Katrina Ruth: Hi. Hello, hello, hello, Facebook, YouTube, everywhere, the internet, the world, the universe, the galactiverse. I think that's not a word.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, I'm going to put my ear pods in. Can you hear me? Maybe I'm not going to put them in. I feel suspicious that these are not my ear pods. I'm sure my container was not all dirty and mucked up like this. That's kind of gross. I hope that I haven't taken somebody else's ear pods accidentally. Why are they so bashed up looking.

Katrina Ruth: Alright. I'm going to wait for people to get on. Look at me sitting by the lake, feeling special. Who's here? Leave me a comment, tell me you're hear so that I know you're with me. Hello, welcome to my world, this is my world today. This is my office. My office is anywhere, any place, any time, my office is my soul. That's the only thing I need is my soul, and I carry it with me always, and I access it continually purely through the process of tuning in.

Katrina Ruth: Isn't it a beautiful winter's day? I'm going to get my sweater off in a moment for sure because it's actually getting quite warm. But it's so fricking' cold in the mornings here, or it's probably not cold for a lot of the rest of the world, but considering that this is our winter and people still walk around in their swimwear half the time on the beach in winter here on the Gold Coast, when we get a little chilly and you need to put a sweater on in the mornings, you just feel outraged. You just feel like, what is happening? What's going on in the world? It's so fucking cold.

Katrina Ruth: So this morning was icy, and we went to an outdoor café for breakfast, and my kids were just shaking and cold. It was cold. It was icy to the bones while we were sitting eating breakfast and I said to them, I'm like ... They were complaining, "Why can't we go somewhere and do this?" I'm like, "Because you're building inner strength. Embrace the coldness. Embrace it. Become a warrior by eating in the cold." And now it's beautiful and warm.

Katrina Ruth: So just had an appointment here. Oh you can't see, but there's a building across the other side of this little lily pond lake. I just had a pretty intense personal appointment and then I have this small little gap before I go to get to my next appointment and so I thought why would I not come and sit here and livestream by the lake? It's so beautiful. It might become a habit when I come here.

Katrina Ruth: Thank you, regarding the hair. So with my hair ... Okay, there we go, I'm getting warmed up. I'm getting the livestream body-temperature raising thing which always happens, maybe partly from sitting in the sun as well. With the hair, I can't decide whether I'm ... am I just on the right side of trashy or am I just on the wrong side of trashy? I'm not sure.

Katrina Ruth: I want to talk about exposing yourself. I feel quite exposed right now. I don't mean physically. I don't feel particularly exposed physically right now. I feel open and raw and vulnerable and a bit shaky like I could almost cry because I was almost crying 30 or 40 minutes ago because I was just in an appointment with a child psychologist. So I've started to go and see ... I think this was my second appointment by myself with her and I took my two kids on two separate times, took them separately, so that's the fourth time I've met her. No, it's good. It's all good.

Katrina Ruth: I decided to do a few appointment with a child psychologist for my children because they've been going through a hard time with their dad and I separating and divorcing and all of that, which has been going on for ages now anyway, so maybe I could or should have done this earlier, and there is no should. And part of me was like, do I want to do that? How do I know that I align with that way of growth work or whatever else? But then in the end I'm like, well, growth work is about ... growth and life and messaging and art and all these things are about being open to learning and open to not being the expert.

Katrina Ruth: And I know that when it comes to my kids I have a lot of ideas about how to consciously communicate and what I feel is important ... mermaid hair, thank you ... and what I think I can do to best support them and their dad and I are really on the same page as far as really wanting to support each other and co-parent in a way that is conscious and where we are communicating well and where we are putting the children first. Sometimes we're good at that and sometimes we're not that good at it. Sometimes we explode and it's super fucking volatile and full-on. Love you too, Kelly, bestie, #bestie.

Katrina Ruth: So yeah I decided a while back that I would go and see a child psychologist and that I would be open to that and be open to allowing somebody else to tell me what's up, which is a hard thing for me to do as you might be able to imagine. And then it took me for sure another few months to get around to it and to finally choose that person who I felt that I could vibe with and who I felt that I would choose to trust. And so I did that and really am enjoying the connection with her, and I feel that this is perfect and this is what it [inaudible 00:05:23] is meant to be. And who knows how long we'll do that for.

Katrina Ruth: But what's great is that we're all coming together to look at how we can continue on our separate pathways as parents and as individuals while still sort of continuing together because that's just the reality, isn't it? When you have a child, or in my case two children with somebody and then you're not being together anymore and haven't been for nearly two years now, but you are still together, and you'll always be together as parents.

Katrina Ruth: So for me it feels really something that I'm very grateful for. It feels amazing to me to actually be at this point where we can do this sort of thing. And I went by myself today, and he'll go in a few weeks, and then we'll probably go together and then learn together the best ways that we can support our children and help them to understand their feelings and help them to feel safe and all of that sort of stuff, spiritual guide stuff. Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: So that's what I've been up to. And it got pretty raw and pretty emotional for me today just bringing up I guess a bit more of my story and sharing some of the behind the scenes for her, for the psychologist's sake so that she could understand a little bit more of how we ended up separating and how that came about. And her primary role is to help us to communicate effectively together in order to support our children as parents. So it's not like it's anything to do with our relationship, except that it is because obviously our relationship impacts the kids. And kids not only hear things and see things but they read energy the same as all of us.

Katrina Ruth: So for me something that's really important, and I think for any parent, not just me, that my kids feel safe, right? I want them to feel safe, and you can see when they say things and there's an underlying anxiety there or an underlying uncertainty or that sort of thing. So it's a very raw, open thing to be doing. It is something so amazing to be on the same page to be doing this together.

Katrina Ruth: Quite honestly if you had of said to me before we broke up that we would've ended up on the same page to be able to communicate like this and learn to grow together like this and do something like this, I would've said there's no fucking way. I would've said I flat out don't believe you. That's just not how it's going to be with us. That's not how it is. It was so fricking' volatile. It was so full on. It was so traumatic for everybody involved. I would've flat out said it's not possible.

Katrina Ruth: So I'm saying that because I know that there's a lot of people who follow me who do see or observe or have some sort of an understanding of how committed he and I are together to our co-parenting, and I don't speak about it a lot, but I have had people say things to me like, "That would never happen with my partner," or, "I wish that it could be like that," or something. And I just want to reassure you that that is something you can actually manifest and call in just like anything else. I manifested that. I decided. Even years ago, I started to journal how it would be. I journaled the separation and the split well before it happened to be honest with you.

Katrina Ruth: And even as I was journaling how I wanted it to be with the conscious communication and being able to ... I remember writing things like I want us to be able to spend time together and for that to be a happy time for the kids and at the time my mind was like, that is fucking impossible. It was like, bullshit, there is no way that that will happen or could happen and now it does. And we definitely still have our ups and downs and both of us will at times need to then say sorry or whatever it might be, but we also have a lot of amazing experiences together for the kids on the [inaudible 00:08:49] that we are on the same side of the country because currently he still lives on the other side of the country.

Katrina Ruth: So anyway, that was a little bit about my morning. And I was feeling so open and you know when you just feel that raw, shaky, slightly exposed type feeling. So I thought to myself I've got this 20 or 30 minute window before I've got another appointment coming up. And I was like well, I could livestream because it's really beautiful by the lake here but I felt like I felt shaky and not really in that state to be on a Facebook Live. And then I just thought to myself, but that's the whole thing that I'm teaching and preaching every day and that's the whole thing that I even wrote about.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, there is the biggest ass ant on my phone right now. It's crawling across where my face is. It is huge, it is a gigantic ant. Does that mean there's big ants down here that are going to bite me? I hope not. He's just crawling all over the tripod this ant. He's exploring.

Katrina Ruth: Anyway. I wrote about this this morning. I wrote my blog post which I only just posted. Actually I had my team post that for me but I sent it to them to post and that was on getting a little weird, getting a little ... What did I say? Get a little weird, get a little fucked up, get a little naked and show it to the world. I was very happy with that blog post title. If you didn't read it, you gotta read the blog and you gotta watch the video clip that went up with the blog. It's fucking hilarious, but it's such a great message. The clip is kind of separate to the blog. The clip's from a livestream a couple of weeks ago ... Oh you could see it, could you? How funny.

Katrina Ruth: When I wrote the blog this morning, I referenced the layers. We all have these layers. We have the Facebook layer that we present to the world. We have fear layer. We have a resentment or an anger layer. We have sadness layer. And at our core, we know and believe in who we are and we know that we're here to impact the world and we know that we have a powerful message to share with the world. And so I was writing about in my blog and then that's exactly what I did on this kind of [inaudible 00:10:44] skit a few weeks ago, so I ended up putting the [inaudible 00:10:45] video with the blog but they are two separate pieces of content, they just work well together. So anyway, go check that out.

Katrina Ruth: But I thought to myself as I came out of the consultant rooms just over there, I'm like, well I can't very well write about being raw ... I did reference the chocolate layer, don't worry. Fear not. I can't very well write about being raw and exposing yourself and sharing your soul with the world and getting a little weird or a little fucked up or a little naked then showing it to the world. I can't really do that and then come out of a very personal and, not upsetting but I felt upset, revealing appointment such as the one that I just had.

Katrina Ruth: [inaudible 00:11:21] just dropped the comment in there about Empress, if you saw that pop up. The ant is just having the best time ever right now, he's hanging off the edge just underneath the camera.

Katrina Ruth: I can't write that stuff and then come out and I feel exposed and I feel a little torn open and then say to myself, oh, well, I wont' go on a Facebook live now. What, am I going to wait until I feel like Mrs. Badass again? Ms. Badass, not Mrs. Am I going to wait to feel like the queen of the bad asses again and I'm on fucking fire and giving people shit and being aggressive and going into my super flow, which I did quite a lot of on my livestream last night which was such an amazing livestream, one of my best live streams this year I think, the one I did in my bed last night, can I? I can't do that. I'm either practising what I preach or I'm not, and I'm either being an example to you that you can show up in any state in any way in any time and just be who you are and that that's all part of it, or I'm not. I'm being a hypocrite.

Katrina Ruth: So that's why I decided to come on and go live. And, by the way, I wasn't planning to tell you that whole story about the psychologist either, that just popped out of my mouth. I was just going to reference feeling a little bit exposed or a little bit shaken up and then the message always fricking' takes over, as it does. And one of the things that I teach with all my private clients, and really with all my content, my free content, my paid content, my group programmes, you name it, but also specifically in Empress ... and there's a comment that's just gone in a couple minutes ago by Empress ...

Katrina Ruth: Oh, Anna, you know that blog was for you. You know I sat on the steps over there and I said to you, I'm sitting at the lily pad lake and then I answered your Voxer audio, it was the last one I listened to. And then I thought I've got 15 minutes before my appointment, and then I'm like what am I going to write about? I've got nothing to write about. So I just jumped on to what I've been saying to my inner circle private client, Anna, and that's where that whole blog came from. I wrote it so fast. I was like a whirling dervish, I typed that blog in 15 minutes. The reception ladies over there were like, "Holy shit." Well, they didn't say "holy shit." They were like, "You type so fast."

Katrina Ruth: Anyway, one of the things that I specifically really seek to impart to my private clients especially, because obviously they are the ones that I speak to more and have a more intimate connection with but also do let it come out through all my content as I'm saying right now, is you've got to expose all of you. You have got to realise that what's going to get your art out there, what's going to get your message out there, what is going to get you out there and have people just falling in love with you where they're not just following you, but they're bingeing on you, they're gorging on you. They want to feel your soul touch theirs, they want to come into your energy and come into your presence and melt into you. And let's be honest, we want that, we who were born as messengers and leaders, we do want that.

Katrina Ruth: The thing that's going to allow that is you being willing to expose all of you, right? Not just when you feel vulnerable or raw or a bit shaken up like me right now, but also not just when you're on fire and you're being the queen of the world and you're in super flow and you feel lit up and you feel super confident. That's awesome, but who walks around feeling like that all the time? Certainly not me. I do get into that state pretty frequently, maybe more so than, I would say for sure more than, the typical person out there. And that's great. I really love being in that charged, lit-up, don't-fuck-with-me state of feeling so on power and on purpose. But I've got to be willing to be all that I am and I've also got to be willing to show all that I am to you, otherwise I'm not being fair, actually.

Katrina Ruth: It would be very unfair for me to imply that having this level of success depends upon always having some super lit-up charged energy state where you feel confident and certain of yourself. It's about this is who I am in this moment. This is who I am today. This is how my soul is showing up today, and you know what? I can always create art from that place. There's always flow to be found in the struggle or in the resistance or in the uncertainty or in the doubt or in sadness. Any of these things still get to have flow inherent in them, and they always have art inherent in them. Your art is a reflection of you.

Katrina Ruth: This is the biggest thing to understand about art. Your art is ... In some ways it is it's own entity, I talk quite a lot about the message in the art being it's own entity. Let the message be the message, let the art be the art, you get the fuck out of the way and let it do it's thing. But it is also, obviously, it's filtered through you. You are the filter that it goes through. It weaves it's way through and it sinks through and you seep into it and it seeps into you.

Katrina Ruth: And so if you don't let it out when you're in this sort of energy state and you're feeling whatever you're feeling ... Or you're just feeling unsure, or you're maybe questioning yourself and you're feeling like maybe I'm too weird, maybe I'm too much. Maybe my particular style or brand of being weird is not cool enough. Like yeah, crazy is good, weird is good but so long as it fits into this particular box of coolness or badassery. No. That's bullshit and you know it. You've got to be willing to own all that you are and to realise and recognise and understand that the way people are going to follow you and resonate with you is when you let it all out.

Katrina Ruth: There's no 99% letting it out. You're either showing who you are or you're not and it really is about being willing to get up every day and expose your weirdness and your fucked-up-ness and your craziness and your naked bare soul to the world and to feel that ... You know, I stood over there and you feel that feeling of, ugh, do I really want to do this? Like I don't really feel in my zone right now, or I feel upset or whatever, so am I going to do this? Well, am I committed to my art? Yes or no?

Katrina Ruth: And of course there's no rule that you've always got to get on and livestream about it or write about it when shit's going on in your life or where there's something that feels emotional. But at the same time, what are you being guided to do from inside? For me a simple way that I choose what I'm going to say or share or put out there is is it coming through me? That's it. Amy says, "You're in my brain."

Katrina Ruth: So in Empress, which is four weeks one on one with me and it starts next Monday, June 25, US time. There's a comment here which talks all about it which Mim has put up. Hang on, where are my comments going. In Empress, this is exactly what we do. Okay, I've somehow managed to lose my comments and I can only see my own comment. Oh, there they are, they're back again. In Empress this is exactly what we do. This is a four week intensive which is a programme of sorts that I've created just for private clients and then it's unlimited one on one with me as well, hand in hand with that. It is an incredibly transformative four week period. It's 100% about the energy and the vibration. Soul Shifts and Money Making really is a theme that underpins that entire four weeks.

Katrina Ruth: You know [inaudible 00:18:00] it's about knowing that people are meant to pay just to be in your presence, yeah, you're that fucking good. And you are. You know how powerful you are. But it's about realising that all the things that so many people are seeking to achieve online, like building a following and getting paid and knowing what to sell and knowing how to sell it and knowing how to get that backend income coming in and all that stuff, that all of that is going to come as a result of you being in the energy state that you're meant to be in. You owning who you are and owning what it is that your soul needs and desires in order to be in a level of power that is magnetic to others.

Katrina Ruth: Thank you, Erin. Erin says, "I love how authentic and present your energy is right now." And that's exactly ... That's a great comment. I appreciate it so much. That comment reflects exactly what I'm teaching, right? People can feel when we're being true. People can feel when we're being authentic. People can feel when we're being ourselves. A lot of people love that I'm kind of crazy or I'm over the top. I do my little shenanigans scenes and I'm aggressive and I'm known for that and that sort of thing. But people also see other sides of me, maybe some sides less often than others, for sure. But they see all of me and they see that it's real, so there's a magnetism and an attraction there that you just can't create by trying to be good at internet marketing.You're not going to build a business that way. You're not going to build a following.

Katrina Ruth: Somebody asked today in one of my groups how to be engaging, and my smart-ass quippy answer was ... "How do I get more engagement?" They asked, in my groups, and my smart-ass, quippy response was, "By being fucking engaging." That's how. I think my phone just turned the volume off. The volume button's like right there where the tripod thing is. Fuck it. And the only way to be engaging and the only way to truly build a following and have people want to purchase from you over and over again, and for you to build the business that you want, make the money and also have the impact, is you're going to have to be who you actually are. You're going to have to let the weird out, the crazy out, the madness, but the raw of it as well.

Katrina Ruth: It's not about trying to be super cool or super badass or super aggressive or whatever else. Lik if you maybe watch how I show up and you think it's about putting on a show and being this larger than life character and that sort of thing, well, that's all something that's in me. That's one side of me that's probably a big part of me and that's why it comes out a lot on a lot of my content because if you would see me hanging out with my closest besties, my best friends, or my siblings and my parents, for example, I am like that. Like I get super loud and super silly, we actually all do. It's quite the conundrum because everybody thinks that they're the most hilarious and should be in charge.

Katrina Ruth: So that's all real but then so is this, so is me being in a really raw state or a really open state or a really vulnerable state. And then so is whatever else shows up later today and tomorrow and the only way that I've been able to build this following is because I stopped trying to fucking figure out how to build a following and make money. Every time I put my energy into that it was just a wasted venture. It was going down the wrong fucking rabbit hole and it was exhausting as well, and I didn't enjoy it. And every time I've reminded myself just be who I am in that moment but be all of it.

Katrina Ruth: And feel that little flicker as I did on the other side of the lake. Feel that like, really, are you really going to go live now when you're feeling that way and then I wasn't even planning to tell the damn story and then I did? Are you really going to do that? And you feel it and you hesitate and you're teetering right there on the edge and it's like, well, but who are you? Who did you say that you came here to be. I know that my work here in the world is to impact through my message and through what's in my soul. Well, I can't very well do that if I'm not willing to expose my soul and expose my art.

Katrina Ruth: And so what I'm here to do and to impact you with today but, again, with Empress, as I keep kind of talking about it and then forgetting and going off on a tangent, is to really impact and empower you to let all of that out and to have you perhaps for the first time fully acknowledge that that is where the successes come from. Please don't message me about Empress if you're thinking that learning this energy stuff and learning the vibrational work and learning to step into the true power of your soul is like some kind of plugin. It's not a fucking WordPress plugin into your business. It's not an add-on. It's not, okay, I'm learning internet marketing and I'm learning sales funnels and I'm learning strategy and I'm learning all these join the dots things and I guess I'll learn a little bit about this energy thing and see what Kat has to say and I want to work with her one on one or whatever. It's not that.

Katrina Ruth: The reason that you would be called to work with me at this level in Empress would be because you understand on a soul level that this is where it comes from. It comes from fully exposing all that's in you but not just when it's fricking comfortable and when you feel like it's cool or badass enough. So if that's something that might be speaking to you, then I'd really encourage you to read the pinned comment that's here. It does describe quite a bit about it. It talks about the things that you've always known that you're called, that you know it's not just about being a coach, you know it's not about learning the right way to do it. You know that it's about letting what's inside of you out. And there's a little bit of a description about what we do. But the real description and overview of that four weeks, as well as the cool bonus shit that comes along with that and how it all works to mentor with me one on one, that description is what I will send you when you message me.

Katrina Ruth: So the thing to do is to message me, ideally on my personal Katrina Ruth page and just send me a message, "Hey, Kat. I want the Empress details." And then I'll send you through an overview. I'll have a couple of questions for you at the end, just to do with what's speaking to you and what's coming through in your soul and then we just go back and forth and if it's a fit, awesome. And if not, then that's okay as well. I have already sold quite a few places now. We are starting next Monday. It will sell out. These intensives always sell out when I do a one on one intensive because I just make them such a hell-yes, no-brainer offer as far as the deal and the investment and also because I do obviously keep the places strictly limited given that it's one on one mentoring. So that's about Empress. Read the comment, message me, and we'll get into a conversation around that.

Katrina Ruth: But then, putting that aside, or whether you're putting that aside, whether or not that's speaking to you, the big thing that I'm trying to impart to you here and that I think I have imparted to you is give yourself permission to be all of you. Give yourself permission to let people see you regardless of what state in. Yes, it's scary. Of course, it's scary, of course it's confronting. Of course I have thoughts cross my mind when I'm saying all that about who is going to watch that? Which people are going to watch that who might judge me or judge that I'm sharing it? Maybe they're going to judge me, maybe they're going to judge that I'm speaking about things that are personal or whatever it is. And I have all of those same sort of thought as anybody else every single day in some way shape or form. Sometimes about fear of rejection.

Katrina Ruth: Gosh, last night somebody who's in my actual following told me I was an awful singer when I sang live on my livestream last night. And then it was like, okay, funny, but then it did hurt as well. And then I did find myself feeling like, oh, well maybe it is bad and then I did listen to it again later. I'm like, fuck, it really was bad, which I already knew that I'm not the worlds most gifted singer. But then I noticed there was a thought process in my head that came from that like, oh I probably shouldn't do that again because it's actually really fucking embarrassing. It's such terrible singing. And so you have ... And I probably still will though because I see that and then I put it aside.

Katrina Ruth: But my point is don't look at me or look at anybody who you maybe learned from in some way or inspired by in some way and think that this person doesn't experience all the human emotions and the ups and downs and wanting people to like them and wanting people to think they're good enough or worthy enough or cool enough. God, my whole life all I wanted to do was to be cool. I just wanted people to think that I was cool when I was growing up, and now people think I'm cool, which is kind of funny to me a lot of the time because I'm so nerdy really, if you got to know me. And how that happened though was I chose to own it, right? I chose to own who I really am. I chose to own that piece of me that was inside of me that wanted to come out.

Katrina Ruth: So I want to encourage you, fricking own the piece of you that's inside of you that wants to come out. Bring it into the light. What do you know you need to share today? Please do it. Leave me a comment below. Tell me your thoughts. Leave me a love or a comment or something if this resonated with you, and then have a read about Empress. I'd love to see you in there if it's speaking to you. Message me and I'll reply to you sometime today in between running around doing a million things before I head off to the US tomorrow. Show up. Show all the way up. Let out the weirdness, let out the madness, let out the fuckery. Your brand of weirdness and fucked up and naked-soul truth is exactly what the world needs, and don't forget, life is now. Press play.

Katrina Ruth: Well, we're going to have to celebrate my hair 'cause now everybody's seen my hair for the first time as well. Ooh, it says I missed a call from Billy Jean. Okay. Hang on. Is anyone jumping on? The cape definitely looks better with the purple outward not the gold, right? 'Cause if I have the gold out, it looks kinda like a weird fish skin. Don't you think?

Matt: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. It's been decided.

Matt: You do the best, I think.

Katrina Ruth: All right, everybody can take screenshots of me now. Ready? Screenshot. So that I can use it later for a blog post. Hello, people. Actually, I was ... Oh, Alicia has a cape just like that. Of course, why would you not?

Katrina Ruth: Well, I was having an important dilemma, it was a serious dilemma. I'm here to film very professional and important sales videos. We're here to film a sales video for Empress and so I'm supposed to be in proper filming mode, not livestreaming, and then I just thought, "Well, I gotta livestream it as well, 'cause it would be inappropriate not to."

Katrina Ruth: But then the problem was ... here's the problem, you understand my dilemma. I wanted to put my cape on because I'm doing a sales video for Empress. Okay? So, if you're going to do a sales video for Empress, you're gonna wear a cape. But then, then, here's the big problem, I just had my hair done.

Katrina Ruth: Ah, celebrate. Actually, it doesn't even look as pink as it is on this livestream, the whole thing is pink, only the top looks pink, but the top is extra pink and the lower bit is somewhat pink.

Katrina Ruth: Billy Jean! We're gonna be partying it up next week at your house. There he is. Or wherever it is. Okay, so that's the problem. The problem is: how do I solve this problem? I wanna show my pink hair off and I wanna wear my cape as well because I'm filming a serious video for my programme, for Empress. So I don't know what to do about that. I can try leave it like that but then I have to not breathe and not move. How do I look over on this camera? Good?

Matt: Good.

Katrina Ruth: Where am I showing from? From here?

Matt: There.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, that's fine then.

Matt: A little bit higher up.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, well, that's under control. It's all under control. And then the other problem is, I don't know what's up with these curly curls.

Matt: I'm gonna try fix that mic as well, just the cord.

Katrina Ruth: Fix it. Fix it all. Hello. It's gonna be happening in San Diego town next week.

Matt: Coming through there.

Katrina Ruth: What's going on? You know you have to say hello to the camera if you're just gonna appear with your arm in there. Of course the chair is pink, it's a throne. Actually, that's a good system, isn't it? With one arm out.

Katrina Ruth: Curls look great. I didn't want curls, I wanted messy-messy. Then I said to my ... well, it's going messy it's 'cause I only just had it done, we'll let it go, we'll let it do its thing, we'll let it get messy. We got plenty of filming to get to. We're creating much content. It's 1:11 pm, everyone have a moment of silence, it's currently 1:11.

Katrina Ruth: Have you seen Empress? Can someone on my team drop a comment about Empress? Drop me the Empress [inaudible 00:03:06]. I didn't tell them I'm going live. Empress C-T-A-A-S-A-P on live. Oh my God, I just wrote Empess C-T-S-A-S-A-P on live. Empress. So, I said to my ... and I was being serious though, I'd already titled this livestream and I titled it ... See, do you know why I did that? Why I said to you you had to say hello to the camera? I was like, "Let me see how many seconds it takes before somebody says 'Matt's cute.'" That's already come up. Sorry Meagan, I was just using you as a guinea pig. It's fun for me.

Matt: How old is Meagan?

Katrina Ruth: How old are you? He wants to know. Where are you? Are you on the Gold Coast? Can you come over today? That's basically what he was asking. So, anyway, where did I get the cape? I don't know. The ninjas got it for me. I could ask my sister, ask Jessa.

Katrina Ruth: So, I had titled this livestream about Empress, 'cause it's supposed to be a sales video, and then I had actually said to Matt, "You know, at a certain point in business, your primary problem is ..." She's in Perth, she can get here in six hours, she says. How old are you? You didn't answer the question.

Katrina Ruth: For real though. Okay, enough about that, enough about that. At a certain point in business, your primary problem really is which way should I wear my cape? Should I wear it down, off my shoulders? But then I look just like ... I don't know, what do I look like? Snow White? Snow White. Or should I wear it gold or purple or this way, half of it?. I think it's this way.

Katrina Ruth: And then I thought, "What a great title for a livestream: How do you get to a place in your business where your number one dilemma is: which way do I wear my cape?" Well, how you get there is you step into your Empress energy and power. Hi [Mim 00:04:52], sorry, I forgot to tell you I was going live. It was spontaneous. It was an impulse buy, just like the Mercedes convertible. Impulse movements.

Katrina Ruth: We're gonna talk about Empress. We're now gonna do an important sales video. Mim has conveniently just dropped the comment in there. I want to let you know something that I ... why does somebody send me an angry face? Who is that? I'm going to track them down. I can sing. I can sing. What do you want me to sing? Cliff wants me to sing. I don't know if I wanna sing on the sales video. I'm gonna go block this dude. I'll do that later.

Katrina Ruth: I was saying to the camera before I got onto this camera, I was saying to the other camera, when you're gonna do a sales video ... 'Cause in theory I was just gonna do like a three to five minute little thing for Matt to make into a pop up real video as opposed to this live video that's happening here. That's not a filter, that's me. Look at me. Thanks, Karen.

Katrina Ruth: And I said to him, "We wanna make sure that we don't just cut out the serious professional bit from this livestream, assuming that there is one that happens at some point. We wanna include the rambles and the silliness and the shenanigans." Why? Why? Say it with me. Cause people don't buy your products, they buy you. No way. People don't buy you, they buy your energy. That is a real thing. Give me a love heart shower if you know that's a real thing. People do not buy your products, they buy you. Nope, they don't even buy you. That's not true. Because which you are you being? Maybe. Maybe they'll want to buy the sad sack who only shows like your surface based version of yourself to the internet. Who's like, "Well, I hope that people like me and I hope that I'm gonna be interesting, and I hope that my content is unique and powerful and glamorous."

Katrina Ruth: Oh no, that is not a pink hair filter. That's actual pink hair. Pink hair filter? That'd be the lazy version, wouldn't it?

Katrina Ruth: People don't want that surface version of you. Maybe your loved ones do but honestly, I think if you go around delivering your careful safe version of yourself, even your loved ones, after a little bit of time are gonna be like, "This bitch is getting boring." Right? So, it's not technically true that people buy you, even though, yeah, we're all lovable and worthy in all our different energy states, but people buy your energy. They do. They wanna be around those who are magnetic, lit up, I'm gonna say, alive. I'm deliberately looking at this camera over here so if you see me ignoring you, that's what's happening.

Katrina Ruth: They wanna tap into the energy of somebody who feels alive. Am I right? Am I right? I'm right. So, for example, for example, if you go to a party or you go to the gym or you go to any place, I was going to say the airport but you don't tend to see that many charismatic people there, they're probably hiding in the lounge. No, they're not even in the lounge. Somewhere where you go. And there's that one person who's just magnetic in their energy. And maybe they have amazing posture as well because I feel like that's definitely a thing with charismatic people. They just compel you to them. You're drawn into their space. You might be a little bit intimidated, you might feel like, "Who is that person? Can I get close enough?" It's kind of like how close can I go to the sun? I probably shouldn't go too close, it might be scary or it might burn me but at the same time I just can't look away. It's fucking amazing and I'm compelled and I'm drawn in. Yes? Yes.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, we're back over here again. All right, so the point of that is: if you're on the internet, it's a place where you can sell things if you've not heard of it. If you're on the internet and you're like, "Here's my thing, buy my thing. Let me tell you the fabulous [dot 00:08:27] points of my thing and why you should buy my thing." And then maybe you're following the rules as well. You've definitely read the rules, right? You've read the rules? Cool.

Katrina Ruth: So the rules are ... actually, I don't know 'cause I never paid attention. But the rules are something like: follow some dots and join some dots and dots some I's and cross some t's and do it like the other people and be a good little zombiepreneur. Those are the rules and then you think to yourself, "I gotta make sure it looks right, it's gotta be polished, it's gotta be presented, it's gotta be exactly just so."

Katrina Ruth: And if I manage to master this fabulous strategy, people are gonna buy my shit because everybody knows that the way to make millions of dollars is to follow the rules properly and do it right and essentially guide people like they're horses on a equestrian adventure, race track, that's definitely a thing ... a pony club, right? It is a thing. So they're going through the hurdles, like kids at school or horses at pony club. And if you get them to jump over the right hurdles and then go through a hoop and then do a little backward roll and a forward roll and a spin, then they're gonna pay you money and you're gonna make millions of dollars.

Katrina Ruth: That's roughly what people seem to think its about on the internet. Its quite hilarious, actually, when you think about it that people actually believe that that's how you're gonna make money if you do it correctly. No. They're going to buy from you for the same reason that when we go to an event and there's a charismatic, amazing, magnetic as fuck interesting person there, we can't look away and we're drawn in and we're curious and we wanna know about that person, who is that person, how can I get closer to that person or that person's attractive in their energy which makes them obviously attractive in all other ways as well.

Katrina Ruth: My point being, isn't it time to claim your rightful place? Isn't it time to step up and be the version of you who you know you are meant to be being? Isn't it time to drop the Coach cloak? This is not a Coach cloak, this is an Empress cloak. Isn't it time to drop the Coach cloak? The "Let me do it right doing dots and make money on the internet" approach to marketing is not working for you, it's never gonna work for you, it never does work for anyone is the truth of the matter. But somebody's fucking good at selling that dream because everybody's keeps jumping into it or it's clearly just a shit pool situation.

Katrina Ruth: It's a lemming situation. Everyone's like, "Oh, I can see that everybody's on the internet like that. I'm gonna go do it like that." Even though they're all fucking falling off the cliff and dying. So, all of which is to say, Empress is open for registration. We begin very soon. Very, very soon. Places are already selling. I'm about to start bringing my Empress energy to compel and call in your Empress energy.

Katrina Ruth: At the end of the day, the details of this don't matter. You don't need to read the details. You could read the details. I'll give you the details through and I'll attach it to this video or if you're listening to this live, it's in the pinned comment over here. Obviously the details don't matter. You know if my soul is speaking to yours. You know if the thing that is missing as to why you've not been making money online yet is that you haven't been in the energy state. You're trying to sell a product or a fucking opt-in or a landing page or a sales page or some bullshit dream based on nothing and you're not fully giving people your soul.

Katrina Ruth: People will buy from you when they connect with what's going on in here. And when that happens, they won't even care what the details are. They are literally going to pay to be in your presence and that statement, as ridiculous or diva-esque as what it sounds, is the reality of how I make my money, how my clients make their money and how you know you were born to make money. Now, that doesn't mean you're not doing anything. Actually, what you're doing, though, is being you. Why would it be of value for somebody to pay to be in your presence? Because it actually automatically elevates somebody from being in your presence.

Katrina Ruth: And because of the way that you've lived your life to the point where when you open your mouth, that shit impacts people. You can be at the hairdresser, you can be leaving somebody an audio in the car, you can be in the grocery store, you can be coaching a client, whatever's coming out of you is gold. And you're either willing and audacious enough to claim that about who you are as a person or maybe you do gotta go and do the [inaudible 00:12:34] preneur, zombiepreneur, join the dot, internet marketing thing. But you can't have it both ways.

Katrina Ruth: You're either, "This is who I am. I'm a fucking Emperess, I'm a queen." Whatever you wanna say, wear a cape, don't wear a cape, it doesn't matter. But you're either claiming that this is who I am and people wanna be around me for my energy or you should go all in on that plan over there. All in. All in on, "I'll do landing pages and I'll do sales pages and I'll join dots and I'll make a perfect little step-by-step system like a pony club racecourse or hoop course or whatever it is where when people go through it probably they're gonna magically buy my shit because I took them through a process and everyone knows that if you take people through a process that's why they give you money." Good luck with that.

Katrina Ruth: How's it working for you so far? So my point is, Empress is open. As I already said, I could have told you a whole bunch of things about what we cover, about the energy that we create and step into and activate from inside of you. About creating the Empress environment right through every aspect of your business life. About stepping into the next, next, next level version of you, who you know you're meant to be. Where it's already done, that have caused people to frickin' be around you in any way or space or place that they can be just because of who you are, could have given you all those details, I'll give them to you in written format.

Katrina Ruth: But what you really need to do is ask yourself a simple question: Am I here to build a business on the internet by putting one block on top of the other and hoping that it doesn't fucking come crashing down and praying on the fact that even if it doesn't come crashing down that just 'cause I built something, people are gonna pay me? Or am I ready to step into being who I was born to be and to unleash the full magnetic power of that in all its messy, random, chaotic, crazy, hilarious glory.

Katrina Ruth: And if it's the latter and if you're ready to throw off all of the chains that have bound you and kept you distracted by the idea that your success is based on doing shit right on Facebook, message me at my Katrina Ruth business or personal inbox here on Facebook or wherever you find it, and I'll get you all the details. We're beginning in just over a week, your soul already knows if this is for you. Four weeks, one on one with me, unlimited access, over $6,000 worth of bonuses, whole bunch of other shit, I'll give you the details, message me now. Have an amazing rest of the day and do not forget life is now, press play.

Katrina Ruth: All right, alter ego Boss Bitch. She still didn't tell us her age though but she said her alter ego is Boss Bitch. Okay, that was a sales video being made. Mixing it up. Mixing it up. Do I have anything else to say? I never said that last night, Jacqueline, that was totally Philippa who was making those rude comments yesterday. Now, I've just made a sales video, obviously as you can see, so you just watched it, though, so you don't hae to wait for the sales video to come out.

Katrina Ruth: But the main thing is, isn't my hair amazing? I mean that's really the main issue at hand here. New boobs, new hair, new Mercedes convertible, new house as well. It's all happening. But meanwhile, I'm gonna wait for the current house 'cause I'm gonna go to America on Tuesday. 25 but taken. Well, then, that was a fun conversation. We're gonna go. We have many things to film and to do. Do message me about Empress if it's speaking to you. I'm starting to really ramp it up because I deliberately didn't say the date there on that video because maybe I would reuse that video next time if I run it again.

Katrina Ruth: However, somebody asked me this morning, am I running Empress again and that they're thinking about for the next round or something. I'm gonna tell you straight up, please don't message me that shit because I live in the now. Right? I might be conscious of stuff like that from time to time if I'm making a video mainly 'cause I'm too fucking lazy to create content again if I already did it once. And it's a nice habit there but I don't make plans to run shit again. I don't have any fucking clue what I'm gonna be doing tomorrow, let alone in summer or whenever the next season is.

Katrina Ruth: I don't believe that business should be built on a marketing calendar or an editing calendar or rolling things out or knowing things in advance. And I also think that, for you, if something is speaking to you in your life, whether it's Empress, working with me one on one, and the details are here in the pinned comment on this livestream or whether its anything. Right? Like anything that's going on in your life. Maybe you wanna ask that person out or maybe you wanna go and try a different style of workout or maybe you wanna move to a different place or maybe you can't fucking decide whether you wanna go to the movies tonight or not. Whatever it is, why not get into the habit of saying yes to your soul right away? Huh?

Katrina Ruth: Are you feeling this? I feel like I'm gonna get my preacher mode on. Let's film this and we can incorporate it into that beach video that we're gonna do down there. You gotta leverage your content all the time. Ideally, you want somebody that follows you with a camera all the time, except when I experimented with that idea I just got really shitty about the idea of having somebody with me all the time so it didn't really work but once a week, it's good.

Katrina Ruth: So whatever it is that your soul is desiring, whatever it is that you're thinking about or you're like, "Maybe I'm gonna do this one day, maybe I'm gonna work with that amazing mentor one day or maybe I'm gonna get that dream car or that dream house or ask that person on a date or fucking go and learn how to dance or," I'm gonna do gymnastics, whatever it is. Why not get into the habit of saying yes to your soul right away? When you say yes to your soul, life says yes to you. That is the reality, right?

Katrina Ruth: And every time you hesitate, every time something comes through you and then you think to yourself, "This is for me, I know that I'm meant to have this or I know that this is part of what I'm meant to do, I know I'm meant to do this [card 00:18:03], I know I'm meant to step into that or claim it, it's mine, it's done, I'm manifesting it," and then you don't take action, you have seriously misunderstood the game of manifestation and probably of life.

Katrina Ruth: How it works is you say yes to your soul and you take immediate action. Or just fucking don't talk about it and find the shit that you wanna take action on right now. All right. [inaudible 00:18:28], we'll do something on the beach and incorporate it into it. I'm gonna get off this livestream. I can feel that the power is coming through me and I could totally livestream for another hour right now. But I won't 'cause we're gonna go film some stuff like I said. But my point is, don't message me about Empress and be like, "I'm waiting to see, I wanna know how much it is so that I can prepare for the next round," or some shit like that. Just say yes to what you wanna say yes to right now.

Katrina Ruth: How do I even know if there is a next round? Like I said, I don't even know what I'll be marketing tomorrow. Well, tomorrow, I'll probably still be Empress [inaudible 00:18:59] but next week, I'm not planning that shit in advance and it's a big part of what I'm teaching in Empress as well is for you to just let what's coming up come up and have the fucking trust and faith that that will work. Faith is a motherfucking choice, by the way.

Katrina Ruth: And true faith, true faith, oh my God, I'm getting the gold coming through now, true faith, as I was saying to a client this morning is if you fully trusted someone, like let's say maybe it's your partner or maybe a mentor or maybe a close friend or whoever it is. But if there's someone in your life and you fully trust and believe that that person has your back and then you also fully trust and believe that they know what the fuck they're on about, well, then, when they say something or suggest something, you just be like, "Okay," because you have that level of trust. And what if you had that level of trust in your own soul? That's something to think about.

Katrina Ruth: Then you wouldn't need to waste all this bullshit time dealing and [inaudible 00:19:56] and weighing up the pros and cons and asking 25,000 people for their fucking opinion. And you could get into the habit of just taking immediate action fast which is a critical part of success. If you can't take immediate action fast, you're gonna find it a very difficult thing altogether to make money on the internet or to really achieve anything of any note or credibility in your life. And when I say credibility, by the way, I mean according to your own values and standards.

Katrina Ruth: So, Empress, claim your rightful place now. Read about it in the pinned comment. If you're solely saying yes, message me, I'll get you a right old written overview, it's like an overview, it's like a description, it says things, there might even be some bullet points in there, I'm not sure. Tell you about the entire bonus programme you get which is an entire previously private client only, still private client only but it was sold for $6,000, you get that whole programme as well. You get unlimited access to me, we do start on Monday 25th, places are strictly limited and it is currently selling.

Katrina Ruth: Message me right here on my personal page for that. Have an amazing epic day. Why don't you go and unleash something on the fucking internet? Get your head out of your stupid funnels and your opt-in pages and you're worrying about what every other motherfucker is up to and go say something. That's how you're gonna build [inaudible 00:21:10], don't forget, life is now, press play.

Katrina Ruth: Well, good evening, hello? Welcome to the show. This is the Katrina Ruth Show, I am the Katrina Ruth Show. This is it, it’s happening. It’s going to happen. I don’t know what’s going to happen, anything, everything, nothing? Nothing and everything simultaneously is typically how it goes down. Where are my people at? Hello Donna? First person I’m seeing here today. Who is going to join me live, who’s going to join me for the replay? I may never know if you’re here for the replay. Or, I might know because I might come along and do the thing where I read the comments, and do the thing.

Katrina Ruth: Do you do the same where you read your comments afterwards? Do you do the thing ... you can admit it, do you do the thing that I do where you watch your own livestream replays? I watch my livestream replays, and I giggle. A lot of the time, I’m like, “God damn it, that’s gold.” Or sometimes I’m like, “That’s embarrassing. That’s a little bit awkward. It’s a little bit ... wish I didn’t have to see that, but too late. It’s already up there on the internet, better keep it there.” I do indeed watch my own livestream replays, or I listen to them while I’m driving. Then, often I’m like, “Oh my God, that’s so good, I should write that shit down.”

Katrina Ruth: I’m not overly talking myself up in saying that, it’s more so to do with the fact that I just channel, or I allow it to come through from my higher self, and ... let me just share this over to my group. Typically, I have no fucking clue what the hell I said basically. I don’t know what happened, I don’t remember. I remember whether I thought that it was good or not, that’s for sure. Anyway, hello, hello, hello, welcome to my bedroom here. I’m in bed, surrounded by black, silky cushions, and pink hair, how it should be. I had a little bit of trouble dealing with understanding how to do this whole thing of being online, live when you’re really tired, and you feel like you looked all washed out.

Katrina Ruth: I was adjusting my lighting a lot, and then, I don’t know, with the pink hair. Thank you, thank you for the compliments. I do like the way that it looks right now on my screen, but to be perfectly honest with you, I’ve been walking around all day feeling that it looks pretty skunky, and trashy. That I look like a little bit of a Bogan, which is to say a Redneck, or Chav, depending on where you are in the world. That’s how I’ve been feeling about it because it’s been kind of like, I don’t know, just crunched up, and then you’ve got all the tattoos going on. There’s a lot more than what you can see, they’re all over me. Then you’ve got pale, pasty skin. I know it doesn’t look like it, because it’s night time now. Then I don’t know, and then ... yeah, it just has felt like too much too muchness.

Katrina Ruth: So, I don’t know if I made a mistake with the pink hair or not, but it doesn’t fucking matter because it washes out in two weeks, whenever it freaking washes out, or not because they gave me a takeaway bottle of pink conditioner to take with me when I go to the US on Tuesday. So, then I just [inaudible 00:03:53] this pink hair. I got into so much trouble for my eight year old daughter for turning up with pink hair without warning her. It was like, “Not fair, I want pink hair.” I’m like, “Well then do it, man, who’s stopping you?” I want to talk about being fully spent. I want to talk about spending what’s inside of you. Expending your energy. Using it all up. Being spent. Being burnt out, but not in the way that people think.

Katrina Ruth: Being burned to the ground, so that you’ll lit up as fuck, and rising like a phoenix through the ashes of your life. I’m going to talk about that. I’m going to give you a pinned comment now about Empress. Empress is officially underway, properly selling now. Now that I’ve pulled my finger out, and put some energy behind it. There’s still eight days before we actually begin. Typically, what happens with this shit is that most people like to wait as long as possible in their lives before they press fucking play, which is something to say about something in terms of why most people don’t have the results that they want. So, usually what happens is three or four people sign up right away, which is what’s happened already. Shout out!

Katrina Ruth: There’s 20 places in total. It is one on one with me, four weeks. We are starting Monday, June 25th, US time. I’ve just put a pinned comment in all about it. You’ve got to PM me for the details about this. So, generally, when you release a high ticket thing, or really anything to be honest. It could be freaking $20, if you put it the same thing. 10% of people, or less. In this case, we’re going to say it’s a little bit more than 10% actually. So, let’s say 10% to 20%, maximum 20% of people sign up straight away. Boom! Then there’ll be 10% to 20% of people who sign up in the interim period, in the middle when there’s no real pressure or urgency. The only way these results are skewed if you’re launching something is if you offer some massive fast action, take a bonus for being one of the first five, or three, or 50, or whatever your thing is, right? Then that will incentivize people to be fast about it, which says a lot for human psychology.

Katrina Ruth: But typically, if you don’t do that, and you’ve just got a deadline, like the deadline is 20 places, but it’s also a start date, or the deadline is typically a start date, or maybe the deadline is a early bird price ending, or something like that. Then what you can expect in your launches, or in your promotions, whether it’s high ticket, low ticket, anything in between is that 10% to 20% of people are going to sign up straight away because, I’m going to say it, they’re like me, [inaudible 00:06:26] inner circle private clients. Inner circle are the ones who are fully like me. Up until then, [inaudible 00:06:37] of a degree, it’s a reality, right?

Katrina Ruth: So, those people are like, “Yes, boom, done.” Obviously, anyone who didn’t fucking see it, I’m not counting in these statistics, maybe they just didn’t see the damn thing, but I’m talking about people who saw it, and are thinking like, “Wheels are turning. Should I, shouldn’t I? Am I ready? Do I dare? Am I brave enough? Are the stars fucking aligned? Is my hair the right colour? Is it the right phase of the moon? Do I have in Kat? Do I have faith in myself? Do I have faith that I can press fucking play in my life? Maybe I’ll just think about it because probably I’ll get to the end of my life, and then I’ll be super, fucking happy that I waited as long as possible to press play on the things that are inside me.” That’s what people are doing.

Katrina Ruth: It’s a dilemma. So, then you get the next 10% to 20% that’s signed up though in the middle period. I don’t really have anything to say about their psychology, they just do. Then the rest of them, actually up to 80% of people will sign up in the final 48 hours, but even in the final 12 to 24 hours is pretty typical. So, I don’t know how I got into that, but Empress starts on June 25th, and what I’m expecting is that a couple of more fast action takers will get on board over the next day or two because I’m starting to really go all in talking about it, and bringing my empress energy to explain how powerful and transformation this four week one on one with me is.

Katrina Ruth: Then most people are probably going to sign up in the final few days, and nearly fucking miss out on next weekend, or they will miss out because it is a capped amount of places, and that’s just what would happen, that’s what does always happen with all my one on ones. So, it will happen, it will sell out, and then it will be done. That’s all fine, right? Because you could wait until the final minute to press play. You could accidentally die in between, it’s like waiting your whole life to live your fucking purpose or destiny, and thinking that you still have time. That’s a great philosophy, maybe you do, maybe you’re going to die though, or maybe you just don’t get to live your freaking life doing the shit that you’re meant to do in your life. That’s another consideration, which nobody, or few people seem to actually think about. It speaks to the topic of this title of this livestream, which I’m going to get into, or I am getting into in a different way than what I thought. Standard.

Katrina Ruth: But apart from that, well, in this particular example, the sooner you sign up, the better, because you get the $6000 bonus straight away when you sign up. You start to get that straight away. Then this pre-work that comes out, and then you get connection to me on my one on one private client channel as well. But nonetheless, most people will wait, and it is what it is, and that’s all it is. I don’t even say any of that to try and trigger anyone into taking faster action than what they otherwise would. Take the damn action that you’re meant to take in your life. Be the person who you are, but who are you really, and are you being that person? That’s all that matters.

Katrina Ruth: Here’s one thing for sure though, there is a correlation between those who leap without trying to figure out whether they’re fucking ready, or whether it’s time, or whether they’re worthy enough, or good enough for blah, blah, blah. [inaudible 00:09:34], or I don’t just mean obviously something like where can we meet, but that’s true for sure. There’s the correlation between how fast you say yes to your soul, and how much, as well as how fast life says yes to you. Give me a love heart shower if you know that I’m right. When I say yes to my soul, life says yes to me. When I say yes without hesitation to my soul, life says yes to me without hesitation. It’s simple fucking quantum physics, or normal physics, or it’s just mathematics 101. It’s like math [inaudible 00:10:07] or some shit like that. It’s simple arithmetic. It’s very easy, I don’t understand why more people don’t get this.

Katrina Ruth: So, I was thinking about this a little bit ... thank you for the love hearts, I always appreciate them greatly. I was thinking about this a little bit. Tell me a comment, tell me what you think. I was just in the shower, I’m wearing my pyjamas now, and I was like, “I’m so tired!” I was out last night, I had a big night out, and not enough asleep. Saturday night, Saturday night ... I don’t think that’s the right song. Anyway, I was like, “Should I have a little nap before dinner?” Is what I was thinking. I could just have some rest time. I’d already done something that I didn’t particularly feel like I desired to do, which was go to the gym an hour ago, and just sweat it out. It was one of those days where you’ve just got to put on, “This is Britney.”

Katrina Ruth: So, I listened to some Britney. We could listen to some Britney now. I feel like this livestream is super quiet. What’s the Britney song with the music? Music ... you can’t type in Britney music song. Man Behind the Music, is that a song? Am I making shit up? I want to put some Britney on. I so didn’t feel like going to the gym at all. I was so tired. I already had a big day ... okay, I can’t find the song I’m looking for. Britney ... let’s do Circus, that’s a great song, great lyrics. I had a big day, I did some cool stuff with my kidlets. I was an engaged and present momma, I was happy with myself about that. I played soccer on the beach. I don’t even know how to play fucking soccer, but I figured it out. I was a legend, soccer ninja. (Singing).

Katrina Ruth: This is not Britney, I don’t know what’s happening. YouTube is doing whatever the fuck it ... it’s Jennifer Lopez featuring DJ Khaled, and Cardi B. That’s finishing. We’ll have a bit of Britney to bring the vibes because I feel that I need the vibes. You’re either a performer ... there’s only two types of people in this world, those who belong to the stage, and those not. It’s roughly what she says. So, I was listening to this, she’s putting some Bulgari jewellery on. Ready for it? (Singing). All right, now I feel more [inaudible 00:13:26]. I love that song, I’m like, “There’s only two types of people in the world.” Okay, I know I can’t sing very well, whatever. My daughter can sing amazingly well, but I have fun with it.

Katrina Ruth: So, anyway, it’s why I’m here, right? I’m getting my vibe on, I’m getting my super flow on now, thank you Britney. I went to the gym, blah, blah, blah. It’s a whole story, it’s very boring. I was too tired to go to the gym, I wanted to have a freaking nap. Oh my Gosh, Charmaine is like, “Your singing is awful.” I can’t believe you just said that. You should be sending me a love heart shower for singing even when I’m not a singer. How rude! I feel like other people better send me a love heart shower now to make me feel better. My feelings are hurt, and it’s true as well by the way. Everybody thinks I have some kind of superhuman confidence, that’s not a real thing actually. It’s a show, it’s part of the freaking show, it’s part of stepping in. It’s part of pressing fucking play. It’s part of being who you’re meant to be in the world.

Katrina Ruth: You get the fuck over yourself, and you get on with it, and you be real and raw. Imagine if somebody said to somebody who was on camera, “Kat, you’re amazing, but actually, you look like shit. You’re quite unattractive, so you probably shouldn’t be on camera.” That’s roughly the same thing that just happened just then, except in a slightly more politically correct way. But when is it okay to tell somebody that they’re terrible at something? It’s okay to tell somebody that they’re terrible at singing? Would you tell somebody, “Actually, you look too fat to be on camera.” Or, “Actually, you’re hair looks horrible.” Or, “Actually, you have bad skin.” Imagine if people didn’t show the fuck up, and press play for what they’re meant to be doing in the world because people were saying shit like that to them? Huh? Now I’m on a fucking rant. Actually, I’m getting angry because actually I do have feelings, and that shit does hurt my feelings.

Katrina Ruth: I will show up anyway, and do what I’m going to do. I’ll own it, and I know freaking Lilly’s on here, who’s an amazing singer, and I still sing anyway. I’m aware of my singing. I put myself out there in order to demonstrate to people that you can be real, and raw, and just be who you are, and that you still have permission to show up. Just because I’m at a certain level with a certain type of following does not mean I somehow evolved beyond the emotion of feeling hurt or rejected. That shit is exactly the shit that can cause somebody who’s not me to completely go away, and leave the internet, and leave their calling, which, of course, is up to them, right?

Katrina Ruth: They get to take responsibility. I’m taking responsibility, I will continue on with the show anyhow. Of course, that person could too. So, it’s always still up to the person. However, I do think that we have a responsibility to each other as women, as people, as entrepreneurs, to think about what we’re saying, and how the most innocuous of comments can literally shut somebody’s light down for life. At the end of the day, everybody is still that little girl or little boy looking for approval, looking to be validated. Imagine my daughter came on here singing, and someone said, “That’s awful.” Actually, she’s an amazing singer, she’s getting lessons now.

Katrina Ruth: But imagine that, who would do that to a child? Nobody would do that. God, I hope not. But yet, is it okay to do it to an adult? Is it okay to do it because this one’s a badass, and this one acts like a badass online, so therefore she’s fine with it, she’s cool with it? What’s next, we’re going to tell me that I’m having a bloated day when I get my period next week? All right, okay. Anyway, what was I up to before? I’m still sending you love though, Charmaine, and I appreciate that it didn’t come from a place of bad intention. I do know that, okay? However, I think that this stuff is really important, and I think that it’s stuff that we’ve got to consider, and think about. It’s such a big deal for people to put themselves out there online. I’m one of the few people who’s doing it consistently, and my clients do it pretty consistently as well.

Katrina Ruth: Doesn’t mean that people don’t get hurt, no matter what level they’re playing at for sure, right? But let’s think about ... imagine somebody else is on here who’s not me, let’s make it not about me for once. Imagine somebody else is here who’s not me, who was thinking that they might feel like it’s fine or funny to sing, and carry on in a livestream, and just be a bit of a clown, and be a bit of an idiot like you would be with your friends. When you’re with your closest friends, or your family members, or the people who you love, and who you trust yourself with the most, then you know that you can be an idiot, and you can clown around, and you can maybe do something that’s not your particular genius sign, and that it doesn’t matter because you’re loved and accepted, right?

Katrina Ruth: So, that’s the idea of how we want to show up online. So, imagine somebody is watching here who’s seen the way that I clown around, they’re like, “Yeah, I want to step into that even though I feel super self-conscious, and it feels embarrassing, but I’m going to do it.” Then they see a comment like that, and then the fears that rise up instantly, even when it’s not about [inaudible 00:18:35], “People are going to say that stuff about me, or such and such person is going to say it.” Everybody is already fucking thinking that already without seeing evidence of it going on, on the internet. It’s full on. It is full on. Okay. So, before that little segment happened, which is 100% being [cliptioned 00:18:55] out of this livestream by the way, and will be posted everywhere.

Katrina Ruth: When I say cliptioned, it’s a new word that I made up that is a cross between when you clip a piece out of the video that you like that’s a good, little excerpt piece to put up by itself. You clip it out, and then you get the captions put on it. For some reason, it just keeps coming out of my mouth where I say called cliptioned. Is that one of the hardest things to move past in life, when somebody says something about you that you already fear and think about yourself?

Katrina Ruth: It would be like if somebody called me trashy when I was already thinking that I feel trashy because my hair makes me feel like am I trashy, or is it glamorous? Anyway, I can go either way on that. So, yeah, I can cliption that bit out, and post it for sure. My team will be on that tomorrow. Before that, I was talking ... with rather less interest than this whole conversation about the fact that I went to the fucking gym. Okay, let’s try and get back to that. The point of that was, I was really freaking tired. I had a nicely blah, blah, blah, we already spoke about that. I had a great day with the kids, then I’ll say, but I desire, my soul desire as it was telling, or calling me to go get my sweat on because I always feel good when I do my integral training, and get my sweat on. So, it did. Then as I was there, I was listening to Britney, I was getting my vibe on.

Katrina Ruth: It took me probably like 22 minutes to get into that zone though. I just felt tired, and my eyes felt that grainy seediness. But probably around the 22 minute mark, the super flow switch flicked, much like it has now in this livestream. I was just reminded of all the years in the gym specifically, back in my extreme fitness days, but fitness has been a huge part of my life for 20 years now. So, all the workouts that I must have done, and that I know I did do where I felt way too tired, where I felt like there’s not fucking way I can do this, but yet I decided to do it. Not because I wanted to push my body beyond a certain point that safe or something like that, but because it would have been something like how I was training 20 clients a day back in the day, and you’d have these 45 minute gap, or one hour gap if you were lucky.

Katrina Ruth: It’s like I’m rectum exhausted, so what am I going to do? I’m going to sit down, and [inaudible 00:21:00] caffeine sometimes, or try and have a nap in the personal trainer staff room sometimes, or am I going to get my work out on even though I feel exhausted because that’s going to elevate me. That’s going to get me back from my zone, and also because it’s a step in the direction of what I’m trying to achieve and create, the results that I want, right? It’s me pressing play, and it’s showing up whether or not I feel like it, but it’s also being outcome focused, because I can think of literally ... it’s a blur, I’m sure there’s thousands of workouts I’ve done over the past years where I felt too exhausted to do that workout. There’s probably only like two or three over a 10 to 20 year period, 20 year period since I’ve been training, over 20 years now, where I would have then felt like I shouldn’t have done the workout afterwards.

Katrina Ruth: Like I really, legitimately was too exhausted, and now I feel all fucked up. That’s happened less times than a handful of times. All the times without exception, I’ve been proud of myself, and grateful that I did that, and my energy has been elevated, and I’ve gone into flow zone as a result of that. So, it’s actually impacted the rest of my day. So, when it was back where I was a personal trainer, and I was really busy, and really relentless hours, and I was an insomniac as well. I would sleep every single night, two to three hours, and sometimes zero hours at all. That went on for a three to four year period after my first marriage ended when I was 26. It was ... I don’t even know, honestly, I don’t even know how I stayed alive in that period. It was so fucking extreme.

Katrina Ruth: But doing those workouts when I didn’t feel like it, where I would spend all my energy, and you just feel spent was that feeling of being spent, and you stop, and not burnt out in the way most people understand that, but in a way where like, “Well, now I feel fulfilled, I feel satisfied, I feel good about myself. I’m elevated, I created energy by expending energy. So, that empowered me to get on with my day, and to do my shit.” That was just like the immediate impact or flow and effect of doing the damn thing. But if you think about it in a bigger picture sense, I wouldn’t have the body that I have, and the fitness that I have, and the metabolism, and the ability to know how to take care of this thing without having done that all those years. I just wouldn’t have the physical results, never mind the emotional results.

Katrina Ruth: It’s exactly the same with business. So, I came out of my little sweat session just now, just another workout on top of thousands of workouts over the years where I didn’t feel like doing it, where what I felt like doing was kicking back, and probably would have just laid around, and scrolled on freaking Facebook, or maybe read something more uplifting than that although actually, my Facebook feed is largely very uplifting. It’s very curated, and whatever. That would have been fine, but would I feel in flow now? Would I feel like that sense of I created something, I stepped into something, I showed up for the areas of my life that I value. I gave myself back energy. Would I be here now? No. I’d probably be having a nap.

Katrina Ruth: Again, nothing wrong with doing that, you can do that. But we didn’t come here so that we can pass the time, and then die well rested. We came here to die well lived, didn’t we? It’s about being outcome focused, and it’s about looking at, “Well, how do I want to feel at the end of that 30 minutes?” Fuck, 30 minutes, that’s all I did, 30 minutes in the gym. I even have a gym in the building, I didn’t even have to go anywhere. I went downstairs, but you could do it in your own lounge room, or you could go somewhere, or whatever, right? So, do I want to be like, “Well, I’m too tired for that. I’m exhausted, so I’m going to rest, or do I want to spend an element of my life in order to create my damn life?” So, from then, then I jumped in the shower just before this, and I was like, “Okay. I did my workout thing.”

Katrina Ruth: I didn’t really feel like getting all dressed up for a livestream, or something like that, and I’m going to do dinner soon, and that sort of thing for the kids. Again, it was just that little moment in my head where I’m like, “Well, of course I don’t have to do a livestream.” There’s many times where I’m not going to jump on and do a live. There’s many times where I’m really tired, and I do rest, meditate, nap, lie around, etcetera. But when I look back, my business has been built in exactly the same manner as how I just spoke about my fitness being built. Literally hundreds of occasions, too many to ever possibly know, or remember, or count where I was too tired, or the day was hectic, or manic, or I didn’t have enough time, or I didn’t like the way I looked, or whatever it was.

Katrina Ruth: Or I didn’t feel like I had anything to say like, “It’s that really a good topic? I’m I going to come on here and talk about being spent, and how that fulfils you? What if I don’t flip into flow? What if I don’t think of anything to say? What if I feel ... what if somebody fucking tells me I’m awful at singing?” I didn’t think of that, that just happened out of thin air. Never predicted that one actually. Am I going to let all that shit to get to me, and not show up, and not be here, and not turn on the camera, or am I going to press fucking play because it’s what I teach and preach? Sure, cool. Good to be an example, but also because it’s how I live my damn life, and how everything here is being created.

Katrina Ruth: Every single thing that is being created in my business is a result of my content. My blogging, my livestreams, my videos, any other form of content. A high percentage of that, a far higher percentage than what anybody would ever probably even believe has been me doing the damn thing when I didn’t feel like it. Trusting in the flow. What is it? It’s the trusting part, right? Exactly. It is such a trusting, because it’s that hesitation where you’re like, “Do I really feel like it, or am I good enough, or am I ready, or do I know how, or blah.” Whatever it is that’s going through your head. It’s like, “I could easily lean out of this, or I could easily lean into it.” It feels so hard in the moment a lot of the time, to lean into it.

Katrina Ruth: It feels so difficult to lean into it. It feels like resistance is just this huge mammoth thing that is going to eat you alive, and it feels too much to bear. It feels like it’s easier, or maybe even better, you somehow convince yourself that it’s better to, “Well, I should rest, or I should take it easy, or I should wait for inspiration.” I have this great quote that I love, which Steven Pressfield published in one of his books. It wasn’t his quote, it was a quote from his friend. His friend in the book said something like, “Yes, I absolutely believe that writers, artists, etcetera, should wait for inspiration in order to do their soul work.” I’m paraphrasing. But luckily for me, inspiration strikes every morning at 9:00 AM when I sit my ass in the chair. I was just like, “That’s so good. I agree, you should wait for inspiration. Wait for the muse to strike, wait for the certainty to come through, wait until you’re already feeling the flow.”

Katrina Ruth: I just got activated into fucking beyond super flow by being insulted on my own livestream. But I would have probably done it anyway, I usually do with or without anybody else contributing, and firing me up. But imagine I waited until I was in super flow each time, and feeling like this, and feeling like I’m in my zone. Imagine I waited until I felt that way to write a blog, or to do a livestream, or to create content, or to make paid programmes, and sell them on the internet? Would I be here right now? Would I have a multi seven figure online business? Would you be here with me, would you even know who I was? Would I be impacting in the way that I’m meant to be impacting? We all know the answer is no. We all know this.

Katrina Ruth: If you actually think, or believe that I walk around all day in a super flow state with content pouring out of me, feeling confident and ready to go? Well, maybe I do on occasion, but I mean really, just think about it, just logically think about it. I’m a human, I’m a single mom, I have craziness going on with my kids. I have ups and downs in my emotions, and in different areas of my life. Of course I don’t walk away always in super flow, and super flow largely comes from doing my purpose work. Most of the time when I get into a high vibe, super flow state, it’s as a product of doing this work. It’s not so that I can then do the work, it doesn’t work that way. So, what that means is, I’ve had to be willing to consistently put myself out there, and press go live.

Katrina Ruth: When I did press go live, if you would see me here behind the scenes setting up, I’m in my bed, I’ve got a tripod with the selfie light on it, it’s a cool setup actually. I’ve got my tripod balancing on a bunch of Frank Kern books, it’s my standard bedroom setup. It’s dark, I’m tired, and if you would see me before I went live, I quickly put on some makeup in my bathroom just there, so I didn’t look completely washed out, and I made sure I got a bra on, but that was [inaudible 00:30:05] my prep.

Katrina Ruth: But then I was kind of like, “Okay, yeah, I can do this thing.” My energy was not bad or anything like that, but it wasn’t like this. It was me deciding to press fucking play. So, if you would see me in that three seconds where you hit the little blue button, and then it goes three, two, one, and you’re live, that’s like that three seconds where I’m like, whatever energy I’m in, typically something pretty non-vibrant. Even if I’m not tired, it’s not like I’m walking around all day in my own house by myself like ... like that. Usually not, unless I’m on the phone to a client. Then I see that it’s about to go live, and sometimes I don’t quite catch it. Sometimes I’m still looking down like this, and then it’s already live, but usually I notice it, I’m pretty on point. I’m like a fucking Jack in the box. So, I’ll be here, I’m looking at my thing down here.

Katrina Ruth: I’m getting my little comment to talk about Empress, and then I’m like, “Hey.” It’s a choice, right? It’s not fake it until you make it either, it’s activate what’s already inside of you. Activate the leader energy, activate the performer, activate the fucking empress. Step into who you know you’re meant to be. Make a decision to press play. Make a decision to spend your life spending your life. I thought about, “Okay, it’s only 6:00 PM, what am I going to do, am I going to be like, I’m too tired to press play for the rest of my day, so I’m just going to make dinner, or have dinner, and then what? Okay, spend the evening doing, I don’t know. I’ll probably play some board game with the kids or something like that.” But just get through the evening, so that I can get to sleep, so that then I can feel like, “Tomorrow maybe is the day. Maybe tomorrow is the day where I’m already super flow when I wake up.

Katrina Ruth: Maybe tomorrow is the day I have all the best ideas in the world. Maybe tomorrow is the day that the power comes through me.” Oh my God, now you’re taking credit for my energy as well? This is next level. Oh my God. I don’t even know how to even ... because, no, I never go to super flow normally. I need a wine, why do I have not have a wine at this point in time? Why am I drinking amino acids in bed at 6:00 PM at night when this shit’s going down? So, anyway, actually, you don’t need to be insulted on your own lives in order to go to super flow, just in case anyone accidentally gets that idea. How super flow comes about is from pressing fucking play on what you’re meant to be doing, which means you press go live, three, two, one, and here. You just show up, and you let it be clunky, and rambly, and whatever it is to begin with.

Katrina Ruth: Just like the vast majority of my reading posts as well. I start writing, and I’m like, “I guess this is okay.” Then my mind is like, “Maybe just quickly check Facebook.” No, fucking focus. Stay in [inaudible 00:32:58], stay in the power zone, keep writing. Trust in the process. Trust that the flow will come. When you show up for it, it will show up for you. Your life’s not going to show up for you without you showing up for it. It doesn’t work that way. But for whatever reason, 80% of people plus, of course it’s more than 80%, 99.99% of people seem to think that’s how it works. Even in this community of people who do self-identify as the 1% within the 1%, around 80% of them are still doing that same damn thing. “Well, I didn’t feel like ... no, but I only had two hour sleep last night.” So what? You want this or you don’t. Are you dead yet? Then fucking get up and keep going.

Katrina Ruth: Because I could tell you how whole heartedly that this whole business, this whole my Empress empire, my ability to impact through my message, which in turn, I know helps others to impact with theirs as well, and maybe even you, none of us would be here had I have chosen to live my life that way. Sometimes it does feel like this blow where I look back, and I’m like, “Gosh, all the years, and all the workouts, and all the blog posts, and all the whatever other things in my life where I didn’t feel like it.” Then I thought about, “But yeah, how do I want to feel an hour from now, or two hours from now, or when I go to bed at night?” I was in the shower after my workout, and I was already like, “Okay, I did that, I’m good.” Then I was thinking about, “How do I want to feel when I go to bed at night?”

Katrina Ruth: I just had the little wording come through my head, “I want to feel spent.” I want to feel that I lived my damn day. I want to feel that I’ve expended what needed to come out of me because that’s actually what gives me that incredible satiation of life, and even sleep. Even sleep is something where, I don’t know about you, but for me, I sleep a hell of a lot better when I’ve done what I’m meant to do that day. Like for me, it’s not enough to go, “Okay, well, I’m tired physically because I slept two hours last night, so therefore I’m sure going to have a great night’s sleep tonight. So, therefore, I’m just going to lie around all day, or somehow manage to just get through the day in a surface way until it’s time to be able to go to bed.” No, I’ll sleep like a fucking baby, I’ll be in deep waves.

Katrina Ruth: That was meant to represent sleep waves, I was trying to think about which ones are the best ones, and I don’t remember. I’ll be in the deep, best sleep waves, having the most amazing sleep ever tonight because I showed up for my purpose work, because I showed up for what came through my soul, because I value the things that I value. Because when I was tired in the morning, and I could have stayed in bed longer, I got up anyway, and I went to the park with my kids, and then I was tired, and so I wanted to sit at the playground bench, and they can amuse themselves. But I got up off the bench, and I played chasing, and I played hide and seek, and I played soccer on the sand. Then I was still tired, but I went to lunch, and had an amazing lunch experience.

Katrina Ruth: Then I was tired, but I took my daughter out on a date, and we got our nails done, and we did silly, funny things in the supermarket. We just had fun in the supermarket, and did some little Insta stories about it. Then I was still tired, but I went to the gym, and then I was still tired, and now I’m here. I’m not trying to make a point of like, “Go cart,” but honestly, this is what my life, this is what my success is made up of. All the times when I just, “Am I going to make this decision, or this decision?” There’s for sure been times when I’m like, “I don’t feel like it, so I’m not going to press fucking play. I’m sure going to look back at the end of the day and be so fucking happy that I didn’t press play.” There’s been times when that happens, of course.

Katrina Ruth: But the more that time passes, and the more that I grow a little older, and the more that I also look back, and look at where the results that I do have in my business and life have come from, the more I just feel like I can’t afford to fuck around. Why would I want to fuck around, why would I want today to be a day where I tell my kids I’m too tired to play with them, where I tell myself that I’m too tired to show up for my business, where I don’t move my body, and take care of it, where I don’t act from the outcome?

Katrina Ruth: It’s just better when you act from the outcome, it’s so much easier actually. So, when you’re in that resistance, the resistance feels so big, it feels like it’s the hardest fucking thing in the world to press go live on a livestream. To me, it felt like the hardest fucking thing in the world to take one and a half minutes to put just a little bit of highlighter and mascara on, and to set up my lighting. It felt so difficult, it was literally like a couple of minutes total to set this all up. Resistance is such a liar. It tells you that you can’t. It tells you that it’s too hard. It tells you that you don’t have the capabilities. It tells you that people are going to not like you, or reject you, or that they’re not going to accept you. It tells you it’s not worth it. It tells you you’re not worth it. It tells you you’re not going to get there anyway. It tells you what’s the point? It tells you there’s probably some fancy strategy that you’ve got to go and first.

Katrina Ruth: It tells you all that bullshit when actually the moment that you take the first step, in fact, the moment you make the decision, yes, in the shower. Yes, you know what, I am going to go live, decision made. Before you even take that two, or three minutes to get ready, isn’t it true that you just feel that weight is lifted. You actually elevated your energy immediately in that moment just from deciding, right? The moment that you make that decision, “You know what, I will put on my gym [gear 00:38:20], I will go to gym.” You instantly feel better. Then you get started, and you’re like, “Oh my God, fuck this shit, this feels really hard. It doesn’t feel good.” I’m like, “My eyes hurt, I’m tired.” And you keep going, and you keep going. You just allow yourself to be in that moment, and not try and exist outside of that moment like, “I’m not trying to be a freaking hero.”

Katrina Ruth: I’m like, “I’m just going to be here, and I’m going to freaking get through this because I’ve decided to do it, and it’s what I feel to do.” Then at some point, the magic kicks in. The magic kicked in for me today in my workout, and the magic has kicked in for me today in this livestream. The magic kicked in for me this morning when I wrote my blog, and I kept [inaudible 00:38:54] for about the first 20 minutes as well. It took like 20 minutes to write the first two paragraphs, and then 20 minutes to write the whole rest of it. Sometimes, the magic doesn’t come at all though. You’ve got to be okay with that. But today, the magic kicked in, in all those incidences, and then you just think to yourself, “Holy shit, imagine I didn’t do that though? Imagine I bought into the fucking lies of resistance, and the bullshit of the not real me because my higher self knows better than that.”

Katrina Ruth: But imagine, imagine, imagine. To me, it feels shocking, or appalling to even imagine having not pressed play for this one day, this day right here. I feel great right now. I still am conscious of the tiredness, but just about today, I feel like, imagine, imagine if because I woke up feeling so seedy and tired, I didn’t do six pages of freaking journaling this morning, I didn’t write my blog. Imagine if I didn’t write that blog, it’s such a great blog I wrote today, so I’m very happy with it. It was about, don’t be seduced by the devil outside. Actually, it’s a really good one to read, I might get you the link, and drop it here in the comment. Imagine I didn’t write that. Imagine I didn’t have a great, fun experience playing with my kids at the park, and playing soccer. Imagine I didn’t do all that.

Katrina Ruth: That to me, that feels terrific even to think about not doing that shit for today because I’m like, that would be sad, it would just be sad. I’m going to be sad, I’m going probably eat a whole box of chocolates, and go to bed, and then I’d wake up feeling like, “Hmm.” The thing is though, it’s never about one day. Now, I can be contradictory, and say, “Of course, you can have a day lying around on the couch, eating chocolates all day.” But it’s never about one day, is it? It’s about this is what your life will be made up of. I can remember hundreds of examples of all those things like I keep saying. Too many to possibly recall where I did it because I thought about how I wanted to feel afterwards, because I thought about what my ambitions are for my business and life, because I thought about the person who I know I am on the inside, because I thought about what I actually want to be driven by, my bullshit, or my dreams? It can’t be either.

Katrina Ruth: At the end of the day, you’re either over there living the life of bullshit, or you’re pressing fucking play, and living your dreams. That is the reality. It’s a choice, and the resistance will be strong, and it will be there in some way, shape, or form every single day. Some days more than others, and so what? What are you going to do about it? Are you going to be that person who’s like, “Well, I was tired, so I stayed well rested. Now, I’m going to die.” Okay. Honestly, if we want to even get super technical about it, people who are just freaking sitting around not pressing play all the time tend to be unhealthy, sick, and exhausted as fuck. Once you’re in super flow, probably not sleeping properly according to the rules, whatever the rules are. Probably not eating properly according to the rules either. Probably not doing anything properly, and they are lit up, and on fire.

Katrina Ruth: Everyone is walking around so damn scared of missing a little bit of sleep, or missing ... I don’t know what they’re even scared of. They’re just buying into the bullshit of resistance. When this feeling is available to you any time, and at all times, and ultimately, that’s what we want. Ultimately, we’re all chasing a feeling, we’re chasing an emotional state. Even having the money success you want in your business represents what you want internally. It represents how you want to feel. You want to feel lit up, you want to feel free, you want to feel in flow, you want to feel excited, you want to feel happy, you want to feel proud of yourself.

