worth. Of course, I can't really offer her any though.

Linda: It's really odd. I've never even had half a glass of red wine in my life.

Katrina Ruth: I'll get some more to make up for it.

Linda: Oh for me?

Katrina Ruth: Linda has something very profound to tell you. No, for me.

Linda: But what about me?

Katrina Ruth: What am I gonna get you? Champaign?

Linda: Surprise me.

Linda: Out on something really funky and come back.

Katrina Ruth: Put on something funky?

Linda: I mean, take off what you have on and-

Katrina Ruth: What? What's happening?

Linda: I don't know what's happening.

Katrina Ruth: You're just ordering me around.

Linda: Do you really trust me on your life with your people?

Katrina Ruth: Yeah.

Linda: You never know 'cause I never know what's gonna come out of my mouth next. I never know what I'm gonna do next.

Katrina Ruth: I'm not getting changed.

Linda: You know a lot of people always ask me, "What the hell? Where are you gonna go next? What are you gonna do next? I can't keep up." Well, I can't keep up what I'm doing next. I never ever know.

Linda: "Call for red." I don't know. You know what red wine really tastes like to me? Like sour milk. I'm not-

Katrina Ruth: Would you like a potato? I can bring you a potato.

Linda: No. I don't want a potato.

Katrina Ruth: I brought you some kombucha. I've put some [crosstalk 00:46:44].

Linda: I don't like that.

Katrina Ruth: I put apple cider vinegar in there just for you.

Linda: Oh my God.

Katrina Ruth: I just mixed some healthy things together. You don't like kombucha?

Linda: No.

Katrina Ruth: Take it away.

Linda: Fermented-

Katrina Ruth: The queen has spoken.

Linda: Apple cider vinegar and kombucha, I'm like ...

Katrina Ruth: I don't like kombucha either but [inaudible 00:46:59] and Kelly left it here, so somebody had to have it.

Katrina Ruth: Alright. Well, what do you want then?

Linda: I don't know. I'll go and find my way.

Katrina Ruth: Okay. Hang on. I'm gonna [inaudible 00:47:08].

Linda: What is my work about? My work on my work? Which work?

Katrina Ruth: The work.

Linda: The work.

Katrina Ruth: Oh the work.

Linda: oh the work. Remember that?

Katrina Ruth: What was that? That was like, "We want them to do the work." Oh that's right you've gone, "I want this, this, this, and this, and I want him to do the work." And I'm like, "What work Linda?" "Oh the work."

Linda: Oh, the work.

Katrina Ruth: That was over a year ago.

Linda: That was over a year ago.

Katrina Ruth: And then you manifested it like a motherfucker.

Linda: I did.

Katrina Ruth: And that was the same manner I manifested ... you know ... the Brisbane situation.

Linda: Boob side profile.

Katrina Ruth: My hair is in the way. I keep the hair there on purpose to keep it gentile.

Linda: Are we going all conservative now?

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. I'm super conservative. I'm known for ... Can I tell you something?

Linda: What happened?

Katrina Ruth: Can I tell you something that-

Linda: What happened inside that head? Please.

Katrina Ruth: I'm gonna tell you something that's gonna shock you.

Linda: Tell me.

Katrina Ruth: And you're gonna be upset. I think I'm on [inaudible 00:48:16].

Linda: Oh really?

Katrina Ruth: So, when I was taking the Mercedes convertible thing for a test drive the other day, we're driving along and the car sales man says to me, "You're in quite the conservative mode, aren't you?"

Linda: You told me.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. And I'm like, "Excuse me?"

Linda: I'm not conservative at all.

Katrina Ruth: I'm like, "Conservative mode?" He's like, "No. I mean the car. There's conservative mode, and sports mode," and I'm like, "Okay."

Linda: You were almost offended.

Katrina Ruth: I nearly threw something ... Well, I was driving the car, so I couldn't really do much about it. I thought that he was referring to me as being in conservative mode.

Katrina Ruth: Alright. Well-

Linda: How have I ended up with this?

Katrina Ruth: 'Cause I gave you the opportunity to be the speaker.

Katrina Ruth: Do you know what resolve is really about? I thought I was gonna come on and speak about resolve, and stay in power, but I already wrote a blog about that when you were upstairs.

Linda: Yeah. Where are you going with resolve?

Katrina Ruth: Well, I wrote a blog about it. You know the little conversation we had when you sat down when I was eating dinner?

