Rebel Millionaire

Linda: Has it already happened?

Katrina: Yeah. It still says starting. Get your head in the picture, because otherwise you're revealing the trick about our cushions. When your head when down, it just looked like a weird cushion arrangement behind us.

Linda: There's some crazy talking going on over here.

Katrina: Get rid of it. Kill it dead.

Linda: What is this?

Katrina: Is that a cage to keep humans in?

Linda: Oh my God! No, he's wearing pants.

Katrina: What are you doing?

Linda: He's wearing pants, it's okay. But I got excited there for a minute.

Katrina: Creepy cage for humans.

Linda: Hello!

Katrina: I'm just getting a little insight into this YouTube selection. Alright.

Linda: Hi, we need to pay attention to this. We're here.

Katrina: We're present and in attendance. I was on a plane like an argon, I'm just like a freaking professional.

Linda: You literally just walked up.

Katrina: I just walked off a plane. There might have been three full-blown temper tantrum on that plane had by one of my children. It was much wine required.

Linda: And, this took a little bit of time. Let's just be -

Katrina: This took a little bit of time to make the set fabulous. Wait, wait. I haven't even shared this. Only on my business page. I'm going to share it to my own page. Hang on, everybody. Just wait. You're going to have to wait. I'm just going to entertain you.

Linda: I'm going to entertain you.

Katrina: I'm sitting with what will come out of me, I'm unsure.

Linda: We were about to call ... What were we going to call the live feed?

Katrina: You wanted to call it "Whatever the Fuck Comes Out." Which is actually very accurate.

Linda: Yes, we have this amazing set up going on.

Katrina: It is amazing, look at it. Hang on, we've had a cushion fail.

Linda: Oh my God.

Katrina: There's been a cushion fail already.

Linda: Fail.

Katrina: Hello, hello, hello people in my live stream.

Linda: Hello, kids and hello people in mine. We should introduce each other.

Katrina: Oh that's an idea. People could just figure it out.

Linda: People could just figure out who we are. It would be pretty cool if I choose you to my people. My people. You introduce me to your people.

Katrina: That's impressive between peoples. Begin, begin. Begin while I share this. I'm going to share it into my group and then to my other page.

Linda: Aw look, that's us.

Katrina: We look amazing. It is what it is.

Linda: Katrina Routh is a serial internet breaker.

Katrina: That's actually true. She just wrote me a small, beautiful card. And in there it's some flowers and my favourite chocolates, and some vegemite.

Linda: She deserves it, let's face it.

Katrina: I came home to this little, I'm going to call it an alter, to me. But in the card-

Linda: It was an expression of love.

Katrina: But in the card she said, "to the woman who breaks the internet every day."

Linda: I did, I did.

Katrina: It was beautiful, actually. Thank you.

Linda: No worries, well thank you. For having me in your space. But I mean, who wouldn't want to have me in your space.

Katrina: All the time. Thank you M.D. alright, last introduction. I think I [inaudible 00:03:22] your introduction.

Linda: You did. That's all she cares. No, I'm kidding.

Katrina: You can figure the rest out.

Linda: She breaks the internet, apart of that, she's my soul sister friend and she's a kick ass entrepreneur. I really, really honour and admire how much she's standing on truth and just kick ass on the internet.

Katrina: And all. Thank you. For those who don't know the amazing, talented, and fabulous Linda Docta, here she is. I've prepared her in the flesh earlier. Many of you know us both and follow us both, but for those who don't know, Linda is one of the ... I'm going to say it this way, because this is the simplest way to explain just how highly I think of this one. Linda is one of the few people in the world whose post I consistently read because she's an incredible messenger and writer. And you know, I'm a content creator, not a consumer. I don't consumer a lot of content from other people. I do consume some people. I consumer some people, and I consume some people's content. But Linda's posts are incredible. She's an incredible [inaudible 00:04:37]. You're one of the few people who is not afraid to say what's actually inside of her, and to share what's coming from the soul. As you know, that's what I believe its all got to be about. That's just one reason why we gt along so well. We have a relationship that is predominately on, somewhat, almost an embarrassing amount of audio messages per day. That goes back and forth from all around the world.

Linda: They do. Even in the house. When was it? Before you went to Melbourne. You were downstairs, I was upstairs. And you were audioing me and listening to my audio.

Katrina: So we don't hang out in person that often, but Linda's here staying in my home for a few days before she jets off again. And often, I don't know, I'm over in American and she's in Sydney, or I'm in Bali and she's in Melbourne, or wherever we are. Now you're going to be in other places around the world, and I'll be here. That's how it is. So we don't see each other in person that often. What just happened? Okay, Linda's phone literally just turned itself off.

Katrina: Alright, well you're going to reboot your phone and we're going to start again.

Linda: What is this?

Katrina: That's it, you broke the internet.

Linda: I did break the internet.

Katrina: You can't go around saying shit like that.

Linda: It's okay, I'm going to share your post onto my ... Oh.

Katrina: Yeah, but that shouldn't have turned itself off.

Linda: I don't know.

Katrina: Oh, well that's because of that. The turned off because that turned off.

Linda: Yeah, it did.

Katrina: Linda's phone just completely powered itself down.

Linda: We're just going to do it on one phone.

Katrina: Just start it again, I reckon. So, we don't meet in person.

Katrina: Would you want to put yours back on again? Do yours.

Katrina: We don't meed in person too often, but then when we do, it's like no time has passed because we're speaking on audio all the time, every single day, and that's how I feel about all my soulmate people around the world. You sometimes feel confused as to when you last saw them in the physical world because you're connecting with them in other worlds so continuously, right? But anyway, she came in here, when was is? Thursday last week or something. And I'm downstairs eating my little midnight snack, as I do, standing at the kitchen bench.

Katrina: Okay, let's wait until this starts again. And we'll tell the story. And I'll just tell it anyway because it might take a while to get going. Yeah so, I'm downstairs in the kitchen, which is just through there. And I'm listening to audios as I do often at 1 A.M. or something, and so then I'm listening to Linda's audio message, and then I realise she's actually upstairs in the bedroom, in one of the spare bedrooms. I'm like, "Oh my God, I'm so addicted to listening to audios from you that I'm still listening to audios from you when you're in my house, upstairs, sleeping." And then I'm writing back. Even though I'll see her in the morning at 6 A.M. I'm like, "I can't wait for that, I'm going to need to audio now."

Linda: Peoples! We broke the internet. Yes, I already did tag that girl. She's tagged. Peoples, we already broke the internet.

Katrina: Linda's phone spontaneously combusted itself.

Linda: It did.

Katrina: Self-combusted. So, anyway. You missed the story over there on Linda's side.

Linda: Sorry, guys.

Katrina: Sorry about that.

Linda: She was just telling an awesome story, and I kind of feel a bit like I should have gone more with my intro about you. Because that was really beautiful, thank you for that.

Katrina: You made me an altar.

Linda: I did.

Katrina: That was pretty next level. I've got to take a photo of it, later.

Linda: Oh I've got to post that stuff. But that was a beautiful expression, because what you said about speaking truth, because I'm just a reflection of you. You know that, right? You are a woman who just stands in her power, in her truth.

Katrina: Thank you.

Linda: And you always have been. You're just not afraid to say what's flowing through you.

Katrina: It's sometimes scary, though. But thank you.

Linda: Yeah, no it's amazing. I admire that.

Katrina: Well it's been agreed we're both amazing. I just think we can finish there.

Linda: See you, later. Cheers!

Katrina: Cheers to being amazing.

Linda: Cheers. And this is funny because I never drink. [inaudible 00:08:37]

Katrina: Never, never.

Linda: I feel so naughty.

Katrina: Continually breaking the internet now. Well my new programme is part of the internet, so it's only appropriate. But, it is so relevant because the more you stand in your power and in your truth, isn't it true that you're just going to attract in those soulmate people who stand in their truth, and so then you honour that person, like I honour you, for the way you sharpen them, you're honouring me. And then it's just going to turn into a never ending cycle of we both think the other one is amazing, which means that it's a reflection of us.

Linda: Yeah!

Katrina: It just keeps going.

Linda: It's like, you're amazing. No you're amazing. You're amazing.

Katrina: Exactly.

Linda: And then, it ends up being an altar on the kitchen table.

Katrina: You end up coming home off a flight from the other side of the country, and you walk in and your soul sister forever finds you an altar on the kitchen table, vegemite included in the altar.

Linda: You know what I should have done? I should have just laid myself down on the table, naked.

Katrina: You're reminding me of this thing from Sex and The City, where the guy lays ... No, she's about to lay down naked with sushi all over her body. What's his name? The young guy that she's dating? And then he doesn't come home, though. And then she's laying there on the table for hours covered in sushi, and he just never comes home. He comes home like four hours later or something. And she's still laying there covered in sushi.

Katrina: Okay, I was going to do a nice segue into the conscious relationships conversation, but instead we're talking about Samantha from Sex and the City covered naked in sushi.

Linda: See, we should have called it Whatever the Fuck comes out.

Katrina: Well we were just saying, it is the perfect union to the topic of conscious relationships, which may or may not be what we talk about. Because it will be whatever the fuck comes out.

Linda: Exactly.

Katrina: But that's ... People say to me all the time, I'm sure you hear this as well. But probably one of the most common things I do hear from people in my community is what an amazing friendship, when they see me with my soul sister friends, right? Like I'll get comments on that a lot, like, "Wow, what an incredible, beautiful friendship." Okay, oh my God. Jermaine literally just wrote what I'm talking about. She wrote, "Gorgeous ladies, #soulmatefriendgoals."

Linda: Aw, that's amazing. Thank you.

Katrina: So I hear that all the time because I do only have women in my life who are deep, soul sister connected friends. Deep soul sister, however you want to say it. And that's definitely ...

Katrina: Okay, you have a marriage proposal over there. I think we should address it.

Linda: Aww.

Katrina: That's not a wall, actually, Maria, that's a painting that my sister-in-law painted for me. It's not a wall, it's a painting.

Linda: Do we need to address this marriage proposal?

Katrina: Linda's been proposed to.

Linda: I've been proposed to.

Katrina: On her live steam.

Linda: What should I say?

Katrina: We'll consider your offer. We'll get back to you.

Linda: Let me sit with it.

Katrina: What does your soul say?

Linda: Stop, stop now. Stop now.

Katrina: What does your soul have to say about this? What are we going to talk about? Where is this conversation going?

Linda: I don't know.

Katrina: Do you think that life just gets better and better and easier and easier?

Linda: I think so.

Katrina: Do you think that we have almost an inappropriate amount of fun, except that nobody realises that you meant to have so much fun all the time?

Linda: Yeah but here's the thing. I go in and out of having a lot of fun and then sometimes I get very, very serious in my work.

Katrina: Sometimes you get a litter angry.

Linda: What do you mean?

Katrina: When the passion really comes out. Warrior Linda.

Linda: You've had some amazing audio from me lately.

Katrina: I've seen the warrior ninja come through a few times. I've seen the [inaudible 00:12:13] ninja, as well, in fact it was doing back flips in my bedroom the other night.

Linda: She calls me an "it."

Katrina: I meant the ninja. I'm calling it an it, it's an extension of you. Okay, go, you were saying about getting serious.

Linda: No, but I have another story. See, I swap stories. I'm a Gemini, just to let you know. I'm a Gemini, so I start a sentence, and then I never finish. And I start another one, I don't finish that either. So I start three different stories in one go.

Katrina: And then meanwhile, I'll be doing the exact same thing [inaudible 00:12:46].

Linda: And then she cuts me off and we never get anywhere.

Katrina: So, if you're hoping to take some kind of orderly notes from this evening's session, we're going to need to let you know that's not going to happen. But sit back, buckle up, enjoy the ride, and trust you will receive whatever it is that you'll hear divinely to receive.

Linda: Whatever your soul is wanting to receive, it's always the perfect timing.

Katrina: Exactly.

Linda: What I was saying -

Katrina: You said sometimes you get really serious.

Linda: No, before that. There was another story that cuts off what I was saying. I need to finish this story, first.

Katrina: Just let it come on.

Linda: It comes out really fast. So, only today, because you were talking about the ninja stuff. I only got a reminder in my phone, in my memories, that it was only a year ago exactly, I was competing in the ninja championship.

Katrina: Was that already a year ago?

Linda: Yeah, yep. It was.

Katrina: So cool.

Linda: So what I was saying before the ninja, that yeah, I feel myself going in and out of having a lot of fun, and fun is one of my highest values.

Katrina: Yeah.

Linda: And play vibrates the same as prey. Play is one of the highest vibrations, so -

Katrina: Explain that.

Linda: Imagine having fun, like think about the vibration you're in when you're having fun. Like think about how you're actually feeling, there's no ego when you're just full of joy. When you just ... you're immersed in this bubble of love and joy. An ego doesn't exist in that moment, it's just an embodiment of excitement, fun, love.

Katrina: You're completely present.

Linda: Exactly. You're fully present.

Katrina: An ego can't be there when you're completely present.

Linda: No, it can't.

Katrina: I just had breakthrough moment, already. Not being a smart ass, either, it sounded slightly like I was. Isn't that a powerful concept.

Linda: Is it. It is. And I continue to remind myself to have fun, because sometimes I feel like, oh shit, maybe I'm just caught up too much in my serious side, or introspection.

Katrina: You are one of the most fun people I know and I'll give you a case study.

Linda: Case study?

Katrina: Case study.

Linda: I cannot guarantee what she's going to say tonight, so.

Katrina: It's not that outrageous. But one time I wanted to take my friends to the indoor ... children's ... my friends? - I wanted to make my children to the indoor, you know they have the indoor play centres, right? It was a really rainy Saturday on the Gold Coast sometime last year, back in [inaudible 00:15:14]. My kids are driving me crazy, I'm like, I've got to go to the indoor play centre, but I was like, I need some adult time. I was actually just losing my shit. And I was like, "Who can I invite to come to an indoor kid's play centre with me?" And all my friends who had kids were occupied or busy already, and I'm like which of my friends who doesn't have kids could I invite to come to the indoor play centre with me? I'm like, Linda. Obviously.

Katrina: So I audioed her, I'm like, "Hey do you want - it's called Juddlebugs - I'm like do you want to come to Juddlebugs?" She's like, "What's Juddlebugs?" I'm trying to describe it, I'm like "There's like a netting thing you get trapped in and you fall down, and there's slides and you can shoot people and then there's a foam pit." And she's like, "How have I never heard of this?"

Linda: And I was going off on you. How dare you not tell me there's a place called Juddlebugs? How dare you?

Katrina: But we had the best afternoon. We got trapped upside down in the spiderweb for an unreasonable ... We nearly did a live stream up there.

Linda: We did, almost.

Katrina: That would be inappropriate. But you are a fun orientated person and I think I've learned a lot about having fun. Kids themed party for adults, that's an awesome idea, AJ.

Linda: Oh, yeah. Was I having this conversation with you, AJ? We need to create, yeah you were only saying that the other day at breakfast, yesterday.

Katrina: Yeah, I've learned a lot about having fun from you, but I think that that concept of there being no ego in it, is really, really interesting and really powerful. And it's a reminder that if we can get into being present, then I think ... Okay, fun is one thing, then I think we also, that is the place where we access our highest [inaudible 00:16:53] areas, in terms of, for example, greatest creative flow, right? I know that when I get into silliness, playing, silliness, being frivolous, maybe a little bit reckless, or kind of making a fool of yourself, that sort of thing, sometimes I don't know, I'd be curious to know if you feel this way, sometimes when I get really silly and really kind of frivolous and lighthearted, I'll feel a slight shame feeling afterwards. For self-consciousness, where I feel a little -

Linda: Like you're judging yourself?

Katrina: Do I embarrass myself, did I make a fool of it?

Linda: The ego comes back in?

Katrina: Yeah, the ego's coming back in afterwards. But then, at the same time, and I'll notice it afterwards, and it feels kind of like a walk of shame type of feeling. Like, did I really do that? And the thing is though, that I don't allow that to infiltrate me and stop me from going wherever I go in my energy when I'm on a live stream, for example, or whatever it is I'm doing in any situation. Because I know that I get into such an amazing creative flow and I get all the downloads when I'm in that place. But then afterwards, my human mind will come back in and be like, "Oh you probably pushed it a little too far," or, "You're making a fool of yourself," or, "People probably think you're off your head." All my judgements come through.

Linda: Yeah, yeah.

Katrina: But I still do it. I still do it. I notice them and observe them. I'm like, "Okay, thank you for showing up and telling me all the reasons I'm not good enough. I'm going to keep going anyway."

Linda: Yeah, yeah. It's amazing to be your own observer. Here's the thing, we all have an inner child within us. We all have an inner child, and sometimes when we get in on this conscious journey of growth and conscious growth and there's ego and then there's a spiritual ego that can come and slap -

Katrina: Oh, that's a [crosstalk 00:18:39].

Linda: Yeah, yeah. So I've definitely been wacked left, right, and centre by the spiritual ego sometimes. As you start moving through this experience, you go into that judgement of, "Now I can't be silly because I'm conscious or spiritual."

Katrina: Ah, I so nearly put a post up tonight, I'm not even kidding, the only reason I didn't post this on Facebook an hour ago is because I just posted to say we're going to do this.

Linda: Well, see, who's a mind reader.

Katrina: And I nearly wrote something like, "Be careful not to get so fucking involved that you can't," I don't know. I can't even remember what then ending of what I was going to say is. That like, you become so freaking involved that your whole thing is how involved you are.

Linda: Yeah.

Katrina: Be careful of the ego that is attached to walking around being like, "Oh I've had all the ego deaths." Yeah, but that's ego, so. And we all do it. Spiritual ego.

Linda: Yeah, it's a very interesting concept and to ... I love being my own observer of just allowing myself to be with ease, I don't go into judgement that often. I'm like, "Okay, that was a fascinating, internal response."

Katrina: Right, that's similar to what I'll say to myself, like curiosity.

Linda: Yeah, it's like, okay.

Katrina: Observation.

Linda: Okay, that was fascinating. I'm interested why I responded internally that way.

Katrina: Yeah, that was an interesting [inaudible 00:20:06].

Linda: And still, I've moved away from that judgement , I'm just like, "I wonder where that came from?"

Katrina: Yeah, that's actually really similar to ... I talk about that a lot with clients, as well. I definitely still have those self judgmental reactions come through, but the way that I persist them is curiosity or lightheartedness. My two favourite ones.

Linda: Really important.

Katrina: When I say lightheartedness, let's say you said something or did something, maybe on a Facebook live like this, or maybe in a one-on-one conversation with somebody, and you really feel that you went quite far with vulnerability and you exposed yourself, and then you go out of that situation and you feel like a need to protect yourself or you feel like maybe you went too far and you put yourself in some vulnerable space or place, and then maybe the judgements comes up, like it could either be, "Yeah, well that was an interesting choice, I wonder why I chose to do that, let me get curious about that," or it could literally be like, "Oh, how silly, how cute. That's really funny, I wonder why I chose that." Or it could even be you did something that really caused some sort of sabotage, right? We've both spoken publicly many times about backgrounds of self-sabotage, and then those old patterns can sometimes try to continue to knock on the door. Many times, people ... I don't want to call it relapse, maybe not the best word, not my favourite word anyway. But many times, people will pick up an old sabotaging pattern and then they'll tend to feel like, "I'm bad, and I'm weak willed, and I got to hate on myself, and why did I do this?"

Katrina: And instead, and I speak about this a lot with a lot of clients who have struggled with binge eating and if the binge eating comes back ... I have bulimia for 10 years, so I understand it, right? And they'll be like, "Oh my God, this is fucked up, what did I do?" And I'm like, "Wait no, what if instead, it was 'Oh, wow. I wonder why you needed that? Let's get curious about that. What was it inside you that needed that?'" Or also, even to smile about something that perviously felt so heavy and to make it lighthearted. It takes the power out of it and actually gives you back your power.

Linda: Yeah, yeah. And conscious, when I say, because we said in the title "Conscious Relationship" it's not just conscious relating with another person or in an actual partnership or relationship, it's also how we're consciously relating to ourselves and what kind or relationship we're having to ourselves.

Katrina: 100%

Linda: And I think that's even more important to dive into, because if you don't understand yourself, then how can you consciously relate to another human being, if you don't understand your own ways of internal response and dimension and your operation system.

Katrina: Yeah, I love that, and it's funny because I think when we said we'd talk about conscious relationships, we said that to each other earlier today, and I think we sort of thought, relationships with other people, but when I was on the plane just before, I was thinking, I feel like this is going to be more about the relationship with self, because the place that we create epic relationships with other people from, even an amazing friendship, an amazing client-mentor relationship. I always say that my clients, so many clients, it wasn't always that way. It could be a romantic relationship, as well. All the different relationships. In order to call it or allowing or flowing to incredible incredible conscious relationships with other individuals, we have to first be in an incredible conscious relationship with our own selves.

Linda: Absolutely.

Katrina: And in a space of non-judgment, understanding, compassion, and full acceptance.

Linda: I only wrote a blog about that this morning. That I got inspired by someone who asks me yesterday, "Linda, why haven't you been swept off your feet yet?" And I didn't get triggered or anything like that, it just simply inspired me to talk about it openly and to express myself why that is, and just put a little slightly different perspective on it, as well. And take it into the relating with self, because if we want someone to show up for us, if we want someone to be present with us, we have to be present with ourselves, first. We have to show up for ourselves, first.

Linda: Quite often, we're longing for something, we're wanting, we're even needing. So there's a needing ness and you are filling a void within us, that we haven't even actually given ourselves. And if we're not giving ourselves, then how can we truly experience that outside of ourselves?

Katrina: Well you learn you receive from others what you're giving to yourself. That's the reality. So if you feel, maybe sometimes you get frustrated or angry, this happens a lot with coaches and with their clients, and it happens with men and women in romantic relationships, it even happens in friendships and family dynamics, also. I guess I hear it fairly frequently in the coaching industry, "I seem to have all these clients who are behind on their payments," or whatever, right? Some sort of pardon like that. And it's always like, "Okay cool, this is great, this is great feedback and information because this is a great opportunity to look at where am I not honouring myself?"

Linda: Absolutely.

Katrina: And yeah, the think with relationships that I think sometimes we all forget, I know give forgotten this or put it aside at times, is there'll always be instability there. The goal is not to get to some sort of place of done, sorted, everything's predicted and predictable. Imagine how fucking boring that'd be, anyways. But it's growth, relationships are there for our growth, right? Exactly, AJ just that's where we attractively show our voids.

Linda: Yeah.

Katrina: So when you have people in your life, any area of your life, who you feel like their causing you to feel something, it's always "Wow, thank you, because this allows me to see an area in myself where I wasn't paying attention, where I wasn't honouring myself." Can I give an example that's a little bit naughty? Of course I can.

Linda: Are you asking for permission?

Katrina: I don't know. I don't know. When I was on the live stream last week, Chris told me not to swear, I was like, "What?" But it's because we were going to use it for a Facebook ad. I'm like, "Mother fucker." He's like, "You can't swear." I'm like, "What do you mean I can't swear?"

Katrina: Okay, so I had an awareness only very recently, actually. I had always thought, not always, but I had frequently felt frustrated that when I have sex with Mare, he would very rarely pay attention to my breasts. All men, I don't mean one individual man, right? But it was a pattern that I noticed. I felt frustrated that men would just kind of ignore my breasts. They would sometimes even just leave my top of and just go down there, and not always, but a high percentage of the time. And I definitely had a story in my head that this is because I have fairly small breast and that's the reason why. And I was 100% certain about that. And then, long story short, I realised that, "Holy shit. I never give my breasts love and attention. I never pay attention," previously never. I was never paying them attention, I was not giving them any love, any touch, any affection, I didn't really consider them ... I didn't dislike my breasts at all, actually I find them very practical for fitness reasons, but if we take that story even further back, though, and I did blog about it. Yeah, Marie, I did blog about it a week or two ago.

Katrina: Because I'm actually having breast enlargement surgery in two days. And I'm so grateful I realised all this before that was coming through, right? Because that's coming from a place of desire, not from a place of trying to fill a need. But with this, if you go back even further, when I was a teenage, I had really big boobs. And when I was in my late teens. And people would comment on it often and I would wear low cut tops often, and I wasn't heavy either. I just actually had big boobs. But then I would learn from my mom, about be careful because men are going to whatever. I got the message that I was being too sexual, and I really think when I look back now, I think I manifested them way. Because now look, they're like an A cup or whatever, they're a small B, maybe. But yeah, it was just this interesting realisation of I'm walking around going, "What the fuck is with these dudes that don't take the time to touch the rest of my body because that's what I really want and that's really what opens you up as a women, to have that attention to all areas, not just, obviously."

Katrina: Whether or not it's obviously, if it's not obvious, now you know. Welcome. And then I'm like, "Oh my God, holy fucking wake up call. I get to love on myself in that area." And I'm not kidding, within four days of when I started to give attention in that area and then I had a sexual experience and it was like, "Yeah, I'm like ..."

Linda: But see, this flows into all areas of life. It's not just what we experience with relationships. It's actually in all areas. So I'm just going to invite you into a moment of introspection and to really reflect on in what area of your life are you feeling that, "Oh I'm not receiving what I'm actually wanting?" And you're kind of blocking yourself from that. In what area of you're life, is it maybe money, it is money stuff? What's your relationship with money, how you speak to money, what do you feel about money? If you're someone who wants to contentiously create that or you want to consciously create a beautiful relationship, or experience certain things. Then you have to look inside, first, and check in, are you giving yourself that? That was a beautiful example. That was a really beautiful example.

Katrina: And that's a physical example, but it's also with the emotional stuff.

Linda: Yeah, yeah.

Katrina: And any time we're looking for something to fill a need in us, money is a great example, if I had that money then I'd be safe, I'd be free, then I'd be credible, then I'd be good enough. It's always like, "Oh, wow." As soon as you realise that, how can I give that to myself. Well actually, how you can give any of these things to yourself is to decide to. It's not something you've got to go out and work for. You can do it in this moment.

Linda: Absolutely. It's simply a choice. It's decision to do so in an instant because we can so easily get caught up, and like you said before, when I get there, then I'll be good enough. When I lose this weight, then I'll feel good enough, or then I'll feel beautiful. Or that was just one example.

Katrina: Or when I make the money then I'm safe or then I'm worthy.

Linda: Then I'm successful.

Katrina: Then I can relax in my life, then I can have fun in my life, then I can be happy. Or when somebody loves me then this, then this, then this. So anything that we're putting onto a pedestal like that, we're saying, "If I have this thing outside of myself, then I can experience and live in the emotions and energies that I desire." It causes you to actually push it away. It means that you hold the thing that you want at arms length, it's a lesson that you've got to learn. Is that you get to give that to yourself. So when you continue in that pattern, it's kind of like, "Oh, okay cool. I see that you just want to keep learning that same lesson again and again and again." Interesting choice.

Linda: Isn't it interesting when the universe continues to teach you the same lessons until you learn? I'm just reflecting back on some of my own patterns, and like, oh my God.

Katrina: Right, right.

Linda: And it just clicks. I'm like, "Okay, well I haven't been honouring myself in that area," or "I haven't been giving myself attention in that area."

Katrina: Yeah. Okay, we're back. We just froze over here.

Linda: She broke the internet again. I mean, we broke it.

Katrina: You put it into words on the card over there.

Linda: I did.

Katrina: Now it just keeps happening.

Linda: We're manifesting it. Conscious creation. What was I talking about before? Going on tangents.

Katrina: You were talking about how there's been times where you've noticed you learning the same lesson again and again and again. And then it's like, "Okay. I'm finally done with learning that lesson."

Linda: Yeah, yeah. And the learning can be in an absolute instant. You choose to shift your internal matrix and you just chose to observe what's happening. And you chose to -

Katrina: It's an instantaneous decision.

Linda: Yeah, absolutely. And how quickly your outer matrix can shift with that.

Katrina: Yeah. Completely.

Linda: So phenomenal.

Katrina: It's amazing. I mean, earlier on this week, you know I was in Bali until Wednesday. I remember Monday, I think ... Well we audio every day, anyway. But I was really feeling kind of stuck and in some heavy energies, and you know where it's up in your face, I get anxiety sometimes. And I was having a pretty extreme anxiety day, which I hadn't had in a while, and I was really just not enjoying that feeling of it. But at the same time, I remember I walked into the gym and I remember saying to myself, "This will shift. As much as in this moment of insane anxiety and feeling frustrated or whatever it was that I was experiencing, as much as that felt real." I was so aware, I guess, from all the work that I've done over the years and the way I live my life, I was like, "This could shift any moment." And from now on I might feel on top of the fucking world and completely understand all my madness and why I was making something into a really big thing. Or I might stay in a state or feeling stuck and anxious and frustrated or trapped or whatever for the whole day, and either what it's okay, either way it is what is, and that's all it is, and that's okay.

Katrina: But I think that sometimes when we're in that state of feeling like, "Why can I have what I want and why is money evading me or why is this happening or why is my business here or why are my relationships like this or whatever," that we get so caught up in this kind of story of "This is not fair and why am I getting [inaudible 00:34:18] this instead of just being like this could change in an instant based on your own thoughts," I don't mean based on something happened. I mean based on you suddenly get some new perspective and on that day earlier this week, I said just kind of a simple loose intention in my mind that this will get to shift and that they'll be a way for me to be empowered by this situation that was causing me to feel a bit panicked, and I felt like, "How could that happen?" Because there is something that makes me feel upset.

Katrina: And I'm not kidding, like two hours later, I was like, "Holy shit, wow. I feel so grateful for this now because I just realised how I'm not addressing whatever area inside of and that I now get to learn about this, and oh my God, I'm so glad that this happened to cause me to go into this anxiety of this crazy tail spin." I had to sit in it and marinate in it and it didn't feel fun, but even when you're in that state, like we know that it's for our greater good, right?

Linda: Always.

Katrina: So we might be like, "Ah this feels like shit. This has been dragged through the ringer, and put on a freaking spin cycle and then you go ten rounds after that, and then somebody" ... But you still know that it's for your learning and growth. So even in the mists of the worst of it, you're like, "And I'm getting fucking strong as a mother fucker." Watch me grow.

Linda: Watch me grow, watch me expand.

Katrina: We talk about this all the time.

Linda: We do, we do. I think it's really powerful how we can go into, even when we're triggered, so this is the thing, previously the gratitude always comes after, the learning comes after. You're not going to get clarity and learning and wisdom when you're full of emotion. You need to left that shift. You need to be with it. But can you be your own observer at the same time? And instantly, while you're having that experience of, "I feel really shit. I feel really challenged." Can you be your own observer and go, "Hey I'm still grateful, because I'm being shown something that I'm not quite getting yet.

Katrina: Right. I don't know what it is yet, but I know that it's here for a reason.

Linda: It's here for a reason, it's here for my greater good, and I get to learn something. I get to be a better version of myself as I come through this.

Katrina: Yeah. It's just when I'm triggered, I'm secretly happy because I know I'm healing.

Linda: Yeah. I love that. I love that expression.

Katrina: Well even on the plane just then, my four year old had three next level tantrums on the flight that were just so bad, so full on. I'm first I was conscious as fuck. I'm using conscious communication with my child, everybody probably so impressed by me. I was staying super calm, I was very proud of myself, right? And I got him through the first tantrum.

Katrina: But then he had another one. And I felt myself start to break a little bit. I was like, "Fucking." I didn't say that, but that's what I was feeling, right. I was going to be like skanky bogan mom on the plane. But I didn't. But I was feeling it. But it was so full on. He's just like that when he's not ... he's a free spirit.

Linda: Auntie Linda never gets those attacks, let's just leave it like that.

Katrina: You can freaking fly with him. But honestly, at the same time, there was this small part of me that was like, "I'm becoming a warrior right now as a mother." I'm learning and growing. Okay he did break me a little bit, there was one point when the stewardess come up and I may have just been sitting on the tray table ignoring him while he jumped up and down in the seat and threw a marinate sauce on the guy in front of me.

Linda: What? You didn't tell me that part.

Katrina: I didn't have time to tell you anything, I got home and we went straight into the live stream. It was a small moment there where I was like, "I'm just going to pretend this is not happening and I'm not even going to try to do anything about it."

Linda: As he was throwing sauce at people.

Katrina: And the stewardess is like, "Could you stop standing up on the seat, please, the captain's going to come out and get you." And he was like, "No he's not." But he goes, "Never!" He refuses to sit.

Linda: I love Nathan, he's just so unapologetic in his stuff.

Katrina: Yeah and then she's like, "Wow, he's quite stern mood isn't he?" I'm like ...

Linda: He's just unapologetic. He doesn't take no for an answer.

Katrina: I really did break a little bit. I was like, "This is too hard. I just want to drink my wine and write in my fucking journal."

Linda: I honour all the moms out there, honestly. I really honour all the moms because I don't have kids myself, yet, it might be an experience that I get to have in this lifetime, it may not, you know, either way I'm okay. But it's beautiful to watch from a distance.

Katrina: Honestly, even through that, I'm just like, you go into this place when that shit happens on a plane where you're like, "I'm just going to choose to not allow anyone else' perceptions to impact me right now. I'm going to be in my space, with my child doing the best I can fucking do and now worrying about what everybody else is thinking about it." But there was definitely that part of me that was like, "I'm growing from this experience." And it's like what AJ just said about when you get triggered, and yeah, anything shit's going on for us and we always share what we're working through and what we're processing and stuff that's coming up.

Linda: But we still have our tantrums, as well.

Katrina: Ah, yeah.

Linda: Some of our audience, like yesterday -

Katrina: Sometimes we're extraordinarily immature.

Linda: Oh my God. I just make -

Katrina: Yesterday was an interesting day.

Linda: Oh my God. But we also have these tantrums. Conscious tantrums. It's hilarious.

Katrina: #concioustantrums. We do. It's release.

Linda: Yeah, it is.

Katrina: The thing is, even when we're having a tantrum through, we're aware and we know what we're doing.

Linda: Yeah.

Katrina: And we talk about it, usually at the same time. Not even afterward. But you won't be like, "losing your shit," or "I'm losing my shit," or whatever, and in the same audio, we're like, "Oh, well then I also understand that blah blah blah." And it's like, people don't talk like that normally with their friends. We give ourselves credit and give yourself credit if you are catching yourself, even a little bit. Because it's not about being so fucking involved that you're not in a human experience at all. But I think that one of the most powerful things is to be able to catch yourself and to notice it.

Linda: Absolutely, absolutely. And like I said, be that own observer on the side. And go, "Okay, I'm allowing myself to just be [inaudible 00:40:56], I'm allowing myself to be with this."

Katrina: Right.

Linda: I'm allowing myself to be a little brat. And like I was saying yesterday, I just want to fucking kick and scream. But I'm not going to. [crosstalk 00:41:07]. And then just verbalise it, which is an expression of releasing. What was I saying? I either feel like having two litres in wine and I hardly ever drink or I want to have two litres of ice cream, which is not an option, or give me a bucket of peanut butter, or -

Katrina: What is that, that's on the table over there?

Linda: Where?

Katrina: That packet of interesting items that I threw on the table down there.

Linda: It's for you, my dear.

Katrina: Did you buy me peanut butter? We needed some peanut butter in this house. [inaudible 00:41:43]

Linda: We have peanut butter cuddles.

Katrina: Well, you know what, what do you think ... peanut butter orgasms are also a thing that people need to be aware of. But that may be a topic for another live stream. But what do you think about, we were talking before about having fun and how important fun is, so fun is something that's often thought of as a childhood type thing, right? Children naturally know how to really be in a set of higher fun. Well children are also fabulous at having next level temper tantrums. So do you think it's just totally okay to be ... if you're going to be in that child energy of play and fun and lightheartedness and frivolity, why don't you get ... This is still live, Patrick -

Linda: Yeah, it's life.

Katrina: No need to replay. Why don't you get to also ... Well you don't necessarily get to lay down on the floor in the airport like my son does and kick and scream.

Linda: But could you imagine though? Next time we go travelling, we should ... you have the phone, I'll do the thing. Honestly, we can do some skits.

Katrina: That would be hilarious. [crosstalk 00:42:51]. I want the fucking peanut butter! They took my peanut butter off me at security! Totally. But it's actually not that funny because we're talking about, as adults, we learn to restrict our expression of our emotion.

Linda: Right. Yeah. And we get so suppressed, but it's a form of release and no wonder we're so programmed to repress and not express ourselves, no wonder all of the sudden all these things are bubbling up inside, and then we just snap at the smallest little thing because we haven't been taught how to express ourselves. We haven't been taught how to create healthy containers to release our emotions and the energy from our bodies. And here's the thing, our physical bodies are going to store emotion and if we're not creating healthy containers to let go of that and to constantly release, like crying is a form of release, and we've even made crying bad. That crying is weak.

Katrina: Right, right. It's a method as well.

Linda: It's a mode of healing.

Katrina: Absolutely. But it's also, if you continue to hold back what you're acting thinking and feeling from yourself, nevermind the other people in your life, then actually over time, you accidentally created yourself into a version of yourself which is not the real you.

Linda: Yeah.

Katrina: Because every single time you make a choice to respond from, "This is how I should show up or behave in this situation, as opposed to this is my true self, my true soul," you just made a small adjustment off track. And if you're doing that day by day, multiples times throughout the day, you kind of cultivating yourself into being this service based, masked version of yourself. And so then you wonder, why your relationships aren't working, why you can't seem to attract in those ideal soulmate clients, if you're an entrepreneur. I had a client a year or so ago say something about there's always these conflicts like friendships, and at the time I was like, "Wow, I don't have any conflict in my friendships." Now, I'm saying I don't experience conflict ever in my friendships, but it certainly not something where ... I don't expect it or I don't really think of it as normal, right? I wouldn't expect that we are friends would have some kind of conflict. Of course it's possible, nothing's impossible, but to me that's a soul aligned relationship, whether it's client or a friend or something different in the personal life.

Katrina: I don't look at that as there should be currents of turmoil. Now if there would, that would be okay as well. Because it is what it is. But it's more that when the soul connection is there, there's an actual real true understanding of who we each are as individuals. It's not based on some service masked foundation, is what I'm saying.

Linda: Right, yeah.

Katrina: So therefor, there's actual legitimate acceptance of each other on a soul level, not just, "Oh yeah, you say the things or do the thing or have the things in your life that similar to me and so we'll be friends."

Linda: Yeah, absolutely. And I think you and I are similar in many ways, but we're also so different in so many ways, and I think I remember ages and ages ago when I was just playing at a different level of consciousness, to just observe my human connections and relationships that I had back then and it was kind of like this ego game of, "Oh why wouldn't you like that? We can't be friends now." It wasn't honouring people ad accepting people for who they were. And now that I find with all of my friends, who I connect with on a soul level, we may not agree with everything, we may not do everything the same way, but we're fully honouring each other for who we are.

Katrina: Completely

Linda: And accepting each other for who we are.

Katrina: Yeah.

Linda: And life really isn't about, like you said earlier, touched on how we tend to lose ourselves because we're told who to be and we're told how to live our life, we are operating from this mask. And we're not even ourselves. And quite often we hear this expression of I just want to go and find myself. It isn't about finding yourself. Life is about remembering who you aare. Because everything is inside of you. We've all been born a free spirit of love, we all have an inner child within ourselves, so it's the programming of society that puts you in a box and tells you how to live your life, what to believe, how to ... We're even been thought what to think. We're being thought what to feel, in this type of situation, you should feel this.

Katrina: Right. [crosstalk 00:47:34]

Linda: And every single part of our life is manufactured in this system. So quite often we hear about, "Oh I'm going to go around the world to find myself." We don't need to go around the world to find ourselves. We can literally sit in stillness and just think right here and start to peel back the layers of who we're not. Who we've been told to be. And that's really powerful. It's not about, "Hey I want to figure out everything at once," that's not how it works. You figure something out about yourself, start to remember who you are on certain levels. It's like the onion. You peel back one layer and then there's something else under that.

Linda: We run away from ourselves, yeah. I definitely run away from myself. A lot, in fact, back in the day. Because I couldn't face and stand the person who I was. So I did everything and anything to continue to numb and escape from my reality.

Katrina: Right, yeah. There's a lot of things that are on the surface that could look like fabulous life choices, travels one of them. Which people might use in some cases, for numbing or escaping, but it's all about the place it's coming from. Because it can be coming, obviously from a place of hiding value and grounding and expanding, or it could be coming from a place of hiding. Like alcohol is one example of that. Sometimes people drink alcohol to obviously escape and run and hide, and then other times alcohol is expanding a higher vibe of abundance energy, basically. So it's all about where you already are, but either way, you've got to be giving yourself everything you need. If you think going on a silent meditation or going to a retreat or doing a course or getting a coach or getting a partner or whatever it is that's going "to change everything for me, that's going to fix me, that's going to give me what I need. I need this, I have to do it." It's like, "Well cool, do it if you feel called to do it, whatever it is." But you're actually still going to need to figure out how to give that to yourself at some point.

Linda: Really good point.

Katrina: You're not going to get it from going to that thing, paying that person, doing that thing.

Linda: Yeah, absolutely. People can guide us, absolutely, but at the end of the day, a good coach is someone who guides and teaches for you to how to heal yourself, how to be more of you, how to connect to your truth and your believes around things, and how to be your own observer. So you're not relying on an external coach all the time. Or you're not relying on another external resource.

Katrina: Yeah, I read about this. I did a little [inaudible 00:50:14] as my plane was taking off about maximum abuse learnings around relationships, business and personal, and like I mentioned specifically, a mentor shouldn't be telling you what to do. I believe a mentor is to help you remember how to be your be your own [inaudible 00:50:32], but a mentor is there to be more of who you are and connect to your soul, connect to your intuition and your own guidance and wisdom. Not to tell you, "Here's the rules and you must do this in order to get this result."

Linda: Yeah, absolutely. And it's powerful when you can start to tune into yourself and listen to your own soul and allow your inner compass to guide you, and I'm very big on that.

Katrina: Yes. Your soul always knows.

Linda: Your could always knows. I actually have to admit to one thing. This year, I ended up getting caught up with events, like person - Personal growth is one of my highest values, and I love ... I can throw my money on personal growth. Coaching, mentoring, events, all this stuff. And I found myself doing one event after another, one course after another -

Katrina: Yeah you were in a -

Linda: ... I'm like, "Holy shit, this is actually too much." What am I actually searching from these events? Is that thing of, "Ah, I want to expand more, I want to evolve my consciousness more. And I don't feel good enough." So that was really interesting to obverse myself in that. But I caught myself. I was completely honest with myself. I'm being honest with you here as well. It doesn't matter how much you continue to evolve, you'll never get to a stage where, "Okay, I've had enough now."

Katrina: Yep.

Linda: But also, be careful that you're not going the other way of "I want more and more and more." Because you can't be okay with what you have inside of you.

Katrina: Right. Like learn ... yeah. Learning, growth work, is a great example of what we were just saying. A lot of people use growth work to escape from being in the now and from living their lives. In fact, you know Bali, like we're both obsessed with Bali and we both go to Bali a lot. You're leaving back again Tuesday for Bali, right? And I just came back from Bali on Wednesday and I go there every month.

Linda: And you're coming back for my birthday.

Katrina: I'm going back to Bali for your birthday, of course, in a few weeks. So Bali though, is a place ... There's an expression about Bali I remember hearing, it's like, it can be a place for the internal wanderer. Now, nothing wrong with being an internal wanderer, but specially there's a lot of people who go to Bali and 20 years later are still in Bali and have not, as I would call it, pressed fucking play on anything, they're just floating around freaking Bali being healed and cleansed. Bali cleanse.

Linda: That is starting.

Katrina: We have our own detention of what a Bali cleanse may entail. But there is. There's a lot of people in Bali who are amazing artists and messengers, but who have not put a single bit of work out in the world or barely anything. They're just caught up in their energy and the obsession and the vortex of Bali, and I'm healing and I'm learning and I'm exploring and I'm wondering. And it's like, cool, when are you going to fucking do something?

Linda: Yeah.

Katrina: So there's going to be that part of it, as well.

Linda: Absolutely.

Katrina: And Bali's a good example of that. But life is a good example of that, as well. And in this industry, for sure, you see so many people who are continually learning, continually healing, continually absorbing new content and regurgitating stuff on the internet, I guess, but when are you going to actually admit that you're scared to let what's inside of you out? And then just do it. Because that's what's going on. You're becoming addicted to the growth work as a way of escaping doing your own fucking work.

Linda: Yes, and we're hiding under the spiritual masks, then we become, like we start to awaken our self worth and our beliefs are still at a level where we think that, for example, money is bad, or we can't do certain things because it's bad. And we actually have a lot of limiting believes in operating from that space, and then we just hide under this spiritual façade of spiritual masks where, oh no, no, but I'm spiritual and I'm a good person -

Katrina: Bold as fuck.

Linda: And we hide and we use that as an excuse to cover up and limiting where you're thinking or our low self worth and how we're operating. So we're using it as an excuse and I'm masking.

Katrina: It's hiding.

Linda: It is hiding. And at the end of the way, we can get so caught up in the whole, "Let's just do yoga and meditate every day and do nothing else."

Katrina: Right.

Linda: But at the end of the day, yes those are daily practises and very important, I believe in them very much. I'm a yoga teacher -

Katrina: Yeah, journaling. Obviously I'm obsessed with journaling, I talk about it all the time, but one time I wrote a post, something like, "Put the fucking journal down. Stop fucking journaling. Go and do some work." Like, okay journaling is that work, I get that, obviously I teach that. But yeah, there's go to be those ... it's that dance, back and forth between, okay I'm going within and I'm accessing guidance and I'm learning and growing, or connecting with others who are helping me to grow. And then it's like, okay now I'm in creation mode, because as humans, we're all brought here to create. We're not brought here to consume. Consumption of content or growth or whatever -

Linda: That's what we're taught.

Katrina: But creation, I believe, is of higher value for the majority of us, or certainly, at least, for people in this community. We're creators.

Linda: Yeah, yeah.

Katrina: So are you creating or are you caught up in that continual, perpetual, wondering and seeking and never being ready to press play, and there's always something else to learn and nother fucking healing session to do, and another journaling session to do, and at some point it's like, put the journal down.

Linda: Yeah, and you know, it can be uncomfortable to observe these things about ourselves and we don't always want to admit to that. But it's really powerful to just own that space and not just own your story, but own everything where you're at. First of the changes is awareness and then acceptance. Accept where you are, and go, "Okay, awesome, I acknowledge where I am now, and if I'm not aware, then how can I create change?" And like I just own up about the whole event thing. I'm like, "Oh my God, I just being going from event to event."

Katrina: Well you said yes to all those events in alignment, though. Like you're the opposite of a person who doesn't do the work. But then, at a certain point, you noticed that it was too ... it was feeling like, this is not what I need.

Linda: Yeah, yeah.

Katrina: To be continual. But you weren't saying yes to those events in a place of trying to escape or avoid anything. It was the opposite of that.

Linda: Yeah.

Katrina: It was aligned to say yes, and then at a certain point it was like, "Oh, okay cool. I can learn what I need to learn here," which partly is that I don't need to go to events back to back to back to back.

Linda: Oh my God.

Katrina: In different cities continually.

Linda: I'm having a month off, okay. A month off.

Katrina: Yeah, but now, you're falling out of that and you're into more growth and time and taking actual time, it's a perfect balance, right?

Linda: The integration -

Katrina: You're allowing it all to just sink deeper into who you are.

Linda: Yeah. The integration is a really interesting topic and I think it's a really important one to discuss because we can, for example, if you're using the event example again, we can continue to do courses, events, blah blah blah, and we take all the information in, or we do healing. But are we allowing ourselves to integrate? Are we actually applying also our learnings? We can get caught up in the personal development world, as well. We just continue to do all the courses, learn all the stuff, but are we applying it? Are we actually embodying -

Katrina: Are you testing it out?

Linda: ... the teachings? Are we embodying the wisdom of what we're actually being taught? Because knowledge is not power. It's what you do with the knowledge.

Katrina: Yep, that applied knowledge is power.

Linda: Yeah. Applied knowledge is power. Yeah, I definitely believe that, too.

Katrina: Yeah.

Linda: So it's powerful to observe where you are and just be up front and honest with yourself. Okay, cool, well I get to see from a different perspective. I'm going, "Okay, well I own that part of myself. And now I can create change." But if you're not accepting those parts of yourself, then you can't change it. It's like this with anything in life. If you're not accepting where you are and you're not accepting a previous experience, you can't shift from it. You have to accept it.

Katrina: You have to continue to receive that same lesson until you learn it.

Linda: Acceptance is part of the healing process in anything in life. Super powerful. I accept that you're here.

Katrina: I'm just thinking about the Bali cleanse.

Linda: On the audio you're like -

Katrina: We're going to have a fabulous Bali cleanse when I come over again in a few weeks.

Linda: And it is my birthday in a couple of weeks. So [crosstalk 00:59:16]. How am I going to make it? Oh yeah. 34. Age is only number [crosstalk 00:59:25].

Katrina: That's why I'm like, I think I know, but I'm not [crosstalk 00:59:27].

Linda: Yeah, it's like ... sometimes I'm friends with people, like close friends, and I'm like, "How old are you?" After couple years, I'm like, "How old are you, even?" Age is just not a thing that we know.

Katrina: Not at all. Well I like that expression, I don't see faces, I see souls. It's the same with age, I think. It's a soul thing, not an age thing.

Linda: Guilty on consume too much learning. Yeah, if we're not taking aligned action or applying the stuff, nothing's going to happen. We've got to step into the actual taking responsibility for our actions.

Katrina: And pressing fucking play.

Linda: And pressing fucking play.

Katrina: Or pressing go live. This is an example, right? We're really just having a conversation here that we would have by ourselves anyhow, and we do all day, every day, and how hard is it to just go live and do it as content for your audience. It's not hard. But people make it really hard. And if you wanted to build brand for example, and then maybe you're like, "I've got all these powerful, cool stuff inside of me," and you talk about it with your friends or maybe some groups or your mentor or something like that, well, that's being stuck in the cycle of I'm learning and I'm growing and I talk about amazing, interesting things with people, but are you showing the world? Are you sharing what you're here to show the world?

Linda: Yeah.

Katrina: Marie says, "I'm 49 and [inaudible 01:00:51] I feel 35." Yeah, well, that's what's funny right. I would never think of you by being 49 based on what the conventional definition of 49 is. But I think, even my ... what's his name? The yoga teacher? In Bali?

Linda: Yeah.

Katrina: So he asked me once how old I was, because I mentioned having an eight year old, and he was like, "How old are you?" And I told him, and he was like, "Holy shit, I thought you were like 30, basically." And I've gone, "How old are you?" And he's 49, right?

Linda: Ah is he 49? Wow.

Katrina: I was like, wow. So then we both congratulated each other on how young we look, of course. And he was kind of talking about how people don't take care of themselves and stuff. But I said to him, "But how you look at 49 and how I look at 38 is what it's meant to be like. What if that is what 49 is suppose to look like? It's just that most people are all fucked up, basically." So it's not even that you look younger or I look younger, it's that we're the ones who have actually honoured our bodies and taken care of ourselves and this is what ... 38 is not suppose to look like what most, sorry. What most women look like at 38. It shouldn't look like. Or what most men look like at 50. It shouldn't look like that. It should be, if you took care of yourself. I don't know. That's my theory.

Linda: Longevity.

Katrina: My theories that when we meet people when we're shocked at their age, and that they look like, Marie's a great example of this. Marie's in my inner circle. And I've met her in person, obviously, as well. Not obvious, but I have. People like that, where you think, "How can you be that age? Doesn't make nay sense." My theory is that they look the correct way that you're suppose to look for that age, it's just that everybody else is ageing super fast because they didn't take care of themselves.

Linda: Yeah, and I guess, yes the numbers are ticking in our linear timeline and we get "a year older ... pardon?

Katrina: That we've been in time and space.

Linda: Oh, we do. There's so many different timelines. The talk about time is just a whole other live feed again. But at the end of the day, we celebrate these birthdays, when really we're just one day older, every day.

Katrina: Yeah.

Linda: It's actually really interesting because we're not going to feel ... We're still this infinite soul, we're still this person that's inside of this physical body that we carry for life. We're not going to feel any different in 20 years time. We're still going to be this soul -

Katrina: Everybody says that.

Linda: We're still going to feel the physical restrictions because the body starts to shut down, so the only difference you're going to feel is your physical limitations that you'll eventually have because your body is getting older.

Katrina: Yep.

Linda: So that's why its so incredibly important to look after your physical being, health and wellness is not just -

Katrina: It's not negotiable.

Linda: Yeah. Yeah. And it flows into mind, body, and soul. Looking after every parts of self, and we can't continue to neglect that. Even as an 80 year old, we have child.

Katrina: You look fabulous for 80. You're like, "Even as an 80 year old." You're looking fucking amazing.

Linda: I met this man. I live steamed about it last night. I met this beautiful man -

Katrina: The guy that you shared your food with?

Linda: Yes! Yes. I want to share it again, can I? Can I? In a really, really short version. I was feeling very triggered yesterday. And I was sitting outside eating my little rice crackers and my avocado, and this elderly man, he was about 70.

Katrina: Where? Down here?

Linda: Yeah, over there. Here I am scooping my rice and my avocado, and I see this man standing next to me, just looking at me eating my crackers. And he's saying something and my instant reaction internally, I was observing myself. Was like, "I want to be by myself, fuck off, who are you, I don't want to talk right now."

Katrina: Get out of my space.

Linda: Get out of my space. But then I caught myself. I'm like, hang on a minute, that was the ego, thank you so much, and I dropped it in an absolute instant. That's the power of self-awareness, so that goes into what we were talking about before. Just observing yourself and catching yourself in the moment. Hang on a minute, I don't want to operate from that space. The thought was okay, don't judge yourself for the thought, don't judge what you were actually experiencing. Just go, move on. Shift your awareness. So I instantly, I chose love, in the moment. And I'm such a big believer now, and that's how I want to live my life. I want to respond with love, I want to embody love, and I want to operate from love. So I shifted my state, I shifted my thoughts, I shifted my way of operation, and I actually ended up allowing this man into my space.

Linda: After all this, being completely f off energy, to them just taking my time and being really present with this man. I ended up speaking with him for half an hour, and it was the most beautiful conversation about life. And I was sharing my food with him and in that moment, what I was actually wanting. Is that I was feeling lonely. I was actually longing for, in that moment, I was longing for connection and love and for someone to be present with me. But by just being in that energy of fuck off, I was actually blocking what I was wanting. And what I was needing in that moment. So it was really powerful that the moment I chose to open up, I received that back.

Linda: and what this man said actually, I didn't say that in the live feed yesterday, what he said, "You are just so wonderful, you are just radiating love. You're a gift to this world." I'm like, "Wow. That's amazing. Coming from a complete stranger." To be seen and to be heard and to be felt. And I was there, I was blocking that. And that moment in time, that half an hour changed everything. I saw that man today.

Katrina: Oh really?

Linda: Yeah. I was walking around in surface and he was there with his wife. And he remember my name and goes, "Linda!" I'm like, "Hi, Chris!"

Katrina: How random.

Linda: I know, I know. But not only did my day get changed, but his day was changed, as well.

Katrina: Which probably impacted his wife as well, really.

Linda: Ah, yeah.

Katrina: If he goes home as a different person.

Linda: That's right. He would have maybe shared the story, like I'm here sharing in a second live feed.

Katrina: It was beautiful.

Linda: You seem like you're done.

Katrina: I think I'm done. I'm sorry guys, my eyes are going to fall asleep. I was partying hard last night with my parents and my brothers. I hardly ever go to Melbourne and see my family, I actually went out two nights ago with Callie and Tegan, two of our friends here, and had a fabulous big night out in Melbourne, but it was a big night. Then I had a big night last night with my parents and my two brother, which was hilarious.

Katrina: I have expressed everything I'm come to express. But please watch the replay if you jumped on late.

Linda: Let's get a little spiritual here first. What are you last words of wisdom? What do you want these guys to do? What do you want them to take out of this?

Katrina: Ask yourself what you're looking for the world to give you and give it to yourself.

Linda: I love that. And it's so true. And it's how quickly you can shift a state, in an absolutely instant. You can shift your matrix. And what I want to remind you of is the fun part. If you're not allowing yourself to have fun, then why are you even here?

Katrina: Yeah.

Linda: Why are you even here? Let yourself feel love, feel excitement, feel joy. Just feel that inner child. Think about ... We've all been there. We've all been a child. Even watching children play, they are just so happy. They're so present. And there's no ego, ego cannot exist when you're fully present in the moment.

Katrina: Love it.

Linda: So allow yourself to just take time to have fun. Do the things ... Be silly. Bounce on a trampoline, get dressed up and run around. Wear the unicorn onesie and play with kids. Do all the things. She's really done now. I'm just starting.

Katrina: You can keep going.

Linda: I'm starting.

Katrina: I'm wiped.

Linda: She's wiped.

Katrina: Alright, I'm going to go. It was awesome. It was super fly, it was super fly.

Linda: I love you all.

Katrina: Have an amazing day wherever you are in the world, keep pressing play. Bye.

Linda: Love you. Bye.


Okay. It's not frozen.

I was going to maybe be a silent picture live stream. Like a silent movie.

Why do you think I chop my own head off all the time?

How do you like my gangster unicorn? Hello. I was gonna do the whole live stream as a mime.


I think I could be quite good at it if I practised. I don't think I care enough to practise. I think that's the problem.

This live stream comes to you, obviously, from a place of great power and depth. I don't think anyone understands the gravity of what is gonna happen in this live stream, and I'll tell you how I know that. Hello, badass people who I see joining me.

Firstly, something is happening inside the system of Katrina Ruth. I feel things happening. I feel that my voice is possibly making some kind of argument that it should get to go on vacation. Can you hear that? I'm all blocked up. I don't know why, what's happening. And my voice is a bit croaky. So I was like probably I shouldn't live stream at fricking 11:34 pm at night. Or yell. Clearly, welcome to

But you know, when you gotta live stream, you gotta live stream. What's up Mac? New viewer. Welcome.

Then though, here's how I know for sure, for sure, that this live stream is going to be beyond. Beyond what, you ask? Beyond your wildest fucking dreams and imaginations about life, about the universe, about the internet, and about yourself.

Have you joined, because it freaking closes tomorrow, in less than a day. What day is it even right now in America? It's definitely Monday morning, for sure. For sure it's Monday morning. For sure it's probably as late as like 10 pm in some parts of the US, 10 am I mean. What that means is I don't even know. I don't even know. The doors are gonna close at midnight eastern standard time. [Giana 00:03:19] is ready. Of course she is. Join. If you haven't joined Break the Internet, run, run, run to the back of the room and join the programme. I'll give you the details momentarily.

There's no back of the room. Get to wherever the back of your own room is, to wherever your credit card or whatever it is that you've got is.

Okay. But here's ... Ready. Here's how I know for sure that this live stream right here is gonna be insane, because not only was I like I probably shouldn't live stream when it's nearly midnight and I'm having surgery tomorrow. Don't worry, it's for exciting, fun purposes only. But still, it's surgery. I don't know, maybe it's not a big deal. Although I can't have any fucking coffee or water from five am. I find it very upsetting to the psyche, more nerve racking than the idea of the surgery itself to be frank with you.