Katrina Ruth: Well, guess what, all of those feelings are available to you right now. You don’t need to wait until you make the money. You want to make the money, you want to get the results for following the fame, the body, etcetera, that is going to come from chasing that feeling in the moment, in the day. It is going to come from being the person who shows the fuck up for their life every single day. That’s how it’s built. It is such a tragic mistake to imagine that just because you didn’t feel like it, you shouldn’t press play, or because you weren’t ready, or because somebody might say something to you on the internet, or whatever. It is incredibly, incredibly tragic.

Katrina Ruth: People think to themselves that it doesn’t matter, “It’s one day, I’ll do it next week. I’ll do it tomorrow. I’ll start soon, when I’m ready, when I lose weight, when I feel better about myself. When I heal my fucking shit. It’s not how it works. It’s just not how it works. The way to get there is through all the murkiness, and all the bullshit, and all the resistance, and all the wounds as well, and all the hurts, and the stuff that’s not healed. Of course, you want to do the work, but here’s what they’re not telling you about doing the work.

Katrina Ruth: The work, doing the work to heal yourself, and to grow, that work is showing up anyhow, is being the person who you think you could be when you’re fixed, or when you’re ready. The actual practical action of being that person when you don’t feel fixed or ready is how you fix yourself, and get ready. It’s a conundrum, I know it is. So, what I’m doing in Empress, which I’ve been talking about a little bit ... I got [inaudible 00:44:19] there. What I’m doing in empress is working with 20 amazing women who understand this stuff on a core level, and just understand, and know from their soul that they are unapologetically born for more. That ultimately, it’s their presence, and their energy that people are going to respond to.

Katrina Ruth: When you journal, hopefully you fucking journal. Actually, here’s my journal. When you journal ... I write something sometimes. This is a good journaling prompt you might like. I did this [inaudible 00:44:53] pretty often, I’m going to find it for you from this morning. I did so many pages this pages because I felt like shit, so I went deeper. I love the expression, like if you coached back in the day, and people have fitness stuff would say to you like, “Do like 100 burpees.” You’re like, “I can’t, I’m not able to keep going. I can’t.” “Okay, cool, then you get to do 500.” That’s how it works. You can’t come up with 20 ideas of things you could sell, and put out there on the internet, you better do 30 then.

Katrina Ruth: So, I didn’t feel like doing any fucking journaling at all, so I knew I should do extra. So, that’s what I did. I wrote a question, where is it, which page am I up to? Intuition, what do you have to tell me? I was pretty happy with myself for that question, you can use it if you like. Intuition, what do you have to tell me about fame, about where my fame will come from? I always know that my higher self has all the answers. So, I don’t go looking for freaking the internet says about where the answers are, or where they’re going to come from. I always know my higher self has all the answers. So, I said intuition, what do you want to tell me about where my fame will come from?

Katrina Ruth: By fame, I meant impacting millions, being known by millions of people. I’m already freaking famous right here in this little circle. I’ve created my fame already to whatever degree, but I desire more, and I’m called for more. The answer came through, and it said, “Fame, platform, millions ...” what is that word? “Fame, platform. Millions _ how?” How being the question. Then a little arrow that the answer drew for itself using my hand I suppose. “Just keep doing what you’re doing, stay the course.” But also, one additional thing came through, because then I got side tracked, I started writing about the guy that I’m in love with. That went on for half a page. Then I remembered my own question, and came back to it. Shout out.

Katrina Ruth: Then I came back to it, and I said, “Yes, yes, yes.” This is really how I wrote in my journal. I’m admonishing myself, I was like, “Yes, yes, yes, stop it right now. Also, what else is it that I’m meant to do for fame? The answer came through again, and it said, “Okay, stay the course, but also more content, bolder, and of a higher quality of being all you.” Maybe that’s what I’m doing right now, maybe not, who knows? All I can do is, the best that I can do is show up each day. But it sure fucking isn’t going to happen having more content, bolder, and of a higher level of authenticity being me, if I don’t press freaking go live even though I’m tired, right? Right.

Katrina Ruth: This is just what I’m trying to get through. How many people seem to fucking think that it’s really like, “You know, write it down, my higher self gave me the answers. I’ll do it tomorrow. It’s Monday, I only [inaudible 00:47:38] live, I only start pressing fucking play on Monday, or I only do the damn thing on a Monday.” I said, “Then I’m going to wake up, oh, it’s a busy day. I’ve got an appointment, I can’t. Now, I don’t feel inspired. Am I bold enough, is my hair the right colour of blah, blah, blah.” Again, the same thing, right? So, you either believe in this shit, and you’re like, “I say yes to my soul because I know that life says yes to me,” or you don’t.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, now I feel like I’m a preacher slamming the bible around, except in this case it’s a purple unicorn journal. But you know, when the preachers will have the bible, and they’ll be like, “The light of God is blah, blah, blah.” I’m slamming on my knee instead of a pulpit. It’s the same thing though. I’m going to have a bruise on my leg now, I slammed rather hard just then. I was going to say something about Empress. Right. So, that’s what I was trying to say. I was writing down into my journal, I already knew that. I knew that when I write down, “Where is my fame?” Millions, platform it’s going to come from, what is the how that my mind infuriatingly ... before I get sidetracked for a whole tangent. Infuriatingly, my mind is going to say, “Stay the course, keep doing what you’re doing. Show up, do your content, get your message out there.”

Katrina Ruth: It’s infuriating, and it’s reassuring all at the same time. As I did indeed write in my blog post, which is currently refusing for some time now to load for you. I was trying to get you the link, right? It is infuriating, and it’s fucking reassuring. It is church time right now in America, isn’t it? All right. It’s Sunday evening church here in Australia. There’s a 6:00 PM church service down there somewhere. There’s one happening around here as well apparently. So, it is what it is, and that’s all it is. That is the reality. What I’m looking for, apart from just having a fabulous time preaching and teaching here, relevant to Empress is those 20 women unapologetically born for more. There’s not 20 places available, because several are already sold, who know that that is where it’s going to come from.

Katrina Ruth: The fame, the millions of dollars, if that’s your desire, and I’m going to assume it is for most people because why would you not? But of course it’s not the true motivation, right? What is your true motivation? My God, I would throw all the money away in a second if I thought that I had to choose between money and freaking doing this. In fact, I walked away from my business that I built to nearly a million dollars a year in 2012-ish, and I said to myself, “I’m going all in on this. I’m going to write and say ...” this is exactly what I said. “I’m going to write, and say exactly what I meant to say. I could not handle this anymore, I was sick of the whole sight of my own self, and I’m going to preach, and teach, and say what I meant to say for the rest of my life.” I said, “Even if I never get paid a cent for it.” I said that out loud to my husband at the time, and I fucking meant it.

Katrina Ruth: I said, “I’m going to go all in. If people don’t like it, they can fucking get fucked.” That’s what I said. I was quite aggressive about it, but I was aggressive, and upset at myself because I hadn’t been going all in. I was just like, “Enough is enough.” Enough with building a fucking business. I can give you a link right now to my blog from this morning, that just came through. You’ve got to read it. Watch out for the seductive ways of the devil outside. That’s a must read, all right?

Katrina Ruth: I was just so done with trying to make money online, and I was making money because I hustled my ass off. I was doing good shit, but it wasn’t my soul shit, and I was done with it being about just being a coach. I fucking knew, I knew that people are meant to pay to be in my energy. It’s a very diva thing to say. Do you know it, or do you know it? Love heart shower, or cat emoji, or amen if you know it. I don’t think the cat emojis are on this livestream right now. I knew it. I just decided to fucking claim it, and just to own it, but I was scared, and I was nervous, and I was like, “What if it doesn’t work?” I said, “I don’t care, because I can’t keep being one foot in, and one foot out.”

Katrina Ruth: I always remember my mother saying to me, [inaudible 00:51:39] to church again now, that, “You can’t be half Christian, you can’t have your foot on the fence,” or something. “You can’t sit on the fence,” she said. “You’re either for God, or you’re against him. You’re not like, I’m not sure. Not sure is against.” Now, that’s an example of what she said, but I always used the analogy like it’s true, you can’t be half Christian. You’re Christian, or you’re not Christian. You can’t be half pregnant, that’s an obvious one that we all understand, and it sounds like a stupid thing to say. But it’s true for this as well. You can’t be ... I’m using it to make an example, you can’t be half-Christian, you can’t be half pregnant, you can’t be half badass by the way. You can’t be half pressing play on your fucking soulmate. Which is it?

Katrina Ruth: Soulmate? You should definitely press play on your soulmate. Soul work is what I meant to say. You should press many things on your soulmate if you have the opportunity. Yes, you should. Now I’m distracted. So, you can’t be half pressing play on your soul work. You can’t, it’s a real thing. I lost the rant, I’m sorry. You can’t, it’s true. So, you can’t be like, “I’m sort of.” If I say to you, “Are you doing your true messaging, sharing your truth?” Then you can’t be like, “Oh, well, kind of.” [inaudible 00:52:59], I’m freaking focused, I’m just going to put it aside, and think about that afterwards. You can’t, you’re either all in, or you’re all the way fucking out. That’s another reality. There’s many realities here, I’m trying to sell Empress to you, I’m getting very distracted, but it’s all in the pinned comment.

Katrina Ruth: What I was saying is that was my decision that I made. I just knew, I boldly and audaciously knew that people are meant to follow me just because of what’s inside of me, and that that is where my power will come from. That is where my impacts will come from. I also knew, just like my higher self wrote down in my journal this morning, that it will come from being bolder, and more audacious, and more authentic, and more all in, being me. I had to start back then when I didn’t have anything to back it up though. Now, I’ve got some stuff to back it up, but I still started without it. I said, and I meant from this day forward, and then I did it. I said it, meant it, did it. I walked away from the business that was doing nearly a million dollars a year. From this day forward, I’m going to go all in. I’m going to say only what I want to say, and if people don’t like it, they can get fucked.

Katrina Ruth: If I never make another cent for the rest of my life, this is what I’m going to do, write, speak, preach, empower, motivate, educate, and kick the ass of the 1% within the 1% to know that they too can press play. I fucking meant it, and I would have done it without ... I would be here now, I think you know that, and can see that, and I would have just made money as a personal trainer again, or whatever other fucking thing I would have figured out. Maybe I would have gone back to being the night club manager at a bar, or a at a pool hole, which I used to do once upon a time. I used to dress up, and put on a show there as well, nothing’s really changed, I’d just get paid more for it now.

Katrina Ruth: So, you have to be willing to go all in. You’ve got to be willing to back yourself. What I’m here to do, is to work with those women who are unapologetically born for this, and who are about fucking fed up of not going all in, and ready to claim what’s rightfully theirs. So, if that‘s you, and this is speaking to you, if all my rambles, and randomness is speaking to you, Empress is four weeks one on one with me. You have unlimited access to me as your mentor, that is how I work in my private mentoring. We’re doing a structured programme over that four weeks to step into your empress energy, empress environment, empress energy, empress everything. The business, the way that it works in terms of where the money is coming from, the following, all of that.

Katrina Ruth: Details in the comment there, you can read all about it. Then you get a $6000 bonus as well, which I’ll tell you about when you message me. Then you’ll go one on one with me additionally, plus access to my other private clients. I ran this programme earlier this year, it was fucking transformative. It was the most transformative energy work that I have ever done. It shocked me to my core doing it. I remember one of the trainings, I was in my hotel room in Santa Monica, and I just got off, and I was just sitting there stunned, and in shock, and in awe, and humbled, and in gratitude because I had stepped out of my own way, and allowed the magic to come through me. The women that went through that were just ... their lives were changed.

Katrina Ruth: I’ve been sharing a few of their stories over this past week or so. You’ll see more come through. But ultimately, it’s either speaking to you already, or it’s not. If so, then you should read what’s in there, and you should message me ideally on my personal page, not my business page. Then what I’ll do is I’ll give you a full overview that actually explains it in a less rambly fashion than what I’m doing now. Then for everybody else who’s here, and that is not, you soul is not saying yes to that, then what are you going to think about from what we’ve spoken about today? Because maybe it’s not that you’re running to the front of the room because I’m freaking bashing the pulpit with my journal. Maybe you’re not running up to the front of the room to be saved.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, I can’t save anyone, that’s the truth. Maybe that’s not you, but maybe you’re sitting there, and you’re thinking about something, and you’re going to walk out of this today, and you’re going to have a little shift that’s made in your mind about where you’re not being truthful with yourself, where you’re not being accountable to yourself. And maybe it is that you’re going to message me later this week. Really maybe you need to think about what I said at the very beginning of this livestream about the percentage of people who continually hesitate to press play. Who wait as long as possible to press play. Who ultimately may or may not create some level of result because they finally did fucking press play, but who will never, ever experience the transformation, the shift of the people who get into the habit of being a person who presses fucking play the moment something comes through them.

Katrina Ruth: That is relevant to all areas of your life. Honestly, I know what it feels like to have that resistance eating away at you so strong. It is dangerous, it is seductive, it is very heavy at times, very fucking heavy. I’m very familiar with it, and I’ve learned that the only way is to just take that first step, and it’s not even a first step, it’s a decision, isn’t it? It’s a decision that you can make in your mind right now, in this moment to flick that switch to say, “I will change my life. I will start doing my fucking workouts, doing my journaling. I will message Kat. I will.” What do you need to say I will to? And mean it though, and mean it because resistance might feel exhausting, and it is, and it’s so hard, but isn’t it so much more fucking exhausting to go to bed every night not spent, not having used your life, not satiated because of how you press play?

Katrina Ruth: That is some exhausting shit. So, one of the greatest lives of all time, one of the greatest lives of the human experience is that not doing the damn thing, not pressing play, that is easier. It is such a lie. It is an absolute tragic lie that people live their whole lives following, to believe that, “But that’s too hard. It’s too hard to put myself out there. It’s too hard to take that first step.” They believe the bullshit. It’s so much fucking harder to go to bed every night once again, not even able to look yourself in the mirror as you brush your damn teeth because you can’t cope with the fact of the reality that you’re not being who you’re meant to be, and that your life is ticking away. Another day slips through your fingers because you didn’t fucking feel like it, or you didn’t feel ready, or it wasn’t aligned.

Katrina Ruth: Of course it was freaking aligned, it’s always aligned to press play. It’s always aligned to do what’s inside of you. You’re either the person who’s pressing play, who’s creating their dreams, who’s doing the thing, and you’ve got to understand that the people who you look to, which may include me, who do this do not wake up just feeling like it. They do not feel like it all throughout the day. They do not exist in some sort of level of super confidence with no ability to feel rejected, or hurt. You saw that live earlier, right? They don’t have super powers that you don’t have. You have the same super powers. Maybe they wanted it more, I don’t know if that’s true or not. Maybe they were more fear driven to not be that other version of themselves. I feel like that’s true for me.

Katrina Ruth: I was just very driven to not live the normal life, or maybe they just made a fucking decision, and stepped up to be that person. Okay. I feel like we went into full purpose church, purpose church. So, I’d love for you to leave me a comment. Purpose church with Kat. I’d love for you to make a decision for yourself, and if you feel courageous, you could type it into the comment as well, “I will,” and whatever your ending to that sentence is. Most of all, I’d love for you to just decide, and to then go ahead and be the person who presses fucking play to life. It’s not a dress rehearsal, you can change all of it now. All of the emotions that you seeking and craving, and that you think will be delivered to you when you get there are available here in this moment.

Katrina Ruth: The method to getting there is to activate them now. That is true whether or not you work with me. Of course it is. But the benefit, and purpose of working with me if that is calling you, if Empress is calling you, is because something inside of you, your soul sees something in me. Your soul sees my soul, and says, “Yes, I recognise you. We came from the same place, and I see that, okay, you’re the same person as me actually, Kat. But you are at whatever point further ahead perhaps in business or in other areas of life, and that you desire to be held to a level of accountability by your higher self.”

Katrina Ruth: Because what I do as a mentor is not tell you what to fucking do. I help you to remember who to be. So, the details of that are in the pinned comment. Message me on my personal Katrina Ruth page, and I’ll get your full overview of that. Please watch the replay if you missed it. We covered a lot of good stuff, I know that this was a powerful livestream. Charmaine, if you’re still there, I am sending you love. That was full on for me, but everything is always for good. So, therefore I choose gratitude. Also, don’t forget, life is now, press fucking play.

Katrina Ruth: I'm fine not working inside of my own house. What's happening? What's happening? Why am I so dark? So good. So good. I'm drinking my super foods blend. My chocolate, my body blend, super foods blend, which by the way, is currently being shipped to our first customers. It is chocolatey as fuck. There always needs to be a chocolate element, whether it's a chocolate bread layer, or a chocolate super food drink, or a chocolate heart. Somebody send me a chocolate heart. Send me a chocolate heart shower. I need something. Do I look dark on this screen? Or am I imagining it?

Katrina Ruth: Those are just regular hearts, guys. Chocolate hearts. That's what I desire. Did you share that?

Jess Lewis: I'm just trying to, the wifi's [inaudible 00:01:08].

Katrina Ruth: The wifi's being a motherfucker. I'm paraphrasing. It's exactly what she said.

Katrina Ruth: Hello. Hello world. Now I was tossing up between do I have a nap at 1:22 p.m., double twos, it's a very auspicious time. Okay, you gonna start a live stream as well. Thank you for making me aware. Tell me when you've shared that. Not you guys. There's a ninja in the other room, I'm just shouting directions out from here from my batman chair. From my bat chair. I have a purple sequin-y cape that I've covered the chair with to bling it up. Then I have my other cape on my lap like a blanket. You're gonna see me first. Well it's how it should be. Gabriel says he's gonna do his own live stream but he's gonna see me first. Everybody should see me first before they do anything at all. Why are you coming up as Facebook User? Okay. I don't look too dark, I look a little bit dark. Is it shared yet, or should I share it?

Jess Lewis: It's shared.

Katrina Ruth: Okay. Well, I would prefer to be in more brightness is what I would like, but it's a constant dilemma when I'm live streaming with the beach behind me. The question is, do I let you see me and my glowing highlighted face, it's just natural highlighter. I was born like this. Or, do I let you see the beach? If I press on me, do I become brighter? Whoops. Pressed on somebody else. See? Now I'm all brighted up and now the background's gone. Now we want the background don't we. Let's just ... Oh no. Hang on, I might have ruined the whole situation for everybody. Okay, I've got it back. It's fixed, it's glorious. It's gonna be one of these ones today guys, it could go anywhere, it could go everywhere, it could go nowhere at all.

Katrina Ruth: Wait, who's doing the call to action? Me or you?

Jess Lewis: Me I suppose.

Katrina Ruth: You, don't tell them anything at all. We're not gonna tell you guys but shortly when I feel like it I'll tell them. Put an emoji in for them as a tease. Put a little emoji in as a tease. Do you know the one I mean?

Jess Lewis: No.

Katrina Ruth: She doesn't know at all.

Jess Lewis: The eggplant?

Katrina Ruth: Not an eggplant. What's happening, this is not a sex live stream. Everyone knows eggplants means sex. What else could they possibly mean? Why does she think I wanted to put an eggplant live streaming? They're all weird. They're even weirder than me.

Katrina Ruth: How do you have the logo to the right side of the screen? The answer is that I asked for it to be on the right side 'cause it used to be in the middle above my head and then it would cut off part of my head. So I said, move it to the right, and there it is. So yeah, so I had to toss up between do I do a live stream, or do I have a nap. Because I had a bit of an adventure last night. I'll tell you some elements and not all of them. And as a result of the adventure, I had two hours sleep and I feel fucked up. But in a great way. Because when I finally went to bed at whatever ungodly time it was, I knew that I was gonna get up pretty much a minute and a half afterwards.

Katrina Ruth: I said to myself, "I will wake up feeling fully rested and high vibe and I'll have an amazing day." Well, I actually feel wiped but I feel high vibe and I can have an amazing day anyway. Tiredness is just a, it's a fantasy okay. It's probably not most people's fantasy, it's an illusion, is probably the word I was going for. But I had a great adventure. I said to myself the other day I'm gonna have more adventures and it was an intention I suppose. And then last night I thought that I was going out for a quick drink. What am I talking about, you can hear what I'm talking about. This is what I'm talking about right now. Here I am talking. I thought that I was gonna go out for a quick drink and yes, that did happen. Somehow it turned into some shenanigans in a restaurant and then there was many things involved. There was many things involved. There was a tour of some of the coastal towns, there was some Jumanji. There was some artistic endeavours. It was quite the adventure.

Katrina Ruth: Anyway. So I was gonna have a nap. But I didn't. Because on with the show, that's the whole story, right? Now as you might know or you might not know, but now I'll remind you and tell you, the Katrina Ruth Show is me. I am the show and if you desire to have a personal run where people follow you for your message and for who you are and maybe they even buy things from you and you get to share your art into the world, and if that is you, please shower me with emojis stickers or love hearts, you can choose. If that's your desire, then you might wanna think about releasing the idea that people are following you because of what you teach. Because they don't care. They don't give a fuck. People think that they wanna learn from me about what I teach, maybe you do, maybe you think that you do, maybe you're really like, "Excuse me, all I'm here for is the dot points," but really let's just be honest about it. You're here because you can't look away. Because the show is fascinating and magnetic, okay. I guess I better [inaudible 00:06:37] into it now.

Katrina Ruth: So I am the show, this is the show. It's happening right here. Yes, exactly Gabriel, exactly. And so therefore if I went and had a nap at 1:00 p.m., then the show wouldn't be going. So I dillyed and I dallied as you do. I made myself a chocolate green smoothie. I got a triple shot long black send up for me, brought up for me by a ninja, Kat ninja. And I thought, why would I go and have a nap at 1:28 p.m. in the middle of the day, or 1:22 p.m.? Well you could if you really desired to. Nothing wrong with that actually, I have naps all the time. But it was also that thing of, am I gonna feel better in an hour from now about I had a nap, or that I created amazing fucking content?

Katrina Ruth: Firstly I wanted ... Firstly, firstly, secondly, thirdly I was just still so impressed with myself at manifesting such an amazing adventure last night so quickly that I wanted to let I guess that superflow or feeling of high vibrancy seep into my content today. Well that can't very well happen if I'm not making any content 'cause I'm off there snoozing. But also, and I blogged about this this morning a little bit, it was a reminder of napping, and eating, and sleeping, and resting, and all these very surface based human activities are really not required at all. And they're not actually desired I feel when we're in the superflow lane. And when you say yes to your soul, life says yes to you. We know this, it's a fact, it's in Wikipedia. Well it's not because I made it up, it's my quote. When you say yes to your soul, life ... When I say yes to my soul, life says yes to me.

Katrina Ruth: And what that means is, you become, I believe, you become more superhuman. You actually become what you're meant to be in the first place anyway. Which means you don't need to sleep as much, you don't need to eat as much, you can think quicker, move quicker, you're more creative, you're more high vibe, you're having more fun. Everything just kind of like, go, go, go, go, go, and it all just works together. You 're kinda creating the world inside of you. And that's the kind of heightened energy state I was in last night. And then this morning as well a little bit. And then I started to crash down and I was like, "Oh well, I could go have a [inaudible 00:08:52] sleep and then after that I know for sure if I had a little nap I'll be kind of in zombie mode, or I could get on and do content and choose to continue to activate the superflow. And if I would have had a sleep, I probably would have eaten lunch then had a sleep. Instead, I'm like fuck food, I'm gonna have a smoothie, I'm gonna have a coffee and I'm gonna do a live stream.

Katrina Ruth: Now where I'm gonna be super contradictory though, is I'm in no way saying ... Of course I have my own emojis. Philippa, how are you possibly not aware of that? If anyone doesn't know that I have my own emojis, who do you think you're talking to? Really. I feel that that's obvious. But how you use them is you got to be on your mobile phone and you go on with other emojis are the normal people emojis. And then there's a little sticker on the inside of your comment box, blue love heart, thank you Steve. I've never seen a blue love heart before, is that your own emoji? Did you make that up? You found them, okay, there's a little sticker on the inside of your comment box. You press the sticker, you send me some ... I feel like they're possessed, sorry. They're possessed little Katrinas. You can send me a little devil Katrina, or you can send me flies across the screen. Or you can send me a 1% sign.

Katrina Ruth: What was I up to? I've no idea. I don't know where I'm going with this 'cause I'm really fucking tired 'cause I was out so late like I said. But I feel that it's going somewhere important. Okay, okay I got it. We haven't got to superflow yet, which is annoying me. I haven't felt that switch flick. I don't like that. I want the switch to flick. One must flick the switch at all times. It's not gonna flick itself. Did you guys see when my team made me a meme that said flick the fucking switch baby, it's not gonna flick itself. And it was me with like a sports bra on and just looking somewhat bad ass I suppose. But to me when I saw that meme I was like, "Well, it kinda sounds like not what it's actually meant to sound like."

Katrina Ruth: Anyway, back to the point, let's be very focused and very professional. Of course you could eat some fucking lunch and have a nap if that's what you wanna do. I'm not trying to suggest to you that you should never sleep or have naps. But I am suggesting to you that you think about who you really ... Okay, my mind's just got blown with those rainbow love hearts. Philippa. Now I feel triggered that Philippa just said, "Flick the clit" on my live stream and that I didn't say that. Now I feel triggered that I wasn't being as bold as what Philippa was being, or is being, or did just be. This is my live stream and I'm suppose to be the most irreverent one. You should be here now and you can be on the live stream. Maybe I should add Philippa onto the live stream if she's just gonna go around saying shit like that.

Katrina Ruth: You've completely broken my train of focus. Remember who you fucking are. Remember who you are. Remember who you are. Philippa clearly knows who she fucking is, obviously. Remember who you are. Are you the sort of person when in July ... Okay, I'm super erratic today. You guys are gonna have to deal with it, 'cause I won't be here, I'll be in America til July 14 and then I'll be back here. I'll be back.

Katrina Ruth: I've forgotten completely ... I'm totally done, I'm totally done, I've totally forgotten what I was saying. This is gonna be the most embarrassing live stream in the history of time. But the whole point is on with the show, this is it. If this is the show then you're gonna have to deal with it. This is how the show's turning up today. The show didn't have much sleep, she's kinda all over the place, she had an epic awesome night and she can't think about anything. Her brain is fried. That's what's happening with the show. Talk amongst yourselves.

Katrina Ruth: Jess, I need some content inspiration. I'm dying, I'm bombing out on my own live stream. Okay, I'll be here from the 19th to the 23rd. Somebody's gonna need to save me. Give me a talking point. Over. As you were. I'll think of something. The superflow will click in anyway. I'm giving you a perfect live demonstration right now of how you can create content even when the content is about abso-fucking-lutely nothing. And yet miraculously somehow people are still watching. I don't understand. They love me. They love me, they really love me. I don't think I just got Jim Carrey superflow activated into my mind.

Jess Lewis: How to push through-

Katrina Ruth: Can we watch The Mask?

Jess Lewis: ... tide?

Katrina Ruth: How to push through? You just push. You just get your hands and you back it up like it's hard. I don't know what that means. You just put your hands on it's ass and you just push it. What else have you got? I answered that question already. Philippa is inviting herself to stay here with me. Of course she is. I like it when people ... I'm gonna say something that's weird and it's not sexual about Philippa just so that we're all clear. But you reminding me of, like I put a post up the other week like I really love it when a man who knows that he can, tells you what's gonna happen. Or he tells you that he's the boss or in charge. I had to be careful about how I worded that post 'cause I wasn't gonna write I just like it when a man tells me what to do. That's not in a general sense.

Jess Lewis: In bed, yes.

Katrina Ruth: No, that's not what I meant in bed. But sure in bed, of course. I didn't even mean it though. I meant like being like, I'm the man or I'm the dominant one in a general manly sense with an eau de man.

Jess Lewis: Eau de man.

Katrina Ruth: I like the smell of their skin.

Jess Lewis: So it is a sweaty man.

Katrina Ruth: Well, if it's a man that you are attracted to, then the sweat usually smells really good. I'm not even talking to anybody. There's no one over there. I'm just making it all up. I'm just imagining a character. So yes, Philippa's reminding me of when a man who knows that he can, just tells me what's gonna happen. And then I'm like, "Oh, okay." I know didn't even mean sexually. But of course sexually. But I didn't even mean that. I just meant in a general sense, take charge of me. It's similar to the meme that I put up. What's happening with your comments today, Steve? Are you drinking during the day? What's going on there? You're suddenly going next level engaged, I feel like somebody's hacked your Facebook or you're drinking. Is Matt on your Facebook right now? Is that's what's happening? And he's just sending a million comments. The pheromones, everybody loves a good pheromone. There's nothing better than a good pheromone. I can imagine it right now. The essence. So yeah, Philippa is the same as the men who tell me that they're in charge. I didn't mean as a whole bevvy of them. It came out the wrong way.

Katrina Ruth: Philippa just tells me what's happening, and I like it when people do that. But you have to know who you are. You have to know who you are if you're gonna tell me what's happening, you're gonna tell me what's happening? Who's gonna tell this bitch what's happening? Not many people. But some people who know who they are can get away with that. Philippa can maybe get away with that. Nobody's there at all. Philippa can get away with it, she's already proven that she can get away with it. Doesn't mean all y'all, I'm made in America now. Doesn't mean all the rest of you all can get away with it. You know if you can or if you can't. You have to vote for yourself. Do you back yourself and believe yourself enough to imagine that you can get away with telling me what to do?

Katrina Ruth: That's a dangerous little line to walk down isn't it? I'd like to see who's willing to back themselves with that. Put a comment in, let's see who you are. I'll tell you yes or no. Or maybe I won't at all, maybe I'll just observe who's brave enough to answer this question. Because no, not the whole internet can just tell me that they're gonna come and stay at my house that's not actually a thing. But certain people can. And it's the same as the man thing. No, not any man can walk around and just tell me what's up and what's happening. But if they know that they can, then they should. And I'll like it a lot.

Katrina Ruth: What were we up to? Back on topic. I had a little wardrobe dilemma today. I guess I could tell you about that. I feel like since I have situations here, two of them. Two situations that people might need to see or know about, that I should be displaying the situations at all time and now I'm wearing like a really regular baggy top but it's a cool top. And so that was a bit of a dilemma. It's not that interesting. I don't have anything to say. Okay, Thea says she's not there yet, Camilla says yes. What's on my shirt? Says religion. I dunno. It's from Religion in Bali, which is amazing. Angela can sit on the one couch as long as she has a tripod, a bottle of wine and not no ... You can have emails on the phone, you can have no notifications on the phone. No notifications on the phone.

Katrina Ruth: What else? Here's a cool thing, right? You can literally just sit and chill. Like I'm just chilling. Instead of having a nap, I'm just chilling with you guys. I'm talking about abso-fucking-lutely nothing. I feel like we should make Jess get on the live stream 'cause I'm being super boring. But yet people are still staying here and watching. I'm proving so many points right now about content. People who don't like me would be saying I'm proving the point that I have nothing to say about anything. I need another talking point. You guys are gonna have to give me one. In the end, it just comes down to are you willing to be the person who gets on with it.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, Philippa are you writing these things down in advance? Not only did she say flick the clit on my live stream, she now says she needs to touch the boobs. Hence, she needs to come there. Well, most of the women who I know have touched the boobs already. Linda just went straight in there. She's like, "Let's see them," so I took them out and she was just like, "Oh yeah." She started grabbing them literally. It was quite amusing. Beautiful view, yes it is. I'm sorry I'm being so boring. The point that I'm trying to make is you can be a show even when you're a boring show. That's the reality. You can talk about what you love. Right now what I'm loving is my coffee, I'm loving this cape that's on my lap, I'm loving the high vibery of my life. I'm loving the adventure that I had last night. I can't tell you all the details to that. You have to imagine them to yourself.

Katrina Ruth: Oh, thank you Lakisha, I'm loving that I'm doing comedy skits now. Filmed that a while ago. I was too embarrassed to post it. You know, the one about likes versus love. I didn't wanna post it. 'Cause then I was all like [inaudible 00:19:23] people were gonna think that's about them and it is. So then I hesitated to post it for a while. And then I did it anyway 'cause I don't let my own bullshit be given my message. When someone else is doing something similar to what you're selling, how do you not compare yourself.

Katrina Ruth: Oh that's an amazing question and by the way on a side note, thank you Lee, I appreciate it. Okay, okay I feel like we just kicked the switch. It wasn't the clit switch, just keep calm about that over there in New Zealand or wherever you are at. It was the superflow switch. Angela just flicked the superflow switch, not gonna flick itself. How you flick the superflow switch is you show the fuck up anyway when you're being boring as fuck. Drop the Empress details now because I'm gonna forget about otherwise. If you want ... By the way, by the way, by the way, enough with this coaching bullshit. We all know that if you resonate with me and you see an element in yourself in me, possibly the weirder parts mainly, then it's not about how do I make money as a coach online. And probably you've done that thing of going I'm never gonna coach again, I'm done with coaching. Who's done that?

Katrina Ruth: Every time a client says that to me I'm like, yeah, we'll see about that. You're not done with coaching, you just haven't given yourself permission to do it the way you wanna do it. Coaching, mentoring, it's one teeny tiny pocket. But, who we are is you can't even put it into words. But if you did you would say magnetic as fuck and brilliant in all its glory, and you are the fucking show and the coaching element is just one part of it. And what it's about in order for you to get your message out there, and in order to gain the following, the fame, the fortune that you desire is claiming your rightful place from an energetic point of view in terms of when are people gonna follow you if you're exactly the reason that Lee just said, the energy. 'Cause of not what you sell, not what you teach and the comparison thing I'll get to in a moment 'cause this is relevant to this as well. I'm totally talking like I've no clue what I'm on about by the way. I'm listening to my own words right now and I'm like, I sound like I'm drunk and I'm not.

Katrina Ruth: But I'm gonna persevere and keep going. I do not feel superflow, I just lost the superflow again. But I'm still demonstrating that you can show up and do the content anyhow. In Empress, which is my four week one-on-one. It begins in T-minus 10 days. I don't know what's the T for anyway. It begins in Monday the 25th of June, minus 10 days. So no, it begins in 10 days. That would be today. It begins on Monday, the 25th of June. Four weeks one-on-one with me. What we're doing is unleashing all the madness and the mayhem and the energy. I don't feel like I'm flying but I'm pushing through. I'm wading through the quicksand right now. I'm staying focused, I'm not at all focused. My head is as scattered as anything. I kinda wanna go upstairs and have a sleep. But I'm here because something inside of me told me to be here. So when I say yes to could, life says yes to me. So I'm just gonna do it. I'm just gonna push through and do it.

Katrina Ruth: And it is part of what I teach, and it is part of what Empress is about, and it is part of what building a following online and a personal brand is about. Who's correcting people's grammar in there? Is somebody correcting people's grammar in the comments? Is that's what's happening? You can't correct my grammar 'cause I'm talking aloud. I mean you can't correct my Y-O-U-'R-E versus your. So what I wanna do, what I'm gonna do, what I am doing is working with 20 badasses, 20 new amazing bad ass one-on-one clients who know that they were born to impact their energy. And it's about the Empress energy. It's about their revolutionary fucking leader energy. It's about the queen energy but it's even more than that, which is why it's Empress.

Katrina Ruth: Put 25 empress emojis in now please. Did you catch that?

Jess Lewis: We're up to 25.

Katrina Ruth: 25.

Jess Lewis: Crowns.

Katrina Ruth: Put 25 empress emojis in. The actual empress emoji.

Jess Lewis: Diamond.

Katrina Ruth: Empress. No, the one that looks like a little empress. There's an actual empress emoji. Do you know it?

Jess Lewis: I do know it.

Katrina Ruth: Why is there a bunny rabbit here? An empress emoji.

Jess Lewis: [inaudible 00:23:51]

Katrina Ruth: It's got a blond head like me and it looks like an empress because it's me. You're gonna put 25 of them in now. The 25 represents one of them is Chandra who's already signed up, several other ... Oh hang on. Do you know the one I mean? It's not always it, it's an empress.

Jess Lewis: Is that an elf?

Katrina Ruth: It's not an elf, it's an empress. I just put one of them in. Put 25 of them in now. Lakisha's put 25 in. Is that 25? Somebody count. Let's make sure this is being done properly. Mine looks evil. Anyway, the empress emojis represent the empresses who are coming in plus I dunno, maybe the ninjas are the other five. Me and four ninjas can be the other five. 'Cause 20 amazing empresses are gonna be working with me one-on-one starting July, not July, June 25. It is probably the most bizarre as fuck amazing transformative one-on-one programme I've ever created that's not about online marketing, right? It's completely a whole different thing.

Katrina Ruth: It is about impacting with your energy, selling with your energy, calling in the people with your energy, having the creative downloads and the flow and the soul shifts coming through from your energy. Details are in the pinned comment. That is for those who know that they're not just here to be a coach. That is for those who know that they are the fucking show. That they're suppose to be showing up, turning up, being up, lit up as fuck, and people follow you because you are the show. Read that comment and message me if you want details. Message me on my personal page.

Katrina Ruth: Okay now, Angela had asked a question ... I am so fucking certain that your Facebook has been hacked right now, Steve. "Cause I've never seen you with this many comments. What's happening? You're gonna need to send me a voicemail to prove that it's you. And why are these empress emojis brown haired, what's happening there? We need blond head ones. I require a voice message 'cause otherwise I feel like somebody in China has taken over your Facebook, or its mail. Okay. Angela had asked a question about comparison. Well, here's the reality, right? And I feel like this is obvious and everybody knows the answer already. There we go, blond emoji, blond empress emoji. Oh man, I just figured out how to get my face in the live stream and the beach. I'm a technological genius. I'm like an engineer, I'm like a high IQ engineer. I'm exactly like a high IQ engineer 'cause my father is a high IQ engineer and I'm quite similar to him. He's a pilot now, but he's an engineer as well. So I actually am a high IQ engineer, it's official. It's in the blood.

Katrina Ruth: There's no comparison, who said something about comparison? Why was there a question about comparison? What did it say? Now what I say about that is, you gotta go into your boldness. You gotta go into you're audacity. You gotta go into your audacity about the comparison odysseys thingy. Ask another question, someone 'cause I could answer some questions. So Angela would say when someone else is doing something similar to what you are selling, or something like that, then how engineer ... I say in the official properly Webster Dictionary audio-performed by [inaudible 00:27:16]. You gotta go into your audacity. You gotta go into it. You gotta go deep into the audacity. Things should always be deep, very fucking deep. Philippa knows all about it. I'm just gonna go serve some of them back at you since you took over my live stream a little bit. They should always be deep. Extraordinarily deep. And if you're gonna go into audacity, it should be like so deep that it comes out the other side. It doesn't sound ideal, I take it back, I retract, retract, retract. Have some chocolate smoothie. It's a greens powder. Super greens.

Katrina Ruth: Which means, nobody can fucking compare because no matter how hard somebody tries, no matter how hard somebody tries to be me, please. Good fucking luck. There is no way, I'm sorry, you can try to like ... I know some of you dyed your hair red, that was a nice effort, it was quite fun for me to giggle about when I then changed it to blond with the best colorist in the world. And it changed from full on red to blond in one session. Okay, I think it was a nine hour session, but still. And then all the red-headed people had just changed to red were screwed. Well, I guess they could have changed again. But just when people think that they're trying to catch up with me and they're like, "Oh okay, see what she's doing, let me take some notes, let me get some Cliff Notes about that. Let me make it into a PDF document so that I don't forget." Just when you think you've figured out what I'm doing, I'm already 25 fucking steps ahead of you.

Katrina Ruth: Oh, you think I'm over here, I'm already there. You try to catch up there, I'm back here again. You try to get me over here, I'm just sitting back here having a nap and a coffee. And you just run around all over the place looking like a headless chick, crazy. So no matter how hard you try, I won. I already won. I am the winner of being the Katrina Ruth Show. It is what it is, and that's all it is. And that's how I feel about the comparison question. You can try as hard as you like, you're never gonna be ... You could even get yourself a fabulous cape like this one, this is an amazing cape. Look at it. It's a great blankety cape. You can wear it either way. You've seen the cape. I wear the cape on the empress banner that's on my Facebook. It looks amazing. Which way do you like it better? I'm gonna put it on now.

Katrina Ruth: The only problem is that when I wear the cape on the live stream, it overheats me a little bit. And then I get sweaty. I don't like it that way. It looks like an evil fish scale. Turn it the other way. So we just be in flow and do our souls calling and we just know the money is coming. The money is a decision. What a great comment slash half question, comment, question by Jacqueline. The money is a decision. I live streamed about this yesterday actually. I did a two hour live stream of [inaudible 00:30:03] it always manages to go for two hours. I think it was only an hour 55. We cut it short with a short snack sized version. One hour, 55 minutes. And somebody asked that same question and we spoke about that. So you could watch that. It's only a couple more hours out of your day. But the short answer is, you decide. The money is a decision. Like I decided, and I gonna make myself some lunch and then have a nap, or I'm gonna make super food green smoothie and do a live stream.

Katrina Ruth: There's no emotion around it, it's not like is this smoothie available to me? Am I good enough, am I worthy for this smoothie? Did I do what it takes, do I have what it takes? Can I receive this? Can I maintain it if I keep it? Its just a motherfucking decision. So you make the damn smoothie and you have the smoothie, or you order one, you get a ninja to bring you one. You get them to bring you a coffee. That's money. That's the whole money story explained to you.

Katrina Ruth: Why is people messaging me right now? Don't message me when I'm on a live stream. I see them messaging over there in the Facebook inbox. That's the money situation sorted. Do I look like little Purple Riding Hood? Yes, you decide to allow yourself to be rich. That's exactly right. You know I made a quote image that says exactly that. It's one of my quote memes that we're gonna put on Instagram. Look at me, I look so snuggly, anybody would wanna give me a cuddle right now. You decide to be rich. You decide that you're gonna make money. And then you just ... Right, I'm stuck. Then you just ... oh my goodness, the person who's messaging me just wrote, oops, sorry. Are they listening to me? I was just being a smart ass. You're allowed to message me while I'm on the live stream. But if you just said sorry about that, then it's fine.

Katrina Ruth: So you do just decide. But you can't walk around and decide on ... Well you could, depends on your level of faith and belief. But lets say you're like, "Okay, cool Kat. Let me test out your little theory there. I'm gonna decide that I now make a million dollars per month," for example. Only Money Honey is one of the best programmes I've ever done. And the title of that programme came from because I had a massive wake up call around realising that I'd been getting so emotionally attached to money and to make it into a big deal like, "Oh my god, it's so hard to combine, am I good enough and am I worthy," all the stuff I just said about the smoothie. And then I just had like this breakthrough realisation, which was the product of freaking years of doing the inner work and figuring shit out and continually aligning myself day-by-day to where I would receive more. And the breakthrough was, holy shit, it's only money. It's like oxygen, it's everywhere. Breathe it in don't breathe it in, whatever. But why would you not breathe it in or you might die. Okay, we might not die without money. But you get what I mean, right?

Katrina Ruth: It is such an amazing programme. It's from 2014 I believe but I'm so proud of it. It stands the test of time as they all do. But that one it would be ... If I had to identify like my top five programmes, surely that one would have to be in the top five I would say. And that was the realisation for me. But if you then were like, Okay, I'm gonna just decide that now I make a million dollars a month and that's just how it is, Jess, you can definitely get some good screen shots of me now because I'm wrapped snuggly in my cape. Snuggly. I don't know, what would I use this screenshots for though. Maybe not. Has she left? Did you leave?

Jess Lewis: No.

Katrina Ruth: Okay. So then you can't just be ... Well you can, depends on your faith. But don't try and test me out by saying, "Oh now I just decide that I make a million bucks a month," or a year, or whatever else. I'm not freezing at all, I've got a cape wrapped around me. Not at all freezing. You can't just say that and expect it to fucking work if you don't have that level of belief. So what you would do is, you would ask well, to what level am I capable of believing right now? How can I stretch just a little bit beyond what I feel is available or possible for me. And then you begin to align yourself to that. You align yourself piece by piece by piece by piece by piece in that direction. What does that mean? It means that you continue to look daily at, well if it was that simple, and I just now received that money because I just fucking decided it and it's like ordering something from a restaurant, of course I get it.

Katrina Ruth: If it was that simple, then what would my thoughts be, what would my feelings be, what would my emotions be? Am I freezing for other people as well, tell me. And what would my aligned actions be? And then you do it. You just fucking do it. You do the best that you can for that day and you release the outcome. Why is it freezing, why? Nobody's answering me. It's very upsetting. You just do the best that you can for the day. You decide and choose it. Of course you're gonna get that result straight away this day, this month, this year, this now. And so you act accordingly and then you fucking release it. You release it. Freezing, not freezing, well, some of you must have your energy fields all fucked up and others don't. That's all I can say about that. So then like yesterday for example I was giving my daughter a little smack down on this exact topic. 'Cause she wasn't to do a aerial cartwheel, which is a cartwheel with no hands. She's nearly nailed it. She's very good at her gymnastics.she just got graduated to the next level and only two people in her whole class got graduated two days ago she's very happy about it.

Katrina Ruth: So she's practising doing no hands cartwheels and then she was getting herself into a royal mess and sulked about it at the playground yesterday. And I'm not the most empathetic of mothers. I was like, "Listen, harden the fuck up." I didn't say fuck, I said, "Listen, you need to harden' up. Stop crying about it. That's not gonna help it at all. Here's what you do." And I told her how to believe in yourself. I tried to make her live stream with me about it and she refused. She's quite the diva. So I'll try and reenact it for you. So I was like, "This is how you do it. You go out there to do your cartwheel, your aerials and you decide you will do it today." She's like, she asked me, "Do you believe that I can do it today?" I'm like, "I do, I do believe that it's possible that you can do it today. You need to believe that you can do it today. So when you go out there now to do that," and I was sitting there having a picnic just chilling and eating while she was working out. I like to see my children working hard and sweating while I sit back. Or it can go the other way. Either way is fine.

Katrina Ruth: So ib said to her, "You have to believe. You have to fully believe that you're doing this today. And ten at the same time though, you've gotta be totally okay with if you spend the next hour trying to do it or however long and then it doesn't happen, you gotta be totally okay with that and then tomorrow you've gotta get up again and believe again that this is the day I am doing it today, I will do it today, nothing is gonna stop me. Of course it's happening today and so I'm going in with that attitude and you do whatever you can as best as you can for the time that you have available for that day with full belief that of course it's gonna happen that day. And if it doesn't, you get up the next fucking day and you do it again." And then she's like, "but I can't do it tomorrow because," then she listed out her whole busy schedule for me which was happening today.

Katrina Ruth: And I'm like, "Okay I didn't technically mean it has to be the ... Okay, then the next day after that." And then she was trying and then ... Well, she kept not quite getting it, right? I mean it's a cartwheel with no hands. She'd only been practising for like a week as well. She's very impatient. I have no idea where she got it from. So then she starts getting grumpy though. She was like not crying but kind of getting ... She was getting super frustrated and shitty about it. I was like, "Listen to me. Drop that attitude right now." Which this is how I was speaking to her as well. She wants to be the best. She wants to like practise all freaking day and get the results. You're gonna have to learn what it takes. It is what it is.

Katrina Ruth: So I said, "Listen to me. You're gonna need to drop that attitude right now. As soon as you start to get frustrated and upset about it and you're getting grumpy, then you're immediately making it that you're not gonna be able to do it today. You're switching off," I didn't say abundance, but it's the same thing, right? So those of you who are out there, and you're hustling and you're showing up and you're like of course I'm gonna have million dollar business, of course I'll make this much money. And then you're like, I'm doing the inner work and I'm doing the actions and the beliefs and the emotions and yeah the practical side as well. And I believe, I believe. Are you or are you not getting shitty when you don't get a result? are you having a little sulk? are you being like a child just stamping their foot, "This is not working?" That's normal and you're gonna have to drop that attitude.

Katrina Ruth: Because the second that you go into that attitude of this is shitty, this is not working, what's wrong with me, why can't I do this, other people are better than me, all that stuff, that immediately dials down abundance. You turn off the abundance switch, you flick the switch back off and not in a good way at all. So you've got to be in an expanded energy and in an everything is perfect and okay and I'm totally fine energy in order to receive. Who knows that you're not gonna receive when you're an energy of like, "Waa, why is this not working, and why is everyone better than me?"

Katrina Ruth: So as I said, it's normal to have those responses, but hello, did we come here for normal? No we fucking did not come here for normal. So why would you be acting so normal? Very boring of you if you think about it. So it's a discipline is what I'm saying. It's a motherfucking discipline to be in abundance mindset and a manifestation mindset. It's a choice to drop the attitude. It's a choice to drop the drama. Yeah, you can still feel it, I don't mean I don't feel that shit if something doesn't work out the way that I want it to in any area of my life. I might have a little temper tantrum for a second in time, but I'm very conscious of this ship because I've been doing what I'm doing, teaching what I teach for so long now, I know how it works, I know how I'm receiving a manifestation works so I notice myself doing it and it's literally like, let it go. It is what it is and that's all it is. It's one of my favourite sayings. No matter what. When my kids are grumping about something or anybody is or something goes wrong or doesn't work, I always am like, it is what it is.

Katrina Ruth: And then Alyssa my eight year old who will finish it off for me and she goes, "And that's all it is." I'm like, "Exactly. It is what it is and that's all it is. So what's the point of getting shitty about it? Go back in, believe that you're gonna do it today." And she's like, "Mommy, mommy, do you think that I'm really gonna do it today?" I'm like, "Yeah, I believe that you can. And if you don't, so what. You get up and you believe it again the next day." That's how it's done. And if it's too hard, it's too challenging, you need to have a cry about it, you need to get a blanky and a freaking hot chocolate with some marshmallows, then too bad, you don't get to be this life, you don't get to be this life. You don't get to live that life. You gotta fix your attitude if you wanna be successful. It is what it is and that's all it is.

Katrina Ruth: Alright. What time are we up to? I feel like I said many things about many things and hopefully some of them hit home. I think that last bit was quite good. I think we could get some good screen shots of me waving around my cape here. I like to get some good screen shots for my live streams. I feel like my sectional belief was powerful. You should listen to it again. You should think about where you need to maybe drop the attitude and choose to believe. I think I need wings. Can you order me some wings?

Jess Lewis: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. She said yeah. Of course she did. I'm gonna get ... No I'm not gonna tell you, it's a secret. I definitely need some wings. Sometimes you just need some wings. But I can use this cape in the meantime. You need to have a look at ... We could all have a look at where we're acting like a grumpy child stamping its foot. It's okay, you're allowed to be human. But at some point if you wanna be freaking extraordinary in your outcomes I guess you're gonna have to start acting like that. You're gonna have to choose to be strong enough to put the drama aside to go within, within, all the way within and to release whatever needs to come out into the atmosphere. Which is a next level badass version of you.

Katrina Ruth: Empress is here. Four weeks one-on-one with me. I'm gonna tell you about it a little bit. Claim your rightful place now. For women are unapologetically born for more. Begins June 25 details are in the pinned comment. You wanna message me about this if you're willing and ready to step up. You gotta be willing. You can't just say that you know you meant to, you've gotta also be willing. Empress claim your rightful place now. For those who are born for more, born for exceptional, born for extraordinary and not of this world. Read the rest. Read it in the pinned comment. Message me on my personal page. Tell me something amazing. Leave me a comment and I don't even know what else I'm gonna say. Okay. Any final thoughts?

Jess Lewis: Who me?

Katrina Ruth: Yes.

Jess Lewis: Life is now, press play.

Katrina Ruth: She said life is now, press play. Very uncreative. Think of something else.

Jess Lewis: I can play any tune you like.

Katrina Ruth: She said flick the clit switch. I'm paraphrasing. She said she needs to tune in. She said you need to tune into yourself. I changed it to flick the clit switch. How rude. Alright. Life is now, press the motherfucking play. Read the Empress comment here below. Read all about it. I'm sorry I was so all over the place. I'm not sorry at all. It is what it is, just deal with it. It is what it is and that's all it is. This is the Katrina Ruth Show, it's happening right here. I am the show. Wanna be your show? Wanna step into your Empress power, into your Empress energy, into your Empress environment, into all of it? Message me ... Really going through ...

Katrina Ruth: I'm breaking down right now. 6,000 dollar bonus you might have just not had many sections of wifi broke down. So much on the bad assery. It is an incredible fucking life changing four weeks. I've run it one time before. The results and the power, and the shifts that come through from that honestly just blew me away. So I haven't done the best explanation of it today but I have a read of what's in there if you feel that might be time to step up and work with me one-on-one if that's in anyway intriguing you or speaking to your soul, then have a little read, send me a message and I'll send you a more detailed overview of what's actually going on. I'll probably audio it. We'll talk, we'll figure it out. We'll do all the things. We'll create all the things, you will be the empress who you'll want to be. Have an amazing epic rest of the day. On behalf of Jess Lewis, Kat ninja, flick the clit switch, and from me, life is now. Press fucking play.

Kat: Okay. Oh. How do I do this? Wait for it.

Patrick: Got to do it.

Kat: Are you going [crosstalk 00:00:42] through the snow?

Patrick: Yeah I'm going through the snow. I got it at like 60 degrees in here right now. It's 60 degrees in my house, I have no idea why.

Kat: Is that cold?

Patrick: To me it is, yes.

Kat: Does that mean cold, I don't understand your language.

Patrick: To me it is very cold. To me its subzero temperature, I'm absolutely freezing right now. I'm about to die of a cold or flu.

Kat: Your dying?

Patrick: Yup. I have not gone [crosstalk 00:01:11]

Kat: It's a sad state. I'm going to ...

Patrick: Hold on let me [crosstalk 00:01:18]

Kat: I'm finding out what temperature that is. I'm Googling it so everybody understands what's happening.

Patrick: Oh yeah, it doesn't translate. Doesn't translate in your language.

Kat: Oh, it's 15 degrees. Hang on I've got to shut the door, there's window men right outside my door and it's super noisy. One second.

Patrick: 15 degrees. Holy shit, what the fuck happened to my computer. So what's up everybody, hello, hello, welcome everybody. I'll go ahead and say that. Hello?

Kat: What's up?

Patrick: [inaudible 00:01:47] everybody's already said something. I don't know, my computer just took a shit. I've no idea. So did you say 15 degrees, your words? This is retarded. Hold on. I can't hear you.

Kat: [inaudible 00:02:04] must be dying.

Patrick: I can't, what the [crosstalk 00:02:06]

Kat: Am I back? Am I back?

Patrick: Yeah you're back. Oh, I forgot we're on my internet connection.

Kat: Yeah I had ... No, it's because I put my earplugs in because my house cleaner is upstairs vacuuming.

Patrick: Oh well how fancy, how fancy.

Kat: I'm very fancy, you know that.

Patrick: Very fancy with your extravagance earbuds.

Kat: So I said that everybody should send you a love heart shower because you're surviving in only 15.555 degree Celsius right now, for the Australians. Now, if people are from Melbourne though, which is my hometown, they're going to be like, "Harden the fuck up, that's warm," but here where I live that's horrible. Horrible. Nobody should have to endure those sort of ...

Patrick: Yeah, these are very horrible circumstances. [crosstalk 00:02:58]

Kat: Nobody should have to endure those sort of subzero temperatures.

Patrick: Nobody should be asked to endure these subzero temperatures, I'll tell you that. All right.

Kat: All right. I might need some assistance. Can you help me out?

Patrick: What do you got?

Kat: Should I wear my hair like this? Should I wear my hair like that or behind? Or on one side? What's the best livestream hair?

Patrick: I kind of like it behind.

Kat: Out?

Patrick: That looks good.

Kat: Behind, all right. There you go everybody.

Patrick: There you go. That looks good.

Kat: We're going to talk about [crosstalk 00:03:37]

Patrick: That's the queen Kat look.

Kat: [crosstalk 00:03:39] Cleopatra.

Patrick: She says, Angela said, [inaudible 00:03:43] I'm in Texas right now. Texas by way of Bali, very, very soon. In the next month, no, no, this month. This month, I'm going next week, next week.

Kat: This week maybe. Maybe even tomorrow.

Patrick: No I have to wait till the weekend.

Kat: Oh well.

Patrick: Have to wait till the weekend because [crosstalk 00:04:04] I have to move my stuff.

Kat: Time and space is just, time is just an illusion anyway. The weekend could mean tomorrow. Could mean today. Could all be one day. That's extended into itself.

Patrick: Time is an illusion [crosstalk 00:04:18]

Kat: I think I'm going to take these out again now. I'm going to take these out again now because they're annoying me.

Patrick: What is [inaudible 00:04:25] giving you a delay? I'm going to drop this in my [crosstalk 00:04:30]

Kat: No, I just prefer no earbuds and the vacuuming stopped. But check it out, I'm sorry that I keep doing this to you Patrick, but I'm going to do it anyway. Are you ready?

Patrick: I'm ready.

Kat: I'm just eating my bacon and eggs with my Vegemite while in waiting for us to go live.

Patrick: Oh my God. Oh my god.

Kat: I was halfway through eating.

Patrick: How are you destroying this fucking meal with that shit? That's an all American meal, and you're just going to destroy it with that. Destroy it, it's completely just-

Kat: Look, pay attention. You want to put the Vegemite straight onto your eggs. Straight on.

Patrick: What's that green thing? I don't want to put that Vegemite anywhere near my eggs. I don't want it anywhere near any of my food.

Kat: That's avocado.

Patrick: Oh that's an avocado?

Kat: That's avocado.

Patrick: I thought you all had green eggs and ham over there or something because I don't even know.

Kat: You want to eat that with, look, pay attention.

Patrick: I have no idea what you all have over there.

Kat: You want to put a little bit of Vegemite on the avocado, eat it like that. I don't know why I get so much enjoyment from doing this to you.

Patrick: [crosstalk 00:05:29] it's just crazy how different people's taste buds are.

Kat: It's so good.

Patrick: What you just did-

Kat: It's just because-

Patrick: What you just did was the equivalent of somebody spraying a cat turd on a fucking piece of toast and eating it to me, that's just what I just saw you do.

Kat: I'd love to have some toast. [crosstalk 00:05:52] I'd love to have toast with avocado. You also-

Patrick: What's up [crosstalk 00:05:57] on here. Feel like we're getting delayed [crosstalk 00:06:00] again, we're delayed.

Kat: We're not delayed. The internet just doesn't know how to keep up with us, but really you should also always dip your bacon straight into the Vegemite. Pay attention. Look.

Patrick: I'm not paying attention to that, it's fucking heresy.

Kat: Because salt with bacon. The saltiness, it's like extra salt in it. It's great.

Patrick: That's the most disgusting thing.

Kat: So yesterday-

Patrick: You're so beautiful and then you do such disgusting things to yourself. It's just weird. It's like [crosstalk 00:06:37] weird, it's like-

Kat: It's part of my mystique.

Patrick: Why did this very creative hot chick just do the nastiest thing. It's like watching a shizer video. Know what shizer is, [crosstalk 00:06:44] the German [crosstalk 00:06:45]

Kat: I'm sorry, but thanks. No. No. But I appreciate the compliment.

Patrick: No. Have no idea [crosstalk 00:06:51]

Kat: But I can't help it, it's part of my mystique.

Patrick: That's not mystique, that's not.

Kat: But it's actually ... Do I need to know?

Patrick: What'd you say? We've got a delay, we've got a delay.

Kat: Do I need to know? No I was waiting for you, do I need to know or understand?

Patrick: Well you're from Germany, so you should know. It's basically German scat porn basically. You know what scat porn is? Have you ever heard of it?

Kat: I don't watch any German porn. Currently I don't watch German porn. I watch regular, all American or Australian porn.

Patrick: Well I'm saying that you can know of it, you can know of it. There's different types you know, when you're scrolling through you're going to see some different categories. There's grandma, there's all sorts [crosstalk 00:07:38] of different types. Then there's German shizer, there's scat porn, you just happen to be scrolling by it, see it, sometimes.

Kat: So basically what's happened here is we came on to do a recoded conversation about art and resistance and flow and we're talking about German porn?

Patrick: Yes. Particularly the scat variety. You invited me on here.

Kat: I just like to keep-

Patrick: You fucking invited me on here.

Kat: I think you said we need to record our conversation. You said I believe ... Thank you. You said I believe it's time to record our conversation again or something like that I believe it is. You messaged me yesterday and then you must have rudely just gone to bed straight after messaging me because I needed help, I was stuck in the resistance, I wrote back to you with a happy faced emoji. Then you must have gone to sleep so I just had to live in the resistance all by myself with nobody to kick my ass.

Patrick: Yeah, I saw that, I was like man [crosstalk 00:08:38]

Kat: And that's how I ended up with [crosstalk 00:08:39]

Patrick: That was a weird thing to wake up to, I was like wow, you were in the, you, Kat of all people in the resistance? Now that's the part usually reserved for me. I'm the one that likes to play in the resistance.

Kat: I know, it's mind blowing. The truth is maybe I just don't talk about it enough. It's like quicksand, it was dragging me into it. It was probably a Vegemite deficiency in my bloodstream. There was definitely a flow deficiency in my bloodstream.

Patrick: It's all coming to a head you know. It's finally attacking your nervous system.

Kat: The Vegemite? Or the flow?

Patrick: Yes.

Kat: So then okay, so this morning I went to Muay Thai and I was doing my rounds in the ring and I couldn't breathe properly. It's fucking annoying because I'm very fit, but my fitness just wasn't there. He's like, "What's going on?" And I said to him, my trainer, "I think I'm just not connected to my body properly yet." Like I haven't connected into my body yet because my mind's thinking about other stuff and we had already done maybe three or four rounds. I was going hard, but I was just like kind of breathing like that, but I wasn't feeling anxious about anything. So then it was just fucking annoying, but as soon as I, like we got to maybe 30 or 40 minutes into the session even, and then you feel that switch click and you connect to flow and you're just like holy shit, it's on and you're in that dance and that super flow.

Kat: It's exactly like business. I was saying to my trainer this morning it's like, you're like, ugh, even I get this, I get it every fucking day. Like people maybe think I'm motivated because I do so much content. Well I'm driven by, I hate the fucking feeling of when I don't do my content. I just feel like shit if I don't do my art, but that doesn't mean that when I sit my ass in the chair that it's flowing. It's often exactly the same as at the start of that workout where the first 10 or 20 or 30 or even 40 minutes, you just feel like you're wading through quicksand. You don't feel connected properly and you're not breathing deeply and then you're thinking, this shit, what am I even writing. Even yesterday after I messaged you then I was like fuck you, apparently you're not going to message me back and save me, so I'm going to have to write something myself and figure it out. [crosstalk 00:11:07]

Patrick: [inaudible 00:11:10] all the time.

Kat: And I write something, I write a blog anyway, but it was so shit. I posted it anyhow on Facebook, it was just the lamest thing I've ever posted in the history of time. It's still there, everyone can see it from yesterday. Even my team are like, "What is this, is this a blog? Are we supposed to put this on the Instagram story? What is this actually, there's no photo, it's not long enough." No, they weren't really ... But my point is you just got to do that damned thing anyway. You don't wait for flow, you get into flow. Sometimes you've got to get in and it's like a tumultuous, whitewater river and you just got to get pounded under the water again and again and knocked back down. Then at some point it's like boom, I'm in the flow zone. Everyone just wants to be in the flow zone, but you don't get there without being willing to go through the quicksand a bit.

Patrick: No, it's funny you mention this now and I glad we're on here talking about this because I actually had exactly what you're talking about happened today, but fortunately ... So, did you ever get back into, did you ever reach flow or did you just spend the whole day just not, you didn't get there? Or did you finally get there?

Kat: Yesterday, you know what, I wrote the damn post anyway. I published a post, I put a sales call to action on the end because I fucking show up for my art, that's my commitment. I'm very consistent. I'm probably the most consistent person on the internet with content, I believe. And I'm personally doing all my content myself as well, it's not like you know some people put a tonne of content out there, but how much content are they actually doing.

Patrick: Mm-hmm (affirmative).

Kat: I think I'm like the most consistent person out there. So I posted the damn post anyway, I had to cut it short because I was meeting somebody and I knew that he was going to be there any minute. I was like all right, I didn't even have the time to get into my flowzone, I had like 12 minutes. I'm like fuck, I'll write something. I still wrote a damn blog, I still put a sales call to action on the end. I was like, this is bullshit, but, I don't know how many likes or comments are on it, but the people who commented and liked it, the people who commented were like, "This is exactly what I needed." And so it's about getting out of your own way, but then after that I went on a walk for like two hours. Had a good conversation and then came home and I still wasn't quite in that flowzone and I thought I could livestream last night and snap myself into it. But I didn't, resistance got me by the ass. I sat around for a bit, fucked around, pretending to do things on the computer and then I just went to bed.

Kat: But, this morning, I don't know if you read my blog this morning. It was so good, it might be one the best posts I've written this year. It's called, "You're not a marketer you're an artist. A tortured one or not, and you'd better start fucking acting like it," or something like that. When I wrote that [crosstalk 00:13:55] blog ... Huh?

Patrick: I saw it, I usually read your stuff at night on my time, nighttime you know. At the end of my day I'll read it. So you kind of catch me whenever I haven't read it yet.

Kat: You're going to like that one. I'm so happy with that. You know when you write something or you do a livestream and you're just like oh, yeah, I fucking nailed it. Or, I didn't even know what I wrote, but I got what I want from it. I got that release and that connection to soul and then I went straight to training to Muay Thai then I was disconnected for 35 minutes. Then I got in the zone and holy shit, the last 15 or 20 minutes of my workout this morning, I have not brutalised myself like that in a while. It was so good, like I was nearly collapsing onto the floor. It's like that voice in your head that's like oh, are you going to die, are you going to die, you think you're going to fall down and die? You can't keep going? Are you dead yet? No, then keep fucking going bitch. I was just smack talking myself and I was so on the edge of being like I need timeout, I need to stop early.

Kat: I just kept going and I kept thinking of, like I always remember Arnold Schwarzenegger saying that your body can go so much further than your mind. Like when you think that your body is done, whether it's in training, but also with the business. Your writing, your art, it's such a load of bullshit. I love nothing better than kicking my own ass and being like oh, you think you're hurting, you think this hurts? Keep fucking going. It's the most empowering feeling in the world. I literally collapsed onto the floor in the ring at the end of the session. Within a second though I had the biggest smile on my face already even though I was in agony.

Kat: It's just, I don't know, I don't know how many people relate to that, but I love the pain, the purposeful pain. Otherwise, you just feel like you're not alive. So that resistance got me yesterday, but then today I eliminated it.

Patrick: Well I know we were talking, the night before I believe, we were talking about how to say enjoy resistance. We were also talking about some of the things that were going on with your spot and where you were living at and things like that. We were talking about being where you were at and that you might have to create new challenges for yourself. You think this is maybe a product of that? Maybe your mind switched over to that, maybe you wanted some more resistance and you brought that to yourself?

Kat: Maybe, that's a good point. Yeah, we had a phone call the other night that went for nearly three hours. At the end we were like fuck, we forgot to record our phone call again, so that we can sell it to everybody. It was so good. So now we-

Patrick: It was good.

Kat: No we're doing this for everyone. You can send [crosstalk 00:16:38] us a love heart [inaudible 00:16:40] huh?

Patrick: Some love hearts to what?

Kat: To thank us for being here and speaking.

Patrick: Oh yeah, for sure. Check this out though, so we talked about that right and then so now that was happening, this resistance was happening. Now I've been like, the resistance is easing up on me. I've been going through fucking resistance because I'm a glutton for punishment. I don't know what do they call it, sadistic? No, it was masochist, what's the one where you like to get kicked in the balls?

Kat: Isn't one of them like means you like to hurt other people and one means you like to hurt yourself? Masochist is you like self punishment I think.

Patrick: Yeah, I think that's the one.

Kat: And sadist is you like to hurt other people.

Patrick: Yeah, yeah. Yeah, one of those two, the one where you get kicked in the balls. Obviously that's what I'm going through right now, I like to kick myself in the balls here. I've been going through that resistance, what we talked about on the phone. Maybe I want to, obviously yes, of course, why the fuck, how could it be any other way? How could it be any other way? Anything that you're going through, any resistance that you have in your life is because you want it to be there. Plain and simple. There's no other way around it, if you take responsibility for everything in your life as you should, as you should. If you believe in manifestation, if you believe it's all in your control. If you fucking believe in manifestation, [inaudible 00:18:03] you can alter your body by eating donuts or ramen noodle soups and still lose weight. If you believe that you have that [crosstalk 00:18:12] kind of control-

Kat: Who said anything about donuts?

Patrick: If you believe that you have that kind of control over the universe, then you better damn fucking well believe that you're making this shit up. That you're making up the resistance, you're creating the resistance. You're creating the despair, the feeling, the thoughts or the anguish. All that shit you want to, you fucking masochist you. You want the kick in the balls for some reason.

Patrick: Okay, well I'm tired of the kick in the balls I guess. I must be done with it because today, so and then we're talking about now we're talking about my day. What's up Johnny? What's up Pistol Pete. Then we're talking about, now it's kind of easing up on me right. I woke up this morning and I saw your message, I'm like damn, I left her in the cooker last night. She's just, it's like I can't believe I saw this message of resistance here. I'm like, I was blown away by it you know, but I knew you were asleep, so obviously went about my day.

Patrick: I started out my day just like you're talking about. I couldn't get into where I was trying to go. I was getting wrapped up and started right out the gate getting into shit that's not my art. Started getting into stuff pertaining to my other business, which I had put a cutoff date. We had just got done talking about that, saying fuck everything until noon or whatever, you know, until we get going. Right off the bat I start getting things happening though that were saying to me that some resistance was being overcome in the other business. So I was like huh, so I took the bait you know. I took the bait.

Patrick: Not only that, last night I had found a blog post that I had written and I had never posted it. I got scared about it and I didn't post it. I was acting like a little bitch and I left it there. And so I discovered it and I was like fuck, I had already wrote a blog post that night. So, I had two blog posts and so I was happy about that, I'm like okay, I've got two. I'm going to drop those tomorrow. So I'm feeling good about that. I went to sleep and I woke up and immediately some things started happening at the other business, some resistance was overcoming the other business. I'm like fuck, okay, okay we're making some headway here so this is good. I jump right in this, it's like 8:00 in the morning, I jump right into that and start going to mess with my other business.

Patrick: I get caught up with all that and next thing you know 12:00 comes around. I'm slugging, but I had been throughout the day doing tiny things because I'd been, I'm going to post content all day. Today, I'm just going to have a day where I post all content. You know on my Instagram, I'm going to post content throughout the day on my Facebook, I'm going to post whatever. I had just been starting to feel it again. Started to post things and they were getting a lot of engagement on them you know, just things that I would think, I'd post it and just small things you know, not real boring blog posts.

Patrick: Then I drop my blog post on there, sprinkle that because I had that ace up my sleeve, so I drop the blog post, bam. I drop the other blog post, bam. Then it just started to come together, right. Then we rolled right into, right about 12:00 noon or so I took a little nap and then 1:00 PM and then the resistance just started to go down. All just starts to crumble right?

Kat: Yeah.

Patrick: Everything starts going right. I just start banging out all sorts of stuff. Me and Travis ended up doing, we just got done off of a livestream, which generated a lot of new people into our circle and to his audience. I'm jumping on here with you and now this is going, this is a great one right, so just like all the ones that we do. And so, it just started rolling, that's been my day. It just started rolling, and it started out just like you talked about though. It's very sluggish, but it took me till about 1:00 PM till it just started to roll really good, but I stuck with it. I stuck with it, I just kept on thinking I've posted, but it was like bite sized pieces of content that I kept dropping that led up to it.

Kat: Yup. Exactly. Exactly and we talked about this when we were on the phone the other night that was like until 2:00 AM my time, that massive phone call. I said the same thing about when you're working out and it's like the first 10 or 20 minutes or however long, you just feel like fuck this shit. I don't really want to be here, I'm not feeling it. That was me this morning in the ring, I was like oh, fuck. Okay, yeah, I'm here, I'm doing what I need to be doing, but my mind was like why am I here. I'm not really vibing with this and I wish I didn't come today or whatever. You just fucking learn over the years, you figure it out finally when time is passing you by in your life and then you still didn't do the damn shit that you said you were going to do. At some point you just figure the shit out where you're like, oh fuck.

Kat: I can remember, probably five years ago I can remember feeling like I think I was waiting, I thought there would be a point in my life where I would evolve to being a person whose always motivated and always ready, always has the inspired ideas and wants to do the damn thing. I remember one day it just kind of smacked me in the face like a wake-up call where I was like, oh shit, I just realised that for the rest of my life I will still battle resistance because it's part of the human condition. Particularly as an artist, resistance is inherent to being an artist, that's why I wrote this morning about the tortured soul. Probably your blog influenced my post this morning a little bit because you know, like I told you, when I got up in the morning before I journal I always read something. There's only like five people whose shit I'll read and I checked if you posted something new. I checked, you had posted something new so I read your blog and it was full-on. For me I found that full-on to read to hear the voices inside of your head. I was like holy shit that was so raw, it was like everybody should go read that blog. It's on your personal profile right?

Patrick: Appreciate it.

Kat: Go read it. But it was kind of painful to read, I found it kind of painful to read.

Patrick: That's so funny you said that, [crosstalk 00:24:31] somebody messaged me, two people messaged me and they said the exact fucking same thing. They said, "I can't believe that shit. I did not know you wrote like that," and they said that it was painful. I said, "Well, what's painful about it?" It was like, "Well, it's painful to read." Two women you know, so I was wondering why is it painful for you to read it, you know what I mean? That's what I was wondering because I really was thinking about connecting with guys for it you know, more along the lines with the guys.

Kat: Well, for me personally I found it painful to read because I care about you. I was like, that's like hearing somebody that you care about saying that shit about themselves, it's like fuck, it just felt painful for me for that reason. I don't know about what other people's reasons are, but also because I could relate to it. At first, I was thinking this so fucking full-on I can't believe you say that shit inside of your head, I found it shocking.

Kat: Then I was like wait, why do I find it shocking, it's only shocking because you're writing it down because I've said all that same sort of shit to myself many times over as well. In my way, about my own stuff and if people heard the voices inside my head I'm sure they'd be shocked. Like you were taken aback even by me just simply saying that I'm in resistance, right? Now think about the shit that you put in that blog, it was extreme. Well I think that's why at first I was like, this is so full-on, like I felt shocked or upset about it just relevant to you personally, not in a general sense. Then I was like wait, no, it's just because this is a very raw, extreme thing for somebody to write down. I definitely have said so much to inside of my own head.

Kat: Then I loved the way you finished the post like where basically you choose each day, every day you have those voices in your head and then you have the voice that's saying that you can and that you will. Then that is now what you do, you do your damn journaling, you do your content, you're showing up for your business and for your art. That's exactly the same as me and that's what I've always done and that's what I've done to get to this point. Now, for sure I don't have as much of those voices as I used to, it is less because I guess I've proven myself, to myself to whatever degree.

Kat: But it's still here and that's what I think so many people don't understand about me. I'm not, or about anyone, about you as well, you do your livestreams every day, I do my content every day. People then go, oh no well I couldn't be like Patrick or I couldn't be like Kat. They're motivated, they're good on camera or whatever it is, but then go and read what you wrote about how you feel about yourself some of the time. Or if somebody could hear inside of my head and the smack talk that goes on in there. It's about realising that yeah, as you keep going and as time passes it will get easier, and I think you said this in your post, it gets easier because you learn how to deal with it. I feel like I learned how to dance with resistance and I can see it for the bullshit that it is, whereas maybe earlier on in my life I tended to believe it more.

Kat: Now even if I feel like I'm believing it a little bit, I'll be like, yeah, no, I know exactly what's going on here. I do know what the answer is because fucking 20 years of training, of fitness training, has taught me how to get into flow and how to breakthrough resistance and discipline my ass and if you're not dead yet you keep going. Then many, many years in business as well has taught me the same thing, so I always know that the answer is too fucking bad, sit your ass down and do the damn thing. Sometimes it will feel fucking incredible, like today when I wrote my blog I was on the biggest high. I got in the car and I was just slamming my best tunes and then driving down to the fight gym. I was like, this is the best day ever, I'm so in the zone and that's an amazing feeling.