Linda: Dinner? Tonight?

Katrina Ruth: About staying the course, and holding out for what you really want that's inside of you. I wrote a really good blog about that, it's on my personal page. I wrote that when you went upstairs. I'm very happy with it. So, then I went to do nearly the same topic again for the live stream, which was obviously a silly idea 'cause I don't need to-

Linda: That's alright. [inaudible 00:49:40].

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. But I've kind of already done it now, which is probably why my mouth just opened itself like a big flapper and just said random shit that I normally wouldn't say.

Linda: And you just dribbled things out.

Katrina Ruth: Dribbled it out. Just dribbled it out onto the internet.

Linda: That's amusing now.

Katrina Ruth: But now ... Thank you Ella about the blog. I was really happy with it actually. I edited it about 18 times while I was in bed upstairs with the kids after they had fallen asleep. And now here we are, but now what I realise what resolve is about is having the resolve to be unapologetically you all the time even when you're saying something where even as you're saying it you're like, "Just shut up, just stop right there. Do not go one word further."

Linda: No filter.

Katrina Ruth: And then you keep going. And that's ... Well, there you go, you're either being all that you are or you're not. You're either speaking the truth or you've got a mask on. There's no grey area.

Linda: But that's the thing. We were talking about masks yesterday. We were talking about being unapologetically you. What's the point even being someone else 'cause you're not living your own life.

Katrina Ruth: Exactly.

Linda: What's the point about that?

Katrina Ruth: But it's a constant [inaudible 00:50:48], isn't it? Because we're both so committed to being unapologetically ourselves, and we both really seek to be transparent online and to speak our truth, and we do. We both message so authentically. But yet you still continue to notice, day by day areas where you're holding back.

Linda: Like yesterday. Oh my God this moment.

Katrina Ruth: Right.

Linda: And I shared it on that live stream yesterday [inaudible 00:51:10].

Katrina Ruth: Yes. That you shared ... you've gotta watch the cape live stream from yesterday if you missed it 'cause Linda shared about that. But even like what I was saying earlier and then like, "Fuck, why am I saying this?" And then it's like, but I'm just saying the truth, but it was like the next level of vulnerability or an area that I wouldn't normally quite confess to.

Katrina Ruth: And then you notice that though and the problem is ... here's the problem ... it's not really a problem but it can feel like a problem. The problem is-

Linda: I remember once you said something on an audio, "The problem is that I don't have a problem." Or something. Wasn't it something along the lines?

Katrina Ruth: No. I think I said my only problem is that I think I have a problem.

Linda: Okay. [crosstalk 00:51:46].

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. So, the problem is, what I said earlier on this training, which I'm still like, "Oh my God, I can't believe I said that, that was so stupid. Or embarrassing, or whatever," that now that I've said it thought, I've made myself aware of an area where I wants being fully transparent. Because before I said it I was like, "La, di, da. I'm totally open. I'm authentic as fuck."

Linda: As fuck.

Katrina Ruth: "I'm the most authentic person on the internet. I tell all the things, I say all the things." And then your mouth is like, "We'll just see about that bitch. How about this one thing that you haven't told anybody?" And then it just pops out.

Linda: It dribbles out.

Katrina Ruth: My soul just [inaudible 00:52:27] it forth without any prior permission. There was no application put in, is it okay that we speak about this? The soul just does what it wants. So then once it's come out you can't un-know now. I can't take that back. Not that I would, but I now can't un-know. I'm not conscious in a way like, "Oh shit. Here's an area where I've been, kinda, sort of, pretending," but I was buying ... you know you buy into your own bullshit?

Linda: Oh yeah. It was fun.

Katrina Ruth: Because I would never, and you would never consciously not be transparent. We're always transparent, but it's just a never fucking ending process of dropping into deeper layers of transparency and authenticity.

Linda: There's always another lever. Always another layer. It's like I'm finally fully connected to self. I'm finally totally owning every part of me and being me unapologetically, then there's another layer like steak slap almost that just surprises you, goes, "Holy shit. I didn't even know that was there. I didn't know that about myself that that was there.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah.

Linda: And then you wanna share it.

Katrina Ruth: And then once you know though, you can't un-know. And then once you've spoken about it to your audience that's saying you've brought an opposite topic of conversation, then it's like ... sorry, I'm standing on your scarf somehow ... then it's like the doors are open and then the flood gates are open, and it's like, "Well, shall we now continue to talk about this? Maybe, maybe not." But either way it's open.