And then that, and then my voice is not really working, and now apparently I'm gonna yell at the internet with it anyway, and I've already done like four live streams today, two ones in my members group and one public one earlier today in the park.

And then, and then, and then, the other thing was not once, not twice, but ... I can't use that nail, that's the one where the whole nail ripped off ... Three times, three times this live stream tried to crash its own ass, and it would not let me go live. We know what that means.

All right, I'll give you the details right now about Break the Internet. I just popped it in there so you don't miss out. You would be next level insane to not be part of Do not go to the URL You would think that that would be a logical thing to do based on the fact that that's the name of the programme. You would need to think again. This situation here does not really know or understand logic. I don't know why I clicked my fingers at the end, it just kinda happened. Kind of embarrassed now.

You'd be crazy not to be part of this. It is beyond, beyond, beyond whatever your idea of of beyond already is. But, but ... Okay, just reminding myself of those people that go to those circuit gyms and think that they're boxing and they're just like "Aah."

All right. Three times this live stream crashed before it would let me go live. So put the title in - actually it was a less interesting title than the one I ultimately went for. It was more boring. So maybe it was meant to be. I put the title in, the title that I put in originally was Are You Selling or Are You Selling? There's a Difference. Like that. I think it would have gotten some good traction anyhow. And then I was like nah, fuck that title.

But my whole phone shut down. It just black screened its own ass. It was quite traumatic for a minute or two as when your phone just dies for no reason and it was fully charged and it was a relatively new iPhone X. So I plugged it in, I found it charged, but nothing, nothing. I was like okay, I do have at least 89 backup phones in this house. But still, I want this one. And then it came back to life. I'm like fuck this shit, now I have to type the whole title in again, I already did it. So it did that, and then it just exits itself out of the screen and won't let me go live and blanked out the whole thing again. And then finally the third time ... Oh no, three times. It blanked out two times. Or one time I accidentally exited and didn't save the title. I had to type it like four times total, by which time I changed it, and maybe it was meant to be.

But there was a moment where I stood in the kitchen and I was like maybe this is a sign that I shouldn't go live and I should go to bed, because it's blanked itself out X amount of times now. And now here we are, and you know the whole story, and you're all up to date. Except for how do you think this cushion ... Because I feel that I can't really communicate anymore until you've seen it.

And by the way, I established with my private empire ... Rich Hot Empire 101 clients earlier on in a live stream this evening that this unicorn, which Linda, my friend, brought for the kids I think, but I've commandeered it. This unicorn, which lives now on this couch set, is the most gangster unicorn in the world. The reason we know that is because he's extraordinarily fluffy and cute looking - I'm gonna hold him by the scruff of his neck. Too bad. And I think that makes him a gangster unicorn, because he's extra cute. Don't you think? It's logical. I'm all about logic.

And then this pillow, if you've not seen it, I normally do a whole show around it, but I really don't have the time or inclination for that. But I'm still gonna blow your mind. I did put a ... Maybe I'm gonna blow my own mind by not remembering how to use it. I did put a blow mind emoji in the live stream title so it would be rude if I didn't blow your mind. Here you go. You ready for it? We're gonna do it quick, we're gonna do it hard and fast. That's how it's needed sometimes. Look at what it says. The message in the cushion. Life is now, press fucking play.

Okay, so what you should be ... And then we bling it back up again, because you can never have too much bling. It's a rule of life.

And then, and then ... Okay, I forgot my point. I don't know if I have one at all. But I think what I was gonna say is is off the hook. There is no URL. I feel like I've gotta say that every time. Don't type it in. You don't know what you're gonna get. Maybe Kim Kardashian's ass, I don't know. I haven't even looked. I don't care. The first live training went down today. It feels like it was 700 years ago.

Exactly. The more bling, the better. I've got blinged up cushions everywhere. Everywhere. There's about 40 of them in this house, for sure.

It was about getting angry. The first training, the first deep dive training was today. There was already two badass pre-work trainings last week. People were having shifts and transmissions and transmutations. I don't know if that's ideal. But things were definitely happening in the group already from last week before we even started, just from the pre work. Before even the pre work. I need that URL then, Lea. Send it to me energetically.

That's shocking. Don't you think that's shocking? Is somebody storing it? I feel like I need a wine break to recover from that information.

Anyway. Don't go there, though. No need to do that. The vibe is off the hook. The whole thing is off the hook. You would be crazy, like batshit crazy, like do you want to die crazy, are you seriously telling me you're not joining this programme, you're going to die if you don't join this crazy programme. That's how crazy you would be. No, the only disclaimer is if you kinda hate me and you think I'm a hoity toity bitch - sometimes I am, it's true. I don't know if maybe you're only here for the unicorn, or I don't know, why the fuck are you here if you don't love me? Just give me a reason already.

But at the end of the day, say what you want, if you're watching this right now and you're like, "That Katrina fucking Ruth." I'm sorry, but if you're here, technically, you're magnetised to me and you love me. It is what it is and that's all it is. So you might as well join and just find out why it is you can't look away, even though you're just looking in horror half of the time.

But for those of you who are looking in fascination and with great amounts of love, and maybe you're only a little bit abhorred from time to time, then the reason you'd be crazy ... Like do you wanna die, that level of craziness. Because, don't you fucking wanna know how to be magnetic? Well, you already know anyways. It's nothing I have to tell you about it, except I will show you, and I will reach into your soul and wrench forth whatever's in there that needs to come out. Mandy knows all about it. She saw it already many times. She's doing it already herself many times. It's what happens.

Watching a bad movie. Exactly. See, Sarah Jane's making a fantastic comment here. This is a perfect example of somebody who maybe thinks that they can't stand me or maybe they think what the hell is she doing and when is she getting to the point but yet cannot watch away, cannot look away. Love your audacity, so horrific, macabre, fascination, you haven't said anything yet. That's the exact fucking point. But those who know and are ... See? This is one of those, is that a backward compliment, or is that a forward insult? What was that exactly? Somebody decipher what Sarah Jane just said. I'm gonna decipher it myself in my own way.

For those people who think I haven't fucking said anything yet, oh, it just makes me be so happy to be one of the 1% within the 1% people who actually fucking gets it, and it makes me so happy that the people who are here, which is everybody, sorry, except for Sarah Jane, are my people. It makes me so fucking happy to be this good. It was totally shade. It's totally shade. She says she may love my audacity, or maybe many people love my audacity, but I haven't said anything yet, it's horrific, it's macabre, fascination. I don't know, maybe it is a backward compliment or a forward insult. It's an in between one, isn't it?

Whatever it is, it doesn't feel like the most obvious expression of love that I've ever received. So there we go. But I'm gonna decipher it anyway. My deciphering is this. There's nothing to fucking tell. What am I here to tell? I'm the Katrina Ruth Show. I'm a show. I'm not a show and tell. I don't have anything to tell. I just be. That's what I do.

But actually, if you wanted to break it down ... I'm in the wrong app, Leah. It's gonna be embarrassing if I admit why I'm in a different app, but I think you could probably figure it out, Leah, based on what you said yesterday. It's actually all your fault. That's why the sticker's not here. Whoops.

You know, if anybody who actually had a brain on top of their heads somewhere up in there, or some sort of access to soul and higher being and self, wanted to reverse engineer what's already happened on this live stream, you'd find that there's enough fucking content there to expand out into an entire book on how to make millions of dollars alone on the internet each year just by being you, which is indeed precisely what I do, and all without saying a single fucking thing. It's a mystery.

It's not a mystery to those who actually get it, but it will eternally be a mystery to those who are not us. I feel like I could have found a better way to say that, but it came out that way, I'm sorry.

So, you know, the point is that the less you say about anything, the more you actually reveal from the soul. Thank you Kiana, I appreciate it. It's a talent and it's also somewhat of a entity that has taken control of oneself. It's sort of a mix between that. Hello from Denmark. Thank you for saying where you're from. It's interesting to me to know. Thank you Christine. It's the gangster eye makeup. I don't know what happened to my eye makeup, because I didn't put that much on, but it seems to have taken on a mind of its own. It's like another entity now.

And then it's obviously the art, and it's also the fact that it's 12 pm and I'm supposed to fricking stop drinking and eating at 5 am in the morning, so I figure I should just stay up until then and drink and eat until then.

Not a mystery but definitely a wonder. Well, it's all about, it's all about, it's all about the slate of [inaudible 00:15:10], it's all about the pattern interrupt. I kinda hate that expression just because it's overused, but it still makes very good sense. It's all about the oh, oh, oh, oh, you thought I was over here, you thought I was doing that, you thought this is how you sell online, this is how you market, you do this thing, you do it like that, you thought it was that. Oh no, now I'm over there, and you didn't see, and you're still there. Oh now you're trying to catch up here, that's cute, because I'm over there. That? You're doing that? Oh my god. I'm sorry for you. No, no, I'm over here, 45,000 fucking steps ahead of you, and you'll never catch me.

And by the way, when I say I, I mean the royal I, which is not a thing, but I've just created it into a thing, which means I mean the I of all of us who are the actual ones, the ones, the chosen ones who know about these things, who know about the mysteries and the wonders, and don't need to put them into words. And if anybody just tries to ask us how it works and what we do and can you explain that to me, I mean, yes, but no. Please go away, please don't ask me that, because it makes me want to claw my own eyeballs out, because you should just fucking magnetically, energetically know. Even if you don't fully have it in implementation yet, that's fine, but you definitely should fricking know. Your soul should be like, "I see what is happening here." You should recognise that we are each others' spirit animals. Exactly. Exactly Talisha.

Your soul should be like, "I completely ..." I mean, this is what it's about. When you see how I show up, here's how you know if you're one of my people and I'm your person too and we're just each other's I, because your soul says "Aha." Maybe not aha. Your soul says "Yes, I recognise you, there you are." Right? Something like that. Your soul is like, "Oh, she's me. I'm her. Oh shit. Okay." Maybe you still don't fully quite get the pieces of how it all works together, which is obviously precisely why you're gonna join It closes tonight, midnight eastern standard time. Not this current night that I'm living in in Australia. I mean, I'm many places all at the same time. But it closes Monday night US time.

Right, because your soul is like, "I fully recognise and understand this situation. It makes total soul sense to me. I 100% have always known that this is how it's meant to be. I still can't quite explain it, I don't really quite know what she's doing, but I know it's exactly who I am and exactly what I'm here to do and exactly how it fucking works and all the other bullshit that they may have told you about." They, not the royal they, because obviously there's nothing fucking royal about them. All the other bullshit that they may have told you about, you're finally able to be like, "I fucking knew it. I knew I didn't have to do that shit. I knew it." That's how you should feel when you watch me.

But some people are gonna feel more like how Sarah Jane felt where it's like she's appalled and fascinated and it was ... What did she say? Did she say barbaric? I don't think barbaric, but it was something along those lines. Macabre. She said macabre. Which is a great word, really, if you think about it. Michael says he feels my soul. This makes sense. I read your comment wrong and I thought you said you feel for my soul, kind of like I'm praying for you. I was like oh well. Then I read it properly. Thank you. See? He said it exactly how I'm trying to say it. This goes both ways, what I was saying. He feels my soul.

This is what I mean. You feel it. You're like, "Yes, this is what I've been looking for. Holy shit, she's reading my mind. I can see that she's clearly bat shit crazy and I love it, and how am I gonna let that shit up myself," and then you're just gonna do it. You're just gonna do it. I'll show you.

And then the other thing was, which was my original live stream title ... What time is it? My laptop says 5% battery left, so I guess that's exactly what time it is. What's this over here? Doesn't matter. Don't concern yourselves with it.

The other thing, the other thing was ... I feel like I should go to a higher level in order to talk about this. I'll get up on some more cushions. The other thing was ... Okay, now this one halfway up inside of me. Not in a weird way. The other thing was how are you selling? I don't really wanna talk about it, because it feels like a boring conversation already. But it is important. "This is why I can only listen to a handful of people," says Angela. Well, I got a throne right there. See, I could sit on the throne. I just really loving this art that my sister in law made for me. She downloaded it from her soul for all of our souls. Sorry, I just killed the unicorn.

Yes, they either get it or they don't. Exactly right. Exactly, and we don't care for the ones who don't. But we do use them to create fabulous jokes and things, which sounds horrible, I'm sorry. Maybe just quietly.

I think they like it. I think they appreciate it. That's what I'm going with.

The other thing which definitely sounds a bit boring but I'm gonna tell you anyway because I'm gonna make it exciting for you. It's not even boring. I don't know what I'm talking about. It's the whole reason I was doing this live stream, because I was telling this to my clients earlier, and I was like, "The world must know about it." The whole reason ... Ooh, blue unicorn. How good is this shirt, right? It's badass.

The whole entire reason that I was originally gonna do this live stream is because I was giving a live demonstration, a live demonstration you understand, to my clients earlier on this evening in a live stream training in our group. It was about the energy. Are you selling, are you selling, or are you selling. All right? I'm gonna explain it to you. It is a huge part of what we're doing in Reminder, again, it closes tonight, midnight eastern standard time. You would be off your tiny little beautiful head if you didn't join this programme, unless you're one of those people that's like, "She's macabre," right? I still think it's a fancy word, and you get points for using macabre. But whatever.

When I get really in flow, I feel the need to stretch when I'm on my live streams. What do you think that's about? I don't understand it at all.

If you like the crazy and if you are the crazy and if your soul says yes to the crazy and if when you saw my crazy your soul was like, "Holy shit, that's my crazy," then you would be a crazy person in a not good way though to not join If you never buy another programme of mine again, make it this one. That's the wrong way to say it. If you only ever buy one more programme of mine, or you're never gonna spend any more money again, this is the money you should spend before you never spend any money again, except that really, based on the results that are already coming through, and we only just started, then once you join the programme and you do the programme, you're gonna be like, "Kat, just take all my money all the time, because I get so much fucking flow and so much results from your stuff. How much can I pay you?" You will do that. I'm just letting you know, and you'll do it with glee, because you'll be 10X-ing every dollar back to you. It's just how we do.

Already, already, already epic results, and I only did the first deep dive training today. You can still get it. You'll get straight into the Facebook group. So I think I'm making somewhat of my point. I'm just gonna shake my head and whoa at you quite frankly if you don't join. I'm just gonna not even understand it.

But I mean, maybe the reason you don't join is you're like, "Bitch please, I am fully already in my magnetism, I am owning my shit all the time, every day, I don't need any of your magnetic juju, I got it all sorted." Well, you probably do, or you wouldn't be here. Of course you've got it all sorted. The question is are you letting it the fuck out? Are you the only one who knows it's sorted, or does everybody else know as well?

Okay. Amanda told me not too long ago that nobody knows what I mean when I say sorted, except she's appropriated the word and started using it with her team. [inaudible 00:23:44] Amanda, who many of you know. If you don't know what I mean when I'm saying sorted, I mean organised, like fixed up, done. But just take on the language. Please just adopt all Australian language and mannerisms and cultural behaviours and knowledges. Otherwise it's just gonna be difficult. I'm just saying.

On a side note, because I said this earlier as well. If you come to my house and it's established at some point during your stay here that you don't have a tripod on your person, I may have to ask you to leave, because it would be very odd. Very odd. I only feel a little bit bad that I'm rolling that joke out again. I only said it two hours ago with my Rich Hot Empire clients. But it was so good and it was so true, like legit true, that I had to say it again.

Nobody's gonna ask, Talisha, why you're talking Australian. They're gonna understand that it came from me because you'll tell them.

Okay. There's a difference between selling and selling. That was really the primary point that I came here to make, and then I was supposed to be going to bed. The difference is nobody fucking cares if you send 7,000 sales emails. Well, some people might care, and they might unsubscribe. But you might send all the sales emails in the world, and you might do all the messaging and all the content online, and many things about many things ... I need a purple cushion just there. Right? Christine. Well, you know to get one before you come here. I mean, I have many backups, but I would just be a little concerned for your mental well being if I found that you were travelling without a tripod on your person. And preferably a selfie ring light as well. I'm just talking practicalities of life, really.

Posting shit on the internet. That is not a thing that makes you money, by the way. I post a lot of shit on the internet. I just make shit up all day long and post it on the internet, messaging and stories and blogs and live streams and then a sales call to action. And then the wrong people are like, "She hasn't even said anything." Never mind them. But if you think that the system is post a lot of shit on the internet or email out sales emails or yes, I'm promoting my launch and doing my shit all the time, you're getting the skeleton of it but not the one that it wants to live in. You're getting the ... What's it called when the caterpillar leaves behind its scaly exterior? What's the exterior bit of a caterpillar that it leaves behind called? I'm gonna Google it. 1%.

What is shell of ... There's only one percent on this. That's a problem. But, stop the phone, so I don't know why I'm freaking out. But I really wanna know what it's called so I can tell the story properly. It's a chrysalis. No, when it gets excommunicated out of it though. Fine, whatever. The scaly old shell. No, the actual shell itself is called a chrysalis. Interesting. I'm sure you're glad you came along to learn that today. Valerie just knew that. Did you just know that? How did you guys just know that? What are you, some kind of scientific experts? That's fascinating. I didn't know that at all.

I got stuck on a symmetry question today on my third grade daughter's math quiz. It was very stressful, and then she only got 97% or something on the test. It was like an online, maths online. I just freaked out. And I'm like an A plus math student. I couldn't help her with the question, and she was not happy with me because she only got 97%. And it's not even a required test or homework or something that she had to do. I literally had to say to my child like four times, "Stop doing math now. That's enough math." Because we had to get ready for bed.

She's obsessed with doing extra homework that nobody asked her to do. She just goes onto the online curriculum websites for the government, for the standard maths curriculum or whatever it is and just does extra homework like a weirdo. I mean, it's amazing, but I still think it's super weird. I'm listening to myself, and I'm saying, "Alyssa, that's enough maths now. Stop doing math. I already asked you to stop doing math. Put the math down." I literally was like ... She's like, "Just one more." I'm like, "You're a little addict." And then she's like, "I can't believe it," when she got 97%, because I didn't help her properly with the question about symmetry. It was very confusing. And now I feel upset about it. I feel like I'm gonna have to go study up on it.

Anyway. So when you step out of your caterpillar shell and then you discard the old shell behind you, right? Ooh, I'm gonna read that comment in a moment from Michael. Then you discard the disgusting old shell behind you. Well, it's beautiful still because it was part of you. But my point is that when you're just doing fricking sales emails ... Okay, I gotta say one more thing about the homework. When my daughter had been in school for a full year and a half, I remember I was suddenly like, "Do they still do homework at school?" I've gone, "Do you get homework?" She's like, "Yeah." I'm like, "How often?" She's going, "Every day." I'm like, "Who helps you with it?" She's like, "I just do it." This is bad, but she had been in school 18 months before it occurred to me that she might have homework. Now I'm a very hands on mother in many areas, but not the homework area, apparently.

But I was top academically, always. I got in the top 3% of the whole country, and I was always the top student in each class. I just expect the same from Alyssa, and I just assume it. It's just freaking manifestation. It's an identity thing. It's like this is just who we are.

To be perfectly honest with you, I don't really concern myself with matters around doing work to get results, because results come from belief. But I definitely felt bad that it hadn't occurred to me. But she was like, "What are you even asking me for? I'm all over this shit." Okay, she didn't say it like that, obviously.

It's very relevant, anyway, to our topic at hand. Yeah, but isn't the parent supposed to help? Aren't you supposed to know when your six year old child is doing homework? I don't know. Maybe they've changed their systems. Now there's an app where you can text the teacher. You can text them on an app, and they send you photos and shit. It's amazing. It's all very high tech. Digital age, I really don't know much about it. I just know how to make money with it.

Actually, what I just said is so relevant to what I'm even freaking talking about here as far as how to make money online and how to make sales online and all that good stuff, which is there's nothing you need to do. You don't need to concern yourself with how many emails you should be sending or what you should be posting or fricking what process to use in your sales copy. It's making me wanna bash my head on the table in front of me just thinking about it.

Here's the difference between selling, like selling, like you're kind of like an old caterpillar shell. I don't know why that, but that's what came to mind. And the difference between selling, where people are like, "Give me the thing, give it to me now," and I don't freaking ... Like money, whatever, it's an energy exchange. But people are like, "Yes, I'm gonna be in, and then they're in, and then the second they even sign up and pay, before the damn thing even begins, they already get results, of course, because they said yes to their soul.

The difference is, of course, the whole fucking thing that I'm demonstrating on this live stream without saying anything, apparently, according to some people ... Okay, maybe I'm a little bit defensive. It's fine, I allow myself to be human sometimes, on occasion.

The caterpillar shell is the chrysalis. We discussed that. You're missing bits. Keep up. Do your fucking homework. It's the protective shell. It even said it on Wikipedia. So there. Said protective shell.

The difference is the energy, the energy. People will buy from you when they feel your energy. Alyssa would know all about it. She probably has 49 caterpillars right in there in her little toy room, where I go in to see if she wants to play something with me, which I find a little painful, to be perfectly honest with you, depending on what it is, but I do it anyhow. And then she's like, "Leave, I have to do my homework." Then she comes out. I'm like, "Okay, let's spend some time together relaxing, like relaxed time." And then she makes me do fucking maths online with her in her play time before bed.

It's the energy. I was gonna scroll back and look for comments. Fuck them. But, but, but, leave me a comment anyway. Leave me a comment anyhow, because I'll ... Look at that other picture. Did you see it? Rachel made that one too. Isn't she a genius artist? It's on its side. Oh, fuck you phone. Okay, the phone just did not care to be turned on its side. Okay, it's a very long picture. My sister in law Rachel painted it just for me. It's supposed to be sitting above another couch. Anyway, now you've seen the mess that was behind there. But we just had to come in here to get some more wine, didn't we? It's logical.

Look at this little gift area that Linda left for me. She left me an amazing card. I'm not gonna read it to you. She left me some Vegemite. She's a true friend. And these pictures of her and I, we [inaudible 00:33:28] some really cool sayings on them. And the flowers. And also a box of seashell chocolates, which have been hidden, hidden in order that the children don't get them.

Tonight we're drinking Yangarra Estate Small Pot Whole Bunch Shiraz. Whole bunch. Whole bunch of what? I'm putting you up there, even though you can only see the top of my head. I can't hold a tripod and pour wine at the same time. The seashell chocolates are right there on top of the toaster. I didn't hide them very well. I'll show you. That was the other part of Linda's offering. She knows they're my favourite chocolates.

What an amazing friend. I came in off a flight yesterday. She'd been in my house while I was away for a few days. She's now left. But I came in off my flight feeling quite fucked up, to be honest with you, because there was a small infidel on the flight, which was my four year old son, who did his utmost best to break the psyche of every person on the flight, starting primarily with me. There were a few moments when he prevailed. There were a few moments where instead of trying to be the good mom bringing him to some sense of order, the stewardess coming up and trying to be polite and helpful but really being fucking pissed off, where I just had my hand on the tray table and I was just like ... And I was in, I don't even give a fuck, I'm broken, there's nothing I can do. Then something deep within me went, "You're stronger than this cat. You're growing stronger. You're turning into a warrior right now on this flight. Arm yourself with inner strength and power and go back into the fray."

Then I turned to the tiny little curly haired monster that he was being, who was jumping up and down, standing up on top of the seat, and flinging a bowl of fucking lamb meatballs with red sauce in it, which seems like a perfectly logical thing to give a four year old on a plane, flinging it atop the person in front of him. He was perfectly sweet on the plane on Friday, and then on yesterday's flight he activated all known terrorist systems. Repeatedly. Which was actually somewhat valid, because when we got on the plane, they told us the entertainment system's not working, and the kids have the Virgin app on their iPad, and they can use the entertainment system and watch movies. It had been already like a two hour drive from my brother's. So I was like, "You're gonna watch a movie on the plane, we'll put a movie on." We get on there, it's not working. There's literally no entertainment for the kids because I didn't bring anything, because it's only a two hour flight.

And then, the plane doesn't take off. We sit on the tarmac for an hour. I should have understood. I was like, "Well, he's going through the stages of grief now, and everybody's gonna have to suck it." And that's exactly what happened, and it went for the entire two hours plus the extra hour on the tarmac.

All right, let's have some wine in honour of that terrible moment.

What was I up to? Energy. It wasn't just meatballs. There was pretzel sticks, there was nuts, what else was on that tray. He took the whole tray. He's nothing if not grandiose in his behaviour. He picked up the entire tray, and I tried to bluff him, because he picked it up, and he was looking at me, and he was like, "I'm gonna do it," and he started to raise it slowly. And he was like, "I'm gonna do it. I'm just gonna pour it over the seat." And I was like, "Okay Nathan." I was calling his bluff. And he just went higher and higher, and I was kinda like ... And he just kept going. Yeah, it went down over the top of the seat. It was very embarrassing.

But I'm very proud of myself because I maintained an aura of calm. I was like ... On the inside I was screaming. Screaming. But externally I was a perfect example of conscious parenting. I was a delight to behold. I think everybody was quite delighted to see the back of us by the time we left. It was really hard. It was really one of those flights. It was the second worst flight that I've had with him, which means that I must get many blessings that are given to me this week, I imagine. They've already begun, so.

What was I up to? I'm making some kind of point about energy. Is this like the time he came in and maintained eye contact as he ... Oh. Oh. Oh, wait until you hear what he did to Linda today. I don't know if I should even tell this story. He's the sweetest child. He's a fairy child. He's an indigo child. He's a crazy one. He's like us. The problem is that when you've got somebody like us in the ... Oh, I gotta tell you what he did. It's so bad. Like, so bad you can die. Before you die, join, because if you didn't join that you might die just from woe at your own recklessness and foolhardy behaviour.

He's one of us, right? But when you've got some ... Oh, it's way worse than the boob grabbing. You'd love to have your boob grabbed anytime over what happened tonight in this house. It was so bad, I was like ... I couldn't even ... I didn't even know how to communicate about it when I found out. It happened while I was out. And Serafina was here. Yeah, so when you've got somebody who's like a crazy rule breaker soul person like us who's in the body of a four year old boy, that person can be kinda hard work, alternated with incredibly powerful and charming and you just love and adore him, and of course you do anyway.

He may ... I'm gonna tell you now what happened. He may have spread faeces all through Linda Doctor's bag of her possessions as she was about to leave the house to go on her next trouble adventure. I was out. She was about to leave. And he went and used her bathroom. Then for whatever reason unknown to anybody except him, and maybe probably not even him, he then took that shit, literally, and he put it in Linda's bag. It was apparently everywhere through the bag, and all over her toiletry bag. I'm not laughing ... I'm laughing in horror, you understand. It's a similar horror to the horror of that girl earlier who didn't like me.

So I get home and Serafina's finishing tidying up, cooking dinner for the kids or whatever, and I'm like, "Did Nathan eat his dinner?" She's like, "Yeah, I've gone." "Cool, what else?" Like what else went on tonight, what else is news or [inaudible 00:40:13]. She's like, "Oh." And then she told me. I was just like, "I don't know what ... Oh my god. He's never done anything like that. Like, never." And then I'm messaging Linda, I'm like, "I'm so ... I'm mortified." I mean, she just laughed, but I don't think she was impressed. She didn't just laugh. I think she had whatever internal reaction that she obviously had. Then she told me what she said to him, which was very perfect, really. I was like, oh my god. Oh my god.

Why? Why would he do that? And, by the way, he completely adores and is in love with Linda, just in case you've got only questions around that for anyone who doesn't fully know the story of Linda and everything. Like, he loves her. He is in love with her, and he thinks she's the most beautiful, amazing person, and he talks about her all the time, and he calls her Linda the unicorn, because the first time the kids met Linda, she stayed overnight and had a slumber party, and she wore a unicorn onesie the whole time, then gave the children unicorn rides on her back. That was the same time when she brought this cushion and some kind of unicorn pillow also.

So he loves her. Why would he do that to a woman he loves. Men, answer for your gender. All of you. Now.

Of course, he threw some undies with poo on them off the balcony a few weeks ago. That's quite different to spreading poo through somebody's bag. That was also an isolated event. I feel that he's starting to build somewhat of a rap list of some kind, and I should probably keep some of his stories quiet now.

This was definitely the worst thing that I've ever known him to do, or just the most ghastly thing, I must say.

So anyway. I think we've said all that we came here to say. I just wonder, when you're selling things, are you selling from a place of reaching into their souls and telling them why they must buy and really fucking meaning it, or are you just like, "Yes, I've got this thing, and it's quite a good thing. I think it's a good thing. It's something of a thing. Here's 49 bullet points as why you should buy it, and then yeah, now here's 29 more emails that get sent out every day, and I'm gonna keep telling you about it, but I'm a little embarrassed, and I'm a little self conscious, and I wouldn't ... I don't want you to think I'm selling to you. I don't wanna be salesy."

So you're kind of like, "Yeah, I'm just gonna meekly pop it in the corner here and hope that you see it, then I'm gonna apologise energetically even if not literally, then I'm gonna do it again, because that's what you're supposed to do, but I won't say what I'm really thinking, because that might scare some people off. And I don't want people to think that I'm trying to make them buy, so I'll just kind of casually mention my thing and maybe they'll just know that it's for them and that they should pay me a lot of money."

No. Are you crazy? Not the good crazy. Why are people doing that? Why? Why are you doing that if you're doing it? I'll tell you why. It's because you didn't kick your own ass properly. It's because you didn't join Join before we close.

Why would you not just tell them that they're gonna be off their tiny little beautiful minds if they don't join your thing? Why would you not just tell them that if they never spend another cent with you again, they better fricking join the thing? Why would you not bring the energy and the passion and the fire to what you're selling? Or is it that you don't really believe in it? If that's the case leave and never return.

But presumably you believe in what you're selling. Right? Right. Hi. Hi Janine. Thank you for saying hi. Send me a love heart shower if you believe in what you're selling, because if you do, and you're carrying on like that, it's a travesty, and it's an embarrassment for the entire fucking community and yourself. You should fucking sit up straight and stick your boobs out and have some wine and own your queen power. Who the hell do you think you are? You're a queen sitting on top the throne. Be in the fucking energy of that. be gracious in your power. And be bold in your message. And don't take any fucking shit from that other voice inside of your head. That's basically the main point that I'm trying to say.

I mean, why don't you just act like you fucking believe in it, if you believe in it, right? You can say you believe in it. Why don't ... Oh, fuck that was one of those moments where I nearly threw the glass of wine at the laptop. But it would have been for a worthy cause. Is there any way that I could show my passion and fire more than throwing a glass of beautiful organic red wine at my rose gold MacBook. It can be so tiring to keep being around, being this person when there's struggle around you. I thought you meant it's so tiring sometimes to around me. It's so energising to be around me. The more that you're around me, the more your energy raises, your vibe elevates. Just being in my presence makes you more powerful and you become more abundant and you make more money. So really you should join for that reason if no other reason. And I'm not making it up, it's obvious.

Won't stick your boobs out because someone might lose an eye. Well, bully for you. Me too, as of tomorrow.

What else did I miss here? It can be so tiring to keep being this person when there's struggle around you. I don't fully understand that, but I think there's wine all in the corners of my mouth. What does that mean? I'm missing something that I think is important.

Okay. Stick them out. What do you mean? I don't understand. How am I missing this? It's going straight over my head. I think I've gotten too hyped up on my own excitement.

You gotta fricking own it. You gotta own your awesome. I did a challenge one time, a free challenge called Own Your Awesome. It's really a similar type of thing that we're talking about here. You've got to fucking own it. Thank you. Thank you [inaudible 00:46:22]. You've gotta fucking own it. That's my whole point. It's not enough to just be posting shit on the internet. Nobody cares. I'll stick them out already. I've been doing a fabulous self pleasure routine, actually, on my breasts and on other parts of me. I've been covering myself with love. Not in a gross, sticky way. And just taking the time to love my body.

I had a beautiful moment in yoga earlier this evening where I was like, I think ... I'm being super serious now, so sit up straight and pay attention. We turned into church now. I had this moment in yoga where I was like, "Well this is my last yoga class with these breasts before I do the surgery tomorrow." But in that moment in yoga, I suddenly was like, "I think I'm experiencing right now in this moment the purest love and acceptance that I've ever had for myself. I've spent most of my life completely fucking hating myself, and never even able to look my own self in the eye in the mirror. Took me like eight freaking years of doing 90-minute yoga classes nearly every day to finally be able to look myself fully in the eyes and not look away.

I went into self love, true love of myself last year sometime I feel, but in that moment earlier today, I was like, "I think this is the purest moment of deep self love and acceptance," where I was just like, "I fully fucking love myself in a completely non-ego way." It was just beautiful, and I feel like it's quite a contrast that I'm saying that now to everything else I've been yabbering on about. But it really was, and I was like, "This is the most perfect moment in time ever, because I'm doing something tomorrow that's changing my body, that is daunting or whatever." And I know it's [inaudible 00:48:17] in the right decision. But there's still that part of me that's like, "Um, am I gonna lose a piece of myself, or something, that I'm changing myself?" Something like that. And it was just this moment of no, this is perfect, and it's exactly as it's meant to be, and you just get to fully honour and love yourself right now, and tomorrow's whatever it is. Something like that. It was a glimpse.

Thank you Angela.

It was a glimpse. And also all these things just fell down where I was just like, "Oh my god, I see everything so clearly now." Relationship stuff mainly. And I was like, "Holy shit. It's just so fucking clear and so fucking obvious." And I was like, "This is just how it is." I was in my queen energy. That's what happened. I was standing there and I was like, "I'm like a queen." I was elevated into a queen in that room somehow. Like, my posture changed, my whole presence changed, everything changed, I could see it. I don't know. I'm gonna write about it later.

Now I feel a bit self conscious. That's the truth. It means you step in it again and again. Sometimes I feel like I've run out of poop. I'm like Nathan, who never runs out of poop. Aah. Unagi. I understand. Sometimes I feel that way as well. Sometimes fuck the full on live stream. Sometimes I'm gonna be super quiet and not even turn the fricking light on. The real one or the ... Well, this is the real one. But the other one over there, or the you know one. So that's fine. You can be whoever you need to be each day.

But as a general rule, if you're gonna sell something, then you're gonna fucking sell it, right? You're gonna be like, "Buy the damn thing." Speaking of the queen, I'm feeling coterie. That was a great course, hey? What a good course that was. Many people were transformed by that course.

Okay, I gotta go. What time is it even? Should I even go to bed or just, should I just stay up all night? Oh, this laptop died. I forgot about that. has already begun. It is off the hook. We cover many things about many things. The details are in the pinned comment. You would be out of your mind, and not in the good way, to not be part of this. If you remotely resonate with the way that I do business in life, with my soul speaks and your soul says, "Oh my god, yes, there you are, I was waiting for you." Not in a lover sort of way, but in the same sort of way but different. If you experience that with me, and you know that it's 12:22 am, two two two right here in Brisbane, thank you Lisa. It's not Brisbane, but close enough. Then join Details are down below. I'll see you inside. Doors close fully midnight eastern standard time tonight, Monday, May 28th.

So you have a little bit of time left, but I don't know what the fuck you would be thinking if you would just wait until that final countdown. Join now. If you do it super quickly, I might even let you into the group before I go to bed. Otherwise, I'll be up in several hours, and I'll be doing many things, mostly going to hospital. But I'm sure I'll run a whole fucking business while I'm there somehow.

All right. Love, love, love the badassery of this community. Thank you for being here. Thank you for being you. Thank you for remembering. Life is now. Press play.

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We're live. We are live. How shouty can I be in a public park, do you think? Pretty fucking shouty. If it comes out. If it comes out it, comes out, it's just how it is. It's another part of me, it's another side of me. Okay, so, my laptop refuses to connect to my hotspot. Hang on, wait. Let me just adjust, adjust, adjust.

So, my dilemma, hello six fabulous people who are here with me already. Brandon Marshall, you're up front, you're like number one on the livestream. What's up? So, my dilemma, I'm sure you can understand, Indira manifested me here, it's obvious to everybody, everybody send Indira love [inaudible 00:00:55], because she manifested me onto this livestream. She just said so herself.

My dilemma is that if I go this way, watch, if I face this way, you can see that I look fabulous because of the lighting which would be called sun. Some lighting God set up for me earlier, that's why you're up there. However, the problem is I can't see and I'll probably end up crying all day long. Well not all day, maybe just for the livestream as a result of the sun being in my eyes and then you'll be like "Wow, Kat is getting super emotional with her livestreams lately," except I won't be able to see and then I'll have panda eyes because I just applied mascara in the car after Muay Thai.

As you do, so I'm high vibe as fuck right now, because I just did my Muay Thai one on one session which was so flow, so freaking flow, so freaking flow. I felt like shit this morning you guys, I felt terrible and it serves me right because I ate a reasonable amount of jelly, like what do you guys in the US call these? We call them red lolly snakes, so you know those red snakes, the jelly ones, the candy that you get at kids parties? Yeah, I may have eaten a lot of them. An amount that doesn't need to be named and then quite a lot of Doritos, except they were like low budget, low vibe Dorito brand that somebody had, which was just embarrassing for them quite frankly and Twizzlers. They're not called Twizzlers, surely it's more like a gummy worm, but it's like a red one, you have to have the red snakes. You know it's a snake. It's a red snake, it's a long red snake.

Okay, I'm going to change my hair already. It's happening, deal with it.

And then there was like half a bag of Doritos, except they were low vibe Doritos, like a low brand name which nobody should name who bought them and who didn't and who ate them, but I ate them, and then I definitely ate a tonne of bread. I guess it was sourdough and it was served with pumpkin soup, so it was very classy and genteel, but still, many things went into my body that don't normally.

Red vine? They're snakes. They're called snakes. Somebody needs to figure this out. Are these ... Represent? Where are you? They're definitely called snakes. If my Wi-Fi was connecting on my laptop right now, I'd google it and we'd sort it out once and for all.

[Mim 00:03:08], can you find a picture of red snakes, the lolly snakes and let's drop it in as a comment here so that everybody understands? 'Cause it's a critical and important thing, because they seem to not understand what a red snake is. And any good Australian knows what a red snake is. And if you're not a good Australian, but you're associating with me, then I really feel like it's only appropriate that you understand all cultural references and just get that shit sorted forthwith. All right? All right.

So I woke up this morning, I did not feel fabulous. Which is a line that I've somewhat appropriated from my daughter, who one time, when I came out dressed up and ready to go out for a night out, I walked out and she was only five at the time, and she puts her hand up and she says, “Stop, are you wearing that? You do not look fabulous.” I'm not kidding, she did that to me. It was heartbreaking. So anyway, I'm thinking of that moment from nearly four years ago, when my daughter just smacked me down. She's just a basic American [inaudible 00:04:09] and by the way, in case you're wondering, yes I'm wearing the exact same sports bra and exact same top that I've now been wearing for three days and I'm starting to get self conscious about it. I've been sleeping in it too. I did wear different clothes to work out in. I just sweated my ass off and then changed back into the same clothes, which I also sweat in. My new system is just to wear them until they disintegrate even though I have a wardrobe that's probably worth several hundreds of thousandths of dollars, but that's just for show. The whole thing is a show.

Red apples? They're not called red apples. Mim's going to get a picture and put into the comments. They're not called Red Vines.

What's a Twizzler? Isn't a Twizzler like a ... It's swirled around? Doesn't it swirl around and around and around?

Why does this one piece of hair always stick up at the back of my head, do you think? It annoys the crap of me.

So, I went to training at the fight gym and I did not feel fabulous. I was kinda like, "Ugh. Okay." My stomach felt a little bit messed up. All right. Indira is doing the investigation process for us. It's good, because this is an important community matter. And then as soon as I started my warm-up, skipping, like within half a second, stop with the Twizzlers, they can't be called Twizzlers, I don't accept this, 'cause we have something that swirls around and around, like a vine. You guys are calling them Vines and Twizzlers. You're just making shit up, but we have something that swirls around and around and that looks like a vine. You can't post a picture? Why not? Put a link to the picture there Mim if you can't post a picture in the comment. You should be able to put a picture in the comment.

Swedish fish are fish. Okay. That is a random comment. Lisa Whitmore says, "Swedish fish are fish." I feel like she's obviously more wise and profound than all of us 'cause that comment, I have no understanding of what it means, but it sounds extraordinarily deep.

What the Swedish Fish don't exist? I feel like we're going down a strange path. So then as soon as ... But we're going to solve it. I won't leave this unanswered for you.

[Keira 00:06:11], maybe it's something that you can consult on, because obviously you know about all thing's nutrition. What do people in the US and Canada call what I in Australia call a red lolly snake? Somebody needs to figure it out.

I'm trying to get to my story. As soon as I started the skipping, the warm up, before I was even getting to the training, there was just that switch in head, that was like, "Ugh, this is damn good, this is where I'm supposed to be." My body just went yes, my soul said yes, it was like that recognition of, even though this is going to fucking hurt and feel like I might possibly throw up ... Maybe it's a gummy worm, but isn't a gummy worm small? Like I'm sorry, I don't mean to be kinda of rude or inappropriate or sexual in nature about the candy discussion, but I don't know about your small little gummy worms, 'cause we have big red snakes. That's what we have in Australia. It's just how we do things here.

So maybe you guys are getting an inferiority complex and that's why you're refusing to answer. Okay. Susan's put a link up. Yes, that looks like it could be real [inaudible 00:07:13], I can't click on it 'cause I'm on the live stream myself, but it is National Confectionary Company, so I can't vouch for Susan's link, but I feel that it could be on par.

Yes, well. I feel like this story about the workout is quite boring now, but essentially I just got into flow and I was like, "This is where I'm supposed to be." Oh, here's another link. Mim, maybe you can link on these links and validate which one of them is correct so that everybody understands and can move on with their lives?

Our snakes don't look like worms, Brandon. That's an extraordinarily rude and offensive comment.

Our snakes are fucking bad ass, all right? They're very snakey. We've got worms, we know what a fucking worm is, and we know what a snake is. I could pick a worm up probably anywhere around me. I'm hoping that I can't pick a snake up right here anywhere around me. You definitely need these snakes. I'm going to bring some to America when I come in a few weeks. Don't worry. Of course everything's bigger in Australia. Well Texas is Texas, they say that everything is bigger in Texas, but Australia is Australia. So, there's some wisdom for you. For your Monday, or your Sunday night, whatever it is for you.

Anyway, anyway. So then my trainer, whose sister is also my ninja, Mim, who's right here on this live stream, who's going to drop us a link momentarily about Break the Internet, which by the way started already, but the first live training happens in a couple of hours. Mim, you may as well put the link in now. That internet has already been broken, multiple times, and in fact I accidentally put into the sales copy that people come to and say “Fuck me please.” It was legitimately an accident. I meant to say that they'd say, “Fuck me, please give me your offer,” because I was talking about creating your new offering in the programme which started the other day, which you've gotta join today, 'cause it closes tomorrow, but first live training is today. There's a comment, “Where are you?“

So then, I put that in by accident, that people are going to come and say "Fuck me, please.” And then somebody's commented into the group, I told you about how she's just had the best fricking sex ever and it just happened out of nowhere and I was like, “I told you. You're welcome. I manifested that shit for you.” I'm trying to yell at a slightly lower vibe than my normal yelling voice, 'cause there's houses all around. I mean, I'm in like a little alcovey park, like there's a kids playground there and there's a park here, and 'cause I have an appointment at some medical rooms down there in half an hour, so I thought I'd just sit down in this park, but there's all these residential houses around so I don't want to yell to loud.

Anyway, so I'll get back to the story about the training, 'cause it's about the title of this live stream, but, I gotta tell you first is like the epic fucking shit, just random shit that's happened for people already and we only began on Friday, but we haven't done the first live training yet, which is about getting angry, getting angry with yourself for not letting your soul work hard into the world. That's happening today. If you're joining now, you can possibly still get in on that live, or you're going to get the replay and all the content for live anyway. This is a 10 day experience, a smack down, intensive experience.

Is there animals fucking in the background? Well on most of my livestreams, that's normal and true, so I feel like it's kinda of a superfluous question and I'm not really going to attend to it.

So read about that in the comment. Come and join us in the group, the energy is through the fricking roof. If you know that you've been boring, bland, not letting your true work out and you're not having epic, fucking amounts of fun and shenanigans in your business and maybe you're not making the fricking money that you want to be making either with all the soul mate clients, you need to be in Break the Internet.

Read the comment. There's not even a sales pitch to go to. So literally just read the comment. Buy the thing. Join the thing. I'll see you in the thing. We're doing daily trainings starting from today. I said it's a 10 day experience, it's actually going to be longer already, because we started on Friday.

There was two amazing pre-works last week, which you'll get right away when you sign up now, you'll go into the Facebook group. Then we've done two trainings already. We've done one live training on Friday that was like an impromptu little one and then some exercises over the weekend, and now we're doing the first official live training today. So I'm going to like, I'm going to do 10 days starting from today. So all the extra stuff was just extra, extra, extra bonuses and there's already all these crazy results happening and I have broken the internet, several times, already, meaning random shit's just frozen and the whole internet had to wait for me in order to keep going, as it should be because I'm the freaking queen. I stay on my throne. I send my energy out and things just happen in the world. I'm going to teach you about that. As well as how to bend time and space and manifest instantly and a whole bunch of other stuff which is in the comment.

So then, okay, that's that.

Here's about the live stream title, because then Iggy, my trainer, was saying something about how does this new gym, like a fight gym that's opened around the corner, he said, "Did you see this other gym, whatever it's called." I don't remember what's it called, I was like "No I haven't seen it," and then he described it to me with what can only be described as the look of utmost disdain, about it's like one of those places where you just go and do nine rounds or 12 rounds or whatever and they just basically pummelled people and get a sweat out, but there's no technique and no training around it, it's just kind of like, yeah, get people in there, get 'em whacking a lot of shit, pretending that they think they're boxing or fighting, or whatever. Get 'em sweating and then send them on their merry way and then they're happy because they did nine rounds of whatever it was and it took 20 minutes or 27 minutes or whatever, and so they think they had a workout.

And he's like, "Did you hear about it?" And I was like, "No, I didn't really pay that much attention," but I said there's a lot of places like that in the US I notice. It's like a very popular style of fitness, just get people in for a circuit, no thinking, no technique, okay they're going to injure themselves, what the fuck ever. They're not actually really using their muscles, whatever, they're not even understanding how to connect to flow and zen through their training, whatever, but they sweated so they think they had a good time.

Or maybe they did have a good time and they should have a good time, but you know, right, that's how I feel about it, from a training perspective and from a training background perspective. He was just talking about the gym, and then I said to him ... And then we did another round, and then during the break I said to him, "The thing is though, there'll always be a market for people who don't want to think."

What's on my shirt? It's an important question that Jacqueline has posed. It says Religion, that's what it says. It's a cool shirt isn't it? I like it.

So I said to him, "There'll always going to be a market ..." I'm gonna go on my knees. "There's always going to be a market for people who don't want to think, right? In business and in ..." Yeah that's the US in a nutshell. Well there's plenty people who do want to think and here they are here. The funny thing is, you also don't have to think, right? This is a contradiction because I talk all the time about don't think, just act from flow and act from soul.

Like when I've been ... I've got a lot to learn still about fighting, but I just went back and started training again, Muay Tai on Friday, for the first session back in months and it just comes straight back, right? So of course I still want to improve my technique and learn more and more, but I have been doing it off and on for 13, 14 years, so there's a lot of knowledge there, I guess or there's a foundation there. What I remember is when we were doing sparring sessions, which I find scary still for sure, and I go into a slight hyperventilation state, but when I get past that initial fear or the first few times hyperventilating, then you slip into flow, like such fucking super flow and it's like you're dancing. It's like it's a dance, where you may or may or not get your ribs fricking punched in and you might fall to the floor gasping and crying, which happened a few times for sure, but you feel like you're totally in flow and you're dancing and you're not thinking, right? So the advanced version of doing the work, in any area of fitness, business, or life ... By the way, how do you like winter? This is winter. I'm getting a suntan on my arm over here, it feels really hot.

This is why I had to leave Melbourne. I only went for two days over the weekend. It was fucking freezing. It was freezing and then all my people in the UK were like, "I googled the weather and the weather that you're saying is freezing is the same as our summer except it's your winter." I'm like, "Well, that explains the whole situation."

So anyway, the advanced version for writing, for business, for messaging, for training is definitely it's not thinking, it's coming from the core, it's coming from flow. It's just like a dance with life, and that's how I felt inspiring sessions. It's definitely how I feel so much of the time in my writing, or on a livestream, or with clients, or if I'm teaching an event or if I'm hanging with one of my amazing soul mate people in my life, like a close friend or something and we just have a soul flow conversation. And so I talk a lot about don't think, just act from flow and act from the core. However, however, however, that's more like the advanced version, right? If somebody has no results, no knowledge, no technique, no learning, and no fucking clue, whether it's in working out or whether it's in business, then they're probably going to need to learn some things.

Now it depends, because maybe we can just connect in ... Well we can just connect straight into the flow, straight into the core and just instinctively know what to do, right? For sure. But if you take people, a bunch of unfit and uneducated people who don't even have any understanding of how to stabilise their core, and they've got maybe some injuries going on or definitely some structural imbalances and that sort of thing. They don't know how to activate their muscles or use their muscles, they don't know how to breathe properly and then you put them into a circuit based gym where it's just like a timer and they go from station to station and nobody's guiding them or supporting them properly but hey whatever, they're just whacking shit like a kind of crazy child and they're getting a sweat on.

That person is never going to get true full on soul flow, where they're just, their body is working and they're moving with the workout, because they never even learn in the first place how to connect. So maybe they need to learn how to fucking breathe properly. Maybe they need to learn how to activate their core muscles, they need to learn how to use any muscles, they need to learn how to just, like if you're throwing a punch for example. You know where that punch is coming from in your body and you learn and understand that, and then you let go of it and you don't think about and it just works.

Do you see what I mean? It's kind of like people just want this thing where they don't have to think. They can just go on the rounds. They can just follow through and they can just follow some shitty promise basically and because they got a sweat up they feel like they did something. The problem is, with so many of those sort of work out styles, and I was in the industry for years and years and years and I've seen this again and again and so I do still roll my eyes at those sort of fitness places. Problem is 99.99% of people are never getting the sort of results they want, because in order to lose weight and get lean and hot as fuck, your body needs to actually be working. Sweating does not mean your body's working. That's a reality.

So then if we look at business, and this is what I was thinking about when I said, "Tim, you know the reality is there'll always be a market for people who don't want to think." With business, it'd be equivalent to somebody online thinking like there's a 12 step plan, I've just got to find a 12 step plan or a nine step plan or whatever it is, do this, do this, do this, and then I'll become a millionaire online, right? Like, "Oh, but I did an Optum page, and then I did a landing page and then I created a programme and then I setup Instagram and LinkedIn, whatever it was and I went through the steps and so surely because I put the work in, like I got my sweat up, I put the work in, surely I should have a result, right? Because somebody told me that if I did these 12 things in a row, then I'd get a result," and it doesn't work that way. It doesn't work that way if you've got somebody who doesn't already know how to connect into flow and connect into soul and how to trust and believe in what's coming out of them.

But here's the caveat, right, here's the catch, because I'm not here to try and convince people to walk away from their 12 step to a millionaire dollar system that they're following out there or whatever it is that's popular with the kids at the moment. I don't want those people. I'm not actually trying to say to you, that you personally, necessarily need to go and learn technique and fundamentals. Maybe yes, maybe no, you probably know what you need or desire some education or some knowledge around, verus what are the things you just fricking know inside of you, what to say, and how to do it, and how to show up, but are you giving ourself permission? I'm not here for those people.

If I was running a fitness centre, I wouldn't want to go over to the place where the people who think they can do their stupid nine round thing or 12 round thing are and convince them to come to my place where I'm going to educate them properly and then empower them into flow and into magic fucking results with ease and not just the physical results, but the inner results and the certainty and the knowing this and the dance with life. I don't want those people.

I want the people who already knew in the first fucking place what it looks like to actually do the damn thing properly. What it looks like to come from the core, what it looks like to connect with your body and with your soul.

So in business, like I can make fun of it or something, but I'm not here to do this livestream to be like, "Oh I hope that somebody who thought there was a 12 step fucking plan to making a million dollars on line, I hope that I can persuade them to join instead." No way. Hell to the no. That would be a really tiring client to work with for me, because their mindset is there should just be a process. I should just get to follow a process and then I get results so what do I do next? And my answer is going to be, "How about learn to fucking connect to your soul because then you can throw that punch probably, right? Or connect to your core," I'm mixing all my analogies, but it's working, I think.

So what I'm here for is actually the people who, in contradiction to kinda of a lot of stuff I just said, I'm here for the people who know that they can literally just tap into that flow straight away. That they don't have to go through a process first. That maybe there are some techniques they need to learn along the way. So maybe for example, they notice that they feel like they can't really access soul knowledge and soul guidance and it feels kinda of confusing or you feel unsure like I'm not really certain what my soul is telling me to do or I'm not sure what intuition is saying, so then maybe that person gets to learn from me something around journaling, or connecting to soul, or connecting to inner guidance and they develop a practise around it in order to practise tapping into intuition, in order to practise acting from that and so that's your equivalent to learning your technique, right?

Like I had to really apply myself to learning how to throw my kicks properly in fighting because ... And I still have to think about it sometimes, because if I don't think about it my automatic non-thinking response is kinda of, like it's limited, I don't go all the way through, right? So I stop and think a lot of the time and I think where do I want this to come from and I take the time to connect my mind to my soul to certain parts of my body and then it works, right? Then I throw the kick properly and then if in sparring and then that's when I'm like, "Well, I'm not going fricking think about while I'm in sparring. I'm in that flow zone and you've just gotta go and how it comes out is how it comes out."

All right, so it's the same how in business or clients who I'm working with or this stuff I've been teaching about There's going to be people who are like, "Well I don't know what my soul is telling me to sell, or to message, or how to put myself out there, or how to build my brand or show up," and I'm going to be like "Okay cool, so here's how you connect into that. Here's what to feel. Here's how to feel it. Here's a practise. Here's a process around it, but no it's not a 12 step fucking formula or if you do this, this, this, and this then you make a million dollars. I'm not here to teach you that. That does not exist. What I'm here to teach you is to connect to what's already natural inside of you, right?"

And that's what I love about fight training and learning how to be better at Muay Thai. It's something that's already in me. I'm not trying to learn something that doesn't already exist in me. I'm trying to learn or I'm remembering, not even learning, I'm remembering how to use my body naturally in that way which my body already does know how to do, so I might take the time to connect and to think about it in training and with technique stuff and drills and that sort of thing. But then when it gets time to sparring time, it's like let go and let flow. Same as here. We might take the time in for example, to allow you to learn and understand how to connect deeper to flow, deeper to could, deeper to your inner guidance, how to know what to sell, how to sell it, and what to say, and how to say it, but then it's going to be like, "Okay, now it's time to let go and let flow." Actually, we'll be doing it all at once, it won't be like this, this, and then this.

So, that's it. There's a big-ass spider on my laptop right now. I'm going go, because I've got an appointment in eight minutes that I've gotta drive a minute away to.

Oh you're fine.

So, I'm going to finish up. I could keep talking for ages, but I do have an appointment so I want you to think about how this applies to your business and what you need to put into place as far as listening to yourself and also read the pinched comment there that Mim's dropped in, it says and then there's a whole bunch of stuff under that. Where are you?

Read through what we're doing in that programme, it is next level bad ass. We started on Friday, we're doing the first live training today, you've got to get in there. It's just an incredible group, total bad asses, I think we're up to nearly 100 entrepreneurs in that group now. So let's get you your place in there right now. We'll close the doors tomorrow, but you'd be crazy to wait until tomorrow because we're doing the first live training today.

All right. I'll see you in there.

Have an amazing rest of the day and don't forget, "Life is now, press play."

Hi. Okay. I'm figuring shit out. I'm figuring out my situation. I think I'm situated. Okay. I'm ... I'm in bed, that's what's up.

Okay. What's happening with my internet, people? My internet ... I'm at home, the internet can't be going out. We're not in Bali anymore, but sometimes the internet in bedroom's dodgy because I'm up so high and I'm right next to the ocean. The ocean is like 50 yards away.

Hello. Welcome to the Katrina Ruth Show where anything could happen and probably will.

Hey Caitlin. Oh that made a difference didn't it?

I have a special delivery coming in for me. Look at this, wine delivered to my bed. Can you please open the door for me -


- because I'm getting overheated already.

Hello Melanie. Hello Amber. Hello [Luanna 00:01:20]. Hey Michelle, just manifested a live stream from me.

Don't touch that. It's going to fall.

Careful. Go downstairs with Phina. I'll be down soon.

Can I stay with you?

No, no, no. You've got to go downstairs with Phina.


Come on. We'll do something fun. Lets go.


Hey Angela. Hey Joe.

Fine mommy.

I love you.

I hate you.

Aw, that's not nice, is it?

Okay. Hey Bobby.

Come on.

I'm coming.

All right. How did I get the special emojis? Because I'm a ninja and because my team of ninjas ... He's left now. Not happy about it though.

What he did before he left was pulled out my tripod balancing stand, which was a pirate book, so now we're going to have to resort to a Monster's University book to put under the tripod because otherwise the tripod's just balancing on the bed.

I don't even know what I want to talk about. What did I say the title was?

Oh that's right, because I know exactly what I want to talk about. Don't worry.

All right, we have the Big Monsters on Campus, Monster's University tripod balancing stand is there. Welcome to the show.

Oh do you know what, I just realised my team aren't online to share this live stream. I better share it over to my page.

How'd ... That's all anyone what's to know is about the emojis. How? You be Katrina Ruth, that's how. Like a smart ass. You can do it in the Facebook Creator app. I didn't do it though.

I'm going to share this live stream over to my personal page into the daily ass kickery and then we're going to get into the show and I just wanted to come on, have my wine delivered to me upstairs in bed. You found I'm cool.

Damn that's a good wine. That's a new one. Seraphina went wine shopping for me. Smart ass. She's chosen an exceptional wine.

Seraphina, who's arm you may have just seen appearing on camera bringing me the wine, is my amazing nanny/incredible at home personal assistant/she's a ninja in various aspects of my social media here at the Katrina Ruth Show.

Okay, you know what, I just did this amazing, amazing audio for my members. Actually the programme hasn't even started. It doesn't start until tomorrow.

Wait. That is such good wine. I'm definitely enjoying it.

But it was pre-work. I did the audio as some pre-work, some additional pre-work. We already did pre-work two days ago and then long story short, I was driving along and I realised I wanted to create an audio and make some new pre-work for my members and I thought I'd talk about it a little bit here on this livestream, because it's such a powerful and important part of being as magnetic as fuck ... As magnetic as fuck ... Magnetic as fuck online, which has to do simply with being all that you already are and letting all that you are out.

Who here has joined Break the Internet already and why will this live stream not share to my page? I'm going to ask Kelly too or I'll try and do it one more time. I'm trying to share it over to my personal page but it's just being a mother fucker and refusing to let me. Oh here we go.

You know what, a lot of people ... Me, yes you have. A lot of people assume that I'm a natural extrovert, but if you get to know me I'm actually super introverted in real life and what I was teaching my members about ... If you're in Break the Internet, I don't think you've got this audio yet, it's still being converted and it's going to drop into the group in the next, however long. Very soon anyway.