Kat: I wish I could have that feeling every day, but yesterday felt like quicksand day. It doesn't matter right, like some days you'll feel superflow, some days you won't, so the fuck what. Either way you keep going, but for sure because I read your blog first and then normally I read a piece, I read if you write something or [inaudible 00:28:44] or whoever else I read, like such a small handful of people. Then I go into my journaling and then usually I write my blog after that. Today I read your blog first and then it really did impact me a lot, then I went straight into writing my blog, I didn't even do anything on [crosstalk 00:29:00] yet today, which is [crosstalk 00:29:01]

Patrick: Damn, did my blog fuck your day up? Did my blog fuck your day up?

Kat: No, no, it's the opposite because I had to write straight after that.

Patrick: Oh, that's good.

Kat: I went straight into writing that piece, but I was partly responding to you and partly I was thinking about one of my inner circle clients and partly it was for myself. Okay wait, we're going to need to start again because Brandon just jumped on and he asked that we start again. So where we started [crosstalk 00:29:26]-

Patrick: I believe we started without him.

Kat: Was with me dipping the bacon into the Vegemite. We got to start with the bacon and the Vegemite if we're starting from the top.

Patrick: Can we please not?

Kat: Anyway-

Patrick: Brandon dammit, this was a bad day for that. Even though you're eating [crosstalk 00:29:39]

Kat: Yeah, no, [crosstalk 00:29:40] read my blog later you'll see my blog was partly like it's speaking to you and like I was talking to you, but then I was talking to myself, but then I was talking to one of my clients and I told her that. It was just, I kind of love that because something you wrote definitely impacted what I created and what I created will be impacting other people. It's just amazing, it's the collective unconscious.

Patrick: Well I saw your blog post and it jumped out at me. I was like this is something that I have to read, I just saw the title and I can't remember exactly what it said. I just saw it and I was like, I'm going to have to read that later on because I immediately saw it and I was feeling like, I don't know it was kind of geared towards me or something. The words weren't like that, but I just felt that, you know what I mean?

Kat: Yeah, and I knew, usually I don't tell somebody if I write a blog that's skewed towards them because I know you're going to feel it anyway. It's not always, but often I'll be thinking of a particular person when I'm writing. It started off towards you and then it became about me. I thought it was going to be, I thought the post was going to be about honouring and respecting the artist, being like my soul recognises the artist in your soul, that sort of thing. Like the respect that I have for that and then it turned into kind of like a smack down post where I was kicking ass and I think that was at myself. Then at the end I was like fuck, this was not supposed to be about me. Then I brought it back around again and it just came out however it came out.

Patrick: Oh see everything that I read, I'm like thinking, everything I read from you I'm thinking this is to me right.

Kat: Everybody does, especially when I do, I don't know do you get this sometimes or have you had this happen, but if I do a post that's really quite brutal I'll tend to get like 20 people message me and they'll be like, "I know you were talking about me." And I'm like, "Well, if you think that I was, then maybe I was."

Patrick: That could be the case, but I used to think that all the time when I worked for Ryan. I would always say and he'd said if you think, he said the same thing. If you think it is, it is. So, you're right, it's right, in the case if you think it is, it is, right. It's for you, it's for you if you are triggered by the wording. But I wrote mine like a while back and then I didn't feel anything about posting it. When I found it I was like, yes, I found it. I was like I'm going to post this now, no problem. I remember what you told me, it was like you should just not even think about it and just post it. So I posted it and it was apparently like real full-on, people said that.

Patrick: I think that you do, like what I did was I was sitting there facing resistance big time whenever I started to write that. I was facing one of the biggest challenges of my life, which was making our first sale since we went out on our own, and it wasn't happening. It was taking like two weeks, I mean we were in this thing for like two weeks, damn near a month. I was sitting there, and I'm sure I had probably talked to you the night before, something like that. I was writing, I started to write the beginning of it you know, just to start thinking about what kind of shit you say to yourself whenever, or the kind of shit that people say to themselves whenever they're facing that. I really wanted to know, I started thinking about the things that I was thinking at the time.

Patrick: Then I was like, well this is bullshit because this is right around when the shit broke and we made ourselves and everything started to work out for the better. That was when I was really, really getting into it and getting into manifesting and writing and controlling it you know. Right before it happened I just said, I'm just going to take all these things that are being said and I'm just going to go with it. As much as I can I'm just going to just get it all out there. Everything that I hear on the stream of thought, I'm going to just write it down as I go.

Patrick: And so, I did, I just started fucking like turned on some music and I just started. Every one of the resistant thoughts that came through, I just typed as it was coming. I was like this is some fucking creative ass ways to talk shit to myself, you know, of this voice in my head that's talking this shit. Just so creative and the ways it says, the lies it says about you. I just put it down and it was just endless and relentless and didn't stop. I just had to stop it myself you know. It would have just kept going.

Kat: It was relentless. That's how, like I was reading it, I was sitting down at the coffee shop. I was like how fucking long is this going for? It's just getting worse and worse, but that's why it was painful, I was like fuck me, I thought it would be finished now, it's still going? Then I was thinking, I hope there's going to be a reframe at the end of this and it's not just going to finish. And then there was.

Patrick: The end. Your life is horrible. But I got it [crosstalk 00:35:01] it was like an experiment to just fucking just see if it would stop you know, but it wouldn't. I had to stop it myself which I guess you could say something about that. You have to stop that fucking voice yourself. It's not going to stop on its own. You have to stop it because [crosstalk 00:35:21] it's there if you want-

Kat: You have to see it for what it is.

Patrick: Yeah.

Kat: You've got [crosstalk 00:35:25] to see it for what it is. Yeah, it's the devil. We were talking about this on the phone the other night. It's a seduction right?

Patrick: Yes it is.

Kat: Did you read Patrick's post Maria? It's like be prepared to be upset. If anyone reads that post, just be prepared to be upset, but it will be powerful for you. I think that we all think that we're the only ones who have those thoughts. It's natural to feel like if people knew the truth about me, or if people, like I should feel ashamed of myself or whatever. Everybody has those thoughts and then everyone looks at ... Yes, so Maria read your post, she's one of my inner circle clients, she said she was in tears. Exactly, I think for women in particular it's going to upset them. I thought it upset me because I had a personal interest, but I think it probably upsets everyone.

Kat: It was very upsetting because it was so raw, but it's also incredibly healing. That's the sort of blog post that will heal people and probably healed you maybe when you wrote it or maybe by publishing it because it's so raw. That's the point I was trying to make in my blog this morning ... Where can you find this post, just click on, I'll get the link. I'm so helpful. I'll put the link here in the comments. Like I'm fucking up all my shit now.

Kat: It's [crosstalk 00:36:45] like I wrote about this a little bit in my post that you've got to, to impact people, like yesterday I was talking to somebody new who I met about my business. I was explaining how I market, and he's an entrepreneurs as well with four amazing businesses, but a totally opposite sort of entrepreneur to me. We were talking about how the way that I show up on social media is the exact opposite of him. I put as much of myself out there as possible, and he's got as little of himself out there as possible. I was saying my system basically, my marketing is essentially I'll write these three thousand word blog posts every single day. The people who can get to the end of that and watch all my content are clearly, they're my soulmate clients or they wouldn't be sticking around that much. He was like-

Patrick: I like that system.

Kat: Holy shit, big long posts [inaudible 00:37:34] right, but he goes ... Oh yeah there's the blog. He goes, "Yeah, but that wouldn't work anymore would it," or something, or, "That's because you already built that up or something like that?" I'm was like, "No, no, it doesn't matter how crowded the internet is or how crowded Facebook is there is always going to be a space for the true artist to bear their soul." Like since the dawn of time, those of us who are storytellers, messengers and who actually reveal the raw shit inside of us, like what you wrote, was the painful, gritty, even ugly parts of the soul. It's almost like you don't want to look at it directly, it's like staring into the sun. It's too much, it's too intense, it feels too painful. Then at the same time it's magnetising and you can't look away.

Kat: So somebody who can share a piece of their soul like that, like you do and like I do and like many people here do, really are very few people though in the total of the internet marketing world. That person doesn't fucking need to buy their followers like you livestreamed about yesterday and we talked about the other night. Or to worry about a fucking funnel or what's the best strategy or Facebook ads. Nothing wrong with doing your funnels and your whatever right, but it's the cherry on top. Anybody who can release a piece of their soul and is brave enough or willing to do that, will always have people that want to listen because it is a magnet.

Kat: It's just mind blowing to me how so many amazing artists and messengers are out there wasting their lives thinking that the way to build a following or to make money is let me get my fucking funnel right or my strategy or my marketing for whatever bullshit. And let me have a pretty website on the internet and make sure that I have good head shots. Are you kidding me? Why don't you just strip yourself naked and show it to everybody? Your soul, right? That's all it takes.

Patrick: Anybody [crosstalk 00:39:38] can have-

Kat: Being willing to do that even in your own resistance.

Patrick: And there's a lot of ego out there too. It's like everybody's got one of those, so how do you really separate yourself from everybody else. You know what I mean, everybody's got a marketing strategy, everybody's got a marketing plan. Everybody's got an ego, so how do you get that ... I get to talk to people today, I got to talk to somebody because of my blog post. One of my people, one of my people, as I call them true believers. He was going through some serious shit in his life, like some real, real horrifying shit that he told me about that I got to help him through, today. So to me to be able to help in such a way to change somebody's life, to save a life is, fuck, that's more important to me than the other shit.

Patrick: The other shit's stupid and I wouldn't get that far with somebody if I didn't post something like I did, if I didn't say what I was really feeling I wouldn't get to say that. It wouldn't probably connect like that on that level with him. That to me is more rewarding than anything else I could be doing. Even if I have to take, for a while, you know it's going to be a while. I could go out here and make a marketing webinar and be very successful with it and make money off of it you know. I could do that.

Kat: Successful.

Patrick: Yeah, successful. Run traffic to it and do all ... I know how to do all that, I've done it. Or a book funnel or whatever you want to do. Whatever you want to do to make money. Give somebody an irresistible offer, tell them how to double or triple their income, whatever you want to do. That's fine, but understand that anybody can fucking do that. Anybody can do that. If you hold back, if you don't say what's on your mind, if you don't actually share a piece of yourself, then you're not really like an artist I don't think. You know? Then you're just giving people-

Kat: You're not and you have to decide [crosstalk 00:41:46] if you want to be an artist first or a marketer first. Like, you're an amazing marketer, I know a lot about marketing as well. We can both do all that shit. I don't even think anybody can do it, it is still a skillset because plenty of people are trying to fucking do it and they're not doing anything, they're not getting anywhere with it.

Kat: I did read a blog post one time by a mentor of mine from years back and she was like you got to choose, you're either an artist of an entrepreneur, who are you? I was like holy shit, she's right, I'm an artist first. I am an entrepreneur, I am a marketer, I where those hats and I've been an entrepreneur, like it's in my blood, I've been selling shit since I was three years old. But first and foremost I'm an artist. You've got to choose, you can't be in both camps. You can't be like, oh I'm an artist and I share from my soul and I do my soul purpose, but first let me build this pretty little funnel over here and then I'll be ready. It's bullshit.

Kat: Nobody said you need that you needed the internet to get your message out there and to make money. Amazingly enough artist through the history of time have managed to have people fall in love with them without a Facebook page. I know it's mind blowing for everybody and you might need therapy [inaudible 00:42:57] and some sexual healing in order to come to terms with that, but you don't need any of that shit in order to get your message out there. What you do need is to be courageous enough to put the blinders on and just art, art, art, art, art because like we said, you have a true believer client as you call them, I call them my soulmate clients, who comes to you as a result of that post. That person is so connected to you now, there's instant trust, instant deep rapport, they become a longterm client who refer their friends and just be so in love with you and your message because they see themselves in you.

Kat: Most people, you could do an automated webinar and get leads from that, like you said. You could become successful and I say successful like that because even if you were making great money doing that, which of course you could do and you know how to do. You would be, and we've talked about this many times, you would be miserable. You would be hating it, your soul would be dying because it wouldn't be doing your purpose work and you're essentially selling your soul to the wrong clients, the wrong people doing the shit that doesn't light you up.

Kat: Whereas, when you go all in with your art yeah, like most people are going to be horrified at the idea of reading a daily two or three thousand word blog post or listening to a one hour livestream that you do. They're going to think that's crazy, who wants to listen to that. I've had people make fun of me so many times when I've had hater-ship online. Like, "Oh ha ha, who would read all that shit?" I'm like, "Well firstly I don't fucking care if anybody reads it because I'm writing it for me bitch, not for you. Secondly, clearly a few people are fricking reading it if you look at the business that I've created."

Kat: So if somebody is going to read that or watch your webstream or read your post, then they come to you and talk to you, that person is a soulmate client for life. I'd rather 10 people like that than a 100,000 people that are fucking bored on Instagram or got off a webinar.

Patrick: Well there going to fall off, those people are going to like, what people realise is how much of this bullshit that's out there that's the same. People don't show you their refunds, people don't show you their attrition rates. People are dropping off. They don't show you that shit. They don't show you that shit. All they'll show you is-

Kat: Yeah, so true. So true and we talked about that the other night as well. Like my refund rate is like 0.000001%. I'll get like three refunds a year and two of them is because the person accidentally bought the same product twice. They're like shit, I didn't realise I already have it, can you refund me?

Patrick: And I haven't had that one-

Kat: That's not normal, what's the industry rate even? It's like-

Patrick: It's crazy, it's like 30.

Kat: 40 or 50% some of the time.

Patrick: Yeah. Yeah, it's insane. Then people don't say that and then they don't say, they don't talk about you know, affiliates and things like that that they're doing. So numbers are fucking crazy you know what I mean? You can't even get into numbers there's so much bullshit out there. There's so much bullshit out there that you might as well just be truthful and honest and just put yourself out there. I get on here and I've got now these few people that come on, I mean anything that I do, they follow me around for whatever it is that I do. I did something with Travis today, which we did marketing and I dropped a link out there for our funnels and everything. I thought we're going to pull in these new prospects right and these clients for his side of things, you know his new audience and everybody who showed up was my people. They hopped on to see that we were talking marketing, they showed up, popped up.

Kat: They watch you, or my people watch me instead of Netflix. My people say that all the time, they're like, "I can't believe what time it is and I'm still watching your content." That's all you want, but it's also like what we're saying here is your going to get a better result just following your art and making your marketing strategy should be your art. Then let's not forget also the selling of the soul side of it because even if it was true that you could make more money, which I do not believe, by following straight up internet marketing Stepford-preneurship you would be miserable, in sabotage, addicted to whatever shit that's not good instead of addicted to flow. And just not happy right?

Kat: I did it that way, I built my business at first to where it was nearly at a million dollars a year because I did the fucking work and I did the marketing. I was right on the cusp of a million dollars a year in my business. This was in 2012, and I walked away. I shut the whole thing down, I walked away from all of it. I remember saying to my partner at the time, if this is the path to a million dollar business, I don't want it. I cannot do this anymore, I would rather go back to being a personal trainer. I said to him, "I'm going to give myself three months, give me three months. I'm going to prove that I can make money doing what I love, but fuck all that shit, I'm going all in doing what I want. If I don't do it in three months then I'll just go back to the gym and I'll be a trainer again because I know how to make a lot of money doing that."

Kat: Well, I didn't do it in three months anyway, I ended up over $100,000 in debt and blew the whole thing up. Then eventually, eventually, I stayed though, I stuck to it and now look where I am because I've experienced what it's like to make good money by selling my soul. I mean, it's your life right, you want to be, this is like right now we're not really selling anything, but this is content. This is us filling ourselves up with our art and our craft. Even though we're not directly making an offer, how many people are becoming soulmate clients or true believer clients of each of us right now because of this content. Then we drop a link or we keep saying we're going to start recoding our personal phone calls and sell them. People are going to fucking buy that shit, like who wants to buy the recorded phone calls of when we talk to two or three hours-

Patrick: I do.

Kat: Because that shits gold, but sometimes we've got to keep it private. But, we'll figure it out.

Patrick: Yeah, we got to keep some things private, a little bit, a little bit. Those are like extreme, super, super VIP shit. But Helen makes a good point, Helen's asking a good question here though, she says, "I get what you're saying," but she's surrounded by true artists putting themselves out there every day and never make any money, what would you say about that?

Kat: Okay. Okay. Good, I'm so glad I asked this.

Patrick: I like that one, yeah.

Kat: I was ready to preach on this. I'm going to need a love heart shout-out first, send me the love hearts. Then I'll bring the [crosstalk 00:49:37] Kat show.

Patrick: Can I do it to? [crosstalk 00:49:37]

Kat: Can you do it too? Everybody shower me with the love heart. Oh there they come, thank you.

Patrick: Shower.

Kat: All right. I already answered these same questions to two or three clients earlier today when I was answering my client audios, so I'm prepared and I'm ready. Here's the thing right, money, money is just a decision and a choice right? Like yesterday I bought a new car, I'm also getting a new house and a few other things all at once. It is a big deal, I'm excited to get the car, I feel good about it. Yeah, there's some ego attached to it for sure because I feel like yeah, look at my badass car, but at the same time I don't need that in order to be happy or fulfilled right, I'm detached from it. When they didn't give me exactly what I wanted at the dealership I just left. I wasn't doing that as a strategy, I was like okay, I'm not attached, this is what I want, if you can't give it to me I'm leaving. I got in the car and drove away and of course, they called me eight minutes later and gave me what I wanted.

Patrick: Sorry guys.

Kat: Either way I [crosstalk 00:50:40]

Patrick: I used to be one.

Kat: But, yeah, you know how it works. I [inaudible 00:50:45] I'm leaving. And I literally was about to sign and then I just put the pen down, I'm like look I've got to go. I'm going to go see the house, I left. What I'm trying to say though is, I don't need the car, I'm not emotionally attached to the car in order to feel good enough, in order to feel worthy, in order to feel like I'm now complete and whole. The thing that fills you up and lights you up and gives you your sense of freedom and completeness and your happiness, your source of all things is being true to yourself and doing your art right? So then for the money, to me the car is the same sort of thing, whether it's a car, whether it's do I want to buy the fancy Voss water, whatever it is. It's just a decision, so I can choose the car or not choose the car, either way I'm whole and I'm complete, but am I going to choose the car, yeah it's fucking badass, it's a hot, sexy car. I'm going to choose the car because I like it and I can have it.

Kat: Same as with money. Get out of the idea that there needs to be an emotional attachment around money, it's only money. Choose it or don't choose it, it's infinitely available. Like you can choose am I going to wear pants or a skirt today, it doesn't matter, why get emotionally attached to it, but it's always available. That's how I feel about money. One of the courses a I made in 2014 when I first figured this out for myself was called, "It's only money honey." I called the course, "It's only money honey," one of the best courses I've ever made, because it was like a slap in the face wake up call where I suddenly realised, fuck, I've been making it this really emotional thing. Like am I good enough for money, am I worthy for money. Imagine we did this right, like am I good enough for the Voss water, am I worthy of this, what are people going to think of me? Does this add to my value if I have this amazing water? Either just pick it up off the shelf or don't. It doesn't matter.

Kat: And so that was like a breakthrough for me to go oh shit, money is just a decision, decide how much you want. Expect it the same way if you're in a restaurant and you put your order in, you know I'll have a steak and broccoli, you expect it, you assume it's going to turn up. You don't go into the kitchen and be like, am I good enough for this? Do you guys think I'm worthy of the steak, can I really have that? Is it being prepared and will I get it? You just order your fucking meal and then you sit down and you wait for it and you expect that it's going to show up. Then meanwhile you're in the now, being present with whoever you're with.

Kat: Same with money, decide it. It's a decision. When you get out of the emotional attachment around money being a reflection of your worth or being something that's going to save you, then you'll realise that it's just something you decide. But you fret now, you think that money would make you more worthy or it's going to save you or it will fill you up or it will make you happy. Or you'll be, yeah, safer in some way or a better person in some way. Then you'll continue to keep it at arm's length because you're trying to validate yourself and you're trying to find your safety and security from something outside of you, which is not possible.

Kat: The lesson is you need to decide ... Did I just get invited to go to a cruise? Somebody's just invited me to go on their birthday cruise and I don't even know this person. I'm just magnetic as fuck.

Patrick: It's your most active follower it looks like.

Kat: I don't even know who that is. Hi, [Taveda 00:54:01] I can't, I can't go. I've got something on, but thank you.

Kat: So, yeah, it's about realising it's a decision. If artists are out there and they're broke, maybe they're buying into the broke artist story, but maybe, maybe, and probably, they're in some way basing their self-worth on their financial situation and/or thinking to themselves that if I just had that money, then I'd be safe. Then I'd be good enough, then I'd be a worthy or a valid person. It's the same as love. You'll never find love when you think oh that person is going to make me feel like then I'm good enough, then I'm worthy, then I'm attractive, then I'm whatever.

Kat: You got to figure that shit out right, like otherwise you'll just continue to hold that deep connection at arm's bay. When you realise you've already got everything inside of you and of course you can choose the money because abundance is infinite. Or of course you can choose to receive love because it is available. Or of course you can choose to have the body you want or whatever and you don't need it, well like you can need it and not need it at the same time, we've talked about that. But either way, you already get your completeness inside of yourself.

Kat: Does that make sense? Did I just ramble in 49 different directions at once?

Patrick: Pretty much, but I'm feeling it, I'm catching it. So, you're saying then somebody who is a starving artist, they're buying into it, which that makes sense to me. There's a lot of things that people out here buy into because that's just what people say. You know, oh you're a starving artist. Oh, you're not going to make any money. That's what they say, but how much of this shit is rooted in fact, it's just something that somebody said. You know, there's a lot of shit like that that's out there, but you have to, you know, you can't cuss if you want to make money online. You know, there's a huge one right-

Kat: Really? Fuck, that's rude.

Patrick: Yeah, how rude. There's all these things that they say. You have to, what else do they say, you know, you already have to have made this much amount of money before you can make any money online. You can't help anybody unless you've hit this, unless you've achieved these goals. You know, you have to have a book. All sorts of crazy shit that's just not true, but people will buy into. There's so many limitations being sold to everybody out here and they're constantly buying into them. I see what you're saying about that, it makes sense because if they're thinking that I'm an artist and I'm not making money or that I'm just going to be an artist, I'm not making money that's fine because that's just what it is.

Patrick: Yet, you're on here, I'm on here and we're doing it. There, you in the back.

Kat: I have a question. My question is do you think that sometimes artists/entrepreneurs, that there's ego attached to being the starving artist? Like there's an element of look at me suffer? It's almost like a badge of honour that I'm the starving artist, do you think that sometimes people are toting themselves back to that?

Patrick: I'm doing it. I'm doing it. You know you get in this thing where you're like, I mean I've seen people do this too, and I do this, I'm guilty. I like the story okay, I like the story. I could have, I mean I'm sure if I opened myself up for it more and just said that it's going to be super easy and that it's just going to happen and everything's going to come to me. I'm just going to go in the superflow and do what you said and just go all in on this thing and have it happen. It's just going to boom, the doors are wide open.

Patrick: When I did my first programme I sold a bunch of my first programme right. For me that was a lot to sell as much as I did. That was not even fully half assing it, that was like 10% of what I could have really done, of me going all in because I'm running like two businesses right now. There's the story that if I just got away from this one thing, it would just go so much fucking easier and everything would just happen you know. Instead, I'm choosing to build the story and now I'm going to be able to have the little ego and look back on this thing and be like, I struggled so hard when is first started out and you can go track it.

Patrick: I've got that in my head, that's programmed in my head from something I've learned from somebody else. You know that you got to step your way up. You work your way up if you want to get there, you can't just [inaudible 00:58:29] you got to work your way up. So, I feel [crosstalk 00:58:33] that same way, I get-

Kat: It's so interesting because ...

Patrick: Go ahead.

Kat: No you go ahead.

Patrick: No, my train of thought just ... Just took a shit.

Kat: Well, here's the truth right. I am proud of myself, I have ego and pride, not, I don't mean I shouldn't have, but there is, for me there is ego attached to I know what I fucking went through to build this business. I do feel maybe a bit superior about the fact that I know full well that most people would not do what I did and that they will not choose to be tough enough. I like feeling like I'm the one who can get knocked down again and again and again and look at me bitches, I'm still getting back up again. It relates a lot to all my fitness stuff and like I always wanted to be the most badass hardcore chick in the gym and I would definitely get triggered if I saw another chick who was training harder than me. Then it would bring me up to speed right, I would then become friends with them. Then it would be like it's on.

Kat: In business, I definitely have pride that comes from yeah, I did go through so much fucking shit and I just kept getting up and every time I felt like I was on the floor and I couldn't get up again, it was that thing of are you dead yet though? No, then keep going. I do like it, I get off on it.

Patrick: There you go.

Kat: You know, you said this earlier on in the call, you said to me what we had spoken about on the phone the other night, about how I said to you I've gotten a little bored because the truth is I had my, I think I told you this, I told my private clients. I'm sure I told you this on the phone, I had my biggest income month ever last month in May. I haven't even published it or anything, well I told my private clients about it and I did a livestream talking about the mindset of that. But it was my biggest income month ever and it was like I feel proud of it. I feel likes that's cool, but did I get a rush from it, did I get an adrenaline kick, no. To be honest, and I know what I'm going to say now is going to make a lot of people want to throw shit at me, if you're going to throw shit I like Guylian Seashell Chocolates or Chanel, you can throw Chanel.

Patrick: Or Vegemite. Throw [crosstalk 01:00:52] poo.

Kat: But, it's very [crosstalk 01:00:52]. I got that all sorted already.

Patrick: Fling a little poo.

Kat: I just, it's easy for me to make money online and I mean look, it doesn't mean I can't relate to and resonate with where people are at in their journey and their struggle. It hasn't been that long ago where was over 100K debt, struggling and that went on for a long time. I know how to break through that and that's how I support my clients, but it's not a rush for me to, like even if I do a launch that would make an insane amount of money, I would be like that's awesome, but also, I just expect it. I'm not doing to get an adrenaline rush from it in the same way that if I cook an amazing steak, and I do cook an amazing steak, I'm not going to be like oh my God, I can't believe it, this is the biggest rush ever. I mean of course it tastes fucking amazing, I know how to cook steak. Of course the launch made that much money, I know how to make money online.

Kat: What we had spoken about and this relates to what I'm saying here is, well where do I get my rush from now. Where do I get my adrenaline from because I am that person. It wasn't just that I was proud of myself for getting up again and again every time I got knocked down, it's that I do get off on it. I enjoy it, I like being like, you know, put through, I like the pain. I like purposeful pain and I feel so alive. Like the training session which I spoke about, which I did this morning was the hardest I've gone. I had to ease back into it obviously with my training after my surgery, but so today was the hardest that I've gone since then. I was dying and then within a second of it being over, or anytime I felt more knocked around, I'm smiling at the same time. I'm like this is so fucking good, it's fucking amazing. I crave that, I want it.

Patrick: And you desire it because at this stage in the game you know that all these rules are bullshit. The fact that you have to, I had only $30 in my account when I started out, to get customers, to get clients, to get your soulmate clients is bullshit. You would be able to attract them without that fucking story. You know? You don't need, that story doesn't [crosstalk 01:03:05]

Kat: Totally.

Patrick: I don't think it brings people, I don't [crosstalk 01:03:07]-

Kat: Right. And I don't even tell my [crosstalk 01:03:09] yeah. Even I told you parts of my story like when we were on the phone the other night and you didn't even know some of it because I just don't talk about it that much. I have and I do if I get interviewed and stuff, but I don't use that for my marketing. I use my art for my marketing. I just use self-expression for my marketing. Like you said, I don't need the fucking story, but what I do need is, I need to feel lit up, alive. Maybe you're right that yesterday I created resistance to knock me around and make me feel shitty so that today I could then create the contrast and today I'm on fire.

Kat: There's more to it than that, like I think, yeah, I do think sometimes for people who haven't broken through on money yet. Or if you've experienced this, if you're a person who can make a little money and then you're like, yeah I'm riding high. Then it just disappears again and you crash up and down, I know a lot of people do that. I did that for years, I would make quite a lot of money and then I'd be like, where is it? Why am I broke again? What's happening? I did that roller coaster for years.

Kat: I finally cracked that quota, I figured it out and I teach my clients this all the time. Because I was addicted to the ego and the adrenaline of when your back's against the wall and you don't know if you're even going to be able to buy food that day or God forbid even coffee. Then you just, like a magician, you pull a rabbit out of a hat because you're forced to, you're so back against the wall and you're going to lose, then you just make magic. You're smashing through and you create and you save yourself, but actually what really happened was you got to experience the adrenaline and the power of creation, which is what you're born for. Then when you make the money, on a subconscious level your mind is like, well now where am I getting my kicks from basically. Where's my adrenaline rush, where's my thrill, where's that feeling of power and pride and ego ... Travis says that's so me dammit. I [crosstalk 01:05:15]

Patrick: Yeah, Travis fuck you man [crosstalk 01:05:15]

Kat: Travis, Travis was preaching on his livestream this morning, I was [crosstalk 01:05:20]

Patrick: I'm your business partner bitch, damn. He's not cool.

Kat: But any of us that have, especially people with a fitness background do this a lot, but I think in general just driven, entrepreneurial people do do this. Where you crash it down because you want the fucking ego rush and the adrenaline rush of having to figure it out. There is a sense of ego in there in that, look at what I just did and other people [inaudible 01:05:46] be able to do that. We've got to find a way to replace that adrenaline and not get your kicks from crashing your money up and down.

Kat: That's what I had to do, I had to figure out okay, I've got to just decide to make the money because it's like the water or the steak or the car, I can just choose it or not choose it, it's not a big deal. Don't attach my adrenaline and my self-worth and my emotions to the money. Make it like I'm going to find that shit from inside of me.

Patrick: Where do you recommend the start is on that though because that is like one of the things I'm always talking about and the conclusion I've come to is like you know, there's no wrong way to do this shit. There's no wrong way to do it because you're writing your story, you're having fun while you do it. Maybe you're addicted to this up and down, you know, maybe you're addicted. Like you said, the ego, maybe you're tied to your ego, but that's still doesn't make it wrong that's just how you're choosing to live it. That's how you're choosing to write your story, but for those that are tired of that shit, that want to do it because like you said, if you live a life of super ease, where it's just totally easy, then it's probably going to get kind of boring. How do you replace that, how do you replace that part? That adrenaline rush?

Kat: Well that's what we, I told you about that the other night, I'm still figuring that out. I mean I've replaced it in like there's been ways that I have replaced it many times over the years since I started figuring out money shit. Now I realise I need something more. I'm never going to be done, we're never going to be done with wanting a new challenge or something to strive for. There are some entrepreneurs out there, the boring ones, whose goal is to get their business to a point where it's automation. Then they can sit on their ass on their couch all day long, and that's their end goal. I literally once heard somebody say that her goal was to automate her business so that she could just watch Netflix all day and that was her end goal. That was the point at which [crosstalk 01:07:58] as a friend.

Patrick: A fucking social [crosstalk 01:08:01]-

Kat: Yeah, like she said that, word for word.

Patrick: You can get a social security check and sit at home and fucking do Netflix.

Kat: Right. It was in a group that I was in with women entrepreneurs, this was like five, six years ago. Actually when I joined the group I was one of the more entrepreneur [crosstalk 01:08:18] babies of the group. I was lower level and like these were women that I looked up too. Then I was kind of stepping into my power I guess and realising that I'm not like them. Then there was this discussion in the group that was literally about that. It wasn't like one woman said it, but then three or for agreed. Like yeah, that's what I want, I want to be with my kids and I want to be able to watch Netflix all day and just enjoy my life. I was like, I'm out, I literally just knew at that point that I need to stop even being in this environment and learning from people like this. And yesterday somebody said to me, "Well what's your exit plan with your business Kat?" I just looked at him and I was like, "Death. My exit plan is death. When I die is when I'm going to stop."

Patrick: Right.

Kat: I don't even know how to answer that question because I'm not doing it for money. When I realised that is when money started to come in as well by the way, just on a side note. To answer your question, try and answer your question.

Patrick: [inaudible 01:09:14]

Kat: [crosstalk 01:09:16] like [crosstalk 01:09:17] I think it's, yeah, I think it's just the key to having the fun and the adventure and the adrenaline is, you'll get it because you fucking decided to right. I noticed three or four years ago that I really wasn't having fun in my life, like I was all about business and I guess whatever else, but I was not in a great period in my life in terms of my internal happiness and flow. I just started to set an intention like I'd write it in my journal, every day I still write this, I have so much fun and adventure in my life. Another thing I started to write maybe two years ago or a year and a half ago was, I laugh and have so much fun in my business every day and now I do. Like you see me on, or even here, I'm having fun, I'm always laughing on my livestream. Sometimes I'm completely being fool [inaudible 01:10:04] idiot and clown and I'm having the most hilarious time ever.

Kat: That came from an intention, but what I desire now, what I've noticed and what we spoke about the other night is I definitely want, well we were going to go and climb that volcano. I want, I don't know, some bigger adventures, like that's my intention now. I do feel like I've got a lot of day-to-day adventures. I do a lot of really random shenanigan type shit in real life with friends or sometimes with clients. I have a lot of fun, but it's almost like I want a mission or I want something that's, I don't know, it will come to me. I'm not concerned about it, I was worrying about it for a little bit and then I was like, let it go, it'll happen when you just decide that it will happen. So my intention is now I have epic adventures with badass cool people and do crazy shit all the time. That will just be my new thing that I write in my journal and then it will come true. Next thing you'll see me like on top of a mountain naked drinking Budweiser and dancing in the moonlight. That'll be my next livestream adventure.

Patrick: I get a lot of-

Kat: And actually it's [crosstalk 01:11:07]

Patrick: What's up Ashley? I get a lot of inspiration from younger, people like 18, 20 you know, just the way that they do things. I was listening to this commercial, was talking about this on my last livestream, that they just don't give a fuck. That are just out there getting into these adventures and doing these things. I was listening to this radio, this commercial, there was a commercial on the radio and it was coming from the viewpoint of this old rock t-shirt. You know, it was a Goodwill commercial, I don't know if you have Goodwill over there. Basically donate to people in need, right.

Patrick: So it's a commercial about donating your [crosstalk 01:11:49] yeah, so donating your old rock t-shirt to Goodwill because you don't wear it anymore. It was like from the viewpoint, the commercial was from the viewpoint of the rock t-shirt, and the t-shirt's basically saying things like, "Hey, we had some good times brother. Remember when you crowd surfed with me brother? Now you don't and now you can just take me to Goodwill." I was thinking of that commercial, I was thinking to myself, you know, why wouldn't he crowd surf anymore? I know it's kind of abstract or whatever, but why the fuck wouldn't he crowd surf anymore? Imagine like why would he stop doing that? If you were 17 or 18, imagine, that was probably the time of his life when he crowd surfed.

Patrick: Now here he is what, 30 years old, 40 years old or whatever and he's going to go donate [crosstalk 01:12:37]-

Kat: He's not even old.

Patrick: It to Goodwill. Yeah, he's not even fucking old right, because you just get better with time. And so he's going to go donate the shirt to Goodwill when he could just instead go, and I know it's a commercial and it's all made-up or whatever, but there's also, you know there's truth behind this, it's what people do right. They go and get rid of the things and toss away these old things. You had fun motherfucker.

Patrick: I remember the first concert I ever went to, what an adventure, couldn't get in. Climbed up to the top of the thing, climbed to the top of a building, scaled the top of a building and looked over the side. That was an adventure.

Kat: I did that. Yeah.

Patrick: It's like I'm seeing its good to go back in time and try to get back into your youth. All this other shit, all these people beating you down and holding you back. When I was a kid, all I would ever talk about was, when I was a young kid, all I would ever talk about was going on adventures. Going on adventures, that's what I wanted to do when I was a kid. I remember it clear as day, I was constantly asking my mom, "When's the next adventure? Are we going on an adventure wherever we go?"

Patrick: All those are out there and then these people I see they get to this level of success in their life and then they're just not doing any of this. Or they go maybe take like a vacation, one vacation a year maybe two vacations and their not even having fun there. They're sitting there like, you know, fucking doing what everybody else is doing. And so-

Kat: They're just drinking and calling that a good time. Nothing wrong with drinking, but that's like their entire fun bubble is I had cocktails by a pool in a fancy place, so now my life must be fun.

Patrick: Right.

Kat: Do you think also, like a lot of people have bought into a bullshit belief that in order to be a good adult or a good entrepreneur or a good partner, that that means somehow that means you've got to lose your sense of fun and adventure or even silliness?

Patrick: Mm-hmm (affirmative).

Kat: Like I get people give me shit, I've seen people give me shit like she's buzzed on her livestreams or I saw you saying this, you were drinking on your livestream the other day. You were doing, making your funny little voices that you do, like being somebody who's making fun of you. I've had people say that to me like, "Oh that Kat chick, she just wastes my time. She's buzzed on her livestream, so she's being an idiot," or, "She never gets to the point," stuff like that. So people think that means it's wrong or bad, well, I know for sure that a lot of my soulmate clients who buy all my shit on repeat. Yes, they love my deeper message and the preaching and the inspiration and the empowerment, but how they love the silliness and the fun and the irreverence and the shenanigans.

Kat: I swear to God people join a lot of my programmes just so that they can come in and be like, where's the naughty bit, where's the shenanigans, where's the fun. We're always doing, there's always naughtiness. Then people know that they can say any fucking thing in my groups and it's never going to be inappropriate. Or when my clients come around or I go to stay with them that we get up to all the crazy shit, but that's what we want. Why can you not have it all? Who the fuck decided that being a proper adult means that you've got to be serious and be like this? The exact opposite is true that more that you clown around the more you get ... Yes, question from this person in the freezing cold snow.

Patrick: Well I want to say this to, and I'm not bashing anybody, but I want to say this. There's a lot of coaches out here and they model the same thing. They model four things, whatever the fuck it is, you know, I'm not going to, you all know what they are. Which is your body, your fitness, your finances, all that stuff. Okay.

Kat: I was like, I don't know.

Patrick: Yeah, well okay, well [inaudible 01:16:29] this is not pointed at anybody, but there's a model, there's pretty much a model for a lot of people use the same model okay. Basically [crosstalk 01:16:37] faith, fitness, finances and ... Faith, family, fitness, finances, basically four of those, yeah. One thing that they always leave out is fucking-

Kat: Fun.

Patrick: Adventure and fun. It's always conveniently left out of there you know. Like it's one thing that I noticed they're always missing and that's what I want because I've seen this. You've got to go watch the movie Hook to get this, to really drive this point home. The dude, Robin Williams plays Peter Pan and he's old as fuck now, not he's old as fuck, it's like he's in his 50s or 40s or 50s. He's a lawyer, he's fat, you know he's let himself go. You know, he's just a real prick and his kids are trying to play with him, he yells at them. Then he goes to Neverland and he figures out how to get these happy thoughts back and to get back to himself. Get back to where he's feeling like he's free again you know?

Kat: Yeah.

Patrick: So I loved this movie when I was growing up. Now that I see all these stick in the ass motherfuckers and I'm like dude, I don't want to be that way. I'm trying to get-

Kat: So boring.

Patrick: To a level of life, I'm trying to enter my best self so I can go on adventures. So I can go have fucking fun, so I can go and enjoy myself. So I can remember the day because I don't remember these fucking days where everything is the same. I don't remember these days where everything is just fucking the same and not in this bullshit. I don't give a fuck how much money is in my bank, I've had money and I've had no money. I mean, like your mental state is going to be the same either way. You have material shit, you don't have material shit. You know what I'm saying, you've got to adjust yourself and figure out what you really want to do, but these people are getting by, beside the fact, so many people are out there saying that you shouldn't have fun. Are saying that you shouldn't go on adventure, you shouldn't do this.

Kat: Well they tell you off. They tell you off for being inappropriate.

Patrick: You're inappropriate, exactly. Exactly. And that you can't speak your, like it's so many fucking limitations that put on. I don't understand this addiction to limitations, especially from people who are saying that you shouldn't have limitations. Yet they're just so fucking limited. How would you, I see these people every day in the same fucking places, the same places. We see a lot of these people with money and a lot of people with success, they're in like, and this is another thing. I get this limitation to because I think whenever I speak like this, this is how bad it is, whenever I speak like this I get the resistance in my mind telling me that people are going to see this and they're going to, "Well Pat's a fucking hippie. Pat's not going to guide me to riches and success, riches and bitches and everything in between. He's not going to do it because he's thinking like a hippie."

Patrick: No, I'm going to call money in just like everybody else. I'm going to call as much as I need to live, to be as free as I fucking want and to create my art. Believe that and that's going to be a lot, I'm going to need a lot of freedom to do that shit that I want to do. To live how I want to live. To be fucking Peter Pan, that's what I'm going to have to do. So it's going to be a lot, so yeah, so I will guide that way, but these motherfuckers [crosstalk 01:19:48]-

Kat: And you're speaking truth from the soul. People can feel that it's coming from the soul and when people listen to you, like when I listen to that, my soul says yes. I know people here are like, "Fuck yes," because you're saying shit that we and we are not like the other entrepreneurs and we don't desire to be. So if you're accidentally trying to follow the Stepford entrepreneur fucking business in a box bullshit system because somebody's managed to convince you that that's where you're going to get a following and some money from, just slap yourself up the face a little bit and remember who you fucking are. You're not like them and you don't want to be like them, so why the fuck are you acting like them?

Kat: Be with the crazy ones, be with the irreverent ones, be with the ones who don't give a fuck. And anyway, not giving a fuck doesn't even mean you don't give a fuck, it means you give so much of a fuck about what's inside of you that you're willing to not give a fuck about what anybody thinks. They, they, the people who we find boring as hell, oh what, they think we're being inappropriate because we might be buzzed on a livestream or saying stupid shit. Or making it about fun and adventure rather than serious business. They are so deluded because they don't even realise that what magnetically attracts people to people like us, it is when we let ourselves be all of us. That's attractive, it's magnetic. It doesn't matter what age somebody is, everybody's still got that kid inside of them that wants to go on adventures and have fun and do stuff where it's, oh, should we be doing this? Let's do it.

Patrick: Yeah.

Kat: I've said to my clients many times, I make business fun again. That happened when I started to let myself have fun again. There's so much stuff I do in my business where I'm giggling behind the scenes. Could be with my sister or brother who work in the business, or it could be with you or with clients or whoever. It's like, oh this is a bit fucked up or it's definitely not appropriate, I'm definitely going to do it. Then that's always the stuff I for sure, when I do shit like that, where I'll have a soulmate client come along, drop whatever amount of money to be in the inner circle or join my shit. They're like, "I don't even care what you're selling Kat. I just read that blog or watched that livestream where you did whatever crazy fucked up thing and I knew that I had to be part of it."

Kat: And so, anytime you find yourself getting juiced by the idea that you've got to be like that, you really need to just give yourself a good smack in the face with a cold fish and get back to being who you are in the first place.

Patrick: A cold fish.

Kat: That's an expression from my father. My father says, "Do you want a smack in the face with a cold fish?" When your being silly, when you're not being yourself, I don't why he says that, but it's good.

Patrick: Yeah, I see it all the time though. These people live in boxes, you know. It's live in a box, you don't have to put on your thing like two seconds and I'll watch it and I see them in a box. You know, I mean they live in a box.

Kat: There's no soul.

Patrick: And what I like about-

Kat: There's no soul. Who the fuck decided business shouldn't have soul? Who decided that?

Patrick: Well people do. I don't know what it is, I guess limitation sells. I don't fucking know, it must sell, it must sell. I think in a lot of cases limitations do sell, people are highly interested in some kind of strategy that limits everything about their life. I have no idea. Or just sucks all the fun out of it, you know. Then you go on to just then pretend like its everything that you, well you've got to save face right. You gotta save face, you invested all this money, you built your entire business on limitations so you're certainly not going to say that it's not fun, right? You're going to ... But yet you don't want to fucking hang out with your client.

Kat: Oh yeah, I'm having the best time ever.

Patrick: You want to get as far away from your clients as physically possible. You don't have any friends, nobody really likes you. You would rather stay, you don't want to spend any time with them outside of them paying you money and then getting the fuck out of your face. You know what I'm saying? So, that's the shit that I've noticed. I've been around this industry for a while now and I've noticed this shit. It's not appealing to me in the fucking least bit. Not one fucking bit is it appealing to me. I'm going to do it my own way and I've been told to do it several different, all different types of ways that you can think about. Every way except for my way I've been told to do it, and so yeah, so fuck that.

Kat: I've told you [inaudible 01:24:35]

Patrick: You told me to do it my way, so yes, so that's why I'm constantly hanging out with you. So yeah, I only hang out with people who encourage me to do it my way.

Kat: Yeah, you should only have people in your life who make you feel more of who you are, not less than. It's an easy filter, just go through your friends list in your head or clients, people in your life. Maybe it's going to be a little bit trickier if it's someone you're in a relationship with, but too bad. People are either adding to you and allowing you to be more of what you are, or you're becoming less than who you are from being around that person. Doesn't matter what your fucking pros and cons are of the relationship, whatever kind of a relationship it is. It's very, very simple, you're either becoming expanded and more of who you are from that person or less than.

Kat: I believe it should be the same with all people. Like even today one of my private clients who pays me at the highest level and has unlimited access to me, actually confessed to me that she doesn't reach out to me as often as what she maybe would because she worries that it's going to bother me, right, she doesn't want to bother me. I was like, "Listen I'm going to remind you of something you already know, I only work with clients who expand me. I'm never bothered, firstly I'll do what I want to do all day and I'll only check in on messages when it suits me anyway. So no need to worry about interrupting me because I don't have the notifications on. Secondly, I only work with you because hearing from you and talking with you expands me." I don't coach people to make fucking money at all and I haven't done that for years, but I did used to and then I learned all this. Or I used to, to whatever degree, I was always good, but now I only do things that elevate and expand me.

Kat: So when I'm listening to an audio message from a private client or I'm talking to them or on the phone or any of my trainings that I'm doing in my own business, I'm becoming elevated like that. Sometimes I feel like, somebody should report this, how the fuck am I getting away with this? Not only to I get to speak to such badasses all day every day, and I get to preach to them all day and I'm still that little girl that wants everyone to just shut up and listen to her. Now not only am I doing all that and everybody listens to me, and I can put on a show any time and everyone wants to watch, but on top of it you guys are paying me for that. How the hell did I pull this shit off? It's amazing.

Patrick: And they're expanding you right, they're giving you, like they're opening your mind to things right?

Kat: Yeah. Yeah and I get content ideas or programme ideas. I get a buzz. For sure anytime if I am feeling a bit stuck or flat or low I know one of the best things that I can do is help somebody else who's a soulmate person in my life. Listen to a message from them, give them a reply or give them some sort of empowerment or motivation or encouragement. That's great because I'm helping someone and that's good for my business or whatever, but actually I'm the one who gets the benefit of that, or, well we both do, we all do.

Patrick: Yeah, for sure. They get tonnes of it, but I started feeling that way especially when I get on one-on-one calls. I've had two and I was just like so excited to get on the call with them because I was like I'm going to learn so much. I'm going to get so much out of this that it's pretty crazy, it's pretty crazy how it's set up, but I did manifest that. Just like you were saying, journal, you write exactly what you're looking for. I did, I did write that, I wrote I want to get as much value from them, I want it to change my life and my perspective on life. Or my clients change my perspective on life, they change the way that I look at things and expand my mind and how I see things for the better. And get me closer to becoming my best self. I put that down and that's sure as fuck what happened, so I would get very, very excited when I would get on the call with them. You know, right before I'd get on the call with them I'd be like this is going to be so amazing. And it was, it was amazing.

Kat: It's so amazing. It's just such a gift to get to even connect with people like that. Every time I get to see my clients in person I just have the most epic fun time ever. I walk away elevated and expanded and upgraded in an internal sense or spiritually even, but also we always do really fun stuff wherever we are in the world. I'm doing 4th of July in the U.S. for example and several of my clients will be there, but I'm like are they clients or are they like my best soul [inaudible 01:29:16] friends, it's the same. It's one and the same. I know we'll have an epic day.

Kat: I know for a lot of coaches, when they speak to their clients it's like how quickly can I get this done or what is the minimum amount of time that I can spend with people to get the maximum amount of money. Then if you would do a social thing like a dinner or whatever it would be like because it adds value. Whereas for me, I'm like we end up sitting in the restaurant with my clients till it would get closed down, then we're doing the social stuff because you want to do it, not because you think that it's a fucking value add. And it's, you know I become good friends with all my clients.

Kat: That's available for everybody, but the thing is that you can only do that and create a business like that when you're willing to be completely yourself. Because as soon as you're trying to fit in that box, whatever the four things are that you said, this is what I teach and this is how I teach it and you should do this, then you can be successful like me. Look how successful I am and then I go home and cry myself to sleep in my sad little life. Or sabotage myself to sleep or whatever. You've got to drop all of that, the only way you're going to get to where it's total flow and fun and you genuinely love all your clients is by being fully you. If you build a business with a mask on then guess what, you're stuck with a fucking mask on otherwise the whole thing will come crashing down. You should crash it down. It would be a [crosstalk 01:30:39] to do.

Patrick: Should. Should-

Kat: Crash it the fuck down.

Patrick: But I don't really think those businesses crash down as much as they should. I think people trap themselves into those prisons and then they just stay there you know? They get nice and comfy and they just live out the rest of their days there. What a horrifying existence. To me that's fucking horrifying that you created all of this-

Kat: And then they build a facade.

Patrick: And you know, people know who the fuck you really are. There's people around, people close to you who know who the fuck you are. They know that you are, I mean just witnessing this, like you're full of shit. That you're not happy, you're not the happy-go-lucky person you project. There's people out there that know this shit. That being said, for me to see that, for me to know that, to see that first hand and witness this thing, I'm grateful for the experiences that I've had. Being able to be immersed in this thing as much as I have and to have as much experience to be able to see it. You could be outside, because if I was trying to do this from outside and I was just looking in, then I just came into this thing and somebody was telling me here's the steps. Here's the map to get there, then I just took it at face value for what it was and took it and fucking ran with it and built a business off of it. Like this shit gets deep you know, could you imagine building your entire business with a fucking mask on and then just having to live there. If you took it off the whole thing would just crumble around you.

Patrick: Do you think it would crumble around for somebody like that or do you think it would stay the same? I mean the people would have to shake up, like everybody that you attracted with this mask on would have to, the whole thing would have to rearrange in some way, some how. What do you think?

Kat: I think some people manage to get away with continuing to make money when they're completely with a mask on and out of alignment. Some people can keep their so-called success for their entire lives, but at what cost right? Like yeah, it's possible to keep a business together behind a mask, but then if you suddenly stripped that mask off, I think it's not as scary as what people think it is. I did it, I mean I don't feel like I had a big mask on because I still was enjoying myself and I was doing work that I knew was good work and made a difference. I was having a good time, but I was not letting it all out like I do now, not even 1%. Then I did strip the mask off and I wrote an email and I said, "Why you should consider unsubscribing from my list." I wrote about look, here's reality, people keep saying to me, "You've changed Kat, or whatever, haven't fucking changed, I just wasn't being the real me. Here's what you can now expect from me. If you don't like it you should leave." Not many people left is the reality.

Kat: It depends to what degree you've gone down that rabbit hole because I wasn't, I didn't feel like I was out of integrity, I just wasn't fully revealing all of myself. It was like I was showing a limited version and then I showed more of me, but it was still the real me. So, I lost some people along the way. But, if somebody's completely built up based on all the wrong shit and their not happy, the reality is of course you can crash it down, not crash it down, whatever. The truth is that most people just won't because they're never going to be brave enough to do that. They're seduced and they're trapped in it and they have created a belief system that they can only make that money or have that success by doing it a certain way. They might say otherwise, but the reality is that they're putting money ahead of their soul or so-called security or safety ahead of their soul.

Kat: There's only a very few of us, like you, me, other people here, who are willing to risk it all for soul. I did that, I did walk away from a million dollar business and I was willing to risk it all. Now I make a fuck load of money and I have a lot of the things that a lot of entrepreneurs want, but what people have to understand is I did walk away from it all. Who would do that? Most people would not do that. I also said, at the time I said it and I meant it, when I realised I wasn't being true to my art I said, "From now on I'm only going to write and say what I want," and I said, "If I never make another cent again, I don't care. I will do this until I die because I can always make money being a personal trainer and survive. But I'm going to do what I want to do in my business." I was willing, I really was willing to do it even if I never made money again.

Kat: You've got to be willing to do that and the reality is that most people won't be. They're bound by the money and they're trapped by the money or the idea of it, even if they don't have it they're still somehow bound by it without even having it. Then they're going to give their lives for that. I think you've got to be willing to lose everything. I don't want to not have the fancy stuff that I have, but I'd be fine without it. I don't fricking need it and if I thought that I had to choose, I would walk away from 100% of it in a second. The only thing I actually need is my writing, my art, being able to express what's inside of me. That's where my fulfilment comes from. I just think people aren't willing to do that, most people aren't willing to do that.

Patrick: Well that's good then, I mean the market's definitely not saturated with that.

Kat: I mean, the market's not saturated without it, it's saturated with a lot of people who want to make money online so they don't have to live a normal life. That's fine, you can do that. You can build a little hobby business, but we're not here to talk to those people anyway, we're not trying to convert those zombie-preneurs over to being like us, we're just here to speak to the people who are already like us and who resonate with this and go, "Oh my God, fuck yes." Then you realise that you're not being true to yourself, you already knew all this shit anyway and maybe you need somebody to come along and be like, "Hey, remember who you are."

Patrick: Yeah, zombie-preneur. You call them zombie-preneurs.

Kat: Well I'm not trying to convert them, right? I'm not interested. It's like that expression in the bible that says, "Let he who has ears to hear listen," or something like that. I'm only speaking to those who have ears to hear. I don't want to speak to the people who are not already saying yes to this. I'm not trying to fucking convince people.

Kat: My sister just arrived. I think we have to do a member's training in my membership programme in like one minute. Wait, can you post in that group that we'll be like 10 minutes late? They're probably all on here watching this right now. Even that right, Jess, my sister just walked into the room. Patrick's waving at you, she can't see you, she's way over there. She's waving back.

Patrick: Hello.

Kat: So even like Jess and I did, here's just a quick example, but we did a video together to do the welcome video for my membership programme, The Millionaire Mastermind. We just did a video that goes in the Facebook group on the pinned comment. In the video I'm wearing a cape and we're both sitting up and we just were being complete idiots. We were off our heads laughing, just mucking around. I'm wearing a fucking gold and purple cape and deliberately throughout the whole video at no point did I reference the cape, I just wore it and didn't refer to it at all. Then we did all this silly shit, then somewhere in there we managed to tell people what to expect in the Facebook group.

Kat: That's an example as well right, I'm not going to do a fucking video for my members, like, "Here's what to expect," because that's not fun to me. 100% of it needs to be art, so even that I'm doing a video with my sister, well when we're together in real life, we're just complete idiots and clowns half the time. So we're going to do that on the video as well, we're about to do it now and we're going to do a split screen livestream like this with my brother who's down on the other side of the country. And his wife who does my Facebook ads and stuff and so there will be four of us on here and I'm sure it'll be a party zone. Then it's a training and all those people, those zombie-preneurs, they wouldn't do that, it'd be, "Well that's not professional, you know you've got to be serious."

Patrick: Yeah, exactly. It's the same as everything else though you know. It's just a very tasteless way to live your life. Very tasteless way to just be sold on somebody else's way of living and go live that, you know.

Kat: It is tasteless.

Patrick: Very pointless way to experience this one life that you get. This one fucking life, you know, I can't [inaudible 01:39:47]

Kat: It's tasteless. Exactly, it's a good word for it. I remember, I'll never forget the time you said to me one time, I think we had dinner and we were in a car park. We were talking about messaging and you said, "Well, if you're going to message you have got to do the whole message or nothing at all because to put some kind of limited version of your message out," I can remember your face, you were like, "It would just be disgusting." That reminds, it reminds me of what you just said where you're like, "It's tasteless."

Patrick: I've got another one for you, a really good one. It's balderdash, it's balderdash.

Kat: Balderdash.

Patrick: Balderdash.

Kat: It would be balderdash.

Patrick: It would be complete balderdash to put anything other than what you really want to fucking do out there.

Kat: Stop doing balderdash in your business people. I don't even know what that means, but don't do it. Stop being so disgusting and tasteless with all that balderdash.

Patrick: I remember, I'll give you a good example and stuff before you go, but when I was younger I used to, I was a hacker. You know I had a computer, I would hack into Princeton, I hacked into MIT, I hacked into a bunch of places.

Kat: Should you be saying that?

Patrick: Yeah, I will, fuck it. It was a long time ago, I was a kid, I was like 14 years old when I was doing it. There was this magazine, like this hacker magazine, there was also a bunch of other magazines that would come try to interview me because I'd leave my email address. We'd do what you call deface the website, where you'd replace the front of the website with a little message where you're shouting out your boys and shit like that. Then I had my email address so I'd get interviewed by these tech magazines and things like that.

Patrick: Whenever I'd get interviewed by them, actually I got interviewed by this Japanese magazine one time, they were asking me some stuff. I just didn't give a fuck, you know. If I was so proper I would have said something like you know, "This is how I did it and this and that and this and that," but instead I chose to fuck with them. They were like, "Where are you based out of?" One of the questions was, "Where are you based out of?" And I was like, "Well, me and my cohorts have a base here in Alaska, but our actual rebel base is located on another planet." I just thought that was so funny, to me it was fucking hilarious, but to them, you know over there in Japan they probably had to be thinking what the fuck. I just went through every question just answering it like that, just like fuck you. I'm going to answer it the way it makes me feel good to answer it. Makes me feel good to have fun and enjoy myself. See this on your little magazine and laugh my ass off about it later on, you know, giggle it up.

Patrick: And so, whenever I do things I'm thinking, to get back to that idea, to have that much fun when I'm creating something or creating art I want to have that much fun whenever I do it. It's fun to me, it's funny to me to do shit like that.

Kat: Exactly.

Patrick: That's like, that's free.

Kat: Yeah and it makes you magnetic to your soulmate client. The right people will be magnetised to that and then you access creative flow. We didn't even talk about this as well, but everything we just talked about you get to have fun and be silly and have the shenanigans and so on. It's not just that you get to, but when you do do that, you access all your highest power and creative flow. You just don't access that shit if you're not allowing yourself to be all of you. My best ideas have come from when I'm in that high access energy state when I'm kind of tripping off out my head or just being an idiot or a clown with the people that I'm closest to in my life. That's why you become so magnetised to being with those people all the time because you get into that state. Actually it's why my clients all want to stay clients and renew with me, not just because they get amazing results, but because they're feeding off my energy.

Patrick: Well your inspiring to me on that one because I have over the past few years allowed my mind to be fucked with in this way. You know I was always put the walls and the limitations up and recently I've been going back and just saying fuck all that shit. It is bullshit, it's all bullshit right?

Kat: Yeah.

Patrick: You can do this any way that you want to, any way that you want to and you better do it the fucking way you want to otherwise you're going to live confined to these walls. Trapped in a prison created by these motherfuckers, you know, but [crosstalk 01:44:10]-

Kat: Why would you want to do that?

Patrick: If you do right, so but now I'm steadily pulling down each of these walls as I go along. Watching you and just how you get loose with it, enjoying yourself on camera, it's like starting to, it's coming back to me. I'm going to get even further into it. I just watch you and I'm like, I just want you to know I'm inspired by it and how you're just kind of have fun. Like a kid would you know?

Kat: Yeah, thank you. It is so fun. I know I've got to go, I could keep talking for hours, but I know you saw that little [inaudible 01:44:49] piece that Jess and I did. I was so impressed with myself by that, but I was like God dammit I'm funny, that's the funniest thing I've ever done on the internet. Then it's also very inspiring for people and it does just happen when you let yourself be who you are. I've seen you do that as well, I listened to your livestream the other day while I was driving for an hour and I was just laughing out loud at various points throughout it. I noticed you'll be quite serious and then all of a sudden you'll just go into some random accent or voice, I don't know, some little parody of something. It seems to kind of come out of nowhere and there's been a few times for sure I've spat coffee nearly over my laptop because it's like I wasn't expecting it-

Patrick: Random.

Kat: You were being total serious and then like, what the fuck, that is funny, I love it, that's how it should be. Anyway I'm going to have to jump off. I'm going to have to continue this party over in my members programme.

Patrick: All right, well you all have fun over there. Thank you for letting me join you on the livestream today, of course.

Kat: Thank you for being here, dropping your gold for everybody. Make sure you guys go [crosstalk 01:45:57] read our blogs.

Patrick: I love gold. You all take it easy.

Kat: [inaudible 01:46:03] press play.

Patrick: Thank you for joining.

Katrina: Hello world. Alright. What a beautiful live stream this is going to be. Probably everybody who comes by is going to be like having a little peek over my shoulder to see why I'm talking to myself, or they'll just think I'm doing a very high tech face time on a tripod. Take my face time to my friends so seriously that I bring a tripod. Do you think that everyone in the world knows what a Facebook live stream is now? Don't you think it would just be super weird if you ... Don't you think that if you met somebody.

Katrina: Here's a question, would it be very rude or exclusionary if you went on a date and then the person didn't know what a Facebook live stream was, do you think that would be a veto? Would that be an automatic veto or is that just quite ridiculous? I don't know, like I feel like if someone, I've said this before, but I feel if somebody comes to visit me at my house and they don't arrive with a tripod just a little bit concerned that's all. Just a tiny bit concerned.

Katrina: For their mental sanity more than anything really. But also just for organisational reasons, how the hell are you supposed to hang out and have a social time with your friends if one person arrives without a tripod? I mean it's okay cause I've got probably about 20 tripods at my house of all shapes and sizes and a full studio. Well it's somewhat of a studio anyway, it's got a throne in it, next to the studio there's a throne, there's some art, there's mini tripods, there're many lights. Fine it's a dining room, okay it's a studio. I converted it into a studio, it is what I say it is and that's all it is.

Katrina: Hello everybody, thank you for the 1% stickers. How do you like my background today? Looks a little bit airbrushed doesn't it? This is gonna be the best live stream in the world. Thank you Vicky, I love you too. This is gonna be the best livestream ever because you're gonna get the sunset happening right as our livestream. I hope you're super grateful to me cause it's actually quite freezing here and I am indeed sitting like a schoolgirl cross legged. I'm sitting on top of the picnic table. I don't really believe in sitting at picnic tables, I feel like that's more for the normal people. I feel like I need to make a point to the entire rest of the beach and the park, and the point is I sit on top of the fucking table bitches, I'm not sure what it's trying to say. Not sure exactly what it's saying to the world.

Katrina: But I've had an unusual day, I've had an adventurous day. I've been many places, I've done many things, I've seen many people. I've, oh, somebody's said hello already to us, there you go. I thought that I was going to be out in Brisbane for the whole day today, Brisbane is an hour from here. It's a major capital city near here, I guess, near to the coast where I live but that just fell through. I went to see a man about a car. He didn't have a dog. My dad used to say I went to see a man about a dog, he might've had a dog but he didn't have it with him at the dealership.

Katrina: Hello Emma, hello Amber, hello everybody who's jumping on. I didn't like the car on first sight, it was hate on first sight. It was not a soulmate car. It was the wrong shade of grey, so there you go. I thought I was buying a Mercedes convertible today and upgrading or handing over my older one, which is a Cialis, but I didn't.

Katrina: So then I, well then I had the best conversation in the history of the world on the way there, on the road trip out, and then on road trip back I watched Patrick's livestream, well I listened to it through the audio, it's very good. I actually gotta send him a message about that. It was very good. It went for a whole hour and I listened to the whole entire thing. Then I went to see another car, I may have just accidentally sneakily bought a small car. Okay, it's not that small, but I sneakily bought a car in a small pocket of time in between appointments. So I'll tell you about that. It wasn't the one I went to see, and then I went to see a house and I may have taken the house as well. That just happened today and just then, like 30 minutes ago. And then I realised I hadn't eaten all day long. I was gonna title this livestream, I don't know I've forgotten now already. Then I realised I haven't eaten all day long.

Katrina: I'm maybe now supposed to go on a walk with my friend Matt, we'll see if he appears on the livestream, I've sent him a message and said, listen you'll find me easily cause I'm sitting on top of a picnic table in the park near his house, and so just come and find me and interrupt me on the livestream cause I cannot send messages while I'm live streaming. So you may or may not get a guest appearance by Matt. So I came down to have a picnic because I hadn't eaten all day, I've been carrying my food around. You know, it's like that personal trainer kick back thing, when you've been a trainer for 13 years you still just carry your food around in little containers everywhere you go. It doesn't matter how much of an empire you've got on the internet.

Katrina: Here's the remainders of it. So I had one lamb cut left, it's gone now. That was full. I had a fuck load of chicken, broccoli. I don't know why I've rejected this small piece of chicken. Lots of carrot sticks, cauliflower, it was nice having a picnic by myself. I haven't had a little picnic by myself in ages.

Katrina: And then what I had to do, what I had to do because my teeth were full of chicken and broccoli and cauliflower, so I had to pull out one of these here cusps, these are my favourite earrings that I had designed for myself, they're black diamonds with pink diamonds and white diamonds around them. This is a trick. This is a live stream trick, it's a little bit embarrassing for me but I'm going to tell it to you because I love you, I used the earring thing to clean my teeth, to get the broccoli and the chicken out of my teeth. I used the thing of the earring, and I did it right here on top of the thing in my camera while people were walking past. So, I was like am I gonna do this, am I gonna sit here actually cleaning my teeth with the stem of a black diamond earring. Yes I am, cause otherwise I would be here with chicken and broccoli all up in my teeth, and I just decided to go with it.

Katrina: And then I had a flashback to being 22 and one of my oldest friends in the world, if not my oldest friend in the world, Ryan [Prigg 00:06:17] who's a great friend of mine to this day, and you might've met him he's been on a few of my lives I guess. He lives in Perth now, but he and I would walk to the gym at 5 or 6 AM, we lived in the same suburb and we'd walk into the gym together back in the day and he would always be eating lamb chops while walking down the street at 5 AM, and I was always like "Can you just walk on the other side of the road from me?" I don't know, I found it embarrassing.

Katrina: And right here, as I sat here picking my teeth with the back of my diamond earring in order to do this live stream in a presentable and up market fashion for you, I just thought of that and I thought of all the men in my life, like all the male friends or males in general who I've known, how men often to seem to just not give a fuck.

Katrina: They just seem to, like they don't care. If they're doing something kind of embarrassing in public or something where you might think don't do that in public. So I just channelled the energy of lots of male friends from over the years and I was like yes, I can do it. I will sit here, pull out my earring and then pick out bits of broccoli and chicken from my teeth through the back of the earring while sitting on top of a park bench.

Katrina: Serefina I just found us a new house. I was supposed to be in Brisbane until late, it was a whole shenanigan. It didn't happen. Instead, I may have come back to the Gold Coast and quickly bought a car in a small four minute block of time that I had and then went to see a house, and now I've got us a new house.

Katrina: Anyway, you'll find out. I only just saw it an hour ago, but of course I'll get it because I'll get whatever I fucking want and decide. And that was actually what I came here to talk to you about today. So who is ready for the most high vibe as fuck live stream. My millionaire mastermind members, there's been a special, I'm gonna tell you some things about receiving the things. Receiving the things that you wanna receive and having it done with ease.

Katrina: Why do people look at me when I wave my arms around in public? It's a normal thing to do. I forget that I'm in public and I get into the super flow and then I kinda vaguely catch those glances over my shoulder. So send me the love heart showers and the little press play stickers and the 1% signs if you desire to know how to receive more of things with ease and with gratitude.

Katrina: I was starting to say you should send me some love heart showers as a thank you to me that I'm sitting here in the cold just on your behalf so that you can see a beautiful sunset, because it is quite cold. But I have a system, here's one of my weird systems about disciplining myself. So I have another sweater here, I'm already wearing one, okay, I am sponsored by Nike obviously as well as Chanel, Montblanc and Virgin Airlines and Starwood Hotels. Anyone else can apply just PM me and we'll see, but if I don't use your brand already it's not gonna work. So, I have another sweater here. It's very fucking cold.

Katrina: I was sitting here shaking my bones off before I went live. One of the weird habits that I have and I'll be curious to know if anyone else does this, because I personally feel like it speaks quite highly of my character, is that when I'm very cold, like lets say I'm at the snow or snowboarding, I will snowboard in a tank top. I will put the proper pants and shoes on obviously gotta put shoes on, but I will wear a tank top and I will keep my jacket, just like all my jackets and all my sweaters, tied around my waist, and my friends are always like, "What the fuck?"

Katrina: And it's so that I can earn putting the jacket on. When I get to where I really deserve it, where I'm really falling apart with cold, then I'll put just one more layer on because that way I so appreciate it, right?

Katrina: So right now I'm very fucking cold. I'm suffering in the name of giving you a beautiful sunset live stream, and I appreciate your love heart and your stickers that you're sending me. Thank you, thank you. I could be less cold but I feel like I'd rather wait until I've really earned it because it's building character. It's building, I just feel like I'm so tough. I just feel like I'm super tough. I'm building resilience and inner strength by not putting a jacket on. Okay, I know it's only like 20 degrees Celsius or something so it's not that fucking cold but it is winter, winter on the Gold Coast, it's a real thing.

Katrina: Hello Lila, hello Ruby, hugs. Live stream hug. So everybody else can have a hug as well. Helen when you come to the Gold Coast we can come and hang out in the park right here together if you like.

Katrina: Okay, I feel like I lost an important point. What was it going to be? I'm going to talk to you about receiving with ease. There was something halfway through that I was talking about but yeah, they've been walking. I've been sitting in the freaking car all day long, alright fine, you're just saying I'm a wuss, it's fine, I accept it. It is so beautiful here. So I think this is where I'm going to move to though. The new house that I just looked at is like ten minutes drive from here. I'm not gonna have my full on ocean views that I have anymore. I've got complete floor to ceiling double story ocean views its phenomenal. I'm sure you've seen it on my live streams, but Emma message me next time. But the new house fucking hell, like I just walked into this house and I was like holy crap. I literally said holy crap.

Katrina: It's more naturey. It's at the back of a reserve and it's elevated and it's four levels, the house. So you've got full on reserve and nature views but then from the master bedroom, my bedroom, you can still see the ocean as well. It's pretty fucking amazing. And I realised actually ... I wanna learn more about this, I saw somebody make a comment about this, there's something about the ocean. As much as I do love and adore it and I'm by the beach nearly every day and I can see the beach from every window in my house, I think it unsettles me a little bit. I think the ocean used to be unstable energy for me because as soon as I walk into a house like that with the incredible more rainforestesy type vibes to it, maybe partly because it reminds me of where I grew up which was at the foot of the mountain ranges and I used to always go up there and go running up the trails and that sort of thing and I still do when I go back to my home town, but I just felt instantly calm.

Katrina: I feel like that's actually more me, and it's funny because I never feel fully relaxed in my own house at the moment even though the view's fucking amazing and the place is incredible and everyone's like holy shit and I'm like yeah. And I don't really pay it that much attention. It doesn't actually connect to my soul. Being here does. I mean I'm literally 20 yards from the beach. I don't know maybe it's something about being in a high rise.

Katrina: Alright let me talk about the energy thing, though, because why I started to do this live stream was I was thinking about, right trees are more grounding. I think I really need to be grounded. I have a high need to be grounded. People who are super empaths and that sort of thing, [yugo 00:12:54], children whatever it is that we tend to really need grounding. And I live 50 stories up, whatever it is, and I think that might be part of it.

Katrina: Well this is the thing, right? I can be, it was eight minutes drive according to my map in my phone when I drive from there back to here. Eight minutes from the house to here, and this where I am right now is in Boyle Heights which is an amazing area. It's a really cool area with cafes and lots of stuff just all right there, I can see it right from here and the playground is there for the kids and all that sort of stuff. What was I saying? So yeah, I've got the beach right there and the mountains over there as well, it's the best of both worlds. And I could have a trampoline and there's like a party basement in this house, party. Alright anyway on the show.

Katrina: So what I was thinking about was: I literally did, I went to see the car that I thought I wanted to see in Brisbane and then I came back to the Gold Coast dealership and I'd already seen the car at the Gold Coast dealership last week but then I've gone to Brisbane to see it in a different colour. It was the wrong colour I didn't like it on first sight, I hated it. So I went back to Gold Coast, and I was like, "Listen I've got eight minutes can we do a deal, here's what I want." And it just went boom boom boom done. And I left maybe five minutes after that or something, and it was just done. And this is a fairly pricey car. Alright? and then I went from there straight down to the house that I wanted to see and I mean I took a little bit more than eight minutes through the house because it was so freaking big, it's four stories. So I had to go through all the different areas of the house and look at it, but same thing, I just came downstairs I said to the women, okay this is the offer I'm gonna put in, it's gonna be like this with these conditions and this, this, and this, and boom left.

Katrina: Alright? So obviously I don't know yet if I got the house, but I will, because I always get everything I want. And then I came down here to have my picnic and I was gonna title the live stream something like, "Put an offer in on your dream life and just decide that it gets to be done." Cause I was thinking about putting an offer in on the house, I was putting an offer on the car and all that stuff and always getting what I want. And the fact that mostly, I suppose when people go and buy or invest into expensive items, or even like getting a new car it's a big deal. It is a big deal, I'm not downplaying it all, but mostly people will take ages going back and forth and doing all that stuff, and they do that though with everything.

Katrina: Now, on the one hand, I'm at a point in my business now where I don't, in my life, where I don't have to dilly dally over going back and forth or should I shouldn't I, as far as the money side of things. Actually my brother asked to come in and negotiated on the car for me, already did that over the past few days. And that was cool. That was nice.

Katrina: So it could be, you could easily say it's because of the money's in now right. I did the thing I built the business. I did all the years of hardship and not having money and so now I can just walk around merrily quickly getting new cars and houses any time I like. It's not that though, because I always used to do that, I've done that the whole time. In fact every car that I've ever had, specifically, it's always been like, "Yep that one done. No I don't wanna know the details. No don't tell me what kind of V8 it is or what kind of whatever it is. I just don't really, please lets just be clear, what matters is how it looks and the vibe of the thing." That's what I said word for word, that's what I said to the car guy. I'm like "Really, no I don't really need to test drive it. I'm sure it drives great, it's a brand new Mercedes, of course it's gonna drive good. It's got a V8 cool whatever. What does that mean? Oh I get to go out now be in the AMG Australian club and go to the ... I've already got an AMG car why am I not in that club already, and go to the Formula 1. I'm like cool, cool, now let me just feel into the vibe of it because that's what actually matters to me."

Katrina: And so I've always been like that with all things in my life. It's not about being at a certain point in my business, now being able to easily make decisions to do with money, it's not that. I've always done that. I just don't wanna know. I don't care. I know what I care about, but more importantly I know right away what's for me or not for me, you know. And I choose to trust my intuition and I can't even remember what I've titled this live stream now. Something like imagine how much energy you would gain, what did I say, I mentioned how much energy you would gain if you made things non fucking negotiable because for me when I saw the car, I'm like, "Soul mate car, has to happen, okay these are the terms of the deal that I want. So I'm gonna hold strong on that." Thank you Ames.

Katrina: I'm gonna hold strong on those terms to a point right. I'm not going to be obstinate about it for the sake of it, but I know what feels right, same with the house. I know what conditions I want, but in my mind, at no point am I remotely energetically available for it not happening. I completely know that that's my soul mate car, I'm having the car. As soon as I saw the house on the internet before I even looked at it I was like, "Oh, it's that one."