Linda: It's open.

Katrina Ruth: It's a new level of transparency.

Linda: Once you opened the can of worms you can't ...

Katrina Ruth: The worms are coming out. They just come out. They just go everywhere. All throughout the whole house. It's disgusting.

Linda: You're disgusting, talking about worms.

Katrina Ruth: You brought it up. What?

Linda: What?

Katrina Ruth: Well, so I think resolve is the resolve to be unapologetically you. It takes courage. It takes a massive fucking amount of courage to remain ... Well to remain ... it takes a massive amount of courage to decide to be all that you are and to share that with the world.

Linda: It does.

Katrina Ruth: But then it takes a massive amount of ongoing courage to continue to be you because particularly when we are growth oriented we are always ... there's always new areas of vulnerability to go to.

Linda: 100%.

Katrina Ruth: And there's always gonna be an element of resistance around, "Do I really wanna share that with the world?"

Linda: It is an ongoing process.

Katrina Ruth: But I don't think you have to share everything. I don't think there's a rule that you've gotta share every single thing as a messenger, right?

Linda: No. Not everything.

Katrina Ruth: I think [inaudible 00:55:00] what comes out needs to come out. That's my personal rule.

Linda: And the things that you wanna share but that you might find an element of, "I'm a bit afraid to share that," but you know that you wanted to share it but you're afraid of that, that's what you should definitely share.

Katrina Ruth: Totally. You always know what you're meant to share. Often times clients will tell me about a situation in their life that's very vulnerable, or very intimate, or whatever it might be. And they'll say, "Should I write about this? Because I'm not being authentic if I don't write about it or something like that." And I'm like, "Well, no. There's not a rule that you have to share all your shit. That's not a rule." To me personally ... well, [inaudible 00:55:36], but for me personally the rule is, if it's coming out of me like it wants ... if it's dribbling out as Linda would say ... I prefer to say if it's being unleashed, I think it sounds more bad ass than dribbling ... if it's unleashing itself, if it wants to share itself, like I look at the message as its own entity, right?

Linda: Entity?

Katrina Ruth: Like it starts to come out of you. Like that just came out of me. I was like, "Stop. Stop." I was like a zip up emoji but it didn't work. It just went-

Linda: As if you even have a filter on you. You don't have a filter on you.

Katrina Ruth: I never said that before.

Linda: I don't think you do. Does she? I don't know. I don't hang around with her every live stream.

Katrina Ruth: I say some [inaudible 00:56:16].

Linda: But I hear it all behind the scenes.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. You do.

Katrina Ruth: I say some pretty full on shit.

Linda: I'm like, she does not have a filter.

Katrina Ruth: That exact particular area I've somewhat got it in what I say or don't say. For reasons. But I think that my rule is that once it starts to come out, I have to get out of the way and let it out. My job is to be the vessel, not to be in charge of which bit of the message gets to come out. So, I'm not gonna ever deliberately make myself say something just because I could. I'm not like, let me write down all my inner most shit every day and then share it with the internet. No. I just share what comes out.

Katrina Ruth: So, then if a new area of vulnerability starts to present itself to the world, and dribbles forth, than my job is to get out of the way and let it, and shut the fuck up and let it.

Linda: See? It is dribble.

Katrina Ruth: Dribble. It's a true thing.

Linda: It just comes out.

Katrina Ruth: I wouldn't have built this business if I didn't learn to get out of my own way and let the message be the message. I say it to my clients all the time, "Let the message be the message. Let the art be the art. You don't decide."

Linda: You're just the messenger.

Katrina Ruth: You are. You are. You don't decide, "Is that an appropriate message or should I say that, or can I say that?"

Linda: Hi beautiful Claire.

Katrina Ruth: You let it out.

Katrina Ruth: Hello. I already said hello to you but hello again.

Linda: Claire you were on my live feed earlier, on my training earlier. And now you're here.

Katrina Ruth: She said that.

Linda: We just swap from one thing to another.

Katrina Ruth: She was saying that when you first came down.

Linda: That's so cool. That training was so good.

Katrina Ruth: Bad ass.

Linda: That was bad ass.

Katrina Ruth: Well ...

Linda: There's a lot od dribble that came out, in and out on that one.

Katrina Ruth: There you go. Resolve to be unapologetically you. That's my message for you this evening.

Linda: We got there in the end.