What I was teaching and explaining in that training was around how to let what's inside of you already out, because actually in order to show up fully online as a leader, as a powerful, revolutionary, bad ass leader, it's got nothing to do with already being a person who feels super charged with confidence or that you always know exactly what to say or anything like that at all. It's simply got to do with letting the real you out.

That's kind of what I wanted to talk about today, but I'm getting kind of grumpy here because my internet's being super shitty and not letting me share my livestream over to my personal page.

Can you ... And daily asskickery. All right, so I'll get Kelly to do it because otherwise it's just going to keep distracting me.

Anyway, today I had my first day back in Australia. I haven't been here ... I've barely been here all year to be quite honest with you. I've been here for a total of two weeks for the entire fucking year I think, and today was my first day back again after being away again, again, in Bali, so it was a bit of a frazzle day just with the kids and running around and doing stuff and then tomorrow we're flying away again. Going away for a couple of days to my hometown in Melbourne for a six year old birthday party. Why would you not? Of course, for my nephew, and so it's kind of that slight feeling of never endingness is creeping up upon me.

Where I get a little frazzled, I guess, when I think about it, but more so that I feel like it's going to impact my ability to show up and do what I want to do in my business or for example, I've been out all day and I've have an in and out of the car, driving around doing errands sort of day, and doing some bis stuff as well and doing some things for myself.

I came home just now, 10 minutes ago, and I thought, well I can go live or I can go sit down and be a good mom and be with my children, who I haven't been with for two or three weeks. I have already spent quite a bit of time with them today actually, like early this morning before school and then during gymnastics for each of them and we did the park and we did a playground café and so definitely spent time with them.

Now, coming onto live stream, I was like, well I could just sit down now, watch a movie with the kids and I'll definitely be online later tonight and do some more business stuff or I thought I could sneak up here into my bedroom and kind of like my plan was to sneak away so that they didn't notice, but obviously Nathan just came in and noticed, and just do a quick little live stream for you guys.

Funnily enough or I don't know if this is funny or not, but for me that's what I kind of look at as my time. It's definitely not the only thing that I would look at as my time is to do a live stream, but it's definitely something where I was like, well if I go straight into that kind of evening witching hour with my children watching a movie and then cooking dinner and or playing Play Dough or whatever it is that we're going to do, there's that slight disconnect that I feel inside of me, where it's like I didn't fully honour my soul and then I feel a tiny bit shitty about it, right, I feel a little bit, not shitty at the kids or anything like that, I guess more so shitty with myself for not honouring myself and for not honouring what it is that I need to do.

Also I haven't fully let out what's inside of me and so therefore there's this heightened energy. Have you ever noticed that? Maybe you've noticed this if you're a mom as well or a dad or could be to do with other things in your business. Maybe what you do is you go like, oh I really should go and do such and such admin shit in my business or I should go and finish off cleaning out my emails or answering people's inquiries and responses, but really what your soul needs and what would allow you to feel fulfilled and happy, would be to do some content for example and to show up and do a live stream or maybe write a blog post or share a story or essentially just unleash some form of messaging from inside of you.

When we talk about showing up for all of you, a big of that, it's kind of what I said earlier, just letting that natural ... Oh my God. I don't know what I'm doing with my legs here. They're all tangled up in a pretzel.

I'm going to give you a comment and then I'm going to keep talking. My page finally loaded over here.

Okay, I just popped a comment in, which is about Break the Internet. It starts on Friday, US time on Friday, but we're right into pre-work now. We did an incredibly powerful pre-work exercise two days ago in the group.

The group is out of control with bad assery. If you're in the group, how freaking good is it? Then I've just created a new pre-work training for today as well, which is essentially my favourite exercise that I've personally used for years now, in order to bring that extrovert, performer, entertainer side of me out, even as an actual introvert and even when I feel self conscious or I don't feel like showing up or I feel like I don't know how to really let that soul side of me out so that I'm speaking to people's souls and speaking to their hearts and getting the response, right.

Break the Internet, it's called because it's just what I felt like calling it. Don't go the URL because it's not going to be my landing page for sure. I don't know what's at that website, I haven't even bothered to type it in.

It's a day intensive smack down and it's ll about getting back to the real raw core of who you are and just unleashing the beast, so to speak, unleashing the soul beast. Letting people see and feel all of you and essentially in order to do that, as part of it, completely wiping off the table any sort of bullshit or drama you've got around feeling like not able to or self conscious or that you hold yourself back or you just don't share your full truth, you do some kind of half baked version of it.

There's a lot of really deep powerful work that we're going to be doing this programme. You can read the pinned comment after we finish if you like and if it's speaking to you, you can just purchase straight from in there and jump straight into the group. It's on fire already and we haven't even started.

This programme came straight out of my soul. If you read what's there, that's my entire sales copy is right there in a comment. There's nothing else, there's no sales page or anything like that and I wrote it in 10 to 15 minutes and it came from pure fury because I was shitty at myself and I wrote about this on Sunday last week when the programme came out of me.

I was really shitty at myself. I was feeling like I haven't been letting all of me out. I've been in part, maybe not fully showing up and performing and doing what I'm meant to do because I've been travelling or whatever, bullshit, story, story, story, doing other things instead, but also that when I was showing up with my writing, with my speaking and being here or wherever I am, that I was holding something back, I wasn't letting my true soul out and I think that this just happens naturally.

No matter how good you are, no matter how practised you are, and I'm pretty fucking practised at showing my soul on the internet, if we don't consciously set that intention that I'm going to give all of me, I'm going to let people see all of me, I'm gong to bare my naked soul to the world, I'm going to let my truth out, then we naturally just tend to let, I guess, some kind of a mask build up on us over time. It could be because maybe something triggered us or got to us or we had a moment of insecurity or it could just be that it freaking builds up, the same way that dustiness and dirt builds up on your skin. You got to shower every so often.

For me it's like a soul shower. When I get into a good journaling session or a good [inaudible 00:12:26] work session, which is what I did on Sunday, where I kick my own ass and I really sat down and I was like, right, lets bring it bitches, I'm going to kick my own ass. In fact I'm going to share my journaling.

Here's an unannounced bonus that I haven't even told anybody about, not even my members in, I'm going to share my exact journaling from Sunday, because what I did was, I did this empowered kind of rage and aggression filled journaling session. If I had my journal upstairs here I'd pull it out now and read a few bits, but it's downstairs and I don't want to risk getting the kids noticing that I'm not there again. They'll come running up here and then I won't be able to say anything.

I did this kind of kick my own ass journaling session where I was really just like, this is bullshit and I'm sick of it and I just want to feel this and I want to let loose what's inside of me and I was empowered and I was passionate and I was angry, right, I was angry at myself. I started to get the idea for a programme and I knew that the first module will be, Get Angry.

"Looking tan as fuck," says Karen. Thank you. I appreciate it, because like a normal freaking woman, the first thing I noticed was something I didn't like about myself when I jumped online. I should reframe that. Actually, lets reframe that a normal woman notices how fucking fabulous she looks, but the first thing that I noticed was that my hair was a little bit greasy and I started to get self conscious about it. All right, but I still continued on. I didn't jump off the live stream when I and noticed it.

Anyway, I appreciate it Karen. Perfect time for a wine break. God damn that wine's good.

I was getting angry and I knew that I was going to do a programme. I hadn't known that I was going to do a programme. I had no plan to launch something new when I sat down. I went down to the beach, the restaurant in front of the beach where I was at in Bali, Sunday afternoon, I was going to be going out for drinks at 5:00 PM and it was like 3:00 PM and I actually was just ... The reason I went down to journal was, I was like, I'm not going to enjoy my evening going out and we were planning a big night of going out and just being social and meeting new people and doing this kind of social connecting experiment that I've got going on at the moment, and so I knew that I wouldn't be fully in my flow zone with that.

I just felt like I was shitty, right. I was shitty at myself because I knew that in my business I hadn't been fully expressing myself, I'd been hiding, holding back. Not in a ... I still show the fuck up, that's the reality, but it's about what we feel individually.

I went and sat down to journal and the journaling got super fiery, it got super revved up and I just got into massive amounts of clarity and empowerment, but there was this aggressive energy to it and it was all coming from soul flow.

What I was just saying, I'm going to share that exact journaling as an unannounced bonus into and that will be when we officially kick off tomorrow, so go to the pinned comment after this, read about, get your ass in there if you would like a 10 day intensive smack down from my soul to yours.

The first module is going to be Get Angry, so it will be appropriate that I'll share my example of how I really reached into my soul and then when you read the overview for this programme you're going to see or you're going to feel that it came from a place inside of me. It didn't come from a thinking place of how do I come up with an offer or programme or something like that. It came from this place inside of me of aggressive energy, right.

Sometimes when I download something from the soul it feels super, I guess, flowy and floaty and more of a so called light energy, whereas this feels a little darker and a little heavier, but in a completely beautiful way and you can just feel it when you read the copy.

Well that sales copy took maybe 10 minutes to write, if that. I don't think it was even remotely 10 minutes and what happened was I would do my journaling like I said and then I wrote a blog post, which I very politely called You Snivelling Whiny Little Bitch, because I'm super friendly like that, and then somebody re posted it and talked about leaders online being violent in their languaging. I was Like holy shit, people who don't freaking read between the lines. Not my people, be on your way.

Anyway, it was such a kick your ass blog post, but of course I'm writing it first and foremost for myself and it really just lit me up with love and power and rage and all those things definitely go together. I think that's obvious, right? For the right people they were like, holy fucking shit, I needed to hear that.

After I wrote the blog then the programme just kind of flew out of me. I was not like, let me quickly whip up a programme offer before I go down to the beach club for sunset drinks and then going out into the evening. I was like, I need to unleash something inside of me or I'm not going to be a very good person to hang out with tonight and I'm going to be distracted and I'm not really going to be feeling in flow. I just was like, this is what I want to do for me before I go out.

All right, so then I did that, programme just flew out of me. You can feel the energy of it in the post and it was that simple because it came from a place of showing all of me, right, which is the title of this live stream. It came from a place of, I didn't give a fuck, I wasn't thinking about what do I create to sell or what do I create to get people's attention, what do I create to be magnetic online. As soon as you start to think about, how should I be magnetic online? How should I be a powerful leader? How should I be anything? Well, you immediately, what you're doing actually is complete anti manifestation because you're saying that I'm not that thing, how should I be that thing? If I'm not magnetic, how do I be magnetic? That's stating that you're not magnetic, so that's what you're then creating and manifesting, right.

It's like if somebody tries to be cool, it's like you're not cool dude. You're trying to be cool. You're a try hard, right, whereas if they completely themselves then they're cool as fuck in whatever way that is for them, right, and for us here's the thing, not everybody out there is magnetic and can be a leader and make a fuck load of money online and have an insane bad as following of people who just binge on their content like it's Netflix. That's reality, but if you're here ...

Hey Matthew. Shout out. If you're here, then you know who you freaking are, right, but that doesn't mean you don't need to kick your own as snow and again. If you know that that's who you are and that's inside of you, then that's all you need to know. You don't need to ask how to do it, you just need to fucking be it. But how do you be it? Okay, you don't ask how to be it, you just be it.

It feels confusing. I know, it's annoying. Lets have some wine and take a moment and then I'll explain.

How? How? How did I unleash such a powerful programme that people are just like, holy fuck I've got to part of that, right, and when you read the comment about it you're like, even if it doesn't speak to you and you're like, no it's not for me, but you'll feel that it came from a real raw place.

How? Because I didn't fucking sit down to ask myself how I can quickly make a few extra tens of thousands of dollars on the internet in a couple of days, which is what ultimately then happened and then some, because then it kind of triggered into a bunch of other stuff as well, not even relevant to this business, because it was like super flow had been activated.

I didn't sit down to do that. I didn't even sit down to write about [inaudible 00:19:39] blog post. I didn't sit down to come up with a programme. I didn't sit down to actually do anything for you guys, sorry to tell you. I was not sitting down with you in mind. I was sitting down shitty at myself. I was sitting down because I wanted to kick my own ass.

Natalia says, "I tuned into your live before I joined it." Perfect, we're on the collective energy wave length here. You just got the signal and then you're Like, oh yeah, I'll come and listen to the human version, but you're getting it anyway. I love it.

That's the thing, right, I was giving myself what I needed. I was kicking my own ass. I was doing what I needed to do for me and as a product of doing that and as a product of reminding myself who I fucking am and kicking my ass to be who I am, something came forth from me, spewing like a fiery river into the night or actually it was the Bali sunset and it was very beautiful.

Then I did that blog and that that was just to unleash my soul, because I freaking needed the release and I wanted the release and I desired the release and there will be no blanket till marshmallows. There is a blanket here and it's possible ... This is embarrassing for everybody, but predominantly for me. There might be a bowl of kind of stale chocolate licorice bullets in the drawer next to my bed.

It could be an illusion. It might not actually exist or be real. We'll taste test. They look pretty old. I actually was like, I wonder if there's chocolate in that drawer, I know I used to put it in there sometimes.

I think they're pretty old. I have no recollection. Lets test. They're fucking good though. I don't know what this round thing is. I don't trust it.

Okay. I'm allergic to licorice. I'm just letting you guys know. Anything could happen now. That's probably why they're still in there, because I fucking love it. All right, lets manifest that I'm not ... Fuck I can feel it already. Don't worry I'm not going to pass out, but I can feel it already. I'm just a rebel. I just don't give a fuck. I'm just going to eat stuff that I react to.

Okay, that was a reckless and kind of stupid move. I think the wine will help cleanse it through my body so that I don't have any more of a reaction than the one that I can already feel.

I definitely have always been allergic to licorice, but you know, I'm reckless as fuck. As long as I drink plenty of water I can handle the allergic reaction. I sound like a moron, but I like chocolate licorice so much, but then I did kick my own ass about it later and people kept buying me licorice bullets because I think I talked about it and then I overdosed on them one night and I was fucked up for an entire three days.

All right, so anyway, my soul's a little bit of an immature child at times I think and just likes to do stuff. I can feel the freaking flush coming. I'm making it up. I'm so full of bullshit. I'm just making the story in my head aren't I? I feel like I want to take my top off though because I'm getting a hot flash from it.

All right, so anyway, we're talking about how to be all that you are on the internet. I didn't even use the word internet, just be all that you are in general real life.

What's the name of this live stream? Let me check. Let me make sure I get it right because it's important and I might accidentally say the wrong thing, not that I've got any fucking clue what I'm saying anyway. Doing the damn work of being all of you. Well exactly right. Exactly right.

I wasn't being all of me. I'd become the most boring person in the entire internet, if not the world, and then I did a live stream about that.

Lets cleanse this licorice out. I only had two. Do you think it's appropriate that I just looked over at my books right then and I happened to, the first book that caught my eye is Russell Brand's book on getting past addiction? I think there's something to be said about that. It's a great book by the way.

You know, I did the crazy ass livestream from the cab then on the way to going out, because I was so riled up and I talked about how I was the most boring person on the internet, but the point is that doing the damn work of being all of you, there's many things that could be said about that. I did an entire training for my members and it's not even part of the official content, it's just pre-work.

I did that training today. It's dropping now or tonight sometime into the group and you can get that right away and then we start officially around about this time tomorrow, so Friday morning US time. What time is it even ... Nope. It will be even later than that. Whenever it is, we start on Friday. I don't even know when it is, all right, and I do the training on how to bring out the extrovert side of you that's in there even if you're a natural introvert and step into the performer, entertainer, leader and using the exact exercise that I've used for sometime now, where it's now automatic, I don't have to think about it, but how I kind of based it, what I based it on to step into my true entertainer, performer.

That's just one side of it, because what I'm saying now, the other side of it that I'm saying now is, well what if you just always gave yourself the space and opportunity to be all that you are, right.

What I did on Sunday, no I'm not going to go out socially until I've done what I need to do for me, because it's just what I felt to do and I was going into myself to deal with my own shit. I wasn't doing that to try and make a buck or an extra few bucks or whatever it was and that's just, you know, it's a trust thing isn't it, because I know that it seems like, well but if I never tried to make money or to build my following online or to get a sale, then how would I ever get there?

I guess the question is, well do you trust that you're going to be the person who'll actually do the damn work, because for me it's just a natural flow and effect of being all that I am. When I be all that I am, I naturally am a powerful messenger and leader and I'm also a natural bad ass sales person. That's me being all that I am. I don't have to remind myself to do that. I've been selling since I was three years old, right. Nobody taught me. It was in my blood from day one. I just figured it the fuck out and I always had a side hustle and I did many things of somewhat disrepute and many things of grand repute I imagine and I was always making money.

Sure, I learned some stuff about selling over the years. I learned some things about some things, but mostly I threw out everything I learned because all of the strategies that I use now and really what I'm teaching in is about getting back to who you are. All the strategies I use, how I show up now, this is the me who was there when I was three years old or five years old or ten years old. This is the me who was inside of me even when I was a really shy, awkward, super geeky, nerdy kid, that me was still there and would come out on the right occasion, right, and particularly when there was a hustle to be had or a creative endeavour to be dived into.

Nobody needed to tell me, nobody needed to show me and I didn't need a rule book or to follow rules, it Just fucking happened the same way that it is now.

You know, I jumped on this live and I was like, I'm not sure where this will go. I feel like it will be quite a quiet live and it's getting a little rowdy as it is. It doesn't really matter, but the point is, I did start to say this earlier and of course I lost it, I was saying why I jumped on this live was not, again, not to do a live stream, not to make a sale, not to even impart my glorious pearls of wisdom to you. It was because I was thinking about, am I going to spend the next two or three hours sitting down ...

Is my cheek getting licorice puffy? Does my cheek look blown up like a squirrel's been in there with its nuts? That sounds bad. Is my cheek puffy as though I am a squirrel and I've been storing nuts in it or am I imagining it? That's how it looks to me.

I jumped on the live because I was thinking about spending the next three hours doing, you know, being a mom and playing with the kids and I just knew that I'd feel a little like I hadn't let out what's inside of me if I did that and I thought I would do a quick 20 minute live stream and then I'm gong to feel good because I enjoy doing that and I like to let my message out and then I'm going to feel ready to relax and unwind and be with my children and go through all that and enjoy that time and space.

Then, you know, as it happens, I found my flow, we're talking about some things. I'm sure it's impacting somebody in some way and maybe even someone's going to join, right, and that is a bonus and an outcome of me doing the damn work of being me.

What does it mean for you to do the damn work of being you? Does it mean stepping up into different areas in your business in a practical sense or does it simply mean honouring what you need?

I stood right there in my bathroom ... Visual to prove that there really is a bathroom there. There it is. It's real. It's got a huge bath. If it's daytime, if you're in that bath you can look out that window there and you'll see the entire fucking ocean, both of those windows there. There's all those books with Russell Brand's book over there. Best view ever when I wake up in the morning in my bedroom.

I stood in the bathroom and my face was shiny, so then I was like, oh I'll put some powder on and do a live stream, but I was like, maybe I won't. I nearly went back downstairs. I'd already tod Fina I'm going to do a live stream. I was like, I don't need to, maybe I won't. I thought maybe I would just go chill with the kids and then I was like, no, because I can just feel that desire and that need to unleash something and that's who I am.

When I'm being all of me, when I'm doing the damn work of being who I am, I'm letting out what's inside. You know, there's some many points through the day for each of us and I let many of them slip away because maybe I'm driving or I'm at the gym or whatever, but there's so many points for each of us through the day where you have a download, you have something pulling at you. I didn't even have really a download of being fired up about talking. I had a title, but I didn't have a fired up energy about all these things I wanted to say, but I had a pulling at me to share something, to say something, to just turn the camera on, to press go live and to just do my damn thing, right.

There's many times for each of us through the day where you have an inspired idea or a little flicker of, oh this would be a post, and then you let it go. I think sometimes that's fine. You know, maybe you are fucking driving, you don't have to pull over every time you have an idea and do a live stream, but maybe sometimes you do, right.

I swear to God, this cheek has gone puffy as fuck. All right, I'm trying not to get distracted by it.

Maybe sometimes you do. Maybe sometimes now you could start to get more into a process of saying yes when you're being guided to take action from within. I could have said no to myself on Sunday. I could have said, it's already 3:00 PM, I'm supposed to be meeting my friend at 5:00. There's a fucking sunset that we're supposed to watch so you don't want to get there too long after 5:00, right. I was conscious of the time and I was grumpy and a bit tired. I could have said to myself, no look it's not a big deal, I'll journal in the morning, but something within me was like, sit your ass down and deal with what you're feeling shitty about inside of yourself right now and so I went and did it.

Blog came out, fucking programme download came out. My entire energy state just shifted and changed in that moment. I'd been writing on a super flow wave, you know, like nothing else ever since and everybody's seen and felt it and jumped on board as well and that is what happens when you say yes to you.

When you think about it, when I look back, all of these moments, so many moments in my business story, so many programmes, so many things that have made a serious fuck load of money, if I look back to where that came from, the things that have made the most money with the greatest ease and had the greatest impact into other people's lives, they 100% came from me saying yes to flow into my soul.

In fact, I've never had an insanely successful programme that made me a lot of money, that came from a place of me sitting down and asking myself, what should I come up with to sell and make money? All right, so stop doing that shit. It's a waste of fucking time and it's draining.

It all came from me responding to something inside of me, so you can see that in a very real sense, I wouldn't have this business and you wouldn't even be here, none of us would be here on this live stream or maybe in this world at all, right, because I created the world after all. The world I live in, I don't mean I'm God.

This business wouldn't be here though if I hadn't of built a habit of saying yes to my soul.

I thought that I was going to get on here and talk about doing the damn work of being all of you, relevant to, I guess, being more charged or fired up or magnetic or whatever online. I guess that is kind of what I've talked about, but it's come out in a different way, because here's the deal right, when you're saying yes to you, when you're doing what you need to do for you, the outcome will automatically be that the right soul mate people are magnetically attracted to that.

If this is something that's speaking with you ... I'm going to read you my sales copy now because I like to read.

It's time to get angry with yourself for being so restrained, so held back, so shockingly and appallingly and awfully careful. Don't you remember who you are?

I should have scripted this so I remembered it.

Didn't you come here to break the God damn internet and not with your ass, although if you aren't sure, why not. Don't you want to let what's inside of you out and aren't you sick of it eating you alive?

That's how I feel when I'm not letting it out. I feel disgusted at myself.

I think I'm going to re watch my own live stream from Sunday in order to just kick my own ass again, because I was just like, this is vile. It's a disgusting feeling when we are not being all of who we are. Okay, I'm just ad lipping on the sales ... Ad libbing, not ad lipping, on the sales copy.

It's disgusting, it's nauseating and it's killing you, not so damn softly either.

Well guess what? I see you. Yes I do. I've done the exact same thing. I already told that story. What you think I'm just being an asshole on the internet and yelling at everybody?

Well, somebody did because then she re posted a bit of blog the next day and said I was a violent leader. All right, anyway, not one of our people.

You know that my message is always first and foremost for me and today I came here to call to arms, all of us, to call to war, to call to fucking soul aligned bad assery, the women, the men, the you who was born for it and ready to fucking bring it. No, there's no URL, I just like how it sounds. A 10 day smack down experience, you and me all the way in.

Okay, all week long I've been saying that it's a 10 day intensive experience and I just read in my own copy that it's a smack down, so that sounds more aggressive than in intensive, so it's going to be even more brought than what we thought we were going to bring.

Strictly limited to certified crazy critters who refuse to conform and know that they just can't refuse.

I feel like something is missing. All right, no need to edit.

For you if you strongly suspect that there is a way to do business and life which does not fucking involve doing what they tell you and that not so deep down you are quite certain that the way you're pussy footing around the internet, be honest biatch, and your life right now is never going to get you to the place you dream of. Not to mention it might kill you or somebody else with how freaking boring it is and then what sort of sabotage are you going to get into because you're so bored with your life.

I haven't done anything this intensive and did, this is true, at this sort of price point for literally years. I'm ready to tear shit up and I've already started in the group.

How bad ass is the Facebook group already for this programme? It's out of control with madness.

I want the exact actual bad asses that are born of it here with me. All the ...

Oh. Do you like how I just broke the fucking internet reading about Break the Internet. I think Mark Zuckerberg is messing with me.

What was I up to? All right, I want the exact actual bad asses born for it here with me. Can't freaking pre prepare that shit. That was crazy.

You'll be receiving daily deep dive content from me, in fact you're receiving it before you even start.

You could wait like a crazy person til tomorrow to join up at the last minute and then you're going to be hustling your ass off to do the pre-work at the last minute when we're already starting the actual 10 day work. I mean, you're going to get it all to keep for life anyhow, but why would you do that? Why?

Be a person who says yes to their soul fast. It's not just about saying yes to your soul, it's about learning to say yes to your soul fast. The faster you get used to saying yes to your soul fast ... Say fast more often. The more you do it without hesitation, the higher the results. That's a real thing, right.

It's actually the same as what my mom used to teach me and what church used to teach me about getting into heaven, right. If you live in faith and commit your life, this is what I learned growing up, then you get in with pearls and gold and shit, but if you wait til the last minute before you accidentally die to ask for forgiveness, then you get in, as they call it, by the skin of their teeth.

Well, however you might feel about that, that's the same thing with saying yes to your soul, for sure. If you drag it the fuck out and then say yes to your soul eventually ... Look at that bloody nail ... Then you're going to get some results but you missed out on a lot of the gold and glory and the flow zone things. That's true and if you get used to saying yes to your soul right away, that's where true abundance and receiving with ease ...

Just broke again. What a MOFO. Okay, so anyway, don't wait to sign up, particularly because I might not be able to finish reading all of this and then you'll know nothing about anything except it is in the comments, so the link is in there to buy, to join me. Join me, join me, join me.

Daily deep dive content, that's what I was up to. Insane shit going down. Daily ass kicking and alignment smack downs, of course. Precise instructions on how to reach into your soul and show us what is actually there. It could be scary.

Okay, there's a lot I'm going to read here.

As the result of this you will break the fucking internet with your true soul content.

I'm going to read it fast. Are you ready for this? I could read it in an accent or I could read fast, you choose.

Call in your soul tribe by demonstrating with fire and passion what you actually stand for and against. Polarise like a mother fucker and no doubt lose some people.

Number four, probably lose weight and have insane sleep and sex because you'll be so in alignment and fired up. Warn the appropriate people for the latter, I'm not kidding. That's for the sex bit.

Number five make new friends and met killer clients in this intensive and for collusion's of no doubt questionably epic levels.

Number six, create and launch minimum one new offering, the kind that leaves people on the edges of their seat saying, "Fuck me please.'

I don't think I thought about that when I wrote it. I've never re read this copy until right now. I didn't mean ... I didn't mean that they're going to be saying, "Fuck me please.' I meant that they're going to say, "Fuck me, please." Like, fuck me, that's amazing. Please give it to me, but when I read my own copy now it looks like I'm promoting that they're going to be saying to you, "Fuck me please." Like I said, I never re read the copy until now.

It is what it is and that's all it is.

Tear down a tonne of limiting beliefs, not to mention bullshit in your bis that you thought fucking mattered.

I wonder why none of my team told me about that? They're just like whatever, that's probably something she should say.

Learn how to leverage social media like a mother fucker. Where to post your shit and what to do with it. How to leverage, repurpose, get insane engagement and more. How I copyright with ease and flow.

I'm still like, my mind is a little bit blown that nobody's commented on that to me all week.

How I copyright with ease and flow, without re editing anything. It obviously still works. Oh my God, I'm cracking up at myself because now it says that I'm going to teach you how to do it with almost zero mistakes or edits required. Well almost is almost, okay.

To make millions of dollars per year. Well that's a given. Including a paint by numbers formula which any monkey can follow and then promptly discard, of course. Why would you want to follow a paint by numbers monkey formula, but you can have it if you like and then you can toss it out the window like a cake.

Promptly discard when your soul delivers the goods. I don't know if you noticed, but I just did an automatic bicep flex there. It's a little embarrassing so I'm going to draw attention to it in case you noticed and thought that I'm ... I don't know, whatever you thought, but now I've pointed it out so you can think whatever else you want to think.

Okay, there's three more points. How to access your highest soul guidance on any situation and always know what to do. Of course.

Exactly how I do my instant manifestation and mindset work each day. That might be my favourite bit, one of them. Every bit is my favourite, they're all my favourite bits.

A fuck load more, which will no doubt come through me as we go.

Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. Pre-work starts Tuesday. That already happened. Where are you? That's on. Pre-work's already on and the programme, starts Friday, May 25.

Enough is enough. It's time to do what you God damn here to do. All the way in or all the way out and then there's an infusion self link. There's no sales page. I know you're going to need to write a letter. You're going to need to have a cup of tea. Maybe have some licorice bullets to soothe you. Have some wine.

There's no sales page. You're going to deal with or not deal with it, whatever it is. Then get added to the closed Facebook group right away before we even start.

If you sign up now I will add you. I will be online for many hours still. Linda Doktar is somewhere in my home. She may or may not be home right now, I don't know, but she's appearing and we will be up late.

#Shenanigans. That to do with Linda but it's also right here in the sales copy.

Normally there'd be a proper sales page and shit, but normally I don't go behind my team's back on a Sunday afternoon to randomly launch something. Normally, wait, we don't fucking do normal.

I'll see you inside. Booyah.

That the whole sales copy. Now I read it aloud for you and also found a few minor, could be errors, but clearly it's worked for me all week long, so I'll just leave it as it is.

That might be all that I have to say about that. Thank you for coming and playing with me. Is there anything else that I want to tell you? Let me tune in. Let me consider. No. Nothing else is coming through me.

I'm very excited to share the new pre-work into the group. I'm extra, extra, next level as fuck excited, level as fuck excited for what's coming over the next 10 days.

This is a soul download. It's not a light, airy, breezy, beautiful, floaty, cover girl type energy. I don't know what that means, words Just come out of my mouth, and it's not that though. It's an intense energy, the work that we're doing here, as you can feel. It's an aggressive energy, it's a soul unleashing ...

All right, I think obviously Facebook ended the live stream for me. That was all I had to say, except for, life is now, press fucking play. Read the pinned comment, get your ass in there. I'll see you there on the other side.

Chris: Yeah, yeah we're rolling. Yeah?

Kat: Is there enough light? Okay, no that was already on. I think I'm becoming addicted to light.

Chris: You've got it down. All right.

Kat: Okay, we're live already.

Chris: Yeah ... what?

Kat: What, mother fucker- I get ...

Chris: You're gonna have to redo it.

Kat: I can't redo it. I'd have to-

Chris: [crosstalk 00:00:30] Oh, no. No, that one's done. Yeah that's-

Kat: This is live. We're already live. What you're saying is being heard. What I'm saying is being heard.

Chris: That is so funny.

Kat: I think people have heard it before. What's up?

Chris: Yes, it's working.

Kat: We are technological geniuses.

Chris: We just did have it take off a certain [crosstalk 00:00:50].

Kat: We've made ... They didn't do much. Hey, I managed to get the internet working for a second and a half.

Chris: Oh my God.

Kat: Can we kick this off by telling people the quotes of the day, Chris?

Chris: All right we can share this. Yeah, all right.

Kat: So should I tell them one from the other day or is it gonna off our buyers?

Chris: No, no, no, we share. We're truly authentic [crosstalk 00:01:08]

Kat: We're here for authenticity. We are literally about to fu- ... We are about to launch. Am I allowed to swear?

Chris: No.

Kat: No?

Chris: No swearing.

Kat: Okay, sorry. We are literally about to launch our supplement. We get to that in a moment but first I'd like to tell you three very informative and important quotes that I've been noting down. Chris just ... This is a man who, when you meet him or you see him, even online, you'll see that he is one of the most genuine good guys in the world.

Kat: He is the nicest man in the world. He's one of my closest friends. I love him to death, he is the nicest, sweetest, person. Would never hurt anything and yet he just comes out and then he seems very like ... Wow, that was quite rude.

Chris: Sorry, that is true.

Kat: So the other day we're like "What should we call our livestream for our prelaunch live stream which shoots on Friday?" And I'm like thinking of creative titles cause I'm awesome at that and he's like, "Can we just call it-"

Chris: Headlines are key.

Kat: "This is why you're fat and we're not." And I'm like, "Wow."

Chris: Because within context as well, we were talking about ...

Kat: Please explain. [crosstalk 00:02:12]

Chris: How we used to do diets before we used to be massive carbophobes and then over lunch we were talking about how we're just been loving eating carbs but doing it the right way. And how much better in shape we are now. And it's just-

Kat: Well this leads me into the next quote which i that well ...

Chris: Yeah, nicely done.

Kat: Which is that we set up the lighting, and I'm like "Damn, that lighting's good." And Chris goes "Damn, it's good." And he goes, "Or is it just cause we look so good?" I'm just like "Wow, just be matter-of-fact about it." Oh, do you need to share that to your page? Do you need to share that to your personal page?

Chris: Yeah. I can, with you.

Kat: Okay, so we are ... oh and what was the third quote?

Chris: What was the third one?

Kat: Damn it, there was another really good one from just a second ago. So there was the one about "This is why you're fat and we're not." There was "Is this lighting really good or it just cause we look really good?" And then there was another one that just happened just then and it was so funny. I nearly wrote it down and then I was like "No, there's no way I would forget that." It will come back to us divinely.

Chris: Not sure.

Kat: Welcome, welcome, welcome to the show.

Chris: We've got some big news.

Kat: We have huge news, I think we're not even allowing ourselves to be ...

Chris: So exciting.

Kat: As excited as we are. I know I think we're not letting ourselves be as excited as we really could or should be about this. I think we're excited and we're like this is a big deal, and I'm just like "No, but do you understand what a big deal it is?"

Chris: This is a big deal. This is a really big deal.

Kat: Two plus years in the making?

Chris: It's even longer.

Kat: I think it's three years [crosstalk 00:03:49] ...

Chris: We can put this dick ends downs.

Kat: I think it's like pre ... dick- really? We started to formulate this before time began in our souls.

Chris: Yeah, exactly.

Kat: That's how good we are. I got to the quote book, the intelligence was coming through divinely from generations before but in a physical human sense, maybe three years.

Chris: [00:04:07] Particularly there's star dust in there.

Kat: Well it's actually ... Yes. And gold dust. You get a little piece of my soul. That's some powerful stuff. Look what I've created.

Chris: That's really funny. Don't worry about the lighting. We're good.

Kat: Yeah, we're good. We're good with the lighting. So we might be a little bit excited. We might be coming across as a little bit extra hysterical than normal, but it is such a huge deal. And welcome, welcome, welcome to everybody. I'm so happy and grateful that you're here with us.

Kat: Hello over on our business page and hello on our personal page, and hello wherever else you are. I am either going to talk excitedly in a hilarious or just randomly crazy way for now, or I'm going to just stop and let Chris present with deep profound wisdom.

Chris: I'll chime in as well. Oh, always.

Kat: All the things. But let's just quickly say ... Okay, Lisa just summed up the whole entire situation.

Chris: Wee.

Kat: He says, "Wee." That's exactly right. We have an amazing founding deal.

Chris: Founding special.

Kat: But we're not going to tell you about that now, because we've got too many other exciting things to say.

Chris: Yeah, we've got some more important news.

Kat: Okay, I'm done.

Chris: Okay.

Kat: For now.

Chris: Well we haven't decided on everything at this moment. So we need to do this together. So this is actually like ...

Kat: Co-creation.

Chris: Exactly. We all need to come together right now and actually sort this out.

Kat: Yeah. So just stop what you're doing, put it down.

Chris: Because this is literally the only time you are ever going to get this special at this product, this price, ever.

Kat: Ever. Obviously if you've been following Kat for any time and even myself, you'll know that we want to celebrate. Actually, you know what's really interesting? This little bit random, I actually went through the ... See, Kat you're looking gorgeous.

Chris: Yeah, I'm all right as well.

Kat: No, I think that's definitely for you, sorry. Not me. Oh, thank you. I'm going to take that. I'm taking it from here. Thanks, Lonny.

Chris: Kat, how high can you go. Random segue, we actually just reviewed the ... With my other coaching business, reviewed what the key parts of what the most accessible coaches are doing right now. What was ... What have they done? There was two things that was actually really interesting.

Chris: One was how long they've been in the programme and why they're succeeding. So it's a common factor, and two, was they always jumped on the programme as fast as possible.

Kat: Of course. Fast action takers.

Chris: I know, but it was actually really interesting for me to actually see it.

Kat: Oh, it was actual research.

Chris: Yeah, we actually went through everything.

Kat: That's gold. I say that all the time.

Chris: The most successful people. No, it's legit.

Kat: Oh, hello. Yeah.

Chris: Yeah, well, exactly. Fair enough.

Kat: We literally became business partners over cauliflower.

Chris: Cauliflower and chicken?

Kat: I could have make that some more exciting. Well, there was one. But it was a two-second decision, wasn't it?

Chris: Yeah, it was.

Kat: It was. Oh, then you came around and we talked about it the next day again, but it had already obviously ... Really we're just joking around nothing. We did a hilarious life show together.

Chris: Yeah.

Kat: But that is so true, and I say that all the time when I'm working with high level badass entrepreneurs and creators. I always say, "I want to work with the people who say 'yes' straight away." Because that's like me, and those are the people who get awesome freaking results. So we're really here today not just to ... With such excitement and gratitude and passion launch our product, finally.

Kat: But we're also here ... There it is. We're also here to really honour those people who already know that they want one of our ... Oh, look at Ryan. You couldn't have product placed him any better than the hat. Ryan says, "Is this the one I tried last year at your place? It tasted amazing." I think my second one did have vodka in it. All right, just hold the final ... Let's save the shenanigans part of what you can do with this for later.

Kat: Let's just talk pure. In fact, it was very healthy in the process of my training. But yes. So we didn't even prepare that little bit of testimonial earlier at all from Ryan who says it tastes amazing. It tastes freaking amazing. Okay, I'm getting distracted again. Continue on.

Chris: Okay. There's a few things that we've all got to sort out right now. One, when you actually have to get onboard these founders special. Two, we're going to share with you actually how much of a discount that you're going to get and that's a lifetime discount as well. So we're going to make this as much of a no brainer as possible.

Kat: Oh, I just remembered the other quote.

Chris: Oh, what was the other quote?

Kat: It was I said to you, "Is that really sneaky?" And you said, "Yeah." I really like it.

Chris: Okay, just kind of side note, that was ingenious business strategy that we actually did when you just said we ...

Kat: Because I'm a ninja. As I proved to you earlier.

Chris: We share that later. We share that later. Keep business strategies coming down on this as well. It's all working. So two things we're going to work out. One, when you actually have to get on board by, because this can only last so long and we're going to have to cut it right now. So this, it's actually going to be pretty limited. Because we can only take so many people on board.

Kat: Yeah.

Chris: Two, the discount you get, which is a lifetime discount. And you know what? Three, we actually just added in. Sorry, for the first 100. First 100?

Kat: Oh, I thought it was going to be 50. You're seriously pulling this up for 100 people?

Chris: I want to be really nice, because I wore my give shirt today. Because I want to give.

Kat: Oh, I want to cut it off really. I like to make people jump on board or work for it.

Chris: No, we'll do 100, because there's a lot of ... Yeah, okay. No.

Kat: All right, that means I have a point saved for later to make a decision about something.

Chris: All right. You got one brownie for later. One video for later.

Kat: I'll get to be in charge of something later.

Chris: First hundred people that are going to be coming on board, you're going to get a copy of my book, "Craving the Truth", which is actually the book where I show you how to be able to get into the best shape of your life, and how to not do it by doing depriving diets, which we have right here. Tada.

Kat: There it is. Fabulous book.

Chris: So you'll get a copy of "Craving the Truth" as well coming on board in this, but we can only do that for the first hundred.

Kat: For free. Extra fast action, take a bonus. On top of the crazy discount. Oh, wait. Do we make them pay full price if they're getting a book?

Chris: I don't want to have to make them pay full price.

Kat: All right. Why not? I was just trying to be funny. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. It's fine, because my lighting's fabulous.

Chris: Yeah. You look good, life is good. So if you want a copy of the book for free, where I give you the diets. We talk work outs. We talk actually what Kat and I are doing. You're going to have to get on board really quick as well, but also, lifetime discount. Can we tell them how much the discount is?

Kat: No, make them work for it. Send a love heart shower.

Chris: Oh, yeah, I love how you do this.

Kat: A load of love hearts, and we're just going to tell them the office straight away. Just like that?

Chris: Melissa.

Kat: Hi.

Chris: Thanks, Mel, appreciate that.

Kat: Yeah, there you go.

Chris: It's a great pull.

Kat: Let's. So we just give ... Whoa, you guys loving the love heart shower. Thank you.

Chris: Whoa.

Kat: Do you want a comment something hilarious or just comment get on with it already?

Chris: Let's have best comment. I will just give you a copy of the book straight away.

Kat: I can't talk through this offer, because I'm going to get too giggly and excited like a little kid at Christmas, and I'm not going to get the details right. I'm trying very hard to restrain myself here, but I'm so excited. So Chris is going to tell you the deal with it. It's literally more crazy than what we thought we were going to do. We dropped down an extra ... We actually dropped down an additional ...

Chris: No, let's prepare for lunch.

Kat: Over an additional 20 percent on what was already the reduced founding members price.

Chris: Yeah, it was.

Kat: Wait, did you just say they get to lock it in for life?

Chris: Yeah, it's lifetime.

Kat: I thought we were just giving that for the first month.

Chris: Lifetime. This is exactly.

Kat: What?

Chris: When you get on board, but here's the thing. When you get on board, you get it for life. If you ever leave.

Kat: You're out.

Chris: Never get it again.

Kat: We're never talking to you again.

Chris: No. We'll talk to you, but you just want to get the discount again as well.

Kat: If you buy us a drink.

Chris: You've got to ... You actually get the discount for life.

Kat: Yeah, that makes sense.

Chris: That's a bit of a no brainer.

Kat: That is a no brainer. Couple of no brainers. I'll eat anything that tastes delicious, especially if it helps me look that pretty. Thank you.

Chris: Oh, that's really sweet.

Kat: That's all the alignment. I'm reverse ageing. When you ordered this product, you will reverse age from between two and five years in the first 10 days.

Chris: We can't say that.

Kat: Hashtag disclaimer. I just it.

Chris: The FDA does not agree with that at all.

Kat: Shut up.

Chris: I have to be legitimate with this stuff.

Kat: I mean it. I mean it, because I decided, and I get what I decide. Can we just bring the mindset side into it? It's fine. When you sign up I'll get you a special training for free on the reverse ageing. How's that for a bonus?

Chris: All right.

Kat: Oh, let's have that in as a top 100 bonus. I will do a training on how I reverse age for free for the first 100 people, and I'm not kidding.

Chris: I'll buy that.

Kat: Look at this skin. I'm nearly 50.

Chris: That's very funny.

Kat: Well I'm 38. I'm nearly 39. But I'm reverse ageing at the speed of light. Everybody knows that.

Chris: No, actually ... This gets really good. What we haven't actually said as well is if you get on board this offer today, you will be able to join the tribe. So what we're starting in part is our private tribe, yeah.

Kat: Oh, yeah. We're getting to our programme.

Chris: It's going to be a little bit ... It's probably something we should talk about right now as well.

Kat: Wait, do we actually? No, this is for real now. I'm not pretending. Are we actually giving them that?

Chris: Yeah, they get a private group. It's already set up.

Kat: Oh, of course. Yes, all right, fine. Onward then.

Chris: This is stupid.

Kat: Okay, I'm done. I'm done with my talking. I've got the entertainment, and now Chris is going to tell you the deal. The deal is about to drop. We are going to give you a link. You're going to click it, you're going to buy, and you're going to have a glass of water to celebrate, since you don't have the product yet. I'm waiting.

Chris: Well you do have to wait.

Kat: But we'll drink something in your honour.

Chris: You do have to wait. So let's break this on down. Number one, first 100 people, I'll give you a copy of the book and I'll send it straight to you. Number two, you get the discount for life, and it's over 40 percent the discount as well. So that's a bit of a no brainer as well.

Kat: We want to make it crazy no brainer for sure, legitimately of course.

Chris: Yeah, I know. Three, you get access into ... whilst you have your membership, whilst you're getting this each month sent to you, you have access into the tribe, which is where Kat and I are going to be sharing with you what we do with our food, with our diets, with our training. I'm going to be in there giving you as well, because I've got literally 12 months worth of training, nutrition and lifestyle coaching ready to rock 'n' roll for you.

Chris: So you'll get access into that private community where it's members only in there, and then ...

Kat: That's got content from both of us, which is combining over 30 years of experience and knowledge and application and results. If you can, have some brain power.

Chris: We literally needed a team member to go through how much content we had.

Kat: It was several staff members who had to go through that and have been doing it for nine months.

Chris: I feel so sorry for Jess actually.

Kat: And Mim, shout out to Mim. And Jess too.

Chris: And Mim. Yeah, sorry, too. Bingo.

Kat: And shout out to Ash and Bron as well who've had so much to do with this launch and does so much work on that.

Chris: I wish they were here. I got a notification on my page.

Kat: I just was reading it over actually. Really.

Chris: Okay, awesome. So you get the book. You get 40 percent discount and that's for life. You get access into the tribe as well. Now what we're going to do ...

Kat: We were going to ... Sorry. I know I'm just terrible at cutting you off. I'm the worst at that. But we were going to charge for the tribe. We were going to do it as a separate.

Chris: No, we are going to charge for the tribe.

Kat: Yeah, but we were going to make it like you would pay a bit extra to get the coaching platform, as well as the product, and then it would be extra, extra for people who just wanted the coaching, which is basically means stupid people, because why would you not buy this? Then we decide to give it for free.

Chris: So if we actually boil this down right now.

Kat: Yeah.

Chris: What the offer is is the super food blend will actually be recommended retail for $97. The tribe, our coaching community that's private for members only, that's actually priced at $50 a month for that. So obviously that's $150 a month, but if you get on board now, can we say it?

Kat: Let's just do it. We've dragged it out long enough. They've been waiting and wanting.

Chris: If you get on board now, you will get everything, which is sent to you each and every month, and your monthly membership into the tribe, and it's only going to be for $59. So we're cutting off $90 every month, and that's a life time discount going into it. So literally, there's a massive discount. So that's something like ... It's a gigantic discount.

Kat: Whatever it is.

Chris: First 100 people, I'll send you a copy of the book for free.

Kat: And you'll get my reverse ... And you'll get my training on reverse ageing if you're in the first 100 people as well, which is completely serious.

Chris: All right, Ricky. So Ricky asked a really good question. Can you consume it if pregnant? Now with supplements, you do technically have to say and you'll see on the back here, "Caution, if pregnant or nursing or taking medication, consult your health care practitioner before use."

Kat: It's required to say that.

Chris: My Lauren, wife, she has been pregnant with two children whilst taking this and my daughters have this as well. So when they ask for chocolate, they're actually asking for this bad boy.

Kat: Yeah, I give this to my kids as well. Who are young as you know. It's required to say that. It's required to obviously that you've got to consult with your medical adviser that.

Chris: Yeah, good question.

Kat: I would take it. Lauren took it, etc. I just want to also clarify, really we had it locked in that launch offer ... That the retail price, the price that we will be selling it at. It's not just like what we're saying is retail. We will be selling it at $97. We were going to do the founding members offered at I think $79. That was locked in, and that was decided. Even up until last Friday.

Kat: We did the pre-launch video and had some fun with that on Friday. You might have jumped on on that. Oh, we were supposed to notify people. I will send them a link after this, yeah.

Chris: Yeah, we'll send them.

Kat: I can't even remember why we decided to drop it down so much more. I think we just ... We get so excited. We are so proud of this and so excited and it's been so much work and blood and sweat and tears that's gone into this on Chris' behalf. I really just want to honour him. He's an amazing business partner and friend, and the work that he's put in. Literally travelling the Earth to create pharmaceutical great product in the world.

Kat: It is literally the most exceptional formulation that you could come up with. Digestive health, probiotics, all this good stuff, but then also, working together with somebody that you're obviously good friends with, that's not automatically enough to make a great business partnership as I know a lot of people know.

Chris: Mm-hmm (affirmative).

Kat: So it's just been amazing to have a shared vision for something that we're both so excited to bring to life. It's been a little painstaking at times to get to where we're already, but like any amazing vision brought to life, you've got to be willing to go through those periods where it's things are going slow than you want or you thought something was just going to work, and then it didn't.

Kat: So it's been quite the journey, and it's been one that's been heavily supported by the people we just mentioned and shouted out earlier as well. So there's a lot that's going into this and it really is. It's such a big deal. It's something that we know that we're going to take for life, be proud of for life. We really trust and belief that when you start to take this, firstly, the taste of it is incredible. It just tastes amazing. It's chocolate flavoured greens powder. It's flavoured naturally with cacao.

Kat: It tastes incredible. Every single person who tried it is like, "Holy crap, where can I get this? I want to take this forever." So we know you're going to love the taste, but the benefits and the health side of it, the brain power side of it. The mineral focus side of it. The fact that you're just getting all these good things covered for yourself and your family in one hit. We know that you're going to be part of this for life as well.

Kat: So this is something that for long haul it's not just business on the side of our respective empires that we already have. We really see it as a vision for the community that we want to build of like-minded individuals, like us, like you who are committed to being about us in every aspect of life. In business we brain function, and looking and feeling hot AF as well of course. Kelly says can you use it if diabetic.

Chris: Yeah, you can. It actually says on here "diabetic safe". Where did I actually have to say that? Here. Last bullet point. No, extras. No extra added sugar. It is diabetic safe. It is only flavoured with stevia. So you only use the really good stuff. Please post the ingredients out. Yeah, Angela if you click the link that you'll get access to ...

Kat: We could give the link.

Chris: I will give you the link. If you click the link, you'll get access to the page which has the full ingredients on there for you. So you can actually read this rather than me sticking this up to the camera. It's still not being readable as well. Now, what we also have done is we put a 60-day guarantee on this. So we want you to taste it.

Kat: That's how confident we are.

Chris: We want you to use it. Exactly. That's how much we ... We're a little bit cocky when it comes to this. Because we know it's that good. We've been using it for that. Angela, you're absolutely welcome. So we want you to get your hands off it ... On it. When you get your hands on it, and you start using it, you'll see. You'll actually notice the difference as well. So what you want to be able to do is number one, it's not about supplements.

Chris: Now let's just talk right now. I want to jump in and talk about ... Yeah, sorry, go.

Kat: Should I give the link or should we give them preparation that I'm going to give you the link, because we are doing this first hundred thing.

Chris: Oh.

Kat: Let's tell you what we want to tell you, so that you're paying attention, and then we're going to drop the link.

Chris: Okay, let's do that.

Kat: Yeah.

Chris: We'll jam real quick, and then we'll give you the link so that you can get access to all this stuff right now. So I want it in my mouth right now.

Kat: All right. Well, it's a sensory experience, and you can tap into the collective energy. That's right here in this space and place. Here is some we prepared earlier.

Chris: Jaya, can you put your email below and I will literally send you a copy of my book, because that was the best comment so far.

Kat: Comment of 2018 award. We're adding that to our book of hilarious quote. But we will drink some in honour of everybody. You can tap into our collective energy.

Chris: Right, cheers. So I'll answer Theo's question. So this is what we're doing. Because we're doing the very first batch, for all of our members with this super food blend, it's going to take between three to four weeks for everyone to get there. So that's why we're doing this founders special. So we want everybody to come on board. Now, and this is what I want to say and this is why it's so important.

Kat: Yeah.

Chris: It's not about supplement.

Kat: That's why we're doing a huge discount.

Chris: It's not about the supplements. Jaya, thank you so much. Can someone remind me to send Jaya a copy of that?

Kat: Yes, I'll email you right now.

Chris: Or just ... perfect. It's not about supplements, okay? So why are we actually talking right now? Why are we starting a health and fitness company? Why are we wanting to help you with this stuff? It's because you want to be able to look, feel, and function great. You want to be a part of the one percent of the one percent. You want to look great. You want to feel great. You actually want to perform really well, and that's not just the body performing on a biochemical level. It's how your brain performing as well, and you're actually enjoying it.

Chris: How do we actually do this? It's not just by taking a supplement. Supplement's the cherry on the top, and we're going to be the first people that now run a supplement company to tell you it's not abut the supplements. This is why we're doing the tribe. So we help you, we show you, we teach you. We're giving you actually what's needed when it comes to, what to eat, how to eat, how to set up your lifestyle. What about when it comes to your work outs? When it comes to your movement as well.

Chris: So especially when I break it down in the book, I show you the actual workouts and there's a yang and a yin philosophy. So like a yang, this is going to be a white training. A yin, it's going to be a walking. It's going to be your saunas, your ice punch pools, your meditations, all these kind of things.

Kat: Yoga.

Chris: Yoga. All these things we need to be able to put together. So it's a holistic approach to giving you exactly what you need. That's why when I first ... One of the reasons, our first conversation, we're like, "Hang on, there's a lot of 'supplement companies' out there and they're doing sometimes great products, sometimes crappy products. Let's not even go down that path." What's missing right now? No one's giving you both. No one's giving you here's the great ... Literally world best formulations, raw products, and manufacturing process.

Kat: And taste.

Chris: And taste. Which is kind of the most ... It's not technically the most important thing. But it's the most important in the sense that you're not going to take it if it doesn't taste amazing. It tastes so good that you just ... You want to have more. You just want more. I was crying when mine ran out. My samples that I had at home.

Kat: Yeah, I had to get more for Kat.

Chris: I had to have a massage to get over it.

Kat: And a meditation, and some prayer. Some prayer. Then I may have harassed him over what's happened. I literally once was tapping in from every city around the world going, "So can you send some to New York? How about Florida? How about Texas? How about LA?"

Chris: I tried to send it to her in two different cities.

Kat: But I kept moving too quickly.

Chris: And it kept missing.

Kat: Come in San Diego, take me around.

Chris: Obviously what I want to get across to make sure that we do this right is while we're doing the tribe is so literally Kat and I can give you what's needed to be able to make sure that you look, feel and function the way that you want. It is literally like that. Then when you want to put the cherry on top, when you want to perform. Because this is the thing and I talk about this.

Chris: Number one, that our food quality that get isn't as good as it should be. You're not getting all the nutrients. You're not getting everything that you really need at the end of the day to be performing your best. We have high stress levels in our modern lifestyle. We have a lot of chemicals in our environment that help us become toxic. So we want to be able to become un-toxic. We want to be able to get rid of that stuff.

Chris: So this is why we started with literally a greens formulation. But it's not a greens formulation. This is ...

Kat: So much more.

Chris: A super veggie type antioxidant blend. It's got a fruit antioxidant blend. It's got digestion support, and it's got a probiotic blend in here as well. So this is why we want to try and you come at this, because the thing at the end of the day is I don't want you to have a covered or room full of supplements. You want a handful of things, and that's what we're going to be doing, Kat and I together. We're going to be coming together.

Kat: There would be new products.

Chris: And are really doing a few products that give you the biggest bang for your bucks. So you can actually get on with your life. Because what I don't like is trying to do so many different things, that when we have more important things to do, I don't want to be worrying about my diet, or my work outs, or I'm not looking as I good as I feel like I should be. Or all that kind of shit.

Chris: I'm a dad. I am running businesses. I want to be able to enjoy life. I want to be able to have us come together and just have fun. I don't want to be absolutely hating life because I'm doing a dive.

Kat: You want to look and feel your best and be your best, and be fitting everything in but doing it just with ease and flow as well. We both, this is another thing. We've both done the hustle life before. I love the word hustle by the way. For me that means something powerful and flow based, but what I mean is we've both done business and life and fitness in way where it was kind of burning yourself out or pushing beyond a healthy limit and that's nothing I look back on and regret, because it made me into who I am now.

Kat: But at this point in my life, and for both of us as well, it gets to be about having it all whilst operating at a level of excellence. Feeling your best, looking your best, being at your best, and having it jus be flow and ease. So there's already so many things that each of us do and support our communities to do that create that just through lifestyle and the way we choose to live our lives and live according to our values and so on.

Kat: This just takes it to that next level. It's about enhancing a way of life. So that's again another reason why we've created the tribe to go with this to support you with the education, the information, and the empowerment, to get the results that you need. So we will be giving you the nutritional information literally over 30 years or at least over 25 years of combined experience between us.

Chris: Over 24 years.

Kat: At a really high level as well, where both of us really dedicated our money and our time to learning and studying with the best people in the world, and that's how we met. Through classes around the world. We're bringing you the most cutting edge, real nutrition information, hormone information, fat loss information, digestions, stress management, sexual energy and libido as well. All ties in together. Sleep quality.

Kat: Mindset, of course, right? The ins and outs of the trainings side of it as well as the nutrition side of it, and we're teaching from a standpoint of full life in a way that feels amazing. It's not a freaking diet. It's not a quick fix. It's not do this for six weeks or 12 weeks. We're bringing to you our combined experience of well over two decades, and where we can look back and go, "We did all that crazy stuff and maybe you did as well."

Kat: It is what it is. Now we actually have a way of living where we get to look and feel and function at a standard of excellence 24/7 always. It's just how it is. We don't sacrifice anything in order to look our best and feel our best. We know that you don't have to as well. So this is not come on board, our magical diet that's going to fix you, and then you're left floundering afterwards, rebounding back.

Kat: This is make some small simple adjustments that are going to immediately feel amazing for you. You're going to be immediately be elevated internally and in your energy and your emotions, and even dare I say spiritually, because of course it heightens everything. You're going to see those physical shifts and changes as well. I get asked all the time. I know Chris gets asked all the time, "How we can be such busy, successful entrepreneurs both with our own families and small children, and still get to have ... be in great shape and be legitimately healthy and brimming with energy, and have the energy to do all those things?"

Kat: That's so easy. We let it be so easy. It's such a small amount of time or energy that creates such a massive return on that. So everything that this is about. Like Chris said, it's not just a supplement. It's you get this amazing supplement and you get everything that since ... Yes, hold it up. Everything that's inside of us that we've taken all this time and effort and working with literally tens of thousands of clients between us over the past, decade plus, in order to just know what works for life.

Kat: So I said at the start of this that I feel like I can't fully express what a big deal it is, and I feel like maybe I'm now starting to express what a big deal it is. But should we? Do you want to add something there or should we give them this link?

Chris: I think we should give them the link.

Kat: I don't know why I feel nervous. So hang on.

Chris: It's good.

Kat: Should we give them the link to the Facebook group as well or we just give them this link?

Chris: No.

Kat: No.

Chris: The what?

Kat: No, the one from the other day I meant. All right. We'll figure that out later.

Chris: Oh, no, give them that link.

Kat: Okay, so now, are you ready? Are you excited? Are you eager? Are you going to send me another love heart shower? Are you ready to click by pull out your credit card, get it at the ready, and here's what you're going to do. In about 19.5 seconds or however long it takes me to stop talking, I'm going to ... Which could be 19.5 years. I'm going to put this thing into the comments here.

Kat: You are going to click the link. You are going to grab your credit card. You're going to run to the back of the room, and you're going to purchase this product.

Chris: All right, hang on.