Katrina: And it's roughly the same thing I've done always with men as well, I'm like, "Oh it's that one." And then I just trust and wait and know that things are going to come to life as they should and it saves me so much fucking energy and time. Because why would I need to go back and forth, think about it, weigh out the pros and cons, look around, is there a better soul mate car, is there a better soul mate house in the area or is it, you know. Okay, can I trust my gut or can I trust my instincts when it comes to men?

Katrina: Now I haven't maybe always been this decisive in all areas the whole way through. I've definitely had gosh with the relationship area. Definitely had much time of not trusting myself except the funny thing is, that even when I wasn't acting as though I trusted myself, I did trust myself. I just didn't know if it was okay to trust myself, something like that. So it's kind of like you have these layers right, where you doubt yourself but then deeper down you actually trust yourself, and maybe in some areas of your life right now you're really continuously acting from trust and from faith, and in other areas of your life your more like, "Oh, is this okay and is it allowed and maybe you're checking with friends or mentors or whatever?" And that's all fine. That's part of the process obviously and it's totally allowed and okay.

Katrina: But for me, and if I look back, and I look at the things that I brought to life in my life in all areas, the most how yes things which have just been like: of course that had to happen and was meant to be, or that was the best decision I made, or whatever in that particular area, it's always when it just comes really fast from the gut.

Katrina: And, in fact, if you ever reach out to me to work with me as a one on one client, you'll see that I'll say something in my response to you along, like when I give you investment details of working with me, I will say something to you like, "The rate is x amount, but if you wanted to say yes now in the next, like today, in response to this message right now," which I think I give 24 hours notice usually, "then you're gonna get usually about a 10 to 20% discount." And the reason is, and I say this like I'll do this with Empress for example which is in the [inaudible 00:19:31] comment.

Katrina: The reason is: I like working with people who take rapid action from the go, make fast decisions, and just act on the immediately, and that's because that's what I do. So I like to work with clients who are like that, because I believe that people who act like that get better results in life, and get faster results with it, and for me, it's just more fun to work with.

Katrina: So, it's not like a sales tactic or a strategy that I say that. It's legit. People who wait and then get back to me after the 24 hours, they do pay the actual full rate, but for people who want to take rapid action from the go, and follow their instincts, then the get, essentially, a discount or reward for that.

Katrina: And for me, it's a really effective way for filtering out my ideal clients, because for me, well before I had the business, well before I had the money, well before I had the credibility, I guess, in any area of my life to back it up, I have just always been that person who's like, "Yep, it's that one. That's what I want. No please don't tell me the details. How quickly can we get this done? Yeah, I get that it's a car and I'm buying 20,000 dollar car, but no I don't really want to sit here. I don't want a coffee. I don't want a pellagrino. I want to sign the paperwork in two minutes flat. Then I'm gonna go, get out the door and get on with my day. And yes, ill take the champagne. Why don't you send it to me. I'll give it to somebody. I'm allergic anyway."

Katrina: And it's just a way of living that has enabled me to have massive flow in my life, right? And of course not just with monetary things, with all things, with every area, even down to what should I eat? What should I order off this menu, or should I have the fucking stupid salad because I'm on a diet?" Well, I'm not on a diet, but back in the day I would have been, right?

Katrina: Or, "Is it okay if I have pasta? Or maybe this is gonna happen then and then I'll have to go to the gym an extra time, or bla bla bla." Like who can even bother caring? What if you just tuned into what your soul is telling you, what your gut is telling, you and you just chose to trust?

Katrina: Really, what we're talking about is a trust based conversation. So it can come across as being, "Yeah this comment from AIM said something about being impatient and spontaneous." It is impatient and spontaneous, but at the same time, it's very fucking empowered, right? Now for me, I know I used to be more so down on myself or hard on myself about it because I probably did feel that it's irresponsible to live like that and to behave like that, especially when it comes to big decisions, right?

Katrina: Even for the day to day stuff I guess I am pretty impatient. Like i know what I fucking want, and I just want to get it done. I don't want to have this fucking discussion about it. I know what I want, and I know I want it to lead it to me instantly, energetically, right? And it tends to work that way, but there was a period for sure, that I felt like that was not okay, and that's not allowed, and it makes me irresponsible, and it makes me flighty or maybe it means that I'm making bad decisions and I'm not creating what I want in my life, and that sort of thing.

Katrina: Whereas now, fast forward, and I guess, after a certain amount of time, and you get to a certain age, and you've lived for that way for however long, and you've bit by bit given yourself permission to be who you are, that you do get to the point where you're like, "You know what? I actually think this is quite a good approach to life. I actually think it's working for me." Spontaneity and decision making can make even ... I can't read the whole comment. I don't have my laptop here. It's in the car, so I can only read half of your comment.

Katrina: Is anybody gonna creep up on me on the side? I just had this sudden thought there are so many Gulf Coast people on the side that one of them tries to live stream bomb me? Typically, [inaudible 00:23:00] girl like me and pathetic ... Okay, I'm gonna read these comments later. So keep leaving me the comments.

Katrina: So yeah, with Empress, which is my current offering that I'm putting out there at the moment. Details are in the comment right there in there. It's one on one with me for four weeks, claiming the fact that you were born to impact people through your energy, and through your message and your presence and not only be a coach. You'll probably always do coaching, but you're not actually born to be a coach. You're born to be a leader, a revolutionary, a bad ass, a messenger, somebody who people just want to be around and get into the energy space of. A mother fucking empress.

Katrina: Read the pinch comment and read all that Empress is about. It's about stepping into that energy, stepping into the environment, stepping into creating the money results from that place, stepping into your business and life based on being who you're meant to be, rather than on doing certain things.

Katrina: And with that, that's exactly, what we've been talking about, is exactly the sort of stuff that I ... I'm not even gonna say teach. I don't teach it. What I do is, I look for the people, the women who are like me, who wanna work with me at that level who already are that person and are attracted to the way that I show up, because maybe I'm showing up a little more boldly than you are right now and you feel either triggered or inspired by it, but what I'm really seeking to do when I call in my soulmate clients is to find the women, and men as well, mainly women, who are attracted to something in me, and they recognise themselves in that.

Katrina: And so, my job is not to teach that, though. My job is not to come on and teach people that, "Hey you should be impatient or spontaneous, or insist on buying new cars without test driving them in four minutes flat." Whatever it is, right? Or I don't know, refuse to think about details to anything, and just want to click your fingers and have your whole life delivered to you on a silver platter. That's not what I'm here to teach anybody. I'm here to connect with the souls that come from the same mould as me, come from the same big bucket of souls, and empower you so you remember who you fucking are. Right?

Katrina: When can we meet? I don't do a whole lot of in person stuff, officially. Mainly, I meet up in person with my existing private clients. I don't really do meetups or anything, and at the moment, when I do events, it's typically only for my existing private clients as well. I'm from this area originally, though.

Katrina: So, whether it's that you wanted to, like for example, read the pinned comment if you wanna know about working with me one on one, and then message me over on my personal [Catrina Reed 00:25:26] page, or here, but preferably on the personal one. Whether it that you wanted to look at what it would be like to work with me one on one as your success slash business mentor, or have me kick you into alignment in my [00:25:40], or whether it's simply that you want to be part of my free content and watch my live streams and read my blogs and that sort of thing. Either way, what I'm here to do is to empower you to remember who you fucking are right?

Katrina: And who you are at your core, if you resonate with my message, and with my way of doing business, is someone who knows that they can mother fucking trust in themselves. Alright. I wasn't trying to deliberately trying to put those guys in the live stream. I keep sort of half looking around in case my friends are here.

Katrina: Right, so it's not about, "You should live this way." You definitely shouldn't live the way I live. It would be very stressful if you aren't this sort of person. It wouldn't work for you at all, and you should definitely leave this live stream right way. Plus, maybe those birds annoy you, but if you're that person, where you know at your core that you can trust in yourself, then, at some point, you're gonna have to learn to do that, because the energetic cost and the energetic drain of thinking about every fucking thing will literally cost you your life.

Katrina: Thinking is a very over rated activity. Right? And I believe that there are those of us, certain types of entrepreneurs and leaders, who just have such a hight level of intuitive power, and are able to tap into that and carry everything from that place, but most of whom just don't fucking do it, right? They don't do it because you buy into an idea, from what's being taught around the rest of the internet, or by what's bing taught by other coaches, or even by your own self, and your questioning mode.

Katrina: Can you guys even hear me? Cause it seems that I'm getting a little bit frazzled by the birds. They're so freakin' loud. Luckily, I put my ear plugs in. Can you actually hear me, though? Or can you only hear birds right now? Am I just kinda message over top of the birds, and the birds are like, "I don't think so. This is our show bitch." I've got birds behind me, and I've got a tonne of kids playing football or something in front of me, whatever it is they're playing.

Katrina: You can hear? Alright, I'll keep going then. Ill just try not to get distracted.

Katrina: So really, no one believes that we are not like the other entrepreneurs. This is what I'm trying to say. We have incredible intuitive abilities. We have psychic abilities. We have like a knowledge and wisdom that goes beyond the physical realm, and everybody does. I do think everybody does. I know that everybody does, because it's part of the human experience is to access this direct order. The emotional, the world within the world. The river beneath the river is another way of saying it. Access that collective conscious or go into super flow or however you like to term it. Go into the, what is it, the deep collective unconscious, I think is what Yung called it. Everybody has that ability, but some of us more than others. We're really born to create from that place, and it's how we learn, and it's how we communicate, and it's actually how we wanna do life, is for it to come deeply from intuition, and deeply from what we feel, rather than from what the details are.

Katrina: So when I go to see a car, and the guy is trying to tell me about the mother fucking engine, maybe it's a girl thing, I don't know, but to me I'm like, "I don't care. I'm not buying it for the engine. I only wanna feel the vibe of the thing. I jut wanna feel the soul of the car." It sounds kinda silly. I mean, a car can't really have a soul. It's a very material item, but I'm just using that as an example, because that's what I did today, but it's the same with people, right? People ask me often, "How do you know? Who are your soul mate clients from people who message to work with you, like in Empress for example, or in whatever it is that I'm doing."

Katrina: And I say, "Well, I just know." Part of it is that I fully trust that only the right soul mate people will come to me, and I just trust, and expect and assume that. So pretty much if you message me, I'm assuming that you're a soul mate person. I'm not looking for you to prove to me that you're a soul mate person, or I'm personally trying to figure out if you're a soul mate person. I trust and know that you are because it's just how I set my intentions for my business and my life, that only the right people come in. But at the same time, I guess I'm automatically reading people's energy, and it's not based on anything you say or don't say or do or don't do. It can be as simple as the energetic response that I get from looking at your name on Facebook, or your photo, or not even looking at anything, just feeling it. It's all from feeling.

Katrina: It's the same as how I always know how to spend my time, and I used to spend so much time in my business, questioning everything. I was a hard worker. I did the hassle. I did all the work. I've always been a disciplined person, and I build my business that way, but when I think about how I do business in life now, as compared with five or six years ago, and well before that also, it's just so easy now, and maybe partly that's from practise. Maybe partly it's from getting it to a certain point, but I really believe and know that the biggest fix was being, I just stopped worrying about it. I stopped the energetic drain. I stopped going back and forth and back and forth on every possible different thing that I was doing, and just decided to trust.

Katrina: And so, it gets me to the point that I wanted to come on today and make for you, or the question to pose for you is, "What if you just decided to trust? What if you just decided to trust that was you feel inside of you is real? What if, from this moment in time, right here on the nosiest fucking beach in Australia, what if, from this moment in time, you decided to trust that what's coming through you is real? That, if your heart, your soul, your mind, the weird hazy voices inside of your head say something to you, then it's right? What if you just decided to trust that feeling?"

Katrina: For me it's the house. I saw it on the internet last night, only last night. I was scrolling through, scrolling through, kinda vaguely looking at details of houses, but really knowing that I'm wasting my time, because if I don't straight away feel that 'yes' when the initial images comes up, then there's actually no need for me to actually look at the details. I already know that, but I was sorta going through the motions, and then this one came up and my soul just said 'yes', right, and like I said, it's the same thing, the same when I go on dating apps for example. It's the way that I've done it when I've used dating apps. It's not based on the details, it's based on ... there's a feeling, there's a vibe that comes up. It's been the same with every car that I've bought. It's the same with how I order food. It's the same with how I decide what I'm gonna launch and sell. It's the same when I think what price I'm gonna charge something out at on the internet.

Katrina: Can you really not hear now? Somebody said they can't hear now. So, when I'm going through my head like, "How much should I price my new offer at? This much, or this much or this much?" It's the one that my soul says yes to. It's even the same way that I do it if I'm thinking about going out to drinks with somebody, or going for a social occasion, or should I stay and work at home today, or should I go for a café today, or whatever it might be? It's always, always that first response that comes up. What's the first response that comes up?

Katrina: And I think that what happen, and what we're convincing ourselves to do previously, and maybe where you're at now in come areas, and that's why you had to come on here today and listen to this.

Katrina: So only Rajaela says she can't hear me. Everybody else says they can here me. So I'm gonna continue on.

Katrina: I think that what happens is, we condition ourselves out of trusting in that gut instinct. We condition ourselves out of believing what we feel inside of us. We condition ourselves into believing that we should be suppressing things, that we should need to way it out, that we should need to get through, that it should need to be fucking cross checked and referenced and backed up with 20 different research papers and 20 different people, but not fucking you, and actually, you already have known inside of you the entire time, what you need.

Katrina: Headphones are in. Doing the best I can. Birds are loving it.

Katrina: You've already known inside of you, the entire time what you need, and who you are and how to be directed and guided, and it's simply a matter of giving yourself permission to follow that. It's simply a matter of saying, "You know what? I'm gonna choose that, from this moment forward, I'm gonna quit losing time, losing energy, losing focus, losing self belief and losing trust in myself.

Katrina: Yes Lee, from the comment about the birds, thank you. So good.

Katrina: Losing self belief and losing trust in myself.

Katrina: Ah, the people listening should put headphones in is what Mary Louise said.

Katrina: What if I'm gonna quit losing self belief, losing time, losing focus, losing trust in self belief in myself ... I'm gonna quit letting all of that just energetically seep out of me, and I'm just gonna choose to make rapid decisions that come from the gut.

Katrina: Can you imagine how that would impact your life moving forward? I'm gonna tell you that in a very practical sense, if nothing else. Nevermind the feeling of being so happy and in flow and just buoyant with life, because you're giving yourself permission to trust in yourself, that's a good fucking feeling, but in a practical sense, you save a mother fuck load of time. Mother fuck load. Is that a word? I don't know it is now. You save a fuck load of time, because you just don't need to do that whole thing of checking with the whole world and all it's neighbours in order to see if you can do the thing.

Katrina: And then meanwhile, when you're doing that check and research, and trying to figure it out thing, often times you'll lose the whole opportunity, and it's just gone. One of the things that people as me, probably more than anything, relevant to the business and the life that I've created, is how I do it all, how I fit it all in, how I can appear to create so much content. I do create so much content, and sell so many different things, but I'm doing like all this shit, and then on top of it, I'm nailing the fitness side, and travel, and have so much free time as well as [inaudible 00:35:56] time. It's because I don't do that time wasting thing, that most people do. It's because I just eliminated all of that.

Katrina: If you look back over your past day, what percentage, roughly, would you say was taking actually action that leads to an outcome? And what percentage was hiding your head in the sand, scrolling Facebook looking for the meaning of life, checking in with all your friends and mentors and neighbours about what you should and shouldn't do, second guessing yourself, doing the shit that is the version of second best because you're worried that maybe you wouldn't get the thing that's your real ideal. You're not good enough. You're not worth. Wasting time and money doing worthless shopping, or overeating, or over drinking or over masturbating. Great thing to shout out loud when you're on the beach. Or whatever it might be.

Katrina: Like where is your life going right now, and how much of that is a product of just not choosing to trust in yourself? Do you see how so many of the things that I just listed out come about as a result of not giving yourself permission to make rapid, gut based action? I know your heart is up here, but actually your gut is a invisible thing. I'm not just talking about your digestive system. So it's everywhere all the way through you. Right? How much time is actually being lost?

Katrina: Is that Matt? I think we might have a guest creeping up on our live stream.

Katrina: How much of your life is being lost from that, right? You're probably squandering, most people are squandering as much as 80 percent of their time.

Katrina: [inaudible 00:37:40]. There's Matt.

Matt: [00:37:42] live stream, and it's [inaudible 00:37:44]. How are these people?

Katrina: Look at us. We look like we're on a movie set.

Matt: We do don't we?

Katrina: There's Matt.

Matt: [inaudible 00:37:52]. Is that not comfortable?

Katrina: I'm so comfortable right now. Look at that. I had a little [inaudible 00:37:57]. Allie, you know I only have hot men that hang around me. Yeah, well I'll finish the live stream now. Would you like to leave any words of wisdom? Because you can't just appear like a silent person and not say anything.

Matt: I don't have any.

Katrina: He's got no words of wisdom.

Matt: [inc=audible 00:38:19] I just had the [inaudible 00:38:19] on the side.

Katrina: Alright, we're gonna go. I'm sorry about that. I'm gonna have to do this.

Matt: [inaudible 00:38:26] in one, two, three, four.

Katrina: I was talking about what if you just chose to trust in yourself and take immediate action about what you feel inside you, rather than just taking a whole fucking week thinking about it, missing out on opportunities, losing your self belief, just because you don't act from the heart.

Katrina: He agrees. Alright. We're gonna go.

Matt: Cat is the best at live stream. So I'm sure she's given you some wisdom.

Katrina: You're a live stream king as well. I told them at the start, I said "Matt might appear at some point, because I've messaged him and said: "You'll find me sitting on top of a picnic bench in the park."

Matt: No, I saw your message, but didn't read it until I was pulling in here.

Katrina: Oh really? Well you saw me anyway.

Matt: Then I saw you sitting here like-

Katrina: That's what I said on the audio. I sent you an energetic song message. Alright. Have an amazing rest of the day. Don't forget life is now, don't fucking quit. Bye.

Matt: Bye.

Katrina Ruth: Ooh. That made a significant improvement, didn't it? Just that little forward tilt. She just needs a little bit of a forward tilt. Who's she? Not me, the tripod. The tripod is a girl, she's a lady. She's a lady who lunches. Somebody just invited me to lunch, I was like, "Ooh, lunch. How fancy." I feel like lunches for really fancy people, is that a true thing or am I making it up? I don't do lunch, who does lunch? Do people even eat lunch? Is that a thing? Who goes to lunch? What's that about? Who goes to lunch, I mean really. If you invite me to a lunch for your birthday, I'm going to be a little bit like, "Really, what's up with that? Dinner, I'll go to dinner." Live, we are live. I'll go to dinner, I will go for the espresso martinis ... I want to get my beach that's on both sides in. Dilemma. I don't care for that spiky spiky behind me. Do you reckon I should move it?

Katrina Ruth: You think I could fix up my bloody set ... my fabulous set, before I get on it. You would think that, but if you thought it, you would be wrong. You go to lunch, who goes to lunch? My mind is being blown. You can't just go around going to lunch. I'm going to move this plant here. Oh man, my cushion situation just went out the window. All right. Hello. Just do a little bit of furniture shifting before we begin. I'm kicking it with my foot, I don't like that plant. Plant can fuck right off. With love. With love to wherever it came from. That is much better. Isn't it infinitely better? Do you feel like we need more brightness? Ha. What do you think? I'm just done with the throne right now, sorry, I'm just done with sitting in the throne. Sometimes the queen got to get off the motherfucking throne. Hello from Darwin. Why have I still in my whole life not been to Darwin? Okay that's it.

Katrina Ruth: Who wants to do an amazing, amazing, kick ass entrepreneur retreat in Darwin? In a very fabulous high end location. Why are all my cushions falling off? As fast as I pick them up, they're falling off. What's happening? And why am I a little bit out of breath? Did something exciting happen to me? Not really. Something exciting is always about to happen, it's probably going to happen right now on this live stream. Okay yes, you guys are in. Oh my god I'm not even joking, I'm announcing it officially ... okay North Carolina, what are you going to offer me there? Is there good grits there, because I'll consider it. But they've got to be a lot of chicken, a lot of meat, a lot of protein. Darwin for sure we can get some really good meat. Right. Is there Vegemite on my face, because I was just eating quite a lot of it straight out of the jar, mushed with avocado and toast. So this is my studio, usually my throne is right there. I pushed it out of the way. Fuck you throne for now.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, I'm announcing it officially, we're doing a very high end retreat in Darwin. I know for sure there's some fancy places in Darwin. Everyone send a love heart shout to Tina because she's just created that. Because she said, "Hi from Darwin," and I suddenly was like, "Oh my god, that's it. I've always wanted to go to Darwin and I've just never gotten around to it." And I have looked up those places and I know there's some really cool places you can go and do a retreat at, for sure, right? Tina's going to tell us what they are. We'll figure it out, we'll figure it out. I'm doing it, 10 women. How much will it be, how much will it be? Let's work it out right now. What am I talking about? Magic and power, we'll get to that in a moment. Let's do this retreat, this is the best way to do it or I'll just forget. So let's do this retreat, what month are we up to now?

Katrina Ruth: We're going to do it in ... is it ... I was going to say will it be too hot in August, but then I remembered we're in Australia not America. August must be a pretty good month for Darwin, because it's not going to be crazy fucking hot, right? But it will still be hot enough. Cannes? I don't know about Cannes. I've been there already, sorry. So I think we should do it end of August, let's do it late August. Let's figure this out right now. I didn't even know I was going to launch a retreat, this is fucking amazing. I've never just created an offer on a live stream and then launched it. Who would not want to come to an incredible retreat in Darwin and we can do many nature-y things. How long should it go for? Vote. Four days? Four nights and three days? How long? We're going to do it, that's July right? We're going through the diary. And I'll do the same retreat in America, don't worry. So put your votes in for which city it should be in.

Katrina Ruth: We're going to do it at the end of August, from Thursday August 30th, Mim can you write this down so that I don't forget about my own retreat? Yeah, four days. We're going to arrive on Thursday 30th of August, 31st, 1st is two, and we'll go through to the Monday. Now how much will it be? I don't know, should I include accomodation or not? I can really start putting up prices when I don't know if I'm putting out accommodations. I've been to Austin Texas many times. It's amazing, amazing. I love Texas. I do like Texas a lot. I have multiple reasons for liking Texas. But I love Austin. All right, well I've been to Dallas a lot, a lot, that's for sure. And I do like it there too a lot. A lot, a lot. Okay you guys are signing me up for a Texas retreat as well, are you? All right, well maybe. We'll see. I got to admit that my reasons for going to Texas are shortly about to be diminished. So what else was I saying?

Katrina Ruth: I'm trying to decide should I give you a price right now for the retreat, but the only thing is I don't know how much, if I'm going to include accommodations or not. I've got to include accommodation. I think it's going to have to be a fabulous Airbnb where we can all stay. Do you think there is a fabulous Airbnb where we can all stay there? I don't even know what we're going to do on this retreat, but we will do everything. It's going to be a soul shifting, money making retreat. Soul shifts and money making. Message me now ... not now, pay attention here right now, message me on my personal Facebook if you want to come to the Darwin retreat. It's going to be full luxury and full stripping you back to the core. It'll be a hustle house, mixed with sausage, chips, and cellular ... cellular shifts and money making mixed with lots of martini and fun time, mixed with definitely full on adventure shit. Which I don't know what it's going to be yet, but you can't go around [inaudible 00:07:23] Darwin without doing crazy adventures and nature stuff.

Katrina Ruth: Of course there's going to be a wine cellar ... yeah, we're going to do an Airbnb, we're not doing a hotel-y place. We'll get a chef, you know we'll get people to do things for us, and we will do a lot of high end lux stuff. We will rip your soul out, it will be high end with soul ripping. What else would you desire or want? Nothing. And we're definitely going to be getting into some full on nature shit of some kind. I'm really excited. It'll probably be 10 places max. I don't know how many people you can get into an Airbnb but I feel like 10's a good number anyway for me energetically. We're going to go to the water field, Tina's announcing it. Waterfalls. Message me about it and I'll sort it out over the next several days. How exciting. I'm so excited. I've been wanting to do some kind of like smack down boot camp slash hustle house, slash soc definitely running with the soc ... ooh, ooh, ohh, how have I never seen that hashtag before?

Katrina Ruth: Lisa says she loves a good soul fuck. Fuck me. Fuck my soul please. Oh my god. Can I just quickly message that to somebody before we continue? Oh wait. I'll save it for later. Please fuck my soul, wait you already did. Okay so anyway, a little distracted, because I've known for ages that I so want to do a retreat and I couldn't ... oh my goodness this speaks to everything we're here to talk about. You know how fucking powerful and magical you are. That is a long ass name. Joelyn Rose McKayla Jane Longbow. Is that one person or have you got multiple profiles going on there? What's happening? Yes, well I'm going to take it and PM it to someone privately Lisa. Anyway, so anyway, I'm now thinking about that. I've really wanted to do a retreat for ages, a wine coach? I don't need a fucking wine coach. What do you mean a wine coach? I'm totally fine without a wine coach for choosing wine. Do you mean a couch? I don't understand what a wine couch is either though. And I just didn't have the idea coming forth from me. One name. Amazing.

Katrina Ruth: Now I feel like I have name scarcity, my name's too short. I still have to get around to finalising what my next name is going to be. My new name. No that's right, I remember what it is. I'm changing my surname to Show. I'm legitimately, legally going to do this. And everybody can get fucked if they think it's kind of stupid. But I'm going to change my name to The Katrina Ruth Show. I don't know if you're allowed to legally change your name to The in Australia, but we'll see. But you can ... but I can definitely change my last name to Show. So my actually name will be Katrina Ruth Show. And then Facebook can suck it about how I'm not allowed to change my page name to the Katrina Ruth Show, because they were like, "Where's the show?" And I'm like, "Bitches please. This is the motherfucking show." Seriously. So then if it's my legal name? Just amazing. I'm just amazed at my own amazingness right now. I'm very impressed with myself. This cushion is scratching my back up. I'm exfoliating my back right now with these sequins.

Katrina Ruth: And where did my other motherfucking cushion go? Did that purple cushion escape so far that I can't even see it? It's behind me. Okay. You've got to have a little bit of crazy in your life. People will be like, that's too far, changing your name to Show. No they wouldn't, you guys wouldn't, but normal people would. Well what's even the point of life if you can't muck around and be silly and have fun and shenanigans? We are going to have so much shananiganary on this Darwin retreat. I'm so excited that I'm doing a retreat in Darwin, I can't believe I didn't know that. I can't believe that the divine forces just aligned themselves together right now. I've been putting off organising a retreat in Australia for so long, because I'm like fuck the Gold Coast. Okay, this is the Gold Coast and it's quite beautiful and I have an amazing view here and I have a huge double story apartment here where technically I could run a fucking retreat here ... but I just didn't feel it, I didn't feel it, I didn't feel it.

Katrina Ruth: And then the Darwinism came through within the whole Darwinism bit, but definitely the Darwin bit. We're going to have the best time ever. I'm going to bring my sister Jess up. Somebody tell her. Maybe I should rope in some of my friends. Maybe I should bring some of my badass friends. We're going it on Thursday August 30th. We just co-launched it right here on this live stream Helen. People in America, you would totally come from America to a retreat in Darwin. It'll be fucking amazing. Who of my friends would you want to see at this retreat? Put your votes in and we'll see if we can persuade them. And then I've got to do the retreat somewhere in America that's like ... For those of you who don't know where Darwin is, it's in the desert, it's the red fucking centre, it's where Uluru is slash Ayers rock, whatever it's being called now. I'm sorry I'm not up to speed. That's probably very politically incorrect. And you know, the crockadoo and there are very many scary beasties, that probably the Americans will all be scared of.

Katrina Ruth: That's where the real dangerous things are I suppose, no it could be anywhere, it could be right here on this chair. And then yeah, yeah. Sedona I've been too, I feel like Sedona's too obvious, because every motherfucker does Sedona. Do you know what I mean? What's the west coast, tell me more about that. Does that mean the side where New York is? Is that what you mean by west coast? I do know that, but you have to be more specific. You're thinking Ellis Springs with the Uluru. Okay you're right, I don't know anything about geography, but we could travel. We could take a day trip. It's in the same state. It's not even a state, it's not even a state, it's a fricken territory. You getting me distracted. So I want to do it somewhere that's super cool and outdoorsy. Maybe in like a mountainous part of California, what do you think about that? All right, we'll figure it out. Leanna Francisco, that's a fabulous name. Maybe my surname should be Francisco, except it's going to be Show. West coast is California. Okay I know nothing about geography.

Katrina Ruth: East coast ... ah, yeah, that's why they call it Eastern Standard time for the New York time. I'm not dumb, because clearly I've built a multi-seven figure business online, and by the way I'm a mass genius. Yosemite is amazing, I've been there, I got snowed in in an RV. Oregon, I've never been there. So clearly I have some wit and intelligence about me, but don't ask me things about geography, I get very fucking confused. And the other thing that I really can never figure out ... What? Who's ringing my doorbell right now? What's happening? Is that my sister turning up 26 minutes early? Inappropriate. I don't mind really, but I hate to be interrupted on a live stream. What's going on? Let's tell her off. You're early, I'm on a live stream. No it's fine, I was being a smart ass so that the livestream people laughed at me. Okay she made a funny face, I don't think she thought it was funny. She was like, "Oh, sorry." All right, don't worry. Anyway, we'll tell her about the Darwin retreat. There we go, I cracked the door for her.

Katrina Ruth: Hey would you like a tour? This is lounge room, look how boring it looks I need some ... There's supposed to be a big picture behind that wall, it fell down. Here's another balcony for you, it's a bit misty today. Kitchen, and there's a whole upstairs. Massive kitchen. Here's my studio where we were. See this long ass picture on the wall was supposed to be behind that other couch. And there's my daughter's playroom. This is a little girl's heaven in here. It's supposed to be a study but she commandeered it. I like her style. There's the throne, its sorry ass is now sitting in the corner. Okay so it's been established, we're doing a Darwin retreat, Darwin is not Alice Springs. Katrina does not know east coast from west coast but she does know how to make money online. So you can all forgive her and you can all listen. And now I'm apparently talking about myself in the third person from now on. Did you know, did you know, before I get distracted by magickery and shenaniganary, did you hear the Empress is open?

Katrina Ruth: Mim, give them some Empress details. But this is only for the people who know that they're like so bored as fuck with themselves for not showing up fully. And really that part of the reason for that is that you're actually not here just to be a frigging coach. You can coach all day long, but it's not who you're really here for. How you're really here. Why you're really here. Who you're really here to be, I'll get there eventually. It's to be an empress at the helm of the empire. Commanding the minions to do things. Okay that sounds really bad, but tell me you don't like the sound of it. And if you don't, don't apply, simple. Empress. It's time for some empresses to step into their empressness. Epressness. Empressory. Empressory. What does it say here on this comment. This is some damn compelling copy if I do say so myself. This came out of me like a woosh, like a woosh of magic and power. I was on a plane on the way to Bali, so much badassery comes out when I'm on Bali.

Katrina Ruth: Ask valet guys to let you up or buzz again if they say no. The live stream people need to see you now. She said the buzzer didn't work. They are waiting. I have something to tell you. I'm just messaging her on what's up. All right. That stupid buzzer. My buzzer of my apartment, it's very snooty. It's very hoity-toity about who it will let in and not let in. It basically never lets Kelly Renee in. I think it started letting Kelly Renee in now, it will just let in whoever it likes. It usually lets Matt in, he should be here in not too long. My videographer. And it just basically selects who it wants in. Shogun ninjas. Yeah they are ninjas, they're actually ninjas. I guess I was referring to my children as the minions. You can't have them. But really ninjas, that's exactly right Carla. Who doesn't want ninjas. Let me tell you about Empress, I'm going to read it to you. It's such a kick in the ass read. It really is. It will reach into your soul. Hang on. Okay, no that was my blog. I almost accidentally read you my whole blog.

Katrina Ruth: You should go read that, that is an ass kicking and a half. Empress, claim your rightful place now. Ready to play into the camera, give them a show. Turn the dial up and become a motherfucking star. Empress. Claim your rightful place now. Four weeks, one on one, with Katrina Ruth, excuse me, legal name, The Katrina Ruth Show ... for women unapologetically born for more. Jessa says ha, ha, okay. She'll be here shortly. This is what is missing ... listen to this, let it speak to your soul. I'm going to sermonise to you now. Sermonise. This is what is missing, you, you're a queen. Okay should be on the throne. But I'm just over the throne right now. You're a queen, a leader, a bad ass, we know this. You were born for it and it shines out of every pore of you, but more than that, you're a motherfucking empress. If you know that's true, shower me with love hearts now. Claim your place as an empress.

Katrina Ruth: You're a motherfucking empress gorgeous, you've always known this and let's get real now. It might sting a little. This whole little game you're playing of, "I'm a coach, and teach this or that, or the other thing. Join my programme, sign up for my stuff, I'll teach you how. And I'll show you the process and how it can help you." Well it sounds pretty fucked up to me. Jessa is laughing at me in the background. I'm just taking off the stepford-preneurs. We'll bring her on shortly. You're going to have to say something amusing or she refuses to get on. She's very much the diva. It might sting a little. Oh I said that bit already. Okay this little game you're playing. Okay it was never going to cut it, was it now? No. Oh that hurt my boob. I flung my hand ... it keeps happening to me, I did it on a live stream with Patrick yesterday, I was like, "Hug. Ow." This left one is stuffed up, it doesn't want to be stretched too far. It's very juicy though.

Katrina Ruth: It was never going to ... this is my sales video by the way, sales video. If we could chop it out and put it on a sale page, it would be as appropriate as fuck. It was never going to cut it now was it? No. This is not new information for you, der. You look around at all the things you tell yourself you have to do each day. The way you think you got to show up, sell, prove your worth, get people to want to learn from you, and therefore pay you ... why did I not think of putting this on a scripty thing on an iPad behind the tripod and I could have just read it and you would have thought I'm a magician. So well versed in my own copy, I am a magician. We'll talk about that in a moment. Magic and power, it's coming. I think I'm doing a good demo of it. What am I up to here? The way ... I did that bit.

Katrina Ruth: The way, I'll do it again. The way you think you got to show up, sell, prove your worth, get people to want to learn from you, and therefore pay you, and what you don't see is that ... listen to this bit, write this shit down. Sit up fucking straight and pay attention Deneen and everybody else as well. You probably were already sitting up, since you just said that you're glad you didn't fall asleep ... the reason you were always meant to be paid ... Damn highly, I might add, is for people to be in your presence. In your aura. There's nobody laughing at me behind the tripod. So I can't be doing any live streams in public anymore, they've gone next, next level. To be in your aura. Is it true or is it true? To soak up the energy and the essence of you. Ode d'tea tree deodorant. Tea tree oil deodorant. And Chanel. To be lifted up and elevated to where they need to be, and into the action which automatically just goes with it, because of the way that you show up and shine.

Katrina Ruth: This has nothing to do with what you teach. It's not a motherfucking strategy. I am giving you sales genius to read right now. Genius to read, so word, write it down. And you can break down the components of it all you like, but really it's a vibration thing. Okay this is where you know if empress is for you or not, because you've either got it or you don't. I can't give you that shit, I can't make you a motherfucking star, you already are the damn star and maybe you just need a little bit of soul alignment and adjusting and ass kicking. It's a vibration thing, you either got or you don't. If you got it, why are you not flaunting it? And you, well you have always had it, haven't you? You who knows who you are. Okay there's definitely some Vegemite with avocado and vegetables coming up right now. Have some coffee. All right. You always had it, haven't you? You've always been that person who shines so, full stop. Fucking full stop. Bright full stop.

Katrina Ruth: Who sees the world in a particular way in which others do not, who has lived their life, that came out weird ... in a certain way in which others do not, who has quite literally trained for this shit. Since you were a young girl, as far back as you can remember, no need to pretend otherwise. You knew you were born for more. You looked around, I feel like Dr. Deuce now ... As though in a daze. Not quite understanding what everybody else was on about, so boring, or why they cared so much. So lame. And just kind of sort of always fucking realising, "Well. This is not where I am going to be anyway." Yes? Yes. "These are not my people. This is not my path. This is not the world I will operate in." It is as though your soul always knew, since before time even began, that you came from different stock. My god I'm a copywriting genius. Somebody should pay me for this shit, except I wouldn't do it for any money in the world, I'd do it for the fun.

Katrina Ruth: For the fun and for the flow. I tell you how to write that shit out too. You were born into the wrong world, you had to spend time there for perhaps for learning, or growth, or just the gathering of patience, but it was always clear that one day ... Okay this sounds mean ... just as with an orphan, who dreams she is really born of royalty, reality, royalty? Same thing. Your real life would come for you. What you didn't realise, what you were perhaps never told ... and why would you be, because who would tell you back then, or even know ... but I'm telling you now. What you must now take ownership of, is that the life you've been waiting for this whole time, and the you who you've always known you must step into, it was never going to come for you at all. You have to step up for it. All right. When you're ... oh my goodness I want to stop but there's just a little bit more I've got to read, and then I've got some things to say. I'm getting fired up right now.

Katrina Ruth: Now here we are. You show up online every day doing the do. Valiantly seeking to demonstrate why you are better coach, or even the best ... When actually you are not a motherfucking coach at all. And quite frankly the whole thing faintly sickens you, because when all is said and done and if you dare to admit it, you're just so much more than that. That's all. It's the way it's always been. You just didn't know you had to own it is all. And now, well you wonder why you struggle to break that next income level. You wonder why so many of the things you set out to do exhaust you, and you either don't do them ... and continually beat up on yourself for it ... give me a comment if read the [inaudible 00:25:29] of this ... or you do them and you resent every fucking second of it. You wonder what is wrong with you. Why you can't just get your shit done. Why you don't seem to think or feel like the other coaches.

Katrina Ruth: And why it doesn't feel like flow yet when the whole damn point supposed to that you just get to wake up each day, follow your heart, create your art, do what you can't not. And you know that yes, it actually motherfucking was. So why does it not feel that yet, why is it that even when you're claiming flow and ease there is this constant fucking niggle there? Why? Why? Talking directly to you, [inaudible 00:26:04]. This constant fucking niggle there, I knew exactly why that niggle's there. I lost the word niggle on my screen right now though. It's a dilemma. Ah, this missing piece, this emptiness, this frustration, this won't you all fuck off and leave me alone energy. Yes, you should put a queenie emoji in if you know that this is you. Isn't it obvious? Don't you see? Haven't you always fucking known? You're not a coach. You're not an online business owner. You're not even actually an entrepreneur. Not if there's a period after it, anyway. Entrepreneur period? No. Entrepreneur amongst many other fabulous things. Yes. You can do all these things. Be all these things.

Katrina Ruth: And indeed always will ... however, what you are, who you are, how it's always been, and why the whole damn thing is not in fact flowing as you know it could and should be, is because you are an empress baby. Lucky I didn't do this on the beach. Born for more. Born for exceptional. Born for extraordinary and not of this world. And you tell yourself how outrageous it is, to think so highly of you, to expect so much, to feel that really if the world were at rights with itself you would be in charge. Me, I'd be in charge. Just to be clear. You might feel the same way, but really it's me. We all know that. I don't mind for you, but it's really me.but you might think that you created a manifested me, but really it was me. But think whatever you like. You would be in charge. To know that you know, that you know, that people really need to shut the fuck up and listen to you.

Katrina Ruth: And that actually you should always and only get to do what you want, have what you want, with the click of your fingers and the blink of your eyes and totally as you imagined it. And that while we're on it, people should motherfucking you pay just to be in your presence. Am I right or am I right. Give me an Amen if I'm right. You can do it via Amen, A-M-E-N period. With or without the period, or love heart shower, or little cat emojis. Whatever works for you. You tell yourself it's too much and crazy when in actual fact you know, and you've always known she says ... with a shrug of her shoulders and a what do you want me to do about it look ... this is just how it is. Which I suppose begs the question, when in actual fact do you think that you might start own the fact that this is how it is? Hmm? Hmm. I like that Amen Katherine, nicely done. How about ... Question, How about right fucking now? Empress, caps lock on, claim your rightful place, now.

Katrina Ruth: Four weeks one on one with Katrina Ruth ... excuse me, The Katrina Ruth Show, legal name ... for women unapologetically born for more. Jess apply to have my changed to The Katrina Ruth Show. Go into the Queensland name changing register. I'm changing my surname to Show. And the first name's going to be The Katrina. And I'm not joking, just for laughs, straight no shenanigans.

Jessa: Is it a space or two words?

Katrina Ruth: Space. My first name is going to be The Katrina. And my middle name will be Ruth and my surname is Show.

Jessa: I think it can be done.

Katrina Ruth: Yes. She's doing it now. Ninjas, they're everywhere. Everywhere. What are we up to? Four weeks one on one with The Katrina Ruth Show for women unapologetically born for me. Empress energy and vibrations. Katherine's changing her last name to Empress, all in. Empress expectations and demands. With a humble, grateful attitude. Empress environment, every part of it. Empress empire, the whole shebang. Empress copy, it's a free bonus. You can have it when you come to the Darwin retreat. Empress motherfucking everything ... the way it was always supposed to be. It is time to stop playing so coy, pretending you want for so little and telling yourself a story. I'm channelling the version of me where I do my branding videos with Chris Collins in LA where I just turn it on ... I'm turning it on. Well I did write my blog this morning, Turn It On. It's time to stop playing so coy, I'll say it again. Pretending you want for so little and telling yourself a story.

Katrina Ruth: That you're here to build a business online, make some money, be one of the fucking pack, when the only truth is always ... You were born to run the world. Beyonce as fuck. Run this thing. Empress initiation has begun. Your rightful place is waiting. This is one on one with me, the likes of which has never been done before ... Well actually it was done the first time that I ran Empress. But this is the second time. And that was fucking amazing and oh my holy Vegemite, wait till you see the feedback from that. I will share the testimonials. Whatever, it matters whether it's speaking to your soul or not, but still I will. It will take your breath away. It will shake you to the core. It will cause you to question everything you're doing right now ... Let's be honest, you already are.

Katrina Ruth: What am I up to, I keep losing my place. And it will show you unapologetically why you feel so damn empty inside when you're supposedly doing everything you're meant to be doing. How can you feel what you're mean to feel, when it was always supposed to be about, and what it was always supposed to be about, when you haven't even actually begun on the life you really came here to build. There's a reason you feel like so much is missing, and here is what it is ... The thing you've been missing is being the real fucking you. Empress gorgeous, me and you. Claim your rightful place and everything which goes with it. When? Life is now. Time to be the motherfucking show. Private message me on my personal Katrina Ruth page for details. Goddamn it, I just made an entire sales video. Ash will be thrilled. That was quite a bit of shenanaginary that injected itself into the sales video. And do you know what else I did? I launched an entire retreat in Darwin. And you're coming as well by the way Jess.

Jessa: Oh sweet.

Katrina Ruth: Yep. That just happened on the live stream. Somebody said that they're there from Darwin and next thing we were planning an Airbnb of higher vibration [inaudible 00:32:05] in Darwin. It's going to be August 30th. Can you come?

Jessa: Yes.

Katrina Ruth: Would you like to go on the live stream? Do you have anything to say to people? She's thinking about it. she's considering it.

Jessa: I don't have my ninja costume ready though.

Katrina Ruth: You look amazing.

Jessa: Well that's true.

Katrina Ruth: Well that's true, it's obvious she says. She like, why do you even say such a silly thing. I don't know do we need to get another chair? Are we going to pull this chair over? Who wants Jess to appear on the live stream? Jess is the ... What are you even? She's the business manager, she's the mistress of the Millionaire Mastermind ... are you the mistress? The mother hen?

Jessa: Someone said I was the sensei.

Katrina Ruth: She's the sensei. Oh wise, one. Oh wise one.

Jessa: Wise sensei.

Katrina Ruth: Oh wise one, would you like to join me on my live stream wise one?

Jessa: Yes, I feel [crosstalk 00:32:55] capes back here, I feel like [crosstalk 00:32:59].

Katrina Ruth: Put a cape on if you must, capes will make you look like Dracula, they're atrocious. Jess has never been on a live stream with me.

Jessa: No.

Katrina Ruth: Everybody's giving you a lot of love heart showers. You need 45 cushions. Don't appear without 45 cushions. You got to go get all the cushions.

Jessa: [inaudible 00:33:18] yeah.

Katrina Ruth: Because you'll feel like a little, so you'll feel like a little minion sitting down on that chair. Let me get you another purple cushion. Hold yourself tight right wherever you are. Don't hold yourself in a rude way, that's not what I meant by hold yourself tight. Well you can if you want. All right. You want to have one of them behind you. You want to sit on two cushions or maybe one, depends on how you feel. Perch, perch on the cushions.

Jessa: She's going to have the lackeys now push apply cushions.

Katrina Ruth: There we go, there's mini cushions.

Jessa: I feel like there's too many cushions.

Katrina Ruth: There's no such thing as too many cushions. Look at the side boob, would you? It's quite incredible. Okay somebody said ... one of my male friends said to me yesterday, why have I not sent him a photo of my breasts yet. And I was [inaudible 00:34:06]. That's not something I was planning to do. He was like, "Oh I just feel like whenever girls get their boobs done, they always want to show everyone." I'm like, "Well that's true, they do look amazing," but I'm trying stay within the realms of what's appropriate and not send before and after photos as requested to all my male friends.

Jessa: I think it is now time to get you some of those Lady GaGa nipple [crosstalk 00:34:28].

Katrina Ruth: I'm not wearing nipple tassels. This woman is-

Jessa: No tassels.

Katrina Ruth: If someone is insisting in dressing me in bizarre things-

Jessa: Sequined stickers.

Katrina Ruth: Here she comes, give her a warm welcome. My sister Jessa, mistress, sensei, the ... What the fuck?

Jessa: Den master? That was naughty.

Katrina Ruth: Hold on, I didn't sign off on den master. Didn't we say ringleader?

Jessa: Oh yeah, ringleader was one.

Katrina Ruth: Really?

Jessa: I like ringleader.

Katrina Ruth: Let's have a vote, look at all the love that you're getting. You might speak to Jessa in a lot of my groups. And in fact we're going to do some filming today, that's why she's popped around. We're going to film a welcome video for the Millionaire Mastermind.

Jessa: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: And you're going to get to know Jessa quite well in Millionaire Mastermind. But have you been on a live stream ... You might have done a live into High Vibe or something.

Jessa: Yeah, I've done a live into High Vibe, I forced [inaudible 00:35:21] to do a live once. [crosstalk 00:35:24]

Katrina Ruth: That's different, that's not you. You can't just say I forced someone-

Jessa: Oh, well I was on it.

Katrina Ruth: Oh you were in it.

Jessa: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: Madam Lash.

Jessa: Ooh, that's ...

Katrina Ruth: It's not a sex programme, it seems to be going-

Jessa: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: ... but I have helped many people manifest amazing sex of life, it's an [inaudible 00:35:39] thing that I'm doing. I'm okay with it, I'll go with it. Mistress-

Jessa: How does the lash play into place? Because I'll lash people. Well, yes. I did buy multiple whipping props for [crosstalk 00:35:57].

Katrina Ruth: If you see me holding weird ass props in my live streams, I don't mean like a normal sceptre, like obviously a queen would ... but if you see me pick up like riding crop-

Jessa: See these? These were bought because they are ninja swords. And you have ninjas around you all the time.

Katrina Ruth: Then she's like, "Do you want some nipple tassels?" Tina says gorgeous, the colour. Tina's the one who initiated the Darwin retreat because she said she was in Darwin. And somehow we all co-launched a retreat together. Jessa also made me this Chanel hip flask. She made it.

Jessa: Well, I designated a ninja to make it.

Katrina Ruth: She outsourced it. Like an official ninja does.

Jessa: Yes.

Katrina Ruth: But she oversaw it, she oversaw the design of it.

Jessa: I feel like we should write to Chanel and say, "Excuse me-"

Katrina Ruth: I don't know why the fuck you got me a key as a prop, what is this supposed to do.

Jessa: Oh it was relevant to something at the time and now it's irrelevant.

Katrina Ruth: I feel like you had this key in my props for ages, I'm like, "But why? What is it the key for?" Is it for the door where all the dead wives of Bluebeard are?

Jessa: Who is Bluebeard? Is he a pirate?

Katrina Ruth: No, Bluebeard's the one who kills all his wives. It's actually ... Bluebeard is representative of the darkness of your psyche.

Jessa: Or, it could be that you hold the key to everything. And that's why people follow you.

Katrina Ruth: That's fucking obvious, nobody needed to say that.

Jessa: Excuse me. [crosstalk 00:37:18]

Katrina Ruth: Bluebeard, this is a great story. Bluebeard ... who knows the story of Bluebeard? Key to a kick ass life. Bluebeard gets his wives, he seduces them, and even though he has a blue beard which is clearly something to do with [crosstalk 00:37:34]-

Jessa: Who knows?

Katrina Ruth: ... and then he tells them that they can have the run of the whole castle and the whole house, and do whatever they like, but they must not go into this one room. And he gives them the keys with all the keys on it. And then he leaves. And so in the story the younger sister had her older sister there. The younger sister being seduced by Bluebeard even though it was scary. So she was going to marry him. And then her sisters and her all, "Let's look inside the room." And then they opened and it was all the dead bodies of all his previous wives. But then the room door lock started to bleed and bleed and bleed, and they couldn't wipe the blood off them, not even with horsehair-

Jessa: Super random story. Is this some sort of twisted [crosstalk 00:38:15]

Katrina Ruth: No, this is very-

Jessa: This demonic story you found online.

Katrina Ruth: Shush. This is very relevant. Sneaky, I'll joust with you right now.

Jessa: I don't know, I'm a ninja.

Katrina Ruth: So just on a side note, if you see me being really silly on live stream, or being an idiot it likely comes about from how my siblings and I behave normally all the time anyway.

Jessa: Yes, we're always jousting.

Katrina Ruth: Always jousting. All four of us, it's just complete idiots. And then the partners just leave the room.

Jessa: We don't have have cutlery, we just take things with our jousting sticks. Stab them up and eat them like skewers.

Katrina Ruth: I think I just snotted snot. And we do, we end up in hysterics. And then all the partners would always just be like-

Jessa: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: ... and they will retire the lounge.

Jessa: It's like they're coming to this new dimension they don't know. Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: Because our parents get involved as well, they're just as weird. So then it's all six of us. So if you come around to my mum and dad's house, or you come hang out with me and my siblings, you're going to have to be as weird as fuck, or you're just not going to be able to keep up.

Jessa: Yeah, you'll leave a little bit shell shocked otherwise.

Katrina Ruth: It'll be soul shifting, with or without the money making. Yes, you may need some therapy and some actual healing after the result of that. Anyway. So Bluebeard, so then the blood just keeps coming out and she can't wipe the blood off her, which means that he's coming back and she knows that he's going to know that he went into the room.

Jessa: That they went into the room.

Katrina Ruth: Yes? Question.

Jessa: But if they ... Do I get the key or the sceptre.

Katrina Ruth: The microphone.

Jessa: Oh.

Katrina Ruth: Where is the motherfucking microphone? The kids took it.

Jessa: Let me do this, question.

Katrina Ruth: No I don't want that. I don't like that. All right, question.

Jessa: Question, okay. So if he's got all bodies of his dead wives in there anyway, they're going to die anyway whether they look in the room or not. So you-

Katrina Ruth: Exactly right.

Jessa: ... always look in the room.

Katrina Ruth: Exactly right. Exactly right. Are we invited to your parent's house or what? Well you can come here and we'll bring them to you.

Jessa: They'll be a [crosstalk 00:40:40].

Katrina Ruth: My mother doesn't care for feet on her floors. You're not allowed into mum and dad's house unless you manage to not walk on the floor.

Jessa: You have to tiptoe on your hands.

Katrina Ruth: No floor, there's no floor there. You can't walk on the floor. But we could bring them here. And anyway, that was an excellent point that you raised. You're right, he was going to kill her anyway, but she discovered it. And then she's obviously terrified of him, that he's going to find out-

Jessa: She's got her sister there, just fucking kill that guy.

Katrina Ruth: I'm getting to the beard, calm your horses. Or your tits, whichever one. Calm your tits. So anyway, and that what happens is he comes back, so she tries to hide it from him, she's just wiping blood up, blood everywhere, it doesn't come off, it won't come off. She's using horse hair to scrub the key, the key is covered in blood ... I don't know why you gave me such a terrible prop to like prompt such a horrible story.

Jessa: Because.

Katrina Ruth: It's an important story though. And then, and then-

Jessa: That's why I got the key.

Katrina Ruth: ... well he discovers that she's been in there and he's furious and the monster is revealed. And she thought he was ... Stop trying to not laugh, just let it out and admit that I'm hilarious. So then the monster is revealed, and she thought he was loving, even though he did have a blue beard, which is always as suspicious sign on a gentleman.

Jessa: Very suspicious.

Katrina Ruth: I wouldn't be getting involved with any men with blue beards. Unless of course they were from Byron Bay-

Jessa: And unless-

Katrina Ruth: ... and they had some gluten free chocolate, white chocolate and [crosstalk 00:42:17]-

Jessa: Johnny Depp.

Katrina Ruth: Brownies.

Jessa: Johnny Depp died his beard for you.

Katrina Ruth: Johnny Depp, really? We can do better than that.

Jessa: What if Bradley Cooper dyed-

Katrina Ruth: Exactly.

Jessa: ... his beard blue.

Katrina Ruth: Exactly what I'm going for. Exactly.

Jessa: You would be like mm-hmm (affirmative), smurf, yeah.

Katrina Ruth: Smurf-alicious.

Jessa: Smurf-alicious. Blue.

Katrina Ruth: Hm. Back on track. Fucking focus. So anyway, then he's outraged and he's going to kill her and he tells her. And so she pleads with him for a moment to prepare her spiritual affairs. Because she's smart enough to know that she doesn't know how to escape right now but that she needs that little moment of time. And so she goes to the high tower and she says, "Sisters, sisters, can you see our brothers?" And they say, "No." And she says, "Sisters, sisters, can you see our brothers?" And they say, "I can see like a tiny, powdery speck on the horizon." And she says, "Sisters, sisters, can you see our brothers?" And they say "Yes, our brothers are coming." And then the brothers come and they kill him. And now I'll tell you the meaning of the story. Are you ready?

Jessa: Do tell.

Katrina Ruth: [crosstalk 00:43:23]. It's the motherfucking psyche. It's the darkness that exists in all of us as women, the dark and the wild and the raw and the scary. And it's that darkness inside of you which can ... If you don't know how to dance with it, actually consume you and take your life from you. And how mean women, all women, or all girls growing up, really you can try to do what you want to try and ... Did Matt just knock on the door?

Jessa: Maybe.

Katrina Ruth: Can you go check?

Jessa: Yep.

Katrina Ruth: Crack the door open anyway, because he'll be here any minute. You can do what you want to try and protect your daughters and protect the younger generation from making mistakes and doing silly shit that maybe going to hurt them or land them in trouble, but they're going to go it because they don't recognise the danger in the Bluebeard. They don't recognise you know the need to understand and be consciously in control of the darkness of the psyche. And so they allow the psyche to take them and maybe some of them get lost fully in the psyche and they're gone and they're killed and then put behind the door. Hello Matt.

Matt: Hello.

Katrina Ruth: You can film any time. I don't know what's happening right now. And so, did you hear that? So you try all you like to protect your daughters ... gosh your daughter's going to be protecting other people, that's for sure. She is terrifying. And extraordinary beautiful as well. Which is a really scary combination.

Jessa: She deviates from sweet and scary.

Katrina Ruth: She lifts dining tables over her heads ... her head.

Jessa: Her heads.

Katrina Ruth: What was the other random thing she did.

Jessa: That makes her sound more scary. And she insists on keeping eating chilli sauce.

Katrina Ruth: She eats Tabasco. She drinks it from the bottle. She's two. Two. Two. We're out the other night and we get a photo of her just hoisting the dining table up over her head. And she drinks motherfucking Tabasco sauce. And I'm not even kidding.

Jessa: [crosstalk 00:45:29] her three and a half year old brother-

Katrina Ruth: And she's two years old. She's terrifying.

Jessa: ... to help her out with the dining table.

Katrina Ruth: As a ninja.

Jessa: Yeah. But she initiated.

Katrina Ruth: That girl's scary. Anyway. Anyway. Anyway. It's the darkness of the psyche. So you can try to protect your daughter's all you like from making silly mistakes, or the younger generation. They're going to do whatever the fuck they want. You can tell them all you like about the bluebeard, about the darkness, about the places to not go or look or they're just going to do what they want anyway. They're going to have their own experience. And hopefully they then catch it in time. And so when she's yelling for her sisters, when she's locked in the tower, you know she realised in time that he was going to kill her, so she asked for a reprieve to go to the tower to have a moment to collect her spiritual affairs. So she's realised that oh, maybe this is not safe and maybe her older sisters were already wiser and knew that. So then in that time, she's yelling, "Can you see our brothers? Can you see our brothers?" And they can't see them, because basically it represents that she doesn't have the knowledge or the wisdom in her psyche to know how to deal with her situation yet-

Jessa: So she's calling it out?

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, but it does exist in there, it exists in there. So then she asks again, "Sisters, sisters can you see our brothers?" And then they're like, "Well we can't see anything, but there's a little dust on the horizon," and it's like the knowledge is coming. The ability to deal with this stuff is coming. Females need to embrace the darkness as well as the light. That's right. We have to go through this experience. And then ultimately the monster is destroyed and and she's safe and she learned something and she goes on her way. It exists in all women ... How the fuck did we end up there? Bluebeard, we're talking about Bluebeard. Did you know the story of Bluebeard?

Jessa: The key, this was the reason that the key was bought.

Katrina Ruth: This is why we have a key that's covered in blood.

Jessa: Mm-hmm (affirmative). Yes.

Katrina Ruth: I was going to talk about magic and power-

Jessa: But the pipe is to make you look more wise.

Katrina Ruth: That's the pipe. I don't smoke a pipe. Who buys a pipe?

Jessa: Yes, but you could be in the study, you know, making wise commentary.

Katrina Ruth: I'm always in the study making wise commentary. Wherever I am I'm always making wise commentary. That's a normal situation of fucking everyday life.

Jessa: All right, I'll fucking sell the pipe.

Katrina Ruth: Oh. Swear on my live stream, how dare you.

Jessa: Oh dear.

Katrina Ruth: Irreverent. Well the brothers and sisters save her, but they represent the other parts of her psyche-

Jessa: So you can't take it literally.

Katrina Ruth: ... the wiser part-

Jessa: Because I was like, why would she be needing her brothers, because you'd deal with that yourself? Fuck yeah.

Katrina Ruth: I like how the men deal with things.

Jessa: It depends.

Katrina Ruth: Well the sisters are the more evolved wiser parts of the psyche and the brothers are the protective parts of the psyche, I think in the story.

Jessa: So in my life story, you're just the more evolved part of my psyche.

Katrina Ruth: Good on you mate. I'm finding these [inaudible 00:48:24] very distracting.

Jessa: Very Grand Prix.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah what's happening here, are you going to the Formula One afterwards?

Matt: Yup.

Katrina Ruth: Okay. Sorry I'm just in a very silly mood. All right. Now what were we up to? Magic and power. We'll say something about that, and then we've got to go, we've got to go. You guys are holding us up, you're just mucking around and climbing around and stopping us from doing what we're really meant to be doing. I was supposed to ... We've got to do some filming here. I was supposed to be live streaming on you know how fucking powerful and magical you are, and that is a fact. Reason being, I messaged that to someone an hour or so back, and we were having a conversation and I was like, "Let's get clear. You know how fucking powerful and magical you are." I know it. All my clients know it. All my friends know it. Jessa knows it. Matt knows it ... I mean about themselves even, and you know it as well. Everyone knows it about me, that's a given. But you do know it about yourself.

Katrina Ruth: So you know sometimes when you're in the doubt, or you're in the resistance, or you feel uncertain about getting your message or your ad out there. Or you're like, I could never carry on ... I mean I'm just assuming you want to carry on like me on a live stream ... but really, why would you not want to be a complete clown and have fun and make money doing it? And then you think I'm not good enough for that or I can't, or I don't have it within me or something like that. Really what I wanted to come on today and say today and then somehow a whole bunch of random shit happened is ... Beneath the fear and beneath the uncertainty. Beneath the doubt, beneath the "Maybe I'm not born for this," you do fucking know and that is a fact. Or you wouldn't be here. So when you feel all that stuff, it's the surface stuff. That's not how you actually feel at the core.

Katrina Ruth: And it's ... what it is is just layers. Layer upon layer upon layer. Get me an onion and I'll demonstrate. Except we don't have onions, because I hate them. It's devil's food. What can I demonstrate with. Get me a packet of bread out of the fridge. Yes, it's true. I have bread, it's embarrassing.

Jessa: What? Do you [crosstalk 00:50:22].

Katrina Ruth: Bring me the bread.

Jessa: Okay.

Katrina Ruth: Bring me the bread. I'm going to do a live demonstration. This has been best live stream in the history of time. So far we launched an entire retreat in Darwin ... maybe you can come to that?

Matt: When's that?

Katrina Ruth: August 30th. Say hello to the camera. Are you there? Am I showing you?

Matt: Yeah, I'm on.

Katrina Ruth: There's Matt. Maybe Matt can come to the Darwin retreat because that definitely sounds like something we would want-

Matt: I've never been to Darwin.

Katrina Ruth: Me either. And then somebody from Darwin popped on the live stream and said hi from Darwin, and suddenly I said I think we should do a retreat in Darwin.

Matt: Why not?

Katrina Ruth: And we just co-created it right here. It's going to be on August 30th. We're going to get an amazing Airbnb, it'll be four nights, it'll be soul shifts and money making and lots of shenanigans. And lots of adventures.

Matt: Yeah.

Jessa: I feel like I should deliver this on a platter.

Katrina Ruth: Get me a platter.

Jessa: Like I could buy you one.

Katrina Ruth: Can I have a platter?

Jessa: Right now?

Katrina Ruth: Bloody hell. All right, there is bread in my house, it's embarrassing. Helen said, Matt's cute. He hears that all the time, he's very used to it. Especially from my audience.

Jessa: You know you could peel [crosstalk 00:51:27]

Katrina Ruth: I don't know is it just my audience or do you get that whenever you're filming?

Matt: Oh it depends who it is.

Katrina Ruth: It's probably just all these women. Okay so we have here-

Jessa: Lots of crumbs.

Katrina Ruth: ... a very flaky packet of bread. It's gluten free. It's Paleo as fuck, don't worry. Should we get some [inaudible 00:51:45]-

Jessa: Well you may as well have a snack.

Katrina Ruth: I already was like face first in a jar of Vegemite earlier this morning. Now my dad's got a café and they're like, "Uh, there's Vegemite on your face." Burn the bread. So anyway, this is the BL layout. No it's not. This is the layer that you present to ... This is going to be a great skit by the way.

Jessa: Yes.

Katrina Ruth: This is the layer you present to Facebook, okay? On Facebook you're like, la-di-da, look at me, my hair is glowing and I look fabulous. Or even if it's not, you post some happy, chappy photos and your life is amazing. That is your surface layer. Surface layer, say it after me. Surface layer. My ninja will take that for me. Beneath, okay we don't need a crust. There's just a crust there just for no reason.

Jessa: Crusts should be thrown out-

Katrina Ruth: Why is the crust in the middle?

Jessa: ... immediately after opening the bread.

Katrina Ruth: The crust is the best bit.

Jessa: That's disgusting.

Katrina Ruth: This is the next layer, as you can see. This layer is the fear layer. This is the what if people really knew ... I know I've got to look at this camera. You'll excuse me. What if people really knew the truth about me? What if they knew that I've been [inaudible 00:52:50] all night long. That I'm drinking an excessive amount. That I yell and shout at my children. That I'm not really a nice person. That I have fucking clue what I'm on about and every day I'm worried that the fraud police are going to knock on the door and be like, "Hey. We have evidence to prove you're not a real adult. Everybody knows." That's the fear layer, lurks underneath the other layer. Okay we've got another Matt is cute, why was I not informed. I'm sorry I didn't have a prior arrangement with you Ellen that I have to inform you. I guess you could just watch more of my shows and then you'd see more. So that's the fear layer, everyone has it and you don't want everyone to know.

Katrina Ruth: Underneath the fear layer, you have the fuck this shit layer. Official Wikipedia terminology. Fuck this shit layer. That is like, "Actually I'm pretty fucking certain that I know exactly what I'm doing and I don't know what these bitches over here think that they're doing, but I should be in charge." Fuck this shit layer. We should have prepared these breads earlier and written on them.

Jessa: Oh that would have been good.

Katrina Ruth: That would have been awesome. Underneath the fuck this shit layer, you have the despair layer. It's okay, we all have it, no need to get fat. The despair layer, the "I really don't think I actually know what I'm doing at all and I feel kind of hopeless. And I feel down and sometimes I feel completely lost and meaningless. Nobody really understands me, and I'm probably never, ever going to get there and I should probably just give up now." Despair layer. Lisa says she's in bed right now wallowing in that layer. Thank you for owning it. Underneath the despair layer, it's just a chocolate layer. It's a layer of chocolate mud cake. Underneath the chocolate layer is the core. The core. The core is solid, it's gritty. It's not at all flaky, this one is. It's solid, it is rock solid. It's a diamond. It's a fucking diamond. Do we have a big ass diamond anywhere in this room that I-

Jessa: Oh no. We should.

Katrina Ruth: ... can use? It is hard as steel. And this layer knows that all the other layers, except for the chocolate layer and the fuck this shit layer, are bullshit. It knows that the surface layer ... go through it again, in case anybody missed it. Have the crust. It's getting messy. I just had the house cleaned this morning as well. It knows that the surface, shiny Facebook layer is like, whatever. Who fucking even cares? It knows that the fear layer is actual bullshit. The core knows that the fear is bullshit. It knows that the fuck this shit layer is kind of like, cool, cool, but me thinketh the lady doth protesteth too much. Everyone knows what that means, right?

Jessa: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: If you don't you have to leave. It knows that the ... what are we up to? Wait, I feel like I've got an extra layer that's been added in. Oh despair layer. It knows that the despair and sadness layer is just reactivness and resistance playing out. It's the human as fuck condition, it's okay, we're all allowed to have it. It knows that the chocolate layer is not going any fucking place and we'll hold on to it forever. And it knows that the core is the core. At your core, underneath all the layers, you know that you were born for it. You know that you were absolutely fucking born for it. You know you are magic, you know you are powerful. You know you are here to change the world. You know that everything you feel inside of you is real and that if you would only just throw all of ... It had to be done. If you would just throw all the layers off of you, then you would be living, breathing from the core. And all I did was let out the motherfucking core.

Katrina Ruth: The [inaudible 00:56:28], give me them back to me, I need them back. No not really. The other layers they just heap themselves back on, back on, back on, all the time, every day. Sneaking up on me like invisible little evil ninjas and I'm just throwing them away all the time. Left, right, and centre. And I remain at my core, the whole story. Thank you for playing. Life is now. Press fucking play. What would you like to add?

Jessa: Oh I don't know what I can add to that.

Katrina Ruth: Any additions? Well, I feel like I said what I came here to say. In fact I said none of what I came here to say at all. But it was fabulous and so now we have to go. We have many very serious and important things to do. No shenanigans at all. But basic point is, you fucking know that you were born for it. Don't walk around saying that you're not. Man or woman the fuck up and do your shit. And when it comes up inside of you, just throw the bread layers off you and think of me. Get a chocolate layer if necessary or a coffee layer, or whatever it is. And why don't you just fucking pretend that you're already living from the core layer the whole time anyway? Nobodies going to know the difference. And then one day you'll wake up and you will have become it.

Jessa: Mm-hmm (affirmative).

Katrina Ruth: Mm-hmm (affirmative). That's the whole story.

Jessa: That was fun.

Katrina Ruth: So now you should watch the replay if you missed any, because the whole thing was amazing. And then you should read the comment in there and Empress has returned, you should private message me if you want to be an empress ... My golly gosh, that was probably the favoritest new thing that I ever did. And the Darwin retreat. Jessa's coming, Matt might be coming, we check our dates. It is going to be beyond. We're going to have 10 women, plus ninja, plus videography, plus shenanigans ... One incredibly luxurious high end Airbnb house. Many Paleo as fuck, espresso martinis, many shenanigans, we're going to hustle. We're going to do money making and soul ... sell ... What's it called again? Soul and cellular shifts-

Jessa: [crosstalk 00:58:33]

Katrina Ruth: ... and money making. And we're definitely going to do some random as fuck adventures in nature.

Jessa: Ride crocodiles.

Katrina Ruth: And then we're going to figure out ... We're going to ride ... I told you the American side can't be scared about this. And then we're going to do some sort of equivalent adventure in California. What's a good mountainous part of California? Come on.

Matt: I don't know. Tahoe's it.

Katrina Ruth: Huh?

Matt: Tahoe?

Katrina Ruth: I've been to Lake Tahoe but I went in the snow.

Matt: I was in the snow as well.

Katrina Ruth: Oh.

Matt: Brother went as there, summer's good as well.

Katrina Ruth: Maybe it will be on Lake Tahoe. Yeah, it was on the way to Lake Tahoe that we stopped at some incredibly mountainous place where we had pancakes. And the pancakes were good so I think we should go back to that.

Jessa: Well, okay.

Katrina Ruth: I have no idea where it was. Well anyway, we'll do it, we'll do it, we'll figure it out. So that's happening. Message me on my personal PMs please, because it can't be fucked with the business page, PMs there annoy me, I won't read them. I make Jessa do it or somebody else. She doesn't do it.

Jessa: No, a ninja does it.

Katrina Ruth: That's all. Lake Tahoe or Big Bear. Big Bear, hmm. Mount Tamalpais ...

Matt: What's the one that starts with Y?

Katrina Ruth: Yosemite.

Matt: Yeah that's [crosstalk 00:59:42]

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, maybe it will be Yosemite. I don't want to do it in Sedona, it's like, so over-rated. What was that expression again?

Jessa: Oh, I don't do-

Katrina Ruth: I don't do Sedona. We have a little in-house joke going on here. I don't do Sedona. I don't do Sedona. All right, we have to go. It's going for too long. Up you go, they're holding us up. Okay. Watch the replay, message me about Empress or about the other thing, the Sedona thing ... No, not that one. We're not doing that. The Darwin thing. Just send me a message anyway, to tell me how much you love me. And Jessa has a very important finishing statement.

Jessa: Oh. Life is now? Press play.

Katrina Ruth: Press fucking play. Bye.

Linda: What's happening?

Katrina: Nothing. Nothing is happening.

Linda: Nothing is... Its not working. Look.

Katrina: Look sideways.

Linda: I'm sideways, why?

Katrina: You have to stop it. You have to cancel it. You have to start again.

Linda: That is odd. Why is it doing this?

Katrina: I'm going to give you an important lesson in a moment.

Linda: I forgot you're live.

Katrina: Were not live. Its not live yet. No, we'll go laugh in a minute.

Linda: Look.

Katrina: We can just admire ourselves first though.

Linda: Why didn't I click the rotation.

Katrina: Its not live at all.

Linda: How do you do this rotation thing?

Katrina: Here's the situation. You have to type in the thing, and then turn the thing, and then press go live. You type in the thing, you turn the thing, you do the thing. That's the whole technical explanation.

Linda: You type the thing, do the thing, and then ...

Katrina: You type the thing, you turn the thing, and then you do the thing. That's the official Wikipedia explanation.

Linda: I got it. I got it. Wait, I got it.

Katrina: Webster, that's the Webster explanation for how to go live. What are you doing?

Katrina: Don't text Seth. Who's Seth? Why are you texting Seth?

Linda: I don't even know who Seth is.

Katrina: We'll go live in a minute.

Linda: You haven't started yet?

Katrina: I'm going to give you an important postural lesson in a moment. Just hurry up and go live. We're not live.

Linda: We are so live.

Katrina: I haven't started, so we're not really live at all. I don't care if anybody's on there. I am not ready to be live, and so, therefore, we're not live. When I say that we'll be live, we'll be live.

Linda: I'm pretty alive.

Katrina: You're always alive.

Katrina: Hurry up.

Linda: I'm getting side tracked.

Katrina: Put your [inaudible 00:02:15]. I have an important postural lesson to give you. It's for everyone's benefit.

Linda: All right.

Katrina: Ah-ha.

Linda: Ah-ha! Wait. Okay.

Katrina: Many important and serious things are going to take place here. There will be a blood ritual at the stroke of midnight. What time is it? What time is it right now?

Linda: I think it's going to work.

Katrina: Press play. It's a good rule, to go left.

Linda: Left is now.

Katrina: Left too, press play. Always press play.

Linda: Left is now?

Katrina: Sometimes you have to press pause. No can I teach you something?

Linda: Yeah. Teach me that life lesson please.

Katrina: What time it is, because at the stroke of midnight we must have a blood ritual.

Linda: A blood ritual?

Katrina: It's 11:56.

Linda: This is the first time you're telling me of this blood ritual. But I'm all about rituals.

Katrina: Just so you can see. Okay. If you want to record a very serious video for your business, a serious video.

Linda: Mm-hmm (affirmative), yeah.

Katrina: Serious?

Linda: Serious.

Katrina: Here's how you hold yourself. Firstly. Step number one, you stick your booty out. Arch that booty right out. Arch it out like you're trying to get some action up in there.

Linda: You said serious.

Katrina: I'm being serious. I'm giving a serious fucking tip about how to do good posture for a video, for your business.

Linda: I'm good. Now-

Katrina: Step number one, arch your booty out like you want to get something up in it.

Linda: Arch your booty out? How do you arch your booty out?

Katrina: What do you mean?

Linda: You arch your back.

Katrina: Yes, well you stick your butt out.

Linda: Done.

Katrina: I was just trying to say it in a fancy way. Arch your booty out, and then what that does-

Linda: Life lessons from-

Katrina: The Katrina Ruth Show.

Linda: That's right. I mean how-

Katrina: This is Katrina Ruth right here.

Linda: The Katrina Ruth Show.

Katrina: Step number one is you arch your bottom out. Lisa Michelle, how the hell are you appearing on both live streams at once? It's the voo-dooery. Exactly you park it out like your back broke.

Linda: Okay I've done it.

Katrina: You stick it out.

Linda: I've done it now what?

Katrina: Now step number two-

Linda: I have my booty out. I have my chest out, what now?

Katrina: Step number two is obviously bosoms out.

Linda: But you already said bosoms out.

Katrina: Well they kind of go out automatically when you arch your-

Linda: You said arch your bosoms.

Katrina: When you stick your butt out you kinda... You can't arch bosoms. How do you arch a bosom?

Linda: That's what you said, arch your chest or something.

Katrina: Pay attention.

Linda: Paying attention.

Katrina: Step number one is you stick your butt out, automatically that's going to make your breasts go out, but you should stick them out a little bit more to be sure.

Linda: Well I'm feeling a little bit uncomfortable.

Katrina: When you see your video on playback, you'll think that you have perfectly fabulous posture; and really you're going to look like the Hunchback of Notre Dam, I'm just teaching you how to look straight, and polite, and lady-like. So butt out, breasts out. Thirdly, what you want to do is you want to do is elongate your neck. Elongate.

Linda: Like an ostrich?

Katrina: Giraffe, or ostrich. You elongate your neck.

Linda: I'm done, and now what?

Katrina: You don't so crazy eyes. Nobody said anything about crazy eyes. Who said crazy eyes?[crosstalk 00:05:18] Elongate your neck, you want to tilt your chin slightly down-

Linda: I can't do this without the crazy eyes.

Katrina: Slightly down. Tilt your chin slightly down, but without-

Linda: Now I got a double chin.