Katrina Ruth: I got there in the end. I revealed many things that I had no intention of revealing. Feel a little exposed, but it's nothing new. It's just what I'm here for. I'm merely here to serve and to apparently just reveal my most inner most shit to the internet for the entertainment of everybody else. So, I hope you appreciated it.

Katrina Ruth: You can send me gifts. It's PO BOX 861, Surfers Paradise, Queensland 4217.

Linda: She's actually serious too.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. Everybody does. I like bordeaux, Guylian Seashell chocolates ...

Linda: [inaudible 00:58:45].

Katrina Ruth: I got a lot of that. You already gave me some last week.

Linda: Almond butter.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah.

Linda: Peanut butter.

Katrina Ruth: Peanut butter I'm not supposed to have too much but it is good.

Linda: But certain brands.

Katrina Ruth: I feel like I could have a new cape at some point.

Linda: Do you have chocolate?

Katrina Ruth: We didn't have that much ... there might be a box of Guylians Seashells in the bedside drawer of your bedroom upstairs actually from when I was sleeping in there the other week.

Linda: Oh. I know her dirty secrets.

Katrina Ruth: What else do I like? What would I like for a gift?

Linda: Onions.

Katrina Ruth: No fucking onions.

Linda: No onions.

Katrina Ruth: Send a criovacced fillet. Buffalo. I'd like some bison. Send some freaking Canadian meat please. We got plenty of sweets here already.

Linda: What kind of meat are we talking about?

Katrina Ruth: Bison. Brandon sent me a bison. Send it criovacced, or whatever the word is. You know where it's shrink wrapped.

Linda: You're asking me meet questions?

Katrina Ruth: I'm sorry.

Linda: How dare you?

Katrina Ruth: I'll take some bordeaux, some seashell chocolates, I'll take a bison, please have it sliced first, I don't wanna have to deal with that, and I'll take another cape.

Linda: There's one here.

Katrina Ruth: Rainbow colour like Josephs technicolour dream coat. And I need a new sceptre. This one's looking wonky.

Linda: Is that what's it's called?

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. It's a sceptre.

Linda: I didn't know that.

Katrina Ruth: It looks a little wonky.

Linda: English is my third language, so I'm still learning.

Katrina Ruth: Third?

Linda: Mm-hmm (affirmative)-

Katrina Ruth: What's the second one then?

Linda: Swedish is first.

Katrina Ruth: Oh Swedish.

Linda: Yeah. I went to a Swedish school and Finnish is second. English is third.

Katrina Ruth: English is my first language. I have other languages too.

Linda: Like?

Katrina Ruth: Nobody knows I speak other languages. I'm listening to you always when you're speaking and you think I can't understand you. I'm reading your sales pages too in your other languages. I know many things. Many things.

Linda: She speaks the language of the soul.

Katrina Ruth: And I would like ... I would really like a purple MacBook. This is rose gold, which is quite nice.

Linda: Is there a purple one?

Katrina Ruth: Somebody can organise it for me, I think. Can somebody organise it? I want a purple one to match all my purple.

Linda: Well, you can have anything you want.

Katrina Ruth: Hot pink as well. I want a hot ... Somebody send me a hot pink MacBook, PO BOX 861 Surfers Paradise, Queensland 4217, and I'll take a purple one.

Linda: Can you just send it ... can we order two? I'd like one too.

Katrina Ruth: Linda wants one too.

Linda: I want a purple one too.

Katrina Ruth: "What about a sequin dress?" They're scratchy, but I've got that silver one that I wore on my photo shoot [crosstalk 01:01:12].

Linda: That was hot.

Katrina Ruth: That's upstairs stuffed into a small bag.

Linda: That was amazing. It was like this almost.

Katrina Ruth: It's more bling bling. I feel like there's one important gift that I'm missing.

Linda: A man?

Katrina Ruth: No. I already know exactly where that is, don't worry. That's it then. I'm gonna go. I'm gonna go check my PO BOX and see what gifts I've received.

Katrina Ruth: Alright. Well, I feel like we covered nothing at all that we intended to but as normal it was amazing. Please read the pinned comment if you like to learn how to do business like this. I don't know if it was the best advertisement ever. Do read the pinned comment, read about everything.

Linda: Just do whatever you want.

Katrina Ruth: Have an amazing rest of the day. We're gonna go and talk about many things about ya know.

Katrina Ruth: Don't forget, life is now, press play.

Linda: Bye bye.

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