Kat: Hang on. You're only supposed to say three things. That's what I'm telling from this stage, wait. Get your credit card, click the link, buy the product, be in our top 100, get Chris' book for free. For being a fast action taker badass, just like we are, you know your life is going to change for life, and you get a free book as well. It is amazing. And you get my free training on reverse ageing.

Chris: I'm really excited for that.

Kat: Me too. Yeah. I'll give you the link. I'm ready. This is it. This is it. This is the moment of truth.

Chris: They just want us to getting it taken out really quick. I would literally be ...

Kat: Yeah, I'd be running to the back of the room or to wherever your credit card is.

Chris: Oh, God. Oh, shit. Just happened.

Kat: We just? Did we just break the internet. Boom, boom, boom. Okay, I feel like we needed to prepare the drummer as a roll sound. I could have played when I did that. I actually feel like I need to take a breath.

Chris: Oh, that's good. Oxygen's really good as well. To set fire.

Kat: Can I just add that to quotes? Quotes from Chris. Oxygen is really good for you. Okay, what else are we going to say?

Chris: Oh.

Kat: Oh, did you tell them to comment there? Or are they just saying how it is over there for the fun of it? How did that just start happening?

Chris: I don't know.

Kat: Is it because they clicked this?

Chris: I have no idea.

Kat: What happens?

Chris: Yes, it is.

Kat: Oh.

Chris: Oh, we can see everyone coming through on this one.

Kat: We can see who's signing up.

Chris: Going up.

Kat: Go, go, go, go, go. Oh, we can see all the notification.

Chris: I didn't ... This is ...

Kat: Tamara's in. Michelle clicked the link. Sarah clicked the link.

Chris: That's really funny.

Kat: Come on, keep going. All right, and oh, when is this? Ooh, Thalika. She's on it. Just on it.

Chris: Laura.

Kat: All right. This is so exciting.

Chris: This is so fun. Can I share? This is more exciting. I remember when I did my very first online fitness launch.

Kat: Laura can't click.

Chris: I had the PayPal app on my phone. And when I did the launch, it was like my PayPal app on my phone make a little ding noise. Or no, like a payment would have gone through. This is more exciting because it's a hell of a lot more people coming through.

Kat: Sage says, "I can't click." You might have to try different device, because people are definitely clicking. And it's working. So how's this, though? It is so exciting. Last night I was out with a friend, and she's like, "So, what are you doing tomorrow? I'm like, "Oh, yeah. I'm doing whatever and whatever." Then I'm like, "Oh, and I'm just launching a supplement company with my friend Chris till 11:45.

Kat: It's like, "Wow, this is huge." That would be huge. We're just quickly launching a supplement company that we're going to take. Angela says, "I can't click on iPad." What can we do about that if people can't click on some devices? Do you have it? Because this is the mo ... Do you have a different link? A longer one?

Chris: Can you comment back then or?

Kat: No.

Chris: PM them?

Kat: Do we have a different version of that link?

Chris: No.

Kat: No, I don't know what to do about that. Ash and Bronwyn, are you on?

Chris: What's your problem? The request to the group. Theo. Did you click the link Theo, that Kat has just given you?

Kat: Okay, one second. We tested this 1600 times. We will not be swayed. I'm clicking it now.

Chris: It's definitely working. We're seeing people still coming through.

Kat: Okay, so when I click that, it goes me to Facebook messenger.

Chris: Don't worry, Theo. We'll get your link. IPhone can, iPad can't.

Kat: It's taking me to Facebook messenger when I click it. Is that right?

Chris: Yeah.

Kat: Then where is the link that they're going to get that message to them?

Chris: The link to ... Yeah. So we'll send you to Facebook messenger, and then Bronwyn said type it in.

Kat: Then you've got to press get started.

Chris: Then I should maybe put zero admin. Yeah, see, there you go.

Kat: Okay. So when you ... We thought we tested it all, whatever. So when you click it, it's going to take you to Facebook messenger. It may not work on the iPad. Then it's going to ... Then you're going to click get started, and then it's going to start, "This is MBB Bot. The My Body Blend's Messenger System."

Chris: Oh, my God.

Kat: It will say it in that voice. Then it will say, "Do you really want access to a secret launch of Super Food Blend?" It will say it in that voice. Then you'll press "hell yes," which I'm doing now. Hell yes, I just did it. Now it says, "Awesome Katrina, click the prelaunch of verboten below to get our one-time only freelance offer for ..." Okay, I feel that we're being repetitive. For our brand new Super Food Blend.

Kat: Plus, if you think there's anyone else who might need to know. I mean why would you take him in unless you want them in the top 100? So now I'm clicking that link, wait for it. Shana says, "Get started." I see you guys on it, just on it.

Chris: It's really cool how I can see you from one and then comes through to the other one.

Kat: This is a genius.

Chris: Theo, you figured that out, great job.

Kat: This is a genius strategy. I just got through the sales page.

Chris: Can't believe this works.

Kat: Right here, live, on this live stream. There it is.

Chris: So this is only for the private launch. So obviously once this gets closed down, you're not going to get ...

Kat: Take it out. You can't get in on this deal again.

Chris: Yeah, you can't get access to this, because we can't keep this up forever.

Kat: So talk them through what are they going to receive once they then signup and purchase.

Chris: Cool.

Kat: Because just a reminder that the product is going to come. Explain all that.

Chris: Yeah. So obviously the founders special with what we're doing today is we're doing our very first batch, and you're going to be a part of this. So it's going to take three to four weeks for you to get your actual first Super Food Blend delivered. We're going to be sending it straight to you, but that's why we also have the MBB tribe. So the tribe is going to be where Kat and I are going to be in there making sure that you get access to what's going to be the right meal plan, the right workouts.

Chris: I'm going to be in there doing live streams, answering your questions. Kat's going to be talking about anti-aging. Plus, if you get in first 100, which honestly it might be taken up already. I don't know, you're going to have to just get on board.

Kat: Just go, go, go.

Chris: I'm going to give you a copy of "Craving the Truth". That's going to break down literally what you need to be doing with your meals, with your workouts and lifestyle, and what we're also going to be doing is this special that you get access to today is for life. If you stay on board with this, that means you get this lifetime discount.

Chris: So normally Super Food Blend. This has got the RLP of $97 just for one. The actual tribe, that sells for $50 a month. That's $150, but you get access to it today for only $59. So that's a massive discount. I don't know percentage was, what it is, because I'm horrible at math and that's okay. Melissa. Yay, got my confirmation email. So there we go.

Kat: Yay, celebrate.

Chris: It's coming through already. So that's fantastic. So we want to make sure that everybody come on board because we've got a couple wait up our sleeve. Like tomorrow I'm going to be jumping on board doing a live show, walking you through how we actually get the right meal plan, because what we start with, this is a little bit of secret sauces, how I kick start fat loss is what I do is we do a 14-day metabolic restart.

Chris: So what we do is actually in the first 14 days we actually get your body to learn to burn body fat. Now most people are trying to talk about how do I speed up my metabolism? That's actually the wrong question I believe, because let's think about the analogy of driving a car. People are saying, "How do I speed up my metabolism?" They're just thinking about, "How can I drive my car faster?" But what if your car is actually heading in the wrong direction?

Chris: So you just say, "Going in the wrong direction faster." So what we got to do first is make sure that you go in the right direction, which is how do you get your body to actually tap into body fat stores, how do you actually burn body fat for fuel. Then we talk about actually speeding our fat loss. But what we do is once we actually get your body tapping into body fat stores effectively, then we actually start talking about stress.

Chris: So what the biggest problem is to me people are stressed. They've got too high cortisol levels. They started throwing other things like testosterone, pregnenolone, all these ... Actually, let's not go down the whole monogram, because that's going to be too complicated right now. But what we're going to do is we turn your body into actually being able to burn body fat for fuel first, then we talk about actually being able to lower stress.

Chris: So what you'll find is most people when first getting the guides and plans I'm going to be sending through to you, think it's too easy and there's not enough. But you'll find that your body will actually be able to lose weight faster, because we're doing things easier. Because what's the biggest problem so many people fall into and I know we've done it before is you decide that you're going to lose weight. So what do you do?

Chris: You cut your foods down, you ramp up your workout.

Kat: Do some drastic random stuff.

Chris: You do more, more, more, more, more, and then what happens when you hit the plateau? Because you will hit hit the plateau.

Kat: What happens is you crack it and eat a freaking container of cookies.

Chris: Yeah, exactly.

Kat: If you're a woman.

Chris: If you're a man as well.

Kat: I never did this.

Chris: I did.

Kat: Okay.

Chris: That's the big problem. So you wind up crack it, and you start binge eating, and then you feel guilty, and that's bad. So mentally that's bad. Or you actually have to start eating less and less and less, because you're trying to get to that deficit. So what we do is we say, "Let's actually do a bottoms up approach." So let's start from the bottom and we actually build your food, so you'll see that we actually increase your food intake. So you're actually eating more and losing weight, because the whole just eat less move more scenario, it's a myth.

Kat: Boring.

Chris: I wrote a freaking book about the myth of it, and it's not fun at all.

Kat: Yeah. I just love everything you said. I love how you're just on a ... Did this stuff just comes out of you because you're so passionate about it and you know it so well?

Chris: I know I did it wrong for so long.

Kat: It is what we live and breathe. It is just ... I think you can see your passion coming through right, and you're just going to continue to get so much more of that and all of our knowledge and learning and support and accountability through being part of this tribe. So originally we will ... completely keep them two separate products. The coaching platform versus the product.

Kat: Then we're like, "No, of course we're going to honour the people who buy this amazing thing, and really are committed to change their lives, not just to taking a supplement." The thing is I don't know. There's so many more things that I probably could say. But I think we've kind of covered the best of it, and we're just so excited to welcome you. We can see people ... Thank you and it says thank you.

Kat: We can see people over on ... So we've got Chris. My friend here and Chris' friend here. Chris' friend is hooked up to the My Body Blend's page. So that's where you go when you click the link, you'll go to the Facebook messenger of the My Body Blend's page which is our joint business page. You'll then follow the prompts there, and you'll jump on to the sales page that way. So we can see people's responses that are coming up on his phone, which is super cool.

Kat: So this is ... It's just huge. It's the bringing to life of something that's been several years in the making in the physical sense. 10 plus years of friendship in the making, decades of learning and knowledge in the making, something I always wanted to do. Something I know Chris always wanted to do, and what an incredible thing to be able to do this with somebody who you have such a close friend in your life, but who you know is also going to deliver the level of support and empowerment for your tribe, that you would do yourself.

Kat: That's just such a huge big deal when being in business is somebody else to know that their work ethic and how they shop and their level of passion and commitment to change people's lives is the same. So this is the beginning of an amazing journey for you. If you are joining us, how long will we be keeping the founders special open for?

Chris: I only wanted to do ...

Kat: We had a little fight about it.

Chris: Yeah. That's all right. We're allowed. But what about if we do for just 24 hours?

Kat: What?

Chris: No, we don't do it in 24 hours. Come on, I'm not the queen of scarcity. I'm making people move fast, but I feel like we could give them. But it doesn't matter, because you would just click and buy it now anyway, otherwise you would have been in the top 100, and you'd be a crazy person.

Kat: Well how long do we let this video run for then? Because we have to take this video down.

Chris: I feel like I don't know what the answer is that I'm supposed to say now. I feel like we didn't rehearse this properly. That is because we didn't rehearse it.

Kat: We didn't.

Chris: Yeah. I didn't really walked in and be like, "Let's do it with the camera on."

Kat: Let's just turn the camera on and see what happens, apart from running down funny quotes.

Chris: What do you want to say to them?

Kat: Did you see that I've written down your quotes over here? I've saved it. I've written down the three quotes so far from Chris if you missed the quotes earlier. The quotes were this. He wanted to call our live show "this is why you're fat and we're not". That was one of my quotes of the year from Chris. Another one is that really sneaky? Me asking about a little Ninja trick. He's like, "Yeah."

Chris: We just don't cover a really good Facebook ad strategy.

Kat: That is good. Chris, that lighting is so good, Kat. Wait, no, it's just because we look so fabulous. That's my personal favourite.

Chris: I'm so happy with that.

Kat: Well, I think this is it.

Chris: All right. We're going to get busy.

Kat: Okay, is this? This is?

Chris: Yeah, I know. I just saw these already gotten on board.

Kat: I didn't ... See, that didn't happen for me. But if you have any issues or concerns at all, or anything doesn't work for you, maybe test it on a different device. Some people did say it doesn't. Didn't work on iPad. I'm not sure why that would be, but it's definitely working for me on my laptop. It's working on the phone. Of course you compare either of us. Or the My Body Blend's page as well, which is probably the best place to go, because then you'll get supported by our team as well and get answer as quickly as possible.

Kat: Seeing infomercial broker, I feel like we got so much gold content. You know what's going to happen now. My team will chop up this live stream, get some clips out of it, caption them up, and we'll just be promoting and having a hilarious time. Shouldn't business and life just get to be fun as well? So that's part of our philosophy and part of what we're here to show you.

Chris: You're not having fun, you don't enjoy the life.

Kat: You can bet your bottom dollar we're going to be having all sorts of shenanigans in that group once you're in there. Because it's how it should be. That's how it gets to be. All right.

Chris: Oh, good. Theo got ...

Kat: Oh, you're on. Perfect, Theo.

Chris: Confirmation done.

Kat: Yay, I'm so excited.

Chris: All right, awesome. So we've actually got to get to work, because we've got a lot of members.

Kat: Just casually launched a supplement company on a Monday morning in Bali. All right, we're going to go hangout with our members. We're going to see what's up. We're going to see you on the inside, click the link, do the thing, be in the thing. We'll see you in the thing. We love you.

Chris: Ciao.

Kat: Bye.

What's up, Facebook? Okay. I was just ... I think it's pretty obvious where I just was. Sweaty as a motherfucker. I was just ... Hello Susanne. I was just up on that roof there, you see up that roof there? See that? That's a pub. On the top of the pub is a gym, it is the best sweatbox gym in Bali. No air con, all open windows, top of a pub, sweating like a motherfucker, and I was just smashing a bunch of stuff around and I ripped my entire fucking nail off. I literally ripped the whole nail right off the top of the nail and it went flying across the room and landed at the feet of a pretty hot looking guy, actually, who looked a little taken aback at having a flying white nail, one of these ones from my other hand that's holding the phone.

Behind this phone is a fuck load of blood on top of my nail. Well, there's several band aids on it, plasters, whatever they're called, but they're not working, 'cause I'm sweating like a bitch. And right now I'm in super fucking adrenaline flow. Anyone on my team, I don't know if Mim saw my WhatsApp, somebody needs to drop the details in right away for I am okay, I'm always okay. I nearly said I'm not okay. Wait. Why would I not be okay? I'm gonna hold it with the other hand, though, this broken hand is not wanting to work as well. It fucking hurts. You ripped the whole nail off and I was like, "Motherfucker!" But I forgot I had my headphones on and I was listening to my tunes, I was listening to Metallica, Sandman, which by the way, is a song that was definitely written from super flow.

Am I freezing or am I working right now? Is this working? It says poor connection. I was listening to Sandman and if you listen to the lyrics, if you listen to the lyrics of any song, and then ... Okay, I feel like this is probably frozen, 'cause I don't see any comments coming up. If you listen to the lyrics of any song, and then you're feeling like, "Holy fuck, they're saying exactly what I'm thinking," then what it means is that the songs gone into ... The song's actually coming from your own reality. You're creating that song. Okay. Come on, bitches, let's get this connection back. Hey, [Ladrina 00:02:43]. Hey, Karen. Brooke has frozen, connection's back now. We're coming back. We're back, we're back. Manifest that shit back. [inaudible 00:02:52] like the ninjas they are. Hello. Hello, world, we're still working.

Okay, I'm not in my right mind, that's for sure. So I was in super flow anyway, I've been in the super flow, I'm going, "Holy shit, I did some crazy things in some other lands this morning." You'll see when I post my blog, which I've already written, I just haven't posted it yet. I'll do it after this. It came from another world, in another place. So then I went straight to the gym and I was so in fucking in super flow in the gym and I was listening to Metallica, I was listening to a tonne of stuff, but when I was listening to Sandman ... Hang on. I'm a change.

When I was listening to Sandman, I was like, what does it say? Something never, never land, whatever it says about never, never land, and I'm like, "Well, that's fucking exactly what's up." I was in never, never land all morning. And then I realised, of course, because I'm still in a never, never land and I created the fucking song. I made this song, I wrote this song, and that's why the lyrics are speaking to me, and by the way, for those people who are like, "She's gone next level batshit crazy," you should probably just leave now, 'cause you're never gonna come into this world and space with us, and for the ones who get it, the sweat dripping off my chin honours the sweat inside of your soul. I don't know what that means, it sounds good, though!

So, I was in the fucking super flow, I was creating entire other realms and universes. I was downloading from the deep, deep collective unconscious, 'cause it's a little what my blog's about, and then all of a sudden, some young German dude stole my dumbbell. Well, he didn't realise it was mine, so he was using it. So then he was done, so I went to get it back, in which tore the entire fucking nail off. It just flew off and it went flying across the room, landed at the feet of some young hottie who looked at me a little shocked and appalled, but concerned as well, which was nice.

So, I just calmly shouted, "Motherfucker!" Across the entire gym, forgetting how my headphones were on and that I was a lot louder than I thought I was. Everyone stopped and looked at me, and then I just, sashayed over, picked up my nail. I was like, "I'm fine, I'm good," 'cause I'm charged with adrenaline. So I felt fine, I didn't feel hurt, and then I went and picked up my dumbbells again and then I looked down at my hand and there was fucking blood everywhere. That's what happens when you rip an entire nail off, by the way.

So, I went and got some plasters from reception and then I continued my workout, but it hurts like a little bitch, but not really, 'cause I guess the best way to deal with that and to heal myself is just to go back to another world for the rest of the day and heal it inside of that world while I'm there, so then when I come back, it'll be fixed, which by the way, by the way, is the exact fucking way when I talk about ... Have you heard me talk about manifesting abs in 20 minutes? Like anytime I get a little puff puff going on down there ... It's pretty good right now, didn't have to do it today. If I, I don't know, whatever, I woke up a little less ripped than I want to be, then I just ... I use my 20, 30, 40 minutes, whatever it is in the gym, to just go into another realm, into another world ... I'm not kidding, obviously, why would I be kidding?

And then I just carve out the abs that I want when I'm in that other world, while I'm in super flow, while I'm in the gym, and then when I get back ... Come on connection, stay with us. Guys, can you just help me out with the manifestation? Can we do a team prayer? We pray to the internet gods of Seminyak that my internet works for the next three minutes until I get back to my villa. Check out this pretty-pretty. It's super pretty over there! So, I'll be back home in two minutes, anyway, three minutes.

And yes, okay, so that's what I do. I only fully realised how to explain this this morning, though. By the way, did you check out the comment? You gotta read that comment. It's time to get fucking angry. The first module of my new training is about getting angry. Getting angry with yourself for being such a boring little bitch. Go read that and make sure ... Internet gods, pray harder. They're just testing us. They're laughing at us, laughing hilariously. Come on let's go, let's go, let's go. Connection. I'm looking at you, connection. Figure your shit out. Turn yourself back on. Work, work, work. Come on, you can do it. You guys need to pray harder. All right, you're gonna watch this on the replay and you'll be like, "God damn it, now I have to listen to her saying work, work, work like Britney Spears in Work, Bitch, until the connection worked."

I'm gonna keep talking anyway, I'm gonna trust that it's just coming back to me at any moment in time. So, maybe I'll sing. (singing). Okay, I don't know if the singing's going to show up on the replay or not, 'cause I'm just kind of killing time while I wait for my connection. All right, we're nearly there. Okay, maybe I can go use the Sea Circus connection. Oh. It's gonna work any second. Man. All right. Okay, we got it back, we got it back, we got it back, we got it back. You missed me singing Wiz ... Is it even Wiz Khalifa who even sings this? I was singing Go Hard or Go Home while the connection was off. I don't know if you got to hear it.

I don't even know whose song it is. One second, I'm gonna go inside now. I'm home. So now it's all a little calmer and saner. I think I have five minutes. I gotta do a high vibe mastermind Q&A. All right. Here we are. Home sweet home. I'm so not sitting out there. It's sweaty as fuck. Okay, so I was singing Go Hard or Go Home while I waited for the connection to become good. Fuck, oh my god, there's so much blood on my hand right now. Okay, and then what else was I telling you? I don't even know why I got off this livestream, I was charged with super flow on the livestream off it, I was charged with fucking super flow, I was in the best place in space, ever, I was creating worlds and other realms, I was thinking about how I finally figured out how to explain to you the thing about where I manifest abs or hundreds of thousands of dollars or whatever it is you need or desire, in like 20 minutes, or a minute. Why do I even need 20? I really just use the 20 minutes to do a workout or meditation or something, or whatever it is that I desire.

I finally realised how I can explain why this works to my own self, nevermind to you. I now know how it works, and how it works is, you're literally leaving the Earth, you guys, you're literally leaving and going to another planet. Okay, who wants to post in the high vibe mastermind and share this livestream to high vibe and say, "Kat's gone to some other realm right now and she's vaguely aware that she's supposed to be on members Q&A at 12, noon," which I think it might be right now, "But clearly she's off spinning with the fairies and we should all go and watch her on this livestream right now for a few more minutes." Who wants to do that? Is somebody on my team there and can do that? I'm sure they are, somebody will do it for me. Probably 10 people.

Yes, does that make sense? Are you understanding me? Are you picking up what I'm putting down? Do I still look like I'm fucked up from the gym? Well, the blood's mainly stopping now. Okay, don't worry. I'm under control. It's just that ... Thanks, Sage. It's just when I go to another world, you guys, I go a little crazy and I can't really logically try and explain any of that shit, but you know it has to be. I don't know why they come in here and shut all my blinds. Why do I need my blinds shut? Do you think I should sit on the bed, 'cause it might calm me down, except I'm literally dripping Bali sweat, so then I'd have to sleep in it later, so we won't do that.

I feel like I could even go in the bath. I feel like I could go any place. So, basically, does it make sense to you? Oh, my ass is so sweaty. Do you understand what I'm saying to you? Breathe through it. Do you understand what I'm saying? So, if I go to another place and I carve out my entire abs ... What the fuck? Is this connection still not working? All right, we should've had the last of the connection issues. It says connection's bad still, it's being a fucker. I don't know what's happening. Maybe it's because I'm in another world and I'm not really here, so then the Bali WiFi's like, "Why the fuck do you need me?" I'm not here. Look at the site of me. God damn it.

Okay. I'm gonna be super zen as fuck in as much as that's humanly possible. So, the bullet point version of how to change your abs in 20 minutes ... Oh, I just got, I got an interesting message just pop up. Why is my notifications on for that? My god, another one. Go away. I'll be with you when I'm back in the world. I can't answer messages when I'm in another world, you guys. I can only answer DMs that are straight to my soul. If you want to get my attention and I'm not answering you in a message, it's more than likely that I'm in another world, in another realm, and instead of fucking DM'ing me on Facebook or Instagram like a weirdo, you could just DM me straight to my soul, and if you think I'm kidding, then you need to practise going to other realms more frequently, but don't worry, 'cause I've written a 2,000 word blog post already that tells you how to go to other realms, and I wrote that this morning, and I'll post it shortly.

It just seems very logical to me, 'cause often when I'm kind of travelling in between worlds, going into the deep collective unconscious or the freaking crazy fucked up psyche that's inside of me, or you, wherever it is I'm going, I'll DM people soul to soul, and then some of them DM me back. You know who you are. Sometimes in a slightly intrusive manner where I'm like, "Hello, I'm over here writing, you don't need to be constantly knocking on the door of my soul," but at the end of the day, if you get in, if your DM arrives into my soul, it's actually automatic transmission and automatic acceptance. I was just like, shit, how much of me showing down there. I think we're good.

So, that's a real thing that I do all the time. I frequently talk to people just via soul DM. It's a lot easier, 'cause you can be doing things at the same time, it just kind of happens automatically, but oftentimes I'll journal it. There's some things written in this journal right here from other people's souls. They're just in here. It's like, I could sell this shit for a lot of money, 'cause I'm journaling some freaking badass people in here. They're speaking straight to me, right in there. Happened this morning quite a lot. And so the thing with manifesting abs instantly or an extra 100K in a day instantly, or whatever it might be, is maybe a product of some sort of work you do in the physical world, whatever. I really think that's got little to do with anything, 'cause the physical world is only a reflection of the internal one anyway.

So really how I do it, and I couldn't figure this the fuck out for some time. I was like, I know I do it instantly, I have literally watched my body change in like 20 minutes to where it's quite shocking and even one time one of my clients ... Fuck. Okay. The phone just exploded out of the tripod. Even one of my clients and friends, Amanda, was with me one time in the gym and she had me talking about it many times, and she was working out with me in Del Mar a month or two back, and she was like, "Holy shit, I just saw that happen. You didn't have abs at the start of this workout, now you do." Like, carved out as well, so we did an Insta story about it, obviously. We looked fabulous anyway, so it was required.

But I couldn't figure out, how do I do that? I just knew that I do and I knew that if I got into super flow and into another realm, I kind of just decide if I want whatever crazy amount of money that comes through or some next level epi-connection with somebody or some new clients, whatever it is. Anything and everything. I'm like, well, I know 100% that I do this and I'm confident that I do it, I've seen it over and over again ... And now I've got full on sweat that is drying on me and I'm becoming super clammy. I'm probably reabsorbing it all, so I'll have to go lay naked in the sun after this and get it all back out again, except I've gotta do a high vibe training. We'll figure it out.

When I'm doing my client calls, for those of you that I'm speaking with in an hour or two, there's a high chance I'm gonna be naked on the deck on that call, just to warn you, 'cause I need to sweat it out and tan it up. Okay, and so this morning it finally came to me in a vision, in a dream, in a download from another realm where it always is, I was like, "Oh my god, it's so fucking obvious!" Of course how I do it is because I'm in another world, I've travelled to the world in between worlds, slipping between the cracks, the river beneath the river, the world beneath the world. Those of you who go there and know of this, know exactly what I mean, and those of you who are like, "What in the fuck is she on?" I'm on another dimension and I went there purely on and of my own accord with no additional substances, except for these amino acids and a fuck load of inner work over the past 30 years.

And so, you know what I mean. And those of you who are kind of fascinated and intrigued and slightly scared, but you don't have any clue what I'm doing, this is for you and you need to join and you all need to join, it's in the pinned comment, because I will explain and teach it to you. Largely via soul transmission, but also in the format of some video and audio trainings and worksheets and whatnot and several ounces of shenanigans in whatever format they come out. Oh my god, that training's going to be amazing. That training,, my new programme, was pure soul download, but it was fire and brimstone download. You read it, you saw it, you're in it, those of you that are in it. Danny Alor is in, who else is in? Give me the shout out. I'm sorry, high vibers, I'm not sure when I'm gonna get there, but this is exactly what you need and I'll get there after this.

We were just doing Q&A anyway, so you might have a fuck load more questions after this. So, next was ... What was next? So yes, yes, what I was saying, if you're fascinated and intrigued and slightly terrified, you definitely need to keep listening, 'cause you know I'm speaking to your soul when you joined, of course you did. Hey, Mandy. Julie joined, of course she did. So many badass people have joined. Sage is in, yes. That makes total sense to me. I know the soul people ... This might be the most powerful thing I've ever unleashed. You can feel it just by reading the description there and then your soul will fucking kick you up the nether regions if you don't join, I would imagine. Barron, of course you're in. Like, every person who's in, I'm like, of course, of course, because they're all, whatever you want to call us, indigo children. I don't know. That expression's not that exciting for me, but it's kind of what it is.

They're all dialled up individuals, dialled in individuals who are operating between worlds and between realms, and I see that even in the ones who I don't know who they are, I just read the energy of it and the vibration of your name and your picture and I just know, obviously. I don't have to explain it to those of you who know. But those of you who don't know are like, "I don't even know why I'm watching this shit," and those of you who are in between, are like, "Okay, you should join so that it can make more sense to you." So then when you slip into another realm, which I teach, I actually teach how to do in my blog post today, which I'll post when I fucking get to it, but it is ready. It's finished, but I thought of more things that need to go in there, so the [inaudible 00:18:42], it's so full at the moment, I almost can't handle the intensity of it.

So, I'm gonna explain about that. Read the blog later. I'll tell you what it's called even, so you can look out for it. It's got a picture of a very wild looking spirit ghost cat, and me, on the picture that's going with it. Oh, this bloody nail. Ouch-y, kiss it better. I just licked my own blood on a livestream. Sorry about that. The title is called, it's quite long, it's called, "Slip into the Deep Collective Unconscious, Slip into the Rapture, Slip into Your Soul and Come Back Alight with Miracles, the Impossible, Created like This." I love my long titles with a lot of commas in them. And it says, "And now I'm gonna show you how it is I slip away fully and allow all of it full stop, a story," and then I may, indeed, quote the queen from Alice in Wonderland. Should I just read you the blog post? Okay.

"'Let's consider your age to begin with. How old are you?' 'I'm seven-and-a-half, exactly.' 'You needn't say exactly,' the queen remarked. 'I can believe it without that. Now I'll give you something to believe. I'm just 101, 5 months and a day.' 'I can't believe that!' said Alice. 'Can't you?' said the queen in a pitying tone. 'Try again. Draw a long breath and shut your eyes.' Alice laughed, 'There's no use trying," she said, 'One can't believe the impossible.' 'I dare say you haven't had much practise,' said the queen, 'When I was your age, I always did it for half an hour a day. Why, sometimes I believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast.'"

"I tend to believe as many impossible things as I can all day long and I have a practise and a process around that and I wonder what would happen if you began to practise believing the impossible. Practise is a practise." Now, I'm really starting to read the whole blog post and I'm quite inclined to continue on. "I wonder what would occur if you allowed yourself to slip betwixt worlds." I wrote, "betwixt." I thought about writing "between" and I was to otherworldly at the time to come up with a word like "between" so it didn't come out of me. "I wonder what you'd allow if you realised suddenly that the answer to all of it is to simply access, daily, the ordered state in which visions are given, transmissions passed through, downloads continue, and miracles, become real."

I will write sentences for as long as I fucking want to write them with as many commas as I want and all the grammar police can get back to the other world where I'm not a part in anyway. Can I tell you, it's the place I dance and play and, daily. I could keep reading. "Sometimes for an entire day or even more, I don't come back to Earth at all." I think that's obviously. All right, I'll stop right there. I'm gonna post the blog shortly after this. Maybe or maybe not. I thought of a lot of other things that gotta go in there and they're all just kind of bubbled up in my head and I'm not sure where they're going or where they're coming from, or even if I'm here or there or nowhere at all, but when I'm there, is when you just go there and you're just like ... Okay, just carve out some abs and just gonna reshape my body, I'm just gonna pull in this money, I'm just gonna draw in that post in two minutes into my soul, just gonna quickly soul DM this person or there, I'm gonna decide that the exact freaking soul crazy ass soulmate people ... How many times can you say the word "soul" in one word ... In one sentence. I'm gonna join into ...

We all are mad here, and I'm gonna join into through the freaking [inaudible 00:21:53] glass, another world, another place, another time. Don't go to, it's just the name of the programme. Read that comment, that was a freaking soul transmission and transmutation and download and that's where that programme came from, and I think that's fucking clear and that's exactly why everybody's who joining the programme is like next level crazy, fucked up in the most awesome way, and in that programme, we're gonna do a lot of travelling to other worlds.

What book is it? Is it a book that I'm talking aloud right now? Should we transcribe this livestream? Anna, I know you're there in the other place with me, I know your in there, just send me a fucking soul DM and tell me what you're thinking and feeling, because we're co-creating this right now and probably nobody else here is real at all, except for me and Anna and it's our world and you just hopped into it. Thank you for being here.

I think that's obvious to everybody. So, then, yes. Well, that's actually the whole instant manifestation process explained in two and a half seconds or maybe 25 minutes or however long it was. The time is irrelevant, because we bend time and space. That is how you instant manifest! Isn't it obvious? Because when you go to ... If I yell too loudly, the butlers might come and make sure I'm not being ... I was gonna say molested, but I don't like that word. I'm not having a meltdown.

So, exactly. Exactly. Anna knows exactly what's going on. Intergalactic as fuck. And isn't it obvious that if you wanted to manifest instantly in the human realm, you would just go to the world between worlds, you'd go to the river beneath the river, you'd go to the place in your soul, you'd slip into the cracks and you might be there for 100,000 years or a minute or a moment or the blink of an eye or a quick DM from you soul to somebody else's, but in that time, there is no time and time is never ending and expansive, and I can't look at you, 'cause I'm just transmitting right now.

And you'll just do whatever you want to do. It doesn't matter. You'll just do things that, in the human realm, would've taken 10 years or 20 years or 10 months or two weeks or whatever people think. I don't care what they think, 'cause I'm not with them or one of them or of them, and then when you come back, you maybe had meanwhile ripped your fucking nail off in the gym while listening to Sandman. That was unfortunate, but it doesn't matter, 'cause you're still on an adrenaline rush and riding high as fuck, so when you come back, people are like staring at you 'cause you're vibrating like a crazy person, or maybe you're walking through the streets yelling this shit, and then 20 minutes passed in that human people world that they talk about, and then people are like, "How the fuck did you do that like that?" It's like, isn't it obvious? I was in another realm, so I had as much time and space and whatever it was that I needed and I was upgrading, up levelling, rewiring my entire eternal fucking ram, and becoming the next level of my character of this programme, and so then I came back, and of course a moment had passed. Where the fuck do you think Alice in Wonderland or Narnia even came from?

I mean, really? Who's gonna transcribe this book? It's gonna be my next book, it's gonna be called Soul Shifts and Intergalactic Transmissions, do you think? It'll be Soul Ships and something. I don't know. I can't think about it. I don't know why I'm thinking this, there should definitely be no thinking going on. So for those people who then come along and watch this or are watching it right now, and I still can't look at you. If I'm not looking at you, by the way, I notice that sometimes when I co-livestream with Patrick that I'm not looking at him, and I'm looking either over here or over there, and I can't look at you guys right now and if I'm doing that, it's not that I'm ignoring, it's because I'm accessing something else, by the way.

Or if you ever ask me to intuitively download and message, get a message or a transmission, sorry, for you, you'll notice I have to look away, or if I'm looking at you, you'll see that I look away. If I'm on audio, you won't see anything at all, but you'll feel it. So that's what's up, and I'll read your comments later when I come back down to Earth, which may be in an eventual while, I imagine. So, for people like, "She's on something," 'cause this is what I get a lot of, and then a lot of friends who do use psychedelics and stuff like that are like, "You're like that all the time anyway," I've never used anything. Okay, now I can look at you. I've never used anything, I've never taken anything at all. I wrote about this in my blog today anyway, but I'm accessing other dimensions anytime I want to and that is why I'm high, and then I end up on massive fucking trip and sometimes it's a little intense and out of control.

Thursday I was off in another place the whole entire day and it was actually a bit too full on and it was so hard to come back down. I'm pretty sure I just manifested you, Patrick, because I just mentioned your name about transmitting and channelling, downloading stuff and then you appeared. See? I told you guys, exactly what I'm doing. So, okay, I have to go over here again. So, when I'm over there and when I'm in that place and space, I was saying to you, not to you, I was saying about you, Patrick, that when I ... I'm, okay, are you just saying "I am," because you are, I am. All he says is "I am." I have no doubt.

I re-watched some of our livestream from Thursday and I was like, for half of the livestream, I'm looking up there and it's like, it looks like I'm ignoring what you're talking about, but actually, it's 'cause I was downloading from another realm, but when I watched the replay I was like, "I didn't realise how much of that livestream I was looking up there." And then the entire rest of the fucking day, I was ... Nearly gonna tip this on my head. I was so in another realm, it was so fucking intense, so much crazy shit happened.

Today, I haven't been in the human world at all, I was explaining just now how you instantly manifest, because when you're there, you're gone for as long as you need to be. You could be gone for hundreds of generations and lifetimes and now I'm going there again. I'm just in between words right now. I'm in the place between the place, and then you're just doing whatever the fuck it is you want to do, and then you come back here and people ... "How did she do that? How did she change that so quickly?" It's like, "Please, I was over there for several thousand generations." And then I came back to this moment in time, and here I am.

That one on Thursday was beyond. If you didn't watch that joint livestream that we did on Thursday, I actually couldn't even handle the intensity of watching the whole thing again. I only watched an hour and a half of it. Yes, it did go on for well over two hours. So, then this morning, when I wrote this blog, holy shit, I was way through the looking glass, I was all the way in the looking glass, it was insane. I created so many new things and so many new worlds, and then, and then, and then, I was in the deep collective unconscious, deep in the realm which is not this one, deep in a psyche, obviously, of you and of me.

I'm slipping. I have slipped, I stay slipped. I'm slipped right away, and then I ripped my entire fucking nail off in the gym. That broke me a little bit out of the spell for a moment, because of all the blood, and then everybody was looking at me, but then I was so freaking charged and other worldly that I couldn't feel the pain of it now anyway, and I'm like ... Yeah. Okay, I'm trying to decide whether I need to ground or whether I need to go further. "Further, further, in that flirty mystical, and if you're not careful, your scary place, where you access all things and you know all things and you create ..."

I feel like somebody's gonna report me if I'm being too crazy. And you create, well, let's speak of that later. I'm reading from my blog post again. I'm reading bits and pieces. "Those who know me well, those who know me well and also regularly use medicine, drugs, tools to access an altered state often comment on how you seem to already be there all the time. This is become a recurring conversation with several of my closet people." Those who know me well know that I don't use anything, but I'm going further. Okay, I'm in it right now. Keep going further.

I'm getting so shaky, 'cause I'm not really here. Oh! And, that's the also the reason why you don't need to eat when you're in super flow and you don't need to sleep, you don't need anything. You don't need to talk ... This is what I'm trying to explain to you guys. When I'm not replying to you on DM, it's because I'm only in the soul DM conversation, all right? So if you were smart about it, you would just send me messages when I'm journaling and I'll write them in my journal. That's what I do a lot of the time. I had many reports in there from many people.

It's quite the story, and sometimes I don't write them down, though. Sometimes they just come to me when I'm out and about and I'm like, of course, and I just go back to something and then it's upgrade, upgrade, upgrade, and then occasionally, actually occasionally, and [inaudible 00:30:40] talked about this, occasionally, people are reckless with slipping between worlds. You don't want to be reckless, because you might stay there and, in fact, the human experience isn't actually an experience that we get to have.

So, you want to dance between worlds. You want to play between worlds. You want to float back and forth. Why the fuck am I still wearing my ear pods when I'm at home? That was for on the street. Do you think that I threw the air pod container somewhere when I was out jumping up and down on the street? I just found it over here. Okay. They really annoy my human ears sometimes. So, okay. How many points have I not finished? It doesn't really matter, 'cause those of you who are with me in the other world are getting all the points anyway. And you definitely should join the programme. Oh my god. I was so fucking angry at myself on the weekend. It was ridiculous.

I spent the entire weekend ... Actually, I was out a fuck load on the weekend. I met so many ... I don't know who they were. I don't know if they were spirits or people, but I did a lot of crazy, cool stuff on the weekend and in between being out, which was at least half of the time, I was all in that other worldly state, and then somewhere in the middle of it, I got fucking angry, which is where that programme came from and when you read that, it will reach into your soul, it will grab your soul, it will pull it out, and we will dance together into another realm, which is where that entire programme is being derived from.

If you're not available for slipping between the cracks of the worlds, you should not join this programme, because I'm really not gonna know what to do with you. You're just gonna be one of those place feeler type people that sits there and looks pretty, hopefully, on the internet, but I guess we can use your name for something. But the problem is that we might just code you out of the entire game. So you wouldn't really want to come unless you are of that world. It could be dangerous for you humans.

Okay, is there anything left to say? I think that's actually the entire fucking story. Let me tune in, let me dial in. What else is there? Oh, I was talking about being on the trip. Well, I may be still there. I don't know what's gonna happen when I jump into my members training after this, and then for those who I'm speaking with in an hour and a half, that will be interesting for everybody, and then I'm gonna have to have some sort of situation go on in my day ... I'm either gonna just keep going or I'm gonna have to ground back again if I want to actually manage to my ass on a plane tomorrow, which I am supposed to do in theory.

You can go on a plane while you're in another world. That's what I was gonna say, when you're slipping between worlds, is when if you're walking down the street or you're at the gym or wherever you are, your feet are not on the ground and you're dancing and floating with space and time. You know that feeling and you're like, "What's happening? I'm not even moving, but I'm moving, and are these people real?" And everything's fucking blurry, but it's clear as day, that's because you're in another world.

Actually, you're in massive amounts of soul, like, I was gonna say destruction, but it's beautiful destruction. It's upgrading, we're gonna upgrade that hard drive like a motherfucker. So, that's what's goin on there. You know where you're like, "I'm getting a little scared that I'm slipping away and I'm going crazy, and what's happening?" And I'm like floating and I'm flying and all the people around me are ... They're kind of just like energies and the ground is moving and you don't really know what's up and you're like, "I'm not in control," but actually, you're in complete fucking control. You just went into a different world, that's what's happening, and that explains why when you're in super flow, [inaudible 00:34:14] called it the deep collective unconscious, or the deep psyche or whatever he called it, and I call it super flow. All right? That's what I mean when I say "super flow."

Other worlds slipping into other realms, and when you're there, of course you don't need to eat. Holy shit. I smell so bad. I was sweating litres of sweat when I was at the gym before. I'm gonna jump ... Definitely gonna do the high vibe livestream naked from the pool after this. From there up, don't get too excited. You don't need to eat, 'cause why would you need to eat when you're in another world? That's completely illogical. That would just be stupid. It makes no sense at all.

So, when you're in the super flow land and you're like, something's almost wrong with me, because I never seem to sleep and I seem to never need to eat and I seem to just decide things when I'm floating and flowing and flying, and then they're done, and you get a little worried or you get a little concerned for your own sanity, don't be concerned, and if you have people in your life who are concerned, simply code those people out of the programme and come play with more of these people. That's really the whole system. And don't worry about it, because at some point in time, you'll come back to the human Earth and you'll go, "Fuck, I need some tacos" and then you'll go out for drinks with people and meet new people and be a human person, but while you're out meeting new people, you definitely could slip away as well, which happened to me also. That's it. Don't forget, life is now. Join and press fucking play.

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Hi. Alright. How we doing? It looks like I'm in a small prison. Hello, Facebook. Is this working? Welcome to The Katrina Ruth Show. Okay. Three people here. Hello, three people. I might be the smartest person in the world right 'bout right now. Oh my goodness, Leah. I'm feeling all the feels. I'm in the airport. I'm at my gate. I'm in such a weird ass mood that I didn't even want to hang out in the lounge. The lounge in Bali is pretty shit. The wine is terrible, it'll poison you.

So I'm just in the room. The holding room, where you're gonna board the plane, but I've come kinda early, so I don't have to board for a while. I was so in a weird, grumpy, anxious, bizarre place all day, and then I was like, "I'm not even going to sit in the lounge, I'm going to sit on this gross ass floor, in this skanky airport boarding room, since that's the mood I'm in." And I feel fantastic.

Now, I'm going to advise to you, that I might be the most intelligent person in the world from an engineering standpoint, and the reason is, I don't have a tripod in front of me, but yet I'm not holding the phone. How is that even possible? "How is it possible," you ask? Well, I'll tell you. I might even show you, but I'm a little concerned that if I show you ... Can't even have any more coffee, 'cause my heart rate's already like frickin high as fuck today. I'm in an anxiety day today.

I'm concerned that if I show you my arrangement here that I won't be able to get the phone back in again, but I'm too excited at myself, so I'm gonna show you. Are you ready for this ninja-ri? Are you guys ready for it? Check it. So there's my Chanel luggage case. It's beautiful, isn't it? Chanel. And there's my purse, and there's the airport lounge, and there's the gross ass carpet that I'm sitting on, and here's me.

Okay, now the phone's telling me off for rotating it. So aren't I intelligent? Because, I had the phone stuffed here, I had the phone stuck behind that. I'm so impressed at myself. I'm just like, "Look at me." Sometimes I think I'm just a little school girl. I'm like, "How am I the age I am?" I walk around in little shorts, with Nike's on, looking like an escaped backpacker, and then sit on the floor. I don't know. I just feel like one of these things is not like the other. Something's wrong in this picture or something, but at the same time, obviously I fully embrace, and love, and accept myself. But I just have that feeling of I'm not a real adult, and somebody's gonna come along and knock on the door and be like, "Listen, we've heard that you're actually passing yourself off as a grown ass adult slash entrepreneur, and you're really not doing it quite right. But good luck to you." Right.

"How's the nail?" It looks gross. There's some congealed issues there. The Balinese man at the gym yesterday, like the gym manager dude wanted me to go to the clinic. I'm like "Fuck that, I'm not going to a frickin clinic." So now I'm just letting it do what it wants and we'll see what happens over the next few days.

So I nearly called this live-stream ... I was gonna call it something about how critical it ... and now, by the way, I look like a crazy person because as far as the rest of this waiting room is concerned, I'm talking to the back of my handbag right now cause they can't see the phone. But check out the new top, it's good isn't it? It's good. So I nearly called this live-stream something about ... By the way maybe you can just chuck that call to action straight in, go right into the CTA.

Whose joined break the internet? Okay, I keep being like, "What the fuck is that loud noise?" And I was getting really shitty about it. It sounds like a massive vacuum cleaner, and then I realised it's a plane landing. I'm at the airport, it's probably okay for a plane to be landing. And, they take your water off you though when you check in to the ... You actually have to check into the waiting room in Bali. You've gotta check in, and they search your bags before you can just wait to get on the plane, and then they take your water off you. It's super annoying. So, now I'm live streaming which means I always want water, and I'm sitting quite far back, because otherwise the top of my head's cut off. So, I'll just lean down.

So, what was I saying? Oh, whose joined break the internet? We'll talk about that in a moment, that is next level. I almost convinced myself that I shouldn't livestream today, because my energy's not super crazy, and high vibrant badass like it was yesterday. And, then I was like, "What is this bullshit story? This is how I'm feeling today, I'm gonna show up as who I am today." Do you think they could possibly quiet down with the announcements, when somebody's trying to livestream? People can figure their own shit out at the airport.

Okay I'm getting side tracked already. So my other title that I had in mind, was that I could call this livestream something like, "How critical it is to lean into the feelings that are coming through you." But, then I reminded myself to always go with what was originally coming out, which in this case was, "It's okay to feel what you're feeling." Reason being, yesterday as you might know I did one of the craziest, bizarre ... The [inaudible 00:05:42].

And then, I gotta say, this waiting room area is massive, and as soon as I went live people came and sat near me. What's that about? Why did they not sit on the other side of the room? So, now I've got that slight feeling of self consciousness, where I'm like conscious that people can sort of hear me and are probably like, "What the fuck she's doing." At the same time, like fully committed to being as crazy as possible, and waving my arms around in the air if that's what comes out.

"Hello from Norway." But, tell me if you've joined Break the Internet. That shit is just gonna rip the soul right out of you. Which doesn't sound ideal, to be honest. It's not really what I meant. It's not gonna take from you. You won't lose your soul. What I should do is stand up. I'm gonna sit here in a zen like fashion. Do you think I should sit here like this for the rest of the livestream? Could do. I want this phone to be a little bit higher. Actually I don't want [inaudible 00:06:30]. I just want the phone to be a bit higher, but I've gotta push this trolley back. This Chanel case back. But, I don't want that ugly red chair in my stream.

What's Break The Internet all about? Well I'm glad you asked. It's in the pinned comment Melissa. You read the pinned comment below the pre work dropped last night, it was madness. It was madly amazing. I'll talk about it in a moment, but there is details about it in the pinned comment right there. It's my new programme, it starts in two days. But, you get into the Facebook group straight away. It's a ten day intensive smack down. And, the first module, which we do on Friday, is about getting angry. Getting angry with yourself for not speaking your truth, and not sharing your true message. So, when I say it's gonna rip the soul right out of you, it was less than ideal wording. I didn't mean you're gonna lose your soul. I meant it's gonna help you to unleash your soul. It's gonna unleash the fullness of your soul out of you. Ashley stole the shenanigans with actual work.

The pre work, I'm really impressed with myself for the pre work to be honest. I mean I just like allow it to come through me, and download it. And I was like, "Fuck me, that was a good exercise." And wait till you see the follow on one. There's more pre work coming. So, you don't want to wait till Friday, because like Thursday and Friday I'll push it as hard as far. I'll be promoting everywhere, I'll be like join, join, join, before we start. Obviously so you don't miss out. You don't want to wait till then, you may as well join now, and you get to be in on the energy at that group. We should seriously just level as fuck already, and get to enjoy the pre work of being prepared.

And, what Break The Internet's all about is, it is about unleashing your core, unadulterated, unapologetic soul and truth. But, here's where today's energy mood comes in right. Because, I honestly nearly didn't go live. I could've gone live on the way to the airport, from the car. I keep looking for my water. They ruined my groove, they took my water off me. So, ridiculous. I'm a business class passenger and I'm without water. I'll survive.

So, yeah my energy and my mood today, it's been really weird. Yesterday I was in this kind of crazy like hysterical other worldly dimension shift thing that was going on. If you didn't watch my livestream from yesterday, it was seriously one of the most bizarre things that I've ever published on the internet, and it was just like a crazy explosion. I was completely in another dimension, another place. I watched the whole replay myself. I was pretty funny. I thought it was quite funny. But, I also dropped some amazing gold. I just cannot recommend highly enough, like how deeply you need to watch that livestream. In fact Mim, if you're still here grab the URL from that live yesterday and drop into a comment here a well, so people can find it easily. Otherwise, you can find it on this page, or on my personal trainer page, cause that's where I actually did it from.

So, then today ... Actually today started fine, and then early on in the day I started to feel that anxiety rising up, and that kind of like disconnectedness. And, there are a couple of things that maybe could have brought that one, or called me ... Yeah, my little stickers. Wasn't that [inaudible 00:09:26]. There were a couple of things that kind of maybe contributed to that, but then nothing like where it was really valid, or worthy of going into my anxiety mode. And, I did my journaling, and I did my blogging, and I did all the things that I usually do, and then went over to the gym, and by the time I got to the gym I was seriously like having a full on anxiety day, where it's kind of hard to breathe, and you don't really want to communicate with people, and you have to kind of talk carefully and more carefully. And, I don't know if it was because I was coming down from the high and the trip of yesterday. From all the places I travelled to yesterday. Or, it was like whatever random shit that was going on in my head. Or, it's just nothing at all.

So, then you try and shift it. And, I know how to shift it, and we always know how to shift it. But, at the same time you kind of like, "It's not fucking shifting." And, it's just kind of like melting a little bit, a little bit. And, when I feel that way I do, do whatever I feel I need to do in order to shift, or in order to let it go. But at the same time, I understand that it is what it is, and there's two parts.

So, one of the practises or processes that I'll go into when I feel something like that, something that I don't really ideally enjoy feeling, or what I'll be feeling is kind of just getting back to groundedness, getting back to face. So it's kind of like ... Actually I'll give you a good example, frequently when clients come to me and they're freaking the fuck out about money, like they've got serious money shit going on, and there's kind of like a fear and panic reaction going on. I always bring it back to two things for them. I say, "Okay, number one. Can you get through today? Like, are you able to get through today, and is there action that you can take today. Can you do today's work of being you." And the answer is like of course, of course I can survive today, of course I can get through today. Not just get through it, but also take the action that you need to be taking.

And, then number two. Do you have faith. Like, go big picture. Do you have faith? There's the big picture that I'm not going any [inaudible 00:11:17]. I'm here to stay, I am gonna run this thing, I'm gonna create everything that's inside of me, and I'm gonna bring my vision to life. And, 100% I've had client's, friends, me, my family ... I don't know, I don't really as them that stuff. But, the people that are in my circle, are definitely gonna say yes. Ultimately yeah, I can get through today for sure. Right. There's a child looking at me. And, I do have faith in the big picture. This kid's coming up to see what I'm doing, cause they think I'm talking to a handbag right now.

So, those are the two things that you'll want to look at right. And, that's easy for me to rule off, and it's easy for me to say or share with clients when it comes to the money side of things. Because, I'm not in that space anymore, but I'm teaching from a place of when I was in that space right, and when I did go through that, when that was my reality and that was just how it is. And, so I remember, and I was caught up in that before I broke through my business.

I'm not kidding there's like 3 children like just ... They're all right here, kind of like. And then their parents came up and got them. And then the parents are also kind of half looking at me, like, "What the fuck is going on?" I swear to God, I've gotta give myself credit for being able to tune this stuff out and just keep going, like give me a love heart [inaudible 00:12:29] for support please. Because, not only am I having an anxiety day, but I'm dealing with the fact that this waiting room is full of people looking at me like I'm crazy, cause I'm talking to the back of a bag. And, I'm still paranoid because I believe in this message, and I want to bring it to you right. So, I need the love hearts even extra today, and the flying Katrinas thank you.

Okay, so it is kind of easy for me to rule that off right. Because, I'm not in that place of anxiety to do with life anymore. It's long past, but I was there, and I was there for quite a while. Thank you for the love, I so appreciate it. I was there, and I was there for quite a while. Okay, I just realised something terrible. I realised my lighting went out, and I could look even more bright in light than I do right now. One second. How did I not notice that, that went out? Look how much better it is. Alright, let me put this back in here. One second, just jam it back in. That's so much better, I'm so excited, I'm such a lighting addict. Alright, now my comments have disappeared though. There they are. Yeah, maybe somebody needs to hear what I'm saying, exactly Nicole. Thank you. I feel way better with this lighting, that's improved my mood by 14%.

So, I remember the feeling, and I know that that's what gets you through. So, then when I go into random ... I don't know how to do the sparkler filter anymore, I swear to God, these filters are just all messed up. Should I try it? When I go into this mood now. Let's try it. When I go into ... Nah, it doesn't want to let me do a filter. You know what, I think it's because when you're in the Creator app, the Facebook Creator app which allows me to have the show banner down the bottom, as opposed to when I do it through the page's app, then you can do more fancy things. That's what I think. Okay, no the fricken light has gone off again.

Okay, so what I was trying to say is. When I'm in this anxiety place relevant to whatever shit that's not about money, but whatever it was just about. Just that feeling that I come back to that same stuff right. Yeah, I don't know why. They need to fix that in the Creator app though Leah. It's annoying. So, I come back to the same stuff. Let's get that red chair out, I don't like that red chair. And, it's essentially, "Can I get through today?" Like, can I not just like survive the day and not die, that's not what I mean. But, more like can I do what I need to do today? Can I still do my inner work? Can I still message from this place? Right? Hello, that's what I'm doing right now.

So, a lot of us including myself have been guilty of feeling like, if I'm feeling that way, if I'm feeling stuck, or if I'm feeling disconnected, or if I'm having an anxiety attack, or whatever it is that you may be experiencing. It might not be anxiety, I know a lot of people who do though. But, then we think I can't show up today, because I'm not in my zone, and I'm not in my vibe. And that's the story that I was telling myself relevant to live streaming. I still did my blog, and then after that I did you know, my personal stuff, I answered my messages, I packed my shit up and got myself to the airport. Spoke to a client on the phone, that sort of thing. But, when I thought about going live, I was like, "I just have ... Like I've got to much of this going on in here, and I didn't ... I felt worried that I wouldn't bring a powerful message, or it would make me feel upset or something like that." Like I was really buying into the anxiety being in charge of me, rather than me being like, "Hey, you know what? This is just something that is part of my experience today and I can still show up, and it is what it is. And it's okay."

And, I shared over an audio message with one of my best friends a little bit about what I was feeling. And, actually I was not happy with her answer that I got back. It made me super shitty I triggered. I was like, "Fuck off, that's not why I was sharing my words. I was sharing for a solution." Just being transparent as fuck right now. I wasn't sharing looking for an answer to why I'm feeling what I'm feeling, like I shared what I was feeling, and I said why I feel I'm feeling that way. But, then I was like, "Yeah an but I also know this." Like coming back to faith, and coming back to groundedness, it brought me back to [inaudible 00:16:18], so I ...

So, it's kind of like coaching myself, sharing everything on the audio which is what we all do with friends. And then she kind of came back with, "Oh well, the reason is blah blah blah. And what you need to do is blah blah blah." And I was like, "Um, I'm already fully aware of that, actually all I wanted was empathy." But, then I was like, "Okay, so if I'm not gonna get empathy from somebody else if I feel like they're nice, and they're just tryna like school me on something that I'm already fully aware of, then where am I doing that to someone else. Right. So, everything's always [inaudible 00:16:46], so I was shitty, but then I was also like, "Clearly this is coming from inside me." But, it still didn't shift it, so it was still ...

And, so after that, that's where this title for this livestream came from. Because, after that I was kind of sitting in the car on the way here to the airport and I thought, "At the end of the day, it's okay to feel what I'm feeling, but I don't have to shift that in order to be a good person, or be an indulged conscious person. I also don't have to be the crazy ass motherfucker that I was yesterday travelling to other places. Actually still in a state of super flow, even while feeling all this stuff. But, it's just the different angle, or a different side of the same point.

Okay, are you guys not commenting anymore. Is that what's happening? Somebody leave a comment so I know this is working. Either you're just enraptured by what I'm saying, or the comments have stopped working. Let me check on my laptop. Okay, so that's where the title came from. That's what I was trying to say. It's okay to feel what you're feeling, but more than that. I think that we get to lean into what we're feeling, and by that I mean just ... Okay you're listening, thanks Sherry.

We get to lean into what we're feeling. Enraptured. You're so funny. Perfect, good. See, I'm getting into my little self conscious mode, because there's so many people looking at me right now. And, also because I'm feeling like a self conscious day anyway. My growth is like phenomenal today, I'm just growing stronger on the inside moment by moment right now. I'm gonna get on the plane. I'm gonna have some fricken wine. No not the rapture. It's a different rapture from yesterday. Yesterday I blogged about being in the rapture, which is when you're in the deep collective unconscious, you're in the super flow. I do need the heart shower. I think I just need a lot of hearts. If you were here I would need a cuddle and a kiss, and a marshmallow. Not to speak like a marshmallow. Some people know what that means.

Yeah, yesterday I was in like the full power super flow. You guys saw that on the livestream. I was kind of out of control, and crazy. Thank you for the love. Today is actually still ... It's like a follow on from it, and it's still a deep connectedness. It's just that sometimes you have those shitty feelings that you don't want to feel, and what I'm trying to say is, that's not bad or wrong right. What if we literally just went that's how I'm feeling today. It is what it is. Can I analyse it? Sure, but doesn't matter. Haven't agreed to my marshmallow demands. Can you repeat them here, cause did I miss them, or did I just comment back with a smart ass reply. I don't know what you mean.