Katrina: No looking like an alien. Thirdly, and I'm going to credit this to Amanda Francis because I learned to from her. Thirdly, you smile with your soul. When I do it, it looks creepy. That's how you have perfect posture when you're filming a very professional and serious video-

Linda: This is a professional video.

Katrina: For your business.

Linda: Did you guys get that? The Katrina Ruth Show.

Katrina: I'm just here to serve.

Linda: From your soul?

Katrina: Always from the soul. I'm just here to give helpful tips to entrepreneurs. Absolutely.

Linda: What capes? Their talking about capes or something?

Katrina: What are you talking about?

Linda: I have no idea.

Katrina: This is my initiation class cloak. It's for the blood rituals they happen every Saturday evening.

Linda: So it's one past 12:00. What are these blood rituals?

Katrina: Well we just drink the blood.

Linda: No I don't do it. No, no, no, no, no. Uh-uh. No-no.

Katrina: There were many important things that we came here to discuss.

Linda: We actually had a lot of important things to say today.

Katrina: Are you doing your posture?

Linda: I am. I have my ostrich neck on.

Katrina: See, it looks like we're just sitting in a normal relaxed, straight fashion. Actually, we are in excruciating pain, and it's the only way that it should be done. If your not hurting from all the arching and... Oh I forgot-

Linda: The pain of being women.

Katrina: I forgot to say you want to lift your torso up and twist it a little bit. Lift it up, twist it. So remember; butt out, boobs more, elongate your neck and torso-

Linda: No ostrich eyes.

Katrina: No crazy eyes, or ostrich eyes. And tilt your head down a little bit, keep yourself twisted.

Linda: How am I doing guys? How am I doing?

Katrina: It's roughly how it goes. Wait-

Linda: Please tell me, how am I doing?

Katrina: Stop.

Linda: Life advice from the Katrina Ruth Show.

Katrina: I forgot it something important. Hold the fort.

Linda: Holding, holding. What do you got?

Katrina: Just teach.

Linda: Okay. You know what, really was the main reason we came on today. So much has been happening. We actually just finished a dinner party. Lou is that you?

Katrina: Don't tell any secrets.

Linda: Important, important, important advice; business advice.

Katrina: Nope. I won't give in. I refuse.

Linda: No. Why?

Katrina: I'm not giving any business advice to anybody.

Linda: But this is important business advice. What we were just doing.

Katrina: I forgot my sceptre.

Linda: We came...

Katrina: Sorry, excuse me.

Linda: Here's the thing. We were talking earlier, we had a very important message to-

Katrina: It's a riding wand.

Linda: This looks more like a spanking whip.

Katrina: Yes it's for... you're not supposed to tell the secrets. I said no secrets. It is for spanking. I'm [inaudible 00:08:22].

Linda: Why do you have this?

Katrina: Just for reasons.

Linda: Would you mind sharing?

Katrina: For emergencies.

Linda: Its an emergency?

Katrina: Well not right now, but it could be.

Linda: It could be.

Katrina: On occasion. I think you might have it the wrong way out maybe.[crosstalk 00:08:40] I don't know, do you?

Linda: Where so you put this?

Katrina: Oh well she's holding the right end. See I don't know. I just use it any which way I like. This one's rather pointy.

Katrina: I refuse to give any business advice about anything. I think the advice comes from absorbing the essence of us.

Linda: We were talking about the soul. It's about, you know?

Katrina: The masks.

Linda: The masks. That's right the masks. This is why we came on tonight, because-

Katrina: Emergency spanking is always[crosstalk 00:09:07]

Linda: It started from your live feed yesterday.

Katrina: That was extraordinarily serious.

Linda: You were throwing bread. She was throwing bread in here live feed. Go and watch it, you need to watch it.

Katrina: Yeah, upon layer.

Linda: Upon layer, upon layer, upon layer, upon layer-

Katrina: That was the best presentation-

Linda: It was.

Katrina: That has happened in the history of the internet.

Linda: I need to get on my knees and-

Katrina: Oh that's what... Well, that's not what I meant.

Linda: That's how good it was.

Katrina: Well, are we wearing masks? This is actually the Katrina Ruth Show right here, and I'm Linda Doktar.

Linda: I'm Katrina. This is Linda.

Katrina: Face off. We did a face off.

Linda: Well, heres the thing.

Katrina: Earlier tonight we were talking about how impressed we are with ourselves. That's right you were talking... Excuse me, but somebody was watching videos of themselves perform amazing feats of athleticism, and announced to the-

Linda: I was so inspired by myself.

Katrina: And announced to the entire dinner party that she was so inspired by herself.

Linda: I was. I was.

Katrina: Its fair enough.

Linda: I was doing trick on video, and I got really, really inspired by myself.

Katrina: That's fair enough. Completely reasonable and professional.

Linda: Do you ever get inspired by yourself? Because I think we should always... Katrina.

Katrina: No, that's for the emergency spankings. Still has a tag on it, because I had to get inpatient.

Linda: This really freaks me out, because I think this is a children's thing.

Katrina: That's unfortunate.

Linda: Is this a children's thing?

Katrina: What kind of tricks... No, it's not-

Linda: Is this for children?

Katrina: No, I use this myself for professional reasons.

Linda: You have two spanking equipment in your...

Katrina: Just for business purposes. I don't want to [inaudible 00:10:50]

Linda: Business purposes.

Katrina: Can't talk about it right now.

Linda: Okay. Were talking about masks.

Katrina: We were going to talk about masks.

Linda: And it started with you doing this... With bread-

Katrina: The layers od the bread.

Linda: The layers of the bread, and you were throwing bread in your live feed. It was actually a great analogy. You were talking about the layers of the masks. We're wearing these masks.

Linda: Hey Kai.

Linda: We're wearing these masks in life, and one of them really stood out.

Katrina: Chocolate.

Linda: No. Well that's just a [crosstalk 00:11:24]

Katrina: The chocolate layer was the best layer.

Linda: You know what really stood out for me? Why we're actually here? The Facebook masks. The Facebook masks. We're wearing these masks online; on Facebook, and we're showing the world this much. This much. Were painting this picture of who we are a little bit, but not who we are completely. Why are we doing that?

Linda: Why are we doing that?

Katrina: Venerability. Scared of being vulnerable.

Linda: Are we afraid to be vulnerable? Are we afraid to really show the world who we really are?

Katrina: Well you and I are pretty fucking transparent, and vulnerable. Are we still wearing masks?

Linda: Well, were not wearing anything right now.

Katrina: Capes.

Linda: Yeah, but this is really the thing; being vulnerable and letting the world see everything. Everything? Because-

Katrina: That's exactly what this is for.

Linda: Why wouldn't you?

Katrina: It's for when you need to show everything. Well heres the thing, can you actually show, or is it ever possible to show everything? Because-

Linda: Can you?

Katrina: You're not listening because you're pouting to the camera. I was thinking. I was in deep contemplative thought. How rude, rude an inappropriate.

Katrina: The thing is, as much as you might try to be completely transparent and open; you're evolving right then and there in that moment. How much did I already shift on that one particular issue? That I was just bitching about right before we went live?

Linda: Oh, That thing?

Katrina: Yeah.

Linda: You weren't bitching, it was a conscious tantrum.

Katrina: That is the best expression in the history of time hashtag conscious tantrum. I was having the best conscious tantrum that I ever had.

Linda: In the world.

Katrina: Oh, I've had a few big conscious tantrums actually.

Linda: Oh I have too.

Katrina: Yeah we actually have a lot of conscious tantrums, the two of us. Today my children said... what did they say. I was saying to them well everybody get grumpy, because one of them was grumpy. And I said don't worry everybody gets grumpy, even mommy, even Serafina, and even Linda. And the two of them said, “No, Linda doesn't get grumpy."

Linda: Linda doesn't get grumpy.

Katrina: And I was like, “well you go listen to her audios.”

Linda: Linda does get grumpy as well.

Katrina: Linda has quite the conscious tantrum from time to time. In fact, we both have conscious tantrums to each other all the time. Do we tell Facebook about it? No we tell each other.

Linda: We tell each other, but at the same time we-

Katrina: We process it and we turn it into content and make money.

Linda: Every time.

Katrina: Like ninjas.

Linda: Every time-

Katrina: What costumes? This is my normal professional Saturday midnight blood ritual outfit that I always wear.

Linda: And drinking blood. But heres the thing. We have our conscious tantrums, we get clarity, and it becomes content. It becomes growth, and we share that.

Katrina: That's why they're a conscious tantrum. I had a conscious tantrum, it was more of a conscious hissy fit, an hour or two ago, didn't I?

Linda: You did.

Katrina: I expressed it.

Linda: You were so cute.

Katrina: I am cute. I expressed it, and I was pretty shitty about it. Was I conscious. I think I was just shitty. I think I was actually being quite immature with some of the things I was saying.

Linda: No, but you were owning it. You were actually, owning it.

Katrina: I did own it. I always own it.

Linda: You even took responsibility to the pint where you said, "Is this my shit? Did I create it? Is this my shit?"

Katrina: Oh no, you're thinking about a different conscious tantrum. [crosstalk 00:15:03]

Linda: Oh, there's been multiple ones today.

Katrina: That's a different one. I'm talking about, what was I talking about right there before I stormed off-

Linda: All right then.

Katrina: Right before I stormed off to the bathroom. Then I reframed, and reframed, and reframed.

Linda: Reframed.

Katrina: So I might have had two conscious tantrums today.

Linda: At least, but that's okay.

Katrina: It's fine. Its Saturday, I can do what I want.

Linda: Every day you can do what you want.

Katrina: That's, yeah, good point.[crosstalk 00:15:26]

Linda: What kind of comedy I that?

Katrina: Well done. Congratulations.

Linda: I'm calling the Katrina Ruth Show out on some really, really-

Katrina: I always do what I want. Its true. Well no, you're right. I had a small, I'm going to call that earlier one a small conscious dummy spit. The one that happened earlier today.

Linda: And it makes it okay, because you add the conscious at the start.

Katrina: It was more like a small conscious Waaa. I wasn't really having a tantrum. I was just stamping my feet and crying a little bit.

Katrina: There's been no wine at all. It's a blood ritual.

Linda: And I had no [crosstalk 00:16:01]

Katrina: Blood ritual.

Linda: I had no idea-

Katrina: It was Karen O'Conners fault. She's been here all evening planning.

Linda: Blame it on all the external. Blame it on all the external. Take no responsibility.

Linda: Hello Anthony.

Katrina: How rude. Well I had a conscious little cry. I was mildly upset and I said, "is this my shit." And you said, "yes it is."

Linda: I did actually.

Katrina: Earlier on today you had said to me "are you being stupid", and I was in an uncompassionate mode, because I was having a small anxiety moment so I just said yes. I was like yes you are being silly.

Linda: Yeah, that's your own shit.

Katrina: That was true though.

Linda: Yeah, but how amazing was it that you-

Katrina: And you work for it, you go through it. And then I had my conscious tantrum. That was what just happened in the last hour to two. Remember?

Linda: Yeah, but its been more like every hour.

Katrina: You know the one I mean.

Linda: No. I need to write this down in my journal to remember.

Katrina: It was the one that really fricken got to me.

Linda: Yeah. Do it again?

Katrina: Then I decided on some decidedly immature actions that I might take.

Linda: And I said, “Is that what you really want to do?” Is that coming from a very conscious spite.

Katrina: And I said, “yes,” like a teenager.

Linda: And even the music's saying hello from the other side, Its like wake up Katrina.

Katrina: I'm a conscious teenager.

Linda: But it makes it okay, because you put the conscious in front of it. Always, every time when you put the conscious in front of something.

Katrina: So it is what it is. I'm still going to do that, just so you know.

Linda: So are you going to tell them about your tantrum? I mean one of them.

Katrina: No I can't. Not at all.

Linda: Okay, just though I'd check.

Katrina: No.

Linda: I know.

Katrina: Sorry, mask on. Facebook mask on. But I referred to it.

Katrina: Well we're not trying to help people at all. No we want to... Oh my god. Kenneth on...Let's bring it. Kenneth on Linda's live stream says... he says it in this voice exactly, “I know you guys are trying to be funny, but you know,” and he's nodding his head, “you know in order to really help people you need to really put your content together, and be sorta, kinda, coherent.” Sorta, kinda is definitely what you want to say before you use the word coherent by the way. Sorta, kinda, coherent. “And not acting like a bunch of drunk school girls.”

Katrina: Well, how many are there. There's only two, where's the rest of the bunch? They already left. “This rambling is hard to follow, and to make sense out of.” That's what Kenneth Fitzgerald Cheney has to say over on Linda's live stream.

Katrina: Well Kenneth, I'm so glad that you brought this to our attention, and I have many things to say. Unfortunately the remainder of the school girls already left. Thank you for referring to us as school girls, because we do look amazing.

Linda: I take that as a compliment, by the way.

Katrina: We look amazing. I'm just going to point out a small teeny little fact, can I?

Linda: Go ahead.

Katrina: So you said that's it hard to follow and make sense out of, which implies that its not worth staying for and you don't want to be here, but yet you're here and choosing to comment. Which makes you, bitch, you're a fan.

Katrina: I had one glass of wine. I know its on you're live stream, but he's followed me for ages, so I'm taking him as part of my audience, and I'm just making [crosstalk 00:19:25] for him.

Linda: Take them all. Take him. Take him.

Katrina: At what point did we say we were here to help anyone? Oh, he's adding to it. “Well you guys are beautiful, but I mean your subject is tantalising. We're talking about masks, and.” And then he just finishes with an and. Listen to me. I am the only person on the internet whose allowed to start and finish sentences with an and. You can't just finish a sentence with an and, but we accept the beauty compliment. Thank you.

Katrina: The subject is tantalising. I think what you mean is we are tantalising. We're talking about masks...”that's masks needed to..." Now you're repeating your words, which is starting to lead to the belief that you are the one who is a bunch of drunk school girls; because you've now said that masks needed need to be talked about. Continue, carry on.

Linda: But what if this is not actually a mask? What id this is actually what happens behind the scenes?

Katrina: It is. We were walking around all evening with our cloaks on.

Linda: We were. We were.

Katrina: I have photos of other people in cloaks as well. We do dome weird parties here. Kenneth is a bunch of drunk school girls. He said, "kinda, sorta, coherent." If you are going to use the word coherent in a sentence, I do believe that it should not be... what's the word? Should not be followed up by, but the opposite of that. You should not say the word coherent after saying kinda, sorta; because it kind od disputes the coherent. You're either coherent, or you're kinda, sorta you can't be both at the same time. Which one is it? Preface. You can't go prefacing your coherent with kinda, sorta.

Linda: Hello Steven.

Katrina: Hello Steven.

Linda: Welcome.

Katrina: Welcome.

Linda: Were having very, very serious chats about masks.

Katrina: Very, serious. Well it actually a fabulous point that Kenneth makes. He says we should have our masks on, but what you have to understand is that we legitimately were walking around like this, talking to each other.

Linda: We actually were. We were.

Katrina: And the others, who have already left. Send the invoice on over. I'll pay you in garlic.

Linda: So, is there a rule that we have to show up a certain way on social media?

Katrina: Well, apparently Kenneth has the rule book. Send it to us. Send it via fax. We want it by fax.

Linda: Do you even have a fax machine?

Katrina: I'm sure there's one somewhere on the [inaudible 00:21:55]. They might have one here.

Katrina: I'm not an old drunk. I take great offence to that Leah. I'm drinking nothing but mountain water, and spring water.

Linda: No, she said she's a drunk.

Katrina: No she's interpreting drunk [inaudible 00:22:11], she says. What non of you realise is that I'm a fabulous actress. It's really 9:00 AM, and I just did a work out, and had a coffee, and I'm completely straight laced.

Linda: Totally, but this is the Katrina Ruth Show. Katrina Ruth Show, she does what she wants, and I've just joined her show this evening.

Katrina: Its very tiresome when the normal people... Don't you find its tiresome when the normal people come onto live stream and you have to try to explain life to them? If you though I was going to stay within some sort of boundaries, you though wrong. I wouldn't have done it if I thought it was somebody who I didn't know, but this is somebody who's followed my page. I pretty sure I blocked you awhile back Kenneth, actually. Let me get my laptop, I'm checking that right now.

Linda: How many people are on your block list?

Katrina: It's an unreasonable amount.

Linda: Unreasonable amount, like hundreds?

Katrina: Is my laptop there already?

Linda: I don't know where you put your laptop, all I can see is spanking gear.

Katrina: I think I lost it. Did somebody steal it?

Linda: But heres the thing...

Katrina: I'm not kidding I don't know where my-

Linda: Hello Brendon.

Katrina: All right listen to me.

Linda: Listen. Listen Linda, listen, listen. Do you know that one? Do you know that clip?

Katrina: People can't go around commenting on Linda's live stream when they've been blocked by me. As far as the masks go, what did you just say? You said something fascinating. Do you remember what it was?

Linda: Oh my god, A lot of fascinating things come out of my mouth. I don't know-

Katrina: I mean mostly what you say is fascinating, in fact 100% of the time its fascinating.

Linda: 100% of what I say is fascinating.

Katrina: That's why when you're up stairs in bed, I'm still listening to audios from you downstairs.

Linda: In the same house.

Katrina: And then audioing back before you make it back down stairs. Its like an ongoing walkie talkie system.

Linda: We have this-

Katrina: Where's the block list?

Linda: Love relationship.

Katrina: Love love. It's a love love relationship.

Linda: It's always a love love.

Katrina: Look at this, we look amazing no masks at all.

Linda: But this is the thing-

Katrina: As I was saying, it tiresome to have to deal with normal people. But you said something about, do we ever have a mask on? You said something.

Linda: You know what Kat, and I want to tell everybody. When I started taking quantum leaps in my business, in my life, in every area of my life; you know when I did that? Started removing the mask. Started removing the mask and letting the world really see me, because-

Katrina: Let yourself be who you want to be.

Linda: I'm so tyres of wearing a mask. I'm so tired. I'm tired, I'm done. I'm tired. Who else is tired? If you're tired let us know, because I see so many people hiding.

Katrina: Look.

Linda: Oh, that is a lot. That is a long list.

Katrina: No an unreasonable list.

Linda: I got the inside stories.

Katrina: She's looking at my blocked list right now.

Linda: The block list.

Katrina: Do you recognise any of these people? Heres one.

Linda: Oh. I see so many people wear masks online-

Katrina: Maybe I didn't block him, what a [crosstalk 00:25:24] I am.

Linda: So many. But why? I want to even invite you to ask this question from yourself. Why are you wearing a mask?

Katrina: The thing is, it is a fabulous point that he made. Having a go at us, and trying to school us on how to be more helpful online. Who said we were here to help anyway? But actually, were helping by being ourselves. And the point is, the whole mask conversation is about being whoever you are. Which means that sometimes, you know what? Sometimes you're just sitting around casually on a Saturday night, in your cloak, being a clown, and maybe that's who you are. And that's no mask.

Linda: Exactly. And you know what? Fun is definitely part of life, and I've been suppressing fun. I've been suppressing that part.

Katrina: Where sis you put it?

Linda: I don't know.

Katrina: Did you lock it away? I'll get you the key. I have the key.

Linda: I did for a long time. Please, please give me the key.

Katrina: [inaudible 00:26:25]

Linda: She gave me the key to unlock the fun.

Katrina: Heavy moment.

Linda: I don't know if I'm ready for this.

Katrina: It's a heavy moment. Let it out. I think I'm sweating underneath the cloak.

Linda: I'm sweating.

Katrina: I smell quite delightful. It opposite day. The most important thing is being comfortable being who you are. What if there was no point to anything. People might assume that we have a point to getting on this live stream, like why are they doing this? Where is this going?

Linda: Its like where are the teachings? Where's the wisdom?

Katrina: Right. So what id there was no point?

Linda: What if there didn't have to be a point?

Katrina: What if the point was you get to just be yourself?

Linda: Kenneth.

Katrina: Who ever you are in that moment.

Linda: But see Kenneth, I am vulnerable and I also have different sides to me, just like everybody else; every single person watching this, we all have different parts to self. And me personally; I'm going to own up to a big thing now; I've been really suppressing the fun side of myself. Fun is one of my highest values, and I've been suppressing that in a major way.

Katrina: Its true. You are very fun.

Linda: And yeah you might see that behind the scenes, but have I really... You know even looking at my social media, have I really let the world in on the fun as much as I really am?

Katrina: No.

Linda: No. I haven't.

Katrina: Have any of us?

Linda: Have any of us? You know I see a lot of entrepreneurs showing up in just their messaging. Just this certain area of who they are.

Katrina: Well people think that there's rules, even the people who think there's no rules. Which is our people essentially, who know that there's no rules, but they still think that there's rules. They still think, well there has to be some sort of purpose, or intent, or point, or I have to have an outcome in mind; but what id it was just living your life?

Katrina: So tonight we had a small dinner party here. Imagine that everyone who came along to the dinner party was coming along thinking; what is my outcome or intention, or what do I have to make sure to achieve from being at Kat's house tonight. What goal must I accomplish, or even, how do I want to be perceived? Right?

Linda: Yeah. Yeah.

Katrina: Which is kind of what people are thinking for sure on Facebook. How do I want to be perceived? I want people to think I'm empowering or inspiring, or funny, or whatever it is. But then as soon as you start to try to be that, you're not that.

Katrina: Imagine if everybody who came here tonight came along trying to make sure that they were funny, or entertaining, or perceived as being intelligent. It would be such an awkward, bizarre conversation.

Linda: Yeah.

Katrina: Whereas everyone just showed up, you know, on the back of a busy day, rushing to get here, a little bit late, or some people not late, whatever. But you know what I mean. Nobody's like let me now think about how to show up to the dinner party.

Linda: Yeah, yeah.

Katrina: They just come.

Linda: Yeah.

Katrina: And then we had an amazing evening. Which was a mix of hilariousness, and seriousness-

Linda: Yeah-

Katrina: And deep connection-

Linda: It was all of that.

Katrina: And other things. It was all of it.

Linda: It was a polarity of everything.

Katrina: Of course.

Linda: Everything.

Katrina: Of course, and it was total flow.

Linda: And then we said we should do a live feed about masks. We should really let the world see who we really are behind the scenes.

Katrina: I think I say that all the time anyway.

Linda: With no other intention. Absolutely no other intention. We have no plan.

Katrina: But that's the thing when you go on a live stream... I believe, when you get on a live stream its got to be the same as going to dinner with your friends. You just turn it on and you see what fucking happens. If you go on with the intention no I'm going to be; even if you get on and you try to be entertaining, then its like you're trying. Or you get on and you're like I'm going to be deeply inspirational, or deeply spiritual, or deeply serious. Or I'm going to sell my shit or whatever.

Katrina: Well if you're practised at it you can still do it, but the ones where you literally press go live are the ones where the gold comes out.

Katrina: Okay, we've made Steven's son throw up. Were sorry about that. Steven says, "I just joined you live, and one of my boys started throwing up."

Linda: I hope your son is okay Steven.

Katrina: We apologise. I hope he's okay. My daughter was throwing up earlier [crosstalk 00:30:55]

Linda: He may not have thrown up because he saw us, but who knows. I don't know that.

Linda: So heres the thing. What if you just showed up as you, had no plan and just allowed yourself to be you?

Katrina: No intention. You are the point, what if the point was just being you?

Linda: Being you. Not doing, but being? Embodying yourself.

Katrina: Do you know what it comes down to? Do you know why most people will never do that in an online business?

Linda: Why?

Katrina: I don't know about the rest of Facebook. Is anybody even on Facebook to not make money anymore? Is that a thing. Sound ridiculous. But as far as online business, the reason why most people will never do this; they don't have the faith to do that. They won't trust to do that.

Linda: They're scared of being judged.

Katrina: They won't trust that they can just be themselves.

Linda: Yeah, yeah.

Katrina: And seal the business that they want, or get the results, or that people will even like them. So then they think that they have to do something, or be something, or be somebody.

Linda: Exactly, put on that mask.

Katrina: On masks.

Linda: Exactly. The mask.

Katrina: The mask.

Linda: But dint we get tired of wearing the mask?

Katrina: Throw it off, just throw it off.

Linda: Throw it off.

Katrina: Its not even a mask. It was a cloak. I only threw it off because I was so hot I thought I was having a menopausal...

Linda: Oh you threw the whole thing off?[crosstalk 00:32:05]

Katrina: I thought I was having a hot flash. It mother fucking hot in there.

Linda: Is this wearing a mask? This is the not mask though. This is-

Katrina: That's just a normal at home Saturday lounge affair. That's for lounging around on a Saturday evening at home. That's why we were wearing it earlier. We were wearing them for hours earlier when no cameras were on.

Linda: We were, and you children were running around, and we were having a good time.

Katrina: Every one was wearing one. We have many, because it's a normal thing to have many cloaks in your house.

Linda: Of course, it is. They key is the whole point.

Katrina: Okay. Well Kenneth is leaving, we're sorry to hear it. I don't know what else I got to say I think I've already said all my things. What else do you have?

Linda: Well you know what? I know what it feels like to be terrified to take off your mask. I was even terrified today. And that was one of my little conscious tantrums that I had; silently behind closed doors, because I ended up posting on social media earlier today. I ended up writing something... Its still there, it still exists, but its set privately to just myself. I had it up for half an hour, its still there, but I had a freak out moment. I reverted and retracted, and all of a sudden; I haven't felt like this for a very long time; it was a fear of what are people going to think of me?

Linda: It was a blog with the heading of, What really goes on in a Laptop lifestyle. What really goes on behind closed doors, and I shared some hilariousness over the last 36 hours, some bullet points of what's happened in my exploiting-

Katrina: Craziness.

Linda: Yeah. The craziness behind the scenes. And all of a sudden I'm like I don't have permission to share that. And I-

Katrina: Freaked out.

Linda: I freaked out, and I turned the settings to just me. I mean some people would have seen it already, but I might actually post it later I wanted to just sit with that.

Katrina: You should post it. It was a fabulous post. I read the post.

Linda: I sent it to Katrina. I had my conscious tantrum and I sent it to Kat and she said-

Katrina: Well you audioed me and told me about it. So, then I went on your page. Then I was like but where is it, because I can't find it. There's nothing there.

Linda: And I said I turned it on to private just to see me, because I wanted to process, but as I was... quite often when we're having these internal experiences we just-

Katrina: Steven said he saw it. What did you think?

Linda: Oh, you've seen it. Steven let me know what-

Katrina: What did you think? I though it was a fantastic post. I thought it was really funny, but really insightful as well. And then Linda said, am I just being stupid?

Linda: Am I being stupid?

Katrina: And I said yes.

Linda: Am I creating this story in my own mind?

Katrina: Basically. Yes it is your story. You're allowed to have a story.

Linda: I instantly picked up the phone and I verbalise what I was feeling. I verbalised and I let it out, and I wasn't bottling it up. I actually wanted to work through it. That's why I call it a conscious tantrum because somethings going on inside of me, and I always want to work through that. I want to process it. I want to sit with it-

Katrina: You're allowed to have a tantrum. That's the thing, you're allowed to lose your shit. You're allowed to be stomping your foot or feeling upset, or feeling grumpy.

Linda: Of course.

Katrina: But the conscious aspect is if you choose that. I mean maybe you're allowed to just do that and you don't even have to process it all, or create growth from it. We just automatically do. We automatically turn everything into growth.

Linda: Every single time. That's my commitment to myself, and my life, and my community, and humanity as a whole. Everything that I move through within myself, and as you know I turn that into content. I share myself very, very openly with the world. And I continue to find different layers of myself that I might not be sharing with the world.

Linda: Do not even.

Katrina: Sorry.

Linda: What's this got to do with any of this?

Katrina: Nothing. I'm just very reactive right now.

Linda: But I love it. I love it because she's not wearing a mask. You're just being yourself.

Katrina: I'm just sending a message.[crosstalk 00:36:34]

Linda: You're just being yourself, and I love it.

Katrina: I wasn't replying to any naughty messages at all. They just popped up.

Linda: Has a saw it, I loved it. So raw and such a comical version of what can actually be so real. Thank you Heather.

Katrina: Right. It was an amazing post. So-

Linda: Thank you my darling.

Katrina: So we definitely have conscious tantrums frequently. Or whenever they need to occur.

Linda: Absolutely.

Katrina: But we are amazing. We are. We should get an award. I'll get you an award.

Linda: Can I have an award? You know what I saw -

Katrina: Here it is. It's a blinged out[crosstalk 00:37:09] cushion.

Linda: Oh my god, this is a moment to remember. I saw a clairvoyant a couple of years ago-

Katrina: And she said you were going to receive a [crosstalk 00:37:14] cushion?

Linda: No, she said that I was going to receive an award.

Katrina: Well there it is.

Linda: Like unexpectedly. Thank you so much.[crosstalk 00:37:26]

Katrina: You've got one right there, but.

Linda: I feel so blessed. Thank you. Thank you.

Katrina: Can I just check if I got a message back?

Linda: No.

Katrina: I'm just going to have a quick look.

Linda: What are you doing? I love it. You know what I love about you. I love that you are just being you in life, in business, on your live feeds, and behind closed doors. Oh my god. Oh Steven, sending love to your boy. I really am sending love to your boy. Hopefully he gets well.

Katrina: We're trying to make an important and serious point.

Linda: What's the point?

Katrina: Don't remember. I got distracted.

Linda: Clearly. Clearly.

Katrina: It's about growth. It's about fucking growth. Let's say you lose your shit. Lets' say you get triggered as fuck by something. From now on, by the way when you say the words as fuck, you have to say as fuck.

Linda: As fuck.

Katrina: It official. I put it in the million in [maximo 00:38:42] trainings for everybody. So when you lose your shit, or you get triggered; I know for me anyway, and I know you're the same, because we always work through everything. That when I get triggered by something, or I get upset, or have a little conscious temper tantrum, or whatever it might be. That it always turns into growth and it always turns into-

Linda: Every time.

Katrina: An evolution of my own inner working and understandings.

Linda: Every time. I honestly feel like-

Katrina: You're always thankful.

Linda: Yeah. Exactly, because we consciously choose to work through something it like were taking quantum leap after quantum leap every single day. And it's a choice of how we live life, I guess.

Katrina: Sometimes you just feel like you're fucking over it though, right?

Linda: Yeah.

Katrina: Like sometimes it just feel relentless and you're just like really, can I just get to the flow bit now? But then its like that is part of the flow bit. I think what a lot of people don't understand about flow is that the uncertainty or the growth, the growing pains, the struggle, or the turmoil is inherent to the flow. And it actually is something to be grateful for because it always shows you your own areas of insecurity, or your own areas of wounding-

Linda: Vicki.

Katrina: Hey Vicki.

Katrina: Or areas where you aren't fully owning your shit.

Linda: Yeah. Yeah.

Katrina: Areas where you may be looking outside of yourself for validation or self worth. So in the short term you might be "what the fuck. This happened and I'm shitty, or I'm triggered, or this person is getting to me, or whatever it might be." Then you rant on. We rant on to each other on an audio about it.

Linda: Conscious temper tantrums.

Katrina: We audio so much though, like all day every day. Sometimes it adds up to 40 or 50 minutes of audios or more a day. But then sometimes what interesting; lets say one of us would audio the other with an issue, and then the other person hadn't listened to it yet and hadn't got back to them. Then probably by later that afternoon there would already be a following audio like " right. So I fully processed it. I've figured it out"-

Linda: Oh that only like 20 minutes later, normally.

Katrina: That was like the situation here. Where I was kind of on the side telling you about it when we were ll sitting at the table.

Linda: Yeah.

Katrina: And then before we went live I cam ein and I started having a little temper tantrum about it again.

Linda: Yeah.

Katrina: And then I figured it out.

Linda: All I was doing was just observing you, and you had worked every single bit out.

Katrina: I worked it out. I figured it out. I figured out exactly why that came to show me a lesson. I went through several days of shit, of being shitty about this, shitty about this, shitty about this; does it mean this, or this, or this? And then I got to of fuck it's this insecurity inside of me, or its this area where I'm not fully owning something inside of me.

Linda: How powerful is it, the fact that you can dive into yourself and own up to those part of yourself?

Katrina: How do we answer that question? I thought you said you were leaving? You said like 20 minutes ago that you were leaving and now you're asking what audio. How do you answer what's audio?

Linda: It's an audio message. It's a voice memo.

Katrina: Its like there's visual and there's audio. In life there is visual and there's audio.

Linda: Its a voicemail.

Katrina: Audio means audio. Its auditory, you can hear it with your ears. That's what audio means. How can you ask what audio means? It like when you go to the movie and you can hear the sound. That means audio, or a song. I don't know how to answer that question, I'm even trying to be serious.

Linda: You always make me laugh. You always make me laugh.

Katrina: I'm being completely professional. You said we weren't helping people. Now I helped you. So there you go. Help somebody dear.

Linda: Welcome to the Katrina Ruth Show.

Katrina: Can I go to bed now? I've helped a person. I might go to bed anyway.

Linda: No, no, no. No. But its beautiful the growth that comes from choosing to dive in and look at our shit.

Katrina: It is, and it's fucking annoying sometimes, but then you're always grateful in the end.

Linda: Always.

Katrina: It isn't like you just feel like; what the fuck, why am I going through this again. And then you go I'm so glad that happened because it showed me this, this, and this.

Linda: I even turned the fact that I found shit in my bags. I turned that into gratitude.

Katrina: Yeah, that was thanks to Bull.

Linda: Like literally found crap in my bag.

Katrina: That's yucky.

Linda: And I still came back.

Katrina: That's unfortunate.

Linda: Where it happened. Yeah. And you know every time, every time. Even now when I get triggered I instantly shift it into gratitude. I allow myself to feel, and I go "okay I'm choosing to be grateful because I'm being shown something that I get to learn." I get to-

Katrina: Exactly. It always there if you're learning.

Linda: Always.

Katrina: [inaudible 00:43:42]

Linda: Mickey.

Katrina: Do we have anything to add?

Linda: Are you asking them?

Katrina: I don't know. I'm asking the universe.

Linda: We always have. We could go all night. Imagine if we went all night.

Katrina: We always do anyway, with or without the camera.

Linda: We didn't even rook up for any teachings, we didn't rook up with an intention. We just rooked up.

Katrina: That is the teaching, you are the point.

Linda: You are the point.

Katrina: Your best work will come out when you're not trying to be anything. When you just give yourself permission to be you, period, the end. Whoever you are in that moment.

Linda: We are so incredibly, incredibly afraid to show who we really are, and that's a journey that I've taken myself. And I continue to get to learn more and more every day; as I'm discovering deeper parts of myself. We get so afraid of judgement from others, but why? Because there's going to be people out there who, people who judge you and don't like you regardless of what version or what mask you're putting out there. And knowing that whatever mask you're putting out there, you know that you're not being authentic and true to yourself. Not only to yourself, but the world. So what if you just allowed yourself to be you and fully own truth in your own soul, because there's going to be people out there who judge you and don't like you regardless. So why not just be yourself?

Katrina: Exactly. You need to be fresh and ready for big training tomorrow Linda. She will be. I pinned tomorrow is a hundred thousand hours away.

Linda: I'm good.

Katrina: Dager be yourself.

Linda: Hey Mel.

Katrina: Hey Mel.

Linda: Hey Mel.

Linda: But that is really the message that come full circle. Be yourself. Take off your mask you are the point. You really are the point.

Katrina: And help yourself, So be yourself now. Good bye.

Linda: Good bye.

Katrina: Have an amazing rest of the evening. Go be you. No filter, no BS.

Linda: Go do you, because no one does you like you do. Bye.

Katrina Ruth: Welcome. Hi humans. What is happening? Interesting. Interesting. Very interesting. There's people. Hello to the people. Hi Kendra. Kendra, I feel like I haven't seen you in a long while.

Katrina Ruth: I am doing the thing that you do when you go live, which is you just kinda fuck around for a little bit, you fix your hair, make sure your posture is good. You see which head tilt looks better, which side. Thank you. I forgot I had this top. Found it in the closet. Have many clothes that I've forgotten about.

Katrina Ruth: Now, my hair looks fine. I think I could adjust it just one time. Just one time. Let me share this little stream over. Where have you been though? Watching without commenting.

Katrina Ruth: Hello Anne Marie.

Katrina Ruth: Why did my little wizardry woman not copy over? I tried to copy my wizardry woman when I'm sharing it. Where is she? Who is she? What is she? And she won't let me share.

Katrina Ruth: So, you know when ... I'm very clam. I refuse to be swayed, but my little princessy, empress ... she's an empress, excuse me, excuse all of you. The empress will not allow herself to be shared. I mean, it's very emporessy of her. I think you'll agree. She's just like, "No bitch." Too bad, I'm gonna find you in the keyboard emojis, you wirely little empress. Where are you? I won't do that dancing lady, I won't. I don't feel like flamenco lady today. Today is the day for the empress. Where is she? I'm fantastic. I was able to share the empress over to the daily asskickery group. You'll be very happy to hear it.

Katrina Ruth: Now, you know the thing that you've gotta do when you come on the live stream? Let me just tell you the things. Let me tell you the things that you must do when you come on to a live stream, in case you didn't know.

Katrina Ruth: Hello Shannon.

Katrina Ruth: Now, firstly a man told me once that if I twirl my hair in front of him it means I wanna have sex with him. Can anybody give me their ... can somebody tell me whether this is true or not? 'Cause I twirl my hair a lot on the live stream, I don't know if that means I wanna have sex with all of you. Who's even here? Let me see. Let me consider the options.

Katrina Ruth: So far I've only ... well it's not telling me everybody is here, so I don't know really, but I always feel a little bit alarmed when I start twirling my hair on a live stream. I feel like, "Do people suddenly think that that means I wanna have sex with everybody? I'm not kidding, he stood at my kitchen bench and he said to me, "Just so you know I know that you wanna have sex with me because you're twirling your head at me and you're biting your lip. I'm like, "I was not biting my lip." I said, "I'm twirling my hair because it feels fantastic." He said, "Do you wanna have sex with me?" I was like, "I take offence". I didn't say that. I didn't really know what that means. I was like, "Fine, you might be right." But I still don't think that it's a valid actual rule.

Katrina Ruth: Can somebody vote? Claire says, "I think they say that because it's something people do when they're nervous."

Katrina Ruth: He said I was staring at his lips. He was quite certain about himself, let's just put it that way.

Katrina Ruth: No it wasn't a plumber. It was a friend. Who's a friend? He was just basically saying that he could read my energy and just being quite cocky about it.

Katrina Ruth: Anyway, he may have been very right, but that's really neither here nor there. I don't think that it's an automatic thing that if you twirl your hair at somebody ...Ella, is it a thing 'cause I twirl my hair constantly especially when I'm on a live stream. I'm constantly twirling my hair. I suppose I am thinking about sex quite a lot though. So, could be for that reason.

Katrina Ruth: The lip biting thing, I don't know. I can understand lip biting if you're really in the passion of it, but I don't think I just walk around looking at people and biting my lip, or staring at their lips. Maybe I do. I don't know.

Katrina Ruth: So, that's what I was trying to say though. When you come on a live stream ... firstly I have a cloak here just in case, this is a cloak just in case I need it. I didn't put my cloak on today. Secondly, when you come on a live stream, you must adjust your hair. Everybody knows that. I've already done it. I didn't it before I went on live but then you do it again just to be sure.

Katrina Ruth: The next thing that you've gotta do is if you're smart, you wanna make sure that you jump onto the computer and check how you look there because the phone is a liar. The phone, she's a seductress and a liar. The phone will have you thinking that you can see from here up or something, but really it's gonna be from wherever it is, so I can see it on the screen from there up, but on my phone I can't see that much. So, what if I had, I don't know a crock top under and I didn't want you to see my stomach? Then too bad, it'd be too bad for me.

Katrina Ruth: Alright, I'm adding this little empress emoji over here on my personal page and then I'll be ready to talk about some things, many things.

Katrina Ruth: Claire says, "Someone told me we twirl our hair when we are tired." I just twirl my hair 'cause it looks fabulous, but now ever since he told me that I've always felt concerned that I may be, accidentally twirling my hair at people and then that wherever I go around the Gold Coast people just think I wanna have sex with them, which is not necessarily true. In fact, it's generally not true is the truth of the matter, but maybe I'm just accidentally giving off the wrong impression all the time. I suppose it's not harmed me so far. [inaudible 00:07:32]. Cool.

Katrina Ruth: So, "Hey, twirling is used to release tension. Sometimes it's sexual tension." Oh well, there we have it. We have the relationship expert amongst other things telling us exactly what it means. Now I know. That's what it means. If I twirl my hair at you, that's definitely what it means, just so you know.

Katrina Ruth: So, I've had the most fascinating weekend, I must say. I've had a most unusual ... I don't know how to say this, I don't know what I'm putting out there with my energy right now but I've had some very interesting conversations this weekend. It's been quite fascinating. I think I've changed something in my energy. It might just be the it might just be the breasts. Or it's the hair twirling, obviously. It's definitely the hair twirling, and the lip biting. I wasn't even biting my lip at anybody. I didn't bite my lip at a single person all weekend except maybe in rage, possibly.

Katrina Ruth: So, what was I even gonna talk about? Resolve.

Katrina Ruth: Hello Lisa.

Katrina Ruth: Resolve. We're gonna talk about resolve. And specifically what we're gonna talk about is whatever the fuck comes out of my mouth 'cause I already kinda got bored of the topic of resolve. I think I wrote about it already, so now I don't know what I wanna talk about. So, we'll just sit here for a moment and we'll think about it.

Katrina Ruth: Shannon, "What would you like to talk about?"

Katrina Ruth: I don't know, I just kind of go through these periods and then I'm like, "Do you think that you just ..." see, I can't stop touching my hair, but I think I'm really just using it as an excuse to touch my breast, and I thought that that might be a phase that would wear off after a month or so. It's not even been a month, it's been 12 days actually, look how recovered I am. I'm like a recovery genius.

Katrina Ruth: Today my mother said to me, "Did you have a boob job?" I never told her. I told the whole internet but I didn't tell my mother, so anyway, she was remarkably unruffled about that actually considering that she heard from somebody else and not me. She just asked me how my recovery is going, and I said, "Fantastic because I'm a recovery magician." I didn't say the word magician 'cause my mom wouldn't really care for it. I said, "Recovery maestro." I didn't say maestro either. I said, "Because I'm amazing at healing and recovery." It was something along those lines.

Katrina Ruth: And I thought that that face of wanting to touch yourself might wear off after a few weeks or a month, but then one of my clients ... it's not a prop, it's just how I walk around the house, what are you talking about? One of my clients/friends ... unruffled is an amazing word, isn't it? We should use it more often as a community. Yes, one of my clients/friends told me that 10 years later she still can't stop touching her breast all the time.

Katrina Ruth: Now, I might say that I've had an unreasonable amount of requests from my male friends for me to send photos, which I find kind of hilarious 'cause I don't think that they would normally be asking me to send photos of my breasts. In fact, they don't normally. My friends, my actual friends, I'm not talking about romantic interests. And now all of a sudden it's just a common every day request. Apparently I'm being quite stubborn and rude that I'm not sending through photos so that they can give some kind of official Amazon review.

Katrina Ruth: The resolve thing. Let's come back to that. I think that we just do it on purpose sometimes. You have these days, or for me it's been kind of yesterday and today ... yesterday I had an anxiety day, which I don't really care for that much. I'm making light of it now but I did write about it yesterday and it's a real thing, or everything is a real thing, whatever. I don't wanna go on, and on about it again. But yesterday was an anxiety day, and then today was next level grumpy bitch day. You know grumpy cat from Friends? Is grumpy cat from Friends? Where is grumpy cat from? Grumpy cat's on the internet somewhere. Let's find grumpy cat. I've definitely been grumpy cat all day.

Katrina Ruth: I just snapped at one of my friends on a message when he asked me where I am in the world, like where I physically am. And I gave him an answer that according to his reply ... or his reply to me and said, "Don't talk to me like a client." He gave me a coaching client answer, and I said, "I did not." I said, "I'm just rolling my eyes at you because I already told you earlier today where I am. Australia, and now I had to tell you again, and what's with men and not paying attention to details? And then I said, "Sorry. I'm just having a grumpy day."

Katrina Ruth: Smelly cat is the one from Friends, but there is a grumpy cat. Hopefully when I posted earlier on Facebook today that I was having a grumpy day ... I received him. I'm receiving all manner of messages at the moment that are just kind of hilarious, but also fabulous. But I got a helpful message earlier today when I posted that I was grumpy and said, "I know what you need, and it's not ... whatever, reframing, "It's penis." And I'm like, "Alright, that's super fucking helpful. Thank you." You're right.

Katrina Ruth: Do you think I'm being quite staccato on what I'm saying today? I feel like I'm not remotely connected to anything. I'm just dropping random ideas, one after another, without linking any of them up together. And it may or may not go anywhere at all.

Katrina Ruth: That's right, I was looking at grumpy cat. Okay. Now, I'm interested. Here we go. There's grumpy cat. So, I did a really good deep post about why I was grumpy, and I made some really good points about shifting things, and then of course it's a guy ... messages me, and sends me a meme. Some sort of meme that I won't repeat, but then ... No. There's nothing ... just undid my whole post basically and said that really why you're grumpy is your need penis. And I'm like, "Yes. I'm fully fucking aware of that. No need to point it out." Don't worry, I'll resolve all issues as I always do. This is my happy face. This was my happy face today. There it is, grumpy cat.

Katrina Ruth: Thank you Kobie. It wasn't even a grumpy cat meme. I thought of the grumpy cat memes myself.

Katrina Ruth: What are we up to? Should we start the conversation? Should we begin the show? So, I had an anxiety day yesterday. That was not fun, not fun, not fun even though I'm well rehearsed and well versed ...

Katrina Ruth: What did Shannon say? "We should talk about how bum-diggity you actually are while drinking vino."

Katrina Ruth: This is my first bit of wine today though. I haven had any wine to drink. Rudely when I was on my live stream last night with Linda people were accusing us of being drunken school girls, which we found supremely offensive, whilst also quite flattering.

Katrina Ruth: Anxiety day is not that fun, but I'm well versed in how to deal with it. Today was a grumpy day. Today was a fuck the world day, but at the same time I had a great day in many ways.

Katrina Ruth: And then I thought to myself ... thank you. Thank you Yvonne. Then I thought to myself, "Maybe I just create these grumpy days, or anxiety days from time to time to then remind myself of how fucking strong I am, and how determined, and how resilient I am.

Katrina Ruth: I already wrote a whole book about an hour ago. My children got to stay up an extra 30 minutes 'cause I was busy finishing the blog instead of putting them to bed, but now they're asleep. Linda's around somewhere as well. She may or may not appear. She's doing a big training upstairs, but she might be nearly done now.

Katrina Ruth: So, I don't need to repeat the whole jolly blog, I already wrote about that, but essentially after I wrote the blog, then I thought about it, and I thought, "I'm pretty sure that we just create these really grumpy or annoyance anxiety days in order to ..." like a contrast, you know what I mean? It's a contrast but it's also a lesson teaching.

Katrina Ruth: Okay. I feel like I'm not remotely in in flow at all and it's very much annoying me. I feel like maybe this is how the normal people feel when they are live streaming, where they feel a little, kind of disconnected and like a feeling of, "Am I being remotely interesting? Does anybody wanna listen to what I have to say? Should I just finish the live stream right now?" These are all the things that I'm thinking. Tell me something. I'm waiting for the super flow to come and super flow is just like, "Fuck you bitch. I ain't coming along today at all."

Katrina Ruth: We're gonna be in LA quite soon, aren't we? It's only next week that I head back to America. America. I'm gonna go here, there, and everywhere. Who wants to do something fabulous with me in America? I'm doing many things already. I may or may not accept your offer, if you make me one.

Katrina Ruth: Do you think I'm having an anxiety comedown? You might be right.

Katrina Ruth: Karen says, "I've been in a fowler today too. I desire a full-time nanny." You should get to have whatever you desire, Karen. I'm pointing it to you. I ordained you. I don't know why you need to be ordained in order to have a full-time nanny. "Loved your blog today." Thank you.

Katrina Ruth: Well, the blog I'm very happy with. I wrote the blog and I felt fabulous about it. I felt super flow. And now I'm on the live stream and I feel disconnected and grumpy about it. Aftershock. I ate mini white potatoes for dinner though, so I should be feeling better soon. It's my magic food. The more potatoes I eat, the leaner I get, and the happier I get. It's definitely coming ...

Katrina Ruth: Lisa says ... Lisa poses an interesting question, she says, "What do you really wanna say, Kat?" What do I really wanna say? I wanna say why are they ... this is something I probably was definitely not gonna say. I wanna say why are there so many fucking men who wanna have sex with me and none of them are here in the Gold Coast? That's what I'm grumpy about. Things I thought I would never say on the internet. Why am I getting so many messages from men who I really do wanna see, and then none of them are here on the Gold Coast, why am I manifesting that none of them are here? That's what I wanna know. Okay. I can't believe I just said that. And I've only had three sips of wine as well. That's my real problem.

Katrina Ruth: What's happening? Why am I manifesting all these amazing conversations? And there's a backstory there. And then I'm just creating resistance around the actual physical manifestation because I'm just trapped on the Gold Coast, and everybody knows this, no men to have sex with on the Gold Coast. Well, it's happened on occasion, for sure, but I think I'm creating some kind of block around it. Okay I think I'm going through some kind of Katfession. These are the things that I normally say to Linda, but freaking Linda is upstairs on the training, so now apparently I'm saying them to the whole internet.

Katrina Ruth: "Why do I think that is?" Linda's theory is that I don't really wanna have sex with anybody because there's just one person that I wanna have sex with. She has theories, that one. I don't know if she's right or not. She might be, or she might not be. Who knows. That's her theory. Was that Linda who said that? Of course it was. Maybe it was Kelly, I saw Kelly today as well.

Katrina Ruth: "Are they actually good enough for you?" They're actually all amazing, is the truth of the matter. That's the truth of it. That is the truth, but there's only one that I'm in love with. My God, what's happening? Am I on some kind of truth serum? Somebody get Linda down very quickly to save me before I keep saying things that I shouldn't say. This is entirely her fault because we did a live stream yesterday about wearing masks on the internet.

Katrina Ruth: "Maybe your boobsicles aren't ready for the passion that's gonna get unleashed on them>" the breasts are ready. And they've got full sensation in them as well by the way. One of my friends said she didn't get sensation back for four to six months. I cannot fucking believe I just said that. It's an organic wine, it's obviously the fault of the organic wine. That's the most revealing ... I didn't call this live stream reveal, I called it resolve. I don't know if she's right or not. I refuse to accept that that's the only possible answer. Anything's possible, doesn't make it definite though, does it? I don't know about the answer. I'm like, maybe you're right. Maybe. Maybe not. But that's pretty much what I'm grumpy about.

Katrina Ruth: What are we gonna do about it? What are we gonna about it as a community and as a team? I have to decide whether I'm in sexual resistance on purpose.

Katrina Ruth: "You need to resolve this." Now I get it. [inaudible 00:20:43]. Thank you Lisa. I need to resolve this situation.

Katrina Ruth: Well, I just find it kind of infuriating when you're having four incredible conversations at once with incredible men, and none of them are here. What is that about? But she might be right. She might be right. Maybe I don't really want any of them except for one of them. Everybody fucking knows anyway, it's not exactly a secret.

Katrina Ruth: Apparently I should drink more because clearly I can keep my mouth more secretive when I'm drinking than when I'm not drinking. What am I up to. I've had about 50 mils of wine and I'm now saying the most revealing stuff that I've ever said on the internet. Well, the whole point was to drop the mask. "Fly them in." Don't worry I'll see them when I need to see them, but maybe she's right and I only wanna see the one one. Bloody hell.

Katrina Ruth: I use inargi all the time. Alright. Well, this is embarrassing. I feel like I should leave now. Who wants to join Empress? Maybe I'll just tell you something. By the way if any of those men are on this live stream, you can just leave right away. Nobody invited you along. Everybody knows what I'm talking about anyway. Everybody who's in my inner circle meaning my ... well, I don't necessarily mean my client inner circle. I mean the inner circle of Kat, but either way.

Katrina Ruth: Resolution. Does need resolution. Resolution's always coming. That's true. I trust in the process. I trust in the divine unfolding of all things. One must trust in divine unfolding of all things or what else does one have? Ella. Ella knows many things about many things. That's what I've established since getting to know you, Ella and I don't even know you that well, but I know that you know many things.

Katrina Ruth: Now, what am I up to? I'm gonna tell you something to distract you from all my embarrassing reveals. I didn't really say anything at all anyway. You can put two and two together all you like you're only gonna come up with 49 and a half. Here you go. You might as well join Empress.

Katrina Ruth: I did the best read out about Empress the other day ...

Katrina Ruth: "Maybe you're waiting for men with a golden gun." I feel like I should understand what that means and I don't. Does that make me really dumb or really naïve? Empress is open for registrations, just so you know. Can't really be bothered talking about it but there's a pinned comment there.

Katrina Ruth: Here's why I also may be grumpy. I'll give you another reason, I'm just gonna deflect you now. Deflection. I was supposed to go to Barley tomorrow and I've now cancelled. And now I'm like, should I have cancelled? Should I have not cancelled? And I don't know. I'm in a bizarre questioning state. I think what I'm gonna go do tomorrow is buy a house and a car, and that will sort me out. I already planned it though.

Katrina Ruth: Okay. I had a friend request here from Fred , can anybody vouch for Fred? He has no mutual friends in common and he appears to be holding a gun in his profile photo. He is holding a gun and somebody just said the man with the golden gun. He appears to have no teeth on one side of his teeth, and I'm not joking. He's holding a gun, it's a big one. Hang on ... Has a lot of tattoos, he looks nice. We should probably stop talking about him. It's not a golden gun. Linda, I've just done something really stupid.

Linda: What have you done?

Katrina Ruth: Because you weren't here I just told the people on the live stream things that I would normally tell you on an audio. And it was really bad. I'm not kidding. I just said the actual truth about why I'm grumpy. I said because-

Linda: Are you still live?

Katrina Ruth: Yes. But it's all on now. I said because these four men messaging me amazing conversations and none of them are fucking here on the Gold Coast for me to have sex with them, and that's the real reason that I'm grumpy.

Linda: Which group are you living?

Katrina Ruth: The whole world. I don't even know what I'm doing. I'm not even drinking wine. I mean, I've had half a glass but ... and then I said, "Let's be honest, we all know the truth is that it's because it's only one that I love." And I've dropped you in it as well while we were at it.

Linda: Oh did you?

Katrina Ruth: I said that you said it's probably because I only want the one one.

Linda: Well, that's true.

Katrina Ruth: She doesn't know what she's on about, just 'cause she's the one that hears all my audios all day every day. She's making shit up. This is what happens when you're on a fucking training upstairs instead of being down here for me to talk to. I just start telling the whole incident, the most revealing things in the world.

Linda: [laughs].

Katrina Ruth: Anyway, hopefully nobody watches this replay.

Katrina Ruth: "An orgasm is being called." Says Karen. I already had many of them, all weekend long. I'm pretty sure I'm up to 20 since Friday night. It's gotta be some kind of Guinness World Book of World Records ... yeah, I need an award for that for sure.

Katrina Ruth: I'm not even kidding. I'm on fire. I'm sensually aroused and on fire at the moment. I don't know what's happening. Something's changing in my whole energy system. I was always like it anyway, but it's gone to the next level. Okay. Wait. Alright. I got another message. I was like, don't tell me it's another one but it was Rasheda, so that's fine. It was a woman.

Katrina Ruth: "Super flow is on." I don't think the super flow is here. I think I'm just still saying shit that I probably shouldn't be saying on the internet. Well, it's also because we talked about dropping masks last night. Just so you know. Okay. I think she's left now.

Linda: What?

Katrina Ruth: It's your fault because last night we live streamed about dropping the mask.

Linda: Oh it's my fault.

Katrina Ruth: You can make a guest appearance if you like.

Linda: In my pyjamas.

Katrina Ruth: Well, I've got pyjamas on too just on the bottom half.

Linda: Hello.

Katrina Ruth: I'm blaming you.

Linda: Why are you blaming me?

Katrina Ruth: Because last night we talked about drop ... Can we share a throne? It's not gonna work.

Linda: Our asses are to big.

Katrina Ruth: Hey.

Linda: Can we take this up?

Katrina Ruth: No. You have to look at our breasts now.

Linda: You got some lighting going on, girl.

Katrina Ruth: Because last night we talked about dropping the masks and now, tonight you're not here to save me and I'm just moping around downstairs, so then I end up telling the whole incident, the things I would normally tell you.

Linda: But this is just what happens.

Katrina Ruth: No. I've never told the whole internet that before.

Linda: You obviously meant to or you chose to.

Katrina Ruth: Well, maybe it's a new level of freedom that's coming through. How's your training?

Linda: Amazing. Amazing.

Katrina Ruth: How many people did you have on your training?

Linda: Live 130.

Katrina Ruth: Celebrate Linda. Send her a love heart shower. Let's ordain her. I don't know what I'm ordaining you as.

Linda: Off the hood. Loving it.

Katrina Ruth: As a training princess of the online trainings.

Katrina Ruth: Well, last night we live streamed with our capes on about dropping masks. Don't forget to buy my shit by the way 'cause I'm not really in the mood to sell it right now, but just so you know, don't forget. Leave the pinned comment.

Linda: I just get so much humour from just staying with you. This is great.

Katrina Ruth: Therapy.

Linda: This is just ... I'm not- [crosstalk 00:28:23]. What are these things?

Katrina Ruth: That's me.

Linda: What?

Katrina Ruth: [crosstalk 00:28:29].

Katrina Ruth: Send her some more Kat emojis.

Linda: What are they? How is that even possible?

Katrina Ruth: Send some flying Katrina so that she can see them. We want it all John, don't be offensive.

Linda: I want a flying Linda too.

Katrina Ruth: Look. Look.

Katrina Ruth: I mean, look it says one percent and press play.

Linda: Oh my god, this is the best fucking thing I've ever seen in my life.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. Bronwyn made them for me.

Linda: I need some of those in my life.

Katrina Ruth: And some sex. Oh no, that's me.

Linda: This is incredible. I learned something new today.

Katrina Ruth: "Where did the flying Katrinas come from?" So, on your phone, you know how on the right hand side you've got the little emojis? And then to the inside left of your emojis on your phone you'll see a little sticker ... you gotta be on your cell phone, your mobile phone. It won't work if you're on your laptop.

Linda: Oh my God. Can I do it?

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, if you're on your phone and you join my live you can send some flying Katrinas. I'm pretty sure they're devil Katrinas. "You can't send any emojis tonight." Why? Are you on some kind of emoji diet? Have you overdosed on emojis? Have you made a commitment to yourself to not send any emojis for 30 days?

Linda: Oh my God, this is like ...

Katrina Ruth: The red jackets look like what?

Linda: They look like witches.

Katrina Ruth: Witches. Yeah. They're devils. They're flying devil Katrinas. I didn't care for that one at all.

Linda: Are they holding a spanking thing?

Katrina Ruth: Well, that would be normal and appropriate.

Linda: Just like last night. And capes.

Katrina Ruth: I think I've said enough revealing things for one evening. I call the live stream resolve and I was gonna speak about staying the course, and holding the vision of your goals, and instead I just told everyone how grumpy I am about not having sex right now.

Linda: And instead you just unleashed whatever the fuck came out.

Katrina Ruth: Don't worry I'll sort it out.

Linda: Proper now.

Katrina Ruth: I always do.

Linda: I think I need me some wine too.

Katrina Ruth: I think I need to drink more wine because I'd had one sip of wine and then I just started saying all that shit. I literally said stuff that I would normally just say straight to you, and then I was like, "What am I doing?"

Katrina Ruth: "All you can see is bitmojis."

Linda: You don't need me anymore, you got them. You just [inaudible 00:30:40] every day in an audio.

Katrina Ruth: I cannot get into the habit of telling the whole world the things I tell you. I'd be kicked off Facebook.

Katrina Ruth: "It's the wine." Well, I only just had a little bit of wine.

Linda: The wine?

Katrina Ruth: There's no white wine left in this house, is there? You drank it all.

Linda: We can sort something.

Katrina Ruth: "Love this so much, Linda."

Linda: Thank you.

Katrina Ruth: Alright. Send me some emojis.

Linda: I have to ... is it on your page?

Katrina Ruth: Well, how can we connect to this in a professional and adult way back to the conversation about resolve? Hopefully-

Linda: Resolve.

Katrina Ruth: Hopefully certain people don't watch this replay. I'm gonna be embarrassed.

Linda: Oh my God, that's us.

Katrina Ruth: Well, no. Not really 'cause whatever. I might as well just be transparent. Do you know what this is? This is a sign for me to be even more transparent.

Linda: I wanna send you some ...

Katrina Ruth: You're just gonna send me ... oh no. You gotta press this, that's where the flying Katrinas are ... I don't know. Where's the flying Katrinas?

Linda: Or maybe 'cause it's ...

Katrina Ruth: This one. This one. This one. I'm gonna send myself my own Katrina's. Oh my God. This is the best day of my life. I've never been ... I'm going crazy about it. I've never been able to do this before 'cause ... I'm just pushing buttons.

Linda: This is the weirdest live stream ever.

Katrina Ruth: And everybody's been pushing my buttons all weekend. So, I'm just gonna push these buttons. Oh my God.

Linda: Look at that.

Katrina Ruth: That's the best moment of my life. That is my best live ... one percent, one percent for everybody.

Linda: I actually thought they look like witches.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. They do. Alright. I'm very excited. Okay turn it off. She's annoying.

Linda: That's you darling.

Katrina Ruth: She's speaking over the top of me. Shut it down.

Linda: Shut it down. Shut myself down.

Katrina Ruth: Get rid of her.

Katrina Ruth: Anyway, I just had an important point, was it? How, if you look at the emojis on the left hand side, the cape live stream was professional. We were professional as fuck. If you look at your emojis on the left side of your screen, see? No, left. No, on the right side of your screen, so I'm pointing right 'cause it's mirror words ... mirror-

Linda: Is it?

Katrina Ruth: You know. Like if I point to our left then it's gonna point to their right. See? And see the little stickers?

Linda: They look like witches.

Katrina Ruth: They are. That's why I always call them devil Katrinas. Whenever I see them, I'm like, "Look at the devil Katrinas.

Katrina Ruth: Leah, we were completely above board last night. We'd had no alcoholic beverages.

Linda: None.

Katrina Ruth: Actually, it's true because the livestream crossed over past midnight, so we were completely sober for that day because you reset your soberness at midnight right?

Linda: I even got told off because I had a proper training tonight and I should be fresh.

Katrina Ruth: Oh my God. That's true, you did.

Linda: I did. I was so very serious on my training. It was incredible.

Katrina Ruth: So, I was gonna make an amazing point. It was really just for me and not for anyone else, but still I wanna get back to it. It was, I think, maybe the reason I just told all of that to Facebook, about my sexual needs ... was maybe it means I meant to express it in a more open way in general.

Linda: Maybe. Is that what you'd want to take out of it?

Katrina Ruth: I think I already do.

Linda: Like what you wanna teach yourself about that situation. About that concept.

Katrina Ruth: I don't know. I think I express myself quite well. I don't know why it came out.

Linda: Love it.

Katrina Ruth: Maybe it wasn't that bad after all. I'm not gonna watch the replay just in case, because I have a personal rule that ... well, the problem ...

Katrina Ruth: Blake says he missed my sexual needs. Please tell more. You've exactly hit the nail on the head. Everybody's been missing my sexual needs.

Katrina Ruth: Well, what I had said was that I don't understand why I'm having four amazing conversations but none of them are on the Gold Coast. They're all in other places around the world.

Linda: 'cause you've created it somehow.

Katrina Ruth: But one's here in Brisbane and it's only an hour away but still, it's fucking Brisbane.

Linda: Owning it too. I wonder why you created that/

Katrina Ruth: And then the recap version was that Linda in her wisdom and profoundness had said ... and when I said, "Why am I creating sexual resistance?" She said, "Maybe it's 'cause you don't really wanna have sex with them, which I found an annoying because it might be true.

Linda: Well. Well.

Katrina Ruth: I'm not sure if it is true.

Linda: I do say really fascinating and smart things. You know fascinating things come out of my mouth all the time. All the time.

Katrina Ruth: I've gotta go to Brisbane tomorrow anyway. I have to go there to see a car.

Linda: What are you doing there?

Katrina Ruth: I gotta go see a car. That's a true story. You know that. That's a true, above board story.

Linda: There's lots of cars.

Katrina Ruth: No. That car is in Brisbane.

Linda: Okay.

Katrina Ruth: The exact one happens to be in the same suburb where somebody lives, which is a coincidence.

Katrina Ruth: "Subconsciously you may be revealing." Linda is always fucking right. This is the problem when you have [crosstalk 00:35:47].

Linda: Did you hear that? Did you hear that? Can you do a [inaudible 00:35:49] of that?

Katrina Ruth: Could you just clip it out and have her repeat it like a 100 times?

Linda: Yes. I will. I'm gonna call your team.

Katrina Ruth: Don't worry, I'm always right as well. Oh I will get on a plane, don't worry. I'll get on a fucking plane. No doubt.

Linda: [inaudible 00:36:03] steak on your cheek.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. That's happened before for sure. No. I'm seeing the car anyway. I've gotta go buy a car. It's like a James Bond car.

Linda: Is it the one you sent me?

Katrina Ruth: It's the Mercedes convertible that I was looking at in the [inaudible 00:36:20] the other day, but they had the black one on the Gold Coast, and they've got this gun metal grey one in Brisbane. It looks amazing. It looks like a spy car. So, I'm gonna go look at it. That's a true story.

Linda: Like a James Bond car.

Katrina Ruth: It's a legitimate non sexual story. I'm not even joking. That's why I'm going-

Linda: For once.

Katrina Ruth: It's not ... for once. For once. Listen to her. [inaudible 00:36:43].

Linda: I get all the stories behind the scenes, that's why I say for once.

Katrina Ruth: Somebody's gotta hear the stories, don't they? It's true. Shotgun. "Yeah, this guy's bad ass." That's right, we forgot about the guy with the gun.

Linda: Brandon.

Katrina Ruth: What was the resolve comment about? I don't wanna get the car in gold. It should be in pink except I'm already pretty ...

Linda: You did speak about a pink car.

Katrina Ruth: I can't drive around town in a pink Mercedes convertible because everybody would know where I am all the time. I'm already standing out enough as it is. Don't you think?

Linda: Well, you keep breaking the internet every day.

Katrina Ruth: It's too much too muchness.

Katrina Ruth: "You should have your stickers if you're on your mobile phone. If you're on your desktop then you won't."

Katrina Ruth: Brandon wants to WhatsApp you.

Linda: What's up?

Katrina Ruth: He said what's up.

Linda: What's up man.

Katrina Ruth: He said that's what's up.

Linda: That's what's up.

Katrina Ruth: Do you think there's something about [inaudible 00:37:38] energy where we raise the temperature? Because last night I started sweating when we were on the live stream together and now I'm getting over heated again?

Linda: Maybe.

Katrina Ruth: It never happens on my own normal live streams. I'm like, holy shit.

Linda: Gotta put my hair up and take my scarf off.

Katrina Ruth: Just so we know, just to maintain a little bit of control back, I'm always right as well. Just so that everybody is aware.

Linda: All of us are always right, aren't we?

Katrina Ruth: That is true. That's a great point.

Linda: According to our truths, we're always right.

Katrina Ruth: That's an excellent point. She nailed. It.

Linda: See? I told you just fascinating stuff just starts dribbling out of my mouth. I can't help that.

Katrina Ruth: That's so good.

Linda: It's just-

Katrina Ruth: I think you can find a better way to dribble it.

Katrina Ruth: Fascinating stuff keeps dribbling out of your mouth. It evolves out of you in an essentially conscious manner.

Katrina Ruth: Somebody said super flow. I think it just kicked in. [inaudible 00:38:34], delivered.

Katrina Ruth: Now I have to take my pants off. I'm getting really hot. Do I have any pants under this?

Linda: Wouldn't surprise me. You do.

Katrina Ruth: I'm taking my pants off.

Linda: She's taking her pants off. Should I take my pants off too?

Katrina Ruth: It's really hot.

Linda: I can't take mine ...

Katrina Ruth: I'm boiling.

Linda: I'm not wearing ... I'm just wearing undies.

Katrina Ruth: I'm burning up.

Linda: I'm just wearing undies. I'm wearing the same colour.

Katrina Ruth: Alright. Well, I put on clothing in order to get on the live stream, but I've got my pyjama shorts on underneath. Clam down. Everybody is just ... calm your tits.

Linda: Now we're just talking about tits because your obsessed. Obsessed.

Katrina Ruth: Look. You didn't even see my new bra.

Linda: That's amazing.

Katrina Ruth: That's one of the ones that I got yesterday.

Linda: I like it.

Katrina Ruth: It's incredible, isn't it?

Linda: Yeah. Have you shown them?

Katrina Ruth: Nope. Won't. Won't.

Linda: I get the goods. I'm so lucky.

Katrina Ruth: I got a message earlier from one of my amazing men who said to me, "Why have we not seen your new breast yet?" And I said, "We? Do you mean the royal we? Who's we?" I said, "Well, I suppose you can see them shortly on the live stream [inaudible 00:39:49]."

Katrina Ruth: "Turn your phone ..." No. I won't.

Linda: No.

Katrina Ruth: Inappropriate. What?

Linda: What?

Katrina Ruth: [crosstalk 00:40:00] my whole breast a live stream?

Linda: Was there even something in your existence that there is something called inappropriate?

Katrina Ruth: I'm gonna save them for the people that get to see them.

Linda: Okay.

Katrina Ruth: Which is basically every single woman that I know who's just grabbed hold of them since I've got them, apparently.

Linda: I know. The next day I got ... no. When did I ... I came back and you were like, "Look."

Katrina Ruth: You were straight in there. You were just like, "Oh yeah." I think you actually said, "Oh yeah."

Linda: I'm like, "Oh yeah." They're great.

Katrina Ruth: I was like, just standing casually in the kitchen as you do.

Linda: It was amazing.

Katrina Ruth: "Are you trying to help them find Kat emojis?" I thought it was a conversation about boobs.

Linda: We need to put some boob emojis in there as well 'cause everyone wants to see them, and everyone wants to squeeze them, so people can just send you some boos.

Katrina Ruth: You're supposed to squeeze them. You're supposed to squeeze them upwards.

Linda: But I think that's a great idea. Tell your team. So people can just give you booby grabs.

Katrina Ruth: They do anyway. I don't need to tell them. They do it everywhere I go.

Katrina Ruth: "Tell the team."

Katrina Ruth: Hang on, we were saying something important. You were saying-

Linda: Everything is important.

Katrina Ruth: You were saying you're always right, which is an excellent point.

Linda: So are you.

Katrina Ruth: Thank you.

Linda: And so are you.

Katrina Ruth: Thank you. I'm saying thank you for them.

Katrina Ruth: You can send your own thank yous though.

Katrina Ruth: It's true. Doesn't it make life just fabulously easy if you're always right?

Linda: Yeah. Of course.

Katrina Ruth: It means that I didn't do anything embarrassing or stupid after all about what I said. It means it was exactly what I was meant to say. Confessional. As if it's a fucking secret anyway.

Linda: The boobs?

Katrina Ruth: No, that I really am kind of, only mainly interested in one person.

Linda: But I would've noticed.

Katrina Ruth: Which bit?

Linda: The boos. I think anyone would've noticed even-

Katrina Ruth: I was talking about the men.

Linda: Oh the men, right. I thought you meant you weren't gonna tell anybody you got boobs done. I'm like, well, people would probably notice anyway.

Katrina Ruth: No. Not that bit. I was talking about it's not a secret about the men stuff. What you said.

Linda: Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: But I still maintain that I ... that maybe ... I don't know. I'm stopping right there.

Katrina Ruth: But you're definitely always right. I'm coming back to that.

Linda: I like that. I've been talking about that all night. I'm always right.

Katrina Ruth: We've been ... Have you? On your training?

Linda: Oh no.

Katrina Ruth: Or just in general?

Linda: I could ...

Katrina Ruth: We've been talking about that for months though. We've been saying that it's literally impossible to screw anything up because you are always right.

Katrina Ruth: Well, I journal that every day. Every day I write I always make the right decision and everything always works out perfectly for me.

Linda: Same. Exactly.

Katrina Ruth: So, then every time I do something where I'm like, Oh my God I will literally ... you should've seen be earlier, I was like. I can't believe I just said that. Why did I say that? I only had two sips of wine as well. I was like, "What the fuck just happened?"

Linda: You can't blame it on the wine though.

Katrina Ruth: And I have a rule that I won't delete content online as well. I used to do it a few times. We talked about that stuff yesterday.

Linda: Yeah we did.

Katrina Ruth: But I did use to do that some years back when I would feel or self conscious about how I put myself out there. Now I have a personal rule that I will just not delete content no matter what. So, I won't delete the live stream even though it could be watched.

Katrina Ruth: So, therefore I trust that it was exactly what I was meant to say.

Linda: Yeah, of course.

Katrina Ruth: I never screw anything up. And everything ... And did I say that everything works out perfectly [inaudible 00:43:15]?

Linda: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. I always-

Linda: That's my belief now.

Katrina Ruth: I always make ... It is so [inaudible 00:43:21].

Katrina Ruth: "I can't see them sideways either." I don't know. I can't help you.

Linda: Which ones? The boobies?

Katrina Ruth: The devil Katrinas. I think she means the devil Katrinas.

Linda: Boobies or the devils?

Katrina Ruth: No. The angelic boobies, devil Katrinas. Two different things.

Katrina Ruth: I started to look [inaudible 00:43:38] two or three years ago. I chose it. You know you get to choose your beliefs people. You just get to choose them.

Linda: I like to [inaudible 00:43:44] but I've never done before. I wanna take a photo of that.

Katrina Ruth: Take a photo of [inaudible 00:43:47]. Yeah. Great. Why don't you live stream the live stream?

Linda: I should.

Katrina Ruth: So, I started to look [inaudible 00:43:55] a few years ago but I always make the right decision, everything always works out perfectly for me, I'm on my [inaudible 00:44:02] times, stuff like that, right? [inaudible 00:44:07] and at first it was like, it'd be cool if you believed that or it'd be nice if you believed that, or yeah I can, sort of, maybe start to believe that.

Katrina Ruth: Now I 100% fully, completely do believe it. So, even though I feel like I just was very vulnerable and exposed myself, and was a next level idiot beyond what I normally am, I've already [crosstalk 00:44:26].

Linda: Is that even possible?

Katrina Ruth: I can't discard any levels of idiocy and clownliness. Clownlyness everyday. But I don't really mean it about the idiocy. I've already shifted it and reframed it, and I'm already like, "Oh well, clearly that was exactly what I was meant to say tonight, and everything's perfect.

Linda: Everything's always perfect. All the time.

Katrina Ruth: Maybe not only will I be okay with this live stream replay [inaudible 00:44:49] maybe I'll just deliberately point it out.

Linda: Maybe. Send it. Sent it. To the Gods.

Katrina Ruth: To somebody.

Katrina Ruth: Anyway, what say you?

Linda: Pardon?

Katrina Ruth: What would you like to say? Speak up.

Linda: Speak up?

Katrina Ruth: Address the room.

Linda: Address the room.

Katrina Ruth: Sorry I didn't have any wine to offer you...

Linda: That's right, where's my wine?

Katrina Ruth: You drank the whole bottle.

Linda: I don't know but-

Katrina Ruth: She doesn't drink red wine.

Linda: I don't even normally drink much.

Katrina Ruth: That's true. She doesn't. That is true.

Linda: And I had a whole bottle of wine last night.

Katrina Ruth: Well, yeah. And she doesn't drink red wine. I have enough red wine in here that I could open my own store. I have a seller's worth. Of course, I can't really offer her any though.

Linda: It's really odd. I've never even had half a glass of red wine in my life.

Katrina Ruth: I'll get some more to make up for it.

Linda: Oh for me?

Katrina Ruth: Linda has something very profound to tell you. No, for me.

Linda: But what about me?

Katrina Ruth: What am I gonna get you? Champaign?

Linda: Surprise me.

Linda: Out on something really funky and come back.

Katrina Ruth: Put on something funky?

Linda: I mean, take off what you have on and-

Katrina Ruth: What? What's happening?

Linda: I don't know what's happening.

Katrina Ruth: You're just ordering me around.

Linda: Do you really trust me on your life with your people?

Katrina Ruth: Yeah.

Linda: You never know 'cause I never know what's gonna come out of my mouth next. I never know what I'm gonna do next.

Katrina Ruth: I'm not getting changed.

Linda: You know a lot of people always ask me, "What the hell? Where are you gonna go next? What are you gonna do next? I can't keep up." Well, I can't keep up what I'm doing next. I never ever know.

Linda: "Call for red." I don't know. You know what red wine really tastes like to me? Like sour milk. I'm not-

Katrina Ruth: Would you like a potato? I can bring you a potato.

Linda: No. I don't want a potato.

Katrina Ruth: I brought you some kombucha. I've put some [crosstalk 00:46:44].

Linda: I don't like that.

Katrina Ruth: I put apple cider vinegar in there just for you.

Linda: Oh my God.

Katrina Ruth: I just mixed some healthy things together. You don't like kombucha?

Linda: No.

Katrina Ruth: Take it away.

Linda: Fermented-

Katrina Ruth: The queen has spoken.

Linda: Apple cider vinegar and kombucha, I'm like ...

Katrina Ruth: I don't like kombucha either but [inaudible 00:46:59] and Kelly left it here, so somebody had to have it.

Katrina Ruth: Alright. Well, what do you want then?

Linda: I don't know. I'll go and find my way.

Katrina Ruth: Okay. Hang on. I'm gonna [inaudible 00:47:08].

Linda: What is my work about? My work on my work? Which work?

Katrina Ruth: The work.

Linda: The work.

Katrina Ruth: Oh the work.

Linda: oh the work. Remember that?

Katrina Ruth: What was that? That was like, "We want them to do the work." Oh that's right you've gone, "I want this, this, this, and this, and I want him to do the work." And I'm like, "What work Linda?" "Oh the work."

Linda: Oh, the work.

Katrina Ruth: That was over a year ago.

Linda: That was over a year ago.

Katrina Ruth: And then you manifested it like a motherfucker.

Linda: I did.

Katrina Ruth: And that was the same manner I manifested ... you know ... the Brisbane situation.

Linda: Boob side profile.

Katrina Ruth: My hair is in the way. I keep the hair there on purpose to keep it gentile.

Linda: Are we going all conservative now?

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. I'm super conservative. I'm known for ... Can I tell you something?

Linda: What happened?

Katrina Ruth: Can I tell you something that-

Linda: What happened inside that head? Please.

Katrina Ruth: I'm gonna tell you something that's gonna shock you.

Linda: Tell me.

Katrina Ruth: And you're gonna be upset. I think I'm on [inaudible 00:48:16].

Linda: Oh really?

Katrina Ruth: So, when I was taking the Mercedes convertible thing for a test drive the other day, we're driving along and the car sales man says to me, "You're in quite the conservative mode, aren't you?"

Linda: You told me.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. And I'm like, "Excuse me?"

Linda: I'm not conservative at all.

Katrina Ruth: I'm like, "Conservative mode?" He's like, "No. I mean the car. There's conservative mode, and sports mode," and I'm like, "Okay."

Linda: You were almost offended.

Katrina Ruth: I nearly threw something ... Well, I was driving the car, so I couldn't really do much about it. I thought that he was referring to me as being in conservative mode.

Katrina Ruth: Alright. Well-

Linda: How have I ended up with this?

Katrina Ruth: 'Cause I gave you the opportunity to be the speaker.

Katrina Ruth: Do you know what resolve is really about? I thought I was gonna come on and speak about resolve, and stay in power, but I already wrote a blog about that when you were upstairs.

Linda: Yeah. Where are you going with resolve?

Katrina Ruth: Well, I wrote a blog about it. You know the little conversation we had when you sat down when I was eating dinner?

Linda: Dinner? Tonight?

Katrina Ruth: About staying the course, and holding out for what you really want that's inside of you. I wrote a really good blog about that, it's on my personal page. I wrote that when you went upstairs. I'm very happy with it. So, then I went to do nearly the same topic again for the live stream, which was obviously a silly idea 'cause I don't need to-

Linda: That's alright. [inaudible 00:49:40].

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. But I've kind of already done it now, which is probably why my mouth just opened itself like a big flapper and just said random shit that I normally wouldn't say.

Linda: And you just dribbled things out.

Katrina Ruth: Dribbled it out. Just dribbled it out onto the internet.

Linda: That's amusing now.

Katrina Ruth: But now ... Thank you Ella about the blog. I was really happy with it actually. I edited it about 18 times while I was in bed upstairs with the kids after they had fallen asleep. And now here we are, but now what I realise what resolve is about is having the resolve to be unapologetically you all the time even when you're saying something where even as you're saying it you're like, "Just shut up, just stop right there. Do not go one word further."

Linda: No filter.

Katrina Ruth: And then you keep going. And that's ... Well, there you go, you're either being all that you are or you're not. You're either speaking the truth or you've got a mask on. There's no grey area.

Linda: But that's the thing. We were talking about masks yesterday. We were talking about being unapologetically you. What's the point even being someone else 'cause you're not living your own life.

Katrina Ruth: Exactly.

Linda: What's the point about that?

Katrina Ruth: But it's a constant [inaudible 00:50:48], isn't it? Because we're both so committed to being unapologetically ourselves, and we both really seek to be transparent online and to speak our truth, and we do. We both message so authentically. But yet you still continue to notice, day by day areas where you're holding back.

Linda: Like yesterday. Oh my God this moment.

Katrina Ruth: Right.

Linda: And I shared it on that live stream yesterday [inaudible 00:51:10].

Katrina Ruth: Yes. That you shared ... you've gotta watch the cape live stream from yesterday if you missed it 'cause Linda shared about that. But even like what I was saying earlier and then like, "Fuck, why am I saying this?" And then it's like, but I'm just saying the truth, but it was like the next level of vulnerability or an area that I wouldn't normally quite confess to.

Katrina Ruth: And then you notice that though and the problem is ... here's the problem ... it's not really a problem but it can feel like a problem. The problem is-

Linda: I remember once you said something on an audio, "The problem is that I don't have a problem." Or something. Wasn't it something along the lines?

Katrina Ruth: No. I think I said my only problem is that I think I have a problem.

Linda: Okay. [crosstalk 00:51:46].

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. So, the problem is, what I said earlier on this training, which I'm still like, "Oh my God, I can't believe I said that, that was so stupid. Or embarrassing, or whatever," that now that I've said it thought, I've made myself aware of an area where I wants being fully transparent. Because before I said it I was like, "La, di, da. I'm totally open. I'm authentic as fuck."

Linda: As fuck.

Katrina Ruth: "I'm the most authentic person on the internet. I tell all the things, I say all the things." And then your mouth is like, "We'll just see about that bitch. How about this one thing that you haven't told anybody?" And then it just pops out.

Linda: It dribbles out.

Katrina Ruth: My soul just [inaudible 00:52:27] it forth without any prior permission. There was no application put in, is it okay that we speak about this? The soul just does what it wants. So then once it's come out you can't un-know now. I can't take that back. Not that I would, but I now can't un-know. I'm not conscious in a way like, "Oh shit. Here's an area where I've been, kinda, sort of, pretending," but I was buying ... you know you buy into your own bullshit?

Linda: Oh yeah. It was fun.

Katrina Ruth: Because I would never, and you would never consciously not be transparent. We're always transparent, but it's just a never fucking ending process of dropping into deeper layers of transparency and authenticity.

Linda: There's always another lever. Always another layer. It's like I'm finally fully connected to self. I'm finally totally owning every part of me and being me unapologetically, then there's another layer like steak slap almost that just surprises you, goes, "Holy shit. I didn't even know that was there. I didn't know that about myself that that was there.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah.

Linda: And then you wanna share it.

Katrina Ruth: And then once you know though, you can't un-know. And then once you've spoken about it to your audience that's saying you've brought an opposite topic of conversation, then it's like ... sorry, I'm standing on your scarf somehow ... then it's like the doors are open and then the flood gates are open, and it's like, "Well, shall we now continue to talk about this? Maybe, maybe not." But either way it's open.

Linda: It's open.

Katrina Ruth: It's a new level of transparency.

Linda: Once you opened the can of worms you can't ...

Katrina Ruth: The worms are coming out. They just come out. They just go everywhere. All throughout the whole house. It's disgusting.

Linda: You're disgusting, talking about worms.

Katrina Ruth: You brought it up. What?

Linda: What?

Katrina Ruth: Well, so I think resolve is the resolve to be unapologetically you. It takes courage. It takes a massive fucking amount of courage to remain ... Well to remain ... it takes a massive amount of courage to decide to be all that you are and to share that with the world.

Linda: It does.

Katrina Ruth: But then it takes a massive amount of ongoing courage to continue to be you because particularly when we are growth oriented we are always ... there's always new areas of vulnerability to go to.

Linda: 100%.

Katrina Ruth: And there's always gonna be an element of resistance around, "Do I really wanna share that with the world?"

Linda: It is an ongoing process.

Katrina Ruth: But I don't think you have to share everything. I don't think there's a rule that you've gotta share every single thing as a messenger, right?

Linda: No. Not everything.

Katrina Ruth: I think [inaudible 00:55:00] what comes out needs to come out. That's my personal rule.

Linda: And the things that you wanna share but that you might find an element of, "I'm a bit afraid to share that," but you know that you wanted to share it but you're afraid of that, that's what you should definitely share.

Katrina Ruth: Totally. You always know what you're meant to share. Often times clients will tell me about a situation in their life that's very vulnerable, or very intimate, or whatever it might be. And they'll say, "Should I write about this? Because I'm not being authentic if I don't write about it or something like that." And I'm like, "Well, no. There's not a rule that you have to share all your shit. That's not a rule." To me personally ... well, [inaudible 00:55:36], but for me personally the rule is, if it's coming out of me like it wants ... if it's dribbling out as Linda would say ... I prefer to say if it's being unleashed, I think it sounds more bad ass than dribbling ... if it's unleashing itself, if it wants to share itself, like I look at the message as its own entity, right?

Linda: Entity?

Katrina Ruth: Like it starts to come out of you. Like that just came out of me. I was like, "Stop. Stop." I was like a zip up emoji but it didn't work. It just went-

Linda: As if you even have a filter on you. You don't have a filter on you.

Katrina Ruth: I never said that before.

Linda: I don't think you do. Does she? I don't know. I don't hang around with her every live stream.

Katrina Ruth: I say some [inaudible 00:56:16].

Linda: But I hear it all behind the scenes.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. You do.

Katrina Ruth: I say some pretty full on shit.

Linda: I'm like, she does not have a filter.

Katrina Ruth: That exact particular area I've somewhat got it in what I say or don't say. For reasons. But I think that my rule is that once it starts to come out, I have to get out of the way and let it out. My job is to be the vessel, not to be in charge of which bit of the message gets to come out. So, I'm not gonna ever deliberately make myself say something just because I could. I'm not like, let me write down all my inner most shit every day and then share it with the internet. No. I just share what comes out.

Katrina Ruth: So, then if a new area of vulnerability starts to present itself to the world, and dribbles forth, than my job is to get out of the way and let it, and shut the fuck up and let it.

Linda: See? It is dribble.

Katrina Ruth: Dribble. It's a true thing.

Linda: It just comes out.

Katrina Ruth: I wouldn't have built this business if I didn't learn to get out of my own way and let the message be the message. I say it to my clients all the time, "Let the message be the message. Let the art be the art. You don't decide."

Linda: You're just the messenger.

Katrina Ruth: You are. You are. You don't decide, "Is that an appropriate message or should I say that, or can I say that?"

Linda: Hi beautiful Claire.

Katrina Ruth: You let it out.

Katrina Ruth: Hello. I already said hello to you but hello again.

Linda: Claire you were on my live feed earlier, on my training earlier. And now you're here.

Katrina Ruth: She said that.

Linda: We just swap from one thing to another.

Katrina Ruth: She was saying that when you first came down.

Linda: That's so cool. That training was so good.

Katrina Ruth: Bad ass.

Linda: That was bad ass.

Katrina Ruth: Well ...

Linda: There's a lot od dribble that came out, in and out on that one.

Katrina Ruth: There you go. Resolve to be unapologetically you. That's my message for you this evening.

Linda: We got there in the end.

Katrina Ruth: I got there in the end. I revealed many things that I had no intention of revealing. Feel a little exposed, but it's nothing new. It's just what I'm here for. I'm merely here to serve and to apparently just reveal my most inner most shit to the internet for the entertainment of everybody else. So, I hope you appreciated it.

Katrina Ruth: You can send me gifts. It's PO BOX 861, Surfers Paradise, Queensland 4217.

Linda: She's actually serious too.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. Everybody does. I like bordeaux, Guylian Seashell chocolates ...

Linda: [inaudible 00:58:45].

Katrina Ruth: I got a lot of that. You already gave me some last week.

Linda: Almond butter.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah.

Linda: Peanut butter.

Katrina Ruth: Peanut butter I'm not supposed to have too much but it is good.

Linda: But certain brands.

Katrina Ruth: I feel like I could have a new cape at some point.

Linda: Do you have chocolate?

Katrina Ruth: We didn't have that much ... there might be a box of Guylians Seashells in the bedside drawer of your bedroom upstairs actually from when I was sleeping in there the other week.

Linda: Oh. I know her dirty secrets.

Katrina Ruth: What else do I like? What would I like for a gift?

Linda: Onions.

Katrina Ruth: No fucking onions.

Linda: No onions.

Katrina Ruth: Send a criovacced fillet. Buffalo. I'd like some bison. Send some freaking Canadian meat please. We got plenty of sweets here already.

Linda: What kind of meat are we talking about?

Katrina Ruth: Bison. Brandon sent me a bison. Send it criovacced, or whatever the word is. You know where it's shrink wrapped.

Linda: You're asking me meet questions?

Katrina Ruth: I'm sorry.

Linda: How dare you?

Katrina Ruth: I'll take some bordeaux, some seashell chocolates, I'll take a bison, please have it sliced first, I don't wanna have to deal with that, and I'll take another cape.

Linda: There's one here.

Katrina Ruth: Rainbow colour like Josephs technicolour dream coat. And I need a new sceptre. This one's looking wonky.

Linda: Is that what's it's called?

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. It's a sceptre.

Linda: I didn't know that.

Katrina Ruth: It looks a little wonky.

Linda: English is my third language, so I'm still learning.

Katrina Ruth: Third?

Linda: Mm-hmm (affirmative)-

Katrina Ruth: What's the second one then?

Linda: Swedish is first.

Katrina Ruth: Oh Swedish.

Linda: Yeah. I went to a Swedish school and Finnish is second. English is third.

Katrina Ruth: English is my first language. I have other languages too.

Linda: Like?

Katrina Ruth: Nobody knows I speak other languages. I'm listening to you always when you're speaking and you think I can't understand you. I'm reading your sales pages too in your other languages. I know many things. Many things.

Linda: She speaks the language of the soul.

Katrina Ruth: And I would like ... I would really like a purple MacBook. This is rose gold, which is quite nice.

Linda: Is there a purple one?

Katrina Ruth: Somebody can organise it for me, I think. Can somebody organise it? I want a purple one to match all my purple.

Linda: Well, you can have anything you want.

Katrina Ruth: Hot pink as well. I want a hot ... Somebody send me a hot pink MacBook, PO BOX 861 Surfers Paradise, Queensland 4217, and I'll take a purple one.

Linda: Can you just send it ... can we order two? I'd like one too.

Katrina Ruth: Linda wants one too.

Linda: I want a purple one too.

Katrina Ruth: "What about a sequin dress?" They're scratchy, but I've got that silver one that I wore on my photo shoot [crosstalk 01:01:12].

Linda: That was hot.

Katrina Ruth: That's upstairs stuffed into a small bag.

Linda: That was amazing. It was like this almost.

Katrina Ruth: It's more bling bling. I feel like there's one important gift that I'm missing.

Linda: A man?

Katrina Ruth: No. I already know exactly where that is, don't worry. That's it then. I'm gonna go. I'm gonna go check my PO BOX and see what gifts I've received.

Katrina Ruth: Alright. Well, I feel like we covered nothing at all that we intended to but as normal it was amazing. Please read the pinned comment if you like to learn how to do business like this. I don't know if it was the best advertisement ever. Do read the pinned comment, read about everything.

Linda: Just do whatever you want.

Katrina Ruth: Have an amazing rest of the day. We're gonna go and talk about many things about ya know.

Katrina Ruth: Don't forget, life is now, press play.

Linda: Bye bye.

Is it very late here? Apparently, it's 11:49 PM. I don't know how late that is. I was going to go to bed. I was thinking about going to bed. I took my ... well, livestreaming costume off and I put my pyjamas back on, said, goddess vibes but I didn't really care for its vibes of the T-shirt. So, I didn't think it should be on the camera. And then I ate some ... Leo, don't get angry, but I ate some peanut butter. Linda tried to stop me. It was not successful. I ate the peanut butter with a banana, if anyone's wondering why she tried to stop me because in theory, I'm allergic to it. But I decided that I haven't had any for several months and that I should test it out again. And so far, I feel good. So I think it's working for me. Have that, had a banana. She ... can I say what you ate? I'm saying it anyway.

Go for it.

This is supposed to be a very serious Q&A about my Millionaire Mastermind so that everyone signs up and joins the Millionaire Mastermind before the founding members deal closes in 12 hours and 10 minutes. Linda ate cheese with peanut butter on it. What is happening in the world? She denied so to it which I found somewhat of a higher social standing at least she added some salt. Has anybody else in the world ever eaten cheese with peanut butter on it? Is that a thing? I actually got ... I told her this as well. When I find my friends trigger me, I tell them straight up, straight up from the gate up, I told that, "You're triggering me right now because I feel that your food taste might be even more bizarre than mine and it's making me feel upset." I just couldn't do it. She offered it to me and I couldn't do it. They say never. They say, "You should never eat that."

Why?

Why. She says, "Why?" She says, "I'll do it." I fucking won't. She didn't say that.

[inaudible 00:06:53].

Okay. She did say it. She just said it right then. She's very busy working. Let's not interrupt her. I was going to go to bed and then she was like, "Well, I'm going to be out for hours working, anyway." I was like, "Fine," and I had some more peanut butter and here I am, and that's why we're live. You can thank Linda and the cheese and bizarre peanut butter, cheese eating habits that she has there.

[inaudible 00:07:14].

She couldn't do. You do feature a lot of our lives. Your name and Patrick's name gets dropped on to nearly every livestream. We haven't mentioned him yet except that we just mentioned him right then. But most of the time, Linda gets mentioned and Patrick gets mentioned. Other people get mentioned also. Anyhow, for all you know, she's not even there and I'm just putting on a whole show pretending that there's somebody there. Maybe I recorded her voice earlier and, now, I'm playing it back like I'm Ferris Bueller's Day Off. Great. Great. Okay. Angela says she doesn't judge but cheese and peanut butter was so not touch her tongue. Everybody just calm the fuck down. This is supposed to be a sales livestream. I'm going to sell to you now. Sit up and pay attention. Focus. I told you, this won't be silly at all.

How did it go my High Vibe Mastermind for you? High Vibe Middle ... what's a called? Let me read my sales page. High Vibe As Fuck Millionaire Mastermind is here. How to know? Well, I feel like I just gave a perfectly complete demonstration of how to know whether or not I'm for you. If you're maybe compelled and fascinated but a little bit horrified, then it's definitely for you. If you can't look away even though you find it quite offensive, then it's even more for you. If you just want some cheese with peanut butter on it, you're going to have to talk to Linda about that. I can't help you. But I do have cheese and I do have peanut butter, but I'm not giving it to you. I won't put my name and my brand to anything like that sort of behaviour. I won't do it and you can't make me.

What were we up to? I don't think ... stop filming me in the background. Hello. What are you filming over there? All right, this is serious business. This is serious internet business. We're here to make money on the internet. We're here to tell people things that they should buy. What questions do you have about the Millionaire Mastermind? Send them to me. Give them to me. I'll be very serious now. I did want to say a few things that are actually important. I wanted to address some concerns. Can I address one concern before I go really silly again because I don't know when I'm going to be out like how long I can stay in serious mode for. I'm not sure why it's happening. It just comes out. I mean, blame that peanut butter and Linda combined together.

All right, all right, right. That would be a good time for somebody to do an accent. Kat, fix before bed. I'm pretty impressed with myself that so many people are on this livestream when I straight up called it a sales livestream in the description of it. Now, I'm not remotely talking about what I said I would, standard. So, how do you know if my High Vibe As Fuck Millionaire Mastermind is for you? How? You, guys, should answer the question to me. Type the answer and how do you know if it's for you. Your questions answered. If you have a question for me, ask it to me. I'll leave an answer. I promise that I will, no matter what it is. Don't ask me weird cheese peanut butter questions, so I have no answers about that. It's one of those mysteries of the universe that you can't actually explain and you're probably not supposed to know. It would be for your own safety to not know.

Anyway, I did have a thing that I wanted to say. I feel like it's going to be boring now and I shouldn't say it. But in case somebody's listening that needs to hear it, the truth is how do you know if it's for you, you know because yourself tells you. Why am I even talking about this? I was just on the phone with one of my clients who makes several hundreds of thousands of dollars, pounds, kicking her ass, she was loving it. She sent me a voice ... sorry, a text message back afterwards and said she's done four miles of laps around her apartment from speaking to me and she's all fired up. One of the things we poke about was why the fuck ... wait, well, we didn't say it this way, but I'm going to say it this way. Why would we need to talk about whether or not it's for you? Why are we talking about this? This was a stupid topic idea. I retract it. I'm going to change the topic except my desktop won't let me.

But one thing I will say even though I'm bored with myself already for saying it, if you're just starting out ... okay, tell me, Kit Kat, how do I know if it's for me. Listen, if you're going to refer to me as Kit Kat then I'd prefer Kitty Kat, Kitty Kat, not just Kit Kat, all right, because I don't really like Kit Kats, the chocolates, because one time I bought one in Bali that I thought was mint flavoured and it was green tea. Have you ever heard of a ... I'm not even making this up. It was a green tea flavoured Kit Kat. I mean, I don't know what to do with that. So, I won't be called Kit Kat. I'll go with Kitty Kat.

How do you know if it's for you? You know because I reached into your motherfucking soul and I charged it like a battery, like a car battery or like a flat tyre, like a double flat tyre, never heard of such a thing, but apparently, sometimes people hop over a curb and puncture two tyres at once. Sorry, somebody told me once and then I spent all day at the car dealership. What is that? I don't care for that money emoji, Angelo. It's ugly. What is that ugly money emoji there for? Why is the money emoji ugly? It looks like it's throwing up money. I don't find it appealing. Is it supposed to be attractive, because it's just like it's weird that it's throwing up money. So, somebody said a comment on the internet. It's a place where you be very serious then you sell things to people. I'm doing a perfect example of it right now.

Somebody said on this internet phrase today that ... what did they say, that they wanted to join the Millionaire Mastermind but they didn't even have an idea or a vision yet for their business so they couldn't join. I was like, "Hold the motherfucking phone. Why does somebody think they shouldn't join if they don't have an idea, which prompted me to do this livestream, which I'm now already bored with so I'm doing whatever I want with it, and we're having the best time ever. But, I guess, I wanted to address that and say, of course, you're going to join the Millionaire Mastermind if you don't have an idea. Would you rather spend 45 years not knowing what the fuck to do and having to figure out which courses to buy which mentors to follow, or would you rather just come in and have somebody reach into your soul from the get-go, and then you can unleash your vision into the world.

But the practical answer to the question is we teach you exactly how to build your business, exactly, from soul, from the ground up. It's not for established businesses and it is for established businesses. It's not about where you are in your business. It's about who you are as a person. Thank you, Carla. It was you. Well, it was a great question and I was like, "Shit, I didn't realise people thought that. I don't want people to think that," because we teach from all the things. I have people who have joined the Millionaire Mastermind, some people in there who already have businesses that are overdoing a million a year ... I don't think they're overdoing it. They're doing over a millionaire. They may or may not be over it. And then some people who are just starting out completely and that's always been the way in all my courses, by the way.

And so, there'd be some content where you're like, "I'm totally not needing that right now. I'm not up to that yet." But then it was all in the resource library anyhow so then you'll get it when you need to get to it. But because I'm doing all the visioning and the mindset work as well as the ninjas doing all the strategy, it all works perfectly and together. So there you go, I answered that question. What was the other question? Oh, it's a green ... it was puke from the green tea Kit Kat. I understand. Who the fuck thinks that a green tea Kit Kat is a good idea? Well, obviously, it must be popular in Bali I suppose so they wouldn't be selling it. And to add insult to injury, a green tea flares me up like nobody's business. Why can I not read these comments though? I know there was an actual question. So, if you haven't seen the Millionaire Mastermind, then I suppose it just means that you don't obsessively stalk and watch all my content in which case you probably shouldn't join it.

so if you haven't seen it, I'm going to assume it's not for you because if it is for you, you would have seen it. because I've been talking about it a lot and because if it is for you, really, you should add me on "See First" notifications and you should be watching me at the middle of the day, the end the day, and the start of the day, and any other time in between. Even if you're not watching me, you could just call me in into dreams and I'll dream coach you. I do it a lot and, apparently, it's free because nobody has fucking paid me for it so far, but they all message me about it in the morning and tell me. So whether or not you choose to access it, it's up to you.

Rachel says, "I'm in there but I'm going to chime in. If you follow Kat and participated in the programmes or even haven't, outrageous idea, what a chance to test it out." That is true because it's super low cheap. "And you have a business or plan to have one and you wanted me in a community of kick-ass high vibe people, it's the place for you." Thank you. That's true. It's all 100% accurate, or if you need to have an online business, you've set the intention people will beg you to sell to us and fuck us. That was a different programme where I said that people are going to beg you to fuck them. It was an accident that I said that. It just came out in my copy and I didn't notice until six days later that I'd put it as a benefit of the programme that people will beg you to fuck them.

My wording was all off. And then it happened anyway and people were posting sex testimonials into that break the internet group. It was outrageous and fabulous all at the same time. I am not making any of that up. I really did accidentally write it into my sales copy and I didn't realise till six days later. I was like appalled at myself. And then, all of a sudden, I was like, "But why has nobody told me this? Everybody's read it and nobody's told me. None of my staff even." I don't understand about that. What else do you need to know? I've already said this, but I'll say it again. I'm promising nothing. What you're going to get is nothing. I promise nothing. You're signing up and what will I give you? I don't know. I have no idea. I make no promises and I told no lies, but I tell many fabulous jokes, I think.

I will give you everything and nothing all at the same time. I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm going to come in from my soul like a rocket ship of energy and I'll unleash forth on to you whatever it is you need, and desire, and require. A lot of people were on my live training, that was the first live how do you do for the Millionaire Mastermind which happened a couple of hours back. How was it if you were there? It was so next level that I nearly vibrated through the roof of this high-rise building. I felt everybody's souls. There was definitely some randomness and some shenaniganry and a little bit of ... well, at one point, everybody in the comments was formulating a fucking band and saying that they were going to go to the Sydney Opera House and perform in a band together right when I was in the middle of some deep visioning work. So I'm still not quite sure what happened there.

But it was really freaking deep. We went deep. We went hard. We went all the way in, in a polite manner. And really what I'm doing is going to come in and create out of ... I'm not creating in fan out of you, actually, I will allow you ... help you is the best word, help you empower you, kick your ass to create forth from you whatever it is that you are supposed to be putting out there into the world. But I should say for those who are like, "Well, what the fuck even is it then? She's promising nothing." But delivering everything. It's the ninjas. I've never allowed the ninjas out of the ninja mansion before. Really, they do whatever the fuck they want. They wouldn't really be my team members and staff if they didn't, would they?

But in this particular programme, they are bringing all of their awesome gifts, and powers, and talents, and support for you. So, you'll love how I roll it on. Thank you. I can't possibly say your name though. I have no idea how to say that. So, yes, they are going to be teaching all of the strategy, all of the sales, all of the marketing, all of the advertising that we do at The Katrina Ruth Show. I might clown around. Okay, I do ... I might have too much fun. Definitely, there's not such a thing as too much fun. I always say to my kids, "Did you have fun today? Too much fun?" And it's a little in-house joke that we have. I don't know why it's so funny, actually, but it is. So I might definitely have too much fun.

I might be here, there, and everywhere. I'm rambling. I'm random, and then it flips into divine downloads from the soul, and I do the deep mindset work with you, and the deep soul and cellular shifting and that's just how it is. My team though, my team, they run things at The Katrina Ruth Show. I don't run a shit at The Katrina Ruth Show. I am the motherfucking show. What do I need to run things for. I'm sitting around, do what I want. I am the show. They, however, they do run the show. Now, here's a thing though, for me to build this business to where it is now, where it's making millions of dollars, yeah, I did run the show. I built the damn show. I built like all the little bits.

I did the floors. I did the ceilings. I did the in-between bits. I built the whole show and I ran the whole show. I was here, there, and everywhere and, well, all the hats and learn all the things, and I can do all the, all the, all the internet marketing things, and selling and tech things that you possibly could have known except for coding. That's one thing I never did learn. But all the other shit I could enjoy it. I used to do it all myself and that's how I built this business. Now, I have an amazing team. So I don't have to run around doing everything and I just be the show that I am. What that team do is they run things. They do the marketing. They do the advertising. They do this ... putting together of the sales offers, they're sending out of the sales offers. What else is there, even the social media leveraging, I don't know, a million other things.

Anything that you can imagine that gets done behind the scenes, or in front of the scenes, at a multi seven-figure online business. That's what the ninjas do. They also try very unsuccessfully to keep me in order. So, can't really teach that because they're not accomplished at it. But presumably, you're not trying to teach anybody to keep you in order. So they do many amazing marketing and selling things. They run things so that I can run so that I can be the thing. They do all the things that I did in the building phase of my business before I had this badass team. And so, what the Millionaire Mastermind is about is they are going to support you, and train you, and show you on all of those things.

Specifically what we're doing is that every month we have the report, the report for the High Vibe As Fuck Millionaire Mastermind which could come in video format, or fancy PDF format, or all manner of modes of delivery, whatever it is. But it shows you exactly what we did that month and exactly how we did it to create our revenue and income and all elements of that from the marketing, to frontal side of things if that was part of it, advertising, obviously, social media, et cetera, how we put it together, how we created it, how we figured out the idea, how we then unleashed ... I was going to say launched and then unleashed at the same time and it went into ... Unleashed it into the world, right?

Travis, what's up? How was your leg session? I did legs yesterday. It feels amazing, probably can't get up off this couch at the end of it. So, yes, that's what the report is about, exactly what we did and how we did it, and break down, swipe files, whatever it is so that you can duplicate it and roll it on out. So that happens every month. And then on top of that, on top of us showing you exactly what we did for that month to make our money and how we did it, and then like, "Here you go, just duplicate it if you like." On top of it, we also have all the trainings on all possible things that we do. So, you want to learn about Facebook ads? We got that training going on. You want to learn about automated email marketing, and funnels, and automated recurring income, we got that going on.

You want to learn how to create, and launch, and sell your own programmes? Of course, we got that going on. You want to know how to hire your own soulmate team members and how to attract and magnetising the perfect soulmate team members, and then what the fuck to do with them once you got them. We got that going on. Every different thing, social media, I mentioned already; tech stuff, live tech support, live Facebook support, I mean, I can just like sit here and let's talk so much different stuff. What I'm trying to impart you is, obviously, that we're giving you the ability to have your questions answered on every different part of online business, but also demonstrating, and showing you, and even working together with you to bring that to life. Not only will you be able to receive support and mentoring for me, when I float down from the clouds which is often enough I do say.

But you'll also be receiving it from my team the whole way through, right? This is a membership programme. So the way it works is that there's a monthly fee for that. That fee, that monthly fee will increase tomorrow at midday my time which is 12 hours minus eight minutes from now. So that's going to be 12:00 noon on Thursday, Brisbane time, which I believe will be 10:00 PM on Wednesday evening, New York, Eastern Standard Time, okay? Just so you know. After that, the countdown timer ends, the monthly membership rate increases by $100 to its actual rate. It's currently just kind of down for funding ... founding members, not only is it just kind of down for life right now but when you join in this next 12-hour period before the doors close, you're a pretty damn good scam artists. I haven't had a comment like that in a hundred years.

People reply as you will to John. I really have no time or intent for that. but it's quite amazing. Thank you, John. So, I can't believe I just got that comment but she doesn't even happen anymore. It's not in my experience or my reality, but thank you, anyway, for the somewhat backward compliment. So, yes, in 12 hours, that's right, that's what I was saying. The deal for the founding members is not only that you get for life $100 off, the ongoing price that goes up, goes up legitimately. It will never be that price again. That's legitimate. It's not a thing I'm saying, not a scam. Sorry, John. But for your first month, you're going to pay up like 16.66% total or something like that. I don't even know, some very low rate for the first month trial rate, trial rate for the first month so you can test it out, get all this insane stuff, be amongst the badassery.

We did the first live training already this evening several hours ago. The replay is in the group. The group is off the hook and it's really quite a lot of shenanigans going on in that group already that I certainly didn't authorise. And then we will close the doors tomorrow. The price goes immediately up. When we reopen the doors again at some point in time, it will not be back at this price because this is the founding members' price and that's not a thing I'm saying. So I want to be really clear on that because if you've been thinking about it ... okay, Linda Doctor, why are you watching my livestream from your phone when you're right over there? What's happening? But it's how it should be. People should be in another room in your own house and then they should still be watching you on a Facebook livestream. Are you going to leave a friendly comment for John? Is that what's happening?

I was going to.

Good, do it, do it. Okay, it's very friendly comment, there it is. [inaudible 00:27:07] in it. I feel that I've said all that I need to say, but does anyone have any questions? Why would you have any questions? Just sign the fuck up. But if you do have any questions, ask them to me, I won't mind. In fact, I enjoy getting the questions. In fact, I'm fascinated by the questions. I posted something today where a friend had audio'd me and shared some of the reasons why she felt unsure about working with me to do with feeling a little scared or feeling ... I don't know that I might be a meanie. She didn't say that. I'm paraphrasing. But also one of the things that she mentioned was how great it is that I've got the whole team in there, helping out and doing their content and their support and all that stuff because then she doesn't have to figure out where to learn about Facebook ads from, or where to learn about this, that, or the other thing from.

It's just like, "Oh, my god, I'm going to learn it from Kat's team and they're going to be able to actually answer my questions and help me out. So it is a really big deal. It is a big deal. It's something that I feel incredibly proud of and excited about. It is officially now underway. We've officially kicked off. When you sign up now, before the doors close in the next 12 hours, minus a little bit of time, minus 12 minutes, 12 hours minus 12 minutes, then you're going to get into the Facebook group. Okay, you might not be led into tomorrow morning, my time, because now it's like after midnight here, my team on online. But you're going to get right in amongst it and we're about to drop a whole lot of badassery on your ass.

So, I wanted to come in here, talk about that real quick, make sure you knew what's up. I thought I was going to do a really serious livestream and I thought I was even going to like read out the sales page, too, or something, but I don't know what the fuck I was thinking with that, and I'm pretty sure the peanut butter, and the cheese, and the banana situation just fucked me right up in the best possible way, in the only beautiful way that it could. And so, now, what you need to do is go to www.thekatrinaruthshow.com. ... no, there's no more dots, www.thekatrinaruthshow.com/millionairemastermind.

Type that into your browser, into your Safari, into your soul, read the page, let the page do its magic on you. You'll find it quite an amusing story to read, anyway. I always make ... try to make my sales pages entertaining and just unleash from the heart, and then, then, well, what then, obviously, you click the button and I'll see you inside. That's all. Have an amazing rest of the day or evening, wherever you are in the world. Don't forget buy, peace out, press play.

What's happening? I'm definitely, definitely going to have an amazing day. I was going to say something else. Where do you imagine that I put my AirPods? Did I leave them in the car? I'm definitely going to have an amazing day. That's been decided. It's done. It's how it has to be. Okay. I found one thing that I want. Oh, my AirPods are down my breasts. Where else would they be? Okay. Hi, Gayle. Lip gloss has been located. Now I've got to share this over.

I'm going to talk. I'm going to talk about many good things. Just punctured two tyres in my car at once like a ninja. I don't do things half assed, you know. My laptop's not even turned on. Then I just threw my laptop on the ground while I was setting up this live show. Tell me something that's filled with love and excitement because I feel like I need to hear it. You know? Send me a love heart shower if you want to send me love for puncturing two tyres in my car at once. My car's down the back of the carpark down there.

I'd walk over and show you, except I'd be embarrassed to do it in front of all the tradie men who were down there who already helped me out. Well, I wouldn't really be embarrassed. But then they're going to be like, "What is she doing walking around with a tripod? What's happening now? What is this crazy bitch up to?" Thank you for the love. So, I'm going to try and share this livestream. Let me see if it will let me hotspot. Sometimes it does, sometimes it doesn't.

We'll be fixed soon. I know. It's so not a big deal. What do you do when you kind of get stranded? Obviously, you livestream. What else would you do? My friend Matt is a trainer here at the gym and I've messaged him. I'm like, "Hey. Where are you? Come out and hang out with me." But I think he's with a client. It's a normal thing to be doing as a personal trainer at 8:30 AM. So, I guess I'm just hanging here and livestreaming. Okay. Why does my hotspot on my phone just not work anymore?

Marlene, Leslie, I love you. I love you. I can't wait to party with you in New York in a few weeks. Marlene, I just punctured two tyres in my car at once. I'm just like, if I'm going to do it, I'm all in. You know? I'm fricking all in. Where am I? I'm in, what is this area, Robina? Varsity Lakes? I'm at Robina Fitness First. There's my gym. There you go. There's the gym. You know, the good thing is I was already on my way to Mercedes. Never caught me live. All right.

Well, clearly, I punctured both those tyres just for Liam because I'm super friendly and helpful like that. I like to be of service. I'm just here to be of service. I'm trying to see if, yeah, my hotspot's working, it's not working. We'll see if it's working. It doesn't know what the fuck it's doing. Retry now. Maybe Fitness First has wifi that I can hop onto. Sometimes they do. No, it doesn't look like they do today. I choose to believe that all things are perfect and as they are.

Can somebody please share this into Daily Asskickery? Mim or Sam, if you're on here, because I did WhatsApp both of you before I jumped on live, can you comment and let me know that you're here and that you're sharing it? Because currently, I can't get onto WhatsApp on my laptop to check and I just don't know what's actually happening or going on. Sarafina, can you log into my Facebook? You can. If you can, can you log in and share this or can you tell Jessica to? Because neither Mim or Sam have heard my messages.

Who is on live? Fina, can you maybe do that? I'm trying to see if I can do it. So, there's always a lesson in everything. I just punctured two tyres. Let's be honest. I was trying to screech out of the carpark at a million miles an hours because, of course, I was late. I'm always late for everything. I wanted to get here to the gym at 7:00 AM. Thanks for sharing, Liam. Oh, thank you as well, John. I love it when everybody shares for me.

Wanted to get to the gym at 7:00 and I'm supposed to be at Mercedes at 8:00. Mercedes is only five or 10 minutes away from here. So, I get to the gym at 7:25, so behind my own schedule. I'm like, "Okay. All right." Thank you, Kiana. Jump in, do a quick workout, smash it out, had an awesome session. Everybody's sharing. You guys are all over it. Fina's driving. When you stop, can you share to my personal page? Don't worry. We'll figure it out eventually. Maybe this wifi will let itself work at some point or Mim or Sam should come online quite soon anyway. It's 20 before 9:00.

So, yeah. So, I was super happy with myself leaving two minutes before 8:00. I'm like, "Oh, I'm going to be five minutes late to Mercedes." Then I just went, I clipped the corner of the car park right there. So embarrassing. There was guys around everywhere and I'm like, "Oh, my God. Stupid female in Mercedes." I felt embarrassed. But I just kept driving and then some tradies pulled me over and they're like, "Ah, you've punctured your tyre." Like, "Are you fricking kidding? It felt like only a small clip."

Then I get out and then I've punctured two tyres, both on the left hand side. So, it's all fine. Everything's always fine and perfect. But I had to laugh because as I'd been rushing into the gym, I said to myself ... like I'm annoyed at myself that I was so late and so behind my on schedule. Then I reframed it and I was like, "No, Kat. Don't be annoyed at yourself because you've always been late." The amount of workouts where I thought I was going to do a full length workout and then it ended up being 20 minutes because I was always sitting there writing, which is what happened this morning. I was sitting blogging.

So, I ended up late for my workout and that's happened for 20 years. But yet, I still have the shape I want, I have the business I want, I have everything that I want. Bronwyn, can you share this? Can you log into my Facebook and share this from my biz page in my profile to my personal page and to Daily Asskickery, even though everyone shared it there? Because I can't get my wifi on my laptop working. Then I need a call to action from Millionaire Mastermind as well. You might be driving or something. But if you're free, and can you comment and let me know if you're able to?

Yeah. So, I'm like, "Everything's perfect. I haven't screwed up my life by being late all the time." Ella, no, I'm sorry to say. No. No. I know. But they were lovely. They are lovely. What am I up to? Everything's always perfect, right? It's always like, "Yeah, it's fine. I'll have a 20 minute workout and it'll be perfect." Thank you, Bronwyn. Then I come rushing out and then that happens and I'm just like, "It's kind of funny that I was just giving myself a little coaching session only 30 minutes ago about how it's fine that I'm always rushing and it's fine that I'm always late and then God's just like, 'We'll see about that. We're just going to send you a little message there to remind you that it's not always ideal to be rushing.'"

Then I just thought, "Okay. Well, this is maybe a sign to be more present and be more in the now and give myself permission to be in each moment, even if I am late, that I didn't have to rush off and clip over the corner." So, the two truck will come within an our. I'll keep an eye out. They'll probably come while I'm on this livestream and then they'll take it to Mercedes where I was going anyway. So, I've been on the phone to Mercedes and they're like, "Don't worry. We'll have coffee ready for you," and you get the VIP service obviously when you got there.

When I go there today, they're giving me a car service, which is why I was going. Now they're changing two tyres for me as well and they're going to try and sell me a new Mercedes. I shall let them attempt that, but as to what the outcome will be, I don't know. But they've been at me at it for ages. It's a great sales technique that you might want to employ into your business because they contacted me about six weeks ago. I was in America, though.

They said, "Katrina, it's time to come in for your new Mercedes." I was like, "Is it? I didn't ask for a new Mercedes." Ella's like, she's finding the silver lining. "I'm hoping the two truck guy will be hot." I'm like, "How can it be time to come in for my new Mercedes? We've never had a discussion about that." You're so funny, Ella. Don't worry. I know where it all is. It's all there inside the gym and now it's all being seeing me sitting there with my car.

Anyway, everything's fine. Yeah. So, they assumptively told me to come in and choose my new Mercedes. They're just upselling me. They gave me a date, even. Imagine you did this in your business. Why are we not all doing this in our businesses? They gave me a date and a time. They're like, "We've booked you in for such and such time. Come in and we'll take you in out in all the new cars or whatever. You can drive all the new cars." I was like, "Well, I can't because I'm America," right then when they gave me the date for. But I finally agreed to come in. Why not?

The thing is, I'm such an easy sell. I'm the easiest sell in the world. I was that person at seminars. Somebody's going to need to back me up and let know if this was you as well so that I know that I'm not alone. But I was that person at seminars who was the first person to run to the back of the room and buy the thing. I was always running to the back of the room and buying the thing. I would even run to the back of the room before they did the sales pitch because I knew that there'd always be a special bonus if you're in the top three or eight or whatever for doing the sales pitch.

I didn't even care what it was. I'm just such a buyer. I'm such an easy sell. Lakisha says, "So me." Please back me up, people. Give me a love heart shower. Give me a comment if you're an easy sell as well. I just love to be sold to. But I saw one of my friends once say that a good salesperson loves to be sold to and I fully agree with that. I was going to say I wouldn't buy anything I didn't need. That's completely bullshit. I've bought many things that I don't need and never used. Specifically, most courses that I ever bought in the history of time on the internet, by the way.

So, if you buy courses and you don't do them all or finish them all, that's not necessarily a bad thing. Don't think that that makes you a bad person or that you're flaky or something like that because I think maybe we're just so fricking smart that we know where we should spend our energy and time. You might just get one thing from that course you buy, even if it's my content. Sometimes for sure, I bought a tonne of stuff that was definitely not the right course, not the right content.

So, I just think that even back then before I knew anything about anything, and I still know nothing about anything, but I know everything about everything, even back then, I obviously subconsciously was so fucking intelligent that I knew where I should spend my energy or time. So, most courses that I bought, I never did, and look at me now. You don't need to feel bad about it if you don't complete content that you buy.

All right. So, Bron, if you're still there, can you also just grab a call to action from the Millionaire Mastermind, even if you grabbed the PS from yesterday's blog and just drop it into the comments here while logged into the business profile and then pin the comment please. That would be amazing. Then let me know if you are there and if you can do it so I know what's up and what's happening. So, then what else should we talk about? Everything is always perfect. What if you believe that everything was always perfect?

Okay, shared. You don't need to comment as you. Comment as the business page. You're commenting as perfectly however you're commenting now. But just pop in the call to action for the Millionaire Mastermind. Everybody watching, this is how you sell on a livestream. Well, you might not have a bunch of ninjas like I do who can post comments and share for you. I used to have to do it all myself and sometimes I still do. So, you can do it yourself or you can have ninjas. I have ninjas because I'm a ninja and that's why I've punctured two tyres, not one, because it's a ninja attitude.

You don't go around puncturing one tyre. You obviously go all in and you do two. It's amazing that I didn't manage to do four at once. I'm still impressed at myself at how I even managed to do two at once because when he said one, I'm like, "Fuck. Really? It didn't feel like that big of a clip." I'm like, "Okay, fair enough. I believe it, obviously." Then I get out and he's like, "It's actually two. So, we can't help you. We can't change a tyre when there's only one spare tyre in the trunk." I'm like, "How is that even possible? How did I do two?"

Rebecca says, "That is so me. I'm such an easy sell running, elbowing others to get to the back." Rebecca's just like, "Get out of my way, bitches." Puncturing one tire's totally for punks, [inaudible 00:12:16]. Exactly. Don't think I've finished a training series. Yeah. I have legitimately never once in my life finished a course that I did. Never, ever. Never once have I finished a course that I bought. Okay. I'm seeing everybody going to the gym, like people who I sort of know. You know when you know people at the gym, but you don't know them well?

Everyone's looking at me and I don't know what they're thinking. They're like, "What is happening? Why is she livestreaming out at the front of the gym? I'm just that person at the gym that always rushes in and rushes out and barely says hello to anybody and now I'm just chilling. At least I'm not sitting next to my car, so it's not too embarrassing. Ella says, "Kat, I have a ninja star tattooed on me and I've also punctured two tyres at once." Soul sister.

All right. So, from now on, if you puncture a tyre, don't even tell us about it unless you punctured two tyres, people, because we don't even want to know about your puncturing behaviour. It's just super low vibe puncturing if you're only doing one puncture at a time. They probably are looking at my boobs [inaudible 00:13:10]. I've noticed a lot of that his morning at the gym because I noticed this morning. Oh, my God. I'm going to tell you guys an amazing manifestation story when Bronwyn gets that link.

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But let me come back to this story about my boobs and what I've manifested there because I don't know if you noticed, but over the past week, I've talked a lot about feeling unsure of whether I made them too big. Okay, there they are. Hello. Who can screenshot this for me right now? Give me a comment if you're screenshotting. All right. I think I gave you long enough. Let me know if somebody screenshotted. We'll do it one more time. Okay, i feel like that's going to be important photo for something. There's still people looking at me over there.

Who the hell are you? Bronwyn's just commented, logged into my profile. She says, "Who the hell are you?" Who the hell are you? I don't even know why it starts with that. I love when it just randomly starts with something aggressive and punchy. Okay. So, you can read that comment after. The pinned comment has the details about the Millionaire Mastermind. Thank you, Bronwyn. This is all divinely perfect. Divinely perfect that I punctured my tyres so I could do this livestream right now. Everything is just as it was meant to be.

Okay. Thank you, Ella. Thank you for the screenshot. I'm so excited. I'm having the best day ever. I reframed straight away. Carissa, if you're going to puncture a tyre, make sure you do two. We've had a group discussion and we've decided that we don't want to know about it if you only puncture one tyre because it's super low vibe type puncturing. You got to go all in on your tyre puncturing. That's how it's done. Then you get stranded at the gym and then you do a live stream. Then when you go to Mercedes, they act like you've been in a hospital and bring you muffins and coffee and stuff.

Okay, let's make sure we don't miss the tow truck arriving. Here's my manifestation story. All right? So, over the past week, it's been now eight days since I had my boobs done. Of course, I'm at the gym with my fricking sandman on grunting and groaning like a motherfucker. I did try a chest press. That didn't seem like a smart idea. So, I stopped. But everything else seems fine. I felt like they were too big. I really did. Now, all my male friends when I mention this to are like, "Please don't say that again. That's not a thing."

Billy G. messaged me and said, "As a voice for all men, I want to let you know never again to say the words, 'They're too big.' It's not possible." Then I told Patrick. He was like, "No, that's not possible. That's not a thing." Every other male who's had the opportunity to comment on it has said the same thing. But I was honestly like, "No, I think I've gone too much." I think I'm now too much, too much. I'm already so much with the way I bling up and everything and now I'm too, too much. I've gone too much Gold Coast, too much.

I was like, "All I need now is a Swarovski crystal covered Mercedes and then who the hell do I think I am?" Exactly like this comment says right here. Who the hell are you? Right? I was really legitimately concerned about it. Then on top of it, my whole body puffed up and bloated. I gained 10 pounds instantly in two hours. That's some magic fucking backward manifestation right there because I full abs and I was tiny on the morning of the surgery.

Surgery takes an hour, not even two hours, and then later that day when I'm home, I'm like, "What in the actual fuck?" I literally gained 10 pounds in an hour, or in two hours. Imagine you could reverse that procedure. You'd be able to make millions. Well, you can reverse that procedure. It's just manifestation. But here's what I didn't notice, and I wonder if you noticed me doing this and you were like, "Oh, Kat. Oh, Kat. What are you doing?" If so, then why the fuck didn't you tell me? But you can tell me now.

But I was totally wording it all through the week. All week long, I was saying, "I think I went too big." All week long, I was saying, "I feel so big." Do you know why I was saying that? The moment of vulnerability here right now. I feel embarrassed to say this, but I'm going to tell you. The reason I kept going on and on about it all week last week, and maybe you didn't notice, maybe you did, I felt I went on and on. I was going on and on like, "I feel so big, my whole body's puffed up, I feel all bloated and heavy."

I was deliberately drawing attention to that because there's still that part of me who's the very insecure not good enough girl who feels like if I gain a teeny bit of weight, then people will think less of me and judge me or feel like, "What the fuck is up with her? What's happening there?" Even when I put the video up where I was pulling the drains out, my stomach looked so big to me and I know I'm not big and I wasn't big. I know that. But for how I feel, right? All my previous fucked up body identity stuff was coming up.

What's funny is now I'm in such love and acceptance of myself. It's a true thing. Even though I was feeling that, I was still like, "And I do fully love myself and I know that it's fine and I know this will shift." But it did bring up some old stuff for me. So, I felt like I had to deliberately say it, right? So, even when I did that little video where I was pulling the drains out, I deliberately touched my stomach and said something about my stomach being bloated because I was like, "I don't want people to think that that's just how I now normally look or something."

So, you might think I'm way too hard on myself. It's funny because I can have that thought process and say that and at the same time, love and accept myself fully. So, it's like I can see both sides of it and I have compassion for the younger me who legitimately lived in that reality and 100% would have felt like that. The younger me would have been devastated, no way would I have put the fucking video up, and would have not even gone out in public. I'm not even exaggerating or joking. Those are my fellow fitness junkies, cardio queen peoples from way back. I'm not really a cardio queen anymore, actually.

Human women. Those are my fellow human women. Thank you, [inaudible 00:19:51]. I love that. Can probably relate, right? But then all week long, then I did filming with Matt. So, when you see episode 39 of Kat Unchained, which should come out maybe tomorrow, it was all about the reality of getting a boob job. I did some really good content there around how everybody should shut the fuck up about what women are allowed to do or not do with their bodies because even the backwards thing that people do when they're like, "Aw, but you're already beautiful as you are. Why would you need to get a boob job?" That's actually insulting as well, just in a kind of backwards way.

So, I did a cool video about that. I got a video coming up about the reality of getting a boob job. Then we've got the Kat Unchained show coming out tomorrow, which shows the behind the scenes of that. What you'll see, even if you saw the trailer yesterday, you're going to see me going on and on about, "I feel so big, I feel bloated, my whole body's puffed up." Well, that's true, right? That did happen and it's protective because you get a whole bunch of stuff pumped into you during the surgery and your body is like, "What in the actual fuck just happened?"

Then two big things got shoved into your chest as well and your body's like, "What the double actual fuck just happened?" So, as a result of that, your body's like, "Okay. Man all systems, sound all alarms, and bring all possible fluid from the entire of Australia and put it right here into this bitch." That's basically what happened. That's what it felt like happened. So, it's a pretty common reaction, though. So, I know all that. I wasn't worrying, like something's changed in my body or something like that.

But it was like, "Okay, I just got to ride this shit out and I feel it's annoying. I hate being all puffed up. I want to be back to abs and back to tiny only." But I kept telling this story. I kept claiming it, right? I kept saying, "I think my breasts are too big." I kept saying, "My body's all puffed up." Then it wasn't until Sunday, I was going to yoga. Was it Sunday? Whenever it was, I did a livestream in the car outside yoga. I think it was Monday afternoon only. Right. It was only Monday afternoon two days ago.

I did a livestream in the car and I must have caught myself or something and I was like, "Fuck. I'm manifesting this. Oh, my God." Now I'm going to laugh [inaudible 00:21:44] when the episode of Kat Unchained comes out because then I'm going to be like, "Listen to me going on and on creating this." So, only two night ago on Monday night, I went into yoga class and I just set an intention at the side of the class. I said, "What if I just decided that my breasts are perfect?" Because I did legitimately feel like I've made them too big.

I went way bigger than I would've because all my friends and clients who already have boob jobs were like, "I wished I had have gone bigger." So, I listened to them, right? I'm like, "Okay." I went extra big. I went double D, 480. Most people when they get their first breasts will be getting 300 or 350 from what I've heard and established. So, I was really concerned that I'm not going to be happy. Then Saturday night, I was up all night long tossing and turning. I sympathy puffed up. Thank you.

Potatoes keep my so lean. Why potatoes make me so lean, I'm going to talk about that in a second. So, Saturday night, I'm up all through the night, super restless, tossing and turning. You're going to laugh at me. I was like, "Maybe they're too big," and then I was like, "But they can't be because Kat, you always make the right decision and everything always works out perfectly for you." So, I was fully coaching myself through it with my underlying beliefs and things that I would say to clients.

I'm like, "It's legitimately literally not possible that they're too big because you always make the right decision." Yeah, but the comment about how I look being irrelevant, I do appreciate that. But at the same time, it's not irrelevant because if something's important to me, then that's okay. I'm allowed to care about how I look. This is what I mean by those backwards compliments. I know that's not your intention, Claire, but when people say it shouldn't matter how you look and what's matters is what's on the inside, it's downplaying that we're allowed to care about how we look and that we're allowed to value that.

It reminds me of how one time, it came out in my daughter's school newsletter, it said, "We got to make sure that the kids don't adorn themselves with anything or change their hair or anything like that because let's teach our kids how to express themselves with what's on the inside." I was like, "Yeah, and we can fucking express ourselves with our exterior as well. We have a body. We get to use it however we please." So, I just feel like we've got to be careful there because it's a kind of a backwards shaming. It actually is.

That's what I was even talking about in my little video about getting a boob job. I know it's not usually intended at that, but it is because it implies that it's not something you should be concerned with or that it's a lower priority thing to be concerned with. What if everything that matters to an individual got to matter? Period, the end. What if we didn't grade things as this matters more, this matters more, or whatever, right? Anyway, so I stayed up all night coaching myself on the fact that, of course, I made the the right decision, even though it didn't feel that way at the time.

Then I caught myself with the wording on Monday night. So, then I went into class and I was like, "Okay. I'm deciding that as of now, I made the perfect decision and my breasts are perfect and that my body is perfect and beautiful as well and that I'm fully in my body right now." That was only Monday night and I'm not kidding. Today's Wednesday morning here in Australia. Just now being in the gym and looking at my body in the mirror in my little shorts and gym outfit and everything. I was like, "Fuck. I'm not quite back to fully lean and ripped, but pretty fricking close in 36 hours after I decided that."

But I've got to admit that the other thing I did is start to eat a fuck load of white potato. How we look does matter. Anything that matters to an individual matters. That's the whole point, right? There's no finite rules on what matters. So, the potato thing's just random. But I was thinking about why do I always feel like I find it a little bit harder when I'm on the Gold Coast to stay in shape. Then when I'm in Bali or when I'm America, I'm fucking ripped. I was like, "It's energy and it's my energy about being here and some sort of disconnectedness on the Gold Coast or something."

There was some truth to that. Then I was like, "Oh." When I'm in the US and when I'm in Bali, I eat really big dinners quite a lot because I'm usually going out at night. I might not eat so much, or sometimes even at all, through the day. But I order a huge dinner and I always eat potato. White potato, not sweet potato. Sweet potato is not my friend. I could change that story, for sure. But sweet potato is not my friend. Currently, it feels that way. I just gain weight when I look at a sweet potato.

So, potatoes absorb toxins. That's interesting. How did I not know that? I feel like I know everything, but I didn't know that. Thank you, Jodie. Got to read about that. Well, most people think potatoes are not a weight loss food. For me, they certainly are. So, I just remembered that. I'm like, "Oh." In Bali, even when I get my omelette in the morning, I get this particular omelette at the place I stay and it has chorizo sausage in it and it has potato in it and it has corn in it as well.

Then for dinner, I pretty much always eat potato, especially in America because potatoes are like the official food of America. I think the whole food pyramid in America is made up of potato, right? Right. So. Yeah. So, then I just started to eat a fuck load of potato as of a day and a half ago. Not only do I love it and it tastes so good. Oh, my God. I've never put cinnamon brown sugar on a sweet pot- ... No. Don't have cinnamon brown sugar on a sweet potato. You know what? I don't even really love eating sweet potatoes. I don't mind them. I've had the sweet potatoes done that way. What is that? A Southern way or something? I've had that.

I don't mind it, but it's always been something when I eat sweet potatoes where I'm like, "Eh." It just doesn't quite align with me. Sure enough, whenever I start eating them, even back in the fitness days when it would be an official part of how you're supposed to eat for fitness, modelling, or competing or whatever, it never felt quite right and I feel like I straight away hold onto fluid and stuff, like maybe I have a low level intolerance to them.

The white potato thing at first, they didn't believe it because I started to eat a load of white potatoes. I just was following intuition. I just follow intuition with what I eat. I don't diet. So, I just noticed that I was starting to eat a lot of white potatoes from December last year in Bali, then in America, whenever I go there. I was just giving myself permission to eat what I want because that's what I do now. I just consciously choose to eat what I feel like eating.

But I was like, "This is weird that I want so much potato and I was slightly concerned that I was going to gain weight from it. But I was still eating it because I eat what my intuition says. Then I was like, "Fuck. I think I'm getting super lean from all these potatoes." It just goes against what a lot of people teach. Ella's on her way here. She's going to come here and throw a sweet potato at me. Just bring me a regular potato. I'm not kidding. I've actually got potatoes in this bag right here. I just rescued my bag of food and stuff from the car so I don't forget to take it out when the tow truck comes and takes the car.

Yeah. So, I don't know if it was the potatoes or the mindset or the manifestation. But it was a mixture of those things. Okay. So, now we can talk about everything is always perfect. I'm still thinking about potatoes. I'm like, "Bring me more potatoes." Even the other day, I went out for dinner. I'm like, "All right, I'm fully on the potato train," and I went out and I had steak and I had so much mashed potato with it, which everyone thinks is an indulgent comfort food that's not supposed to be good for you.

The live training in the Millionaire Mastermind's at 9:00 PM tonight. Are you concerned that it's supposed to be at 9:00 AM? Because it's definitely at 9:00 PM. Maybe we should move that because now we've extended the countdown time until tomorrow. Or maybe we should just make it you guys better fricking sign up before tonight. Thank you for that reminder, by the way. The first live training is happening, no, I'm going to keep it tonight.

So, sign up tonight. Don't wait until the doors close. The doors close tomorrow at midday at noon. So, that's going to be 27 hours from right now. It's going to be midday on Thursday, Brisbane time, which will certainly be 10:00 PM Wednesday night, New York time, just so you know. That's why you're here. Why are you here? Why are you here? Give me more explanation. Did you think it was at 9:00? Have I told people it's at 9:00 AM? It's definitely at 9:00 PM. I never do anything at 9:00 AM. It's very unusual for me to be on livestream at 9:00 AM.

Like right now, normally, I'd be writing my blog or normally, I'd be training. Normally, I wouldn't be driving around puncturing my fucking tyre up. But it's obviously all this that was meant to be. Okay. I want to talk about the "what if everything was perfect" conversation. If you see tow truck in the background, make sure you tell me. Okay? I'm sure you guys would. I would see it in the background. If you believed that everything was always perfect and always just as it's meant to be, then wouldn't that just give you so much freedom? Right?

Wouldn't it just give you so much freedom? Because even this morning, to be honest, I had to calm down the tradies a little bit. They were going on and on and on about it and it sucks or whatever. I was like, "Fuck." But I was like, "Okay. Well, it's fine. It is what it is." It's not like it was a big accident, obviously. Maybe I would have had a much bigger reaction, depending on the situation. Of course, I would have. But still, no matter what happens, if you bring it back to everything is always perfect and you always make the right decision, then what that does, and we'll talk about that belief system in a moment because it could be challenged quite easily, I mentioned, depending on the situation.

That it means is that if you chose to believe that, that you give yourself complete freedom, right? You give yourself complete freedom to not get caught up in an energetic drain or an energy drain or anything like that and to be able to just take immediate aligned action on anything and everything that you need to take action on to be able to access high level creative flow. Let's talk about the belief for a moment of everything is perfect.

It's literally something that you can choose to believe, right? You get to choose all of your beliefs. Maybe a load of people wouldn't want to choose that or wouldn't feel available to be able to choose that because they would be like, "But what about this and this and this and this?" Right? Particularly like legitimate situations that cause a problem or that are very upsetting or traumatic or worse, right? Here's where I'm going to be probably annoying as fuck. It's possible. I don't think that ever happened before at all. But it might happen right now.

I reserve the right to have conflicting and contradictory beliefs. So, for example, if something really terrible or traumatic happens, the truth is that I wouldn't believe that it was perfect and I would have full blown human reaction to that. I don't know how I would process that. I've seen things happen in friends' lives and that's been very hard for me to process. Who here love 9:00 Kat livestream? Why are you so obsessed with ... Oh. Now you're talking about this one. I'm like, "Are you trying to encourage me to do a 9:00 livestreaming to the Millionaire Mastermind? Because I can't because I'm here."

All right. Give a love heart shower in response to Bronwyn's comment if you love me livestreaming at 9:00 AM. Yeah. So, the truth is, I have found it really hard to process when full on things have happened in people's lives who I know, or even just in general sense when you hear about things. I can't say that I walk around feeling like everything is perfect and as it was meant to be and that was what was divined. So, that's where there's an element of mystery or an element of not-knowingness comes into the whole thing.

I actually believe that as much as I love to know everything and feel that I do have access to the collective conscious, I do have psychic downloads, I do have the ability to channel or to travel and a lot of spiritual gifts and powers that people don't use or don't activate or maybe are scared of whatever and don't do all of that with an intention that it's coming from God, that I still, at the same time, accept and actually am happy to not know everything, to have things that remain mysterious, to have things where it hasn't been revealed to me yet and it maybe never will be. Right?

You know the apple of the Garden of Eden, right? The fruit of the tree of, what's it called, the knowledge of good and evil. This being, I read a thing online. This is a little controversial. So, I don't know what your opinion is on this. But I read a thing that did resonate with me that spoke about a lot of, for example, [inaudible 00:33:37] and stuff, that it actually, it's kind of like an example of that. It's like the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. It gives you access to more information that you're not necessarily supposed to have.

I sound pretty crazy conspiracy theorist, don't I? But something in me resonated with that when I read that. I was like, "Yeah. No, I feel that. I feel that there's supposed to be mysteries that are not shown to us. I feel that there's a load of information that we can access that we don't and that I access an insane amount of stuff from the collective and from my higher consciousness and from God and that sort of thing through how deep my inner work practise is.

Many of my friends who've done plant medicine, for example, which is a lot of my friends, by the way, and a lot of my clients, and I always say, "If you're called to do it, you do it." Right? I don't tell people, "You should do this or you shouldn't do that." I say what I feel for me and I encourage everyone to make their own decisions, as they only can, right? But many of my friends who've done it have said things to me like, "You seem to already have that level of knowledge and that level of soul connection," because they'll understand my writing in a deeper way or feel that they really connect with me in a deeper way or they're like, "Holy shit. I can see in you what I just accessed from this experience. How did you do that?"

Because I've never taken anything, not a single drug, not even weed, nothing. Not even a cigarette. Right? But plenty of coffee and plenty of wine. So, I go, "Okay. I think that I've created that through my really deep inner work practise that I have and the deep spiritual practise that I have, which is an everyday thing. So, I do have the ability to access higher consciousness, to access power that are beyond my understanding and beyond the abilities, or I guess beyond what most people would choose.

But I still feel like there's this level beyond that, which is a complete mystery on many levels, beyond that which are a complete mystery to me and which will probably always remain a complete mystery to me and that that's okay. I think that the search for knowing all things is a slippery slope to go down and I think that it can be dangerous. So, I don't know how I quite got onto that. But coming back to what I was saying about everything being perfect. I guess what I'm trying to say is when I don't understand something, when I don't understand something, when I can't reconcile it, when I walk around every day going, "Everything's perfect, I believe that everything is as it's meant to be."

So, then I puncture my tyres. I'm like, "Easy reframe, right? So easy." But what if something really full ... Okay. Somebody tried to phone me. Don't the people know not to do that? What about when something really full on has happened in the lives of people I know or when something like that happens in a worldwide sense or whatever? Am I walking around saying, "Everything is perfect and as it's meant to be?" I'm not and I can't really justify or excuse that to you. I can't really explain that except for the way that I just did explain it, which is that I don't have the answers to everything. I don't know.

But there are things where I feel like that's not as it was meant to be or that's not perfect. Then the other part of me goes, "But maybe it is and I just don't see the bigger picture yet and maybe it's okay that I feel confused about it or that I feel like I can't explain it and I'm not supposed to be fucking God here and trying to explain everything to the whole world." But I will say that in general day to day sense, who loves to go to church with Kat in the morning right outside the gym? Narnia. Narnia is the best thing ever. Narnia and Alice in Wonderland.

I will say that in a day to day sense, and even for, I guess, day to day things that typically really throw people off their course and really upset them or something like that ... That's a good point. If it calls again, I'll answer the phone. It was no caller ID, though. Why would have have no caller ID? Yeah, that's a really good point. I should have answered the phone. Okay. If I freeze, it's because I'm answering the phone. They'll definitely call again if it was them. Manifest. I don't know why it would be no caller ID, though. That's all.

So, yeah. In a day to day sense, a lot of the things that I guess throw people or really knock them around or slow them down or cause a huge energetic drain are things where, if you had the belief that everything is always perfect and as its meant to be and that you don't need to necessarily understand why, wouldn't it just make it so much easier to, I guess, manage and deal with your life and to be able to then flick straight back into flow or flick into gratitude or flick into positivity and make aligned choices from that place?

So, even last week, my friend Linda, who I know a lot of you follow and who's coming back to stay with me today, she left from staying with me on Monday of last week. My son did in fact put poop in her handbag, in her bag, in her travel bag, like actual poop. That was just a side note there. He loves her so much. So, she found that right as she was leaving and that slowed it down and it was upsetting, of course. It's kind of funny now. But it wasn't really that funny at all. It was pretty fucking disgusting.

So, that happened to her, I guess. For her, if we're going to reframe everything and say everything happens for us, not to us. That happened for her. I know that's just a normal big ass truck. That's not a tow truck. Then she leaves and she travels to Brisbane to get on the plane to fly to Bali. She was so excited to go to Bali and really looking forward to getting back there. That's not my truck. Then she gets to the airport, all the way to check-in, and finds that her passport was missing from her handbag. Right?

So, I get this really upset message from her. The cover of the passport was there, but the passport itself was gone. Different bag from the one my son was in, by the way. We still, to this day, don't know what happened to that passport. She's now still here in Australia. She's coming back to stay with me today. She had to actually travel down to Canberra because she has a passport from Finland, not Australia. She's not necessarily a citizen yet.

So, she had to fly and get on a plane and travel back down to Canberra in order to go to the embassy there and then organise a new passport and now wait for the new passport to be flown out from Finland. So, her trip to Bali's been delayed by roughly two weeks. She still doesn't have the new passport yet. So, that was so upsetting. But she is such a perfect example of what we're talking about because I got an upset message from her in the morning like, "I can't believe it," and all that sort of thing, obviously.

Then I think it was only middle of the day where I was getting messages from her like, "Well, I don't understand why this is happening. I feel really upset still. But of course, everything's perfect and there'll be a greater reason for this that will be shown to me." She just released it just like that and went back into an abundance attitude, into a gratitude attitude, into a mindset of expansion and receiving. Now, I'm not going to tell all her whole story. She's telling them already on her own livestream. But now, over the past seven or eight, nine days since that happened, so much powerful, cool stuff is come into play for her.

So many things have taken place, been shown, been revealed that couldn't have happened if she had have got on that plane to Bali. She'll tell you herself. Massive up-levels and perfect growth. It's just amazing, right? But none of us are surprised. I'm not surprised. She's not surprised because we're like, "Of course," because the second that passport went missing, it is that immediate reaction of, "I can't fucking believe it. My passport is missing." That's like that short term reaction and then for me straight away, as well as for her ... Hey, Liana. First time live. Awesome.

For me straight away, as well as for her, it straight away goes into, "But everything is as it's meant to be." So, that's almost like anticipation, right? Almost anticipation and excitement like, "Ooh. I wonder what's coming. I wonder what's happening as a result of this." Now, I listened this morning, actually. As I was getting dressed, I listened to an 11 minute audio from her that she'd left me last night at 11:00 PM. Maybe [inaudible 00:41:07] 11:00, 11:00 PM. I don't know. I was just smiling because I'm like, "Of course. Of course, all this amazing fucking stuff is happening." So, I'm sure she and I will livestream together over the next day or two because she'll be back at my house from today.

Then same with this when I punctured the tyres. I'm like, "Fuck. Now I'm going to need ..." I'm like, "Okay, it's only tyres. But now I'm sitting here for a while. It's all covered anyway. I've got all the coverage and everything. But now it pushes my whole day back because my car's getting serviced today and I wanted to get there at 8:00 AM when they're opened so that you're first in line. Now I don't know how long it will take for the car service. But that's fine. There's 87 awesome café where they treat you like a queen and I'll just sit there and work all day and then the shopping mall's two minutes walk from there anyway.

So, it's all fine. So, I reframed all of that. But then as soon as I got off the phone from Mercedes about the car, I was like, "Oh. Well, of course, you're going to livestream right now, right?" Really, what else am I going to do? I guess I could go back into the gym and do another workout, but I already did that. Or I text Matt, my friend. He didn't answer me yet still. So, I guess he's with clients. It's a busy period of the morning. So, once again, I was like, "Oh. Well, I'm not going to sit here getting upset or feeling sad or feeling down," like most people.

Most people really do let something like that totally impact their mood and their attitude for their whole day. It would be such a story like, "My day is ruined, now my week is ruined, now this happened," or they would get into a story of, "Why do bad things always happen to me? What's wrong with me?" Then isn't it hilarious how that ... Well, it's not hilarious, but kind of, how they would just keep creating a whole bunch of shit as a result of that, right? It's just kind of crazy.

Where instead, if we have the mindset that everything's perfect, then we don't go down that negative spiral. We stay in this positive space of abundance and flow and receiving and just knowing and trusting. So, can you see how choosing, choosing to have that attitude that everything is always perfect and that every happened as it was meant to, you don't even have to understand it, it probably will be shown to you and you will understand it and you will look back and you'll be like, "Oh, my god. That happened because of this, this, and this. Oh, my god. I'm so glad that that happened. I thought it was a bad thing, and of course, it wasn't."

So, often, that happens in life, right? But even if that didn't happen, even if you never were able to look back on that particular incident and go, "Oh, now I can see where that happened," even if that didn't happen, can't you see how choosing that everything's perfect and just releasing it in that moment gives you back your power? This is a conversation about power. It gives you back your power. It gives you access to creative flow and super flow because when you're in this energy of, "Something happened to me and life's hard or it's sad or now I feel shitty or now my day is ruined," even something like, "Just today is ruined," [inaudible 00:43:41] then you're immediately in a contraction energy, right?

You're immediately tense, you contracted, you're in a downward energy. So, automatically, when you're in a contracted energy, and I was saying this to some of my members yesterday on our training livestream, when you're in a contracted energy, your body is like this and it's like you're like this. Right? You cannot receive when you're like this. How are you going to receive? You're clenched up so tight and you're going to impact not just ... This is not just to do with your energy, right? You're literally like this. You will see that your posture will change.

Look at people who live in fear and from fear. They have a different posture. They don't walk around openhearted like this. I practise my posture a lot, actually. That was just like the wind saying, "Let's have a boobs flash." I consciously keep myself upright, keep myself open. I look at the physical aspect of my posture. But for sure, also being in an attitude of receiving and openness impacts your whole body. It impacts your posture. I believe it impacts my age. I talk about reverse ageing a lot.

I know for sure that a part of why I stay looking young for my age, so young, so young right now. So young right now. So young right now. I know. You don't have to say it. I'm just going to own it. I know that a big part of it is, well, it fucking decided to. But it's alignment, right? But it's also being in an open abundant attitude. It's also I just don't get stressed or upset by things very much. I'm not saying I never would, obviously. But I don't get ... Even yesterday, I did a big survey for my new financial advisor and it talked a lot about, "Would you get really stressed or upset if you lost a lot of money?"

There was a lot of questions to do with your moods. In all of them, I was like, "No. I wouldn't. I wouldn't." I would feel annoyed, maybe frustrated temporarily. I wouldn't be like, "Oh, my god. The sky is falling. The sky is falling." I would be like, "Okay. Well, that was a fun experiment. It is what it is," and regardless of the sum of money, right? How can you do that? You can't do that just because you make a lot of money in your business. If anything, it's probably the other way around.

Let me see if I can balance this tripod. I'm getting all clogged up somehow siting there. Do you hear that? Must be the wind. Where's the tow truck? I really hope I didn't ignore the two truck driver's call and now I'm just hanging here now all day and he's given up on me. But I feel like they would have called back again if it was him. What was I saying? I don't even know. Something about the reverse ageing. It impacts your whole energy systems. It impacts your digestion, it impacts your physical posture, it impacts your moods, your happiness.