You know, so we can analyse we can come up with, "Oh I think it's cause of this, or it's cause of this." We can do state shifting stuff, like okay it felt a bit better after doing my workout, it felt better after getting my tunes on. I felt a lot better after I ate actually. Beautiful salad with chicken and beef and mango in it. It was amazing. Exhausted from workload. I don't have any workload at all. I feel like I do no work at all. I don't think. I just laugh emoji, but what was the request. I don't think I'm exhausted at all from workload, I definitely don't have much of a workload. I feel like I do no work, but then I clearly work all day, but then I play all day. It's all just a [inaudible 00:19:49] mish mash.

And, hang on. Now I'm accidentally watching my livestream. That's a mistake. Alright I'm trying to read these comments, and they're half coming up on the phone, and half on the laptop. So, what was the point I just half finished. It's fricken okay to feel what you're feeling right. You're allowed to feel it, because what I was trying to do earlier today was probably push it away. Like, I was sort of trying to state shift. The reason I try anyway, you either shift your state or you don't. But, it was more in a mindset of, I don't want to feel like this. This is annoying me. I want to push it away, I want to get rid of it. So, that's like a resistance, and as I was driving here. I hate driving here honestly. I suddenly went to myself, "Well, what if I just let that feeling fully wash over me?" It's okay to want to be a human burrito in my mind. That's exactly right [inaudible 00:20:48] You wouldn't want to do a burrito bed here in Bali, you'd probably lose 14 litres of sweat. And, I'm definitely getting wine as soon as I get on the plane.

Or as soon as [inaudible 00:20:57] anyway. But, I mean even from talking about it now right. It's actually shifting even though I surrounded the idea that I needed to shift it. Maria says, "Let's all drink wine." Right. So then I surrendered the idea. I was like, "Okay, this reminds me of whenever I'm getting my tattoo worked on ... I speak about that a lot. How if you try to not feel the pain of it, if you try and avoid the pain of it, then it hurts more. And you give it power over you. Whereas if you lean into the pain, and go okay, "Let me just allow myself to feel all of this pain, let me allow it to kind of wash over me and threw me." Then, all of a sudden you go, "Aw, it's not that it doesn't necessarily have any pain attached to it, but it's probably less painful than what it was before." And you take the power out of it, because you're not trying to hide from it and run from it. And so that's what I realised I got to do, an hour or two from when I was on the way here.

Oh they're boarding. I think they're boarding. It's alright I've got priority boarding, I just like zoom straight in when I'm ready. So, I just let myself surrender to it. I actually gave into the anxiety on the way to the airport. I was like, "Okay, it is what it is, but don't feel that I have a very good valid reason why I should be feeling like this. But I do feel like this, so okay maybe that's my experience today?" I'm still fine, I'm still in full love and acceptance, I'm actually still connected and charged with super flow, I've still created amazing content today. I know I'll have an epic time on the plane, I always do. I typically go into super, super flow when I'm in the air. [inaudible 00:22:26] And, yeah. That was it really and I was like "Okay, it's cool." Because, it would be all passed tomorrow and probably be the best fucking [inaudible 00:22:34] ever tomorrow, but there's no rule ...

Half of all these people are such sheeps, they all just get up and do what they're told. 100% of the people just got up. Please not be my derro time. No there's actually one guy who's sitting over there, he didn't get up. He's like, "[inaudible 00:22:51] I'll do exactly what I want, I want to sit down until the last minute."

So, yeah I think that a lot of times we think we shouldn't have any emotions that we have maybe labelled as negative right? And, what if there was no negative emotions because there's not. There's just not. They all are here for a reason and they're all here to service right. So what if all emotions were there to teach us something, or guide us something, or to bring us back closer to our soul. And I realised that when I actually surrendered to feeling anxious and surrendered to feeling like I couldn't quite breathe properly, and I was in a slight state of panic and I just wanted to be like, "I want to be like super fricken happy and excited again." When I surrendered to it I allowed it to teach me something. And, I don't really know what that was yet. I don't know. Maybe I'll never know. It doesn't matter. But, it actually allowed me to connect back to my soul because I was being with what is. I was allowing myself to be what I am, and recognising or realising that there's nothing I need even at emotional state in order to be enough, or be good enough right.

I'm completely loved and accepted. I'm completely [inaudible 00:23:56]. I'm completely still able to move through the day, show up, do whatever I feel called to do. Be present and in attendance in any circumstance or [inaudible 00:24:05]. Or, alternatively watch a movie and drink a wine on the plane. Whatever it is I feel called to do. But, then now ... And so now, I obviously got on and did the livestream and I was in the airport already for an hour before doing this live, and I did go to lounge for a little bit and I was nearly gonna live there but the wifi wouldn't really work. And, I was kind of, "Oh, I think I should just leave the livestream for today, let's just get on this plane and you know tomorrow's a new day." And then I was like, "You know what? I'm gonna just do the thing right. I'm just gonna talk about it's okay to feel what you're feeling."

And now, like literally right now in this moment, I'm noticing I shifted because I surrounded [inaudible 00:24:41]. Like, I feel happy. I feel upbeat. I feel a slight little [inaudible 00:24:45] in there of that anxiety. But, I feel like it's totally 100% fine and I mean it. If it comes back, or if it doesn't and I go into like la la marshmallow land. Do you know what I mean? Whereas before, I felt like it was scary, or bad, or wrong. Somebody's coming to get me, what's happening?

Excuse me.


Final call already.

Final call already? Okay how did that happen in one minute? They must have an empty plane. I don't know how that happened.

Okay, so. The pre work has dropped. I want to read about it to you. How the fuck did they get to final call already? The pre work has dropped for It must be an empty plane. And, you've gotta read about it in the pinned comment. It's my 10 day smack down intensive. It is about getting back to your soul, and getting angry. There's a bunch of comments here in the pinned comment about what people said about the pre work. This is ... Like I could read it all out, but I don't think I'm prepared to do that to miss the plane. So, it's for the crazy certified crazy badass, who has not been showing up fully as themselves.

Okay, there's the rest of my head while I pack up. Who has not been doing the damn work, and who is ready to do the damn work? Let's do this thing. Okay, shit. I'm literally the last person. How the fuck is it, that I always miss planes ... I never miss planes. I always nearly miss the plane, when I'm like the first one at the airport? Because I'm live streaming.

Alright I'm gonna totally go, because there's nobody else here. Don't forget, live is now press fucking play.

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Hello, welcome to the Katrina Ruth Show. I am the Katrina Ruth Show. Who are you and where are you from? Tell me, tell me, tell me.

All right, all right, all right. Good old vibe on here. Let's get vibalicious for this show. Who's going to join me on this episode of The Katrina Ruth Show? I had to toy around with the title of this show for really quite an unreasonable length of time. I kept changing my mind about what I was going to call it, which is always infuriating when you do that, because then you start to question what the original [inaudible 00:00:48] title was supposed to be and you start to like think about it instead of just let it flow.

It should always get to floor. Okay, I'm definitely having one of those days. Hello, from Canada. Hello, Nadia. Hello, Tamira. Hi, Hafron. Let me just share this one over to some of my other places and spaces where people get to come and hang with us.

I'm definitely having one of those days where it feels weird that I'm the only one talking. Sometimes when I start to present on my show, I get, all of a sudden I get super self-conscious and I feel awkward and shy. Hang on, Cam, Jeremy, Lab. I'm just putting this over on my personal profile.

Then, a lot of the time ... You're in Iceland. What's the weather like there? A lot of the time when I jump on I'm so in the flow zone right away that I couldn't even really notice or care what's going on around me or ... I don't know, I'm completely in my flow so I'm not thinking about myself I guess. But today I'm having one of those days where I feel kind of shy. I just feel shy. I don't know why.

Do you know what? I do fucking know why. I can tell you why because I didn't livestream for like 48 hours, but that shouldn't be [inaudible 00:02:17] you should be allowed to not livestream for 48 hours without losing your flow zone. But I think because I was mentor yesterday, I could feel that it was aligned and divine for me to livestream yesterday and then ... What did I do instead? Oh, my goodness, I shouldn't even tell you what I did instead of livestreaming yesterday. I had like an hour to [inaudible 00:02:35] I thought I was going to livestream and what I did instead was watch Suits on Netflix, which I seemed to be watching all week long. I used to love that show a couple of years ago and I just haven't watched Netflix at all for at least a year. This week I've been watching Suits every single day, which is such a great show.

Then my friend, Billie Jane, and I were Facetiming the other day and he was like, "Oh, you're just doing that because she's going to get married now." And I'm like, "What? I'm not up to that season yet. I'm still in season four." I thought he meant on the show. He said, "No, no. She's marrying the Prince." Which is how I ended up watching some of the royal wedding yesterday because I felt connected to it and engaged to the whole thing.

Hello, everybody that's been jumping on. Yesterday I got the downlow and the intuition that I was supposed to livestream and instead I sat on that daybed up there and ate my food and watched Suits. Sometimes I just flat be a normal person for a minute and a half.

Okay, I can't see the screen at all. It's gone completely dark. You get into a wealth mindset. Well, you know what? I don't know what mindset I get into from watching it, I just like the banter. I like the funniness. It's a great story and, at the end of the day, you learn so much about story writing and copywriting and selling from watching really well written show. Not that I fricking need to learn it anyway because I'm such a natural, it just comes to me, comes through me and flows forth from me, besides which I practise it all the time. That certainly doesn't hurt as well.

Anyway, the screen is going super dark. Do you think that that means that the phone is having a little heat alarm meltdown? I'll just try to carry on anyway but I can't see the comments.

I'm doing my thing. I'm going to sit here in my bikini and get my tan on. I figure if I'm going to livestream then the least I can be doing is getting a tan on at the same time. My face is already starting to sweat. Every time I start livestreaming out here I'm like, "What am I doing? I'm just turning myself into an in-person, Bikram yoga studio because it's so fucking hot sitting here.

It is funny and I do love Harvey Spector, I've got a great quote on my phone from him. I feel like I know him personally. I feel like we're friends. I have a great ... You should always lis- ... Oh, now I wish I would remember what it was. I think it's a famous Harvey Spector quote but it's something like, "You would do anything for the person you love most in the world and make that person you" except it's funnier and most smart ass than that.

I'm back. Am I back? All right, mother fucker. Okay, so then I got on to do a livestream today anyway and I was like, I don't know, something about revealing the real truth. Something about being courageous enough to follow your deepest truth and that's what was coming through me today. What did I end up calling it? Deepest truth and freedom versus a shallow and reactive life. "Actually, I need to have more Suits in my life" says Pete. We're going to assume you mean the show of course and not actual real suits. But why not? Have it all. You get to have it all, Pete. You get to watch the show, Suits, and you get to have suits in your wardrobe as well if you desire. Whatever you desire is yours. I granted it. I mean now I'm getting caught up in my reality thing again. I was going to say, "It's my reality anyway" but we already had that conversation the other day.

The deepest truth thing. Actually the reasons that I came up with the title for this livestream was very much not like deep and spiritual and powerful and transformational, although maybe it's powerful and transformational.

I came out of my hot yoga class this morning ... I actually went out last night and had a reasonably decent big night out. I went out 100% ... It wasn't that big. It was big enough. I went out 100% with people that I've never met before, even before I got there. I'm super proud of myself. I'm being very social. So putting myself in a ... Well, it wasn't awkward at all but what could potentially be an awkward or uncomfortable situation, going along, meeting new people that you never met before and then that kind of initial [inaudible 00:06:36] awkwardness and being surrounded by a group of people of which you know none of them, and then gradually getting into a flow zone through the evening. It's pretty cool.

This morning I woke up and I had a little bit of a headache, let's be honest. I went to hot yoga. I came out of hot yoga and I was like, "Oh, I should probably go and eat because if I don't eat then I've got whatever that's going on through the day today and I probably won't get to eat until later." So I nearly went in and sat down to eat and I was thinking about having this chocolate protein smoothie that I have all the time, the café here, and some eggs and that sort of thing. Then I was thinking, "Or I could do this livestream instead" and I was kind of caught up in, "Well, I think I desire to eat. I think I desire to sit down and have my protein smoothie and do some journaling and eat."

I kind of stopped outside the café and I was like, "Hmm, is that my deepest truth?" Hey, hey, Shannon. Say hi if you're jumping on, everyone, and do jazz hands, because why would you not?

So I was like, "Is that my deepest truth?" I am literally standing there outside the café staring at the menu for ages which the staff were probably thinking super weird because I got there nearly every day, like I don't need to look at the menu. I was just tuning in. I'm like, "Is it my deepest truth that I desire to sit down right now and have a protein smoothie or is it my deepest truth that I desire to come and livestream?" And I was like, "Well, I don't know if I really feel like [inaudible 00:07:48] after this" and then I [inaudible 00:07:49] and blah, blah, blah, probably end up not eating. I kind of just stopped myself and I went into, "What is the deep truth here? If I was fully honouring my deep truth, what would it be?" And the deepest truth was, I don't actually really need to eat. I don't really feel like eating, it was more like I'm reacting to some sort of slight desire to eat or to have something in my body, coupled with a little resistance around doing livestream for some reason. Probably just because I feel like I got out of the habit because I didn't do a livestream.

Okay, all right. Hey, hey, we're back. I think the Facebook gods are feeling my vibe that I'm not fully owning that I'm meant to be here. There's something in me where I'm not fully owning being here. I'm feeling disconnected.

It's definitely partly I didn't livestream for two days, but then on Friday I livestreamed with my friend, Chris, and on Thursday I livestreamed with Patrick, so I haven't done a livestream by myself for like four or five days. It's just something that completely feeds and fuels my soul to do a live thing, livestreams for other people. Oh, my God. Super flow zone, particularly if you do it with the right person, obviously. But there's something in me where I need to be fully showing up and sharing my content with the world. I guess that's what this is about, right?

I had that kind of vibe this morning like, "I don't really need to. It's Sunday morning, whatever. I was out last night. I'm going out again tonight. Like to just get my chill on. Have some food, chill out, then talk to my clients after that." And it was just that [inaudible 00:09:08] truth coming up inside of me that was like, "No, girl. You're going to get on and talk and you're going to share because you're a goddamn messenger and that's what you're here to do." Now I start to feel the flow coming over me.

[inaudible 00:09:19] I just got a notification from one [inaudible 00:09:22] online who I love and I just feel like it's synchronicity that her name just popped up on my laptop computer down there right when I felt the flow come over me.

When I talk about deepest truth, I didn't say honouring but I'll say it now, honouring your deepest truth. Honouring your deepest truth, having the courage to acknowledge and recognise and then live by your deepest truth ... Thank you for the press place stickers, guys. Use my little stickers. If you look inside the emoji box on the right hand side of your screen, just to the inside left of that, there's a sticker button. If you press that sticker button you'll see some cool, creative stickers that you can send that my team have made up for me, which is just kind of fun. It's like being in the audience and interacting at the Katrina Ruth Show.

Having the courage to recognise, to honour, to give yourself permission around and then also to live by your deepest truth is so critical and it is something that applies in all areas, big and small. Like I was using this little, silly example of do I have a fucking smoothie or do I do a livestream? It's kind of silly, but it's also these small moments, my moment in day by day, of what make up our lives. Right?

For me it's something where I've made it a must. I've made it a priority. I've made it a personal rule or philosophy I live by that I do honour my deepest truth. That I do take the time if I ever feel unsure about anything big or small, I'm going to stop, literally in the middle of the street just now staring at a menu, I'm going to stop wherever I am, whether physically in real life or just kind of internally, and I'm going to tune in. I'm going to be like, "Hmm, what is my deepest truth here?" Because, on the surface of it, it doesn't fucking matter. What does it matter whether I spend 11:00 am on a Sunday having a smoothie or doing a livestream? In the moment, for today, I could say it doesn't matter. But then again, maybe one person will hear this livestream right now who is going to have the rest of the course of their life changed because they got the key copy [inaudible 00:11:09] or the awakening or the wake up call that they needed, and how is that going to then impact the people that they're here to impact?

Literally, me showing up here today impacts the entire collective and since this is my reality and I created it, it impacts the entire [inaudible 00:11:23] my reality as well. Right? So every small moment impacts every big moment and there's no way that we can say that it doesn't.

It also destroys. Even if we choose inter-resistance, let's say .... Hey, hey, Lisa. Even if we choose inter-resistance. Even if we choose into something that was not aligned or we would look back and go, "Oh, that wasn't aligned and I know that what I should have done or what was aligned or what my soul was guiding me to do was to show up and to give my content or to put myself forward into that situation, or to go to the thing or not go to the thing or whatever it was."

Well, that's still what we've chosen and everything's perfect and everything's meant to be, so I really believe there are no mistakes. There are no screw ups. There's never a possibility or an option for me to look back and say, "I should have done this." Like I could look back and say, "Well, the truth is that it wasn't aligned for me to put myself in that situation or to do whatever different thing I did or to not pursue another thing that I did kind of lean away from or have fear around" but it's still what I chose in that moment. So, therefore, it what I was aligned and maybe that was the growth pathway that I got to experience for that point of time in my life and maybe even for the remainder of my life. Right?

So it's a really cool contradiction where there's never any right or wrong way because whatever you did choose was the right passageway that you were meant to choose. Then, at the same time, moment by moment, the question that I like to ask is always, "Well, what is aligned? What is right? What is it that I'm meant to choose? What is it that my soul is directing me to do?" And what I find is that when I allow myself to just trust in what I'm being directed to from within, that that's when everything flows in my life.

Now, I guess I show a lot of kind of cool results or outcomes in my business in life on the internet and people see that I've done the work and that I've created epic results. But where it really flows and where I really know those results have come from is a series of moments, moment by moment, where I've said yes to my soul and where I've felt some level of, I guess, discomfort or ... God, I just keep moving because the shade keeps moving and I'm trying to keep the phone in the shade and myself in the sun.

I'm just going to check my comments over here on the computer so I can see properly. All right, good.

So, the series of like moment by moment, breath by breath, day by day of responding to flow, responding to what our soul is guiding us to do, responding to our highest truth. I talk a lot with clients and even in blogs and previous livestreams around this being something that comes from courage. I believe that courage is a huge part of living your life purposefully and living your life according to truth. Because, quite frequently, it's easier or it seems initially easier, it's more comfortable to do something that is like more following resistance. Right? So it's more comfortable, would it be more comfortable for me to just go to café and have a little Sunday morning brunch? Nothing wrong with that, but it's not what I knew my souls was guiding me to do. I knew that I was pretty mild, somewhat mild, pretty fucking mild form of resistance around doing a livestream, which is just like, "I do it all the fucking time". Either way I'd be fine. Whatever. Whether I livestream today or not really doesn't matter in this game of day, except for the fact that what if I believed that I always get to follow soul guidance and soul alignment. Right?

It's just this really small kind of discomfort of, "No, I'm going to get over this weird, tiny resistance that I have and I'm going to get on and I'm going to do this thing." Then it kind of doesn't surprise me that then the wifi went out two or three times already on this livestream and froze and then the screen went dark and I kind of can't see your comments or what's going on. It's like, "All right. Yeah. I've seen like that pull is still" ... Do you notice that? Like the resistance will still come up and be like, "Are you sure? Are you sure? Are you sure you're really committed to this?" And it would have been really easy for me to be like, "Oh, well the wifi's not working." I actually had that thought like, "Fuck it. I'll just shut it down. I'll go eat something."

Then it was like, "No. Stay with what's inside of you because you know you're here to share something with the world." Whatever that might happen to be in this moment in time, in this livestream right here, but in a broader sense and in a bigger sense as well.

What I notice is that so many people out there, and I've certain been guilty of this so many times in my life, so many people out there who are creating their lives based on reactivity. Right? Maybe something happens and they feel fired up or triggered or upset or angry, so then they start to create even like their content. For example, in their business from that place or other aspects of their life. Literally, it's like, "Oh, here's the aligns pathway. This is staying on purpose and staying on alignment and staying on your truth and on your path" and then you allowed something to pull you off. Now you're like literally creating your life reactively to something that kind of got under your skin or got your back up or got you feeling reactive or got you feeling defensive, or whatever it might be. Then it's like, "Well, how does that then carry into the next thing and the next thing and the next thing? You literally see people carry it their entire lives going down this kind of segue pathway instead of staying on their true path.

It could just be, "Oh, but I feel uncomfortable. I feel like awkward or I feel shy, or I'm not ready to put myself out there yet. Or what if people don't jump on this livestream?" Whatever stuff people have to do with showing up in their businesses. Right? In their industry? That sort of thing. You feel it all. You feel the fear and then what do you do when you feel that fear or resistance? Do you take a deep breath and act from soul guidance and act from your deepest truth? Because that's what creates fucking freedom. Or are you going to tell yourself a story like, "Oh, well. I didn't really have time. I didn't really feel that good and I really kind of wanted to do this other thing instead and the circumstances weren't quite right, so I just kind of couldn't" when actually you're just not following faith and you're not following your deepest truth and you're act-

Oh, what's up, Facebook? Welcome to the livestream. Super grainy, isn't it? Can I turn this light on?

Yes, please.

Thank you. Okay, that's a bit better. I am on my way out. I'm going out. Got some cool stuff happening tonight. I've been tearing some shreds off today, people, mainly off my own self. What's up, Kitty? Hey, who else is there? Ooh, how do I share this? Hey, Declan. Hello, people of the internet. How can I share this livestream from my personal page into my Daily Asskickery group? I feel like an idiot, like I think I should know how to do things on Facebook at this point in my career. Hi, Candice. Can somebody share this into the Daily Asskickery Facebook group? Ooh, actually I have an idea, one second, pause yourselves right there, I'm going to bring it in a moment. I'm going to exit out of this screen and see if I can share it in my Safari browser.

All right, I'm so intelligent, I'm so impressed with myself. So I'm in a cab, I'm here in Bali, there's a little bit of Bali, I'm always in Bali, you know that, I'm probably going to move to Bali. I'm heading out to a beach club, badass beach club. My friend just messaged me and said, make sure I get one of the daybeds if I get there first. We're going to do so may shenanigan-y things, it's just how it has to be today. It's getting to about that time of life o'clock, isn't it? It's getting to shenanigan o'clock, I would say.

I've felt the kind of fury just building up in me. If you read my blog post that I published 20 minutes ago, you will understand. Now, I know I just exited the fricking screen, but I've got to get one more thing and I'm going to put it in the comments. I'll tell you in a minute, I'm pretty angry at myself, I'm actually going to do an entire ... The first training module for my new course, which is called, and don't go to the URL, because there is ... Well, there probably is, but I'm just calling it that because it's just how it came out. So it's not my URL, all right? So my new course is, and it is a 10 day smack down, it's going to be full on, I've got so much energy and passion. The first module is called Get Fucking Angry, because I'm fucking angry, I am so fucking angry at myself right now.

It all started, actually my awareness of my own shittiness, at my own self started so the link, don't click on the link, whatever you do, do not click on links that I give you. All right, there's some Bali views for you. It was a pile of a stones, I hope you enjoyed it. What one did I tell you about the other day? No, fuck that shit, that can come later on in the week, it's actually amazing.

I just can't follow a plan. It was a three day plan, it was a four day plan, whatever fucking plan it was that my team had that I agreed to, that it was my plan maybe, but then I pre planned something and then I just wanted to smack myself in the head, basically. I'm going to get angry at you for you. I'm happy to get angry at you [inaudible 00:03:25]after this and yell at you if you like? Well, no I won't because I'm going to be at Fins meeting amazing people and having the best time ever. I'm going to go meet so many cool new people tonight. Last night I went out with people who I've never even met before. Like just put myself in a brand new situation, 100% new people. New people that were just created yesterday, I created them into my own reality.

I mean, my team don't know yet about this because it is Sunday. Christian, what's up? It is Sunday in Australia so I've actually done something behind my team's back and possibly Broman Kelly will be on it because she's like a bloodhound that one. She's on everything. My brother definitely won't be on it because he'll be like, not checking his WhatsApp, but I did message him on WhatsApp and I said on the WhatsApp, I said, "I'm sorry I couldn't do it I was dying," and then I sent him a link to my post that I just put up. Not even an hour ago and the post if you missed it, you must read it. Can somebody get the link to that post, if you're on your laptop computer. Get the URL to that blog so people can read it. It's called you snivelling, whiny, little bitch.

And you're going to read it and you're going to enjoy it. I'm rebelling against myself first and foremost, but I did initially put a picture up with that post that said Fuck you, I won't do what you told me. Then I took it down and changed the photo because I didn't want my team to think I was saying fuck you to them, but really I meant it to my own higher self. Still I have just screwed up the entire plan for the, possibly year. But fuck it, we'll do all that anyway. We'll do the faith and peppers thing because it's freaking amazing, but right now I've got some limbs to tear. Limb from limb. Oops, I just punched the roof of the taxi. Lily Bangkok knows what's up. She was on it like white on rice. It was crazy, the whole... I don't even know what that expression means, it just popped of me. What does that even mean? I think I got it from a movie.

You can see that I'm coming back to life. I'm like one of those little dehydrated towels, you know when you check in at an amazing high end hotels in Bali, they give you one of those small dehydrated towels and then you put it in some water and it comes to life. That's basically what I am. Declan says I'm worth rebelling against. Thank you, I rebel against myself anytime I like. It's been festering away at me. It's been quite a disgusting internal situation, hence your whiny, snivelling little bitch. Of course, as usual, I didn't even notice that it was happening and it's just, like it is an old freaking pattern that I've done several times. Which I got somewhat triggered by when I was called out on that the other day. On a joint livestream and somebody said to me, you've already done this same story three times before. Can you just get some new material or something? Which I thought was a little bit cheeky, but true. I always appreciate getting called out, only if it's true and by the right person, but I was still kind of shitty about it. Now I'm just having to own it and that's the truth of the matter.

Then I got called out again, two days ago, by the same person. I was like fucking hell, you're right and I knew that. So I probably shut down all my Facebook ads and all plans and all of everything and I've just been sitting in my own disgusting-ness. I'm not going to say enjoying it, but I've been marinating, marinating in my own disgusting-ness because I fucking deserve to. I needed to feel it. There's a field, enjoy the field. Blake what's up? I have a lot of respect for you Blake. Everybody should follow Blake.

Leah said I thought you said tampon instead of towel. No? Not at all, but it's actually kind of the same analogy. Alright, so I've just been marinating in my own disgusting-ness. I've been sitting in it. It's actually kind of true in a physical sense as well because in Bali most of the time, you're just covered in black sweat and who knows what else. So, it's true in many senses of the word that I meant my own emotional, what's a good word for it? Snivel-ery? Wussiness? Diluted horror, diluted horror. That's how I feel about it. Marinating in my own diluted horror. It's not been fun to marinate in. It's been quite vial up in here. I've still had a lot of fun mind you, I've had a fabulous night out last night, been to many fantastic things. But I've been conscious and aware of what a sell out I've been being. I've had so many good titles through me for live streams and blogs. I'm going to write about myself being a sell out tomorrow. I'm going to get some memes, I'm going to make some freaking memes.

Okay here's a rice field, we should all look at it. Check it out. This is where I use to live, look. Right down that street, down there. Actually it was over a fence and you had to climb over a fence and down a hill and roll down it sideways, but I lived there anyway for a year. I had many coffees, possibly several too many, but it was required. I had to kick myself in the iron ass, I had to take my own advice. You know, sometimes I'll say to my clients, look you need to slap yourself on each cheek and pour a backard of cold water on your head and remember who the fuck you are. That's relatively what I had to do today.

I'm going to get you the comment now because I'm not explaining it very well, but I think you get the idea which is that we should all just take a moment to pause at the horror show that has been the Katrina Ruth show for the past week and a half. I guess it's not too bad to have only lost your way for like 10 days, and now I can return to being a badass. But it's been a horrible 10 days, hasn't it? Hasn't it been disgusting? Have you noticed? Who's noticed? I just can't even understand what was going through this crazy head of mine. I really can't bear the sight of myself, except that I fully love and accept myself. So I am quite happy about the whole situation, regardless. Because I'll come back stronger, and more powerful and more excited than ever. Wait right there, wait one second, don't go anywhere.

Okay, I'm back. I'm going to see if I could put a...what's happening here, it's very bumpy on this road. Okay, I just left a comment. You can read that comment at your own leisure, it's quite long. But it tells you about the new programme. You're going to need to jump on it quickly. I was so behind..because there's a top 10 bonus that's going on with me this week. But that's the whole sales page right there, deal with it. It's also in the P.S of the blog that I just posted. If you need a bit of a slap up the ass? Cheek? In the ass? Wherever you like your slaps, you're going to want to go and read that blog post. What it's about really, is we're so...Okay this is a cool wall, did you see that wall with the girl on it? Man, I need to come back and have a photo shoot on that wall one day.

You were the first one Lily, actually I don't know because I didn't log in and look at my PayPal or anything. But you were the one that commented so you might have been the first one. I don't know if anybody else just bought it on the site and didn't bother commenting. But I didn't have a sales page. I don't even have an infusion self link. I went old school. I still know how to do things old school on the internet before I had staff. So sneakily logged into my own PayPal which I never do and which I probably don't even think I know how to get into anymore. I made my own subscription links to my own payment buttons and then I just put the mother fucking PayPal button right here on the internet. Like a crazy person, I know, I'm out of control. Somebody needs to control me. It's perfect timing because I'm going out and I'm going to be totally out of control, and do all the things...okay here we are.

We've arrived. I'm going to keep going, I'm going to get the money out though, for this taxi driver who's probably what on earth on up to. Britta, I know you'll appreciate the title of that blog, I saw you press like on that blog. I felt you'd be quite happy with it because I feel like you are somebody like me that enjoys a good ass kicking. Particularly when it comes from their own self. I wrote it for you from my high self for your high self which is really roughly the same thing because we are one in the same person. Let me put my air pods in so that not everybody else to listen to me while I stand out this front of a beach club and shout out [inaudible 00:11:46].

So we're definitely going to go meet some new fabulous people tonight when she gets here. We're going to do many interesting things. Thank you. Alright, thank you. Good, how are you?

Good thank you.

Alright, alright, I'm just waiting for my friend. Alright, so, look at the lighting. I look amazing. This is way better. I should hang out here all the time. Alright, where should I sit? Let me just perch over here. Look at all these scooters, it's scooter central. Why don't I do more live streams outdoor in Bali? Okay, so you gotta read that, Britta you're going to be in there anyway, you've got to read that...Okay, have you seen my tattoos down my side? Because I feel like this tops highlight them really well. Okay, my phone just told me I was in rotate. Rotate, I'm trying to rotate. Here you go. It's just a good view with that top on.

Okay, am I making any sense. Have I said anything that relatively noteworthy or interesting? I'm going to make a meme and the meme is going to be "Don't you hate it when you accidentally wake up boring as fuck" or something like that. Don't steal my meme you meme fanatics because that meme is coming tomorrow. I'm going to kick so much fucking ass this week that's it's going to be ridiculous. So you needed that blog, everybody needed that blog. Somebody needs to get the blog link and put the link here into the comment-y thingy thing.

Anyway, so then what happened? I'm just going to drop Patrick in it, why not? He messaged me and said he didn't really care for my Facebook ads, that's what happened. This is probably where it all started. It started before that, okay? It started started the second I said yes to thinking that a goal could, at all remotely be about money or about, what's it called, growth and numbers. Growth about tearing shit up on the internet and all the things that I already said in the blog which I probably don't need to report about [inaudible 00:13:47] anyway. That's when it all started. I got myself side tracked by the idea that I might do things purely for growth reasons. Sometimes, I just forget and then I run the same fucking script [inaudible 00:13:59]. Update my hard drive, I don't know what's going on in this whole software programme. It's quite disgusting. We already talked about that and about how disgusting it is.

Lily you're a legend, thank you. Everybody read that blog that Lily just popped in, or it's just like the post that's underneath this livestream when you jump off. So it was festering away, I've been feeling like a clipped, like a clipped fucking eagle. Like an eagle with it's wings clipped, and I get angry. I'm like an angry eagle with it's wings clipped. I'm surprised more people haven't had their thank you Claire...I'm surprised more people haven't had their heads ripped off by me, but probably because I've been in Bali, I've been quite happy. So it was festering away, and I was marinating in my own disgusting-ness. At the same time I was having just the best time ever in Bali because I always do. And becoming super Bali flow and super flow, and then I was just underneath it I like, just shitty and I'm going to punch a bitch soon and it's probably going to be my own higher self.

Meanwhile, I was trying to tell myself some pretty little story about whatever, so then, yeah that was what was going on. Then I stopped selling. Like 10 days ago because I was bored with everything. I was bored with the whole entire internet, every single one of you. I'm sorry to tell you, but when you're bored with other people it's because you're bored with yourself, so. I stopped selling. I don't think in 12 years online that I've ever had a 10 day period of not selling, it's unheard of, it's unseemly, it's unbecoming, it's uncouth, and it should not happen. It's just been a horrible thing to behold, to be quite honest with you. But at the same time it's been an amazing, powerful reminder. Amazing, powerful reminder. Amazing, powerful reminder. [inaudible 00:15:35] Amazing, powerful reminder. And I'm so grateful now, I'm so excited to smack myself down [inaudible 00:15:42] myself up. Oh wait, and everyone joining as well. Don't go to the URL. I have to keep explaining that. I don't know why I like to complicate things, but it's just funny.

The sell is in the comment that's not pinned, but it's at the bottom of the blog as well. There is no sales page, you got to go...I just went old school, I put a PayPal straight on Facebook. I'm such a rule breaker. Anyway, all that was happening and then, yes, we're going to drop Patrick in because then he messages me and he's like Listen. He didn't say it exactly like this but this is relatively the tone. I don't really care for your Facebook ads, is what he said. He didn't care for them at all. He said it in a more subtle way than that, but I was like "tell me more, tell me exactly what you mean, tell me right now." I was very demanding about it.

My night is going to be so epic Shannon. We're going to tear shit up. And my friend who is coming down to meet me is quite the irreverent one as well, so it's going to be, going to be interesting. We're on a mission, a mission to have all the fun, it's going to happen. I already warmed up for it last night, so tonight is getting even bigger night.

Yes, he said that in an even nicer way. Sort of nicer? It was was to the point, it was direct. It had to be said, and I was like, "Whoa, people don't call me out on shit, but okay you do and you can and you're probably like the only person who can." And I was curious, I was straight away curious because he was very subtle about what he said. And I knew exactly what he meant though straight away. Because I was like, "I god damn knew it". And so I just wrote back and I was like "fuck" and by "fuck" I meant "I know exactly what you mean". And then I said, "tell me more" and then, yeah, basically I just had to confess and admit that I am the most boring person on the entire internet. It's quite sad to admit, but it's just the truth of the matter.

Alright I'm looking around to see if I see anybody that I know. Not yet. I think I'm fairly noticeable though just perching up here and people are going to see...Lily's just dropping links. She should be on commission. She's just dropping freaking PayPal links. You can read the whole description as well, or you can just do what Lily did and click the PayPal link and buy things without reading anything. Yeah, so we basically established that I'm the most boring person on the internet. And I don't know how I've gotten away with everything that I have gotten away up until now while being so lame. I love and fully accept myself anyway because, just like if I gain a bit of weight, I still love myself. It's not self love if I gain weight, and it's also not self love based on if I become the most boring fucking person on the internet. Which is exactly what happened. But I will kick my own ass.

Okay, I feel like why is she not here and should we go on a little hunt for her? Okay she did tell me to go in and secure a day bed and I haven't done that. I'm just meandering and lurking out the front. It is what it is. What else do I even need to tell you? I don't know, I'm like giving away my main content for tomorrow already. Don't you just hate it when wake up fucking boring, but I'll try to break it down for you a little more.

I don't know where I'm going with this however [inaudible 00:18:46] tonight is just going to get lit up because I've got the energy that's coming through. It's going to keep exploding this fire inside of me. You know that I'm about to go into mad as fuck super flow now, right? So that's why I'm actually really grateful that I've turned boring because now I got angry at myself and like I said the first module of training is going to be called 'Get fucking angry'. So it's going to result in incredible content, incredible super flow. I'm going to reverse age even faster than I already have.

I didn't need to write reverse age into the description of the other, I'm going to edit that in. So that's one of the things that you get, reverse ageing. And if you think I'm even remotely joking, then look at my skin. Look at this glow, I'm nearly 40. Well I'm 38, I'm nearly 39. So I'm not making it up. I'm just telling you the truth as I see it and as I create it and as I write it. So you will get the reverse ageing included, that's a free bonus. That's a free bonus for the first 10 people, thank you Greta, it's all the alignment. It's the alignment and my happiness. And that's even with the disgusting-ness of the past 7 days, mind you. Imagine how good I'm going to look by the end of this week. There's people literally right there while I'm saying this.

[inaudible 00:20:00] a woman who also reverse ages because she's amazing as fuck and one of my bestest friends in the world since forever and a hundred years. Okay, what was I up to. So you're going to get a top 10 bonus, you get a 1 on 1 call with me. Top 20 bonus, you get the 1 on 1, no...if you're in the 10 you get the top 20 bonus you get 5 days of my journaling, that can be a little frightening for some people but it is what it is. Top everybody bonus, you get reverse ageing. I'm going to say the average will be 2-5 years in a 10 day period. And I'm not joking, okay?

Whoops, maybe I am in trouble, I just got a WhatsApp that came at the top of my screen that said all of your Facebook ads have now been turned off, please advise when you're free to discuss. I was like “oh, shit”. Am I being watched? Technically I'm in charge of this company because it's my company and I created it, but when you have a team and you give them licence to do things, as a rebel without a cause, and I have many causes. You then naturally start to fill obliged to just rebel against your own team. Even though they're there to help and support you. But actually, actually what their role is obviously to help and support you, to be all that you are. And if I'm not being the craziest f- creator and breaking all the rules including my own rules and doing mad ridiculous shit on the internet, then nobody's ass is going to get paid in this business.

That's the reality and do you know what else is going to happen? I'm going to tell you and it's probably going to upset you because it's directly about you. If that happens, my world my potential implode, I would never actually go this far. But let's just play it out and as a result of that, considering that I created this reality and it's my reality, all of you would disappear. And you would just be done, your characters would be eliminated, so actually I'm just sitting here, outside of the beach club, waiting for my friend, saving fucking lives. And I think you could send me a love heart shower for that.

And also, I said an intention two days ago, okay I'm definitely getting high, I'm starting to trip. I never need anything because I just create the trip inside myself. Only two days ago, I said an intention that I was going to do a hilarious fuck life stream on the weekend and I forgot about that. It definitely didn't happen yesterday because I was being insanely boring, and just a disgusting sight to behold, like we've already discussed. And now I've just realised that I've slipped into performer, entertain mode. And their playing one of my top songs. Okay where is...where is she? She's still not here? Hang on, wait. No that's not her. Yes we've found a person. Okay I'm going to have to go. Would you like to appear on my live stream? It's been quite out of control. Alright, I've found somebody who's going to get up to all sorts of shenanigans with.

Oh, yeah.

This is the amazing Melissa Withers, and it's going to be crazy, if you, well, if you would have seen this live video, you would have seen that I was probably on a lot of shit. [laughter 00:23:16] and said a whole lot of shit is about to go down. So that's basically the entire story, we have to go. This many people we have to go and find a bed. Watch the replay, read the comment, buy the thing. It's going to sell out. Exactly what she said. Alright, yes. Bye bye. Good luck.

Katrina Ruth: So I think it might be the best thing that was ever invented in the history of mankind.

Chris: I think it would be. It is. Welcome to Katrina Ruth.

Katrina Ruth: Welcome to Katrina Ruth. I am Katrina Ruth Show I think you will find, hashtag.

Katrina Ruth: Quick bring the kitchen over here so everyone can see your wizardry. Hello people of the internet. We have an amazing presentation for you today. I'm even going to call it a presentation. I'm going to be super American.

Katrina Ruth: Hi Theo! Hang on. We is live! We is live. Okay. Don't even show them. We should do a [inaudible 00:00:59]. We can't just give it away right from the start.

Chris: So...

Katrina Ruth: We are going to talk about many things. I can't see how many people are on my live stream because that little thing is [crosstalk 00:01:08]

Chris: Let's...

Katrina Ruth: This makes me feel upset. Do you think it was kind of selfish of us that yesterday we had an entire conversation over lunch about recording it and sharing it with the world.

Chris: It should always be recorded when we actually talk at the end of the day. What?

Katrina Ruth: We have a WiFi issue already. We won't be foiled. No don't finish. It might have changed itself onto the hotspot. The hotspot of the villas. If you go into settings and see what WiFi it's telling you. Just talk amongst yourselves. Chris has a Wifi issue on his livestream. It's a presentation. It's a conversation.

Chris: Do you see this?

Katrina Ruth: I don't know. Maybe it doesn't care for having two live streams on it at once. Try again. Now, we're back.

Chris: Ta-Da!! Great job!

Katrina Ruth: Well done. So yesterday, we had an incredible conversation about being in fantastic shape and eating potatoes.

Chris: Sponsored by carbohydrates. This episode.

Katrina Ruth: This episode is brought to you by the letter P, for potatoes.

Chris: We were extreme carbo-phobes. We both kind of came from the same school of thought.

Katrina Ruth: The worst kind. Back in the day.

Chris: [inaudible 00:02:45]

Katrina Ruth: Just see what happens.

Chris: We came from a very carbo-phobe...

Katrina Ruth: Upbringing. I want to say upbringing.

Chris: School of thought.

Katrina Ruth: In the fitness world.

Chris: In the fitness world for sure.

Katrina Ruth: We are going to get to a point at some time, and we are going to reveal to you the best tasting super food blend in the world. Then we are going to sell it to you. With just incredible flare and pzazz.

Chris: Jazz hands.

Katrina Ruth: Your mind will be expanded. But first, we are going to tell you a few things. We have known each other for over 10 years. That's a long while anyway.

Chris: Would be, yeah.

Katrina Ruth: It would've been 2008.

Chris: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: It's been 10 years this year. The first [inaudible 00:03:28] course in Sydney. We used to go to the same courses. We were indoctrinated as maybe you have been, into the idea that carbs are bad for you. You can't eat carbs. We are going to talk about many things today.

Katrina Ruth: We are going to prove an amazing product. We are going to have a conversation about nutrition.

Chris: I think this is also now printables or ideas on why we think you can be in better shape. Live a better life. Ultimately what we are doing and why we really connected, we went through so many bad things. I'll just speak from experience. From street dining, through competing as a fitness model, I went through a bout of bulimia. I went through really unhealthy relationships with food. It sucked. It was really bad.

Chris: Now, I do things completely different and that's why we are laughing about it. We remembered while we were having lunch, we completely go by a different set up principles when it comes to food, movement, and life. We are so much happier. I'm in better shape. I am stronger. I literally beat my dead lift last week. This is all through not through dieting.

Katrina Ruth: Oh you're back. How come much of this show is there? And only a little bit here.

Chris: We are talking into two phones.

Katrina Ruth: We have some high tech studio shoot set up. We are very impressive. We impress ourselves.

Katrina Ruth: Mine is similar to what Chris just said. I went through fitness obsession days from when I was not even 20 years old. Then into fitness competing. I was a personal trainer for 13 years, that's how we met. Chris is from Sydney and I'm from Melbourne but we went into the same courses and we connected on our principals and values and outlook on life. Then we both started building on my brand and we both feel super successful on my brand. That's just a little bit about us.

Katrina Ruth: I was so obsessive about food in my body. I thought I was really committed to health. I wanted to be really committed to health. I think like a lot of women and men, in my twenties, I was so desperate to look a certain way and I wanted to look a certain way. I thought I had to look a certain way in order to be good enough.

Katrina Ruth: Can you do me a favour? Can you put the flashlight on my phone. The little light. No, no. The front of it. You see the flash button. Can you press that? I don't know if that makes a difference. Why does it look so dark. Okay, I won't worry about it.

Chris: It's kind of the shading. Is it on the camera or no?

Katrina Ruth: No. It's just my imagination.

Katrina Ruth: I went through all the food obsession stuff. Ten years of eating with some bulimia off and on. At one stage, I was taking 50 or 60 supplements a day.

Chris: Like Skittles.

Katrina Ruth: I remember being in the gym and you would have a little bag with your supplements in it. It would have 30 different pills in it for each meal, minimum. Sometimes I think I had 40 and you needed a 20 minute break between [crosstalk 00:06:55]

Chris: Have you ever thought about how much money you spent on supplements?

Katrina Ruth: I might have some point. I always made more than I spend. It was good stuff. We would take some of the best supplements in the world and we were committed. We were doing what we thought was right. If you fast forward to now where we are both older. We both have families, kids, busy businesses as entrepreneur's, living location. Still just as committed to wanting to look and feel fucking amazing. In fact, I would say more committed.

Katrina Ruth: At this point in life, there's no fucking way I'm going to take 30 or even 10 different supplements with each meal. I'm not going to do crazy extreme shit to my body any more. I still want to look and feel my absolute best. Which I think is a perfect segway into our amazing product.

Chris: Exactly right. For me, this was born out of necessity. I literally looked at myself in the cupboard one day and was like, "This is a joke. Why is there so much going on. It shouldn't need to be this way whatsoever." This is how it was created. What is it that we need at the end of the day? What is it that we actually need to thrive? Let's just focus on that because we don't have the time to do the other stuff.

Chris: Time is our most precious asset that we have right now.

Katrina Ruth: We don't want to, we don't have the time. I kept buying supplements and they just kept sitting there and then I would feel guilty about it. I do know and understand that in a perfect world you shouldn't need supplements but it's not a perfect fucking world right? We are absorbing so many toxins continually from the environment. We are not always eating ideal food or getting enough sleep and stress. There's so many other considerations.

Katrina Ruth: Both of us with our knowledge and backgrounds, if you want to be at your absolute peak and have a standard of excellence in your brain or your body, your gut and all those things. How you look as well, then it is beneficial to take an amazing quality supplement but you're not going to take all this shit.

Katrina Ruth: I really tried so hard to get into the greens powder thing. As a fitness queen from way back and somebody who is still obsessive about fitness I was like, "I got to do this freaking greens powder shit." All my friends would be getting it down and working it down and I'm just a little bit defiant, you know?

Katrina Ruth: Your screen just exited itself. Your phone is just like it's not happening. I'm a little defiant. A lot of people I know would force these vile tasting greens powders down because they were like, "It's so good for you." I would buy it. I think at one stage I had 10 different containers in my cupboard and I would just not take it. Like most of the people who follow me online, I'm a rebel. I'm not going to do something that doesn't feel good for me.

Katrina Ruth: I'm done with the green thing even though I know it's so good for you and amazing. You can see this story is in a long drawn out many, but I think we should reveal our product and then maybe talk a little bit about how this came about. I don't know.

Chris: Let's do it. Let's reveal it right now.

Katrina Ruth: Reveal, wait! Send a love hash out if you want to see our product. Send me the love heart.

Chris: Let's go. Should we wait?

Katrina Ruth: Don't try to wait for the love hearts. Make them work for it.

Chris: You got to.

Katrina Ruth: You got to.

Chris: Make the love hearts.

Katrina Ruth: My audience knows that I love-[crosstalk 00:10:28] That was really cute and it's broken. I feel like you guys can go more. Go more. Go More. You can do it.

Chris: That's very funny. That's so cute.

Katrina Ruth: They know what I like. They take care of me see.

Chris: Oh, it's like a flower. [crosstalk 00:10:45]

Katrina Ruth: How long did it take to formulate this?

Chris: It's about two years in the making. Can I just say something as well?

Katrina Ruth: Say it all.

Chris: When you said, we used to take the best supplements in the world, this is actually made by the same manufacturer.

Katrina Ruth: It is the best pharmaceutical grade stuff in the world. All U.S. based. Incredible quality. There it is. There's our product. We are ready to bring it to market.

Chris: Super food blend, the company that we have formed is My body blends because it's really all about your body. It's like what is it that you need? The blend of everything you need. That's kind of the conceptual of what's come through.

Chris: The reason that we've chosen a chocolate greens to start off with, is number 1, this is the best tasting greens you will ever drink. I'm so happy to say that. It is the best. We put a lot on the line for that.

Katrina Ruth: I have footage of over 20 entrepreneurs who've taste tested this at a party at my house. Late last year they were the first to taste test it as far as the public. I'm not kidding. Every single person was like, "Give it to me now, I need to buy it now." They have basically been harassing me ever since.

Chris: So sorry to you for making you wait.

Katrina Ruth: Everybody's whose tried it's actually here now.

Chris: So sorry.

Katrina Ruth: It is so good. Chris had done the work and put the time and effort into this to create this and bring the formulation to life. When he was first telling me on how to taste it, I was like, [crosstalk 00:12:20]. We were here in Bali have dinner together and he was like, "I will bring you some around tomorrow and you can try it." I'm like, "Okay, sure I'm going to try it obviously. Sure Sure." Everybody in the health market says that their product tastes amazing. You're like, "It's palatable if I hold my nose."

Katrina Ruth: Then, we made some up. What a great idea! Let's have a live demonstration right now. Suffice to say, when I did try it, I was like, "are you kidding me?" It's so hard for me to not curse. I'm trying to restrain my language here. It just comes out. It tastes phenomenal. We are going to tell you about everything that is in there in a moment.

Katrina Ruth: What do you need? We have a bowl of ice that we prepared earlier. Actually the butler brought it. Who takes a greens powder currently? Do you take a greens powder? Don't put your hand up, I'm not going to be able to see you. Put a comment in. Do you take a greens powder? I wonder why your live stream is sideways. Your comments are showing up sideways.

Chris: It's Instagram.

Katrina Ruth: Oh, your on insta.

Chris: Facebook kept crashing.

Katrina Ruth: Oh okay. Cool. That's why it's staying up there.

Katrina Ruth: Do you take a greens powder currently? Or, do you have the greens powder in your cupboard that you feel guilty about not taking because it tastes so bad.

Chris: How many different greens have you had before?

Katrina Ruth: Well, I've purchased like 10. Then tried one scoop of it. Trainers and friends kept recommending which ever one.

Chris: I've had about 30 or above.

Katrina Ruth: Then I used to have to put 4 or 5 lemons or limes in them in order to make it drinkable which is not terrible.

Chris: Like putting it in a smoothie or something else.

Katrina Ruth: But then you kill the smoothie. It's not the worst thing in the world. It's like you would force it down.

Katrina Ruth: Theo says, "Used to but haven't in a while." Did you make it strong?

Chris: Exactly, you tell the story.

Katrina Ruth: But we were going to do a-

Chris: What happens when you're having something really good? Let's say you are having a chocolate greens. Maybe it's a really good coffee. Or something else you can mix up in water or a shake. The dilemma that you have is what happens when you get right to the end and you've got maybe a little bit too much for one serving?

Katrina Ruth: Like one and a half scoops left.

Chris: Yeah, like one and a half servings left. Do you have one really good one? Or, do you break it into two? I'd love to know your answers because we went through and we had the exact same answer yesterday.

Katrina Ruth: What a dilemma. Do you go with two half assed ones? This is a true story because I've had three bottles of the product at home. A bunch of my greedy friends kept coming around and helped themselves. Literally people would come to my house, no kiss hello, just like, "Where's the chocolate greens Katty? Can I have some?" I'm not making this up.

Chris: That's rude.

Katrina Ruth: Mainly the boys. The girls are a little more polite. This is a true thing, right? So then it went really quickly. Then there was enough left for one really amazing shake. I would go like, "It's my last chocolate greens powder until we launch this thing." It was just the samples. So I'm going to have one amazing one or two half assed ones. Well, guess what you think I did?

Katrina Ruth: Shauna says, "One big assed one." Yeah, we were on board with that as well. Alright, let's do a live demonstration right now. Oh my god. This is the most amazing thing I ever tasted. We should manufacture and sell this.

Chris: It's almost our conversation.

Katrina Ruth: Can we do that? That really was my reaction. The first time I drank it I was like-

Chris: That's so funny.

Katrina Ruth: Holy shit. I feel like it's not possible to impact to you how good this tastes. I feel like you think I'm probably taking this up a little bit. I'm not and I did give it to 20 entrepreneurs when they came to a party at my house. We've got all their testimonials and we have their live immediate reactions on media. We filmed there initial reactions. We will release that video on Monday. 100% of them were like, "Holy shit!" And they were glugging it down like thirsty nomads in a desert out of Vera Wang glasses.

Katrina Ruth: It's incredible. It tastes so good. Honestly, I said to Chris, "Can you bring around some of the samples today so we can use it on the live." My real reaction is that I just wanted to drink it. Screw the live. I just wanted to have some.

Chris: It's perfectly fine. I think there are a few things we can talk to when it comes to the actual product. Number one, I don't care how healthy or good it is for you. If you can't take it. Or if it's not nice and you can't continue on with it, it's pointless at the end of the day.

Katrina Ruth: Right. You're just going to leave it in your cupboard which is what I did and I'm super health orientated, right?

Chris: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: But I still didn't take it.

Chris: Exactly. You're very motivated individual. You're a go getter. You make stuff happen. Still, if something tastes like ass, you're not going to drink.

Katrina Ruth: I don't hate ass. You heard it here. I don't. Some people will. Some people will force it down. A lot of friends and followers are defiant by nature and I don't want to do something that doesn't feel good for me even if I know it is good for me.

Chris: You shouldn't.

Katrina Ruth: I believe there is a way for everything to feel amazing.

Chris: It's like a diet. A diet can be really good for you but if you're not going to follow it then it's pointless because you're never going to stick with it and you're never going to get the results with it. Hands down, it's as simple as that.

Katrina Ruth: Mm-hmm (affirmative)-we should talk about the screw macros after this.

Chris: Yeah, we will. We will talk about those macros. That's why number one, it does taste so good. You're probably like, "Okay, you're just saying that." But no...literally it's this good.

Chris: When my daughters ask for chocolate, they are actually asking for this and that's what they think as a chocolate drink. It's filled with the good stuff. We can talk about the signs for the good stuff, why its got a super veg antioxidant blend. Why it's got a fruit anti-oxidant blend. Why it's got digestive support in it. Why its got a probiotic blend. Why it's actually only flavoured with stevia so it's a good sweetener. It's non GMO. It's gluten free. It's good. That's the thing.

Chris: We wanted to have the best quality product because it's going to have to be good, we have it.

Katrina Ruth: We both have an extremely high standard when it comes to what we put into our bodies. We've both been in the fitness industry collectively for decades. It's just how it is. If you are going to bring a product to market, it's got to be the best in the world. It's not let's just label something and sell it out there. That's why it has taken several years to bring this to life. This is a huge big dig. Two years of formulating and another six months or so trying to figure out amazon subscriptions.

Katrina Ruth: We did it right and we are so proud of this. We are about to give you an insanely amazing [inaudible 00:19:35].

Chris: Maybe we should say, what we are really doing is getting everything ready. This is only for people who are serious with their health and fitness.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. Kind of like an inner circle.

Chris: Yeah, that's what we thought. People that we know are going to be jumping on board with this. The people that are like us who are in our inner circle and that's what we like. Number one, what we are going to be doing on Monday and what you will be getting access to on Monday, you literally won't be able to get access to any other time.

Katrina Ruth: It's going to blow your mind.

Chris: We are making it so much of a no brainer for you to actually want to join us. It goes beyond this. Number one, supplements aren't the be all end all. We going to be the first people to say, it's not about supplements. It's about helping you eat right, move right, live right and be happy with what you are doing day to day. That's going to be a big part of what we are doing.

Chris: I even included it in my book as well. I freaking wrote a book that's all about this.

Katrina Ruth: A scary amount of references in the back.

Chris: 220 scientific references that goes into this as well. The food quality that we have these days isn't as good as what we need to thrive. We have a lot more stress and we have a lot more chemicals in our environment as well. So therefore we need that little bit of extra.

Chris: If you are a believer that you need to get everything from your food, I'm not 100% on board with you. The model lifestyles that we live, don't allow that.

Katrina Ruth: I think that's true in theory. I agree that's the ideal but is it available? No it's not. Chris referenced stress and I'm just thinking of the pace we live our lives. You kind of want to have it all right? You want to have the thriving business or career and the relationship and the family, if that's relevant, the active social life, and fun and adventure and look and feel amazing as well. If you want to have it all, that's available for you. That pace of life is not necessarily what we were originally designed for and in this environment as well.

Chris: This environment is different. This is pretty sweet. [crosstalk 00:22:08]

Katrina Ruth: Which is why we are in Bali. You know what I mean. There are so many things that rob out food of nutrition and this is simply about putting into our bodies what is meant to be there in the first place. Treating your body as the premier machine. I've always loved that saying, If you had a Ferrari and you drove it around town, like at an insane speed. Never took care of it and just fully trashed it at some point in time it's going to be a pretty banged up Ferrari.

Katrina Ruth: Your body is a high quality vehicle so why not take care of it as one? We made this incredible product and have an incredible supportive community around which includes access to us and to our teams. So many cool things because we are so committed to sharing with our tribe and our like minded friends, clients, etc. There is a really easy and simple way to take care of your nutritional needs.

Katrina Ruth: Specifically thinking about busy and driven people, who are conscious of their health in a very real sense; digestive health, mental health, emotional health, physical health. Who also want to look hot and feel hot. I feel like looking hot reflects how you feel. That comes from how your health is on the inside. You want to be operating at a high performance level in different areas of life.

Katrina Ruth: Those are kind of the three areas that we address that body, brain and beauty.

Chris: Totally.

Katrina Ruth: I came up with that.

Chris: Obviously. You really just made that up.

Katrina Ruth: Carlos Kate says, "What makes it taste like chocolate?"

Chris: It's actually the cacao beans. You can see that it has chocolate bean powder which is the natural flavour in it.

Katrina Ruth: So good.

Chris: Great question. That's why it tastes like chocolate and it is the good stuff.

Katrina Ruth: Let's tell people about the offer. On the sales page, which we aren't going to give today. We are going to give it on Monday. We will tell you about this now and how it's going to work. If you definitely want to know when the cart opens, then comment below on this live stream. That way we can come back and notify you.

Katrina Ruth: Once you go over there on Monday and read over the sales page, if you wanted to, you can see a whole lot more of the kinds of ends and outs of the formulation-

Chris: Technical sides.

Katrina Ruth: All that sort of stuff. We are giving you the highlights reel right now. What do we got for these guys on Monday?

Chris: There's two big things that we want to be able to give you as apart of what we are doing with Mind Body Blends. One, is the top quality product. You are going to be able to get access to this every single month. It will last you one month.

Chris: The second is community. What so many people are lacking right now, is the help along the way. This is where we want to give you the right information. It's not about more information. The first quote that I put in my book was from Derek Sivers. It says-

Katrina Ruth: I like Derek Sivers.

Chris: I have such a bro crush on that guy.

Katrina Ruth: That's so cool. I didn't know you were into him.

Chris: I absolutely love him. The quote is, "If it was just more information we need, we'd all be billionaires with perfect abs." It's not about more information. It's not about what you can get on google, watching another video, listening to another podcast, or trying to dive into another book.

Chris: What's actually going to create transformation, information to transformation, that's where we want to give you the information so you know what it needs to do.

Katrina Ruth: Some Perfecatation.

Chris: Oh, I like that. Exactly.

Katrina Ruth: And transformation.

Chris: She's wired.

Katrina Ruth: It's because I had the chocolate greens. My brain powers are activated. I want some more please.

Chris: Yes ma'am.

Katrina Ruth: Thank you.