So, I'm able to ... A very high percentage of the time when you choose to live this way, then you'll be in a good mood is the short and simple way of saying it. But you can expand on that, right? You're in abundance mood. You're in a mood of happiness. You're in a flow. You feel good about yourself. You feel uplifted. You feel light and lean and clear and clean or whatever it is that you want to feel. So, don't you think that you would naturally then just make better choices, make more aligned choices for you, have more creative downloads, have access to greater knowledge?

A lot of the things that create success in my life come as a result of I have a lot of awesome fucking ideas all the time. I have creativity and badass inspirational, empowering, entertaining content just running through me like a tap running through me. It never stops. I always know what to do, I fully trust in my decisions, I make fast decisions, I feel energetically light the vast majority of the time. So, that allows me to move quickly through time and space. I trust and believe in people, I trust and believe that everything's working perfectly.

There was another question on their survey. It was like, "Do you trust that most people are good?" I'm like, "Of course." Right? I just choose all these things that put me in expansion. Now, some people might think, "Oh, well, that's a naïve attitude or that's going to catch you out or somebody's going to screw you over," or something like that. I just don't choose to be available for that. I'm just not available for that. It's not the way that I choose to see the world.

If something did happen, then I would be reframing it like a motherfucker. I would turn it into content. I would turn it into money. I would monetize the shit out of it and then we'd be sitting here on a livestream together again. So, for me, all of this has been a practise that's taken much time over the years, I suppose. But it doesn't have to take a lot of time. It would have been very quick for me to do this if somebody had have taught it to me earlier, if I had have been conscious of it. So, that's what I'm here for for you, right?

Just because it took me years to really get into my abundance attitude and to really understand how this stuff works and how easy it is when you let it be easy doesn't mean it's got to take years for you. You get to listen to me and if you resonate with it, if something inside of your soul says yes, then you go, "Yeah. I'm just going to adopt that attitude right away. I would have just adopted that attitude right away if somebody would have told me. Maybe they did and maybe I just wasn't in a place to listen, right?

Where's my tow truck? Where is it? How long have we been on here? I haven't been here for an hour, have I? It said the tow truck's coming in an hour. Man, I'm clogged up. It said within an hour. Okay. So, I just feel like this is such an important conversation. Actually, here's something I want to tell you about the Millionaire Mastermind as well. I haven't spoken a whole lot about what my role is in the Millionaire Mastermind. I was joking on yesterday's livestream.

If you didn't watch yesterday's livestream, I was on fine form. I was hilarious as fuck. You definitely want to watch it. It was only 20 minutes. It didn't go into church like this. It was like I was being super random and crazy. I was funny. I watched the replay. I do watch my own replays. Then I laugh or then I'm like, "Damn it, that's good content. I should write that shit down," because it just comes through me, right? Oftentimes, I don't remember what I said at all on a livestream. So, I'll watch the replay. So, watch that.

But one of the things that I said on yesterday's livestream was that I'm selling you nothing because I was laughing about the fact that I didn't promise anything. Basically, my role in the Millionaire Mastermind is that I'll do whatever the fuck I want when I want, how I want, and with who I want. I would just show up like a rockstar and bring my energy and bring my awesomeness. So, I was joking about how cool it is that you can create a whole programme and do a launch and sell a programme where you're literally selling nothing. I'm not promising and I would deliver plenty of it, though.

Then people are signing up front and centre. Then I was like, "Okay. Technically, it's not nothing," because it's an insane amount of training, all the support, every single thing that we do here at The Katrina Ruth Show, talk to you month by month, monthly report and what we've been doing that very month, how we've been implementing it, and how you can implement it too. From the ninjas, right? Not me. My team are teaching the magic that they do. It's just going to be so fucking next level incredible.

I'm so proud of it. I'm so excited. But as far as what I'm doing, okay, well, I do nothing because all I do is be me. But if I want to try and explain it to you, I guess, which I feel like doing right now, so I will, then what my role is in the Millionaire Mastermind is to be the light and to be the leader and to be that example for you of what's available and what's possible.

So, the vast majority, if not all of what I'll be teaching on and creating trainings for you on and working with you on and having discussions with you around will be this sort of stuff, the inner work stuff, and how do you step into those beliefs? How do you step into what's inside of you? How do you say yes to your soul? How do you do that fast or as well and without hesitation?

No, those are the tradies, Lisa, who helped me out before. No. How do you access it all? How do you access higher power? How do you access higher consciousness and all that good stuff? That's what my role is. So, it will be about me being in the energy space of the Millionaire Mastermind. The Facebook group's already open, by the way. When you sign up today, you're going to get into the Facebook group right away. You really want to sign up today because we're doing the first live training 12 hours from now. Approximately 12 hours from now.

But then the doors are open for 26 and a bit more hours from now. Correct, Ella. Right? Thank you, Lisa. Yeah. So, you've still got a full day, just over a day to join. But sign up now. Right? We'll hit you hard with the reminder emails and social media before the doors close tomorrow. I just don't understand why you would not take fast action. If you want to see me being a total smart ass about not taking fast action, then go watch yesterday's livestream. I was being quite irreverent.

Yeah. Then tonight, we'll do the first live training and the topic for that is on the sales page at thekatrinaruthshow.com/millionairemastermind. So, what my role is is to really lead the way with the energy of what's available, right? I've got my amazing team coming in and breaking shit down for you and teaching how it's done, exactly how to do it, exactly how to implement, exactly what it is that you need to do.

My friend mentioned to me yesterday, I think I said at the start of this live, she mentioned something about being so grateful that I've created this where my team are there so that she doesn't have to try and figure out who to learn Facebook ads from or who to learn funnels from or who to learn selling from or who to learn the other things that are not really my area to teach, right?

Everyone knows that I'm here to be the leader and to work with you on mindset and success and deep, solid cellular transformation. That's what I do. Cellular and soul shifts. So, I'm not going to teach funnel stuff. I will jump in and talk about these things from time to time. I have done it in previous programmes and I still will. But it's not my area to break it down and teach it. I'm simply not going to teach it in some kind of step by step fashion that you can then implement because it's not now my mind works. Right?

I would try to do that and the next thing would be off on a deep soul shift conversation and everybody would be thrilled and it would be exactly what you need. But yet, at the same time, if you want to know the breakdown and the how to do it and the what you even need to do or give your attention to, then you probably are just not going to ever fucking get that from me because then you're going to be like, "Ah, let's just talk about soul stuff." Then you're going to be like, "That shit doesn't even matter."

I simultaneously believe it doesn't even fucking matter because I know that my results come from inside and that's where yours come from as well. I fully believe that whilst at the same time understanding that you want to learn it and that it does matter and that it's really helpful to learn. So, I told you. Contradictions, right? So, that's what the team do and so much other cool stuff that you'll read about when you go to the sales page. Then my role, like I said is to be the light. It's to be the leader. It's to be magnetic as fuck. It's to be all that I am to empower you to be all that you are.

So, I'll be coming in, I'll be the energy of the Millionaire Mastermind every day anyhow because it's obviously there on my Facebook. So, I'll be noticing and I'll be seeing and I'll be seeing where the limiting beliefs are and where the patterns and where the sabotages and where you're maybe asking questions that are pointing you in the wrong direction and I'll be able to guide you. Yes, the Millionaire Mastermind is the High Vibe Mastermind 2.0.

So, High Vibe Mastermind didn't have my whole team coming in there. We had a few little individual trainings, but it wasn't a membership programme that was ever designed to teach all these different things with the whole team. So, it was time to move on. It was time to become better. It was time to improve. So, the Millionaire Mastermind is actually called Katrina Ruth's High Vibe As Fuck Millionaire Mastermind because it's 2.0. Yeah.

So, I certainly have many ideas of things I want to cover in there. But it will be very flow based and it will be very guided month by month and week by week and day by day and very much guided by what I'm picking up in the energy of the group and what's going on. I'm really excited for it because this is the way that I work with my private clients where obviously, I don't say in advance what I'm going to do with them because it depends on what's going on at the time. So, that's exactly what will be happening with the Millionaire Mastermind. But even more in that broader format. Then incredible, incredible support from my amazing team.

So, anyway, I'm going to jump off this livestream. I feel like we've done an awesome livestream conversation together. Thank you so much for being here. It is, it can't be 9:29 AM, surely. Is it already 9:29 AM? Does that mean ... Fuck. I've been livestreaming for an hour. I'm just looking at my times here. So, I might call back or see if I got a text from them. If it was them and I didn't answer the phone, they would have texted me and I turned my notifications on, so I would have seen that. So, that didn't happen.

So, maybe I'll go inside and harass [inaudible 00:55:33] or I'll just chill out here. But I feel like the livestream's done. Thank you so much for being here. Go to thekatrinaruthshow.com/millionairemastermind, check it out, get in on the 26 hours until the doors close. Don't be the person that waits to sneak in over the final line. You'll still get everything. You'll still get the replay from tonight and all that. But one of the things I want to really teach you and support you around is learn to make rapid decisions from gut.

If something's right for you, if your soul is speaking to you, say yes now. Don't hesitate. Ultimately, if you say yes to your soul, you get the benefit of that. But what I've learned is that when you say yes to your soul right away and you choose to do it without hesitation or with minimal hesitation, even when it feels scary, then you start to see your rewards exponentially increase because you're just not living in that constantly low state. You're making a statement to God, to the universe, to your higher self that you are ready to receive.

So, if you're ready to receive and you're ready for your abundance and you know that the Millionaire Mastermind is for you, read the pinned comment. It starts with, "Who the hell are you?" I'm not even sure why, but it sounds aggressive. It sounds important. Read it and then go to thekatrinaruthshow.com/millionairemastermind, check out my High Vibe As Fuck Millionaire Mastermind. It is the mindset and the strategy of how to crush it on life for driven entrepreneurs and crazy creators who just want more. That's me. That's you. Don't forget. Life is now. Press play.

Oh, okay. Welcome. I had to put this sparkle filter on because my other freaking filter disappeared, and I just don't know how to live in a world with no livestream filters. Well, that's not true, because I filter without a livestream all the time. I know from using my Katrina Ruth Show banner. But today I felt like it was a filter-ish day, because you know.

Where are you? Shannon, what's up. What's up, Shannon? All right, I don't know why I'm flirting with my clients. Why would I not? It would be rude not to. Did you like my what's up? How are you doing? All right, now I'm being Joey from Friends. How are you doing? How are you doing? What's happening? What's the happy haps?

Hey, Carly. Let me make sure my team know I'm live. I'll flirt with any of you. Any of you. Any time. But mainly with Shannon. Okay, live. Let me just ... Oh my god. Oh my god. I just messaged my client on audio, and she's just pointed out to me that it's three minutes and 33 seconds. Of course it freaking is, because I'm magic as fuck, bitches. Let's message her dad, just so she knows.

Okay, that was me knocking the tripod over. Watch out. Here we are. We're still live. Don't worry. Cat mode activated. Cat mode should always be activated. What's happening? My tripod's falling. I've got to type with one hand. I don't know why. Because I am magic. All right, sorry, but this is important. ... Magic as fuck. You too. We both are. Let's just clarify. It would be rude otherwise. Obviously.

All right. Okay. Hello. Rebecca [inaudible 00:02:18], I fucking knew that you and Brandon were about announce a relationship. I feel a little bit miffed that nobody told me before they told Facebook, but I already knew anyway, but I feel like I was probably the last person to know. Or maybe I was the first, because I energetically called that 100 years ago, and then I saw it on my feed today, and I was like "I knew it!" And then I was really proud of myself for knowing it, and then I was like, no, probably everybody knew it before me, I and I'm probably the last person to know it. But I'm going with I was the first. I'm going with I knew before even you guys. I'm going with you can send me flowers, because I knew it so longa go.

All right, I'm clearly having the best time ever. So, anyway. What was I going to say? Oh, that's right. Today I felt the need for a filter because of the reason that I haven't washed myself in a while. I did muay thai. I don't know. I just felt like it was a filter day. I meant Francis. I was just messaging you while I was on the livestream, because I was like, clearly I need to just sit here messaging my clients, instead of doing the actual livestream that I'm fucking on.

What was my other piece of information for you? Oh, the other thing that I've got to tell you guys before I keep talking is I have mastered, mastered where to put my tripod in the car while livestreaming in the car. I think I should get a love heart shower for that. I'm going to carefully remove this phone, and I'm going to show you so that you can see how good I am. I feel like I just end up in the car office for half the day. I've spent at least five hours in the car today.

Look at this. I never know where to put the tripod when I'm in the car, and I always hold it, and then it's at a weird angle, or I put it on the passenger seat where the laptop is, and then it's on a weird angle. And now, check this out. Can you see that? See how I've jammed it down there into the seat? I'm like, why did I never think of this before. Well, it only fell twice down. I don't need to be a smartass about it. Australians, they say smartassy. Got to watch out for those Aussies.

Okay. Okay. Now, I've been having a little identity crisis again. The problem is that I'm concerned that I've made my breasts too big. It's a legitimate concern. Now, if you're a guy, you don't get to have a say. Say whatever you want, but I know exactly what you're going to say, because so far every man that I've said this to has said, "Please don't say that again, because that's not a thing. It's not possible to make your breasts too big." That's all the men who I've inquired or shared my concerns with.

What's happening here? I've screwed the whole system up. I'm moving it. So, I've been coaching myself through whether or not it's true that I've made my breasts too big. What is happening? Okay, there we go. Now I've got it. Sort of. I've got it. It is true. What's true? Steve, are you saying that it's true that I've made them too big? Because you'd be the first person to say that. Although I must say that your brother disagrees. I don't know if he told you this, but I had a dream. I'ma a huge nut.

I had a dream the other night that Matt broke up with me as a friend, and we were going to catch up, and he was like, "I can't see you anymore. I don't want to be friends with you anymore, because you've got fake breasts now, and I feel that it's not authentic, and I don't like your vibes anymore." That's what he said in the dream, and I was devastated. I was crying in the dream.

So then I audioed him about it, and he goes, "Yeah, I probably would have done that." I was like, "Oh my god." He goes, "Yeah, I don't really care one way or the other about the boobs." And he sort of half agreed with me. And then I called him out on it. I was like, "I don't think so. I think you're going to like them just fine."

But they feel so big, so big, you guys, that's it's just ... I'm about to go into yoga. I went yesterday morning. I kept toppling over. I was like Bambi fucking learning to walk. I was just falling over. By the way, you guys have got to get your asses back here. Yes, it was very embarrassing. I just couldn't even stand up. I'm so top heavy, I just kept falling over. My, I was going to say [foreign language 00:06:59], but that's definitely in German. What's it called in English? My equilibrium wall off. It's all over the place.

This morning in the ring as well, at muay thai, it was a sight to behold. I just kept tripping all over the place. I would have got my ass kicked if I was in a fight. Not that I'd be in an actual fight five days after surgery. But I was doing my thing.

All right. Decide to get fucking certain. Carly says, "Welcome to my life. G cups over here." I'll get you to drop the link, but not just yet. In a moment. Well, the thing is though, if you've got your G cups over there, that I'm assuming they grew in a normal fashion. They didn't just get plonked on there, and then you've suddenly got to adapt to them instantly overnight, and you had no warning. Because I did yoga even up until eight months pregnant, and I wasn't falling all over the place there, but I got to adjust to that gradually, you know?

Okay. Decide to get fucking certain. Certainty is a choice. I wanted to talk about that. There's many things in which I'm the world's biggest flake, you guys. It's quite disgusting. You'd be disgusted if you knew all the areas that I flake out. Some people know. You'd just be appalled. You'd be like, "What a disgrace that girl is. She's an absolute disgrace."

So, there's some things that I don't write that I want to write, for example. I feel like I'm not a real writer. I am a real writer. I think I'm an amazing fucking writer. I think I'm actually the best writer of our times, in the world, just modestly over here. But then at the same time, there's things that I'm meant to write that I don't write at all. I don't know what you want to say about that.

I was having this conversation off and all day with somebody. Well, the truth is, we were having a conversation on the phone for two hours. It was Patrick. And we really agreed at the end that it was very selfish and outrageous that we hadn't recorded the conversation. It was extremely rude. And so we're now going to record our conversations, and then when we've got 10 of them, we're going to sell them to you. And you're going to be thrilled. You're going to buy them in a bunch before we even launch them, because the depth of the conversation is so fucking good that after we get off the phone, it's like you're off your head. You have to go lie down, or have a massage. Yeah, exactly, of course people are going to buy that.

Every time we're on the phone, then we're like, "These so should have been livestreamed. It's so stupid that we didn't livestream this." But then, like I said, I'm like, "Yeah, but sometimes I just want to talk to you without the whole of Facebook getting to listen." But then at the end, I was trying to remember a few things that we'd talked about, because it was such good content, and then I was like, "Cool, I'll watch the replay later. And then I'm like, "Oh, there's no replay of being on the phone. God damn it, that's not fair." So, now I'm just trusting that that content will come back to me, and it will.

But meanwhile, one of the things that we were talking about, which we were being a little bit irreverent around, shall we say, the nice way of saying it, is about just, you know, the whole world fucking flakes out on its whole life, and it is a disgrace, it's true. So few people actually step up and do the damn work to create what they want in their lives. That's the reality.

But then later on I was thinking, the reality is that that actually includes me, I've got to admit, because I definitely flake hard on other levels of writing I want to do, and specific writing projects that I want to do. And the truth is that sometimes I think ... Well, it's not true at all, but I think that the truth is that sometimes I'm not certain about it, right? Sometimes I'm not sure. Do I really want to write that book, or am I just making that up in my head?

And I guess clients say to me a lot of the time ... In fact, I think I had this question even over the weekend from a client, around how do you decide? Like, this is from our inner circle lives from earlier today. Of course, right? So, it was around, what if I have decided, and I'm manifesting the thing, and then it doesn't show up?

And I've said this lots of times to people, and I'll say it again right here. Deciding is a practise, but you've got to decide to decide, as well. You've got to decide to get fucking certain. You've got to decide to get freaking serious. You've got to decide to get double D breasts, and then afterwards when you're like, "Fuck me, I think they're too big," then you've got to remind yourself that every decision you make is perfect.

I was up all night long on Saturday night, coaching myself around my boobs. I was coaching myself on, "But Kat, it's not possible that they're too big, because this is the size that you chose, and you always make the right decision, and everything always works out perfectly for you, and you never stop anything, so therefore they're all right." So, that helps, that helps, that helps.

And then I went to yoga the next morning, which was yesterday, and then I looked at myself in the mirror, and I was like, "Damn, they actually look quite nice." But still extraordinarily large. But then again, they are swollen right now. I think all of me ... For some reason, my whole fucking body puffed up after the surgery. So, that's been a fun ride.

And the whole point was, deciding is a practise. Deciding is not something you do one time. It's actually a practise, and then you come back to it every single day. I mean, why don't you just put that link in now, because I realise I'm getting carried away here, and I'm forgetting about that all together.

Here's a good example, actually. My, Katrina Ruth high vibe as fuck Millionaire Mastermind is open. It's at ... I believe that it's at the KatrinaRuthShow.com/MillionaireMastermind. Let's just drop that link in so it will be in the comments. That is open, I think, I think.

We haven't seen them all. How much can you see? They're very ginormous. I don't know how much you can see on this livestream. I was going to lift my top up, but too bad, I'm not going to. I mean, they're really big. Like, really big. Maybe I'll think they're smaller later. I went way bigger than I would have because my friends convinced me to. My friends, all of them, were like ... Hang on, I'm just checking my visuals on Facebook. I had a sudden fear that everyone could see everything, and I don't know, because Facebook is always messing with me. Okay, now you can't see as much.

My friends, all of them were like, "When I got them done, then I wished I'd gotten them bigger." So, I just went extra, extra big. I'm like, how much too much is too much? I feel like I've gone too much too much, now.

But with the Millionaire Mastermind, Katrina Ruth's high vibe as fuck Millionaire Mastermind, that is open right now. Oh my goodness, that is ... Okay, that's probably the most powerful thing I've ever launched, in terms of what can I create that gives people all of everything that they need, with support system, strategy, and structure, so that they never need to have a question unanswered, or feel like they don't know how to put something together and bring it to life. So that they're fully supported with the whole empire-building and cash machine side of the business, as well as, obviously, the mindset and inner work, which is the real work.

And I knew the answer was to create something like the Millionaire Mastermind. I had some massive control freak issues around it to do with the fact that I'm not running this show. I mean, I'm always running the show. I am the damn show. Actually, I don't run the show. I just am the show. I don't run the show, right?

My team are creating, and ongoing, doing a lot of the training, content, and support for the Millionaire Mastermind. That was a huge thing for me. I felt really unsure, and it was very hard for me to come to a decision around it because I was control freaking about not being the star of the show. But I am the show. I'm always the star of the show.

So, this was a good example of out topic today, where I had to decide. I was like, should I, shouldn't I, for literally six months, because I felt that it should always just be about me. But then at the same time, I knew ... Gosh, listen to the sound of me. When I say that out loud, it's a bit embarrassing.

But I knew, at the same time, that the way for me to beset serve the broader community is to really open up access to my team. I have this amazing team who do all this incredible stuff in the business, and I knew that it was pretty freaking selfish to hold that back, and also in a way, kind of reigning them in and clipping their wings, right, when they have so much power to share.

So, that was an example for me, and I want you to really think about, where have you not been deciding to take a leap, deciding to do something that you need to do. Where are you telling yourself a story that you don't know?

I think it's a practise not only to decide, but I think it's a practise also to tune in on this stuff, to have conversations with the right people in your life, or to join something like the Millionaire Mastermind, or to listen to my livestreams, or read my content, or have your ow inner work practise, or whatever it is, a combination of these things that works for you, where you're checking in, where you're tuning in.

One of my favourite questions that I've asked myself over and over for years is, what would full alignment look like right now? What would it look like if I was fully in alignment? Another way to say it, what would it look like if I was fully pressing play? What would I be doing right now if I was doing all that I know I'm meant to be doing, or all that I know I'm meant to be? What would I be doing if I was in full integrity, is another way that I like to say it, as well.

And this particular membership programme, which is the only membership programme in the world for the driven entrepreneurs and crazy critters, it is the mindset and the strategy of crushing it online for driven entrepreneurs and crazy critters who just want more, the Millionaire mastermind, Katrina Ruth's high vibe as fuck Mastermind. Details in the pinned comment, open now for just a couple more days, and then we will close those doors.

That membership programme was a perfect example of something that I wasn't stepping into, I wasn't taking action. I was not allowing life to be breathed into it because I was telling myself a story that I wasn't sure, but really, I just wasn't willing to sit in the discomfort of what I had to face inside of myself, which was kind of getting out of my own way, letting go of the reins, letting my team step up, letting them take control.

And also, it's a huge, big project for the whole team, in terms of, I guess, manpower and effort and that sort of thing. So, committing team energy and resources to that was maybe part of it. But I think really, it wasn't about that for me. Really, it was about the control freak stuff.

And eventually, I did, and now, honestly, even the first few ... I think I manifested some screw ups with this programme. Let me tell you about it. Because the first few days ... We opened the doors on Saturday morning. I forgot to launch it, as you do, when you've announced to the whole world that you're going to launch at 9 AM on a Saturday morning, and then your whole team is prepared and ready, and it is indeed a Saturday, right? They're kind of always on again, off again. Still officially, though, don't work on the weekends. My brother and sister will tell you that that's a joke, but officially.

And then meanwhile, I'm just casually having Saturday morning coffee, and my brother's texting me, and I'm like, "Fuck, I forgot to launch." I was like, okay, I didn't write any launch material, I couldn't go live to do the launch, because my kids were there and they were kind of manic. So, I'm like, all right. I just screenshotted his message with my reply saying, "Fuck, I forgot to launch." I'm like, well, that's the launch content, then. Everything's always perfect. And I chucked that out there.

So, that was the first little screw up. The first sign of me letting my resistance kind of rule me a little bit. And then after that, two more things happened. The whole sales page stopped working for a while, so if you had a bunch of ... Well, we had a bunch of messages. If you had a problem getting onto the sales page, just blame me and my resistance for that. I don't know why. We had no technical reason for that. There's no reason why that happened, but there was a full day where we didn't even quite realise, because it was on Sunday for us, where the sales page wasn't working.

And then, to top it off, and probably me not reading the sales page properly, again, resistance winning, the whole offer wasn't even clear. It was written out what the deal is, and the huge discount for your first month as a founding member, but it was only kind of as a halfassed afterthought further down the page. It wasn't clear. It wasn't definite. It was a little confusing. So, we had some new people jumping onto the order form, and then feeling confused and like it was different to what was on the page.

So, it's just been somewhat of a clusterfuck, but not really, because it's all perfect. We simply extended the countdown timer for another day or so, I think, so now the timer ... I don't even know when it finishes, now. It's probably, details are probably in that comment. My team have written that up for me, and given a little description there of what's going on.

But we decided to extend the countdown timer, and I decided to just kind of get my shit together and bring my energy, instead of letting that resistance just creep around the edges, because there's still been that small part of me that's like, am I ready to let go of control? Am I ready?

And then I had this conversation earlier today with Patrick like I said, and then we've been messaging back and forth all day, and then I just messaged him like an hour ago, and I said, "Decide to get fucking certain." And then I was like, oh my god, there's my livestraem title, and that is the exact reason why I know I've been kind of mucking with the tech side of this launch with my own energy.

I just find this stuff so fascinating. So fascinating. And I'm going to go, because yoga starts in five minutes, so I should do that, because I'm going to screw with my teacher by always arriving one minute before class starts, and that's not very fair for anyone. So, I'm going to go, but I would love to know from you, leave me a comment, where do you know you need to decide to get fucking certain?

Pop a comment in. Send me a love heart shower. Read the pinned comment here. Go to the KatrinaRuthShow.com/MillionareMastermind. Check out all that we've got there for you. It is so next level. I hope to see you inside, but either way, drop me a comment. Let me know what you're deciding. I always some back and read my comments later. Have an amazing rest of the day, and do not forget, life is stopped. Press fucking play. Bye.

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Hi. Hello. Welcome to the Katrina Ruth Show. Where anything could happen and probably will [inaudible 00:00:34]. You're gonna like it. It's gonna be fun for everybody. Or maybe I'll just be super sweet and nice. I'm pretty sweet. I mean I feel like life is sweet, like sweet. But I feel like I'm pretty sweet. I feel like this morning ... I hate ... Oh my golly gosh. Oh, no it's okay. I thought I left my Nike hoodie at the gym, but I found it.

Brandon Marshall? Brandon Marshall,I fucking knew it. From that first live stream. I fucking knew it. Probably everyone else did as well. I definitely did. I was like, I see exactly what's happening here.

Kelly and I took a photo of ourselves this morning. And we just decided that we looked so beautiful. We were like, look at us we're so pretty. And then we were like, will you listen to the sounds of us. One of us said, I won't tell you who said what. Damn intuition. I know all the things. One of us said, "We look so pretty." And the other one said, "We should be super models." I'm not gonna tell you who said what. Why don't you just guess?

But we just looked really pretty, I think. 'Cause of the pinkness and the sweetness. And because we just, we were just like two sweet pretty little girls. Like just little girls. Little girls talking about naked sensual dancing. Actually, may have been video shown of one person doing a naked dance in front of a mirror. Maybe, maybe not, maybe I'm just making shit up. Guess who that was as well if you like.

So anyway, I don't think that's got anything to do with what we're here to talk about. What are we here to talk about? Oh, you just put one foot in front of the other. It's a whole story, right? I'm sort of quoting Elizabeth Taylor. She says, "I just put one foot in front of the other. I just got up everyday and put one foot in front of the other." Something like that. That's what I did. That's the only way you could ever do it. That's just how it's done. Something like that. And I really love that quote.

A lot of the time I feel like it's just total flow and ease. And I'm dancing, I'm playing with life, and astro travelling, and sitting in a beautiful surrounds at the outdoor section of the shopping mall here, for example. And having the best flow day ever just live streaming into one of my client groups just now. And then there's, you know, and everything just like comes through, and you just know what to do, and where to go, and how to move. It's like being in a dance, on a dance floor, and just knowing how to move your body, right? Or maybe sex. You know in sex where you just, like it's just like super flow. And you know, you just know, like from working.

And then there's other times where you're like, should I move my leg like this more, or like that more. And you're like this is stupid. Why am I even thinking about it? And then you're thinking about why you're thinking about it. And then you're like, I think I'm not good at sex. I'm probably thinking that I'm not good at sex. And then it's just like a mind fuck. And it's definitely not flow.

So it's kind of like that. Life is like that. Life is like sex. Or sensual dancing, same thing. Or just normal dancing, or writing. It's all the same. Sometimes it just kind of comes out. And it's like, oh this is fucking magic, and it feels so good. And clearly everybody's having the best time ever because this is amazing. And then other times you're like, do it do it this way, or that way? Do I dot the I like this, or cross the T like that? Maybe I shouldn't do it. Maybe I shouldn't do it at all. Maybe I'm stupid at this. Maybe I'm not good enough for this. Mind fuck.

So just now. I was kind of like, I'm a little bit cold actually. Been sitting here for a while and I'm a little bit cold. And then I was like, maybe I'm a bit hungry. Maybe I should go and get a quick 30 minute massage before I have to go to the dentist in 43 minutes. Which I'm so excited about. I've decided that I'm gonna have the best experience ever at the dentist. Calling it in. Why would I not?

And I didn't really necessarily feel like going live. But then I was like, well really am I going to fuck around here. I'm like, but what am I gonna do? Am I gonna walk in to Sephora and buy a freaking eye liner? Or am I gonna do a livestream. Am I gonna bullshit myself that I don't have time to doing a livestream? To do a livestream before I go to the dentist. Am I gonna like tell myself the story that it's too cold to sit here? Am I gonna say, "But I don't really have a topic title anyway that's coming to me right now." I've been like, going at it hard all morning.

By going at it hard I mean I spent three hours sitting having coffee with my best friend Kelly, and talking about sex, and life, and business, and money, and sensual dancing, and all the things. But I did write a blog. And I did three or four pages of journaling. And I did go to the gym. And then I did a livestream for my members. And I've answered a bunch of comments and questions. So I've done many things, about many things. And so I have been going at it hard.

And so then I was like, well maybe my brain is a little bit fried, right? Maybe I should go up to grilled burger place and get a burger. Maybe I should go in to Sephora. Maybe I should go over there to jbsports.com that's over there behind me. Where I do wanna go? Maybe I should go and buy a new, you know like a hoodie to fit my big breasts that I now have. 'Cause none of my clothes now really fit me. I'm wearing the same exact Nike hoodie all the time. But it's just 'cause I love that hoodie. And I wear it obsessively everyday anyway. I have like a wardrobe that's worth hundreds of thousands of dollars, but I just get around town like a semi homeless person. With a Nike backpack and the same Nike hoodie on every single fucking day. Like I don't have any clothes.

So then I was like, maybe I should do that in my spare time before I go to the dentist. I don't really need to go live, you know? I'm sure I can do it later. I'm sure I'll be more inspired later. I'm sure my brain won't be fried, besides which maybe I'll have a little cool new top that I get to wear. And then I was like, you shut the fuck up Kat. You kick your own ass right now. Who cares if there's 25 people walking past you on the other side of the camera looking at you like a crazy person. You waving your hands around in the air and getting a preacher mode on for the last hour and a half, talking to your members. Man the fuck up and do what you're supposed to do.

And here we are. That's roughly how it happened. It's roughly the entire story. It's roughly the entire story of how I created my whole business and life. What do you think? What say you [inaudible 00:06:29]. Or any of the, get a float. I so have to get a float. I could float anywhere with these new breasts. I would just bobble around. I could to the ocean and just bobble around. And just float everywhere.

[inaudible 00:06:43] Sephora is always a great idea. Well it is right there. I get lost in there. I get into a little bit of a mild panic when I'm in there. It's very overwhelming. I already have way too much makeup that I don't wear or use anyhow. So I definitely don't need to go and buy more. But I don't need to go to a flotation tank to float. I've got these babies now. I'm just gonna float.

I'm sitting in a pod. 'Cause I'm a space person. Have you seen my top? It says, "Follow your soul." It's backwards writing, but it says, "Follow your soul it knows the way." I'm reclining in a pod like an alien. I'm at the shopping mall. I'm a mall rat. At least one day a week I come and I be a mall rat. A pretty wealthy one, but still a mall rat. There's a gym right up there. I have a membership at every good gym on the gold coast. So that I never have to worry about driving to the gym and just go wherever I wanna go.

So go to the gym. And then I come and sit down in my little pod. Then I was doing a livestream for my Break The Internet members. Oh my goodness. Oh my goodness. Oh my goodness. Where am I from? Well it's a very deep question. I'm from the place where our souls meet and collide and come together as one. I'm from the same place as the soul of my soulmate clients. Our souls were formed in the same soul bucket.

Mim put the comment in. Put the comment in. I'm gonna talk about the comment. I'm from places from far and near. I'm from the places that are inside all of us. I'm from the places where we travel to in our dreams and in our prayers. I'm from your wildest fantasies but potentially your deepest nightmares. It really depends on the day of the week. Who can say?

Anyway, did you see that I launched the Millionaire Mastermind? Did you see? Did you see? I believe that you have two days, minus 22 minutes left to join it. Can we all just take a moment of silence for the fact that it's 12:22 pm. If we cut off the 1, then it's 222. 1 2222, sounds pretty good. Brandon just 'cause I'm in a relationship doesn't mean I can't mingle. We're gonna need to have clarification around that I'm afraid. Gonna need to understand and clarify the terms of this agreement please. Please outline your policies below.

So, did you see that in two days, minus 22 minutes, the Millionaire Mastermind closes again? Again? It only just fucking opened for the first time ever. So it will close for the first time. It's never closed before. Because it never opened before. It only opened a few days ago. Screwed the whole thing up, I forgot to launch. Then the sales page went down for most of Sunday, and nobody knew 'cause it was Sunday. And we were all off to the races, as you do on a Sunday in Australia. Having a great Sunday session.

And then on Monday. What did we do on Monday? Oh, Monday we realised we didn't even write the freaking outline of the offer properly. We put it like a little after thought somewhere. And we didn't clearly explain what it even was. And it was very confusing to [inaudible 00:09:35]. So then we're like, fuck this shit. Countdown timer goes till midday on Thursday. Which is two days minus 23 minutes from now, 23. How may hours in a two day period? 43? 48. So, 47 hours and 37 minutes are left. You better get your ass over there.

You could wait. You could wait to join my high vibe as fuck Millionaire Mastermind. The mindset and the strategy of how to crush it online. For driven entrepreneurs and crazy creators. I don't know many of them myself, but I feel like it's a thing. Crazy creators who just want more. More what? Stupid question. If you have to ask, well more what? You don't join the programme. If you go to the Katrina Ruth Show.com forward slash Millionaire Mastermind. Let me make sure that's correctly ... I was giving out the wrong link for a while.

If you go to The Katrina Ruth Show.com forward slash Millionaire Mastermind, and then you read the tag line. And that is the right link. One hour, 23 hours, 35 minutes, and 38 seconds. That just blew my mind, 'cause I was like, no it's 47 hours. And then I'm like, 30's the same as one day 23 hours. So when you read the tag line and it says, "The mindset and strategy of crushing it online for driven entrepreneur and crazy creators who just want more." If your mind sense it, but more what? Then you leave, you leave straightaway. You take your questioning friends with you. And you do not return, alright? Just telling you. 'Cause I can't even with people that ask silly questions. And I only want the right people in there.

And there's not gonna be any need for any explanations about anything. 'Cause I'm just gonna impart knowledge to your soul. That's how the whole programme works. Well not really. My team are also gonna teach you everything that we do behind and in front of the scenes at the Katrina Ruth Show. All of the marketing, all of the funnels, all of the strategy, all of the selling. Monthly fucking report on exactly what we're doing and how it's worked. You're a founding, founding, founding member. Triple founding. Triple X. A EMC squared member, why not?

I think we should have black diamond members. Do you reckon? [Brandon's 00:11:43] a black diamond member [inaudible 00:11:44] as well. Not sure who else. Lisa [Mitchell 00:11:48] [Mackell 00:11:47], no I don't know how to say your name Lisa. I just feel like I've never said your surname out loud.

Okay, so you can go there, you can check it out. You could wait. Like I said, you could wait. Because maybe you're one of those people who's like, yeah I know exactly what I want out of life, and I fully know what's aligned for my soul. And when I get to heaven I believe that I can have it all. But I'm just like, I'm just gonna think about it. I'm just like, I'm gonna wait. I'm gonna think about it.

[Helen 00:12:12] I'm so glad you're in. Yeah, I'm just like, I'm gonna think about it. 'Cause you know, I don't do fast action taking. I don't do fast action taking. I like to think about things. I like to, you know, sit on it. And it sounds uncomfortable. And talk it over with my partner. And the dog. Then I like to look for signs. Like I like for a vestal virgin to come down from the mountain above, and to deliver me with a scroll that says, "It's time." I gotta make sure it's the right phase of the moon. So I gotta wait. I can't take fast action. I don't do fast action taking.

If you're that person, you should leave. But first you should tell me all your excuses and reasons, 'cause then I can turn them into sales copy and sell more places. Please comment below with any thoughts that you have along those lines. And otherwise, just join the fucking programme. Go read the page. And it's either going to speak to your soul. Or it's not gonna speak to your soul. But if it speaks to your soul please don't be the person who's like my soul speaks to me, and then I don't take action. 'Cause that's definitely embarrassing for you. Why would you listen to your soul, and then not act on it? It's actually like really stupid when you say it out loud and think about it.

Black diamond membership. We're gonna have to think about what black diamonds membership involves and includes. I feel like it should be a mix of slightly terrifying and slightly amazing. I can definitely handle that. What else? This is a membership programme. We do like a huge crazy ass discount to be a founding member. Which means you're going to pay only 16.666 devil numbers. I don't know why, that happened by accident. 16.666%, or something like that to join up for the first month, like a trial.

Fish slapping. Yeah, that expression came from my dad. My dad says, "Would you like a slap in the face with a cod fish?" And I'm like, "Well who wouldn't, really?" I don't know. He never said it as a mean thing. It was just funny. But it made its way into the blog this morning. So you should get a slap in the face with a cod fish if you thought you needed to think about it. That'll wake you up for sure. Anyway Peter [Gregory 00:14:09] [inaudible 00:14:11]. Shout out to my dad the pilot. He's just flowing around the earth, slapping people in the face with a cod fish if they're not paying proper attention.

Wouldn't you just hate to be his copilot? What if you weren't paying proper attention, you'd get a fish in your face. You should deserve it too. Alright, I'm trying to get to the point, I'm not sure what the point was though. Oh that's right. I am the fucking point. We all are. I'm trying to tell you about the programme, but I'm just like a little, I'm in my crazy mode obviously. It's off the hook, I can see that it's off the hook. 'Cause it says it right here in the pinned comment. But I can't read the rest of it.

Definitely off the hook. It's definitely fucking amazing. It's definitely like, the most bad ass deal to be a founding member. 'Cause I wanna get you in, and then I wanna reach into your soul, and I'm gonna grab your soul. Your soul and mine are gonna become one, in a really non-creepy way. And then you'll be thrown out. I won't throw anyone out. But you'll throw yourself out. Maybe I will throw someone out, I shouldn't say that. I will if necessary. You'll either leave, because I don't know why. But you're probably not gonna leave, because your soul will know whether or not you're meant to be there. And then obviously you stay on.

And it's a monthly membership programme. Where you learn all the things, all the time, from all the ninjas. Specifically my cat ninjas, who do all the things in my business. And then I, I, will just come in like a rockstar. When I feel like it. Straight up, I'm just gonna tell you. I'm gonna come when I want, how I want, and with who I want. I'm gonna do what I fucking want, in my own programme. So if you wanna know what I'm gonna bring, you're gonna, I don't know. I have no fucking idea. But it will be fucking amazing, and I will dazzle your [vagazle 00:16:25]. I hope we do get that one person here.

Well that was fun. We had that moment in the [inaudible 00:15:48]. It was quite hilarious and shocking. So I will just come in, when the mood strikes me. I'll come in with some bad [inaudible 00:15:56]. I'll bring my energy. I'll bring my presence. You'll be like, wow I can't even look at it, it's too blinding. Get me away from it. But it's fascinating, what is that? And I'll be like, it's me, Katrina Ruth, hi. So you know, I'll probably be in there a lot. Just dancing and prancing. And doing whatever I wanna do.

I promise nothing, at all. There's nothing I'm promising at all, nothing. But I'll deliver everything. I think I said dazzle your [vagazle 00:16:23]. You know [vagazles 00:16:25], like when you get little diamond on your vagina. It just came out. It just popped out. I don't really have an explanation. I can't excuse myself, there's nothing I can say further. Maybe that's what you get as a black diamond member. You get some [vagazle 00:16:45]. You get a little sequin that you can put on your ... Well I'm sorry [Brandon 00:16:48] you're gonna have to give it to [Rebecca 00:16:51]. Or we'll find a manly version. I'm sorry.

I'm not really sorry at all. I'm having too much fun. So isn't it just the best creation ever? Aren't I a genius? Don't you just think I'm a genius? I'm selling a programme where I'm promising nothing. I'll do whatever I want. I'll turn up like a rockstar when I feel like it. It's fine, because anyone who knows me knows I over fucking deliver all the time. And really it's the energy. It is the energy. I will allow you into my soul. I don't allow everybody into my soul. I wrote about that in my blog this morning. I said, "It's a hell no with every cell in my body."

I'm gonna give a shout out to [inaudible 00:17:32] because that was her line. And she let me use her line for my blog title a few weeks ago. In an audio she was telling me about it, something a story in her life. And she said, "It's just a hell no from me. With every cell in my body." And I was like, goddamn it that's the best blog title I ever heard. And I said to her, "You should use that in a blog title." She goes, "I'm not going to. You can use it if you want." I was like done and done. And I wrote it down, and I saved it on my desktop, and then I forgot.

And then this morning it came back to me. It was like smack. It was like not a smack in the face with a cod fish. Okay just slapped myself with two hands whilst at the shopping mall. And I'm in the kind of designer area, like where, like [Harolds 00:18:08] is right there. Coach, don't care for Coach. Don't bring a Coach purse if you come to see me. It's not my favourite. [Ermez 00:18:16] is just around there. I'm in the designer area slapping myself. [inaudible 00:18:21]

It's gonna be amazing. It's gonna be beyond next, next, next, next level. You get all my ninjas. We're actually including like tech support for you, and Facebook advertising support, and all the market, like all the things. I'm super fucking excited about it. Had some control issues. I had some control issues. It required some prayer. It required some wine. And as I put on the sales page. Oh Channel is just up there [inaudible 00:18:51]. Hang on, is it up there? Yeah.

And it required a little bit of sexual healing. Before I was able to release the control issues that I had around, me not being the only rockstar of the show. Because I'm letting my team all be rockstars as well. So you know, I had to like, this is embarrassing. 'Cause I just gave a whole lot of shit to people who sit on things and don't take rapid action. Like I don't do fast action taking. Mirror, hello. Yeah, I didn't take very fast action on this. I sat on it for ages. What a flake. But now here we are. And it's fabulous.

What else should we talk about? Is there anything else to even say? Don't you think it's just divinely delightful, that you can launch and amazing bad ass membership programme. Where you can bring your whole team in. And allow them to share their gifts with the world, and support your amazing bad ass clients. That's a big deal to me. It feels very special. It feels like I'm letting my little birds, they probably don't really prefer to be referred to as little birds I imagine. But it feels like I'm letting my big eagles free from the nest. Well I suppose if you had a nest full of eagles they'd probably be doing whatever the fuck they wanted anyway. And not flying free from the nest.

The truth is, my team do do whatever the fuck they want a lot. But I just trust and know that they're gonna do what is aligned and profit-full. I really don't wanna know what they're doing. Like I don't want a fucking report. As if I care. I just want the outcome, right? So it is a special thing to be able to give you my team. But isn't it just divinely delightful, that I get to just give me. And I don't even have to say in advance what little piece of me you're gonna get.

Like what am I gonna do? You know on the first Monday of every month you get a piece of my elbow. On the second Monday of every month, you get like a little demonstration of my soul. On the third Monday of every month, you get access to a makeup tutorial from Channel. What am I gonna do? Am I gonna pre-package all the little parts of my life and who I am? Or am I just gonna show up like a star, on the stage. And whatever needs to come out for my members will be the full power and the glory, and the exact soul flow message that was meant to be delivered that day.

That feels a little more fun and interesting. My goodness. Six years ago, ten years ago, even two years ago. I would have thought, you can't sell that, you can't sell nothing. Well I guess I'm not selling nothing, there's a whole lot of fucking promises on that sales page. And we haven't even told you the half of all the plans as well. That's just a percentage of it. But, we're kind of selling nothing as far as my role. I'm selling that I'll do whatever I want. I'm pretty happy about it. And I think that I'm pretty happy, or grateful I should say, to my community to you. To have that level of trust. Even for people who've only just met me and come across me. My soul spoke, and your soul said yes, and now here we are.

Or maybe you just created me. Maybe your soul created me. In which case, I gotta give you props for being such a bad ass creator of such a bad ass character in your story. I think you were very creative with this one. So maybe you just created me, and maybe right now this is you talking. Like this is you talking. I am talking to you. And it's actually you. Well done, get out of my soul. Without prior access or permission. Go read my blog from this morning. 'Cause I talk about who gets to be my soul, and who not. So you know who you are anyway. You already know.

I think that's really all that I have to say. I think maybe I will go to freaking Sephora. I think I'll go to Adidas, or Adidas, or whatever it's called. I can see it over there. I think I'm gonna go up there. I'm gonna buy something that fits my large bosoms. And then I'm gonna go to the dentist. And I'm gonna have the best time ever. Because I decided to. And I'm probably gonna meet an amazing person at the dentist who's gonna change my life. And I'm gonna change their life. And then we're gonna have an argument over who created who. And then that person's gonna join the Millionaire Mastermind. And then I'm gonna be like, I told you about that already in advance on the livestream.

And then after that I'm gonna talk to some of my clients. And then I'm gonna do another Muay Thai session. 'Cause who doesn't like to back up a Muay Thai session in the ring every two days, less than a week after having breast surgery? Me, that's who. Then I'm gonna have my hair done, and it's gonna look amazing. So I'll probably need to livestream again. It already looks quite amazing, just a bit sweaty. That's the whole story. If you didn't read my blog from today, I'm gonna give you that link now. 'Cause that was a must read. Here's this, everyone needs to do this now, no wining excises. You should listen to your soul, and you should do what your soul says.

You should go read my blog from this morning it's called, "It's a hell no with every cell in my body." I feel quite happy with the ass [kickery 00:23:22] tone of it. My battery of my laptop is down to only 6% though. Which feels problematic and troublesome to use a word that's recently been reminded back to me. I'm going to try and share that blog for you before I go. But It doesn't wanna share. So maybe it's not divine to be. So go to my personal Katrina Ruth page and read the blog from this morning. It is gonna kick your ass. It will metaphorically and energetically fish slap the fuck out of you.

Okay I just found it, don't worry I'll bring it over for you. Hello, hello hello. I will not try closing and reopening my browser window. You try closing and reopening your browser window you stupid thing. Do you think it's normal to talk to your laptop? Well we should give my dad a shout out for providing some good coffee. Alright, and then the other thing is, read the comment. Go to the comment. It's not really another thing we already talked about it. The Katrina Ruth Show.com forward slash Millionaire Mastermind. Maybe you're wondering. Maybe you're new and you're like, where is the show then I wanna watch the show. Well this is the show. It's happening right here. It will be happening at the dentist in not too long. In 22 minutes in fact. So I probably should get up and go.

Alright, in one minute when this thing fucking loads for me. I'm gonna give you the link so you can go read my blog. 'Cause I like to make your life easy and fabulous. When you really could just go there and read it anyway. So I'll pop that link in for you. Have an amazing epic rest of the day. Wherever you are in the world. Thank you for playing. Thank you for allowing my silliness to come out. I wasn't expecting it. I actually said at the start of the livestream that I was gonna be giving you an ass kicking today. Actually I did give you an ass kicking. You're welcome. You're welcome. It was with pleasure. I'm just here to serve. I'm just here to serve. But I didn't think I was going down the stupid silly route. That just happened. I'm happy about it 'cause it makes me feel hyper.

And now one of my favourite songs is on. Havana, I left my heart back in Havana. They play the best music here. Why would you not want to be a mall rat and work here all day. Okay this link is coming. It's coming for you right now. Don't go anywhere. Read this mornings blog. Read the pinned comment. It is going to expand your beautiful mind. Your soul will know exactly what to do. Do it. And don't forget Life is Now. Press Play.

Hello, hello, hello, I might be a little shaky. I'm in my post surgery at home bed, at home hospital bed. Oh fuck a duck, do you think that my internet went out? I think my internet went out last night. That's annoying. Let's see if I can connect to my phone.

I feel like my voice isn't going to work you guys, I'm all shaky. It's not even from this, I think I'm shaky about live streaming with my new situation here. I think it's making me feel self conscious. I feel nervous. I feel like I'm doing a reveal. There's nothing to even show. I'm quite tempted to just lift up my top and show you. Do you think that would be super inappropriate? Probably? Should I do that or no?

There's nothing to see anyway, it's so fucking taped up. Do you want to see? I don't even care. There you go. Taped as fuck. Hello sister. I just lift and flashed my boobs as my sister jumps on the livestream. Okay nobody like my real life has even seen it and I'm just like, there you go. Can you see what's going on there? I have no idea. I can't tell. This view that I have right now on my own camera is the best view that I've had, because I'm like looking down.

I do, hang on let me just share this over. I've got to share it. There you go, you guys got to see the boobies before even most of my best friends. My nurse Tigan Jade is downstairs on a walk, she probably can tell me off of live streaming when she comes back. I was getting too bored sitting in bed.

"Hey boobies," who's flagged in on my profile? Who is that, and just commented, "Hey boobies,"? I don't know who's looked in my profile, but I'm going to just share this straight on to my timeline, because I didn't let anyone know that I was going live. Let me tell you more in a second, let me just share this into the Daily Ask Cookery group, boobies reveal, I should have said boobies reveal. I said, "Millionaire Mastermind sneak preview," and I didn't say, "Boobies reveal," but there you go.

If you just jumped on live, here's another sneak peek. I'm fascinated. I don't know what's happening under there. It's so freaking tight, that it feels like there's an elephant on my chest. Check this out, here's a bag of blood, here's a bag of my own blood that I'm carrying around. Would you like to see? I'm sure you would. I'm nothing if not polite with the show and tell. Oh my God, it's happening in here. There you go. Oh my God, look at all that blood that's come out of me overnight. Holy shit.

Okay, one of the boobs clearly has a lot more to, because look, so they've each got their own tubes. There's a tube and there's a tube, one coming from each. Too late I had already showed. Well you don't have to watch if I'm grossing you out, deal with it. There's two tubes with a lot of blood running through them.

Mayana, hi Mayana. Mayana I need to book Nathan in for tomorrow morning. Do you think it's stupid of me to go to the gym tomorrow morning when I have my boobs done yesterday? Of course not, I'm just going to walk on the treadmill. One boob had let out all this blood, I think I'll get shut down from Facebook for showing inappropriate things. Why does the other one not have anything to give do you think? What's happening? Do you think the mechanism is not working properly? I just noticed that, I didn't look at it before, and dear is not grossed out.

Well if anyone's grossed out, they can just turn away. It's not that bad. We'll all seen a bit of blood and plasma as somebody just said. It was freaking annoying all night long every time I wanted to move, having to like rotate myself around this bag of blood and shit. I'm pretty bored, because I didn't get up in the morning. Oh that's you Jess, oh that's fine. I'm bored because it's 8:29 AM and like I've woken up in my own bed, with no, we've all see titties before, well you still haven't seen these ones properly. I'm so going to the gym tomorrow, because I'll go crazy. I'll just do some cardio or something.

Then I'm going to go back to Mui Tai on Friday morning, I don't even care, but we'll just be careful. I'll do lower body stuff. I won't do anything stupid, nobody needs to try and school me. I'll probably go on a walk after this, because I'm kind of so, it's so weird for me to wake up in the morning and then not going anywhere, because I'm supposed to be resting obviously. I've rested like a good girl. I've been awake for only an hour. Tigan my amazing friend, who stayed with me last night to look after me when he brought me a nice coffee. She's gone on a walk now, which is how I've sneakily got away with going live, because she probably would have said no to.

She brought me ribs last night, what an amazing friend. Kelly Ronnie picked me up and took me home. I kept passing out at first when she came to the hospital, so she had to wait for a bit. Then we had to go to like three different chemists, because apparently no pharmacies stock freaking painkillers, and they were all out of painkillers, we're like, it's not ideal really. We had to drive all around town to get the medications, then we got back here. Then Tigan and Kelly were like, "Are you all right? You kind of like look as though as like super hyped up and talking at a million miles an hour and having the best time ever." They're like, "You seem oddly fine." I'm like, "I feel fine. I feel great."

It's not painful. Okay there you go again if you just jumped on late. They're double D, but it's not as big as it sounds, because I've got shoulders you know. I'm athletic. When we put like the smaller tester ones in, you know when you go there and they put the ones in your bra to have a look, if we went a bit smaller than that, it was kind of like what's the point even. One of them got for 460, this one, and this one got 480.

There you go, now I've shown you, but obviously it's taped up as fuck. Tomorrow we'll untape it, tomorrow we'll go to the doctor and untape it. By the way, check out my bedroom view, there's the ocean right there, how good is it? I always wish I could livestream where you could see the ocean behind me, but then I wouldn't be as comfortable. Yes, double D and I guess they'll sit like that for a few months probably, right? Then they'll start to drop down, but right now it feels like I've got cleavage up to my chin, I'm like what's happening here. I don't know what to do with this whole situation.

I'm going to have to do so much shopping. Who wants like 17000 teeny-tiny size, extra small Lululemon sports bars and tops? I have them and I'm not going to be able to wear them, and I've got like a million cool as fuck body suits and stuff as well, which I won't be able to wear. I should have a Facebook marketplace pre boobies' sale.

No, it doesn't really hurt. It just feels fucking tight. I feel like there's a small baby elephant who's a little bit angry, who's sitting on my chest and who's just like, "I'm just going to keep reminding you that I'm here." The shapes going to be amazing, I do need a rotating bed, no but Jesse, if I face the other way, then the lights not on my face and it won't look as good. Don't think, India says, "I don't think I'm ready for you with double D, they'll be car auctions again every time you go live." Do you think I'm going to make more money with bigger boobs? It's not why I do that, but I don't see why I wouldn't. I think it's logical. I don't know, there's no actual logic to that except that if you believed it then it's true, so that's what's logical.

Taken to a nude beach. I have no problems with nudity. I would happily walk down the street naked. I have nobody shame as far as, yeah, body shame. I've plenty of shame that I've still got to release around others, but don't you think after you have a kid, you're like, whatever, who cares, everybody can say whatever the fuck they want. Yeah, it doesn't hurt, it just feels crazy tight, and it's hard to tell if that's from the skin being stretched or it's from the taping that's so, the tape is so tired. He told me to loosen off a bit later this morning, because it might give me like skin blisters from how tight it is. I'll do that, and I get to unplug my bag of blood later this morning as well, which I get to do myself, maybe I'll get Tigan to do it for me. Then tomorrow I get to go into the surgeon and be untaped and have a reveal, but I'm probably not going to just lift my shirt up to show the actual boobs. Like I said with the brown, I got to go bra shopping. I need to go shopping. I should just wake up and go shopping right now.

Yeah, I'm getting, like I'm just getting a little bit restless sitting in bed, because it's so weird for me to wake up and then not get out of the bed and going anywhere. I wake up, my friend brought me a coffee, then I actually just messaged a bunch of friends back and forth for a while and had a fabulous conversation about magnetising and hypnotising people's minds with one of my awesome male entrepreneur friends, that was interesting.

Then I was like, well, I already wrote a blog late last night in my somewhat drugged up state. It was very good, make sure you go read it if you didn't already. I don't really feel like writing, I'm like, I can't just freaking sit in bed all morning. What do people do when they're in post surgery recovery? You can't just sit around in bed, it's so boring, I get so restless. I feel like I need to get up and do 20 jump squats, but it's probably a bad idea.

Here we are. What do you want to talk about? Something that I was talking about, ask me any questions you want. I don't think there's any more questions to ask about the boobies, so I just want to see them, you know, I just want to be able to have a look at them. I hope they're not like too hard for the first few months, but it is what it is. It's worth the first few months, and then they'll go down again.

"Your writing will be fire, get a personal shopper to bring new bras to you." Yes. Yes, I do hate shopping so much. Should I do, I know where I want to go down to what's it called, Honey Birdette. I like their stuff a lot. I've got probably like $2000 worth of Honey Birdette lingerie, all the fancy [inaudible 00:10:45] somewhat dominatrix stuff. I know it's not going to fit me. Well I guess the bottoms will anyway, it's fine, it's just an additional expense to getting boobies, isn't it?

It's going to be quite full on I think when I start really showing them off about town, and by about town I mean Facebook. I guess the real town as well. In fact the boobies are going to go for their first night on the town on Friday night this week. Jess says, Jessica is my sister, Jess Lewis is my sister for those who don't know you are in the presence of my sister, send her a love heart shower. "You should come over and hang out with me later. Can't believe it was day surgery, thought before for sure it was an overnight thing before you did it." I know, it's funny, isn't it? It's like let's just have a quick boob job before lunch.

I went in at 10 AM. I got there at 9:30 or something. I was super fucking nervous. I was so nervous. Actually Sam just jumped on. Hi Sam, who's on my team as well and I was messaging Sam. Sam messaged me and put my mind to ease a lot actually. I really appreciated that message, because I just think you freak out about going under and being a mom, and then I was like maybe this is the wrong decision. I felt like I was going to cry.

My friend Kelly was going to drive me, but I knew she had our kid, so I was like, "Don't worry, I'll just get an Uber," and then she came down later and picked me up and everything. I got an Uber to the hospital and I just felt in the Uber like I'm going to cry. I felt like, is this wrong? I'm like chopping up my body, but it was the first time that I doubted it, right, I 100% knew that I wanted this. I think it was just those pre-surgery nerves and I messaged a few friends and they helped me out.

Then when I got there though, as soon as I got to registration at the hospital, I just instantly knew that this is the right thing to do. I felt sure of myself, but then you still feel nervous. Then when I got changed in the changing room, like pre-op, I took a bunch of nude selfies. For those of my team members who get my photos, when I take a photo on my phone, it automatically streams to the entire team, those who have access to the photo stream, so that they can use it on social media. There's three pictures there of my boobs now for everybody, enjoy. I guess Jess can take them off the stream and put them somewhere for me, because I was like I better record these boobies before they disappear.

I sometimes take inappropriate photos or sometimes somebody might send me an inappropriate photo, and then I forget that it instantly gets uploaded to the stream and my whole team's getting it. I'm like well, I'm nothing if not completely transparent, there's nothing to hide. I did that. Hi Julian, and here's another peak for anybody who jumped on late, so that you don't have to watch the replay. There you go. I don't know how much you can tell from seeing it like that though, because they're so taped up.

I think they're going to be quite huge. I think they might be bigger than I even think. I think I'm going to love them. Yes, so I did that and then you sit in your gown with your fancy pink hat on and all that stuff. Okay, somebody called Peter Parker has requested to join the Daily [inaudible 00:13:47], do you think I should let him in? No, decline. I'm just like multitasking here.

"Always taking inappropriate photos then publish them." Why would you not, right? Why would you not? What I'm I up to in my story? Yeah, I had my chat with like the anaesthetist and the other person and the other person. They ask you the same question 40 million times to make sure that you're not under some kind of, being coerced by somebody. I think they just keep asking you again to making sure you're saying all the same answers.

Then we go into the surgery room and then I just woke up. They're like, "Oh you're awake, you're done." I was like, "I can't be, nobody ever asked me to count backwards from 10," that was the first thing I said when I woke up. I was like liars, it's not possible that the surgery happened yet, because I never got asked to count backwards from 10. I was just waiting and then now I'm awake.

I feel a little bit ripped off by that, I would have preferred to have been asked to count backwards from 10, which is what happened last time when I was, about nearly 10 years ago I had a lump in my breast that I had removed. That's the only other time in my life I've been under, and they did ask me to count backwards from 10, then which I feel is polite.

No, they're not silicon. I don't know. Don't ask me detail questions, because I don't remember. I didn't pay that much attention to the details. I'll find out tomorrow, but they're like the newest, latest, greatest and the surgeon's amazing. I had to wait months to get in with him. I mean like I've been waiting since the start of the yeah.

Yeah, and so then you just, it was like 11:30 and it was already done, and then I just kept passing out though. I got clumsy and sick and nauseous and weak and faint, and so I stayed for a while and then Kelly came and got me. It's so funny how quickly it's done. It's just like, oh boom, okay. Now I just feel 100% certain that it was the right thing to do, and I feel super excited. We're going out for a girls' night out on the town on Friday night, which actually I was going to message you about Jess.

Jessica, would you like to come to dinner on Friday night and then out after that? There you go, I just conducted my personal business here on livestream. A bunch of us girls here on the coast are going to go heated up, and so the boobies get their first night out on the town. Do you think I'm going to need some kind of protective guard around them though? I don't think anybody should be allowed to touch them, that's for sure. When I posted in the daily asking [inaudible 00:16:02] about it yesterday, Philip, was like, "I can't wait to touch them." I'm like, comment of the year award.

I'm a little happy, I'm quite happy, I'm quite happy with myself. Let me tell you about the topic. I feel like people, I feel like maybe you should be resting, well this is resting. This is how entrepreneurs rest, right? Somebody posted on my Daily Ask Katrina post yesterday rest up or whatever, and I said, of course, by rest up posts you mean write some blogs, do some livestream and maybe launch a small programme, while I'm sitting here in bed. What the fuck do people do if they just have to sit in bed you guys? What do they do? Do they read? Do they read magazines? I would claw my eyes out with a spoon if I had to do that.

Last night I told Tigan I was going to bed at 8 PM, Tigan my friend who stayed over with me. Then I came up here and wrote a letter to somebody and then wrote a blog, and then answered all my client boxes and then did a bunch of stuff for my business. Then checked in on some website and app development, cleared all my emails. It was really quite a rest for evening and then I finally went to sleep. Now I'm resting, because I'm actually healing myself right now from being live.

Oh magazines, I picked up one once, it was the worst day of my life honestly, just having to even engage in that energy for a moment. Actually here's a great quote for you, I was at the hair salon last week, he said to me, he's like a new stylist that was doing a blowout for me. I go the same place always, but I hadn't met this guy before. He's like, "Would you like some trash to read?" I'm like, "No, I've gone there, it sounds really appealing to the way you said it, like would you like some trash to read." He's going, "Of course not honey, you are the trash aren't you?" I was like, "Well, that's the most oddly worded compliment that I've ever heard before," but I was taking it fully as a compliment. I was like, "That's right, I am the trash. I should be in the magazine."

Going to bring me a playgirl? What the fuck is a playgirl? Is that like a nudity magazine about with men in it? I can lift all, okay, I was going to say, I can lift my arms all the way out, but I can lift them till there. I could definitely do some lateral raises, but maybe not the full [inaudible 00:18:18]. I can go like that. It doesn't feel ideal to straighten them yet.

You know what, it's all in your head. I'm actually healing myself right now, from live streaming, because this is for real though, right, this is a topic we should talk about, get serious this time for purpose church. This is a topic we should talk about, because when you do the things that uplift and expand you, you elevate your flow zone, I've ever said flow zone before, but it just came out, flow zone.

You elevated your flow zone, you elevate into super flow, right? When you do the things that expand you, like your art, you're messaging, you're unleashing, you're hanging out with cool bad ass people, then you do the things, then you're expanding yourself. You're going into a greater level of creativity, and well super flow obviously, flow zone, whatever the fuck it is, your vibe is. Therefore, you're activating the good healing cells. What is it called? Tell me something medical somebody, but you're definitely allowing your body, you're building your immune system up, you're, I don't know what I'm talking about, but I know exactly what I'm talking about. You guys know that I know what I'm talking about. I just can't figure out the right words right now.

You're definitely releasing healing powers from inside of you, raising your vibe to pure light, that's the medical way to say it exactly right. Getting challenged on mind versus physical watching post surgery. I'm as high as anything and not on medication, that's, well I was yesterday, maybe a little bit. Harnessing your chi, exactly, exactly, you're putting yourself into a healing state.

I am putting myself into a healing state by sitting in bed live streaming, rather than buying into some sort of bullshit story that, because I had surgery and they said to rest that that means lie here. Even I was only awake for an hour before I went live, and I was already getting so bored. I'd had some fabulous conversations, which was nice, but then they were kind of petering out. Then I was like, well, if I sat, stayed in the bed and just like read or watched a movie or something, if I felt like doing that I'd do that obviously. If I did that when I feel like I desire to livestream and talk, then that would be a great way of slowing down my healing, right, because I'd be lowering my vibe and be more in a, it's kind of a scarcity mindset to say that I can't livestream if felt like live-streaming. I mean it's only fucking [inaudible 00:20:43]. Okay, sorry. Hello.

Okay, I feel like I should have another special reveal for Jen Scarlett, because she just jumped on. There you go Jen, check it out, double D. Hang on. Hang on, my tripod's gone wonky as fuck. Do you know what I mean? You've got to give in to being you at all times. I know for sure that I'm going to have miraculous healing and that they're going to be like, "Holy shit, you recovered fast." Why is this tripod leaning forward so much do you think? I need to put another book under. Stick my journal under it.

You should see the things that are written in this journal. Okay, what is happening? Hang on, I don't know why tripod's suddenly become really wonky. No? Who just shit themselves? Why? Or did you see crotch, sorry, it's covered though. I don't have any underwear on, but I've got boxer shorts on. Okay, it's magnetised to the boobies. I think I'm going to have the fastest recovery in the world and my doctor and everybody's going to be like, "How the fuck did she recover so fast?" I always have super fast recovery from the tattoos, my tattoo artist is always like, "How is this even possible? It's like three days and it's fully healed." I said to him, "Well, honestly I think the more you have a fast metabolism and you're very healthy, then that's very logical, you'll recover faster, because metabolism is the act, metabolism doesn't just mean weight loss right, it's the running of your body. It's the effectiveness and the function of this whole system and machine here. I have a very high metabolism and I'm very healthy, and my body processes and digest this really quickly, because I take such good care of myself. That means that everything is sped up, including detoxification and recovery.

I'm quite certain I'll have a really fast recovery. I'm quite certain I'll, yeah, before my surgeon said I can go back to the gym in two days. I wasn't joking when I said I'm going to go to the gym tomorrow, why would I not? "I'm doing the same," says Natalie, "Miraculous healing. Broke my foot three weeks ago, on day 3 I was already dancing, on day 16 I took off my cast and I walked." Exactly, why would we not just believe in miracles?

Okay, I have to have another review, because Maria just got on. There you go. That's all you can see and if you're going to see the boobs, then you should be required to see the bag of blood as well, right, it's only fair. My healings going to be amazing and I'm going to go to new levels of super flow. I'm going to triple my income and I'm going to have even more fun and adventure than are I already do. I'm going to love myself even more deeply, but I could do all that stuff with or without the boobs, right, well except for the healing bit, because that wouldn't be required.

It's all just a choice, but I choose to believe in miracles. I choose to believe in expansion and I choose to freaking believe that they are the right thing for me to do when I'm in recovery, is obviously do the things that elevate me and elevate my vibe and that I enjoy to do, because then I feel happy. Then I feel free and then I feel like me and so then I recover even faster, because when you say yes to your soul, life says yes to you. That's the reality. Then maybe I have a little nap later. It's a whole story really.

The Millionaire Mastermind is going to launch Saturday morning at 9 AM my time, which is 7 PM Eastern Standard Time on Friday evening. I really don't have much to tell you about it, but should I tell you quickly about it? Then I want to talk about this topic about not admitting. Do you not admit what you really, really want with maybe your business, the kind of business you want, the kind of money you want to make, what about love and relationships, or your body right, or how people see you or accept to you or how much happiness and fun you get time in your life? Do you sometimes not admit what you really want, because there's a fear there that if you acknowledge that, that's how much you want, you want this amazing freaking thing that's this good, if you acknowledged and admitted it, then you basically make yourself so vulnerable. Then if it didn't happen, it's like you got rejected by the universe itself. That's kind of the thing that I wanted to talk about and kick your ass around.

I'm going to tell you for sure, that if you don't admit that you really want something and you don't admit all of it. Then you don't claim it and have the courage and the daily wherewithal to claim it and stand in that power and truth, even though it feels like terrifying or even though it feels like this can never happen or maybe I'm not good enough for this or are not worthy, or my life couldn't be that good. You've got to be courageous enough to keep claiming it every day anyway even, and especially when it seems like it's not working or you're not getting what you want. Thank you Maria.

Otherwise, you're simply never going to fucking get it and I want to talk more about that in a moment. I feel very passionately about how many people out there are just pretending to be okay with their version of, like their second best life basically or third best or freaking 20th best. You should have gone to my surgeon, my surgeon's a legend. He's like the best surgeon here obviously like who else would I choose, right? That's why I had to wait a while for his waiting list.

Then, there's even more to love now. I am launching something that is, that does not exist on the internet and it is going to blow minds. Okay, it's a little hard to move though, it is going to blow minds left, right and centre, left, right and venter. Just tell Ashley to email out this livestream too. "Can I PM his name?" Yes, just PM me and then I'll reply to you. I won't remember otherwise, I have a memory like a old fish. Well that's not even true. I have a short-term memory like a gold fish, but I remember all important things.

Like if somebody said something meaningful to me for example, in January one of 2017, I'll remember exactly what it fucking is. What was I up to? What was I up to? Oh the Millionaire Mastermind. Okay if you jumped in late, you missed the whole booby review, you're going to have to watch the replay.

I've lost my train of thought. Okay, I've got it. This definitely doesn't exist in the internet in the world, anywhere. It is going to blow your beautiful mind. What about grains? What about the grains? I should have some of those chocolate grains. I'm getting a little out of breath. Bag of blood. I am launching on Saturday morning at 9 AM Brisbane time, which is 7 PM New York Eastern Standard Time. Katrina Ruth's high vibe as fuck Millionaire Mastermind, that is exactly what it's called.

We had some argument about it within the team. Well when my team were like, "You can't call it the high vibe as fuck Millionaire Mastermind, because you can't put that on a Facebook" I'm like, "Fuck Facebook ads," but true, so we'll have a duplicate page where we have like a lame ass version, where we call it like high vibe AF Millionaire Mastermind for the Facebook ads. The real name is Katrina Ruth's high vibe as fuck Millionaire Mastermind.

The number one membership programme in the world, in the world you guys. Vampire? I'm not going to drink the blood, I'm just going to carry it around with me when I go out to a coffee shop like a weirdo and freak everybody out. Yes, the number one membership programme in the world for driven entrepreneurs and creators who just want more, which I presume is you or you really shouldn't be here on the livestream, right? If you don't want more, what the fuck do you want? You want less? You want the same? You want nothing? Leave, just leave.

If you're a driven creator and entrepreneur who just wants more, send me a love heart shower now. Go, I'm going to wait for it, so that I know who's here. Here come the love hearts. In about 2009, 2010, I love the love hearts thank you guys. In about 2010, I launched probably like my second official blog and it was called Woman Incredible. Who has, comment if you have followed me since Woman Incredible.

I was so proud of it. I am still so proud of it. I think I'm still cached on the domain name, so nobody can take it, so womaincredible.com. The tagline was fitness, nutrition and fat loss for driven women who just want more, right? To me that felt perfect and it was like everything, but then a business mentor at the time that I hired, came along. Remembering that this was a time in my life before I fully knew that it was always, always, always, okay and even essential to do whatever the fuck I want and nothing else, and that there are no rules, I wasn't at that point yet of my journey and awareness.

He said to me, "You can't just say for driven women who just want more, because what do they want more of?" He said, it's an unfinished sentence on the tagline, you can't just say driven women who just want more. What do they want more of? I was like, "Everything," like stupid question. What else would they want more of?

I still listened to him though you guys. I have compassion for the younger cal, that's fine. I listen to him and I think I then added something to it like who just want more, I don't even know what I said, probably something bullshit like fitness or who knows, right? Now I just look back and I'm like, oh that's fine, like that was just part of my story and my journey.

Now I'm back too, but that's my audience. Like when I think about who are my tribe, who you are you, well there's a million things I could call you and probably will and do and have. One of them is, you're a driven bad ass who just wants more more. More what? More everything, like anyone who doesn't understand that shouldn't be here and should leave. If you don't understand it then leave.

My Millionaire Mastermind, my high vibe as fuck Millionaire Mastermind is the number one membership programme in the world. In fact, the only membership programme in the world. I've got to change that a little bit, for driven entrepreneurs and creators who just want more. This has been coming actually for a few months, very unlike me to hold something back for a few months, but it's been quite a lot logistically to set up. You're going to be blown away by what we're doing here.

The reason I know it's completely unique and different is that, this is not about doing a mastermind with me, of course it is, but let me explain more. It's a membership programme right, so it's a monthly subscription, you'll be able to pay month to month. I don't look people in for contracts ever right, if you want to leave, you leave, why would I want you there? You're going to stay, because it's going to be so fucking good and then you're going to refer all your friends and then I'll send you a gift. You can send me a gift, because you love me and it will just keep going back and forth basically. PO BOX 861 [inaudible 00:31:42] Paradise 4217 for all gifts or new bras, that's what I'm going to need. Gift vouchers, I'll take gift vouchers for Honey Birdette and for Lululemon. Fortunately I have a friend that works at Lululemon.

Okay, anyway, or I'll take one, I'll definitely take one, I'll take ribs, but probably don't send them to the PO BOX, you can just bring them straight up and then we can do a livestream together. Okay, where I'm I up to? Have a quick ocean break while I think about what I'm up to. All right, done. It's a membership programme. It is where I'm actually giving you my entire team.

This is going to be so next, next, next, next, next level as fucked that you won't even know what's happening. My entire team is going to be at your fingertips, at your fingertips? Yes. You're going to have, we're going to have in-house tech support for you, Facebook advertising support, funnel and marketing support, social media support.

Like you know I've got, well I wouldn't say it's a big town team. I think I have 10 employees total or a couple that are contractors and then the rest are employees. It's pretty big doh for an online entrepreneur, and so they do many ninja like things in the business of course they do. These are all things that I did myself for years though before I had the time when I was building the business, I had to learn how to do all that stuff myself obviously and I did. I still know how to do most of those things, but of course I choose not to, because I'm just too into freaking entertainment, performance show for you and have fun doing whatever I want.

If you're in a stage of your business now where you need or desire knowledge and information around the marketing side of things, like all the strategy of everything that we do in our business right? Like how my whole business runs and operates, or it could be that you get access for your staff to learn from my staff. I feel like I'm not explaining this in a really good way.

Basically what the Millionaire Mastermind is, it's this bad ass as fuck membership programme, where my team will be running the trainings and teachings as well as me. Literally every different thing that is done in my business, you'll have my actual team in there guiding you and supporting you, that's what makes it so unique, because so many people have membership programmes and I have a current membership programme, the have I Mastermind and the have I as fuck millionaire mastermind is the next level, the evolution of the have I mastermind, right. It's like 2.0 or whatever, because I'm like, it's just, there's so much more that I could be sharing if I brought my team in on that.

I did a programme, Million Dollar funnels a couple months ago, where my team taught a lot of the programme. Like I only did maybe 20% of that programme and Ash and Brahman did the rest between them. Ash' my brother slash chief operating officer in my business slash marketing person. Does all my funnels, Brahman does all the Facebook and other forms of advertising and people who did the Million Dollar funnel programme loved it so much, to receive training and access to support from Ash and Brahman as well as me. They're the ones who do those things in my business.