Chris: What we want to be able to give you, not just the product itself. We are going to be getting you to join the community.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. Critical

Chris: This is about building the Mind Body Blend Tribe. Where we are going to be helping you to know what to eat, how to move, how to live. Giving you a behind the scenes and giving you the answers so you know that you can be in the best shape. Supplements aren't the be all end all, okay? We are going to be the first ones to say that it isn't about taking the product. You've got to be able to do the other basics first.

Chris: You've got to move right. You've got to eat right. You've got to sleep right. You've got to be happy with your life and thriving in all areas of your life. This is going to be the icing on the cake.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, I love that you just said that. While we are obviously incredibly proud and excited to bring this product to market. Here's the flat out reality. I've given this to well over 20 of my clients and friends. Probably about 30 people in total. 100% of people were like "Oh my god. How quickly can I get this?" Pretty much all of them have followed up and asking if it was ready yet.

Katrina Ruth: It tastes so good. People just want to keep drinking it. Then, when you add the high level ingredients, literally the best in the world. How we cover digestion probiotics. It is a no brainer as Chris said. I like to call it a Hell yeah no brainer offer which is what I tell my clients.

Katrina Ruth: I know you want to hear the price point for everything we are doing for you. You're going to try it, and if you try it, there's zero doubt in my mind that you are going to continue to order it. We wouldn't bring anything other than that to market.

Katrina Ruth: However, I love that Chris just spoke about, we are not here to give you a magic full of solution. Let's not dilute ourselves, are walking around with an exceptional quality of health, physicality, lifestyle, etc. just from taking this, right? It's coming from a way of life. It's coming from our underlying value system.

Katrina Ruth: What the Mind Body Blends Community is about, it's about being in it for life. The life that you want to live for life. We really see this as an incredible community to obviously support year round health, nutrition, fat loss, brain power, all that cool stuff. We have so much cool content we have already created.

Chris: It's disgusting.

Katrina Ruth: Over 12 months of work content already created. Just teaching you everything from our combined expertise of years and years. Sharing and educating with you. Mostly we want to provide that community of like-minded people who are committed to their health, having it all in body, business, career, and in life.

Chris: Kat actually just spilled the beans right there. When we were having dinner-

Katrina Ruth: The cauliflower.

Chris: Cauliflower and chicken.

Katrina Ruth: Oh my god. How you felt about that cauliflower before you tasted it. It's how I felt about this. You were like, "I'm sure it's great Kat." Then when you tasted it you were like, "Oh my god!"

Chris: Cauliflower is good but it can't be that good. It was legitimately amazing.

Katrina Ruth: What were we talking about?

Chris: The conversation went to having it all. I was like why do we make so many compromises in life? Why do we say, "Oh I want to build a great business. I want to build a great career but I therefore I have to let my body go and I get fat and I get inflamed. I'm getting unhealthy. Why do I become a dad?" Therefore I have to not be able to build my business or I get a Dad bod which is a bad thing. All of those things.

Chris: There's so many compromises we make in life. Stop making all these compromises.

Katrina Ruth: Right, you get to have it all.

Chris: Just be able to have it all.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah.

Chris: I love it.

Katrina Ruth: Kate said, "Can we sent the list of ingredients because she might want to share it with her clients." We can do that but it's also on the sales page right?

Chris: Totally. Yes, so on Monday, you will get all access to that stuff.

Katrina Ruth: Are we going through the prices now?

Chris: No, hold your horses.

Katrina Ruth: Kate asked for that too.

Chris: Sorry Kate.

Katrina Ruth: This is a pre-launch, Monday we are opening the cart. We are pre-launching the pre-launch right now. That's what's happening right here. Monday the cart goes open where you can jump into our community and some amazing offers on this. We are doing a one time never to be repeated. What we call "Founding Members deal" situation to honour those in our community who are already waiting for this and have had enough of us taking so long with it.

Katrina Ruth: We already know so many people who are like, "Just give it to me. Where do I sign up? I don't care about the details." We feel that there is going to be other people who are hearing what you are putting down. I'm willing to put my faith in you. We are giving you an incredible offer with that when we go live on Monday. We will give you all the details of that.

Katrina Ruth: On Monday, we will do a live stream as well from our Facebook page for the group. Helen says, "I'm totally sold of course." Kate says, "Do you have a trade price?" I think we will just go through all prices on Monday, right?

Chris: Yeah. Totally. Legitimately Monday, you will get access to the price. The big thing we wanted to do is build the community at the start. We are going to go worldwide with this. We are going to go into retail everywhere with this.

Katrina Ruth: We are flying a jet.

Chris: Yeah. That as well. The biggest thing is that we wanted to make sure that we've got this community with us at the start. We build together.

Katrina Ruth: Try to make members.

Chris: Exactly right.

Katrina Ruth: We always honour those people who are fast action takers just like we are who want to jump on it straight away.

Chris: Those people who get results.

Katrina Ruth: Of course. Those people who don't over think.

Chris: Exactly. Should we get them to join-[crosstalk 00:31:58] I put it into my girls smoothies in the morning. It mixes really easily with water.

Katrina Ruth: It's just water and ice. I really enjoy it with just water and ice.

Chris: It goes really well with black coffee.

Katrina Ruth: I may have made it into a Paleo espresso. It goes great with vodka. It really does.

Chris: Or hot coconut milk.

Katrina Ruth: I haven't tried that. There were plenty of entrepreneurs at my house that were drinking it with Paleo Espresso Martini's. We put cinnamon on top.

Chris: We have a video. We will put it on on Monday. You will see everybody-

Katrina Ruth: We put cinnamon on top to make it extra healthy. It tasted amazing. Everybody was just like, "Give it to me. Give me more." What else were you saying? I think I cut you off.

Chris: Are there any other questions?

Katrina Ruth: No. No. That's all the questions.

Chris: Okay.

Katrina Ruth: We are going to give them a link to what sir?

Chris: Should we give them the link to the private group? The Mind Body Blends Group?

Katrina Ruth: Yes, can you?

Chris: Actually I already have the URL.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. Just scroll here.

Chris: Got it.

Katrina Ruth: Chris is just giving you now a link to our closed Facebook community that already exists which is about to blow up in the most incredible way as we start to build up what we are doing in there with the official launch. We've had that group already operational for a little bit of time but now we are officially launching.

Chris: What you are going to want to do is make sure you join us in the group. You'll obviously get a lot of access to everything when we are going live on Monday. Plus, you're going to get everything else that we start putting in there as well.

Katrina Ruth: Post it all in there. We will do a live stream as well.

Chris: On Monday, we will be putting everything together for you.

Katrina Ruth: Why won't it let me out of this comment. I was just going to add a note saying, we are already telling you that anyway. I was going to say be in the group to get first information or whatever but we have already told you that. It's so exciting. I think we have said everything haven't we?

Chris: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: It's such an honour to be able to share this.

Chris: We are so excited.

Katrina Ruth: We are joking around and having a good time obviously as you should in business and life. In all seriousness, this is just the most incredible product in the world. I have desire to have my own company or supplement brand for over 10 years. I was a personal trainer for 13 years. How long were you a trainer?

Chris: 11.

Katrina Ruth: Right, so there you go. 24 years of personal training experience between us. Both of us were so committed to our education and growth. That's how we met. Just going to some of the best nutrition and hormone, strength training and that stuff. I think a lot of trainers are really committed to a standard of excellence. We both thought it would be super cool to have your own supplement company but I looked into it and saw that some people were just buying stuff and putting there own labels on it.

Chris: There's a lot of charlotons out there and there's a lot of liars. The scary thing was actually getting into the business now-

Katrina Ruth: This took us two years. It wasn't the easy way it was the right way.

Chris: It's scary how many people are lying about their products. There's an outpour of quality. A lot of stuff is getting manufactured through China, the sourcing. The manufacturing gradiance is really bad. What they are saying is actually is in the product is simply not there as well. The actual potency of their raw and effective ingredients in there is just not there.

Chris: There's a lot of lies. That was one thing for me, is that I want to create something that's really bloody good. So when Kat and I came together, we saw this fusion of what it is we can do and how we can actually create something that's so much easier for people to use and combine it all. As we said earlier, it's not about just the supplements by itself, it's far from that. It's about putting everything together and giving it to you on a silver platter so that you can move forward.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah.

Chris: Simple.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. You said it all. I'm so excited. I'm also excited to be in business with this guy because we have known each other for so long that you just know how someone is and who they are in business, in life, what their values are. I couldn't think of anyone better to go into business with.

Katrina Ruth: I'm such a solid person in so much of what I do. I have my own companies and Chris has his own companies. Now, it's just an incredible thing to come together with a close friend and create a product that's such an incredible quality and be able to share it with the world. I feel like this is a 10 year plus dream that is coming to life for me in terms of having my own supplement company and to be in partnership that shares that vision obviously. Does the work. Comes back to you and supports you. I could go on and on all day.

Katrina Ruth: Get in the Facebook group. The comment is pinned there. Get into our free Facebook community. We will be dropping links on Monday. We will be dropping the deal on Monday. We will do a live stream together on Monday. Don't know what time yet but we will announce that obviously.

Chris: Exactly. Make sure to join the group so you get access to everything.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah.

Chris: Drop a comment here as well. I will comment back here when we go live on Monday and let you know. We will be open for a couple of days next week but then we will close it off. It will really just be a limited time for those people who want to get in on the ground floor to jump on board. It's going to be freaking amazing so that's all. That's the whole story.

Katrina Ruth: Beautiful.

Chris: Alright!

Katrina Ruth: I'm so excited that I'll go away.

Chris: You're so excited that you'll go away? You may go away.

Katrina Ruth: Alright.

Chris: Peace.

Katrina Ruth: We are going to go. Have an amazing, epic rest of your day. We will see you on Monday and we will be sharing how you can get this incredible product.

Katrina Ruth: Oh shit, I've spilled it everywhere. There it is again! Sending you love! Don't's now, press play.

Katrina Ruth: Give them a chance to get on.

Patrick Grabbs: Okay. I'm ignoring you then.

Katrina Ruth: Usually, what I do when I go on is pretend that I'm doing something. But, I'm not really doing. I'm just pretending that I'm doing something.

Patrick Grabbs: What's that?

Katrina Ruth: So, I just ... I don't know, I just fuck around. Well, usually when I go live, I start then sharing it. Hey, can I share from a group to another group? Can I share it from this into my member's programme?

Patrick Grabbs: I think you can try.

Katrina Ruth: No.

Patrick Grabbs: Oh, no, you definitely can't. That's the thing about a group.

Katrina Ruth: You can. Here's how you would do that. Do this for... [inaudible 00:00:36]. Do that one... oh, hello person! Hey! You go live and people just jump on.

Patrick Grabbs: Hey, person!

Katrina Ruth: They assume that you're gonna be interesting, we have no idea.

Patrick Grabbs: I'm not interesting. No, I am. I am interesting.

Katrina Ruth: We're always interesting.

Patrick Grabbs: Interesting person.

Katrina Ruth: We're interesting without the camera on, so we should be interesting with the camera on as well. Hi, Michelle! Oh my god, I'm so excited you're there. Michelle, why have we not met in person yet? It's actually starting to upset me at this point in time. Okay, so come on down. So basically what happened was we were doing that thing that you do where you're selfishly having a conversation and not broadcasting it to the world.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah. We were actually pretending like we didn't know y'all were here. But now we do...

Katrina Ruth: No, I mean before when they actually weren't here, when we were just literally actually talking and then you were like, we should live-

Patrick Grabbs: Oh, yeah, we should livestream. I was like, because the good stuff was coming out-

Katrina Ruth: We were getting into flurried conversation.

Patrick Grabbs: Yes.

Katrina Ruth: And you know when you're having an amazing conversation and then basically you're like, it's kind of rude to the world that we're not letting everybody listen to this?

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: Which I think happens every time we talk, actually.

Patrick Grabbs: I was thinking more like you're saying really good shit, and I was thinking some really good shit, and I was like, dude, you got to post it.

Katrina Ruth: Yes.

Patrick Grabbs: Another thing I thought too was, I was also like, I know you also wanted to do a livestream. I could just tell that you wanted to do one.

Katrina Ruth: I think you're using that as an excuse, because you're the one who's brought it up like three times. I think everyone knows that I want to livestream all the time.

Patrick Grabbs: That was her. I can tell by the look` in her eye that she wanted to livestream.

Katrina Ruth: But I always want to livestream.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah [inaudible 00:02:23].

Katrina Ruth: You're basically never gonna get that wrong. No matter who you are, you're never gonna get it wrong. Just assume that I want to livestream.

Patrick Grabbs: I got it right. I got it right. I knew she wanted to do it.

Katrina Ruth: Unless maybe, I'm trying to think of a situation where I wouldn't want to livestream.

Patrick Grabbs: I can think of a couple.

Katrina Ruth: I don't think I've ... yeah.

Patrick Grabbs: You don't want to take it to the bathroom. Have you ever live streamed in the bathroom?

Katrina Ruth: Definitely from the bathtub.

Patrick Grabbs: From the tub?

Katrina Ruth: Yeah.

Patrick Grabbs: Okay. What about from the...

Katrina Ruth: I put up a bikini top on.

Patrick Grabbs: What about from the [inaudible 00:02:49], from the john, as y'all say in Australia.

Katrina Ruth: I've been tempted, but no, I haven't live streamed from the bathroom.

Patrick Grabbs: In Australia do the toilets go around the other way or do they go around the right way?

Katrina Ruth: Who is freaking looking? What do you mean who's this guy? Who's this guy? I just bring random people into livestream.

Patrick Grabbs: I'm what they call a rand-o.

Katrina Ruth: Well, he's tagged into the livestream. This is Patrick.

Patrick Grabbs: What's up?

Katrina Ruth: Everybody this is Patrick. He's gonna tell you some very important things about ... I guess we'll get to that when we get to it. You're gonna have to wait and see.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah. When we get back, I want to get into the flow of things.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah.

Patrick Grabbs: Why is it ... When the thing, when the camera comes on, you kinda...

Katrina Ruth: The spirit takes over.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah. For me it's kinda like now, I don't know the camera's on and I'm like already trying to gear back into what we were talking about almost, or how do we ...

Katrina Ruth: Okay.

Patrick Grabbs: I feel like I was pulled out.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. Okay. Let's go back. This is what I posted. I said come on over to the Daily Ask [inaudible 00:03:48]. I said we're gonna talk about stage fright and feeling like, do I have anything to say? Cause you were like I wanna go live. I'm starting to want to go live all the time, but then I don't have a topic or something.

Patrick Grabbs: Right.

Katrina Ruth: Or, I don't have anything to say. And then gave me kind of like a slightly, I'm gonna call it a ... what's that word called? Sheepish look?. Like he knew that you were talking bullshit. Like a slightly sheepish look. No, you knew that the real reason you weren't just jumping in and going live is more like an uncertainty or a fear that what if I don't think of enough interesting stuff.

Patrick Grabbs: Well even as soon as you said it, it like snapped at me, I was like oh shit, obviously, you can just talk about that. You know, you can just get on there and talk about that. I was telling you about whenever I ... Now, my decision is to do more live videos than I have been doing, and you're gonna see a lot more of it, and I have totally immersed myself in that for the past while. For the past few years I have kind of been ... I've been tied up with another business so I haven't really been ... I've been focusing 100 percent on myself, and the content that I put out there, in which occasionally I'll drop some things on Instagram. I'll drop some things on Facebook. Facebook is like real crazy.

Katrina Ruth: You message a different person on your Instagram stories.

Patrick Grabbs: Really?

Katrina Ruth: You go into powerful badass there and then you hide more on Facebook.

Patrick Grabbs: Really?

Katrina Ruth: Are we gonna turn it into an expose on you? I feel like this is now gonna be the show about ...

Patrick Grabbs: So you like my Instagram stuff more than my Facebook stuff?

Katrina Ruth: Cause you said to me something about how you knew you weren't sure. I think we have to introduce you to people because I think we're basically just ...

Patrick Grabbs: By the way. Cheers.

Katrina Ruth: We're drinking some very impressive French wine.

Patrick Grabbs: And my impressive French china.

Katrina Ruth: Appropriate Texan china. I think it's Texan.

Patrick Grabbs: This is from France. This might be China.

Katrina Ruth: It's from China.

Patrick Grabbs: Okay.

Katrina Ruth: It's not china, but it's from China.

Patrick Grabbs: It's fine china.

Katrina Ruth: I think at some point we should introduce you, because we're both just operating under the assumption that everybody here knows who you are.

Patrick Grabbs: That's you. I was thinking this from the get go. I'm like, you might want to introduce your guest on your link. Now you come to my group, I'm going to introduce you first, here's Kat.

Katrina Ruth: I'm a lot less formal than that.

Patrick Grabbs: I'm gonna introduce you real quick.

Katrina Ruth: Oh okay.

Patrick Grabbs: Alright on your own livestream. Everybody this is the one and the only Katrina Ruth. She is a 100 times bestseller, I believe, right? Yes, you have like 1,000 books if you go to her page, you'll see a 1,000 books, I tried to scroll through one day and I was like I got bored and I was like fuck this I'm gonna scroll through all these books. There's a 1,000 books here. She has a 1,000 books, and she's world famous, world renowned for changing people's mindsets and getting them in a better situation totally. Completely will change your fucking mind about life, about business, about power, about everything.

Patrick Grabbs: You must listen to her. Ladies and gentlemen Katrina Ruth. Give her a nice warm smiley face or a heart.

Katrina Ruth: A heart explosion.

Patrick Grabbs: A heart explosion yes. See hearts exploding right now.

Katrina Ruth: I feel a bit shy now. That was quite an impressive introduction. Oh my god.

Patrick Grabbs: We were just talking about that. I don't believe you're shy.

Katrina Ruth: Actually we're gonna tell that story in a minute.

Patrick Grabbs: Okay. Alright cool. I gotta remember that.

Katrina Ruth: Okay. We'll come back...

Patrick Grabbs: Like we're gonna remember that shit.

Katrina Ruth: Remind us to tell ... just no need to drop, you know, too much like you were just doing before, but the story of how I ... yeah.

Patrick Grabbs: Don't drop you into a what?

Katrina Ruth: I don't know what you were doing, like a little impression of me.

Patrick Grabbs: That's happened. That's definitely happened to me, because I do the best impression of you, you know that.

Katrina Ruth: This is Patrick. The one and only Patrick Grabbs. Actually, if you go to his page today, and why would you not, cause it is today. You're gonna read a really powerful story.

Katrina Ruth: This man is probably what I would call the most secret mystery messenger on Facebook, because he has one of the most powerful messages that I've ever encountered in my life, but has really been keeping it predominantly to himself, and maybe me and a few other people, and not sharing it with the world. He's just as of ... is today officially day one?

Patrick Grabbs: Yesterday was ... what's today? Friday. Today Friday?

Katrina Ruth: Yeah.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah it's Friday.

Katrina Ruth: Friday is day one.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, yesterday was day one. Bet no better time than yesterday.

Katrina Ruth: So yesterday is day one of going fully into his own business, own freedom lifestyle. This is something that's been coming well over since we've known each other, which is a couple years now, and it's huge, and I'm like maybe ... I feel like I might even be almost more excited than you, because for as long as we've known each other, I've been like you're so fucking powerful, your message is so powerful. Any teeny little offering that you ever put out to the internet is so powerful, but then, mainly just not been saying it and now basically the world is about to be lit up with a new powerful messenger and leader on mindset, on transformation.

Katrina Ruth: This is one of the very few people in the world who actually kinda calls me on my bullshit and makes me question some of my own beliefs and thoughts. That's extremely rare, mainly cause people, particularly men, are typically scared to confront me. That doesn't happen here, and so I think that if you connect to Patrick and follow him, you're gonna get some really good stuff coming through that's gonna get you thinking. Probably, I don't know some inappropriate or irreverent shit as well I would say.

Patrick Grabbs: I try. I'm trying to just be purely inspirational, but you know, I talk shit too.

Katrina Ruth: You have to, because otherwise ... did you read my blog today?

Patrick Grabbs: Which one? I'm pretty sure I did.

Katrina Ruth: "Your Tribe Needs You." The one about ... you got to read it. It think it was one of the best blogs I've ever done.

Patrick Grabbs: Damn, now I have to stop and read it. I'll talk to you guys in a little bit.

Katrina Ruth: We're gonna go to commercial break. We're gonna read the blog together, and then we're gonna come back. It's called "Your Tribe Needs You Now More Than Ever. Are You Prepared? Now More Than Ever Your Tribe Needs you to Step Up".

Katrina Ruth: But it's all about what it means to be a real leader.

Patrick Grabbs: Really?

Katrina Ruth: You got to read this blog. You'll love that blog.

Patrick Grabbs: I'm feeling like this is maybe for me here. I'm feeling like this might be for me.

Katrina Ruth: It's for everyone.

Patrick Grabbs: I feel ... I'm selfish, I feel like it's for me.

Katrina Ruth: Hang on, what was I saying? If you're gonna be a leader and a messenger, you've gotta bring the random, silly, entertaining, crazy side of things as well, right?

Patrick Grabbs: Playfulness, right.

Katrina Ruth: The same you, you are off camera should show up on camera.

Patrick Grabbs: I often get ... I'm one of the worst, because I like to push, and this is a big thing for me is that ... I know the reason that I really don't message as much as I know I should is because I'm one of those people that has always liked to push the envelope, and push boundaries of what people think as cool or what they think is appropriate. I'm talking like a lot a lot, like further than people normally ... I like to talk politics. I like to talk religion. I like to talk any of that shit, and I'll call people out. I don't feel like anybody could say anything to me that would sway ... People could say, definitely, I'm open for people to change my mind, and I've had my mind changed plenty of times.

Patrick Grabbs: I've got a lot of friends that would ... Even people that you would think we don't get along, right. I'm a conservative guy to a point. I'm more like a libertarian, and I have definitely some really far out there left wing friends, but we still get along, and we talk shit, and people would think that I wouldn't get along with them, but they've changed my mind on multiple occasions, but I just think occasionally I'm gonna just drop something out of my mouth, and it's gonna be the world just stops and oh shit.

Katrina Ruth: But I've done that, you've seen me do that.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, you have.

Katrina Ruth: The Trump thing. Debra remembers. Debra was pretty angry at me about that. Debra just ... You know when I said, "You're one of the few people that confronts me." Debra commented and said, I'm not scared to confront you. I'm like that's true. We've definitely had ... We've butted heads a few times. I think if you're going to be authentic as a messenger, there's occasionally gonna be times where you say something, and you're like fuck. I kind of really wish I didn't say that. That just kind of popped out.

Katrina Ruth: You can't have it both ways. You're either committed to being authentic, and committed to showing up or not right?

Patrick Grabbs: I've actually got a story. So, behind that.

Patrick Grabbs: I was in the cab not to long ago. I got into the cab ... I got into a car, a cab, I just came out of the bar, and I was a little bit drunk, and I got into the cab. Fortunately, this lady was kind enough to take me home. My Uber wasn't downloading or uploading or whatever. I got into the car, and she started to talk to me, and we were talking about everything. She was a Muslim lady. We got into a very, very heated argument about all sorts of stuff. About guns. She didn't like guns, and I was very passionate about that, and we back and forth, back and forth, right?

Patrick Grabbs: Probably not a normal conversation that I would have. It wasn't an Uber, it was actually a cab. The next day, I was just beating myself up about this, because I'm also thinking maybe she just ... What if she recorded me, and I was saying this stuff, because I'm telling her, "This is America, you should adapt to our culture, if you're gonna be here." There is definitely other countries you can go fucking live in, instead of this place. If you don't have ... if you're not with our values, you know what I'm saying, if you don't like the way that this place is set up, there's certainly other places to go. This is gun ... the second amendment is firmly into this culture, and I thought to myself, I really went off. She was heated back at me, don't get me wrong, this wasn't a one way street. She was yelling back at me. She was a badass bitch. She's not gonna just sit down and not tell you, she's like, I don't believe in that. I just don't believe in it.

Katrina Ruth: She's serving it back to you.

Patrick Grabbs: She's serving me back, and we got in a real heated argument, and the next day, I'm like oh my god, I'm gonna end up being-

Katrina Ruth: You're gonna be on the news.

Patrick Grabbs: For a week, and y'all can ask some people, for like a week I was-

Katrina Ruth: Aggressive cab passenger.

Patrick Grabbs: I was looking for myself on those ... I was on Twitter all day long. I was looking for this racist rant. You know what I'm saying. I was looking for my face on the racist rant goes crazy. This redneck going crazy on this lady, and it never came up. She was cool, she was just ... then I thought about it though. The next day I thought about it, and I thought to myself, you know, I was speaking my mind though. Regardless of what I think, what she would post up there, regardless of how anybody would try to spin that. It was the absolute fucking truth. The absolute what I believed in, and I just let it out. She let me have what she believed, and I let her have what I believed, and I took it, and I received what she was saying, and then I interpreted it back to her, you know?

Patrick Grabbs: My arguments were obviously better, but I just thought in this world, you know, there are so many things that are trying to, there's people that are trying to silence your voice, and at the end of the day, after that, I just felt like, that it was meant to be. It was meant for me to say that to her.

Katrina Ruth: To express yourself as well.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah. Exactly.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. There you go. So much for not having anything to talk about. Ryan says no wonder you're not returning his texts, and how come he's finding out on here from you? Well, hi, let's hang out tomorrow. I'm sorry.

Patrick Grabbs: We'll hang out tomorrow. We're hanging out tomorrow.

Katrina Ruth: Sorry I'm kind of quiet, until I tell people what I'm doing most of the time, isn't that true?

Patrick Grabbs: Ryan can just come over if he's... [crosstalk 00:15:37] maybe he changed his mind, and just wants to come over and hang out with us tonight, but Ryan, I messaged Ryan, you know, I talked to Ryan that day. He's my mentor. I totally went up to him and I'm like, "I'm so scared, I'm freaking out. I don't wanna end up on this racist rant thing." He's one of the first people I went, I always go to him whenever I do something fucking stupid. But that wasn't really, not a thing, I was not stupid ... I go Ryan and Ryan's like, "Dude, I went off. You can go look at my post, I went off of Muslims one time, dude. It's not big deal. Check it out."

Patrick Grabbs: It made me feel, it's whatever. Tensions run high, we argue, and we learn from each other.

Katrina Ruth: It's life.

Patrick Grabbs: It is what it is. Yeah, we do that.

Katrina Ruth: Alright. Tell the story though, tell the introverted story because I think this is actually an important one for people to hear. We were talking about, as you now begin your business fully by yourself, that one of the things you definitely are gonna is obviously share your own insecurities, and fears, and doubts, and the things that have held you back. And then I said, you know, it's kinda like the [inaudible 00:16:39] business. People love me and resonate with me because I bring it, and I bring the fire and the passion, and I have the results that are obviously aspirational, but also because I'm really real. And I said that my only problem is that I feel like a lot of the time, people don't believe me. I was saying this half an hour ago, I was like, if I try and tell people I'm really introverted by nature, they're like, "Okay, Kat."

Katrina Ruth: So, tell your story.

Patrick Grabbs: Well, for one, she's introverted as hell. One of the most introverted people I've ever met. Just to go into the story, so you know what happened, she came out one time, to come to Dallas, and come party, well not really party, right? I just said, "Let's go to a bar."

Patrick Grabbs: I'm always thinking of cool stuff to do-

Katrina Ruth: I think I came to keynote at an entrepreneur event, if you remember that event.

Katrina Ruth: This was like April last year, I didn't come to party.

Patrick Grabbs: We talked about that event. That's another story.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, that's a whole thing. We went out for drinks.

Patrick Grabbs: We did went out for drinks.

Katrina Ruth: With Reagan.

Patrick Grabbs: Reagan was there, you were there. I was like, let's go to somewhere cool-

Katrina Ruth: Oh, and what's his name? Alex.

Patrick Grabbs: Who's that?

Katrina Ruth: Alex?

Patrick Grabbs: Alex?

Katrina Ruth: Alex Pace?

Patrick Grabbs: Alex Pace, yeah. Video guy was with us. We go down to Deep Ellum, this place in Deep Ellum that's kinda hip. I always like to do something cool when Kat's in town. I like to try to find something new and different-

Katrina Ruth: He does. He always takes me somewhere really interesting, new, and different. Always things a lot about, like you always think about doing something really cool.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, it comes though, it comes though. So, okay, if I was from Australia, and I was-

Katrina Ruth: You sounded British.

Patrick Grabbs: And I enjoyed Vegemite-

Katrina Ruth: You sound British.

Patrick Grabbs: Where would I go? Where would I want to go? That's what I think, and that's where I take her. I figure out a good spot.

Patrick Grabbs: So, anyways, I took her to one of the happening spots. Unfortunately, this time it was a bad decision. The last time I took her to a really cool lowdown-

Katrina Ruth: Dive bar.

Patrick Grabbs: It was a dive bar.

Katrina Ruth: Oh, the blues bar.

Patrick Grabbs: A blues bar.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, that was so cool. See, that's more my vibe.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah. It's like laid back, people are chilling.

Katrina Ruth: It was really cool.

Patrick Grabbs: So, this time I took her and Reagan, cause I'm thinking, okay, two chicks, they're probably wanting to go hang out and have a little more high vibe, right, type of place.

Patrick Grabbs: So, we go over to Deep Ellum, and it's more of a ... It's this bar called Stir there, and it's kinda packed. It's one of the most happening spots you can go to, it's called Stir-

Katrina Ruth: Super cool.

Patrick Grabbs: Super cool. Super-

Katrina Ruth: Intimidatingly cool.

Patrick Grabbs: Intimidatingly cool.

Patrick Grabbs: It's like one little row of people standing by the bar, and it's kinda hard to work your way through. Anyways, when I got them up there, they kind of walked over to the end of the bar, and they just all of a sudden, it was the weirdest thing, when I took you over to the blues bar, you were like just jamming out and having a good time, I guess cause you had more room-

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, but I think you were giving me Jager shots as well.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, Jager shots. They claim to have created the first Jager Bomb, I don't know if it's a fact.

Katrina Ruth: The oldest blues bar in Dallas, or something.

Patrick Grabbs: It's the oldest blues bar, apparently, it's called The Goat. If you write it down, if you're ever in Dallas, check it out.

Patrick Grabbs: So, we go to Stir, and we go down to the end of the bar, and immediately, they just start huddling up like this. It was the craziest thing. Reagan, she has a cut like this, on the side.

Katrina Ruth: She looks badass.

Patrick Grabbs: Looking like a badass.

Katrina Ruth: She is badass, she's badass.

Patrick Grabbs: She is a badass, she's got like a Skrillex haircut thing going. You had the red hair at the time, so you're badass.

Katrina Ruth: Everybody knows I'm a badass. Technically, you know I'm a badass. Except that now you know me, so you know it's like one-

Patrick Grabbs: So, they just all of a sudden, went down like this, like shell. It seemed like they were attracting people to like spill drinks on them, and to like throw elbows at them, and stuff like that.

Patrick Grabbs: I kind of had to shield them. But, I was like, "Oh my god."

Katrina Ruth: We were like Siamese twins together.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, Siamese twins. They were like joined at the hip.

Patrick Grabbs: From the looks of them, I thought they were gonna be like boom, like Coyote Ugly on the dance floor.

Katrina Ruth: This was ages ago. This was, I guess when you didn't know me as well.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, I thought that was what was gonna happen, and they were totally ... It was not that. But, you know, most of the time, I met you, I know you, I know Reagan, I know Ryan Stewman, he does the same kind of shit-

Katrina Ruth: [crosstalk 00:21:09] introverts.

Patrick Grabbs: The one's that are out there on the camera are introverts, for the most part, I think.

Katrina Ruth: That's true. It's bringing a piece of you out ... like, this is what I'm constantly trying to explain to people, even going live, like okay, I'm pretty freaking practised at going live, so I wouldn't say I have nerves about going live, but I still have insecurities, oftentimes I'll have an idea for a topic and I'm like, "Well, that's kind of lame," or "It's shit."

Katrina Ruth: Or sometimes, when I get started, god forbid, the flow doesn't take over me, which it now has, we're good, we're in flow-

Patrick Grabbs: Yes.

Katrina Ruth: But if that doesn't happen, then you're like, "Fuck." You feel like I'm out here freaking naked without a towel, and I've got nothing, and there's people here. That happens on occasion, and what do you do? You're not gonna be like, "Oh, well. I changed my mind." Let's finish and just leave. You've gotta bring it.

Katrina Ruth: Being a leader is about stepping into what you know is inside of you, and even like, you did a livestream the other day, and then, in your private group, [inaudible 00:22:08] download it and send it to me, and I looked at it. You said to me that you were nervous and everything, and then when I watched that live, if anybody would watch that, you were freaking dancing at the start, you had your tunes on, you were just like throwing it down, and then gave your message, and went into messaging and preaching. Nobody would remotely think for a second that you were unsure of yourself.

Patrick Grabbs: Right. Well, I mean, you never know when you watch it. I try not to watch the stuff again. Do you ever watch your stuff?

Katrina Ruth: Oh, yeah. I drop some good stuff.

Patrick Grabbs: Oh my god, that's fire. Fire! (laughter)

Katrina Ruth: I do. Okay, but I'll tell you why. Because when I'm on a livestream, and the flow takes over me, I have no fucking clue what I'm saying. I'm in preacher mode, I'm like downloading and channelling it, and so then, sometimes later if I'm driving, or-

Patrick Grabbs: Would you say you're almost like in ... You got the spirit inside you?

Katrina Ruth: Yeah.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah?

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. I'm filled with the message of truth.

Patrick Grabbs: The holy ghost.

Katrina Ruth: I was gonna say that, but I'm gonna go with message of truth. That was more like a [inaudible 00:23:13] that nearly came up out of me. And so, then I don't know what I said. And so then, if I'm driving along, or maybe at the gym, or on a walk or something, sometimes I'll listen to my livestream replays. And I'll watch them. Because I wanna see how many times people gave me funny emojis, and I get pretty shitty if I didn't get the laughing emojis. That's actually what I look for.

Patrick Grabbs: You would've laughed.

Katrina Ruth: I want people to laugh at me. I actually look for the laughing emojis more, I don't like at my sales you guys, I don't look for how many sales I made, I look for laughing emojis.

Patrick Grabbs: Does your audience know you're looking for the laughing emojis? Have you ever told them before?

Katrina Ruth: No, but why I would I need to tell them because I'm fucking hilarious. They already know that. They're gonna laugh automatically. But then I'm wanting the validation of seeing the laugh emojis on the replay.

Patrick Grabbs: Bonus points if you're laughing emojis. That's how you-

Katrina Ruth: But then, when I watch my replays, honestly, I'm often like, well this is fucking brilliant. Somebody should be making notes here, this is some powerful ... I should listen to this, is what I'm often thinking.

Patrick Grabbs: This is hot fire.

Katrina Ruth: I'm like, "Shit. I need to hear this."

Katrina Ruth: The way that you know you'll never run out of content is, you only are always saying what you need to hear for yourself.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah. You're talking to yourself.

Katrina Ruth: Right.

Patrick Grabbs: That's what I've been trying to do. I've been trying to like ... When I turn the camera on, and you told me this a long time ago, I'm trying to talk to myself. And actually, what I'm really trying to do is, and if I can get in the stick to doing this, then it'll be a lot better I think, but what I'm trying to do is, I'm trying to talk to myself. I'm trying to talk to myself ten years ago.

Katrina Ruth: Right.

Patrick Grabbs: When I first got out of prison. I'm trying to tell myself the things that would change my mind and make me accelerate the process of getting to where I'm at today.

Katrina Ruth: Maybe you should tell some of that story because you just kinda dropped that in there.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, I just dropped that-

Katrina Ruth: Just like, curve ball.

Patrick Grabbs: Just to do it quickly, well, I guess I don't have to do it quickly, but 2006, at the height of Myspace, you know, I had just gotten a Myspace account, but ...

Katrina Ruth: I love how that's a pivotal ... I'm like, what did you say?

Patrick Grabbs: Pivotal moment.

Katrina Ruth: Did you just say, "At the height of Myspace?"

Patrick Grabbs: Tom, you're my best friend.

Katrina Ruth: So, not referencing the global recession. Just so we know, the timing was, the height of Myspace.

Patrick Grabbs: This is a different time. This is a different time.

Katrina Ruth: So, we all understand the year now.

Patrick Grabbs: But, I do come from kind of a fucked up upbringing. Grew up in a trailer park, born in a trailer park. Poor, very poor family. Mom had three boys, took care of them by herself. Tornado bait, pretty much. I ended up hanging out with the wrong people obviously, because my mom was gone all the time. She was never home, so we ended up being bad kids. I have two brothers. Constantly doing bad shit. Eventually, hung out with gangs. Got into a gang and eventually ended up going to prison. Got hooked on Meth. For five years I was hooked on Meth. And went to prison for two years. It's been ten years since I got out. Stealing cars, burglary, all sorts of crazy stuff, just because I liked the adrenaline. That's the thing about Meth, you like the adrenaline. I was an adrenaline junkie at the time.

Patrick Grabbs: So, two years. Got out in 2008. Didn't go back. When I was in there, that's when I started getting into [inaudible 00:26:50]. I read Tony Robbins. My first Tony Robbins book I read was in there, and so, that kinda got my mind right. When I got out, I just had a plan not to go back. And I've always been into computers, so I just various things on the computer for years and years and years. And it took me just until three years ago, to really realise that you know, you need to higher a mentor, and befriend mentors, and constantly level up.

Patrick Grabbs: You have to invest in yourself, and that's the part that I didn't really understand. The investing in yourself part. I know that everybody's gonna be like, "Oh, fuck. You gonna talk about spending money all the time?"

Katrina Ruth: They're down with it.

Patrick Grabbs: They're down with it, yeah.

Katrina Ruth: They wanna hear-

Patrick Grabbs: Y'all are down.

Katrina Ruth: They wanna hear this. They're like, tell us how to spend our money.

Patrick Grabbs: I wouldn't spend a dollar on myself, but I was the smartest on the computer. Like, I did so much stuff. I've been doing League Generation for a long time, but I was always held back by one thing. That I wouldn't actually spend a dollar on myself, on my own education. I wouldn't do it. Just refused to because I was so smart, I would go on YouTube, and just look at all the videos on how to do this and that, and I was just too smart for my own good, and wouldn't do that.

Patrick Grabbs: Three years ago, met my biggest mentor of my life, Ryan Stewman, and he showed me how to really invest in myself, and showed me what that was all about. From there, it was just a trajectory, and here we are today.

Katrina Ruth: Growth pathway.

Patrick Grabbs: Yep.

Katrina Ruth: Which never ends.

Patrick Grabbs: To the next level, yep. So now, constantly spending money to level up on myself. It's not a problem. Yeah, here we are.

Patrick Grabbs: Started my first business [inaudible 00:28:34]. It helped, staying with Ryan for three years while I was training and building, and actually we took a business from, you know, I don't know what he was doing whenever I met him, probably like $30,000 a month. He's up to, I think, $5 million now.

Katrina Ruth: $5 million a month?

Patrick Grabbs: A year. (laughter)

Katrina Ruth: I was like, "Fuck. How come I don't know this?"

Patrick Grabbs: I think he's [crosstalk 00:28:51]. I don't know how much he does, yeah. I think it's a little more. Somewhere around that.

Katrina Ruth: A lot of you guys know Ryan because I speak about Ryan quite a lot, and Ryan's really a close friend of mine, and he's here in this group, and possibly on this livestream, but he probably already left.

Patrick Grabbs: He likes to hear himself talk.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, he'd be on the livestream if he was on this side of the camera. He's like, "I'm not watching."

Patrick Grabbs: "I'm out!"

Katrina Ruth: I don't know, maybe he's there.

Patrick Grabbs: He's like, "Patrick, good luck. Have a good time, I'm out."

Katrina Ruth: Which is how met, through Ryan anyhow. But it's just that thing of going well, at some point you're gonna break free. I didn't even say that on purpose.

Patrick Grabbs: There you go.

Katrina Ruth: Break free and-

Patrick Grabbs: Shameless plug.

Katrina Ruth: Follow your own stuff, right?

Katrina Ruth: But then it's gonna come with all this stuff that comes with it. The fear stuff, and the am I good enough stuff, and also, I guess, what we were talking about in the car, earlier, from the airport about, what to spend your time on. Most people, when they're trying to build your business, are so conscious of all this shit that has to be done, and we were talking about how, no matter what all this stuff is that's going on, that you wanna do, or you gotta do, you gotta be doing the daily priorities, which my, like what I would stand by and swear by, is it's gonna be your own inner-working [inaudible 00:30:07], messaging and communication to your audience. And obviously, selling is part of that, right? And then everything else comes after that because if you be that voice, and you be that person who's showing up. What are we even talking about? This is a powerful livestream but all we did was turn the camera on on a conversation that we were having off camera, and then we created content. And we're creating value.

Katrina Ruth: That's all you do, every single day. You just create value. But most people won't do it because they don't get that this is what actually builds the business, and/or their insecurities beat them, and they feel like, yeah, but okay, right? I know people would think this, that, "Oh, but that's Kat," or that's whoever, or that's Ryan, or soon enough, it's gonna be, "That's Patrick," right? And like, I'm not this and I'm not that.

Katrina Ruth: The story about me hiding, covered up, like me and Reagan, like little koalas up against each other in the corner of the bar, while he had to basically protect us from the people.

Patrick Grabbs: Like a damn cocoon or something like that.

Katrina Ruth: We were like, "Get us out of here."

Patrick Grabbs: Eject, eject.

Katrina Ruth: Eject. (laughter)

Katrina Ruth: It just shows, it's me showing up everyday the way I do my business, and this is true for all my high-earning friends and clients as well, is it's a fucking choice. You know that that's inside of you and you feel that calling, you've had that calling since the day I met you. Every person here has that calling. I've had that calling since I can even remember. It's not about waiting til the point where one day you think you're gonna wake up, and you're gonna be like, "Sweet. Now I know I'm fucking amazing, and I'm ready to go, and everybody should listen to me." It's about taking what's inside of you and allowing that to be bigger than your insecurities and fears. Getting over your own self.

Katrina Ruth: Actually, I have this, I think we spoke about this on the phone the other night, but I speak about this with clients all the time, people worry that ... They think if I just start messaging and preaching to people all the time, doesn't that make me a bit full of myself, like I think I'm so good, and that it's an ego thing. Right?

Katrina Ruth: People are concerned that, kind of like, who am I to think that I should get to tell everyone to listen to me, or something like that. It's not egotistical to think that people should listen to your message. It's actually egotistical to not share your message, and the reason is, if you don't share your message, then what you're saying is, your own human, insecure self, is more important than the message inside of you that is meant to go out to the world. So, get the fuck over yourself. Don't make it about you, make it about the message.

Patrick Grabbs: Definitely. Definitely.

Patrick Grabbs: And yeah, I don't know what to add-

Katrina Ruth: I felt like you were gonna add something?

Patrick Grabbs: I was gonna add something now, I like it. I'm with it. Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: Debra said, "We all know Kat does nothing." Oh, this is amazing comment. I'm gonna screenshot that and use it for a testimonial. Debra says, "We all know Kat does nothing and everything all in the same moment." That is probably, I feel like Debra, I'm gonna give you a free place in my high ticket sales workshop. I'm gonna give you that because that is probably the single best way anybody's ever described what I actually do.

Patrick Grabbs: Nothing and everything all in the same moment.

Katrina Ruth: What do you think about that comment?

Patrick Grabbs: I think she's trying to say you're kind of like Jesus. Doesn't he do that?

Katrina Ruth: I don't want ... Does he?

Patrick Grabbs: You don't want the comparison. I got you.

Katrina Ruth: I don't want to be Jesus.

Patrick Grabbs: It's all good.

Katrina Ruth: I wanna be Katrina Fucking Ruth.

Patrick Grabbs: Oh, okay. Be Katrina Ruth. You can be Jesus. How about that, Jesus?

Katrina Ruth: I guess I have a somewhat spicy flair. (laughter) Not really, but I use the Spanish flamenco dancer emoji a lot, so close enough.

Katrina Ruth: That comment's everything. Because it's exactly what I was saying to you on the drive from the airport. I was like, "I kind of do nothing. I only do exactly what I want all the time. I feel like I do nothing." Oftentimes I'm like, this is almost like ... Somebody should report me for getting away with this because I feel like I'm just kind of fucking around all the time, and having the best time ever. And I just make shit up and I throw it at the internet, and I do whatever I want all day long. Most of the time, I feel like I do nothing.

Katrina Ruth: We were messaging about this yesterday, as well. You're like, I'm gonna do the flow and ease way, the way you do it, and the way ... You mentioned Amanda, one of my clients, Amanda's so cool, you've seen how Amanda does it. That's how we do it in this world. There's entrepreneurs out there who do it the hard way. You've seen I don't do that. I do it the flow and easy way and that's what many so-called clients do, and my friends as well.

Katrina Ruth: So, it feels like I do nothing. But then, technically, if you were to follow me around for a week and live my life, I don't feel ... I actually, really, logistically? Legitimately. Logistically also, I do move around a lot. But legitimately, I really don't feel most people would be able to keep up with it, they would just be like, "What in the actual fuck?" But I feel like I do nothing because it's all based on flow and ease. It's based on, I only do what I want.

Patrick Grabbs: You told me that though, too. I just know you, I've been hanging out with you for a long time, I guess a long time now, what I consider a long time, and so, I know how it's done. And then, to see your friend, she comes and does the same thing-

Katrina Ruth: Amanda, yeah.

Patrick Grabbs: And then I see other people doing it and everything like that. Of course, I know tonnes of people who do it the hard way. My good buddy, he does it the hard way.

Katrina Ruth: Most people are committed to the hard way.

Patrick Grabbs: They like to do it the hard way.

Katrina Ruth: It's like a badge of honour, do you think?

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah. It is, yeah for sure. Or, you feel like that you are going to be able to provide a better service to your clients by doing it the hard way, so that you have the experience.

Katrina Ruth: You proved yourself more, or it's more meaningful.

Patrick Grabbs: But, you've been doing it the hard way the whole time, you know what I mean?

Katrina Ruth: It's a really good point though, because back in the day, there were times when I would reschedule for example, a training or a client call, and I would've made up an excuse, which I know is what most people do. I would've said something like, traffic or such and such happened, or whatever. Whereas now, actually one of my good friends, well he's a mentor of a client actually, Dan Thomas, he put a post up a month or so ago. He put a screenshot of his conversation with a client, and I just thought it was hilarious cause this is how I do it now. You could see on the message thread, it said, "Sorry I was 15 minutes for our call. I was sitting on the toilet watching reruns of," I don't know, some show on Netflix.

Patrick Grabbs: Nice.

Katrina Ruth: Just straight up, right? It was so funny because he just was like, "I forgot that our call was on. I was on the toilet watching Netflix." And he said it.

Patrick Grabbs: He said that?

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, to his client.

Patrick Grabbs: That's good to say it.

Katrina Ruth: People don't do that, right? They'd be like, "Sorry I was late. A dramatic thing happened in my life. And you don't understand," and I'm the same as well now. I rescheduled the high vibe livestream, for those who [inaudible 00:37:18], it was on Sunday, I think it was, whenever I flew into New York, the first day. Because I flew in and I was like, I really wanna go to yoga. Like, I really fucking wanna go to yoga, but the high vibe livestream is right in the middle of class, so I just moved it by an hour, and then I said that. I was like, I wanted to go to yoga. And I'm teaching you guys flow and ease, and I'm teaching you that you always get to follow your souls desires. So, I'm going to tell you that my soul desired that I go to yoga and I choose to believe that it's always perfect. Everything's always okay. I don't have to follow the normal business or entrepreneur rules that say you must always be professional, and you must do it like this. With a friend, if you had plans with a friend, and then you really felt like, you know what, I really need some time for myself, I really wanna go workout, or I really wanna whatever-

Patrick Grabbs: Just do it.

Katrina Ruth: You would just tell your friend, "Hey, can we push it by an hour," right? Why do you wanna lie in your business, or why do wanna have a mask or a shield up? When you do that, you will not call in soulmate clients.

Patrick Grabbs: Bam. Yeah, you're out.

Katrina Ruth: You can't. You're only gonna have clients who are [inaudible 00:38:16], and they are high maintenance motherfuckers that you just don't really want to have to deal with.

Patrick Grabbs: Or, if you're trying to work around with their schedule, too. You won't be able to make it that far doing that anyways.

Katrina Ruth: Bowing down to your clients, and yeah, that's a fear. The only reason to do that would be like, fear and insecurity of not getting the business.

Patrick Grabbs: I found myself kind of getting [inaudible 00:38:37] because I'm not the only one who went on his own. One of my best friends actually did the same thing-

Katrina Ruth: You should tag him in. He's a nice guy.

Patrick Grabbs: Ryan Stewman, great guy. He bred two great entrepreneurs and put us out there, it's awesome. My buddy, so I'm now consulting him in his marketing business. He's just all over the place. Today, we were all over, he's like a hustler, so he's on the phone calling, calling, calling, calling. But he also hasn't been in this as long as I have, and hasn't watched all the things, hasn't spent as much time as I spend around people like Kat and people who think like this, with this very ease of life mentality. I'm very interested in it, and so I've always kind of watched every video I could find on it.

Patrick Grabbs: Today, this is the first day of our business, to be out here doing it. Each of our business, our brand new businesses. He's off to the races, and I'm just like, how can I do? What can I do? Like, he's running around the house like up here in the front, and I'm like, what can I do to ... I'm just sitting here thinking. Just letting my mind kind of just go, you know? What am I ... I can't remember what the top of my priority was to do. I'm like, my neck's kind of fucked up. I got in a wreck, so I've just been thinking about this neck. I wasn't really ... I'm not in a big rush because I just understand one thing. Money is gonna come.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah.

Patrick Grabbs: I made it happen too many times in my life. It's such a easy thing to do. Based on what I believe, and what I know from them, and they way that I choose to believe in it, and the way that I choose to believe my life, choose to live my life, is I know it's going to come.

Katrina Ruth: Faith.

Patrick Grabbs: It's just gonna come. Well, it's my reality. I've created this.

Katrina Ruth: Faith in your own reality and that you get to choose.

Patrick Grabbs: It is. I'm choosing this, and I choose to just ... If I wanna pussyfoot around in the house for a minute, and just wander around here aimlessly, not even thinking about shit. Like we were talking about-

Katrina Ruth: But that's often where the breakthroughs come from as well.

Patrick Grabbs: But I'm also thinking. I'm also thinking too, I'm like, I wanna see where this thoughts gonna go. What this-

Katrina Ruth: You're creating inside of you.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, I'm just walking around, just letting this go where it goes, where this thoughts go. I'm ironing all of that out. Matter of fact though, when I'm talking to certain clients and everything, when I've been picking up the phone and actually talking to them, it's been kind of a ... I don't know. It's just not there yet, you can tell they're not soulmate clients yet, you know? They're not quite there yet. It's something that I'm like, it's kind of one of those things I'm not really interested in totally touching yet.

Katrina Ruth: Yep.

Patrick Grabbs: I don't wanna start doing that right now. I just wanna let it go, and start finding out what the rest of ... Now, Kat's come in to town, we're gonna have some major breakthroughs and everything. So, I'm cool. This is what I'm trying to do, right here, you know?

Katrina Ruth: But this is also the real work. Us talking, livestreaming, even when your by yourself obviously. When you think you're not doing anything, it's about giving yourself some credit for the way that you live your fucking life. Your version, or my version, or a lot of people's here version, okay, I didn't say everyone here, so I guess you get to decide whether that's you or not. Our version of doing nothing is fucking growth all the time. You were saying earlier about how girls apparently feel about each other, which I do not agree with. He says to me, "Girls are all competitive with each other," and that he thinks that deep down women hate each other and I was like, "What. Not a chance, no."

Patrick Grabbs: No, [crosstalk 00:42:27]

Katrina Ruth: He's like, "Well, you're different." Obviously. I think we know that, but-

Patrick Grabbs: Your profile says, "Kicking the ass of the 1% of the 1%." That's a very small percentage of people. I think we can agree-

Katrina Ruth: It's actually the 1% of the 1% within the 1% ...

Patrick Grabbs: Like a micro-percent.

Katrina Ruth: Yep.

Patrick Grabbs: I think we can all agree that we know quite a few women who are very competitive and who hate each other. Alls I'm saying.

Katrina Ruth: We don't do that here.

Patrick Grabbs: Many. Not in the vibe, not in the kick ass-

Katrina Ruth: You know that that's not me. Yeah, we are not like that. We're different. I say all the time we're different from other entrepreneurs. All of us. We women are different from the other women. And part of that is, over time, for me and I know this is true for my clients ... Brandon Marshall, who the fuck is this guy?

Katrina Ruth: Over time, I guess I gradually grew into myself to where I'm like, I'm owning who I am. At the point in my life, I'm unapologetically who I am, and I know and trust that that's okay. Fuck off Brandon Marshall. Alright. The comments are starting to go out of control. Every time Brandon jumps on the livestream.

Patrick Grabbs: Brandon's my boy, though. I like Brandon. He's cool.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, Brandon's like one of my favourite people in the world. But as soon as he comes on the livestream, it's all the Brandon fucking show instead of the Katrina Ruth show now.

Patrick Grabbs: Brandon's cutting in.

Katrina Ruth: He's always hilarious though.

Katrina Ruth: So, I gradually got to a point where I'm like, you know what, I actually spend a lot of time in my life trying really hard to be everybody else, and I think I'm just gonna be me now. And that's why I can be so ... The things I say, even stuff I've said to you, or to any friends, or to clients, I say shit that breaks the rules of what you're supposed to say. Whether it's in business, in life, personal life, anything right? I just say stuff and I can do it without attachment because I'm completely grounded ... completely is an interesting word because you're always evolving and growing, but I'm grounded in who I am. So I'm okay no matter the outcome. I don't have to worry what another person is doing. I know what I'm fucking doing.

Patrick Grabbs: I got to ask you a question though, because you just brought this to my mind, it's something I've been thinking about. How do you know, because I'm always thinking, okay, I'll say something and it's very simple but it's something that I've thought about, maybe a long time ago, and I've already registered it in my head-

Katrina Ruth: Okay.

Patrick Grabbs: And I've been holding a lot in, right? Obviously, over time.

Katrina Ruth: Yes, we've noticed.

Patrick Grabbs: So I've been like, I'm already thinking, you're already thinking on a super high level, right? So, you think at a super high level, you're totally different than anybody else, you're totally different than the 99 of the 99 of the 99% out there.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, we're gonna clip this bit out. We're gonna get captions on it, we're gonna put it all over Facebook.

Patrick Grabbs: Alright-

Katrina Ruth: Anyway, continue.

Patrick Grabbs: Okay. So, how do you figure out the stuff that you have to go back to because you think it's basic and you think it's rudimentary to you now, at this point in your life, do you ever have anything like you think that, or do you just let it run, or you're gonna go back and talk about some basics and bring those back up-

Katrina Ruth: Where I question myself, you mean?

Patrick Grabbs: No. Have you ever had some things that you think are very basic that people should already know? But they're actually not.

Katrina Ruth: Yes.

Patrick Grabbs: And do you go back and bring those things up? There's a lot of things that I've already considered-

Katrina Ruth: To tell to people?

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah. Yeah, exactly.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. Yeah, I think so. Definitely. I don't even have an example that's coming up-

Patrick Grabbs: You just say whatever?

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. Well, with clients and even in public livestreams sometimes, or in member trainings, I'm definitely going back to basics a lot of the time. Because I have to go back to basics all the time anyway, right? And it depends, the level of groundedness, and I guess, me being unapologetically me ... Yes, exactly like that. It's very zen.

Patrick Grabbs: Way to be zen. Very zen-minded. Let's ground. We're grounding. You have to ground onto something.

Katrina Ruth: Ground onto the couch with your leg-

Patrick Grabbs: We don't have to ground ourselves. You were saying?

Katrina Ruth: So, the level of groundedness that I have in my business is pretty fucking on point, I really do feel ... I get shaken from time to time in the smallest way, but it's always an instant reframe and a lesson in to, "Oh, I see how I nearly went down this pathway of thinking such and such. Cool, got it." Like, it's a millisecond. Whereas, there's other areas of my life where it's more shaky and I have to think more. I have to actually pause before I say something or take an action, cause I'm like, wait, hang on. Am I acting from outside of myself? Am I following rules and conditioning, or am I following my soul? And actually Alexa Martinez is here. Do you know Alexa, are you friends with Alexa? Do you know who Alexa is?

Patrick Grabbs: Elixir?

Katrina Ruth: Well, not elixir. Alexa. Okay.

Patrick Grabbs: Elixir.

Katrina Ruth: I've never told you properly about Alexa-

Patrick Grabbs: If you ever want to be an Australian accent, I've nailed it down. If you ever want to take Australian accent classes-

Katrina Ruth: He does a terrible Australian accent.

Patrick Grabbs: All you have to do is an-

Katrina Ruth: You sound British when you do an Australian-

Patrick Grabbs: You have to add an -ER to everything. That's all you do.

Katrina Ruth: And by the way, you're not allowed to do an Australian accent if you refuse to eat Vegemite. Would you like to eat some Vegemite live on this livestream?

Patrick Grabbs: I will never eat that shit again. Ever. It's disgusting. It's horrible.

Katrina Ruth: It's the best.

Patrick Grabbs: It's disgusting.

Katrina Ruth: I've got Vegemite right here.

Patrick Grabbs: If you folks on this livestream-

Katrina Ruth: He tried to kick me out of his car earlier when he found out that I had Vegemite with me.

Patrick Grabbs: I don't want it anywhere near me. And in fact, I think it's illegal to have it in the United States. And I don't break the law anymore, so therefore, I can't have this disgusting drug. It's like something you'd put in an envelope and send to your worst enemy. Somebody would send it to Donald Trump, he'd probably die. (laughter)

Katrina Ruth: Everyone's like, "I'll get ten tubs."

Katrina Ruth: Hang on, what were we just saying?

Patrick Grabbs: I don't know.

Katrina Ruth: Oh, I'll tell you about Alexa afterwards. I think you're gonna wanna hear-

Patrick Grabbs: But anyways, if you wanna speak Australian, just add an -ER to everything. You know.

Katrina Ruth: But he does do a very good Ryan Stewman impression. It was actually so good that I looked over my shoulder to see if Ryan was hiding behind me in the car. We're gonna go to New Orleans and play with Alexa, she says.

Patrick Grabbs: Okay.

Katrina Ruth: Let's do a quick detour to New Orleans tomorrow.

Patrick Grabbs: Get on the Vegemite.

Katrina Ruth: Are you talking about tobacco?

Katrina Ruth: What were we saying? Okay. So, Alexa has been somebody who is very important in my life. Alexer.

Patrick Grabbs: Alexer. Wanna drink some winer?

Katrina Ruth: A massive source of support for me as a mentor and a friend. And actually, it's kind of hilarious though, because the things that Alexa has mentored me on ... Well, the reason I resonate with her so much as a coach, is because she teaches getting back to you, and trusting in your own self, and your own soul. But there's areas of my life where that's been really blurry and hard for me to do, and I'm like, I'm not sure. What's the right way to do something versus the wrong way? It's been this gradual process of me getting to where I'm like, "Oh my god. Oh my god. The right way is always the way that I'm feeling inside of me." I can remember a year ago, probably around about a year ago, having a conversation with Alexa where I was like, "I don't know what to do. Help me, help me." And she's like, "But what are you feeling? What do you want to do?" Right. Well, that's an evolutionary fucking concept. Maybe if I just went by what I was feeling. So, that's what I started to do.