Each month in the Millionaire Mastermind we'll be teaching like the exact freaking stuff that we do and doing a lot of it live. We'll also be like, okay, this is what we're working on this exact month. This is what we're doing this month in our automated income, in our funnels, he's the one who campaign, take it, swipe it, use it. Here's only marketing. Here's what we're doing in our advertising right now, here's how we're doing social media right now.

Then what I will do in there, is just show up like a fucking rock star and do whatever the fuck I want, in terms of I'll be in there with the mindset, the alignment, the purpose, obviously bringing you back to core into you. This is an ongoing programme that you get to be part of. We've got so many cool trainings and like way that it's going to run and everything, you'll get to see when I actually launch it. That's going to launch Saturday morning at 9 AM, Brisbane time, Friday evening 7 PM New York time, and you'll learn more about then.

It's, the founding members offer is strictly limited. It is oh my fucking God amazing, you are going to be shocked, your jaw will be on the floor and then you'll be magnetised as fuck by the how yes of it all. Then you will indeed sign up so I'll see you there. That's about that.

It's a little hard to breathe all the way in. Let me have some Batman juice. Okay, so what's else? Then the other thing was, do you know that when I moved into this apartment, I came up and I stood in the bedroom, in my bedroom where I am now, and I stood like roughly right here where the tripod is. I stood there and this was [inaudible 00:36:18] 13 months, so just every year. This is a beautiful subtend house apartment on two levels, with seven balconies and ocean view from all of them, right? Often if you see me live streaming, I'm in my studio downstairs. The studio's actually directly under the bedroom.

When I moved in here, I didn't actually do the move, my nanny did the move. My nanny such housekeeper Sarafina who did the move for me while I was in, oh yeah hell, I even forgot I even talked about it in there. Oh my God, that was so long ago now. It just was like a lot for us to get ready, because the membership platform has so much content in and all these different stuff and everything and because the whole team is teaching not just me.

Right Lily, great memory. Sarafina did the move for me. I was in Bali of course, where I'm pretty much always at, and she moved from my old apartment. My old apartment was in this building on a different floor, so I had a two bedroom apartment in this building, so I decided to move in the same building, but still it's like moving all your stuff.

I came back from Bali on a 5 AM landing I think and then came back here and got the keys and walked in and it was all like set up. Like my wardrobe, everything just set up beautifully, like I just got to walk straight in. I stood here, right there where I just showed you and I said to myself, "Wow, I wrote this into reality, like this is literally the exact vision and the exact dream that I wanted." I pictured it in my mind and then I started to give myself permission that I would be able to live in such an amazing place. Then I started to claim it boldly in my journaling and I probably talked about it as well I'm sure, right? It just became a thing in my mindset working, in the internal me where it was like of course that's going to happen, because I decide.d I gave myself permission to want what I really wanted and to be a diva.

Or like I don't need an apartment that is so big, that when you're in it you think you're in a house right, why would I need that? Or also the cost was pretty high. I gave myself permission to won't want what I really wanted and then I decided that it would happen. I'm telling you manifestation process right now, right, so pay attention. I gave myself permission to want what I really wanted, number one. If I say it tomorrow, I'll probably say it in a different way, but always pick permission first.

Well, to give you some permission to want what you really want, you've got to first be able to see it. Funnily enough, seeing it fully like seeing it in your mind's eye fully, in some ways comes after and/or with the, maybe back and forth with the commission side of it. At first when you desire something, it's just kind of like a feeling, right? Like you have that feeling speaking to you, where it's like, I just really feel like I want to live in like a fucking bad ass place in the most luxurious high rise on the Gold Coast. I want all the ocean views and I want my own studio, and I want a master bedroom where I wake up and I look out over the ocean each day and so on and so forth.

The vision comes to life through and with the permission giving process. I gave myself permission. I allowed myself to see the vision and then through giving permission, I allowed myself to see more of it. Then number two, thank you I so knew somebody would start typing this up, thank you Lily. I just manifested that. I was like I need somebody to type this up as I talk and then I see that Lily did.

Number two, I decided right? A lot of people miss deciding in the manifestation process. A lot of people skip the deciding step. You might have, like you might allow yourself to see what you want. You might even give yourself permission in a way, but really I feel like if you give me permission then you would be deciding as well, but yeah, we'll just play it out like this. You might even journal about it every day. You might even do your fucking affirmations and like call it in and maybe even take practical action as well.

Then you're like, "Why isn't it happening? Why don't I have it yet?" Then oftentimes when people ask me that, I'm like, "Have you actually decided? Have you decided that this gets to be done? Or are you just talking about it, wanting it and wishing for it and wondering why it's not fucking done," because that's not deciding. Have you decided? Have you made a decision that this is going to happen, this is not up for negotiation, this is how it will be and it's done and I don't even fucking care how?

When you're in a true state of decision, like think back to when you decided something had to happen in your life. Maybe a boob job, maybe whatever else right, maybe you're losing weight, maybe you're making a set amount of money, maybe being in a relationship with that person or whatever it was.

When you really freaking decided things in your life, look back. Did it matter how? Did you then have to go out to look for how and find a strategy? No, you surpassed that, you went so far past the how, that it just, there never was a fucking how. How didn't matter, you're like, what the fuck ever, this is freaking happening bitch, because I decided it, right? We've all done that.

Even it could be something as simple as getting like the amazing handbag that you wanted. It's not always the bigger, well that sounds like a pretty big deal I think for a woman the first time you get like the most beautiful handbag that you've been craving and desiring. That you've said you should spend the money on or you don't have the money for it. Or maybe you're not good enough to carry that sort of purse or whatever right? I think that is a good example.

We've all done this, that's how manifestation works. There is no how in the manifestation process, there just isn't. As soon as you start to go into, if I like, I want this sort of apartment, as soon as I'm like well how do I get this, because apartments like this rarely ever come up in this building? What if, you know it's too expensive and should I really have it? Like if you go into how, then you're not actually focusing on the outcome, you're focusing on the how and that's why you don't get it, right.

I want to come back to the permission step a bit with the clarity, because that's kind of more what I was referring to in the title of this livestream. What I notice is, so many amazing entrepreneurs and just people that I talk with, whether it's clients or friends or comments that I see on Facebook, groups and stuff every day, I feel that people aren't admitting.

Okay, so let's add in admitting as a step, just chuck in, it's like step zero. Step zero before number one is admitting, admitting what you actually fucking want. That's step zero. We can reorder the steps later, because what a lot of people do, is they don't need me what they really want. They don't admit exactly what they want with their business, exactly how they want to make money. They don't admit what they really want romantically or with love. They don't admit what they really want with their body. They don't admit how much support they really want. They don't admit how they just want to be able to click their fingers and have everything done. They don't admit things for lots of reasons and you probably don't admit things for lots of reasons.

I've certainly done this as well and I continue to catch myself and seek not to do that, because I know that if I just admit what I fucking want and then I go through this process that we're talking through, like permission, creating more clarity, more permission then deciding and then I'll get after that in a moment, right, then it just happens. I could never have walked into this apartment and stood here and just felt like, "Wow, I wrote this into reality," if I hadn't first given myself permission that I get to live like this. That's so true with every element of my business and my life and you know that.

I mean part of why or how back on the boobs' thing for so long, I guess it just wasn't fully a how yes for me. Where I like, when it became a how yes is when I booked it and I've thought about it for 10 years. Though I always knew I would have it like even my ex-husband yesterday, I only told him yesterday in the morning, I guess I felt nervous to tell him, but he was like, "I always knew you would," right?

I always knew I would, I'd spoken about it plenty. Everyone who knows me knew I would, but I realise that part of the reason I was probably holding back on it was, I felt like then it's too much, then I'm too much. Like I already have this incredibly successful business, I already carry on like the Queen of the fucking internet, well because I am so who the hell else should I carry on as right? I'm already like so out there and just so owning my own awesome and bad ass all the time. I know it's confronting for people and then I'm like, I'm 38. I'm in shape, I travel all the time. Like I have I guess what could be considered an enviable lifestyle if people desired that sort of lifestyle, I think it's inspiring as well obviously and it shows it's possible.

I feel like sometimes maybe I'm too much. Like should I get to have boobs on top of all of that, right, do you know what I mean? That was my mindset, which is a very ego driven thing of me to think. I'm basically saying like, "Oh well, I don't want to be like too good, because then I'm going to make other people feel like they're not good." Instead of being like, I just get to own who I am and they get to own who they are. Don't make it into a big deal.

Do I desire to have bigger breasts? Yes or no, simple, right? I definitely thought about it. I felt like then it's like I'm even more, I'm not only this [inaudible 00:45:10], carry on bad ass person on the internet, with freaking half my body inked up and then sitting on a fucking throne when I'm in my studio and living my life in a certain way, where I only do what I want and I don't give a fuck and so on and so forth. Then on top of it I'm going to have boobs, it just felt like I'm putting myself out there too much. Like I'm trying to be too much getting attention or something like that.

That was definitely part of my process that I had to work through and choose to release. Since to me like, and I'm going to give myself permission to want what I want anyway. Why? Because I want it, that's it, period, the end. I get to want it because I want it, it doesn't need to be justified, explained, excused. If we own our desires and that causes somebody, either someone who you personally know in your life or people online or whatever it is, to think that you are whatever and then they don't want to follow, well then obviously they don't want to be friends with you or whatever, or cross your relationship, then obviously that's freaking perfect, because it's about being all that you are.

I think with a lot of things as well, like let's take the way my business operates. You know my business makes millions of dollars each year and I literally only do what I want. I'm not like sitting here slaving over my laptop doing shit I don't want to do in order to create that sort of income. I wake up I do exactly what I fucking want all day long. All I do is play and laugh and have fun. Like somebody said once, "How much time do you spend working?" I'm kind of like, "I guess the whole time." They're like, "How much time do you spend playing or having fun or being social or whatever?" I'm like, "The whole time." Like what is work, right? like this does not feel like work to me. This was literally as I said at the start of livestream, this is what I wanted to do.

I'm like, I'm fucking sitting here in bed recovering like it's too boring. I'm going to have some fun. I want to talk to people. I want to talk to people. I messaged someone that I have an appointment with later to see if he could talk earlier. Well he didn't get back to me, so I guess not. Then I was like, "Well, I can't talk to him, so I'm going to talk to you guys." I just felt the need and the desire to talk.

That's all, everything, like writing my blog that I wrote late last night when I was sitting in bed, definitely a little drugged up and off my head. That was because that's what I needed to do. Like the message was coming through me, it wasn't like I better write a fucking blog, because I was in hospital today and I didn't write a blog earlier. Nothing that I do, nothing comes from obligation or duty. I get to do what I want every day. I make money doing what I love. I make money from my purpose work and literally any time I would notice myself starting to engage in an activity that's not coming from solid desire and what I want to do, I would immediately stop and I would hand it over to my team. Or I would just not do it.

Like I know, that when I say yes to my soul, is when everything flows and works. It's actually a discipline and a choice to not do shit that I don't want to do. The point that I'm trying to get to here is, have you given yourself permission for it to be that easy? Have you given yourself permission? We already spoke about permission, but I'm just explaining it in a different way, because I know that what a lot of people do, is they don't admit that they really want that. Like they don't name and claim and admit.

Emma, you get a special reveal, there you go. I talked a lot about the boobies at the start, but we can't see them properly yet. They'll get untaped tomorrow. Double D. I wonder if anybody asked if I just flash the newly done taped boobies on a livestream straight away the next day after having it. I'm sure probably somebody's live-streamed the surgery before.

Have you given yourself, like are you admitting what you really want right, because maybe you think that would be too much. That would be too much, that would make me too much of a diva. Or you think you don't deserve to have life be that good, it couldn't be that good, it couldn't be that easy, it couldn't be that flow based. You like numb down or you dumb down, sorry, what it is you really want to desire and you pretend that you want something less than, because if you admitted what you really wanted, and then you didn't get it, then it will be like the universe itself or God himself bitch slapped you and said that you're not good enough. It's safer to not admit all that you really want, right, who's done that? Admit it. Allow it to be easy.

Well the allowing it to be easy is a daily decision as well. Actually everything that I'm saying here is a daily decision and practise, so it's not like, oh yeah, I did that one time. It's every day you decide. I love the concept that in a relationship with somebody whether it's in a romantic or a child or a friend or even client of course well, we choose each other daily. I choose my clients daily. When I see a message from my inner circle clients, I'm choosing again daily that, yes, I'm so excited and honoured to mentor you and I love you and I love mentoring you. It's not like I decided at the start of the relationship to have a relationship with that person and then never decide again. You just kind of automatically choosing every day.

In a romantic relationship, if you're not actively choosing that person daily in some way shape or form, then you're going to just drift apart and shit will start happening and you'll probably end up falling apart. With all the things that we desire in life, it's a daily practise and a daily decision.

Like fitness, health and fitness, you choose that shit, fucking daily. If you go and do like some 12 week challenge, you get your ass into awesome shape and then you're like, "Sweet, I'm hot as fuck now, I'm done, I'm not going to do that any more," how long is it going to take before that shit gets undone? Not very long at all, right, it will take like three ays and you already start to feel a little bit like not quite as tight and toned.

Fitness and health, we understand that, that's a daily practise and a choice. It's very obvious I think to anybody, saying we're showing up in a business. Like I can be the most powerful messenger on the internet and I think that I'm definitely up there, but if I just stopped, if I just stopped showing up right now as of today, I mean at first people will be like, "Hi, Where are you? What's going on? We miss you." If I just continue to not show up, eventually guys would just be like, "Well, she left, she gave up, she stopped," and you'd have to go somewhere else, because I wouldn't be there right?

I choose daily to show up for my business. I choose daily to show up for every part of my life. The things that we're talking about here, deciding that life gets to be that good, deciding that I get to have it all, deciding that I get to have the business, the money, the body, the love, the romance, the sex or whatever, like all of it, it's all a daily decision and a choice.

No, it doesn't necessarily mean that I write all of those things down every single day, because I don't. I do journal a lot of it every day, like quite a lot. Over the course of the week, every different area would definitely be covered multiple times. I'm not like trying to think about what I should write or not write. Okay, I don't understand that comment at all.

If you feel like you have decided before that you want to have that sort of business, that sort of life, that sort of body, that sort of romantic relationship, whatever it might be. Then you're like, well it's maybe because you don't have it, well, did you actually fucking decide. Are you actually wanting what you really want or are you trying to ask for some second best grey scale version of it, because if you're asking for less than what you actually really fucking want and desire, you're probably going to end up with very little at all. Like nothing, because you're not asking for what's truly in your soul and God slash your higher self, slash the universe is going to be like, "Please, this is not what you really want, so I'm just going to leave this in there, I'm going to leave it in there until you figure it the fuck out." Except a lot of people live their whole life that way, right?

It's not only that yes, you are allowed to have what you really want and you're allowed to have it all. It's that if you pretend that you don't want what you really want, and you pretend you're fine with something that's like less than that, then you're going to leave in a cycle of frustration and of never feeling like you've got, well of course you don't fucking have what you want, because you're not asking for what you want. You probably even won't really get the second best thing that you're asking for. You might get it, but you'll find it'll be really hard work.

Here's the secret about manifestation, about having it all and about having your true like deepest most bad ass desires. This might seem counterintuitive or it's kind of what a lot of people probably believe, but actually it's easier to get the real fucking things that you want. Like the really proper full on picture, than what it is to get something that's like 80% it's good or 90% is good or whatever. You might think it's more reasonable and more achievable to ask for like a slightly less than version of what you desire. Actually you're choosing the hard way.

Not only are you not going to get what you really want, because you're not asking for it and choosing it, but you're going to push really fucking hard. Like when I was running my business where I wasn't fully in alignment and I wasn't teaching my full message and I wasn't allowing myself to be all that me. I was telling myself I've got to do it this way or it was not going to work, I'm not going to make money, that was so fucking hard. I worked my ass off. I was sorry tired all the time. I slept like three hours a night for years, like for years.

Now I'm super proud of that period of my journey. I certainly I'm disciplined like a motherfucker. I certainly know how to do the work, but I look back now and I'm like, that was like 100 times harder than what I do now. When I decided to give in to doing what I really want to do and to only ever doing what I love, is when it got easier.

100% of my clients say the same. Like my clients who have gone past 100K a month and now are doing above 100K a month consistently or in some cases even above 200K a month, 100% of them will tell you, it got easier the more money they're making. Not just because I guess you know we know more now about online marketing or whatever. No, the reason it got easier is because they stopped doing all shit that they didn't want to do. They admitted what they really wanted and they gave themselves permission to let it be easier to have their true vision.

When you give into your true vision and you allow it and you decide and you choose it and you keep doing all that daily, then of course it's fucking easy because that's your soul work. That's what you were born to do. The easiest thing to do in the world is to be you. The easiest thing for me to do in the world is to speak, like this and to show up and to perform. Like some days I'm being like silly and funny and other days I'm like super serious and other days I'm really introspective or whatever and like I'm just being myself. The easiest thing to do in the world is to be myself. Me being me is this. This is what I desired to do this morning, this is just me allowing myself permission to be me, as I sit here and have my day in bed or whatever I'm doing.

I don't think about what I'm going to say. I don't worry about is this going to be a good way to like pre-launch the Millionaire Mastermind or something silly like that. I'm just being fully me. I have no idea in my head that there's anything I have to do to make money. You can start to see how important it is to give yourself permission to own all that you want.

Body stuff it's the same, like oftentimes people say that they want to get down to whatever size or lose X amount of weight, because that would be good, but they are also achieving something that feels like more realistic. Well, what do you really want? What do you really want? [inaudible 00:55:46] sitting with a big bag of blood exactly.

What do you really want though with your body? Don't be fucking reasonable, be fucking unreasonable. How do you want to feel when you get up in the morning? Maybe you're like, "Oh well, I can't have the energy that I had when I was in my 20s." Why the fuck not? "I can't look that way I've had kids." Why the fuck not, right? "I can't have high energy all throughout the day. I can't expect my skin to still be good after all these years in the sun or whatever." Why the fuck not?

I talk a lot about reverse ageing, because it's what I do. I age backwards, because I decided to and because I don't feel that my age or my, things that have happened in my life or like anything has anything to do with anything. I have the energy, the body, the health, the fitness, the physicality, all just because I give myself permission and I own what I really want. I be fucking unreasonable with my goals.

Okay, so that makes it easy. Like I was just saying before, because I mean me the true thing I want, it's easier to get the true thing than to try and get some grey scale version of it. What about the love and romance areas? Well this has been the hardest area for me to give myself permission around. I really struggled with myself worth. I felt like I'm not good enough, I'm not worthy. I had relationship that were hard as you know and then after I came out of that, after I left my marriage, it was like self discovery and exploration and learning in this area. It really has taken like a lot of dedicated applications to my inner work, which I have applied myself to, to finally have got to where I'm like, of cause I get to have like my freaking ideal hell yes, perfect fantasy relationships, because I'm not monogamous. That's why I said relationships. I'm still exploring that and I'm learning and deciding.

I'm still seeing the being vision brought to life in that area, like I'm still creating the vision. I'm still daily giving myself permission and daily getting more clarity around it as well. I give it a lot of attention. I give it a lot of energy, but certainly when I feel a desire for next level communication let's say, or next level sex or next level whatever, I'm not like oh well, that's unrealistic. How it is now is pretty good and it's really good or whatever. I'm like, no, I get to have like the true vision always.

I'll speak up about it, whether it's to me or somebody else or the whole fucking internet or whatever it needs to be. I'm not going to pretend that I don't want what I really want. I'm not going to pretend to myself and I'm not going to pretend to anyone else. I'm going to give myself permission to boldly claim what I desire and to state what I desire, and to choose to trust and believe that if the desire is there inside of me, that means I'm allowed to have it. Rather than playing the game that most people play, which is like, oh well, that would be too much. I'm not going to ask or if I ask for that and then I don't get it, then it somehow proves that I'm not good enough. Be bold enough to ask.

This is all a conversation about courage. We went through allowing yourself to see. I don't even remember what I said step zero was. Now like permission obviously deciding, hang on. I definitely say this a different way each time, but deciding is a daily thing. Then after that, so we've done choosing, seeing it, permission, allowance, deciding.

Remember all these things just cycle through again and again and again and they never stop. The next one that we could put next in line is going to be surrender and detach. Now detachment is an interesting thing. It's a very popular concept in the manifestation world and I talk about it a lot like oh I'm not attached. It's totally fine. Like I desire what I desire, I freaking know it's coming, I know it's available and it's possible. I know it's going to come to life. I'm unavailable for anything less than that, and at the same time, which sounds contradictory but it works, I detach from it and I surrender. Meaning that, I know full well if that doesn't come to life, then it's like this or something better right, so let's have a really clear picture of what I want in my relationships. Then it doesn't come to life even though I really do need it to work and I really show up for it and I really believe and I really claim it and I give myself permission and I decide it daily and I take away the action, which I haven't got to yet et cetera. Then let's say it didn't come to life, then the detachment and the surrender part of it, is reminding yourself that you're totally okay either way.

That if something that you sort inside of you didn't come to life, because it means that there was a better thing. It's like that was more like a stepping stone or something like that, so that's detachment. Detachment is knowing that you don't need it, that you're not going to be complete or whole by having that money, that body, that business, that relationship et cetera. That you're good enough, you are enough and you have enough just as you are.

That's detachment and surrender and it's a critical part of the manifestation process, which a lot of people leave out. Again, it's a daily practise, but then at the same time, and I wrote about this sort of in my blog last night. I think sometimes we get so fucking, like we're like so fuck involved, I'm just detached from everything. I don't need anything. I'm so conscious, I'm so woke. It's like, yeah, I think you seem to be kind of attached to the idea that you're not attached to anything. You're really fucking attached to that idea.

I was saying that to myself yesterday, because it's contradictory still in my head. I feel like I'm still figuring this out, but I know for sure like in the relationship area, I have needs and desires and I will call it a need. I'll call it a need. I'll call it a need. I'll call it a requirement. This is what I need. I need this level of communication. I need to feel this way. I need to know where I stand, stuff like that. I can definitely at the same time say, "Well of course I'm fine without it, because if somebody wasn't available to give that to me, then it would be, okay, this is not obviously going to continue to grow together, because these are my needs and these are my requirements.

It is a need and it is a requirement, and in that sense I'm attached, right? Then bigger picture says I'm not attached and surrender and I'm fine without it, because I know that if I was unable to receive that from another person, then that just simply shows that this is not allowed to be together. It's perfect right, so everything is always perfect, everything is always fine. There's nothing you ever need, but at the same time you can be like and this is what I need, so it's super contradictory, but it's a reality of life. There's lots of contradictions in business and life.

It's kind of like these detached dis attachment. I also say like contented discontentedness, like kind of being, well of course I'm totally fine I have everything I need already. At the same time I want so much fucking more and I'm going to get it. Okay, and so then the final step and I for sure could probably add all these in, but this is like a quick version.

The final thing is aligned action, taking aligned action in the moment right. You only ever need to take my magic boobies, you only ever need to take aligned action in the moment. What that means is, let's say I desire to be famous everywhere, right and to have people watching my show all around the world, like millions of viewers. Then I could sit down from a normal person's standpoint and you go, okay, let's make a plan of how I'm going to grow like my YouTube, how I'm going to grow my Facebook, how I'm going to grow my Instagram, how to create viral content all that sort of stuff.

Sometimes I still fall into that pattern and then I get so fucking bored that I fall asleep right there on the table and so it never works, because I just freaking hate it and I won't do it. Also because on a fundamental level, I don't believe in how. None of the success I've created in my life has come from a strategy or a plan. It's come from me being me, so I know for sure that my fame blowing up even bigger than what it already is, like I'm famous in this industry, but I get to be famous everywhere. Yes, when I film with my videographer for example like I think about what sort of cool content we're going to make today. I've started creating skits with him, I haven't published them yet, but they're really funny. I want to do skits and I want skits to go viral, and I want to do like super inspiring edited up really well created cut together videos as well and I want them to go viral. I do think about it when he's there and when we're there at the time.

I'm not like trying to plan it in advance and create like a formula to go viral, because it's just not how I choose to believe. I know for sure, like I've journaled and I've channelled and downloaded on this many times, I know that my next level fame will come from me being me. Just like you can't predict falling in love, like you can't plan to meet your soulmate or you can't plan to fall in love, it just kind of hits you in the face, you're like, what the fuck, that just happened, right?

The same thing with something like going famous, I think I can plan, create viral content that's going to exhaust the fuck out of me and I don't enjoy it. Or I can allow myself to be in flow and some days it hits bigger than others, some days it gets a big feedback, some days it doesn't and so what, I just keep being me. My whole business has been built from just being me and from taking aligned action in the moment.

Same with fitness, same with relationships all of it. It's not what is my plan in advance for tomorrow, it's what do I feel like doing right now? What I'm I called to do right now? Right now I'm called to do this fucking livestream, so that's what I do. Then after that I'm called to do whatever I'm going to do.

A huge part of this and one more point that we can add in is trust. For all of this to work you must be in trust, you must be in a state of trust and coming from faith and coming from I choose to believe that when I'm just being me, is when things work all right. I'm going to go. I'm I've come here to say.

Watch the replay. Millionaire Mastermind is going to be freaking amazing. I can't wait to share it all with you. I feel like we've brought some good fire today. Send me a shower of love heart if you loved it. Holy shit, I can't do my arm thing out quite as violently as I usually do. Yes, I love you. Thank you for being part of this community, thank you for live-ing with me from my post surgery bed this morning. I will reveal more when I can. Have an amazing rest of the today. Leave me a comment if you didn't already. I do read the comments later and do not forget, life is now, press play.

Katrina Ruth: Look. I'm going live like that. Do you think this is a good way to get views, at the start of a livestream? We're just gonna have a boob show. It's Katrina with breasts show. Just owning it. I'm gonna own it. The Katrina with breasts show. It's the booby show with Katrina with ... Nobodies even getting on, yet. I'm waiting until I can see that there's viewers on before I sit down.

Katrina Ruth: Okay. One person is on. All right. No. I'm just gonna stand here. There's only one person on. Maybe people don't like the boobs, and they're not jumping on. Willy Stain Germaine. Did you get your book published, yet? What's happening over there at Amazon? You should have your own personal Amazon person.

Katrina Ruth: Okay. This is too much booby-ness. It's just like boobs! I figure, if I just stick my boobs on the camera, then that's all is really needed. Okay. Should we have a side angle? Do you think it's super inappropriate that I'm doing a boob show, right next to a children's playground?

Katrina Ruth: All right. There's the side angle. Aren't they huge? They're way too big. Do you think they're way too big? I'm not kidding. This morning, I woke up. I had at least six messages from some of my closest male friends saying, "I'll just give you some helpful feedback on your boobs. Send before and after." I'm like, "All right. Good suggestion."

Katrina Ruth: Hello. The book is live, says Lilly, but the boobs are more exciting. Well, it has happened. It has happened. Mimi, if you're there, you can just drop. Hello, here I am. If you're there, Mimi, you can just drop the teaser about the Millionaire Mastermind, at anytime.

Katrina Ruth: Now, I feel bad for you guys, because you can't see my boobs, anymore. Do you think I should just livestream the whole thing like this? I can go up and down, or I could ... No. It's too late. I should have gone that way.

Katrina Ruth: So, basically ... Hello, Karin. Basically, I'm here filming today. I'm here with Matt. There he is. I nearly flaked out on him, because I felt so ginormous, not just in my chest area, but in general. I'm just puffy. I just feel huge all over. I had to be freakin' premenstrual, when I got a boob job. So, they're pumped up full of surgery drugs. My stomach went from lean with abs to ... two hours I suppose, during surgery, being ... I just gained, I don't know how much weight even, in one day.

Katrina Ruth: Draw some eyes on your boobs and use your hands to animate them. I can't stop touching them. Actually, the surgeon told me to massage them, as much as possible. He's so funny. He's this classic Aussie humour dude.

Katrina Ruth: I posted my thing about pulling the tubes out. I'm on the phone to him. I'm like, "I don't know about these tubes, what's going on? Should I come back in and have my boobs taped up again, because the tape had fallen off." He said, "No. Just grab the tube, and yank it out." That's how he says it. I'm like, "Just yank it out?" He's like, "Just yank. Just yank it." So, then I'm pulling and pulling. I put that video up. You guys were so grossed out. I was like, "Gosh. These people have some weak stomachs." I only showed a tiny bit of it. You should have seen, if I would have showed the actual thing.

Katrina Ruth: I can't wait 'til the swelling goes down. The swelling is all over my whole body. I think I've gone up two full sizes. I don't know. When did you see me last? Not for a few weeks, right?

Matt: Yeah. A couple of weeks.

Katrina Ruth: It's hard to tell, then. For sure I have. For sure I have, because shorts are so tight around me, right now. Finally, then my period come today. Now, I don't know. I just know and trust that I'll be lean as fuck again, by Monday. Really, I'm aware that doesn't fucking matter in the greater scheme of things, but it's still annoys me. At least, my hair still looks fabulous.

Katrina Ruth: So, that happened. Then, I go in for my check up, yesterday. He's like, "You've just got to squeeze them, all day." He goes, "Just while you're walking down the street, just squeeze them." I'm like, "Yeah. I'm sure that's a good idea." Anyway, there they are again, if you missed them. I don't know, if you can see them, on the livestream, because I think I'm sitting too low.

Katrina Ruth: So, I'm here filming with Matt. I wanted to flake out on him, because I felt not boobilicious. I felt the opposite of that. I felt like a walking, talking ... I don't know. Billboard of Gold Coast too much-ness, something like that. I didn't, because I'm a freakin' professional. I didn't cancel. Instead, we filmed for you. We made a little video about why women get boob jobs, and why I think everybody on the internet should shut the fuck up about ... Maybe that should be the title of the video. Why everybody on the internet should shut the fuck up about what women can or can't do with their bodies.

Katrina Ruth: There you go. The download always comes to me. I had a boring title before, it just came to me. I think that's gonna be really good, positive empowering content. Of course, it's not telling women to get boob jobs. It's telling women that they can do whatever they want. If you want them, get them. Exactly, Wendy.

Katrina Ruth: It's so funny, because even though people know that I'm always gonna do what I want, even in the last two or three days, since posting online about it, I've definitely had several comments along the lines of, "Ah well. I never thought you would go down that path." I was like, "Okay. Cool. Thank you for sharing your unasked for opinion." So, maybe I'm triggered, but whatever.

Katrina Ruth: So, we did that. Then, we're filming an episode of the show. Then, we basically had some time to kill. So, not to sound like I don't just love you and want to talk to you anyway, but really why we're live streaming is because I had a little time to kill before getting my daughter from school. And, and, and, because the Millionaire Mastermind, excuse me, Katrina Ruth's High Vibe as Fuck Millionaire Mastermind. I'm just talking to my other camera, here. Is launching Did You Realise, tomorrow. It's launching tomorrow.

Katrina Ruth: I've actually pre-launched this shit. I pre-launched my boobs, all week. Well, I guess I launched them. Actually, kind of Patrick and I launched them together, accidentally, on our joint livestream. It wasn't officially supposed to be a boob launch, but that's what happened. So, that happened. It was very low key. If you missed it, you can watch the livestream from yesterday. Hair feels so good.

Katrina Ruth: Then, at the same time as pre-launching my breasts, of course I pre-launched my breasts. I don't like it how women get boob jobs, and they don't say anything about it. They pretend that nothing even happened. Then, it's like, "What? These are [inaudible 00:06:05]. I didn't do anything." Isn't the point that people are supposed to notice? Anyways, I just think own your shit. Own all your shit.

Katrina Ruth: So, we pre-launched the boobs. It was a very successful launch of the boobs. Everybody signed up. It was a 100% conversion rate. 100% of people wanted to see the boobs. Many people have made comments along ... assumptive comments, I might add, randomly, along the lines of, "I can't wait 'til I touch them." People are just they're assumptive selling me that they get to touch them.

Katrina Ruth: Then, quite a few people did indeed private message me, and offer their valuable feedback, which was just very gracious of them really, but no. I didn't send any photos through, but I did on the other hand stand with them right in the camera for two minutes, at the start of a livestream.

Katrina Ruth: So, then that happened. Simultaneously, I feel a bit bad for my High Vibe as Fuck Millionaire Mastermind, now, because I feel like, "Aw. Sorry. You're more like kind of the ugly sister now, because I pre-launched the breasts at the same time, as pre-launching the High Vibe as Fuck Millionaire Mastermind."

Katrina Ruth: When offered the choice, most people seem to be leaning toward the breasts, but the great new is, you can have it all. You can always have it all. You'll get me with my new addition. We'll just see how it settles in, and becomes part of me. I got to go and buy lots of new bikinis and bras this afternoon. At least I've got to buy one new bra, because I'm going out to dinner tonight, going out for a night out tonight. Even though my doctor told me, "Don't wear a bra, as often as possible." I feel like that would just be a little bit too much for [Burley 00:07:36] to handle, if I was going out with no bra.

Katrina Ruth: So, I'll do that. Now, I'm actually gonna launch the Millionaire Mastermind. Not right now, no. You can wait, until tomorrow. My High Vibe as Fuck Millionaire Mastermind is ... What did I just say it was? Is the mindset and the strategy of crushing it online for entrepreneurs and crazy creators who just want more. It is my new membership programme. It is the number one membership programme, in the world for bad ass entrepreneurs and crazy creators. It launches tomorrow, at 9:00 am, Brisbane time, which is gonna be roughly 12, 18 hours and 16 minutes, from now. It's 7:00 pm Friday evening, New York, Eastern Standard Time that it launches.

Katrina Ruth: Now, you're gonna want to be on Facebook, or on your e-mail, or wherever you're gonna find me, or think that you're gonna find me, at that time, because we have an amazing founding members, inaugural members offer, which is, in fact, over ... Let me just do some fast math, in my head. It's less than, or it's about one sixth of the actual price for founding members. What's that in a percentage? Do some fast ...

Matt: One sixth?

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. How much percentage discount is that? Matt's gonna tell you. Matt's gonna show his math wizardry, right now, on camera.

Matt: One sixth ...

Katrina Ruth: Don't hide behind the camera.

Matt: Like 12.

Katrina Ruth: 12%?

Matt: Could be horribly wrong.

Katrina Ruth: It's terribly wrong. 12 times six is only 70, 80, 72.

Matt: 15.

Katrina Ruth: We'll work it out, as a team.

Matt: 15.

Katrina Ruth: So, three sixth is 50%. So, one sixth is one third of 50%, which is 16 point six, six percent.

Matt: How much?

Katrina Ruth: 16 point six, six.

Matt: Close enough.

Katrina Ruth: All right. We worked it out together. So, basically, it's 16 point six, six percent. I just worked it out, just there. Nobody told me earlier. Well, Matt worked it out really. It was a team effort.

Katrina Ruth: So, you definitely want to be there for that. 9:00 am tomorrow, my time. 7:00 pm, New York, Eastern Standard time. There's really not much else for me to tell you about it. I'm just gonna tell you, apart from the draw on the floor, hell yes, offer of the launch itself, you'll be magnetised as fuck by what this programme, membership is about. It definitely required a little bit of wine, and, I'm gonna admit, sexual healing therapy for me to come to terms with the fact that I am not necessarily the main start in this programme, because my entire team is coming in, and co-teaching this programme with me.

Katrina Ruth: It's an ongoing membership programme where each month we'll be showing you exactly what we're working on, and literally giving you our marketing, and selling, and advertising strategies, as well as social media, and every other thing that you could imagine. So, they'll be a monthly report, essentially, showing you exactly what we've done. Then, teaching you how you can implement it. You'll have access to my team for support, and accountability, and mentoring, as well as me. There's so much more, but that kind of gives you, I guess, a little insight into why you would definitely want to check this out.

Katrina Ruth: It's been coming, for about six months. The idea's been gurgling up? What's the word I'm looking for? Gurgitating? Is that a word? It's not a word, is it?

Matt: [inaudible 00:10:49]

Katrina Ruth: What's the word I'm looking for? Brewing. We'll go with brewing. There was definitely a different word.

Katrina Ruth: The idea's been bubbling away inside of me for six months, but I really first started to bring it to light in February, I think. I was on a plane from Brisbane to LA with my brother Ash, who's on my team and does all my marketing and stuff. We definitely got brewing. There was a cooler kind of grosser, grungier word, harder than brewing, but I don't know what it was. I feel like it was along the lines of gurgitating, but that's not it.

Katrina Ruth: So, it started to come up in February. Well, maybe it was regurgitating, because I'm saying come up.

Matt: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: Regurgitated.

Matt: Brewing [inaudible 00:11:25].

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. Well, it was brewing and gurg- I'm going with gurgitating. I'm allowed to make my own words.

Katrina Ruth: It started to come up in February, but it was more like we've got the skeleton of the idea. Germinating, Tracy, what a legend. She just read my mind. That was the exact word that I meant. Germinating. Give the girl a prize. Very happy about that.

Katrina Ruth: I think there was a lot of Campari involved. That was the problem. When we first had the idea, because we were on a flight from Brisbane to LA. We were sitting at the bar, in Virgin. Yes. There was much Campari involved, but it was fabulous, nonetheless. I know for sure it was a little crazy, because the tagline that I wrote down, at the time, we somehow ... We were getting stuck on the lyrics of that song, I wanna be a billionaire. So, then we came up with the title, Katrina Ruth's Millionaire Mastermind, which has now evolved into Katrina's High Vibe as Fuck Millionaire Mastermind, because that's what it is.

Katrina Ruth: Then, I ended up writing down on my sales page draught that the tagline for the programme was gonna be for entrepreneurs who wanna be a billionaire so frickin' bad. Then, I looked at it a week later, when I was in Santa Monica. I'm like, "Yeah. I think that half of what I've written on this page came from a place of listening to my Spotify downloads, while on a plane drinking Campari." Really, it's true anyway.

Katrina Ruth: So, it kind of came through then, but because it involves the whole team. Actually, an unannounced bonus that I just thought of right then, which is why it hasn't been announced yet, is that I will teach you the creation of this membership programme, and how we fully brought the idea to life, and how we're launching it, and how to create a membership programme that sells like a mother fucker. So, I'm gonna do a bonus training on that for all my new members. In fact, I'll do it next week.

Katrina Ruth: We're gonna open tomorrow. It'll be open for only 72 hours. You don't have to remember that, because there'll be a countdown timer on the page to remind you, plus me on social media reminding you for three days. Yes. I definitely wanna teach you how we put it all together. It's probably one of the questions that I got asked a lot. I've run many membership programmes, very successfully, now, over the years. A lot of people want membership programmes, because they're recurring income, but there's definitely a model that works versus a model that doesn't work.

Katrina Ruth: There's definitely very clear reasons on why people stay in membership programmes, or why they leave them. So, I'm gonna teach on that, and teach how you can design a membership programme that creates automated, recurring income for you, for your business, while simultaneously drawing in your high end, high ticket clients, that just wanna automatically sign up with you, and pay you without you even having to do any sort of ... I don't do discovery calls. I usually don't even do launches for my high ticket stuff.

Katrina Ruth: I have a really great system in place, where my lower model stuff feeds into my high ticket stuff, automatically. So, membership programmes are one part of that. So, I think I'm gonna do a whole bonus training on that. Mimi, if you're still watching, transcribe that down, so that we can use it in our promotions, as a bonus. I'll include it ... Tell, Ashley, even, to include it, or Callie, to include it on the sales page, because Callie's re-editing the sales page, right now. In the section where I say what I'm covering on next Wednesday's first live training for the Millionaire Mastermind.

Katrina Ruth: Thank you Lily, but did you see my breasts? Lily said I look sexy. I don't know, if they can be seen on the camera, because when I'm sitting down, it says that I'm from there, but then often later when I look, it's lower. I don't know. Can you see them, now, you guys? Give me a love heart shower, if you can see my boobs. Things I thought I would never say on a Facebook livestream, but then I might think you're giving me a love heart shower, because you're nice. She says, "Meow." Okay. The love hearts are coming.

Katrina Ruth: What else? What have I missed? I went off on a tangent. Hannah said, "Did they hurt?" Well, I did Mai Thai this morning. Look at this. I can move my arms everywhere. They feel really tight. They feel super stretchy, bit uncomfortable to sleep, and where this one tube came out on this side, that hurts. It feels like it's gonna come open, and bleed again, but whatever. It's not that big of a deal. It's only blood. There's a little bit of bruising. I don't know. I feel like I'm having amazing recovery. I actually talk on the next episode of the show that we just filmed today, I talk about how I manifested fast healing, and then kind of relate that to not buying into normal ideas of how long things should take. Just in all areas, right? Maybe I'm just lucky with my healing. Maybe I'm just super stretchy.

Katrina Ruth: Actually, that's a good point. I have really pliable skin, because I eat really well. I eat a lot of good fats, in my diet. This a true thing. I am not talking shit here. I include a lot of good fats, in my diet. I'm very fit, and healthy. So, my skin is, of course, pliable. Whenever I get my tattoos done, Vlad's always like, "How do you heal so quickly? You heal so fast." I said to him, "I think, because I have a high metabolism, and because I'm really healthy." He's like, "Yeah. That actually makes sense."

Katrina Ruth: Also, by the way, the more stressed you are, in general, the more cortisol hormone you have in your body, which inflames you, and it slows down healing. I might get stressed, from time to time, but I'm pretty freakin' in flow, and alignment with my life. So, overall, my inflammation levels and my cortisol is pretty low, I think, or just good, maybe. I don't know. I really feel like that's probably a big part of my healing, as well.

Katrina Ruth: I know for sure, it's also just, because I believed it, and it went under the muscle, by the way. We didn't even say this on the show. He went in through the nipple, sounds disgusting, sliced at the bottom of the nipple. The implants went under the muscle, which supposedly is way more painful than anything else, at all, accept I'm fine. Even at Mai Thai, this morning, I was like, "I could totally punch." We did shadow boxing, but I put the video up, already, on my Facebook. You can see it. I was doing kicks with no problem. It just feels a bit stretchy.

Katrina Ruth: I can sleep on my side, or on my back. The good thing is I don't have to protect them, meaning ... I don't mean don't protect them, but meaning I don't have to worry about movement. He was like, "The more movement, the better." That's why I went to training, this morning. I definitely wouldn't do anything that I thought would be a bad idea for them. I don't know.

Katrina Ruth: Do you have any other questions, because I've run out of things to say, and the school bell's going in seven minutes, which is actually plenty of time, because the school's only over the road. What else should I tell you? Did I leave anything out? Have you guys got any questions? Who wants to ask me one powerful question that's gonna benefit the entire community? Go, or just leave a random comment of interest, if you don't have a question.

Katrina Ruth: Millionaire Mastermind's gonna be epic. I'm very proud of it. I'm very excited that my whole team are getting involved. It's a really bid deal, actually. There's nothing like this on the internet, at all. Well, I think probably partly, because there's very few entrepreneurs, online marketers, who built a really locked in, solid team like mine. Of course, there's others out there, but I have a pretty solid team. They do all the things. They do an amazing job of it. It's extremely rare to have a programme where the team is actually teaching, as well. So, this is something that I did get a bit, "Urg" about it, because I'm like, "I'm the star. I'm the star," but I knew that it's time for me to pass that baton on, because they do an incredible job doing so many things in my business that allow me to be that star, and allow me to be the front person, and just do my content.

Katrina Ruth: So, I think it would be really selfish, and kind of irresponsible of me, to be honest, if I wasn't to allow them to step up, and share their gifts with you. I know it's gonna be so powerful. It's just so exciting. If you're in the High Vibe as Fuck Millionaire Mastermind is the two point O version of that. I'm gonna post something into High Vibe about it, but you get transferred in, plus goodies.

Katrina Ruth: Okay. What were these questions? How do I increase my metabolism? Well, strength training, cardio training, or the obvious fitness things, I guess, as well as eating plenty of protein. 20 years history of fitness, for sure, is part of it. There's been times in my fitness journey where I've definitely been training well, and eating well, and then I haven't been maintaining or achieving my body goals.

Katrina Ruth: So, it's largely up here. I believe that I have a high metabolism. I believe my body works like a well oiled machine. I believe that I have healthy, happy hormones, and I believe that I get the results in the body I want, inside and out. I know, for sure, that's the real reason I do, because, like I said, there's been times, when I have been doing all the right things, and I didn't have the results that I wanted. Then, there's been times, where I was completely not giving a fuck, and eating whatever I wanted, and looked fuckin' amazing, because I just didn't believed I was so good.

Katrina Ruth: So, it's always mindset first, which is why I just Whatsapped Bromwyn just before doing this livestream. I saw that I'd put the working wrong on the banner for the Millionaire Mastermind. It said, "The strategy and the mindset." I just messaged her. I was like, "Wait. That should be the mindset and the strategy." It's always mindset first.

Katrina Ruth: Debbie says, "Do I use meditation for healing?" I don't expressly use meditation for healing, but I do use meditation pretty regularly. I listen to mediation audios, not every day, but probably five days out of seven, if I feel a bit brain frazzled, or just even, if I want to. I go into a meditative state, just in and of myself, pretty frequently. Sometimes, even when I'm driving, I can separate that out. Often, after yoga, I use meditation a lot, in lots of different ways, through the day.

Katrina Ruth: Thank you, Lakisha. All right. So, I'm gonna go. Thank you for being here. Make sure you're online tomorrow morning at 9:00 am, my time, which is 7:00 pm, New York time, on Friday evening, for the launch of Katrina Ruth's High Vibe as Fuck Millionaire Mastermind. The mindset and the strategy of crushing it online for driven entrepreneurs, and crazy creators who just want more. More what? More everything.

Katrina Ruth: Leave me a comment. I'll read it later. Don't forget, life is now. Press play.

Katrina Ruth: All right, now we're gonna try and share this. And then we're gonna do the thing. Ah, Mother Fucker.

Alyssa: Me?

Katrina Ruth: No, not you. Why does this make it so hard?

Alyssa: Can I just go and do my business?

Katrina Ruth: No, no, no. You gotta stay here for the start of the Livestream. Oh my God. Okay. If I turn it, then it's gonna screw up the thing later.

Katrina Ruth: Hello, one person. I'm trying to share this over to my page. I'm gonna try it anyway. I'm gonna probably mess with the system. I can't see anything.

Katrina Ruth: Hi, Susan. I'm trying to like exit out of the Facebook screen right now. That's why I'm like hitting the phone. 'Cause, okay ... now I'm gonna try turning this and hopefully Facebook doesn't mess with me. Oh my God. Oh my God. Why does it make it so hard? Okay, can someone share this into the Daily Ask It crew for me?

Katrina Ruth: Okay. It's just being so annoying. Maybe I'll have to send you to the car to get my laptop out of the car. I can't share this ... okay, we'll keep that off.

Katrina Ruth: Alyssa's starting a little side hustle here. I was gonna go live anyway, 'cause I'm just hanging out in the park. Do you wanna say hi?

Alyssa: Hi.

Katrina Ruth: What is ... what have you said ... I was gonna go live anyway and I was gonna talk about the Millionaire Mastermind. I hate when I can't see myself on the screen. I was gonna talk about the Millionaire Mastermind and maybe like do my freaking thing, do my launch. Okay, where's your brother? He's over there.

Katrina Ruth: Everybody's giving you a love heart shower. You see the love heart shower? It's for you. So, the kids have been playing in the park. Thank you, Susan. Thank you for sharing that. The kids ...

Alyssa: [inaudible 00:01:52]

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, we're gonna, you're gonna be on camera in a moment. Come here. Be on camera. But you can talk in a minute. So I was gonna go live and tell you the Millionaire Mastermind life and launch that. I did already just casually drop that in this morning. I'll talk about that in a moment. I have many things to say and I wanna answer any questions. Although I probably should like pre-announce if I'm gonna do a Q&A so that people know it's coming.

Katrina Ruth: And then Alyssa's sitting here and she's got my journal. And she's made herself a little sign. Do you wanna show your sign?

Alyssa: What if they can't see it?

Katrina Ruth: Well, it will be backwards, so you can read it to them. But show it to them.

Alyssa: Doing gymnastics for money.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, so she's made a little sign that says she's doing gymnastics for money. Where are you gonna put the sign? Against the tree?

Alyssa: Against that pole.

Katrina Ruth: Oh, against the pole over there.

Alyssa: So, because people normally walk there.

Katrina Ruth: Because that's where the audience is at. That's the platform. The platform is against the pole because that's the walking path where everyone walks past. So, first the sign said ... that's the old sign. First the sign said, "Doing gymnastics for money, please." And then you decided that it shouldn't' say please. Why was that?

Alyssa: Because it wouldn't make sense.

Katrina Ruth: Because it doesn't make sense. I was like, that's actually true because I wouldn't probably put up a sign on Facebook that says, "Join my Millionaire Mastermind, please," would I? That would just be a little bit weird. I mean, no, I wouldn't. I'd be like, "Join the Millionaire Mastermind [beeotch 00:03:19]. Things I shouldn't say.

Alyssa: Bitch.

Katrina Ruth: Oh, no. That's really bad. Too late, rewind. [inaudible 00:03:27] different way we can ... You know.

Alyssa: Beeitche.

Katrina Ruth: Don't say things ...

Alyssa: Beeitche.

Katrina Ruth: Don't say things on camera that you don't normally say.

Alyssa: Beeitche. Beeitche. Beeitche.

Katrina Ruth: All right, talk about your business. Talk about your business.

Alyssa: What do you mean? Oh, if they don't give me money, I kill them.

Katrina Ruth: Why do you always the most bizarre, mixed up stuff as soon as you get on a Livestream? I swear to ... This chick doesn't say stuff like that off camera. And as soon as she gets an opportunity to be on my Livestream, she says things that just make it sound like, I don't know, bad parenting going on.

Katrina Ruth: You don't talk like that normally. Talk like your normal self.

Alyssa: Oh yeah I do.

Katrina Ruth: Doing gymnastics for money. So, you're gonna put the sign against the pole, and then what are you gonna do?

Alyssa: I'm just gonna want people give me money.

Katrina Ruth: Gonna what? You're gonna wait until they give you money or you gonna do the gymnastics anyway? Are you only doing the gymnastics if they give you money?

Alyssa: This is-

Katrina Ruth: Or are you doing the gymnastics and hoping that they will then give you money/

Alyssa: This is what I'm gonna do.

Katrina Ruth: Talk to the camera, nobody can hear you.

Alyssa: I've got hiccups.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, what're you gonna do?

Alyssa: I'm gonna put-

Katrina Ruth: What's your hustle?

Alyssa: Shh. I'm ... Shh. Beeitche.

Katrina Ruth: Ah, don't. Yeah, tell them. Lisa says we really wanna hear Alyssa's business. Tell them what your hustle is. Look at the people can see you.

Alyssa: I'm gonna put this against the pole and then I'm going to hold ... I'm going ... when people come by I'm going to do gymnastics and hopefully they see the sign.

Katrina Ruth: And hopefully they give you money.

Alyssa: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: All right. Go, go do your business.

Alyssa: About like $100.

Katrina Ruth: Just $100 per gymnastics move.

Alyssa: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: She's very reasonable.

Alyssa: No, no, no, a million.

Katrina Ruth: What do you ... Let me ...

Alyssa: No, no, no, 5000.

Katrina Ruth: Okay. Come back. Let me ... Wait, you just downgraded from a million to 5000? It's a bargain. Get in today.

Alyssa: I mean 5,000,000.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, 5,000,000. 5,000,000 rupiah? So, can I ask you a question?

Alyssa: What?

Katrina Ruth: Come back to the camera.

Alyssa: What, Mr. Poop?

Katrina Ruth: Don't talk silly to me. What are you gonna do if people see your sign and they don't actually give you money? What are you gonna do? Are you gonna stop doing gymnastics? Are you gonna cry? Are you gonna get angry? Or are gonna just keep doing your show?

Alyssa: I'm gonna do this. I'm gonna do arg.

Katrina Ruth: So basically like if somebody watches something on the Internet and then nobody buys it and then that somebody just has a little temper tantrum, hissy fit, how do you think that's gonna work out for them?

Alyssa: I call you beeitche.

Katrina Ruth: It's reasonable.

Alyssa: I call them beeitche.

Katrina Ruth: Lisa says she got paid $2 by people when she was paid to dance. So I guess you've upgraded to 5,000,000.

Alyssa: Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.

Katrina Ruth: You're missing the point. No, that's a good thing. She got paid to dance. It was awhile ago.

Alyssa: I need $5,000,000.

Katrina Ruth: Hush. She needs 5,000,000. She's not getting out of bed for less than 5,000,000.

Alyssa: I'm a billionaire. I mean ...

Katrina Ruth: Watch the little performance about guys.

Alyssa: I gonna need a million and a hundred an hour.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, nearly. No, it's a serious question.

Alyssa: Can I just do my thing now.

Katrina Ruth: You can. You can answer one more question. Wait. Hold up. Will you just performing and doing your Alyssa [LATOZZO 00:06:37] show if people don't pay your or are you gonna crack it and stop if you don't get paid?

Alyssa: First, I'm gonna crack it. Then I'm gonna keep going.

Katrina Ruth: Oh, that is a good answer you guys. That's a winner answer, because it's fair. It's okay to crack it. We all crack it when we have a launch where we don't get the results we wante.d I used to have my launches just flop and bomb all the time or I'd get like two people joining or nobody.

Katrina Ruth: And then I would crack it a little bit. And then what did I do? Keep going. That's the attitude.

Alyssa: Okay, bye.

Katrina Ruth: Well, go do it then. Stop talking. Nobody needs to hear when you could be doing.

Alyssa: Beeitche.

Katrina Ruth: Don't say things you shouldn't say please. She doesn't make anything sitting next to you.

Alyssa: Beeitche. [inaudible 00:07:13]

Katrina Ruth: Alyssa, inappropriate. Honestly, she just knows when she's on camera. The sun ... Look, there she is, putting her little sign against the tree. Didn't you love that answer? It's such an honest answer. But what are you gonna do if your hustle fails, if nobody pays you to do gymnastics on the side of the park? Well, I'm gonna crack it. Okay, that's fair enough. But then I'm gonna keep going.

Katrina Ruth: So, I just showed her some Cirque de Soleil videos, 'cause she's quite Cirque de Soleil freaky. She can do ... you might see it in a minute. She does the backbend and then just stands back up and she can do like waggling her legs in the air and stuff while she's in the background. She's taken over my show.

Nathan: Mommy. I'm [inaudible 00:07:53]

Katrina Ruth: Awesome, honey. Have fun. There's another one over there. And then, what was I saying? Yeah, so I showed her some Cirque de Soleil videos on You Tube, and she's, 'cause just kinda like, "Ah, I can do that. I can that. I could do that." With all of it. So, just little bad ass, little bad ass attitude over there.

Alyssa: Oh, Mommy?

Katrina Ruth: Little bit too much attitude over there sometimes.

Alyssa: Mother?

Katrina Ruth: I'm gonna talk about the Millionaire Mastermind.

Alyssa: [crosstalk 00:08:16] What if I go to my friends and I show my boobs?

Katrina Ruth: Don't flash at the camera please. Seriously?

Alyssa: But what if I do?

Katrina Ruth: You're fine. You're a kid playing at a park. Go play.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, it's always a little nerve wracking to bring her on camera, 'cause I swear to God she just saves up the inappropriate things that an eight year old shouldn't say, and then says them as soon as she gets the chance to get on my Livestream.

Katrina Ruth: So, what I was going to do though, is I was going to title this Livestream about the Millionaire Mastermind and I was just gonna have a quick chat about my new high vibe as fuck Millionaire Mastermind. The hype, Katrina is high vibe as fuck Millionaire Mastermind just launched this morning. In theory, it launched at 9AM. Can somebody put the link in for me into the comments? It's thekatrinaruthshow.com/millionairemastermind. My phone's not letting me exit out of the screen to grab my comment link or I'd do it myself. So thekatrinaruthshow.com/millionairemastermind.

Katrina Ruth: I'm not ... I wanna let you know there is a top 20 bonus which I think might be nearly sold out. I don't have the numbers 'cause I just kind of casually launched it this morning and then went to the gym and stuff. But it will sell out in the next ... It will sell out. Just, if it's not already sold out, it's gonna sell out in the next few hours for sure.

Katrina Ruth: There is always gonna be a badass AF, badass as fuck, top 50 bonus, which I haven't even announced yet. So, I'm just letting you know. If you ... oh, it's top 25 anyway, not top 20. If you don't get into the top 25, and I think you can still get into the top 25 now and get that bonus.

Alyssa: Mommy, if there's not many people here, I'll go somewhere else.

Katrina Ruth: Right, if not many people show up for your launch then, well, you could just stay where you are and trust that you'll magnetise the people to you. Or I guess you could switch to a new platform. Or you could do a bit of both, whatever feels aligned. Right? Either way, I like how I didn't have to coach her to say that she would just keep going, even if nobody paid her, that's what I'm happy to hear.

Katrina Ruth: And really, she's gonna just keep going anyway, because she does it for the love it. It's her favourite thing to do. You can't stop her. I have to watch hours and hours of gymnastic shows every single day. She wants us to move house, to live like near the gymnastics place. What's it called, Gymnastics Centre or Coast Gymnastics, so that she can go every day. Do you have anything to say?

Nathan: No.

Katrina Ruth: Do you wanna talk to the camera?

Nathan: No.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, he's not performing today. The Nathan Loterzo show's not happening today. There's a lot to be learned from the attitude of a child's hustle, from the attitude of a child who's hustling. There's a lot to be learned for all of us.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, so top 25 may already be sold out. I don't think it is. I don't know. I saw people started joining straight away. I totally forgot to launch it this morning. It was supposed to launch at 9AM Brisbane time, I completely forgot about it. And then my brother reminded me, so I quickly just popped it out and that happened. And people started joining right away because the offer itself is fricking incredible. It's my brand new membership programme. Thank you for dropping the link, guys.

Katrina Ruth: It is the mindset and the strategy of crushing it online for driven entrepreneurs and crazy creators who just want more. The number one membership programme in the world for those like us who are never gonna be termed, never gonna be leashed up, but will indeed insist on making millions and impacting millions.

Alyssa: They're not-

Katrina Ruth: Yes?

Alyssa: They're not gonna give me money because I'm a kid.

Katrina Ruth: That's not a thing. People definitely like to give money to kids. But if you do it for like ... Okay, I'm sorry, I just had to reject a phone call from Billy Jean, which I feel bad about, but he just froze my Livestream.

Katrina Ruth: So that's that. I certainly could go on and on about the Millionaire Mastermind. If you ... I've kind of just dropped the biggest launch of the year out there without really doing a lot of lead up to it or explaining much about it. It is a really big deal. It's an incredible new membership programme. And the ... Not only am I doing really cool stuff for this launch, which happens over the next three days to the top 25, top 50, that sort of thing, cools extras and bonuses. But the inaugural members so far, is just out of this world.

Katrina Ruth: Obviously I wanted to do something super special for people who are gonna join straight away in the first three days. And then we will shut it down. So when you go to the katrinaruthshow.com/millionairemastermind, you'll see there's a countdown timer at the top. You wanna read through everything. It's about, there's quite a lot to sort of understand there I guess. But the crux of it is that I'm not just the star of this show, I've actually brought my entire team in to create the best membership programme in the world, to support you, to understand and also implement all of the ins and outs of online marketing and try building. But, whilst maintaining the craziness.

Katrina Ruth: So my whole team is co-running it and co-leading this programme with me. And we're monthly gonna be taking you behind the scenes of exactly what we do in my business, exactly how it works, the kind of like here and now of the marketing side of things, the funnel side of things, advertising, social media stuff, everything that all the cart ninjas are doing, they'll also be teaching and also supporting you with.

Katrina Ruth: So you're getting assistance and mentoring from my team as well as me. It's just like I couldn't be more excited to be getting this out there. We're even including that you'll have Facebook ad support in there, technical support, like I really wanted to make it ... What is everything that maybe would hold you back or get you stuck or take you out of your genius path from doing the creative work that you're here to do. And how can I, well not do it for you obviously, but provide my team to show you what they do and have them support you. So they'll actually be in the group.

Katrina Ruth: And this is an ongoing thing, right, not like a one time thing where they [inaudible 00:13:28] but an ongoing thing where they're answering questions, helping, running live trainings, doing Q&A, creating tonnes of resources, monthly report on what we've been doing at the Katrina Ruth Show, how it's working and how you can apply it and even duplicate our sales processes over to your business. So that's a little bit about it. But if you go to thekatrinaruthshow.com/millionairemastermind you can read all about it, get to know some of my team members and see who's there and see what they're doing.

Katrina Ruth: And, I will officially announce the top 50 bonus some time this afternoon. I don't when the top 25's gonna sell out. It will probably be within the next hour or two, I'm just guessing. My brother's currently [inaudible 00:14:06] at the top of my phone here. I'm like trying to stay on top of what's going on, so Ill probably get an update quite soon. But, what I'd suggest is that you go and have a read about it after I just off this live.

Katrina Ruth: And if you have any questions come up at all, please just message them to me, or put them here or something because I'll do Q&A at some point and really I wanna make sure you understand everything and kind of get everything. But I guess at the end of the day, the new members, I feel like the inaugural launch members offer is so good, it's an over 80% discount off your first month. So a very heavily reduced trial month, where you're gonna pay only about 16.6% of the actual ongoing cost.

Katrina Ruth: So you get to experience all of it, and either stay or not stay and either way, is fine. But on top of that, you get the bonuses, we get our first official live training happening with me this Wednesday. And this is the evolved, 2.0 version of the high vibe mastermind, my current membership programme. So, it's not something different, I'm gonna continue with both, we're moving into the Millionaire Mastermind, because I really identified and looked at the fact that me providing my knowledge and resources and teaching you what I'm doing is just such a limited piece of what we can offer at The Katrina Ruth Show if we would bring our whole team in.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, Alyssa, what's up?

Alyssa: This Chinese guy came up and said, "What's that?" And I said, "It's a sign." And he laughed at me. And it's a little bit annoying 'cause I feel like I'm being weird.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, this is a really important question. People here on the Livestream are gonna help you. Alyssa said that somebody came up and saw her sign, her sign saying "Give me money for gymnastics."

Alyssa: It does not say that.

Katrina Ruth: Well, what does it say? "Doing gymnastics for money." And that he laughed at her. And now, she's feeling like shutting down her hustle because she's worried that maybe she's being weird. I mean, I feel like I couldn't script a better question really.

Katrina Ruth: So, who has something to help Alyssa? She feels like someone's being mean to her. She's put herself out there. She's marketing herself in the public space. She's showing up for her hustle and for her message and for her performance and art. Now she feels like somebody thinks being weird or maybe she is being weird. And she feels like maybe he's being mean.

Alyssa: I'm not.

Katrina Ruth: Wendy says that person is not a soul aligned client. Do you know what that means?

Alyssa: No.

Katrina Ruth: It means that that person's not your audience. That person was never gonna be your, you know, show attendee or your person who paid you anyway. So when Mommy puts stuff out on Facebook-

Alyssa: But what if more people are mean?

Katrina Ruth: What do you guys say to this? What if more people laugh at her? It is a perfect example. When Mommy puts stuff out ... You know how Mommy does a lot of videos and a lot of stuff on the Internet? Sometimes people laugh at me. Well some-

Alyssa: What about ... Why are they laughing at me?

Katrina Ruth: No, well, well, none of us usually like being laughed at, except if it's because we're being funny. What do you think you ... If you were really committed to your show and to keeping on going until you get clients who pay you, do you think you would keep going if somebody laughed at you? Or do you think you'd stop?

Alyssa: I'd stop for a minute.

Katrina Ruth: Stop for a minute. And then what?

Alyssa: And then go back again.

Katrina Ruth: And then go back again. Julian says, "Keep doing you, Alyssa."

Katrina Ruth: [Leeaura 00:17:13] says embrace your weirdness, no one else is like you. That means it's good to be weird. Do you think I'm weird?

Alyssa: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. I think that's obvious to everyone.

Katrina Ruth: Wendy says, "You can't let the naysayers stop you." Which means that if people say that you shouldn't be doing something or if you think that they're like laughing at you, or that they think you're being silly or whatever, you don't let those people stop you. You be stronger than them, right? Do you think you're stronger on the inside?

Alyssa: No, I can punch them.

Katrina Ruth: No, it doesn't mean we punch them. It means we be stronger on the inside.

Katrina Ruth: Christine says, "Keep going." Hang on, this is a good comment. She says, "Keep going. Your people who wanna see your show are out there ready for you. You can't please everyone, but you can be you. And they'll be many, many people who love you."

Alyssa: [inaudible 00:17:58]

Katrina Ruth: "Good for you." I can't read it. It's going too fast.

Alyssa: But what if- But what if-

Katrina Ruth: "Good for you for keep doing you and love your uniqueness."

Alyssa: But what if there's not people, not any people who wanna give me money?

Katrina Ruth: What if there's not any people who wanna give you money today? Then what are you gonna do? You tell me.

Alyssa: I don't know.

Katrina Ruth: You said before. You're said you're gonna crack it for a minute and then you're gonna keep going. Do you think that Mommy made money the first time she was trying to make money?

Alyssa: No but like what if when we go-

Katrina Ruth: Yep.

Alyssa: And I didn't get any money?

Katrina Ruth: Well, then what are you gonna do?

Alyssa: I'm gonna kill them.

Katrina Ruth: Don't say silly things. What are you really gonna do?

Alyssa: I don't know.

Katrina Ruth: Well, do you love gymnastics enough to keep going anyway?

Alyssa: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: Do believe that one day people would pay you for you to do a show for them?

Alyssa: Yeah, but I wanna come here tomorrow.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah.

Alyssa: If they're not gonna pay men.

Katrina Ruth: So, we'll just come back and do the show again tomorrow.

Alyssa: And Daddy's gonna be here.

Katrina Ruth: Daddy gets here tomorrow night.

Alyssa: Oh.

Katrina Ruth: Lekesha says, "That's amazing, keep going." You know who Beyonce is, right?

Alyssa: Huh?

Katrina Ruth: Do you know who Beyonce is? Let's substitute that for JoJo Siwa. Some people love JoJo Siwa, right? But some people don't. Some people wouldn't give any money to go see JoJo Siwa's show. Can you believe it? Shocking, I know. But there's some people that wouldn't her money and other people that do. So the thing that you gotta do is just keep going until you find the people who love you.

Katrina Ruth: "Some people laugh and they walk away and you never have to know them anyways," says Lakesha. "You have to keep going and trust your soul with what you wanna do." Exactly.

Alyssa: [inaudible 00:19:22] Well that is true but it feels like they're mean to me.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, but, do you love your gymnastics and believe in yourself enough to keep going anyway?

Alyssa: I wanna go seven days a week.

Katrina Ruth: You wanna go to gymnastics seven days a week. Well, I told you that might happen. Some people laugh because, that's true. Sometimes adults laugh at kids because they actually think it's really impressive and cute. And then, kids though don't really care for that. Like, kids don't like being laughed at, even when the adults are doing it from a place of, "That's super cool." I've noticed that a lot. A lot of adults do that from a place of, they think it's cool or cute. She does not like that.

Katrina Ruth: All right, she's going back out there. You guys have helped her massively. Isn't this a fantastic analogy for online business?

Alyssa: The guy's still there.

Katrina Ruth: The guy's still there. Where is he?

Alyssa: He laughed at me, the Chinese guy.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, well, why don't you move?

Alyssa: 'Cause he's [inaudible 00:20:12].

Katrina Ruth: Okay, so if some ... What do I do if somebody's like kind of triggering me on Facebook and kind of getting under my skin. Do you know what I do?

Alyssa: No.

Katrina Ruth: I actually well, if I really feel like they're not aligned, I just unfriend them. But either way, I actually don't pay attention.

Alyssa: But they're not my friends.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, so what that-

Alyssa: [crosstalk 00:20:28] good they are.

Katrina Ruth: So what you could do in this scenario is you could move your sign over there if you wanted to. Or, you could choose to just own your beautiful weirdness and do it wherever you wanna do it anyway. Either way is okay.

Alyssa: I wanna [crosstalk 00:20:43]. But can you, but ...

Katrina Ruth: "Do you feel good when doing gymnastics?" Says Wendy.

Alyssa: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: You love it, right?

Alyssa: Yeah. I go every day.

Katrina Ruth: So, the main reason to do your art is because you love it, right Alyssa?

Alyssa: Yeah, but-

Katrina Ruth: And then if you wanna make money from it, you've gotta just commit, yes?

Alyssa: Mommy, Mommy, Mommy ... I wanna do it over there now, but I want you to put that thing, the tripod near there so they can see me doing it.

Katrina Ruth: You do it over there and I'll turn around and then I'll be able to see you in the background behind me. But, everybody's cheering for you, honey.

Alyssa: But, it feels so scary.

Katrina Ruth: It does feel scary to put yourself out there. What do we say to a kid who feels scared to put themselves out there, guys? And what do you say to yourself though, is really the whole point that I'm trying to make here, 'cause Alyssa and I talk about this stuff all day long.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, now I can't see. Where is she? Is she in the camera? There you go. Now you're in the camera. Maybe I'll just move over there. I'm trying to say where I can see my other kid as well though. Where has he gone? All right. Okay. I think he's adopted himself to somebody else's family. Oh no, there he is. He's playing soccer. He's quite the little soccer ninja, that one. All right, let me sit on the ground so we can sort of see her over there, since that's what she wants. Okay, there she is.

Katrina Ruth: They're mean 'cause they're jealous of happiness. That's sometimes true. I don't know if an adult walking past is necessarily judgemental or judge oh sorry, jealous of a kid's happiness, but anything's possible. She's so self aware. I love her. She expresses those feelings.

Katrina Ruth: I just think there's so much to be learned from kids, and from the way that they hustle. It's just so funny how she came out with that line, like what would you do if nobody paid you? "I would crack it and then I'd keep going." Well, I guess the true born for entrepreneurs and leaders online, that's what we would do, right? I would crack it. I used to crack it when people, when I'd put my offers out there and sometimes I'd get only two people buying or one person buying. And sometimes no people at all.

Katrina Ruth: I know it's easy to look at me where I'm at now and I launch something like my Millionaire Mastermind today and people immediately wanna get on it and they are waiting for it, even though I only pre-launched it two days ago. But, don't forget that there's 12 years of online marketing behind me. And you know, a lot of people might not realise that for me, there was a massive period where people weren't buying, where I was like my daughter now on the side of the road with my sign out, doing my thing. And basically, people were ignoring, or maybe they you know, thought good on her or something like that. But they weren't paying.

Katrina Ruth: And so it's okay to crack it, but then you've got to keep going. And weirdly though, so many people online just crack it and then that's it. They crack it and then they stop.

Katrina Ruth: You okay? You getting angry? Okay, she's getting angry. See, it's okay to get angry. It's ... I'm gonna move back over here 'cause I can't see anything. It's okay to get shitty at yourself, by the way. I was telling somebody this morning on a message, just get shitty at yourself. That helps sometimes.

Katrina Ruth: All right, she sounds just like my Gus, as a kid. Be brave, be beautiful and do what makes you happy. Don't even worry about anyone else. Exactly, exactly. It's funny, 'cause I don't say things to Alyssa like she should go and you know, have a hostile obviously. But she sees the way that I live my life, and she's always trying to come up with ways to make money. Which is very normal for kids I think. I think children are naturally really entrepreneurial. Maybe some more than others. But I was trying to make money from the age of three or four years old.

Katrina Ruth: All right, does anyone have any questions about the Millionaire Mastermind or maybe you've not yet had a chance to go check out the sales page. I'm going to be Livestreaming and posting about it all weekend. So you're gonna see a lot of stuff from me coming out. And I guess I'll be explaining more parts but as I go. And just making sure that nobody misses out because it is quite a limited launch time and because I know the top 25, then the top 50 and that sort of thing will go quite quickly.

Alyssa: I've got a problem.

Katrina Ruth: So I am gonna be posting about it quite a lot over the next few days. And what I really would love is if there's anything that you're not sure about, or anything that you want more clarification on because it's quite a lot of detail on there, just tell me. I think at some point, maybe tomorrow, I'll do a Q&A, and I'll cover all that sort of stuff.

Katrina Ruth: What's your problem?

Alyssa: My problem is the lady said, "Wow, you're doing really good gymnastics." But then, they didn't probably see the sign.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, so the problem is somebody congratulated her on amazing her gymnastics was, but they didn't pay her. But maybe they didn't see the sign.

Alyssa: But then maybe ... So I need to [inaudible 00:25:28]

Katrina Ruth: So what do you think an ... So what do you think somebody who's in business like Mommy would do if somebody said, like maybe somebody said good job to me on my blogging, like on my writing, on my Livestreaming. If they didn't then sign up for my course, what do you think I would do?

Alyssa: I don't know. But I just ... but [inaudible 00:25:48]

Katrina Ruth: Well I'd probably just keep going, but maybe I'd make a bigger sign next time.

Alyssa: They said, you do really good gymnastics but they probably didn't see the sign. Maybe I have to hold it up.

Katrina Ruth: You can't really hold it up whilst doing the gymnastics, but it is a very tiny little sign.

Alyssa: No, but, no but, no, but if people see it, I'll put it down and then start doing gymnastics.

Katrina Ruth: You could. Or, if you really wanted to keep doing this, then when we go home, you could make a big sign.

Alyssa: But that ... but when we go home it's [crosstalk 00:26:16].

Katrina Ruth: And you could tell them that Christina says you could tell them that you're performing for money.

Alyssa: But how we gonna do that because it's at Solar building.

Katrina Ruth: Don't say exactly where we live, Alyssa. We can make a big sign, like a big poster sign.

Alyssa: But where we gonna do it?

Katrina Ruth: What do you mean? At home, with your arts and crafts stuff.

Alyssa: But where we gonna put it?

Katrina Ruth: Against the thing. Look, nobody's gonna see that little sign. That's the reality. Ignore them and keep smiling to show them you don't care what they think.

Alyssa: I'm still doing it.

Katrina Ruth: Well, nobody's trying to stop you. Go do it then. Stop-

Katrina Ruth: All right, I'm gonna jump off this Livestream.

Katrina Ruth: Stop it. I sometimes ... I don't know whether to be proud or embarrassed. I swear to God. Don't twerk.

Alyssa: I'm twerking. I'm twerking.

Katrina Ruth: Please don't twerk. Do not twerk on my Livestream. Yeah, well, if you're putting like a little tiny buy my thing thing on the Internet and nobody sees it, then maybe you gotta shout louder about it and be okay to back yourself and promote yourself, right? Get a bigger freaking' sign. I mean, all this stuff is just really obvious. It's quite funny if you think about it, how many entrepreneurs just walk away crying and having a little temper tantrum or hissy fit. Or then just don't come back the next day because they feel hurt or rejected or whatever. I'm not making fun of it, I'm just saying, get a thicker skin, if you're committed. Keep showing up. Get a bigger sign. Wave the sign around. Get a sign with fricking' lights on it. Create a show. Be the show. That's it.

Katrina Ruth: I am The Katrina Ruth Show. Thank you for watching. Go to thekatrinaruthshow.com/millionairemastermind. Check out the brand new, hot off the press membership programme. It did just launch a few hours ago. Top 25 is selling out now. Top 50 hasn't even been announced yet, but there will be a badass top 50 bonus, and I will announce that in the next several hours. The time is on. There are less than, should be less than 72 hours left now until the doors close. But what I'm really doing is doing some badass cool stuff for the people who wanna take fast action from the go, and obviously be amongst the first to sign up.

Katrina Ruth: Our first live training for the new Millionaire Mastermind will happen on Wednesday evening. That's all outlined in the sales page. And over on the sales page you can also meet my team. You can see the different things that you'll be receiving each month, the monthly themes, how it all works, what's included. And of course, claim your place now. It's at thekatrinaruthshow.com/millionairemastermind. And it is the high vibers fuck Millionaire Mastermind.

Katrina Ruth: Have an amazing day. Don't forget, life is now. Press play.