Patrick Grabbs: You don't think you ever make, let's say, do you have any situations, because obviously I look through this with a logical and rational mind-

Katrina Ruth: But, logic comes from intuition, technically.

Patrick Grabbs: Okay.

Katrina Ruth: You know. Go ahead.

Patrick Grabbs: So, you had a fork in the road, of your thought process-

Katrina Ruth: She's being [inaudible 00:50:37] in the comments. Carry on.

Patrick Grabbs: You're at a fork in the road, and you have two choices. Have you ever made ... You know, you think about one choice, and you make it, you feel like they both could be the right choice, obviously everybody thinks that, right? They both might be the right choice, or do you just think that you know, or should you know that one of them is better than the other. What if they're both a hell yeah decision?

Katrina Ruth: Are we talking about relationships now?

Patrick Grabbs: We could be.

Katrina Ruth: We said we weren't gonna do that.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, well why can't you have it all?

Patrick Grabbs: You could. You can have it all.

Katrina Ruth: Okay. So, it's either I get to have it all, regardless of the situation, and typically most mindsets in business life, or anything, would be like, you can't do that, breaking the rules. Well, alright. What if you got to make your own rules? So, it's either that you get to have it all or you just not being honest with yourself. Oftentimes, when you feel that you're at a crossroad, really what's going on is, for whatever reason, in resistance about the thing that you know is right and real. Either fear or uncertainty.

Patrick Grabbs: Not trusting yourself.

Katrina Ruth: Or self-sabotage.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: I know I've done that many times, it's almost like you deliberately like, yeah, I see what's right for me, and what's aligned, and would actually serve me, but I'm just gonna go do this other thing over here because I wanna prove to the world and to the universe, that I don't have to be told what to do, even if it's by my own self, right?

Katrina Ruth: So, it could be that, or it could be that you've got an idea in your head-

Patrick Grabbs: That's powerful right there, I think.

Katrina Ruth: Thank you.

Patrick Grabbs: I think it's powerful.

Katrina Ruth: I think these comments are going a little crazy.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, they are. What are they saying?

Katrina Ruth: Everyone wants to talk about sex. That's always true. People are scared. Okay, I'm here for the [inaudible 00:52:22] business talk. He's pretty fly for a smart ass guy.

Patrick Grabbs: She must be talking about Brandon cause he's a spiritual smart ass.

Katrina Ruth: Sex has no room for Friday nights. Oh, I'm sorry to hear that. That's really your concern. Okay, I missed a whole tonne of interesting comments I think, but they've disappeared now. We'll come back to them later.

Patrick Grabbs: Okay.

Katrina Ruth: I think that if you're like, "I don't know whether to do this or this," you do know. Depending on the situation and the era in life, you might have to pause for a little longer, to kind of tune in and figure out what it is.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, Brandon wants us to sell him ... Can we auction these pillows on this livestream? We're gonna do it. Did you see when the couch auction people took over my stuff, did you see that?

Patrick Grabbs: No, I did not.

Katrina Ruth: Oh. Have you-

Patrick Grabbs: I gotta see first on your stuff. I thought I had you see first.

Katrina Ruth: How can you not have me see first?

Patrick Grabbs: I have to see forget.

Katrina Ruth: You have to manually go to my page every day, [crosstalk 00:53:16]. So, you have to manually go there and read my blog every day? Or just ...

Patrick Grabbs: You call it your blog, but it's a post on Facebook. It's a Facebook post. Do you copy your Facebook-

Katrina Ruth: Do you go and look for it, or do you wait for it to appear in front of you in your News Feed?

Patrick Grabbs: Well, I have this thing on my laptop, it's called News Feed Eradicator-

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, I know, I've seen it.

Patrick Grabbs: It blocks all that shit up.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, but you read my posts.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, I do whenever I'm on my cell phone, you know what I'm saying, so mostly on the shitter, on the john-

Katrina Ruth: Oh. That's lovely.

Patrick Grabbs: It's very lovely. It's where my best thinking comes from.

Katrina Ruth: It's probably where a lot of people read my posts, [crosstalk 00:53:49].

Patrick Grabbs: They're watching it right now. Taking a very long one. Your legs are gonna be asleep if you keep doing what you're doing.

Patrick Grabbs: I don't know.

Katrina Ruth: What?

Patrick Grabbs: That went over your head? (laughter)

Katrina Ruth: Yeah.

Patrick Grabbs: If they're sitting on the shitter their leg is gonna go to sleep. You ain't never sit on there too long, your watching a livestream?

Katrina Ruth: No, I don't. I'm very efficient.

Patrick Grabbs: You get up and go. You just drop and go. Drop and move.

Katrina Ruth: I'm fucking focused and efficient in all areas.

Patrick Grabbs: She doesn't waste time. I like to sit for a while and enjoy myself.

Katrina Ruth: I only sit in there for if I'm hiding from people, like at a party.

Patrick Grabbs: Do you really?

Katrina Ruth: Yeah.

Patrick Grabbs: Fucking introverts.

Katrina Ruth: On occasions.

Patrick Grabbs: I come from the kind of place where you used to have to look at a fucking air freshener can on the back, and read the instructions. Now, we have phones. We can watch whatever we want. We can watch whatever we want. We can watch cat videos, we can watch Kat videos.

Katrina Ruth: That's the whole story. What else do you wanna watch? Well, you can start watching Patrick's stuff as well.

Patrick Grabbs: You can watch Pat videos now. Yep.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah.

Patrick Grabbs: Very interesting, if you [inaudible 00:54:58]. Perfect time. I'll help you flow better.

Katrina Ruth: Do you have Brandon see first on your News Feed? You should have Brandon see first. He's [inaudible 00:55:04] amongst the most entertaining on Facebook.

Katrina Ruth: But, let's come back to this crossroads question. Why? Why that question?

Patrick Grabbs: Which one?

Katrina Ruth: You said-

Patrick Grabbs: Oh. Because I have occasionally, it's a thing, it's one thing, I've got flaws, and I think about them, and think about you know, that's one of them. One of a very, very few that I have and so-

Katrina Ruth: Short list. It's on a post-it.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, it's a very short list. A very short list. I'm getting it all out right now.

Katrina Ruth: It's on a post-it note. It's on a business card.

Patrick Grabbs: Right here.

Patrick Grabbs: This is like half of them. There's just a couple right here.

Katrina Ruth: It's a circle business card. One of the small ones.

Patrick Grabbs: I'm just trying to get them knocked out while you're here.

Patrick Grabbs: That's the one. You come to the fork in the road, and you're like, these are two forks. But what if they're both ... You say you can have it all, that's cool, I've got two. That's fine. And they're both hell yeah decisions, okay cool. I'll just take them both. But, obviously if they're both maybes, then that's a hell no, right?

Katrina Ruth: They're both hell no's.

Patrick Grabbs: They're both hell no's. Back to the drawing board.

Katrina Ruth: But then a lot of people would feel like-

Patrick Grabbs: They had to take one.

Katrina Ruth: Correct. Like let's say it's client conversation. Let's say you're doing sales calls. Firstly, I just had a small, minor heart attack by using the term sales calls, because why would you do a sales call, when you could just sign them up over Facebook chat?

Katrina Ruth: But secondly-

Patrick Grabbs: I like sales calls. You don't like talking and hearing their voice?

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, I like talking, but I don't like sales calls. I clearly like talking.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: Well anyway, if you like them then do them for that reason. But most people, we definitely don't wanna be doing sales calls, that's for sure. And you should join the high ticket sales workshop. The Katrina Ruth show dot com forward slash high ticket sales workshop, or something. I don't know, just go find it. I don't know the URL. And I'll show you how to do it without the sales calls. But if you like them-

Patrick Grabbs: I saw that and I was like, no, I was like cool. But, I haven't gotten there yet. You already know your audience-

Katrina Ruth: Actually, this is a great point. This is a very good point. I'm really glad you just said that actually.

Patrick Grabbs: Hmm.

Katrina Ruth: Hmm. Maybe I should bring you on as a guest [inaudible 00:57:24]. That is a very good point. Because there's no fucking way you should be imagining to yourself that somebodies gonna come along and text you on Facebook and wanna sign up with you high end, in one or two minutes. Which is what my high end clients do. They come to me, they're like, "Hey Kat. I need to mentor with you now. I don't care how much it is. Tell me." And then I tell them, and then they sign up. And that's like, up to an $80K plus sale, right? That's what I do.

Patrick Grabbs: Well, well, well.

Katrina Ruth: And I'm gonna teach that in my workshop. But part of what I'm going to teach you is, really, really, how do you get to the point of it being like that? Well, you know your fucking audience, and they know you and there's many things that go into that. But I'll tell you something that I did. Which actually I think would be a good exercise for everybody. In 2014, I was transitioning my business. I was kinda caught up where I was teaching a lot of internet sales and marketing, which as we all know, I just so fucking don't like teaching. Even though I could, right?

Patrick Grabbs: Definitely.

Katrina Ruth: And I knew I wanted to talk like alignment and ass kickery, and that sort of stuff, and I felt like a lot of people feel. I felt like, but who wants to listen to me talk about alignment and ass kickery and living your dream life and pressing play and all that shit? I was like-

Patrick Grabbs: I'd like to press play.

Katrina Ruth: You're always pressing fucking play. Who am I to do that, and who would listen? I had all that stuff. I decided that I would do 100 calls with clients, or with people in my community, and I would call it an alignment and ass kickery session, and I did 100 calls.

Katrina Ruth: However, they weren't sales calls. I actually sold a programme for $97. It was called The Alignment and Ass Kickery Toolkit. It was a two week programme. They got audio and stuff, it was very good. I should just sell it right now, but I don't have a link, which is annoying cause I like to sell. But anyway, in the programme, I said, $97 you get these two weeks, and you get a one-on-one call with me, which was like crazy cause I already had a pretty big following, but it was transitioning. So people jumped on it, and I think 120 people bought it in like two days.

Patrick Grabbs: How many?

Katrina Ruth: 120.

Patrick Grabbs: Holy shit.

Katrina Ruth: Because I was already established. So when it was like you're getting a one-on-one coaching call for $97, people just jumped.

Patrick Grabbs: So, one-on-one call. So, you get the one-on-one call-

Katrina Ruth: And the course.

Patrick Grabbs: And how long is the call?

Katrina Ruth: 20 minutes.

Patrick Grabbs: So, you have 2,000 minutes worth of calling to do?

Katrina Ruth: Well, I was in London. I was at the W in Leicester Square, London, by myself for two weeks, and I was running a one-day event there that one day, and then I was there the whole other two weeks, and I literally just remember standing there, they didn't have a desk in this hotel room, but they had this bar. Like a standup bar. I can remember standing there at the bar, and I just ... I got up every morning, you asked me earlier what's my morning routine. I got up, I had my coffee, I did my journal blog. Workout, whatever. And then, I would stand there from like 11AM til 6PM, just doing these 20 minute calls back to back. And I did it for two weeks, or roughly two weeks.

Patrick Grabbs: You did the two weeks-

Katrina Ruth: With no [inaudible 01:00:28]. And then it was all done. And by the end of that two weeks, I was so fucking empowered. I knew exactly my audience. I knew all of their fears, and insecurities, and doubts, and I had also empowered myself into knowing that I could help these people with my [inaudible 01:00:44].

Patrick Grabbs: How big was your audience?

Katrina Ruth: No idea. I don't remember the numbers. I don't really think in numbers. But I had a following already because I'd been online for years already. I had a decent following, but I'd been positioning myself as, "I'll teach you sales and marketing." Rather than positioning myself as, "I'll teach you to press fucking play," and all that stuff, whatever it is I actually do. Which I still-

Patrick Grabbs: And you went fully with the press play?

Katrina Ruth: Well, that was where I transitioned into I'm about alignment and ass kickery. It was from that. So, when I say, "Fuck sales calls," I'm coming from a place of, I kind of did that damn thing, and I don't really wanna do it anymore.

Katrina Ruth: Shout out Sarah Dan, my amazing client and friend, Sarah. I'm just shouting her out cause I saw her jump on.

Patrick Grabbs: But, there is much power to be known in the sales call.

Katrina Ruth: It's great point. If you don't know your audience. If you don't fully know who you fucking are, and why people should want to work with you, maybe you should be doing sales calls. See? I told you. He's like the one person that can actually me to change my freaking mind.

Patrick Grabbs: Well, you know this though because you know, I've just started running ads. I just started running ads, and I'm trying to fill up a group, and so I wrote a message, just like you taught me. I wrote a long ass message, and I attached it to an ad, and I ran the ad to people with interests that would fit the mould of my perfect client. Well, I got like ten people ...

Katrina Ruth: Travis. We tagged you ages ago. We were talking about you 20 minutes ago, you show up now.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, we were. Yeah, you gotta go scroll back.

Katrina Ruth: You're gonna have to watch the replay later.

Patrick Grabbs: Also, follow Travis too, because he's gonna be doing some big things, yeah.

Katrina Ruth: Oh, you gotta go follow Travis. He just jumped on.

Patrick Grabbs: He's a very handsome man. He's probably the most handsome man that I've ever seen.

Katrina Ruth: But he's also a killer sales pro.

Patrick Grabbs: Killer sales people, got it going hard. You gotta replay, go all the way back and figure this shit out dude. I was talking about you, some things you need to adjust, okay?

Katrina Ruth: He was preaching at you.

Patrick Grabbs: I was preaching at you.

Katrina Ruth: So, you're running your ads-

Patrick Grabbs: So, I ran my ad, and I pulled about ten people into my group, I got ten leads. It was only around $10 a day, because I wanted to do an experiment, and I pulled this guy and I started looking ... I mean, everybody that came through, I started looking through their profile and looking at all their stuff, you know what I mean? I put in the Pipl. This is a little tip you guys can use. Pipl. P-I-P-L dot com. This is a good sales tactic for you. If they only give you their name or their email, you can use their email and you can find them if they have a Facebook, a LinkedIn, or whatever. We use it in the sales game all the time.

Patrick Grabbs: So, I looked them all up, and I kept looking through people, and I found this guy, and he just glowed. Just glowed.

Katrina Ruth: Jesus?

Patrick Grabbs: Like Jesus. He totally looked like a guy who was mowing my yard. I have no yard actually, that was a fucked up joke.

Katrina Ruth: You've got the whole of Dallas. You should see the view right there. Like, it's actually quite rude that we haven't shown anybody the view.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, it is.

Katrina Ruth: We can wait til it goes a little bit darker.

Patrick Grabbs: It's gonna dark, it's gonna get a lot better as the time goes by.

Katrina Ruth: It's like the best view in Dallas, for sure.

Patrick Grabbs: I'm already kinda buzzing.

Katrina Ruth: It's the spirits coming through.

Patrick Grabbs: It's the spirits. I shouldn't be having spirits at this time of day.

Katrina Ruth: The spirit comes through anytime he wants to.

Patrick Grabbs: But, I saw this guy, right? And he popped out to me. Out of these ten people that signed up to be leads, this one guy popped out to me, and he had this glow about him. You just looked at him, and he wears like chains, you know like, black like I do. And he had a chain on like I would wear, you know, I wear some little foo-foo jewellery sometimes. And he had the style. He's an older dude, he's like 40 or so. He's divorced, he has a kid. And I just looked at all this stuff about him, and I've told you about this, but I just reached out to him.

Patrick Grabbs: He joined my group, and I reached out to him, and I just talked to him for hours. I said, "Dude, I want you to know, the reason I'm asking you this stuff is because you seem like the exact prototype of what I'm looking for to be back here. I just want to ask you a few questions just to get to know you more." That's all I said, I wasn't trying to have a sales conversation or anything with him. I just wanted to get to know about him and his life. We just talked pretty much all night, just back and forth, back and forth. Actually, we've been talking for about three days. I'm just asking question after question because I'm brand new to this, and I wanna know. I really do. This is the most important thing that I feel like I should be doing right now, is figuring out about him.

Katrina Ruth: That's true. And then, I guess, my counter to that, but I fully agree, but then my counter at the same time is, well, what I do, and what I teach and what we've been talking about is, I'm communicating with my audience all day every day. That's 90% of what I spend my time on in my business, is connection and communication. So, I don't do sales call because I already have that fucking conversation 100,000 times, whether it was on a livestream or wherever. I'm very accessible over private message as well. I feel like I'm a lot more accessible than a lot of people at my level maybe are.

Katrina Ruth: I'm always talking and so I know my people already. So, I could do a sales call, but actually, well I choose not to. Actually, Reagan and I had this conversation a while back, we were like, if we wanted to hire somebody and then they said, "Let's jump on a sales call."

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, that would be weird.

Katrina Ruth: We would instantly eliminate that person because we're like, "Oh, really? Okay." My people totally do not wanna get on sales call. Actually, I'll tell you something. Somebody pitched me yesterday, and she's sold me now as well. Which is very rare. And don't everybody fucking start pitching me shit on Facebook, by the way.

Patrick Grabbs: Pitch. Easy sell.

Katrina Ruth: This has happened two times-

Patrick Grabbs: I'm never getting brought again.

Katrina Ruth: This has happened two times and that's it. Two times total where people have pitched me over Facebook and I've bought.

Katrina Ruth: But it happened today. I said yes today while I was on the plane on the way here actually. But she pitched me, and she made a proposal to me, and I liked her energy and her vibe. She said, "Can we jump on a call, and I'll tell you basically about my offer." I was like, no, I said, "I'm not gonna get on a call, I don't do calls." Like, obviously, I do calls when I wanna do a freaking call, but I didn't wanna get on a call. I'm like, no, I don't wanna hear the one hour version or even the 30 minute version. I said, "Tell me about it in a way that feels good for you." And she sent me a three minute video. I'm like, boom, done. I watched it while I was on the cross trainer at the gym. I didn't have to get on a freaking call to be sold to. I watched her video. I'm like, "Yeah. I really like your vibe." I liked her, I like what she was saying. I said "Okay, tell me more about how you do it." She told me on Facebook. I'm going, cool, what's the investment? She told me. I've gone okay. I said, "Okay." She writes back and says, "Well, let me know if it gets to hell yes." I'm like no, no, I meant yes by okay. I just wrote okay. And that was it, right?

Katrina Ruth: I signed myself up. And that's what my clients do. They sign themselves up with me. They don't wanna be on a sales call with me. But, I definitely think that's super valid. If you are transitioning in your business-

Patrick Grabbs: I'm starting. Yeah, I'm beginning.

Katrina Ruth: You are and you aren't. Because you have so much more ... Like, you have more actual internet marketing experience than anybody who I personally know. And then you've got the powerful messenger and leader thing at the same time. So, you're starting I guess, with it being your business and presenting your message to the world, and it being about you and your message, but you're certainly not fucking starting on internet marketing and building a business. You've done that in a huge way, and you're not starting on actually the whole message or communication thing anyway, cause you do that all the time, whether it's with me, or other people, or whatever. It's just that you haven't done it to the world yet. So, if you think about it, all you've gotta do is switch into that place of like, I'm already there. Rather than being, I've gotta figure out how to work my way there.

Katrina Ruth: Varian says, "So true. I don't want to be on sales calls with people if I'm inquiring, I'm basically already sold." Totally. If I would inquire with someone, I'm sold already, I definitely don't wanna do a sales call.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, you wouldn't on the call, right?

Katrina Ruth: Right. But do you know what I mean, you're starting, but really, you're not starting. And actually, I would just eliminate that script from your vocabulary and be, I'm already there. Because if you're saying, "I'm starting" then you're creating it as reality by saying it, do you know what I mean?

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, I'm gonna take myself back and then have to go through it ... I understand. We actually eliminate people in the sales call with our meeting apps be it by saying, if you're not fully 100% certain about what you want in life, if you aren't there yet, all your material's there for anybody to go read-

Katrina Ruth: Yeah.

Patrick Grabbs: Then why would they even be reaching out. Why? Why would they be reaching out unless they were already sold.

Katrina Ruth: Right. Exactly. And that's exactly what you're now gonna be doing as well. Just messaging and showing up and giving value, and then people are going to be sold on you.

Patrick Grabbs: Just worried that it's going to take a very long time before somebody finally buys in-

Katrina Ruth: That's a choice. No, that's a choice. That's a mindset, but it's good to acknowledge the uncertainty or the fear.

Patrick Grabbs: I am acknowledging the uncertainty and the fear. There you go.

Katrina Ruth: On the couch.

Patrick Grabbs: That's the meat and the taters of this whole situation here.

Katrina Ruth: That's good. Bring it out.

Patrick Grabbs: This is the meat and taters. I am uncertain.

Katrina Ruth: You can have that fear and then you do the damn thing anyway.

Patrick Grabbs: And I'm gonna do the damn thing anyways. Fuck it. I'm going to do it. It's not a big deal. I'm not gonna fall, I'm not gonna fail. Never gonna fail at this.

Katrina Ruth: It's not possible.

Patrick Grabbs: It is impossible. Everybody here is inside my mind. You're inside my reality. I've created you, welcome.

Katrina Ruth: I'm sure they're thrilled to hear that.

Patrick Grabbs: You're welcome.

Katrina Ruth: Just drop that in there at the end.

Patrick Grabbs: It's brand new. It's brand new. I know this is news to you.

Katrina Ruth: Just so you know.

Patrick Grabbs: This is what I've done.

Katrina Ruth: If you have that level of ownership over the actual freaking people, then you can have ownership over your own message.

Patrick Grabbs: I have that. I own my own message. So, I am owning you.

Katrina Ruth: There we go. You heard it here, ladies and one gentleman. Which is think is Brandon. But I'm sure they'll be a couple of other guys come along-

Patrick Grabbs: Brandon's more in touch with his feminine side than most of those females, I assure you of that.

Katrina Ruth: Well, he knows exactly what's up. He's a wise and profound man.

Patrick Grabbs: Is Brandon in any of your programmes?

Katrina Ruth: Brandon has a special place on the wall of ... When you actually become a high vibe mastermind member, and you first get your welcome, your initiation. There's a warning. And it says, "This is Brandon Marshall. Most irreverent member in the group. He is gonna fuck with every serious thing you say, but then he's gonna drop profound knowledge the whole way through as well." Brandon is actually the silent heartbeat of all my programmes, I'm pretty sure. Like, really.

Patrick Grabbs: Brandon's a fucking troll and I will tell you that. I see Brandon's shit all the time and I'm like, I should've blocked this motherfucker, I'm like, no, I'm not gonna-

Katrina Ruth: Oh, come on.

Patrick Grabbs: I'm not gonna allow Brandon to out-troll me. I know what you're doing Brandon, I know you don't believe half the bullshit you say, that you troll with. I know that, I know that.

Katrina Ruth: That's exactly what he's doing.

Patrick Grabbs: Yes, he does. So, I'm like you're not going to out-troll the troll master. Okay, sir?

Katrina Ruth: Super smart. Master entertainer.

Patrick Grabbs: Yes.

Katrina Ruth: He's a master entertainer.

Patrick Grabbs: It will not happen sir.

Katrina Ruth: He's in high vibe, yes. And he's in a lot of my programmes. He brings the energy and the entertainment.

Patrick Grabbs: She said, "I did an experiment last night to a small list. Idea came from flow. Sold four spots without any calls, which is what I normally do. Yay to no calls."

Katrina Ruth: Yeah. You can totally do it any way. You can do it anyway that you wanna do it, that's the truth about anything actually.

Patrick Grabbs: You can just do it any way you wanna do it.

Katrina Ruth: You can actually do whatever you want.

Patrick Grabbs: I like the sound of that.

Katrina Ruth: There's a revolutionary idea for life. You can actually do whatever you want all the time, in life.

Patrick Grabbs: It's that old saying-

Katrina Ruth: It's just giving yourself permission to do it.

Patrick Grabbs: We had this burger place here in Texas.

Katrina Ruth: Look at my shoes.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, I saw those. I was like, damn. I normally don't check out chicks shoes, but, you know-

Katrina Ruth: They're pretty amazing.

Patrick Grabbs: They're pretty nice.

Katrina Ruth: I just feel a little rude that I never showed them.

Patrick Grabbs: Kat always has on some dang shoes. That's why I'm like, I wanna see how-

Katrina Ruth: You like me for the shoes.

Patrick Grabbs: That's it. That's the whole thing.

Katrina Ruth: There we go. It's good to know. Glad we got that out.

Patrick Grabbs: I know Kat goes hard, and I know her style is always on point, so I'm always like if I wanna know what chicks like about shoes, then I'll just check out Kat, cause she's got some badass fucking shoes.

Katrina Ruth: Look at them.

Patrick Grabbs: Just look at it. Look at it. Just look at it.

Katrina Ruth: You should feel the shoes.

Patrick Grabbs: Are those red bottoms? Is that Louboutin?

Katrina Ruth: Yes.

Patrick Grabbs: Okay. You got the red bottoms. Red bottoms.

Katrina Ruth: Did you see those thigh high rose gold boots that I had on the other day?

Patrick Grabbs: I think I might've saw those. I might've picked those up.

Katrina Ruth: You picked them up. There's some amazing shoes over there, that's why I have so much luggage.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, she's got a whole fucking cart.

Katrina Ruth: Anyway, sorry, I just realised it was really rude of me that I hadn't shown my shoes on this livestream.

Patrick Grabbs: Travis said, "They do go hard."

Katrina Ruth: What the shoes? Or me?

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, the shoes.

Katrina Ruth: These shoes are so comfortable as well. Would you believe that these shoes are comfortable to walk in? Because they are.

Patrick Grabbs: You don't look comfortable. That's how I started noticing because I saw you like, wobbling around here, trying to set stuff up, I was like, I had to see those shoes cause I think maybe you might be about to break your leg over fashion.

Katrina Ruth: They're super comfortable.

Patrick Grabbs: You might be about to break your ankle in the name of fashion, and I wanted to see what kind of shoes you would be doing this for. It had to be good.

Katrina Ruth: These are comfortable ones. I got some in there that I actually can't walk in, I would have to be carried.

Patrick Grabbs: I'm a very strong man.

Katrina Ruth: You're just gonna carry me around from place to place.

Katrina Ruth: You don't believe that? Helen! Okay, this is the most important moment of this livestream so far. Hang on. Let me demonstrate this to you.

Patrick Grabbs: She said, "I don't believe it." I don't believe it either. It's bullshit.

Katrina Ruth: Can I explain the engineering of this to you?

Patrick Grabbs: You ever bullshit your audience because this seems like the perfect time?

Katrina Ruth: No! Can I explain the engineering part of it?

Patrick Grabbs: Go ahead.

Katrina Ruth: Just have a look.

Patrick Grabbs: Okay, what did they tell you. Because I know, I've been to Louboutin, they don't tell you shit.

Katrina Ruth: Why do you go there? Look about this logically.

Patrick Grabbs: Your foot looks very, very uncomfortable.

Katrina Ruth: No, no.

Patrick Grabbs: It looks like it's caged.

Katrina Ruth: Look at the engineering of the shoe. Stop looking at my foot.

Patrick Grabbs: Okay. Here, here, down-

Katrina Ruth: Pay attention.

Patrick Grabbs: Very bad shoe.

Katrina Ruth: What do you see there that is not usually present on a Louboutin shoe? I don't know how much attention you've given to Louboutin shoes.

Patrick Grabbs: I do not pay that much attention to it. I don't know. It looks all the same to me.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, okay.

Patrick Grabbs: What is not present?

Katrina Ruth: This is super important, people.

Patrick Grabbs: Is it not supposed to have a platform for her heel?

Katrina Ruth: Hang on, I'm gonna show you something that's gonna help you to understand.

Patrick Grabbs: They look very uncomfortable, that's all I gotta say.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, let me show you another example.

Patrick Grabbs: I know what uncomfortable looks like.

Katrina Ruth: Look, I just walked a whole metre with no falls.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, it's an unpacking livestream now. Check this out. Did you see this shoe? Now this shoe is a work of art.

Patrick Grabbs: Okay.

Katrina Ruth: Right? This is an amazing shoe, ladies and gentleman. Two gentlemen. You being one, and Brandon being the other.

Patrick Grabbs: Oh, I'm a gentleman.

Katrina Ruth: What do you see about this shoe, that is different from this shoe, which will help you to understand why one is comfortable and one is not?

Patrick Grabbs: Can I even touch this shoe, is this-

Katrina Ruth: You may. Thank you for asking though.

Patrick Grabbs: Okay, so the difference is-

Katrina Ruth: So, this is fucking painful to walk in, but it's purposeful pain, obviously, for the result of you look fucking amazing.

Patrick Grabbs: What I see is ... This is like one of those weird things where you're looking at the picture and you're seeing what's the difference. They both look exactly the same.

Katrina Ruth: There's a distinct obvious difference that makes one shoe comfortable ... Exactly, Alexa, she's on it.

Patrick Grabbs: Well, I guess, okay. All I can say is, I guess the birdcage? Is that what it does?

Katrina Ruth: Look here. Look.

Patrick Grabbs: Oh! You actually have a sole.

Katrina Ruth: There's a little platform. The girls are on it. There's a little platform on these.

Patrick Grabbs: Okay.

Katrina Ruth: And, it doesn't mean I won't still fall down-

Patrick Grabbs: This has been my goal. To learn about women's shoes.

Katrina Ruth: It doesn't mean I won't fall down a random hole, if one encounters me, but these shoes ... I don't know how we got on to shoes, it just happened.

Patrick Grabbs: Does this happen many times?

Katrina Ruth: No.

Patrick Grabbs: This is new, this is new. Welcome to shoes.

Katrina Ruth: This is you live streaming.

Patrick Grabbs: Do not screen capture this and post it on my wall.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, I feel like this is a moment where everybody needs to have just a moment of silence, please.

Patrick Grabbs: Them apple bottom boots with the fur.

Katrina Ruth: If you didn't see these shoes, I mean, I really don't know what you think you're doing with your life. But I wore these shoes the other day for 14 hours straight, when I ran my New York event. So, I was standing most of the day, and running around. And these shoes look fucking amazing-

Patrick Grabbs: This is what I don't understand about fashion. This seems like the stuff that you look at next year, and you're like, "Oh, I can't believe I wore that shit."

Katrina Ruth: What?

Patrick Grabbs: You know? That's the stuff, right?

Katrina Ruth: Why would I think that? Because I looked incredible.

Patrick Grabbs: No, I mean, isn't that what ... Do you think people from the 80s look back on the stuff they wore in the 80s and they're like, "Oh, no."

Katrina Ruth: Definitely happy.

Patrick Grabbs: Really? Okay, cool.

Katrina Ruth: They're definitely happy about that. But these shoes have the platform as well you guys. So, they look freaking amazing, and they're so comfortable. You can't get those shoes on you anyway. Where is his off button? Whose off button? Brandon's. No, Helen, I was fine. Okay, I will admit that the toes on my right foot were completely numb. Numb and devoid of feeling for 24 hours afterwards. But it was a small price to pay.

Patrick Grabbs: What's the price to pay for this? A broken heel.

Katrina Ruth: Put the shoe in his mouth.

Patrick Grabbs: Damn, somebody has a foot fetish. Did she say put the foot-

Katrina Ruth: She said put the shoe in his mouth.

Patrick Grabbs: Put the shoe in his mouth. Oh my god.

Katrina Ruth: I've actually never tried that.

Patrick Grabbs: That was extreme.

Katrina Ruth: We'll discuss it off camera.

Patrick Grabbs: Off the topic, off camera.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, I feel like we went down a weird place.

Patrick Grabbs: We went down to the [inaudible 01:19:16]. But I like that, I'll go down that-

Katrina Ruth: We'll go anywhere.

Patrick Grabbs: Yes. We'll go anywhere with that. But it does like a shoe that you might want to put in your mouth, you know? This is the type. If one were to put a shoe in his mouth-

Katrina Ruth: Hang on. Did you say that you had a bondage blog?

Patrick Grabbs: I had a bondage blog, yeah.

Katrina Ruth: I feel like we could go down that path.

Patrick Grabbs: Well, let's go down that path.

Katrina Ruth: I actually got ... I was more curious about the trumpet blog, than the bondage blog, cause I feel like I understand the bondage thing, but I don't understand the trumpet thing.

Patrick Grabbs: How the hell are you more curious about the-

Katrina Ruth: Well, cause I'm familiar with the bondage thing, but I'm not familiar with the trumpet thing.

Patrick Grabbs: So, the trumpet ... Give me a couple likes and I'll bite it.

Katrina Ruth: Don't bite it hard.

Patrick Grabbs: This is a very expensive shoe.

Katrina Ruth: I only bought it two days ago.

Katrina Ruth: We said we were going to do a livestream on unconventional relationships, we ended up doing one on stagefright, and now we're doing one on shoe fetishism.

Patrick Grabbs: Oh, shit.

Katrina Ruth: But, we'll do the you conventional relationship one maybe tomorrow. Now, we're just doing bondages and shoe fetishes.

Patrick Grabbs: It's all sixes and sevens now. Sixes and sevens. I'll put some barbecue sauce on this bitch and eat it right now.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, tell us about your bondage blog that you've never previously mentioned to me, that you just casually dropped into a Facebook post today.

Patrick Grabbs: Okay, so yeah, I just casually dropped that in there. So, I did have a couple of bondage blogs.

Katrina Ruth: A couple? Why do you need more than one?

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, actually it's like 100. You need 100 of them.

Katrina Ruth: Why do you need more than one bondage blog?

Patrick Grabbs: You need more like 100.

Katrina Ruth: Yes, Alexa. This is why you waited that whole time. We just want to wait and see who our true audience is before we get into the really good content.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, yeah. We wait til their gone.

Katrina Ruth: Wait til all the flakers leave, and now the real shit's coming out.

Patrick Grabbs: The nasty nasties are still here, you know.

Katrina Ruth: Alright, let's hear it. 100 bondage blogs.

Patrick Grabbs: So, 100 bondage blogs. That's a tongue twister.

Patrick Grabbs: So, the thing is, when you're starting out on the internet, if you don't wanna pay for shit, if you wanna just do shit for free, you'll end up down all sorts of rabbit holes about things that you should do, that you can quickly do to make money. To quickly come up with a buck or two. And one of them, actually, two. I'll explain the first one is make affiliated trumpets-

Katrina Ruth: I'm sorry, you're using the shoe as a gesture.

Patrick Grabbs: I'm using the shoe as a gesture. It's the most odd and weird shit you can find. Like, somebody recommended to me that I just write reviews about trumpets and like affiliate those, and I just like was all in. I was like let' go. Let's go.

Katrina Ruth: Do you play the trumpet?

Patrick Grabbs: I know everything about trumpets.

Katrina Ruth: Do you play the trumpet?

Patrick Grabbs: I played the trumpet when I was a kid.

Katrina Ruth: Okay.

Patrick Grabbs: Don't make fun of me, but I did play the trumpet when I was a kid, and so, it's cool. I got first chair one time. That means I was the best. But anyways, I didn't give a fuck about trumpets. I did it like one time for like a year, and I had a trumpet. I didn't now anything about trumpets. In fact, I was like, okay whatever. It's just the first thing that I read where they're like, you can make some money off affiliate trumpets if you just write blog posts about trumpets all day.

Patrick Grabbs: So, I was like, fuck it, that's what I'm gonna do. I didn't think about anything, I didn't think about all this woo woo crazy shit about calling in your perfect clients-

Katrina Ruth: It freaking works.

Patrick Grabbs: Talking to yourself in the fucking mirror, and people start giving you money and shit like that. I didn't think anything about that. I think maybe somebody in the back might've commented and said some shit about that, but I was like, fuck that. This trumpet thing is gonna work.

Patrick Grabbs: I got onto this next thing where this dude was like, you could do these Tumblr blogs where you put bondage on there, bondage pictures, and you can set them up to where they just automatically pull the pictures of bondage, of chicks in bondage tied up and stuff like that, and it posts them automatically every day, and you just put affiliate links on there, and you get the affiliate links from the porn site, and it automatically posts that stuff all day, every day. He said, if you do enough of them, you could make like $100 a week.

Katrina Ruth: $100 a week?

Patrick Grabbs: It was something outrageous-

Katrina Ruth: How long ago was this?

Patrick Grabbs: This was like five years ago. I was trying to make a quick buck people. A motherfucker didn't have Louboutin's.

Patrick Grabbs: I was trying to figure it out. I just didn't have it.

Katrina Ruth: Can somebody start screen-shotting while he's just waving around the shoe as an emphasis? Just screenshot the waving-

Patrick Grabbs: Bondage. Bondage.

Katrina Ruth: Say bondage a few more times.

Patrick Grabbs: So, I had a bondage blog. I had like 100 of them, and needless to say, I think I made like $0.28 from that shit.

Katrina Ruth: Brandon wants you to do your Ryan Stewman impersonation.

Patrick Grabbs: Oh, right.

Katrina Ruth: It's so good. I was like, where is he?

Patrick Grabbs: What can I say? What could I say? How does Ryan do it? It's so easy, and now you all got me to where my mind doesn't work.

Katrina Ruth: Well, you did your me impression earlier well enough.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, I did my best impression. Let's see here. What would he say? He says ... Now y'all got me on the spot, I can't do it.

Katrina Ruth: Come on. This whole livestream is about stagefright.

Patrick Grabbs: It's about stagefright.

Katrina Ruth: For those who do not know what's bondage, can you please do a demonstration?

Patrick Grabbs: Okay, we gotta get some rope. We gotta get a lawn dart.

Katrina Ruth: It's fairly early on in the evening for a bondage demonstration.

Patrick Grabbs: We have had some wine. I'm gonna refill my wine, and I'm gonna come up with my perfect Stewman impression.

Katrina Ruth: You're gonna go into your ...

Patrick Grabbs: Would you like some more wine?

Katrina Ruth: Yes, please. Shall I show people your view because it's fucking amazing.

Patrick Grabbs: Oh, yeah. Yeah, definitely.

Katrina Ruth: Do you guys wanna see the most amazing view in Dallas? Why would you not. Hang on. This is gonna be tricky to navigate.

Patrick Grabbs: Watch out. Yeah, especially with those shoes.

Katrina Ruth: See. Did you see how I did that? Check this out. Oh, by the way, look at this cool art. Side note.

Katrina Ruth: Look. What! What! How amazing is that view.

Katrina Ruth: Brandon played the clarinet. That's a random comment that I feel is not relevant to the view-

Patrick Grabbs: That's kinda like the skin flute.

Katrina Ruth: Look how good that looks. Come here.

Patrick Grabbs: It's an amazing view.

Katrina Ruth: That's an amazing-

Patrick Grabbs: You gotta put it up a little higher, so they see that.

Katrina Ruth: If that was a photo, it would look like we made that background up.

Patrick Grabbs: Look at that. Boom.

Katrina Ruth: Screenshot. Okay, you can't see me anyway. But it looks like it's fake. It's pretty amazing.

Patrick Grabbs: It looks like we're standing in one of those pictures.

Katrina Ruth: I know.

Patrick Grabbs: Yes, that's beautiful.

Katrina Ruth: I feel like we're just gonna stay here tomorrow and-

Patrick Grabbs: Look at that moon though. You gotta get that moon in there.

Katrina Ruth: How do we do that?

Patrick Grabbs: Bam. That's good shit. That's crazy. It's like a futuristic city, huh?

Katrina Ruth: You do have probably the most amazing view in the world, definitely the most amazing view of Dallas.

Katrina Ruth: Bondage and trumpets dot com.

Patrick Grabbs: If you love that [inaudible 01:26:24], go to bondage and trumpets dot com.

Katrina Ruth: Are you ready for your-

Patrick Grabbs: It's a wonderful mix.

Katrina Ruth: Actually, I do have to show you guys one more pair of shoes cause it's just important. And then, are you gonna do your Ryan Stewman accent?

Patrick Grabbs: I'll do my Ryan Stewman-

Katrina Ruth: Okay. Let me show you these one other shoes that I ... Wait til you see this. Okay, we're just ignoring them now. They're there by themselves.

Patrick Grabbs: I'll go back, I'll go back. I'll hold it down.

Katrina Ruth: Okay.

Patrick Grabbs: Wassup? Y'all remember this? Is your audience from Australia, do you think they might remember wassup?

Katrina Ruth: They're 60% US. My audience is 60% US.

Patrick Grabbs: Oh, shit. Wassup?

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, I remember that. Look at these shoes.

Patrick Grabbs: Beautiful. That's what I'm talking about. That's a shoe.

Katrina Ruth: Look at it. It says, "Fuck, Love, Rock, Roll, Kiss, Plein."

Patrick Grabbs: That's very depressive.

Katrina Ruth: I know you're in Dallas, Lauren. Do it out the window and she can hear you, she said. Lauren's one of my private clients in my inner circle. She's next level badass. She's here in Dallas.

Patrick Grabbs: Oh, wow. Well, shit. She's next level?

Katrina Ruth: Oh, yeah.

Katrina Ruth: I feel like that shoe is just the most blinged up shoe in the world. I've got so many shoes.

Patrick Grabbs: That's what you have in that bag. That's what I was wondering.

Katrina Ruth: How many different places are we gonna go, cause I've got eight different pairs of shoes.

Patrick Grabbs: I don't know.

Katrina Ruth: I'm travelling for like eight weeks, so anyway.

Patrick Grabbs: At least we know you have hot shoes.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, I've got plenty of them. I feel that's the important part out of the way, now we can do the accent.

Patrick Grabbs: Okay, well I was trying to think of something to say, but I got distracted by the shoes.

Patrick Grabbs: So, what would Ryan say? What would Ryan talk about now? He would say ... I don't fucking know.

Katrina Ruth: I've gone blank as well now.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah. We were talking about it earlier.

Katrina Ruth: [inaudible 01:28:23] and y'all come over. Yeah, we're just gonna all quickly come over to New Orleans tonight. Alright, can we just do a quick trip to New Orleans for dinner.

Patrick Grabbs: Let's go, let's go.

Katrina Ruth: Oh, it's so cool there. Have you been there?

Patrick Grabbs: Where, New Orleans?

Katrina Ruth: Yeah.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, fuck yeah. I've been there a few times. It's like the quickest little trip you can take. It's like the first trip.

Katrina Ruth: Oh, really?

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah. I never thought I would ever travel in my life.

Katrina Ruth: Is it close to here?

Patrick Grabbs: It's like right out ... Six hours, probably eight hours away.

Katrina Ruth: Oh? We're on our way.

Patrick Grabbs: This is Ryan right here, you want to make more sales, you need to quit being a little bitch. You need to get after it, and you need to do what it takes to make millions. If you sit around ... Oh, I got the perfect one. If you don't have $10,000 in your bank account, you are a fucking pussy. You need to quit sales right now. Why? Fuck your excuses. Fuck your excuses. That's what you have to do. You have to quit being a little bitch, you have to step up to the plate, and you have to quit [inaudible 01:29:16].

Katrina Ruth: I'm dying. It's so good. It's like very fucking accurate.

Patrick Grabbs: He would think that was horrible.

Katrina Ruth: It's really good. Who follows Ryan? Shout out love hearts if you follow Ryan.

Patrick Grabbs: If you don't have $10,000 in your bank account and you're a salesman, you fucking suck. You fucking suck. You're disappointing your family. You're letting your Friends down. You're letting yourself down. You fucking suck. Go back to the drawing board. Quit sales forever. Go to Mickey D's. Start working right now, and start flipping burgers. Put a patty on the fucking grill, and start cooking that bitch. Start flipping it, start getting used to it. Get the action going, and go. Get the wrist motion. Flip, flip, flip, bitch. That's gonna be the whole thing.

Patrick Grabbs: He doesn't go that hard. That was me. That was me putting in a little of myself.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, but it sounded believable though. Oh my god.

Katrina Ruth: So, basically you can have a side hustle and the side hustle is impersonations. Oh my god. That was amazing. That was so-

Patrick Grabbs: But, by the way, fuck your excuses.

Katrina Ruth: I've got those chips everywhere. There's one right there in my wallet.

Patrick Grabbs: I'll tell you all this. I'm gonna give you the game right quick, okay?

Katrina Ruth: Let's do it.

Patrick Grabbs: I will give you the game.

Katrina Ruth: We did the shoe game, now we're doing-

Patrick Grabbs: This is some free shit for you, okay-

Katrina Ruth: Value. Drop your value.

Patrick Grabbs: This is million dollar advice. Value, real quick.

Patrick Grabbs: So, with your clients. Most of them have clients, right?

Katrina Ruth: Mm-hmm (affirmative).

Patrick Grabbs: Okay, cool.

Katrina Ruth: Mostly.

Patrick Grabbs: With your clients, these are little trinkets, or a gift, that you can use instead of business cards, okay. You go to disc dot com. D-I-S-C, I think is what it is, fulfilment. And you get these, that you hand out. Put your website on the front. They'll see the website from here, on the front there. It's on the bottom, you can't really see it. On the back is your logo, phone. You give these out.

Patrick Grabbs: I took over Dallas. I went recently, was trying to get more of my communication skills in order because I had spent so much time behind the computer, that I wanted to get out there more and start getting out, engaged with more people, and more social. I took these out, all I did was take a stack of these out, and befriended ... If you give these to a bartender, I actually gave these to all of the bouncers, bartenders, anybody on the staff. You know, you go to the bar a little bit early, you give out your little trinkets, you give out these things. There's something psychological about giving a gift like this.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, it's true.

Patrick Grabbs: I actually had a dude who's worth millions of dollars, and I gave him one of these cause he bought all of us bottle service, and I was like, dude, I don't have ... I was trying to pay him for actually letting me hang out with his bottle and stuff, and he's like, "Don't pay me, man. It's all good, but I appreciate the gesture." I gave this to him, and he almost teared up. To get a gift ... Some people don't get gifts. If you give one of them to them, they think it's like the best thing in the planet. You'll see, if you give people stuff like this, they'll try to give it to you back, you know, and no, no, no, no, it's yours. It's yours. And they're like, "Mine?" It's yours.

Katrina Ruth: That's true.

Patrick Grabbs: It's profound. I don't know, it's psychological. It's something about these things. And even though, actually I'm not working with Ryan anymore, I work with him to a degree, but even so, I'm not working for him, I'm still gonna pass the fuck out of these things cause they go hard.

Katrina Ruth: You need to get your own ones maybe.

Patrick Grabbs: I'm gonna get my own ones, yeah.

Katrina Ruth: I want some. Get me some.

Patrick Grabbs: What would yours say?

Katrina Ruth: Life is now, come on.

Patrick Grabbs: Life is now. Press play. Maybe a little play button.

Katrina Ruth: Yes. Alright, I feel like we're getting into the super rambly zone.

Patrick Grabbs: Okay.

Katrina Ruth: But we're still hilarious.

Patrick Grabbs: There we go.

Katrina Ruth: We could go all day. Well, we already-

Patrick Grabbs: That's what she said. I am hungry though.

Katrina Ruth: Yep.

Patrick Grabbs: We should get something to eat.

Katrina Ruth: Should we all go get [inaudible 01:33:03].

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, bring it with us.

Katrina Ruth: Should we go to New Orleans?

Patrick Grabbs: Let's go to New Orleans. Let's go.

Katrina Ruth: We're going to New Orleans for dinner.

Patrick Grabbs: That sounds like a plan, let's go.

Katrina Ruth: But maybe tomorrow we're going to livestream for you on unconventional relationships. If you're lucky.

Patrick Grabbs: That's a good one.

Katrina Ruth: That will be an interesting conversation.

Patrick Grabbs: How many do you think, how many of your clientele ...

Katrina Ruth: My tribe, my people. My squad. My posse.

Patrick Grabbs: Gang. How much of your gang do you think is in an unconventional relationship right now?

Katrina Ruth: Definitely that one right there.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, Brandon is in an unconventional relationship with his fucking palm. Motherfucker.

Katrina Ruth: He's in an unconventional life.

Katrina Ruth: A lot, a lot. I know this for a fact.

Patrick Grabbs: Cool.

Katrina Ruth: I'm not guessing, we talk about it all the time.

Patrick Grabbs: Gang, gang. Oh, I like Kiana.

Katrina Ruth: Kiana's the one who sold me.

Patrick Grabbs: Gang, gang. Nice.

Katrina Ruth: They're all messaging.

Patrick Grabbs: What're they talking about?

Katrina Ruth: I don't know. But, Kiana is the one ... I just told the story about you earlier, I said there's only two times ever that people have pitched me on Facebook and been successful. And Kiana was one of them. And there she is with her gang, gang.

Patrick Grabbs: You say that we've been rambling, but we still got 22.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, cause we're mesmerising and engaging. What is that dance?

Patrick Grabbs: I don't know. I've had too much to drink.

Katrina Ruth: It was a very interesting dance.

Patrick Grabbs: And I might've micro dosed a mushroom earlier this morning, and it may or may not-

Katrina Ruth: Did you? You didn't even have that much to drink. You've had like half a glass of wine.

Patrick Grabbs: I know, but I'm a lightweight. I am a lightweight.

Katrina Ruth: Hi. That's a love heart shout out for Ashley O'Donnell. Ashley O'Donnell is definitely unconventional. Patrick just said how many of my audience do I think are in an unconventional relationship, or are interested in that. And I'm like, a lot. I've found it's a kind of, let's just be honest. Okay, Ashley, you literally have come at the end. We're about to drive to New Orleans for dinner.

Patrick Grabbs: She came at the end.

Katrina Ruth: Oh, god.

Patrick Grabbs: I get a little fucked up-

Katrina Ruth: Well, yeah.

Patrick Grabbs: What up, RJ. I know RJ. What's up, big dog?

Katrina Ruth: A lot. My audience are in to all sorts of interesting shit. I have all the conversations with my clients. In fact, predominately what my inner circle clients talk to me about is sex and relationships.

Patrick Grabbs: Freaks.

Katrina Ruth: Well, if necessary.

Katrina Ruth: I would say 15-20% of our conversation is about business, 15-20% is about shenanigans, 50-60% is about sex.

Patrick Grabbs: Really?

Katrina Ruth: For sure.

Patrick Grabbs: Sounds like I'm in the place to be.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, well. That's just how it is.

Patrick Grabbs: We're all freaks.

Katrina Ruth: We're all freaks, yeah. What did Ashley say?

Patrick Grabbs: This is like the all-

Katrina Ruth: Well, I gotta introduce you properly to Alexa, and then you'll understand many things that you don't understand right now.

Patrick Grabbs: Okay.

Katrina Ruth: Well, you probably understand them, but anyway.

Patrick Grabbs: I'm sure I'll get more value out of y'all from that-

Katrina Ruth: Well, anyway, it's an interesting conversation. This is a moment where I'm no longer complaining of lack of sex. Well, there's no need to shout about it and tell everybody.

Patrick Grabbs: Yes, there is. Yes, there is, though. She has to brag.

Katrina Ruth: Yeah, that's true. Celebrate.

Patrick Grabbs: Cause you're on here talking about how your life is so easy, and you can't believe it, and oh my god, it's so easy-

Katrina Ruth: That's not exactly how I said it, but okay.

Patrick Grabbs: That is how she said it.

Katrina Ruth: Can everyone send a love heart shout out for Ashley O'Donnell who's supremely sexually fulfilled? Well, I'm happy for you because we've only been talking about it for so long, and it's good to get the updates. I'm sure I can get a more detailed version just Vox me about it. Send it to me on Voxer. Send me the whole story, I'm gonna need to know the entire story.

Patrick Grabbs: Details. Don't leave out anything. We want some 50 Shades of Grey shit.

Katrina Ruth: It's all we talk about. Okay, if you join the inner circle, I will help you with your business, that's actually easy ...

Patrick Grabbs: There's a bonus sex module in there.

Katrina Ruth: There's many bonus sex modules, there's not just one.

Patrick Grabbs: Oh, shit.

Katrina Ruth: It's honestly a huge part of our conversations. Here's why, can I tell you why?

Patrick Grabbs: Tell me why.

Katrina Ruth: Because we let the business be easy, and then we just have fun. I'm just saying.

Patrick Grabbs: Oh, y'all have so much room for fun.

Katrina Ruth: Right. We have room for life and fun. And so then, even when I'm talking with my clients, they know they can ask me anything about business, but I help them get results from a place of ease and flow. Okay, I'm starting to sound slightly wanky. But it's still true.

Patrick Grabbs: It sounds fine to me.

Katrina Ruth: So then, we can just talk about sex and shoes.

Patrick Grabbs: There's Ryan.

Katrina Ruth: Ryan.

Patrick Grabbs: Ryan's probably telling me, he's like, hey, motherfucker, answer the fucking ... I've got your chips.

Katrina Ruth: He's been promoting you the whole way through. And may have done an interesting impersonation.

Patrick Grabbs: I did an impersonation of you. It's great. You won't like it. But it's great.

Katrina Ruth: It was very good, it was actually hilarious. I really enjoyed it. Hang on, I forgot something.

Patrick Grabbs: I'll see what Ryan's been messaging me.

Katrina Ruth: Can we get the domain name sex and shoes dot com?

Patrick Grabbs: No.

Katrina Ruth: Why?

Patrick Grabbs: I know a domain that's taken when I see one, and that one is definitely-

Katrina Ruth: Imagine if it's not taken, can you check? Cause I feel like that'd be an amazing domain name. Let's check it out.

Katrina Ruth: I make out with women with [crosstalk 01:38:16].

Patrick Grabbs: Oh, okay, so Ryan just sent me some shit.

Katrina Ruth: What does he have to say?

Patrick Grabbs: Ryan, I'm gonna message you back on that one, brother.

Katrina Ruth: Okay, sex and shoes dot com. Is it ... Oh.

Patrick Grabbs: Done. It's already taken. I told you, I know this shit. I've looked at so many fucking domains. Ryan's lucky he got [inaudible 01:38:34], cause that shit shoulda been taken.

Katrina Ruth: See? I figured it out. The real [inaudible 01:38:38].

Patrick Grabbs: Oh, you can get that one. You can get it.

Katrina Ruth: Just went a little random ... Alright, anyway.

Katrina Ruth: What are we up to? After hearing your tagline for your book, he looks like a man who knows how to fuck. I've been thinking [inaudible 01:38:52] and thinking that. That was a while ago.

Katrina Ruth: I wrote an erotic fiction novel and the title of the book was ... The title, or the tagline, I don't remember. But it was, "He looks like a man who knows how to fuck."

Patrick Grabbs: It sounds like it was based on a true story.

Katrina Ruth: I published the first two chapters right here in this group, actually. If anyone wants to read it, you would find it there. It was very intense, everybody got very ... It was probably the most interested anybody's every been in my writing. It was out of control on the comments, actually. That book's only half finished. I should finish it off. I was getting a little carried away with it. Every time I sat down to write, I was like, this is going to an interesting place.

Katrina Ruth: I had to be psychologically prepped every time-

Patrick Grabbs: You know the thing about this wine is it does open doors, doesn't it? No, I think we still would have this conversation. Of course.

Katrina Ruth: Definitely.

Patrick Grabbs: Of course.

Katrina Ruth: Definitely. Alright, 24. What now?

Patrick Grabbs: 24, what's that?

Katrina Ruth: I have no idea.

Patrick Grabbs: What's 24?

Katrina Ruth: How long we've been talking for, 24 hours.

Patrick Grabbs: That's some Jack Bauer shit right there.

Katrina Ruth: Last time we did a livestream in here, we went for 90 minutes, and I think we're up there right now. That livestream was super long last time. Alright.

Patrick Grabbs: Alright, so we're gonna wait until next time to give them the shit.

Katrina Ruth: Which shit?

Patrick Grabbs: The shit.

Katrina Ruth: Which shit?

Patrick Grabbs: The main shit.

Katrina Ruth: What's the main shit?

Patrick Grabbs: The shit. The fucking monogamous relationship shit.

Katrina Ruth: Oh, yeah. So, tomorrow we're gonna livestream on unconventional relationships. Specifically, our thoughts on monogamy, and other things.

Patrick Grabbs: And other things.

Katrina Ruth: You're gonna have to be there. We can't give you a time though, cause how do we know what we're gonna be doing.

Patrick Grabbs: We don't fucking know.

Katrina Ruth: We don't know. We'll be there when we're there.

Patrick Grabbs: We gotta hang out with Ryan tomorrow, too.

Katrina Ruth: Go to your notifications and set see first to all things Kat and Patrick.

Patrick Grabbs: Go set notifications.

Katrina Ruth: It's gonna be good. Bring your questions. We may or may not answer them, cause we'll be too busy having fun.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah.

Katrina Ruth: Alright.

Patrick Grabbs: You're in Dallas, so you might as well have fun.

Katrina Ruth: That's what we're gonna do.

Patrick Grabbs: You might have a root-tootin good time out here.

Katrina Ruth: We're gonna go have some fun. Have an amazing rest of the evening, or day, or morning if you're in Australia. Shout out Aussies. Have some Vegemite for me.

Patrick Grabbs: Don't have it. It's disgusting. It'll kill you.

Katrina Ruth: Press fucking play.

Katrina Ruth: Do you have a sign off? Have you got a new sign off?

Patrick Grabbs: I don't actually have a sign off yet.

Katrina Ruth: Maybe for the monogamy livestream.

Patrick Grabbs: How do you come up with a sign off? A good sign off?

Katrina Ruth: I channelled it.

Patrick Grabbs: Channel it. I have nothing.

Katrina Ruth: Maybe for tomorrow.

Katrina Ruth: Where does the drought [inaudible 01:41:35] the sex story? The storm will come. No doubt.

Patrick Grabbs: Yeah, I have no sign off yet, so ... Maybe I'll come up with one and have it ready for tomorrow.

Katrina Ruth: Alright.

Patrick Grabbs: Even more intense, the pressure's on.

Katrina Ruth: It's gonna go extra hard.

Patrick Grabbs: Yes.

Katrina Ruth: Goodbye.

Patrick Grabbs: Peace.

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Patrick:            They want hang out, Brian [inaudible 00:00:05].Patrick:            They want hang out, Brian [inaudible 00:00:05].
Kat:                Well, they're gonna have to wait til we're done.
Patrick:            That's what I told them.
Kat:                Oh. We're already -
Patrick:            Oh, shit we're already on.
Kat:                Yeah, I just noticed. 
Patrick:            I think I have to duck down now.
Kat:                Yeah, do you want ... how did that happen? What have we changed?
Patrick:            I think this thing dropped down just a hair.
Kat:                You think? Hang on. Yeah, we're going to deliberately do this live stream faceless. Just, you know, for reasons of privacy.
Patrick:            Hi. For reasons of anonymity.
Kat:                Yeah. We want to stay anonymous. 
Patrick:            Hip hop anonymous?
Kat:                Hip hop anonymous? How did that drop down? I don't know how that happened.
Patrick:            I need to get some water, too. Agua.
Kat:                Share this one. I made a fresh one.
Patrick:            Not a big deal, because I'm running on fumes and that's -
Kat:                I feel like this is not right. What, okay, we've had this system down all morning. How's this system suddenly fucked with? Is that better?
Patrick:            Yeah, that's better.
Kat:                It's still off-center. What's going on? Hi everybody.
Patrick:            What up, Gary?
Kat:                It's okay, cause this is all part of the show.
Patrick:            It's part of the show.
Kat:                Ooh, I was sitting somewhere different before. I'm so confused now.
Patrick:            Let me get up and scoot this thing out just a hair. Here you go.
Kat:                All right the problem is that we've had the realisation that we look fantastic when we're positioned in front of this picture. And so now, okay, I don't know what I'm doing.
Patrick:            I think you're going to have scoot over just a little bit to the left.
Kat:                This way?
Patrick:            Yeah.
Kat:                Ah. All right, we sorted it out.
Patrick:            There we go, all right, go.
Kat:                It was a team effort. Well, we realised earlier today that we look fantastic when  we're sitting in front of this photo.
Patrick:            Gonna leave me hanging like that? Okay, team effort Boom. There we go.
Kat:                Sorry, I didn't notice it. I was so focused on the video.
Patrick:            It was beyond my vision.
Kat:                And so now we're sitting like very precariously on the back of the couch, and we've now done four live streams so far today between us. Plus, written a blog-
Patrick:            Just getting started.
Kat:                Journaled first. Our success routine today has been fucking phenomenal. Right?
Patrick:            And the flow. Every time we hang out it's always been some serious flow that's going on.
Kat:                That's how it goes. We did our journaling, then we blogged, took some Insta stories. If you want to see the worse ever Australian accent in history of time, go and watch my Instagram stories. You're going to see -
Patrick:            Some would say the best.
Kat:                Who are they? I'm leery.
Patrick:            They're there, they're there, there are people. 
Kat:                And then we both did our separate blogs. Go read Patrick's blog on his page, I like it a lot. It's on letting life be easy, in all areas. Everything should get to be easy, not hard. I did my blog, then we went upstairs to the gym. Oh my god you should see up there, it's fucking amazing. We're going to go hang by the pool later after this.
Patrick:            Yep. I really want to do.
Kat:                Then we come back here, we're in fucking flow zone. We've done four live streams today between us. We just did -
Patrick:            We've been going hard.
Kat:                ... We just did a bad ass as fuck 40 minute live stream into Patrick's private group. If you happen to be a man, which I know there's not many of them in this group, but there are some. You got to go connect with him and get into his group. There's no women allowed in there, but yet I was a guest speaker. Honoured. I'm still not allowed in the group. 
Patrick:            No, no.
Kat:                I'm allowed to present to the group, but I'm not allowed to be in the group. No, I'm sorry Alexa, we didn't take time out to talk about you last time.
Patrick:            There is rules.
Kat:                Does he know who I am now? I'm sorry, nope, you don't really know who Alexer is do you? 
Patrick:            Alexer? No, I know who Alexa is, not Alexer.
Kat:                I told you briefly about Alexa's group, the Kaleidoscope, right? 
Patrick:            Yep.
Kat:                I told you about that last night. But we didn't go into detail though. 
Patrick:            The Kaleidoscope?
Kat:                Yeah.
Patrick:            No, what's that about.
Kat:                Well, I just told she has an amazing group, The Kaleidoscope, where we talk about all things. Sex and love and open relationships and, well, all sorts of combinations of relationships, or whatever people are obviously actually into. 
Kat:                I met Alexa ... I'm going to tell this story now, because it's actually very relevant to our live stream and to how we're even ending up on this couch during this live stream. All right, let's position ourselves for the story. Alrighty. So we're just high on life, [inaudible 00:04:02], we don't need any alcohol.
Patrick:            I just snorted up a big ol' line of life.
Kat:                Yes, it's true. We've had an impressive amount of caffeine though , I must say. 
Patrick:            Oh yeah. 
Kat:                And almonds and chocolate.
Patrick:            But that's healthy.
Kat:                Of course. And brown sugar amino acids.
Patrick:            And nuts. Not only that, I have nuts.
Kat:                And the freaking hustle flow life, we've been content creating like a pair of mother fuckers. We're just in the content vibe. We're on content lock down right now. 
Kat:                There's a man on this live stream, sorry Pete, to just draw attention to you. But the reason is, you've got to Patrick's group Entrepreneurs Players Club. So far you're the only person that potentially qualifies to be in the group. 
Patrick:            Potentially a member.
Kat:                Potentially, because he has -
Patrick:            There's rules.
Kat:                Well, the rules are, you've got to be, think like a person for true success. 
Patrick:            You do.
Kat:                But you should go join his group and watch the bad ass live stream we just dropped in there. 
Patrick:            If you're from here, you're a bad mother fucker, so yeah, you should go there.
Kat:                He's definitely going to be in your group. He'll be a perfect person to be in there.
Patrick:            No trolls, Brandon. I know you'll eventually be on here and watching this.
Kat:                [You know my story by now 00:05:05]. Pass me that drink.
Kat:                Okay, so let's ... This is going to be a super cool live stream, you know that, about how ... although there's too many elements to how this came about. But I'm going to tell the Alexa story because it's very relevant and because weirdly enough, you don't know it. Probably you should know this story.
Kat:                So Alexa I met in person, maybe two years ago ... It would have been not too long after we met, actually. I think it was like a month or two after we met. In fact, I think it was one of the same trips where I first came and stayed with you at your old apartment. So end of 2016, I think it was on the exact same trip that I met Alexa in person at a party in the Hollywood Hills, at [Reagan's 00:05:39] house, actually.
Kat:                Alexa walked into the room and I was just, who is this woman? Because she had that presence, you know when a woman's really owning who she is and she truly doesn't give a fuck and she's so grounded in who she is. It was an intimidating ... Okay, but I don't feel that way, thank you though. That was awesome. It felt slightly intimidating to me, I was like holy shit, this woman is amazing and I'm fascinated by her and a little scared for some reason, because she's so ... just this incredible energy.
Kat:                Anyway it was a big party, but the party ended and Alexa was one of three or four people who ended up hanging out well into the hours. We were all sitting around my left over Whole Foods Salmon and kale salad at 2:00 A.M. in the morning just having a conversation. I connected with Alexa on Facebook and then she started to write these pieces about basically love and sex. There's her Facebook group, you definitely want to part of that. Actually be in Alexa's group, I think you would enjoy it a lot. She started to write these blog posts that were 2000 word posts. Firstly, I'm like, wow, somebody else is doing what I do. Then when I read her stuff, I was, holy shit, this woman is freaking messaging from the heart. But she was writing about sex, really full on stuff that people don't go around saying on Facebook firstly, except Alexa does. I think it was a photo of her in her lingerie in the bathtub, the whole thing was just fascinating.
Patrick:            Fifty shades of Grey stuff.
Kat:                They were more like really raw stories about, I guess her stories and journey and lessons that she'd had to learn about herself and about life, through relationships and sex. Just starting to recognise that there's something inside of me that feels like I don't want to do it the normal way. Then playing around with that stuff. She had a call to action at the end. I think it was one of her first calls to action that she did for this business. I reached out and I became a private client straight away. It only a few months after I left my marriage. I was really in a place where I actually was, I don't know what dating even means. I don't know how to date, I don't what that is. What do you do on a date? I'd been in a long term relationships for 15 years. 
Kat:                I felt like I definitely wasn't happy in my marriage, also the whole way through both of my marriages, I always kind of felt like I don't really think I agree with this monogamy thing. But as you're growing up, especially the Christian upbringing, you kind of push those thoughts aside. I remember one time saying to my first husband, actually I read an article about couples who live separately, but they still have commitment to each other, but they just do life separately and then they come together when they want to. I was, "That's fucking awesome, that's how it should be." I said it to him and he was pretty shitty at me about it. He was kind of hurt or offended or whatever. So I was, "Huh, I think it sounds like a good idea.", right? 
Kat:                that was years ago. Even all the way through my second marriage, it wasn't I was going out and looking at other guys. It was more just that on a fundamental level, I was not really sure if this is what I want, if this agrees with me. Yeah, so the thoughts were there. Then coming to Alexa's phone, and I can still remember our first coaching call together. She was like, "Well, what do you want? What do you actually want from a relationship or from sex as well." I was kind of like ... it was like I never thought about that before. It was kind of revolutionary to me that you could think about what you want and make it go. Because, I guess, assumed that you just get what you get, right? Which is so funny, I know, considering what I teach and preach in business. But I just hadn't connected the dots. 
Kat:                Alexa had me do, one of the first things she had me do, I think we did it live together of our first Skype call ... Actually, I should give this to you, I can't believe I haven't given this to you, BDSM test. So I go to BDSM test, which is a free online test, and you figure out your sexual preferences, and it gives you a cool little survey that tells you what you're into. So it came up, I think, 98% non-monogamous came back on my results. 
Patrick:            98%. 
Kat:                98% ... My desire is that 98% of me believes in non-monogamy. It was one of my highest rankings, I think it was in my top three. The other one was to do with bondage. Anyway, I noticed some other stuff in there, and there's some really weird stuff on that questionnaire. It's just some stuff -
Patrick:            Do you like being tied up? Do you like -
Kat:                It was more like are you into ponies and stuff like that on the test.
Patrick:            Whoa. 
Kat:                It had everything that -
Patrick:            A little pony play?
Kat:                But I got identified as a rope bunny, which means I want to be tied up and -
Patrick:            You said rope bunny?
Kat:                That's what it's called, a rope bunny. Right, I can't believe I've never sent you this test. We'll do the test.
Patrick:            Mine would blow up, it'd be all fucked up. 
Kat:                That's the point, right? The point is to own who you are. So Alexa taught me to own who I am. She also taught me to own what I wanted and what I desired, even if it felt kind of crazy or out there, right? So that, we coached for some period of time, but obviously I got into her Facebook group, and in The Kaleidoscope, it's just a normal everyday conversation for me now. That everyday I'm talking about open relationships or different kinds of relationships, monogamous, non-monogamous, whatever people are into. All different sort of sex and love stuff as well. I guess the point of that is before we kind of go into what we're going to talk about, which we have no idea what it is.
Patrick:            We don't even.
Kat:                we haven't planned it.
Patrick:            Nothing.
Kat:                Of course not. 
Kat:                The point of that story is, well this woman really has impacted me a lot. Because she taught me I have permission to have what I want. I don't have to fit into the conventional norms in the relationship area. But also taught me something which took me longer to figure out. Even though she taught me from the start, but it took me until pretty recently to figure out, which is to actually be okay with owning all that I am with the men in my life, right? And to say what I actually think, speak what's on my mind, speak my truth and be unattached to the outcome of it. Which is exactly what I do in business so I kind of figured some of this stuff out. Then Alexa's voice in my head from when we worked together. And also to totally be open about having that conversation with someone in your life and finding out what they actually want and desire.
Kat:                I think that typically in a relationship of any kind, whether it's marriage or it's long term boy-friend girl-friend, or it's whatever it is that you can't really figure out or put a name on. Either way, mostly people aren't talking about it, right? We've been hanging out, hanging out, we've been hanging out in a pretty big way for 18 months, ish, I think.
Patrick:            Whoa.
Kat:                And we never talked about this until Sunday last week. Which is roughly how this ended up happening. There's a lot I can say here, but you can say something now.
Patrick:            Yeah. Shit, you're very ... I guess whoever you talked to, or whatever, must have unstuck some stuff. But you said what's on your mind. If you don't tell people what's on your mind, you don't really know, kind of like you're just going through it. That's just anything with sales, I think, or communication in general. If you don't put it out there and you don't let people know what exactly what's on your mind and exactly what you're looking for, then you won't know. You're just going to kind of just go through the motions and you don't know where you're going to end up.
Kat:                Well you're kind of living in fear and you're living in doubt and uncertainty. You're not giving yourself permission to be you. Also if you don't ask for what you want, you're not going to get it, that's for sure. If you do ask for what you want, then at least you don't know what's going to happen, but you open up a conversation, and, of course, you can find what the other person wants as well, right. Which sounds revolutionary fucking idea. Oh my god, imagine asking somebody what they actually want.
Kat:                Well maybe there's people out there who are naturally doing this, but for me, it's been this kind of ... Like navigating relationships and dating since becoming single, for the first maybe six month period, I just felt like I had no fucking clue what I was doing. I was kind of all over the place. Then I noticed I was definitely in a fear mentality. I was worrying about how to be engaging. It's like going on a live stream and worrying about how to be engaging. I was over thinking every fucking thing. Like for sure, I sent you so many messages where I probably spent two ... I can remember a message that I literally spent two weeks thinking about and Alexa coached me on the actual message. Actually what it comes down to, was I was scared to just say what I was thinking or feeling.
Kat:                I was doing this in multiple dating situations at the same time. But, as you know, you've been the most important man that I've connected with since becoming single. You've been the only one that's there pretty much the whole way through. And the relationship we have is different because it's a soul level thing, and there's a flow and a soul connection. 
Kat:                So I've had dating stuff where I probably wouldn't ... I don't know, it's not got to a point where it's ... this sounds bad, but it's not got to a point to where I care enough to actually go deep into that conversation. But then how we've been, it's got to a point where I do want to have a conversation about this, but I didn't know how to do that. Then I just started saying what I think, which honestly, I find a terrifying thing. And I told him the whole way through, I can't believe I'm saying this. I feel crazy and I feel like this is terrifying, but I'm going to say it anyway. Because I've learned that in business, if I say what I'm thinking and what I'm feeling, I can't screw it up. Because I know and truly believe that, if I say what I want and what I'm thinking, and then if that would completely shut down what we had, then that's how it was meant to be. I just believed that. But if I'm not going to be fully myself, then nothing actually really real anyway. It's not built on the right foundation. 
Kat:                So how this live stream came about, only like a week ago, not even a week ago, Patrick said to me "He's quite certain that what I want from a relationship is different from what he want's." And I said, "I'm quite certain we've never talked about that." So maybe we'll talk about it and we jumped on the phone and just kind of spoke about this different way of doing dating or doing relationships where it is unconventional. Where actually both of us realised, and we didn't know this about each other, that we were on the same page as far as not wanting monogamy and just kind of, I guess, still figuring it out.
Kat:                I don't know exactly what I really want over the time. I know that right now I definitely don't want monogamy, but I do want to know that I've ... with us, we've got a deep connection that nobody could kind of replace or erase. But it doesn't mean that I want to be tied off from other opportunities. I mean we're not even in the same country most of the time anyhow. But even despite that right? Then also when I think about him sleeping with other women, I'm like that doesn't remotely bother me at all. I'd probably get triggered as fuck if I saw you live streaming all the time with other women. I'd be like what the fuck.
Patrick:            That's our thing. 
Kat:                So for me it's -
Patrick:            I don't of anybody that I can ... I don't know if any ... Of course I have other women in my life, and I just, [I Am 00:16:24] is a soul connection with Kat and I don't know if anything that ... I don't really have the same conversations that I have with you. That's nice, you know there are people out there, that I'm sure that I can have a deep conversation with and things. But typically speaking -
Kat:                And fun.
Patrick:            Yeah, it's just having fun and all that. It's a good time and as a man that's just what you do. But from my -
Kat:                But it's not just as a man, that's the whole point. Because that's what I want as well, right? 
Patrick:            Exactly, yeah, yeah. 
Kat:                And particularly by the way, driven ambitious women like me, typically have an insanely high desire for all things in life, including sex. It's definitely not just a man thing. 
Patrick:            I don't get ... I read your posts and everything like that, so I see your other stuff that you talk about as well and stuff like that. I don't have any kind of any bad feelings or anything about any of that stuff. I read, actually I get ... I'm happy that you're experiencing life, and that that's what you enjoy doing, I'm happy. When you sent me the messages when we first kind of talked about all this stuff -
Kat:                When we started having these open conversations, which was like December and just started laying stuff out. 
Patrick:            Yeah. I didn't really mind it at all. You know, like if you know that guys stand for ... We're not scared of anything like that, it actually helped me out as far as to figure out kind of what I'm really looking for. As far as a deeper connection goes. Because typically it's just been one of those things where I've been going through the motions. Obviously it's hard to find people on my level mentally thinking.
Kat:                Same. 
Patrick:            To have a great conversation where we just sit there and we're back and forth most of the time.
Kat:                We're just total flow when we're ... We met through Brian Schuman, this is easy to figure out, it's not a secret. Brian's best friend, Patrick, that's how I met him, right? It was a hook up, right? We slept together and the next day I left Dallas and I was like, "oh cool, you know, awesome, and I'm probably never going to speak to that guy again." Then somehow we got to messaging, and we met up again a month later. I remember that second time, I was like, "Oh cool, this is going to be fun. This guy is going to drive out from Dallas to Austin to see me. That's kind of cool, it's a decent trip." And I was just expecting to have a fun time.
Kat:                Then it was when we were speaking, we were in the bar that day, in the afternoon, having margaritas and you were talking about your purpose and your wire. I can remember sitting there and just being, "Oh, fuck, I thought this guy was ..." whatever that I categorised you as, at least in my head. Now I'm like, "Oh." And I remember thinking I feel like I could really develop feeling for this person. That's there's something there where it's going to be ... I've not heard anybody else speak like that, to this day, it's like I can't have this conversation with any other man in my life, past or present. It's just not been there before where it's total flow. How many other times when you're hanging out, and actually we haven't seen each other since October, and i just got back here yesterday. Today we've largely done content generally all day long. I'm like, "Well this is exactly what I write in my journal. That I want an amazing man in my life." 
Kat:                But specifically I have written that I want kind of one key guy that's the main guy that I care about and that I have a deeper connection with and that it's different and it is that soul connection. I've written I want to do funny live streams together and I want to tear shit up on the internet. I want to do all the things that flow for me. That's what we have and it can't be replaced. When I'm not here or we don't speak all the time or whatever, I think about you being with other women, I'm like, whatever, because it doesn't ... Nothing can replace what we have, oh my god, it's not possible, it's just not possible. Because it's something that's not about us getting along or spending time together and building on the relationship because we spent time together. It's because it's fundamental stuff there that's just kind of an unbreakable bond. 
Patrick:            Yeah, I told you, when you told me I was something, "Oh man." Now, it's fucked up because I'm thinking, and I've told you, yeah this kind of fucks things up or whatever, but I'm thinking, well I don't really want you to go. I don't to lose our relationship that we have. This is more than enough, I like it, and I don't want anything to mess it up. Even thinking about just you being in other relationships, I don't ... That's not what I'm concerned about. I'm concerned about that we maintain our connection that we have as it is. 
Kat:                Exactly. 
Patrick:            To me it's just ... We already covered some things as far as talking more and things like that. But obviously we're both super fucking busy.
Kat:                Yeah, but it's also we had boundaries up or walls up that have now kind of come down a lot. Even just unloading this last one week. Because literally Saturday last week, he messaged me saying we're not going to see each anymore, at all, right?
Patrick:            Yeah. 
Kat:                So, how did that work out. Really, because we hadn't communicated about it and you had basically an assumption or expectation that what I wanted was a white wedding and a conventional relationship, I think. You were kind of that's not what I want so we have to stop. "This has to stop because it's just going to end up fucked up. I'm not going to be able to give you what you want or whatever. I know that what you want from a relationship is different." I was coming pretty hard. I was saying shit that you don't just go around saying to people. It was just, "I'm just going to tell you exactly what I think." I'm writing him fucking 4000 word essays on a Facebook message. 
Kat:                You think my blogs are long, you should see the stuff he has to read. I'm just, right, this is what I think, these are all my thoughts, this is all the crazy shit inside my head that I definitely probably shouldn't tell you, but I'm going to tell you anyway. It was pretty full on. The whole way through I was, I think it's pretty amazing that you didn't totally be, holy shit, I've got to get away from this chick, this is crazy. That didn't happen, instead ... Well we were communicating, actually, in a pretty good way. But it was kind of communicating with a guard up and just an assumption of what the other person thought or wanted. Instead of just talking about it.
Kat:                It sounds so silly, but for me, I don't know about you, but for me, it literally never occurred to me. I knew that ... I talk about this everyday with Alexa and everyone in the group that I don't want monogamy, but it never ever occurred to me that you would feel that way. I just never thought about it, or I never asked, right? How silly is it, right? You can be spending time in developing -
Patrick:            Communication breaking down or whatever. [crosstalk 00:22:41]
Kat:                We just never thought about it. But I think it's also is where we started was super casual and it was kind of just hooking up and then it quickly felt like, well, there's more to it than that. But then for me at least, I was, this is kind of scary. I'm not going to go around saying what I actually think. Because that would be embarrassing and you feel to vulnerable, right? And you don't feel safe. 
Kat:                How I got to a point where I started saying everything I think. Massive essay length manner for several months now, was I just decided, well hang on, if I just started saying what I actually think and what I'm feeling and what I want, and it results in us completely breaking apart, then that would be what was meant to happen. Because ultimately why would I want to build on something with somebody where I can't just fully be myself. And even, this kind of made me feel like that, then I was really happy.
Kat:                Like the other day we where on the phone, and you'd said you'd read that blog that I wrote about the guy that I met in Santa Monica last week. I put that blog here in the daily ass kicker group. I post this shit, I know he's in this group, I know he read all my content. I do think about that when I post stuff about other guys. I always feel like maybe I won't say that because I feel like I've go to guard myself. The reason I post it anyways, because I'm that's the message that's coming me to post, so I'm not going to act out of fear. It would be a fear energy if I didn't post that blog. I'm going to post the blog, I know he's going to read it. We normally wouldn't talk about it. Then we mentioned the other night on the phone and you were, "I read that blog." I was kind of ... then you were, "And I just felt really happy for you." That's perfect, because our connection is not just sex, anyway, how is that a thing.
Patrick:            Yeah. I like to see that you were experiencing life. That's what I try to do when I go out. To find that something like that passion and everything that you might just run into in the moment. Because that's what we're supposed to do. 
Kat:                Right, you should get to respond to the moment.
Patrick:            You should, and you should milk the ecstasy of the moment. You should get whatever you can out of the moment that's meant for you to experience. That's totally yours to experience, that's nobody can take that away from you. You should do what life or whatever the universe is providing for you at that moment.
Kat:                You get to have it all, you do. Alexa says, "A connection doesn't mean wedding bells." Of course not, right? That's if people want to get married, they can get married. But I know for sure, both times when I got married, the main driving force was I felt like then I'm kind of safe, or I've accomplished what I'm supposed to accomplish. I didn't get married because my desire is to marry this person. It was this person might potentially be the right person and I should get married because  otherwise ... The first one, honestly, was because I felt guilty about having sex outside of marriage. Just my conditioning and my upbringing, that's the main reason I got married. 
Kat:                Then the second time was fear. It was feeling like maybe I won't ever find someone else who loves me. Maybe, this is how it should have to be. I was 27 and I'm going to have to think about kids. There was so much fucked up shit that went into that. There was love there as well, I'm not saying that. But I didn't get married because I was like, I've got to get married, my soul, what would fulfil it? Marriage, my soul is to get married, no that is not something remotely that connects to soul. It was more an idea or concept. I'm not saying ... I'm not anti-marriage for people who want to get married. But yeah, yes, you're only on the planet for a very short time. 
Kat:                I mentioned this to friends at dinner in New York the other night about this non-monogamous concept. Actually one of my friends who's there, he married, but they've been non-monogamous in their relationship the whole time. He's in his 40's now. He was, Well, the main thing, and Alexa maybe you can comment on this, but the main thing is if you're going to be in any kind of non-monogamous relationship, communication and honesty, right? Just being honest about what you actually both want. I think that's just the same as any other thing in life. Business stuff, client stuff, all of it. If you're not going to just say what you want, well you're not going to freaking get it. But also you're going to live in fear and uncertainty. 
Patrick:            Also, you're talking different styles and everything, it's a totally different set up. What we have is a totally different set up than anybody that most people would have. Just like -
Kat:                Right. You can't put a label on it.
Patrick:            No, it's just like a ... This to me is like ... That's why I was thinking how I define a relationship is totally different than what I was thinking that you had. So we had that break down. 
Kat:                Yeah, literally on Monday or Sunday last week.
Patrick:            Yeah.
Kat:                I just thought it was the funniest thing ever. 
Patrick:            I'm not -
Kat:                You're like, "I'm very certain that you want different things." I'm like, "I'm very certain that we've never talked about it."
Patrick:            It's that point when I saw that ... What I'm thinking is I have the best thing going. [inaudible 00:27:24]. I'm like, cool, that's great, what we have. I'm thinking you're thinking on the same page. You're thinking the same page as we see each other occasionally, you come into town, hang out and just have a great time. Then it's back to what we do. So that was, we just connect over we talk on the internet and everything. It was -
Kat:                What did I miss? We're not going to redo the whole conversation for you. You can watch the -
Patrick:            You've got to back up.
Kat:                But I had started a lot of stuff indicating I wanted more, I felt like there should be more. And I was getting kind of ... It was like a slight scary vibe on my behalf, right? Then after, it [inaudible 00:28:05] there for a while like we were just completely not even hang out anymore at all. Then I started really tuning into myself. What do I actually want here, what am I trying to get? What am I actually asking for if I be honest with myself? Then I realised what I want is I want to feel more connection and communication. So that's what we spoke about. That's really what I want. I just want to ... I guess what I also wanted was, I kind of had that wall up for the first year or whatever, where I was "Am I crazy, am I making up how deep this connection is." And I thought I was just making it up and I wanted that validation.
Patrick:            I thought, what I was thinking this is mother fucking Kat, I'm not going to sit there and take up all her time on the damn message all day. I was ... in the message room.
Kat:                I'm like, "Why doesn't he message me more often, why don't we communicate?" I would be, "I don't think he even likes me." Then we'd hang out together, because I'd come to America. I would be, "There's no fucking way I'm going to Texas." Somehow I'd always end up in Texas, right? It was kind of this funny routine that I had. Every time that I come here where I would tell myself I'm not going. I'm going to stop whatever this thing is because I'm just making it up. It's probably just a hook up for him, that's what I was thinking in my head. And I think we have this deep soul connection, but maybe it's not real, because ... the guards were up, we weren't talking about it. I was scared at the even idea of talking about it. If you would have told me six months ago that I'd be doing this live stream, I would doing this live stream, I'd be "That's impossible, there's no fucking way." 
Kat:                I thought I had to maintain, not professional, but it's like when you're trying to be professional in business. I was trying to play it cool, but it just resulted in me kind being obsessive and thinking about it all the time in my head. Then we'd come together and just have this flow connection that is undeniable. Then I'd leave or we'd go our separate ways. Then we wouldn't really talk, at all. I would be just driving myself crazy. And honestly every other guy I've dated, well if I do have a good time, I always have a good time in that moment. It's a different thing though, right? It's a different kind of feeling. That's awesome and I love and appreciate it, but then I would still always be thinking about our connection.
Kat:                Then I spent probably all of last year going around in circles in my head going, "Is this a real connection, this soul connection that I fell, or am I just, I don't know, am I trying to latch onto something here? Am I trying to invent it into something?" Then though there'd be, obviously some of the things you said as well, where I'm, "I'm fucking right, I know that it's a real connection." And I know that, because I feel that anyhow.
Kat:                Then kind of, for me, all these conversations we'd been having for now, months, since before Christmas, that was, I got to a point like I said to you in the first massive epic letter. I got to a point where this is driving me crazy. It's hanging over me all the time. I just need to know. I wrote him this big letter and it was kind of blunt and it was very full on. And I said at the start, "Warning, this is going to be intense." And I was right. "I don't know what you feel, but this is what I feel." And kind of went through it all.
Kat:                Then at the end, I said, "Well, I guess now you're going to think I'm crazy and we'll never speak again. Or maybe we talk about it. Or you feel the same way or whatever. But at least I put it out there." And it kind of started this process which took, I guess a few months for us to really communicate openly with each other. But as far as what I wanted, what I figured out after we spoke, or even before we spoke on the phone, about it last week, was I wanted to know that the connection was real. I wanted to know I wasn't making shit up inside my head. That was doing [inaudible 00:31:37] all year last year, because we didn't talk about it properly at all. And i wanted more connection and communication. I don't come to the U.S. more than every few months anyway at the moment. 
Kat:                But even if I lived here, I wouldn't want to live together. I wouldn't want an exclusive relationship. I'd want if I lived in the U.S., I want probably to spend more time together, because I'm here. But it would be only ever when it flows and when it feels right. I don't a relationship of any kind where it feels like there's an obligation that you've got to spend time with each other. It should only be when it flows.
Kat:                But yeah, the communication thing, the whole time I felt like you don't really want to talk to me. Then when we talked abut it, you're "Oh, I didn't want to bother you." I'm, "How did we not talk about this a long time ago."
Patrick:            She says, "Why wouldn't you want monogamy? What happens if either of you meet someone you have a deeper connection with that does want monogamy" I would say that, I'm not going to have monogamy, period, like that. I might have, say girlfriends or whatever like that, that we do have a deep connection with. But they're going to deal with a relationship with Kat. They're going to be cool with what ... I'm going to be upfront and honest ... I'm always upfront and honest to women. I don't mind at all to tell them I have girlfriends, you know what I mean. I -
Kat:                Multiple.
Patrick:            Yeah, in my life. Either take it or leave it, that's fine. That doesn't matter to me, not one bit. Because that's just me being as honest as I possibly fucking can. The reactions, 99% of them are always ... some of them are pissed off about that, you know what I mean? "Oh my god, I can't believe it." Or say something like that. It's all good. Generally people come around, "Oh, okay, I get what you're saying. But this is kind of a pop on the the head."
Kat:                It's a conditioning thing though. I don't know, it's hard for me to understand this, because most who I know are pretty non ... well they're either non-monogamous or they're very open to that. But I guess I hang around with an exceptional different kind of a woman. So I imagine, or I think that most women out there wouldn't emotionally maybe be able to cope with that. Or they feel that they can't, because they feel like they need their validation from the man. Whereas, I felt I definitely was seeking validation as well from a man, truthfully, after I became single. Then that's been a big part of my process of what I've worked through to where I got to a point where I was, "I get everything I need from me, inside of me."
Patrick:            Right.
Kat:                I'm not giving ... Well, I'm happy when I'm with him, and I'm having a great time. But that's not what provides me with my happiness. I'm not happy because I have Patrick in my life, or because I come here. That's not, "Oh, good, I some validation, or got an injection of happiness or whatever, or love." Or something like that. That's all kind of part of it, but I give all that stuff to me, I'm in love because I choose to be in love, even of myself. Then when I add love, romance, whatever it is on top of that, then that's purely coming from a place of, well because I desire it, and because it there and I can have it. But it's not completing me. I'm not being completed by somebody or something outside of me. 
Kat:                So to me that feels really healthy, as far as that question. My answer to that question about what if you met somebody else, currently the way I feel is I can't imagine meeting somebody else who I would have this level of soul connection with. But I also know that it's possible, right? I'm not going to sit here and say that's not possible, anything is possible. That's how I feel right now. I feel that this is a very rare connection. Who else am I going to sit here with and do live streams all day. Also the conversations that we have all the time. Just kind of a deep understanding of each other and acceptance. So it feels like I can't imagine that happening. And I feel kind of cocky about the fact that I can't imagine you meeting another woman who you have this level of connection with.
Patrick:            Yeah, that's what I'm saying. I'm pretty much a bad mother fucker, so you know, if meet a guy like [crosstalk 00:35:41].
Kat:                But I feel cocky about it the other way around. I'm like, as if you're going to be able to have that level of conversation with another woman. But then I also do understand that of course that could happen, right? I'm not holding on to it, I'm not attached to it. It is what it is right now. 
Patrick:            Because you're going to be totally happy and in love with your life no matter what.
Kat:                Exactly.
Patrick:            You're in love with your life. Because you're in love with your life. 
Kat:                And with my own self.
Patrick:            Right. 
Kat:                Right. So whatever shifts or grows over time, whatever it ends up being or not being, we'll be exactly perfect tomorrow. We might grow closer together or we might ultimately drift apart. But either I've got what I need inside of me, you've got what you need inside of you. We're not trying to get that from each other. 
Patrick:            No.
Kat:                So it just feels like, for me it feels like the best connection I've ever had.
Patrick:            Like a roll over.
Kat:                Because previously my serious relationship long term connections that I had, were not based on that foundation. So there was always fear, there was always worry of some kind and it was toxic or it was co-dependent, or it got into manipulation or abuse or whatever. I'm just not available for that anymore. Obviously coming through all that, you get to where you're like, "Oh my god." In my twenties or whatever age, the end goal was marriage and then I thought I'm safe. Then you get married, and you're not fucking safe, right?
Patrick:            Right. 
Kat:                Because you didn't build on the right foundation or you didn't understand these things and you were looking for something outside of yourself. Now I'm so safe, emotionally. With or without Patrick in my life. And I want him in my life and that's what we spoke about. We had to really hash it out. We were like, he was like, "We're going to stop talking. We're going to stop hanging out. Let's be friends, but not physical." I'm like, "Good luck with that." So that's not going to happen. But then we talked it out and it was this realisation of ... My god, I totally lost my train of thought. What was I going to say? Something about the safely thing. What was I just saying? 
Patrick:            Gotta go back.
Kat:                Oh, it was a good point as well. 
Patrick:            Have to go back to one part you were thinking about then just ...
Kat:                No, because then I left you those audios on Sunday and you kind of had been talking to me for a little bit. Then we talked a little bit, but you were, "No, can't work, it's not going to work." Then I left you audios. "At the end of the day what i really want is I just want you in my life. I don't want to lose you out of my life."
Patrick:            No. 
Kat:                "And I do want more communication. Right? Not from a neediness point of view, more because it's one of the things I value most in my life is our communication. So why would I not want that more?" Then once I said that, then came back to me and, "I don't want to lose you out of my life either." Then we had a massive phone call and hashed it out. Now basically here we are. 
Kat:                That's pretty much the whole story.
Patrick:            Here we are.
Kat:                That's the whole story, you're caught up. 
Patrick:            You're caught up now. You're brought up to speed everybody. 
Kat:                We missed some comments. I don't know, what do you want to add to that. I'm going to look at the comments here.
Patrick:            Well, I came out of a bad relationship back in 2014, I think it was. Huge, bad relationship where I was constantly trying to get so many things. I was trying to ... I based so much of my life around the relationship. I'm just the kind of guy that goes all in on everything thing that I do. And I thought that, hell I wasn't even trying to make that happen, but I did, and it ended up becoming something that I just went all in on and I shouldn't have. It ended up terrible because you can't really do that anyways in a relationship without ... It's better when there's a certain kind of chemistry that you have to have. Especially you guys know if the guy is needy as fuck that it's a very huge turn off, right? So it ended up things getting fucked up that way. 
Patrick:            so anyways, things did get fucked up and I went on a rebound with another chick and I did the same exact thing. Went right back off into being needy again and got tore up again on that. So I was coming off a bad relationship and then finally just figured out, just work those things out in my head. So basically I was, I don't know where the fuck I'm trying to go with this, but I'm trying to come at y'all as the way the guy thinks. Sometimes you'll see this and as far as me putting all my chips in those bags, that's kind of like what lead me to totally pull myself out of that. 
Patrick:            Actually that relationship, those two relationships are what kind of set me in pace to quit my job and start working towards something greater in my life. Because I just realised, yeah, this is where I'm trying to go with this. Then I realised life isn't meant to just fucking put all of your chips into a relationship.
Kat:                And think it's going to save you.
Patrick:            And think it's going to save you. And that goes for that job, or that goes for anything in your life. It's not meant for you to do that. It's meant for you to put all your ... hedge all your bets on your self.
Kat:                Right, I was going to say that exact line.
Patrick:            Yeah, cool. Just go all in on yourself and just totally go in on that and then the rest of that shit is going to come to you when you do that. It might not be what you were thinking, because that's certainly had in my mind when these other relationships was, maybe a wedding and all this stuff. I'm thinking that's what I was thinking, picket fence and all that stuff. And then it doesn't happen like that, but there's so much other stuff out there that comes along and it's just like, boom. It's exactly the way you should be living your life.
Patrick:            The way I think about life is, I've got my theory about life and it's just different than what everybody thinks. It's not religious or anything like that. But basically, I kind of, this is just a philosophy that I have, that I live by. It's my own personal philosophy, this is how I look through the lens of the world. The lens of the world is this, that we have probably been here, already, before. Human beings have probably been on this planet before. And because we just happen to be in the best time living, and the best time possible, right? Just everything is so easy. Communication is so easy. We can talk into a camera and money will flow back to you. If you communicate, you will succeed. We live in the easiest time, the easiest time, the easiest time and we're right on the cusp of something like artificial intelligence coming around and being a supercomputer, super intelligence, it's almost here, but it's not quite. 
Patrick:            So a lot of scientists believe that we're probably ... We've probably already been here before, and we probably just now we're jacked in because we can live forever. And we probably just jack in and live this life over and over again without the memory of actually being immortal. Because if you're immortal, right, you're going to live forever and it's going to get very boring, right? If you play the game over and over again on god mode, then you're going to get bored. So my personal philosophy is that we probably just jacked into this thing and we erase our memories, but we make it just hard enough to live, right? Just hard enough to where ... We put the hard stuff in there to go through and to make it to where we enjoy the better times. 
Patrick:            So that's my personal philosophy about life and I think that it doesn't always end up where you're thinking. It's designed to switch you up and throw you off track. And you're designed to go through these hardships so when you find something great and the stuff really comes at you and surprises you, and you just ... and that way you can just enjoy this. And it's milking the ecstasy of every single moment, right. The people that come into your life. It just totally trips you up and it's all designed to where you are just having ... you are obtaining happiness, true happiness. Happiness is overcoming resistance.
Kat:                It's also being in the moment and not being attached to the moment or to what comes after the moment, right? 
Patrick:            Yeah.
Kat:                Attachment is such a huge thing in relationships and in business and in life. Even all the stuff I just shared, and I just gave a very brief overview of it, obviously. But I was getting into pretty normal conditioned patterns of feeling a need for attachment or some kind of proof or something like that. It was such a great learning process for me, even way back. 
Kat:                I'll give you an example, which I've told you this, but I don't know if you remember this. But in December after we first met, so over a year ago, the previous December, you said you were going to come to Austin that second time when I was in Austin. Then you didn't end up coming. You got a lot of work and stuff in business. I was kind shocked, because I knew already that we had this connection. And I was kind of pissed, because I was, "I'm here from Australia, and you can't come to Austin." I was kind of shitty. But I was really needy about, right. It's how I felt inside of myself.
Kat:                So then the next morning, went to yoga, as I do, obviously. I went into the Bikram yoga class and I was, right, I set myself and intension, which is how I figure out a lot of stuff in my life. I thought by the end of this class, I'm going to clear this in my head and I'm going to understand it. I remember half way through that class, this was ages ago, and it was pretty early on in our connection anyhow. But I remember half way through the class being, holy shit, that's such a massive gift that you didn't come. Because it highlighted for me that I was looking for my self worth to be validated from you, from a man. I just acknowledged it and completely [inaudible 00:44:58] what it is. I was, "Why did I get so upset about that? Why was I so upset. It's not like we had any promises between us or anything like that." 
Kat:                But I was just really upset. I had to acknowledge and I recognised it's all my own self worth shit. Which is totally fine, I'm compassionate about myself for that, because I'd been in a long term marriage that wasn't working and my self worth was shot to pieces in that area. So I was, "Wow, it's so good that you didn't come, because it gave me the opportunity to learn this lesson that I was looking for my self worth to be grounded to me by somebody else." 
Kat:                That's not possible, when you want somebody else to give you self worth or happiness or even love, obviously then you're continuously saying I don't have that inside of me. Somebody else has got to provide that for me. Then I'll know I'm safe. Then I'll know I'm good enough. Then I'll know I'm worthy of love and all those sort of things. 
Kat:                I ended up, of course, I turned it into a programme. I didn't talk about us. But I created a four week programme out of it, called -
Patrick:            Where's my cut?
Kat:                For real, I made like 50K on that straightway. I launched it that day. I came out of the yoga studio, I was, "I'm on fucking fire." I remember walking through the streets, I was live streaming. I'm like right, I'm going to teach you about manifestation, and that when you put something outside of you, and you put it up on a pedestal, and you say, "when I have that" a million dollars, cool car, person who says they love me, whatever it is. "When I have that, then I'm safe, then I'm good enough, then I'm successful, then I'm worthy." You put it on a pedestal like that, you will never get it. Because you're always saying that this is not available to me from the inside me. 
Kat:                Even if in this situation, even if you have come along. Even if I had have him saying from day one, "Oh, I love you, and you're safe and I'll take care of you ..." or whatever. There would have always been fear there. Because I knew that, that's me attaching it to somebody else. And you can't do that. You can't control another person and why would you want to. So that was only one incident, there were many times along the way where I was driving myself crazy with my own stuff. It just helped me to process and grow and recognise all my patterns were I was, "Oh, my god, wow, I was looking for this." 
Kat:                Even moments where i was, should I say this on a message? 
Patrick:            Thank you. 
Kat:                Should I say this on a message, should I send a text message saying  ... that time when I had to come to Dallas when Regan and were speaking, right?
Patrick:            Yeah.
Kat:                I honestly spent two weeks during my heading about whether or not I should even message you that I'm coming. And then I basically pestered Alexa about it. I made a script for this text message. For real. I was what do I say that I don't scare this guy off me. Now I'm like, I can't believe I would have been, what if I scare a guy off? Because whatever. What if I be myself and either way is fine. But I just wasn't at that point yet, so it's totally fine. 
Kat:                But Alexa was, "You just ask yourself what you're actually feeling, then say that." I was, minds blown, I never thought of that idea before. Then I did. I'm, "Hey, I'm coming to Dallas, we should have a coffee." So carefully crafted, took me two weeks. But I was living from fear and I was living ... And then I ended up staying with you for like a week on that trip. So it worked out quite well. But the point is, I just let go of all that a while back now. And I've continued to let go of it, and I continued to understand it and continued to notice my patterns, right?
Kat:                Even always, just never-endingly in every area of my life. But I think the biggest shift that I had in this area, and could have probably never had this shift this far without what we have. Is just to realise that, I'm not going to get anything and I don't want to desire anything from another person, right? Not a romantic person, not a client, not a friend, not my kids, nobody. I don't get that from anyone else. So even if we had have finished our journey already, it would have been nothing but massive growth from that experience over this past year or so. The universe has your back.
Kat:                So Alexa asked a question that I'm sorry to say, we can't answer, because we've never spoke about that. Now are you going to be annoyed at me about that. So I'm going to get in trouble, but it's a good point. She says ... Can you hang on; she wanted us to say what are rules are sexually around physical safety, like when sleeping with multiple people? Actually we haven't discussed that, I'm sorry. That shouldn't, yeah [inaudible 00:49:18].
Patrick:            I don't know, rules, like safety words?
Kat:                She means hygienically. [crosstalk 00:49:23]. We'll talk about it off camera.
Patrick:            That's always a worry, yeah.
Kat:                But since you ask the question, I'm just acknowledging it. It's a great opportunity for everybody.
Patrick:            That's totally a chick question, yeah.
Kat:                It a great opportunity. So Alexa she's a wise one. 
Kat:                I don't know, what else? I think that's a lot of it. I just think it's about being okay with saying what you want and what you feel. But also being okay with whatever outcome comes of that. That's ultimately how I kind of, I guess, gradually grew inside of me to a place where I can now say anything to him and I will, I'll say what I'm thinking or feeling and I'll say it ... It still feels scary in the moment, if I'm saying something that's really vulnerable. But I really can say it without attachment. Because I'm at the end of the day -
Patrick:            She said, "Watch you both get uncomfortable." I'm not uncomfortable at all. So just so you know.
Kat:                She means about the physical sex thing.
Patrick:            But my thing is, just so ... it's all good, I can talk, I don't mind. I get myself tested regularly. One of the reasons I do is because I definitely have a lot of respect for Kat and I don't want to do anything to fuck with her shit. You know what I mean? 
Kat:                I do. [crosstalk 00:50:41] tested on.
Patrick:            It's just something that every person should do anyways if you're sexually active. 
Kat:                Your body language [inaudible 00:50:49]. 
Patrick:            You know what I mean?
Kat:                All those [crosstalk 00:50:52] should get tested regularly if you're sexually active.
Patrick:            Yeah, for sure.
Kat:                I was going to say something. 
Kat:                Here's one more thing I do want to say about this, right? I think about being safe to be yourself. It's about having a fundamental belief that you can't screw it up being you. One thing that I realised with our connection is, there's actually ... I honestly feel like there's nothing I could say to you that would scrap our connection. Because our connection is a soul connection. Even if we weren't hanging out. That connection is still there to stay.
Patrick:            Yeah, for sure.
Kat:                You can feel it energetically from when we're not talking or spending time together. So I kind of got to the realisation, probably party because I said a lot of shit to you that would definitely scare most men off. Then I was, "I think I could pretty much say anything to this guy and it's actually not going to ruin our connection, but it might cause us to pull in or out or whatever. But then we actually figure it out. I know you've said that to me a few times, we just figure everything out in the end anyway. But it -
Patrick:            Well I'm going through my shit, and you're going through your shit. We're still going through things on the journey. You know what I mean? 
Kat:                Right.
Patrick:            It's just what it is.
Kat:                But it's also, to me, that's representative of a real connection in your life. When you know that, you don't have to worry about how to communicate with that person. You can't fuck up the relationship by being yourself, it's not possible. That's when you know it's a real connection. Rather that something that's based on rules or fear or validation, is like, if I say this, then I'm going to get in trouble. Or if I say this they're going to think I'm a bad person or something like that. Or they're going to be whatever. Instead you realise, and this exactly what I teach in business, if you speak your actual truth, and it's meant to be, whatever it's meant to be. Then it will. And either way is fine. It's like signing up a client, just say what you fucking think. Say what's actually coming through you. If that scares them off, they were never meant to be there in the first place. 
Patrick:            Exactly.
Kat:                What are going on about? Pull in or out.
Patrick:            Sex puns. 
Kat:                Anything that we missed?
Patrick:            No, I think we got it. They loved it so they're all commenting about it.
Kat:                Thank you for watching. It's a pretty raw conversation, I guess.
Patrick:            Yeah, I don't really care, I talk. I'll watch all your stuff, so I see ... I watch most of your stuff, so I see what you say and this stuff. I already know you, so you're giving them the 100% real deal. So they know that. 
Kat:                It's what we do.
Patrick:            Obviously you wouldn't be as popular if you didn't do that, so I've already seen that and know kind of how you think. So it's not a big deal. You'll probably be surprised as I talk more and more on my shit. As I put more of myself out there. You'll probably see some of the same stuff.
Kat:                Even more truth coming out. 
Patrick:            Yeah. 
Kat:                Yep.
Patrick:            So yeah, so look forward to it.
Kat:                That's the thing, it's about being comfortable being uncomfortable. So much stuff I've published or there's been so much I've said on live streams, where I'm "I hope Patrick doesn't watch this." But I'll never know, it's not like I'm getting a weekly report on what you watched or didn't watch. Or whatever else, but I continue to say it, right?
Patrick:            I have never felt any type of way about anything except when I thought you were talking shit about me that one time. 
Kat:                It wasn't about you, let me clarify that.
Patrick:            I'm like, really, okay, all right. Fucking asshole over here.
Kat:                That was totally 100% never about you. 
Patrick:            I was like ... 
Kat:                He was firing back at me. Triggered as fuck. 
Kat:                Patrick really looks what? Hang on, we just got a whole bunch of comments all at once. Let's find these comments here. 
Kat:                Yeah, I've said so much stuff where I'm, whoa. I don't know mainly from talking about, I don't know, guys I'm dating. Or relationship stuff, I guess, and I feel ... It's so silly though, because I know ... Well we've never really talked about it, but I knew or assumed that you're seeing other women. We didn't discuss it. Now we discuss it in some sort of way. Obviously we don't need to go into details about it. We chose not to. But, yeah, I knew that, right? But then when I would speak about it on my live streams or in a blog, I always felt super, I don't know, is this somehow going to scrub our connection? Actually logically makes no sense at all. But I still always kind ... There was definitely times when I'm like, "I hope he doesn't watch that one." 
Kat:                Okay, Patrick looks like a new man. Compared to when? It's the shirt. 
Patrick:            Compared to what? [inaudible 00:55:16].
Kat:                Most people don't know their truth or don't speak it. Yeah. Most people don't know their truth is such a good point. I wouldn't have been able to verbalise all this eight months ago, because I hadn't figured it out about myself. Even though I knew it kinda about my core. 
Kat:                This live stream is making me have the need to go and face the real questions I have regarding the man I'm into. 
Kat:                There you go. Good to hear.
Kat:                Alexa, thanks for letting me monopolise the comments. Of course.
Kat:                Yes so we're going to see now Patrick messaging all over the fucking internet as well. So if you're not already following his stuff, go do that. I guess you'll get to keep up in whatever way that we feel fit to share with you with the escapades of both of us in our separate ways. 
Patrick:            Should be an interesting dynamic. I don't plan on holding anything back.
Kat:                Good. 
Patrick:            Maybe kat won't watch some of my live streams, maybe she will. There's some that I'd definitely push pause on and skip right through. 
Kat:                Of mine?
Patrick:            Yeah. It's probably just like if you guys -
Kat:                I bet I will, I'm sure I'll watch the majority of them.
Patrick:            y'all be talking about some fucking serious crazy ass sex shit in here sometimes. I think I'll just skip, I think talking about foot fetishes and stuff like that.
Kat:                That was you. Your the one that[crosstalk 00:56:20].
Patrick:            I'm out. I have one fucking shoe, and I do this live stream on here ... some of you go into way too much detail on there. I won't -
Kat:                Who?
Patrick:            In this group, I've seen it. 
Kat:                Oh, in this group.
Patrick:            Yeah, sex group, yeah. Sex stuff.
Kat:                Oh wow, come into The Kaleidoscope, this group is tame as fuck.
Patrick:            The Kaleidoscope, that's what I'm saying. When I see something, I'm out. I'm kind of a traditional guy, you know what I mean. But I do my thing, but ... anyways, it should be interesting in that dynamic. I'm not trying to hold anything back on my live streams either, so we'll go all out and see what happens. 
Kat:                We'll see what happens. We continue the journey. That's all this is. 
Kat:                All right, thank you for watching. Leave a comment if you watched the replay. Have an amazing epic day.
Patrick:            What do say? Keep pressing play.
Kat:                Press, plug and play.
Patrick:            Print, press and finish sometimes.

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Okay. We're back. Take two, I don't know what's happening. Oh, my God. All right. Okay. Hello people, are you coming back to me? I don't know what happened, Facebook just decided to finish the live stream.

Hey Anna, okay. It's all under control, except for this sweat situation that's not remotely under control. Let me wait for a moment and let people jump back on.

I kind of can't even believe how much I'm actually sweating right now. It's not like I don't control the time, I know what it's like, but my body is in total shed mode right now, I can just feel it. I think it's about to start dripping off my chin at any moment. Fortunately, I have a top here. Like I know none of this is really a big deal, it's just the live stream dropped out.

But it's kind of like, it's exactly what I was talking about on the previous live. It's just like things just keep happening and you're like, "I'm really trying to fucking release this and not let it get to me, and I'm trying to be in surrender, but then more thing just keep happening.

Somebody asked am I drinking water from here? No, it's French and amino-acids, which is what I drink through the morning usually before I eat.

Like it's like nearly 12 noon now, I haven't eaten yet. I've done my hot yoga, I'll do another workout later, and I'm just in my kind of feel like fasting mode.

Okay. Why was I even up to, I was going to talk about the Inner Circle. Mim, can you drop that link again? My Inner Circle is open for registration now. I was just mentioning that and then I was going to go into this thing about letting your message be what your message is for the day, and letting you be who you are.

Inner Circle is 12 months mentoring with me one on one at the highest level, and you get to join the most badass and hot as fuck mastermind in the world with my other private clients. The results that we get in there, money results, alignment results, flora results, business, body, love, lifestyle, fun, adventure, all of that are freaking phenomenal. Right? So I'm so excited to be officially opening this up for applications and inquiries, and what that means is just message me from my personal page, and I'll get you a full written overview. A short live stream where I talk about the kind of work that I do with my clients, and some other cool stuff as well, for you to have a look at, and just feel if it's for you. It's a freaking phenomenal place. It is an anomaly and it's phenomenal.

Its an existing place. Its been going for just over a year, and I don't promote it normally though. I just have never done a promotion, or a launch around it. 100% of people who are in the Inner Circle have literally just approached me out of nowhere. So many clients, like magic, and said I need to be part of this, and that's how its always happened.

So this is the first time that I've ever been going like, "Hey, this is open. Did you even know about it?" Because a lot of people didn't even know about it. I realised I'm super under the radar, and that's always felt perfect, and aligned, and I'll probably go back to that, but currently I'm taking in the exact perfect women who are meant to be in there. If you feel that that's you, or you'd like to know more, or you feel that it might be you, message me. I'll get you the full overview and all the details of that.

If you click on my Facebook cover photo on this page, or on my personal page, you can read some of the testimonials in there from some of my amazing clients. There's so many that we haven't even written up yet. I literally been hoarding all these incredible results to myself, and not sharing them. So I'm starting to write one up, and share one each day, and I'm going to be starting to do some conversations with Bad Asses. Interviews with my Inner Circle clients on joint Facebook live soon as well. So you'll get a chance to hear from some of the most amazing entrepreneurs and creators in the world about how they do business in life, and let them share their gifts and talent and genius with you. So, just something to keep your mind. But definitely message me now if you're feeling that.

All right, so if you missed the first part of this live stream before it dropped out, watch the first part, the post of that is already on my page. It's already there for you, and I was talking about being fucked over energetically by Bali, and how that's totally a story, and I see that, but then how I also choose to lean into it. I choose to lean into it whether it's in Bali, when shits going on, and when shit's stirring up. Even like ... I did a live the other night about this, Friday night actually. About feeling triggered by something. Right?

That's another example. We get triggered by something, or something feels uncomfortable, we're not fun in sight of this, and it's kind of like, "Oh, I don't like this feeling. I don't want this feeling, how can I push this away? How can I get back to super flow, or being high vibe, or lewd as fuck," whatever it is, and what I've learned, and what I've found, and Bali is such a great example of this, is that when that stuffs coming up from inside of us, there's a reason for it, and what if we allowed it to come up, and what if we allowed it to happen?

So whenever you're triggered by something, whenever something makes you feel sad, or you feel uncomfortable, I'd be curious to know what you think. Comment, comment.

Whenever you feel angry, or you're just frustrated, or you can't seem to quite connect, don't try and hide or mask that feeling. Allow yourself to be whoever you are in that day, and in that moment, and I feel like this is probably one of the harder things to learn, because its ... We're talking about allowing ourselves to sit in confrontation, or to sit in discomfort, or to sit in nausea, or to sit in your body expelling random weird shit from it, physically, or emotionally, or spiritually, or whatever it might be. But I found that when you can allow yourself to be with what is, firstly you take the fear side of it out of it, because you realise, "Hey, I'm actually okay. I can sit in this space of pain or discomfort, or extreme confrontation, or feeling sad, or feeling frustrated, or feeling down, or feeling angry or whatever. I can actually sit here and be here, and I'm still okay. Because I think that part of it is, we trample away from stuff like that. We think that it's not safe. That we want to avoid it.

Ann Marie says, I did that over the weekend, I'm freaked out.

I can't read the rest of your comment, I'll have to read it later.

Michelle, yes it's true. Not good not to share. Yup. Exactly. Definitely good to talk about, and good to lean into. It's always temporary. That's right Debbie. One of my favourite sayings that I've used for years in my life is, "It is what it is, and this too shall pass."

I think one of my mentors when I was in my mid 20's, he was way at the top of the company that I worked for at the time, the fitness company, and he would always just say, no matter what happened, he would say, "It is what it is." Or ... Is that the exact wording he said? It was something like, "It is what it is," and it was just this final answer to anything or everything. Like, shit would be going down, the ceilings would be crumbling, the sky be falling, and he'd be like, "It is what it is," and that's all it is. I really was like, "I like that," because it gives you back your power, and it gives you freedom, and it gives you realisation that, "So what? It is what it is, and that's all it is, and this too shall pass." It's the bit that I added onto it.

But I remember in my relationship at the time, which was with my first husband, we'd have shit going on or whatever, money stuff or whatever it might've been, and I was like this wise old owl, I was like, "Well, it is what it is," I was just continually saying it, and he used to get super shitty with me, because no matter what was going on, I was like, "Well, it is what it is." Then now, I still say that all the time, continually. Even to my kids if they're freaking out about something. Or to friends or whatever, I'm like, "Oh, it just is what it is." Like, is there an action that I can take here? Is there something that I can do that is in alignment to do? That's not me running, or try to avoid, or numb? So is there an aligned action to take? Yes, if so great. Take it.

But sometimes there's not. Sometimes you're just feeling all this shit going on, and you don't feel connected, and you don't feel like you really know what to do, and your message is not freakin' coming through you, and then sweat is dripping off your chin, and the WiFi's not working, and the the live stream keeps shutting down, and you vaguely feel like you might have to get up from the live stream at any moment and hurl into the pool, and it's like, "Let's just be here now then." It is what it is, and this too will pass.

But meanwhile, what is actually the benefit and the purpose of this? Because if I come back to my underlying belief, I fully believe and know that everything happens for me, not to me. So this is happening for my greater good. So, if I can surrender to that idea, and that knowledge, I don't even need to know how or why right now. I don't need to sit here and figure out the answer. It might come to me later when I'm in a massage, or having a walk, or sleeping, or it might not come at all. Either way is fine, because I'm getting what I need from it. Feelings are facts I guess, if you make them facts.

Jenna says, feelings aren't facts. Feelings yeah, they have whatever meaning you assign to them, so that's a great comment, I love it.

It's about allowing yourself to be okay with what is. Then when you look at, being a messenger, and being this person in business and in life ... I don't know what to do with my hair ... Being somebody who feels, I guess, some sense of responsibility or obligation to your business, well fuck obligation anyway, do what's flowing through from your soul, but if you do feel that you desire to message and share something like a live stream, or a blog, or anything like that with your audience, then what if you literally just always gave yourself permission for the message to be the message that day, and for you to be who you are.

So, your message for the day is a reflection of what's actually real, and what's going on inside of you. I'm literally just talking about shit that I've been feeling and experiencing, but I'm turning it into something that's motivating, inspiring, empowering. I wouldn't say super high entertainment value for today's particular show, but often times it's entertainment as well. Right? I don't know, you can tell me if it's entertainment. When I think of entertainment, I tend to think of [Ben Glariss 00:09:46], and I don't think I'm Ben Glariss today. But maybe it's entertaining in a different way.

Anyway, I'm letting my message be what it is. I couldn't come back here to the villa now feeling the way I've been feeling. I'm feeling frustrated, and kind of like, "Ahhh. I want to rip the head off the world," and then all this random shit's happening in my body as well. I couldn't come back and just put that aside, and try to teach and preach on some other random point. I mean I could, but it wouldn't be real. It wouldn't have the real true power and fire in it, and you would feel that.

On the other hand, if I just allow my message for the day to be a reflection of who I am today, then it's so easy. There's nothing I have to worry about. So today I'm being this person. This is what's going on, this is my truth. Maybe later tonight or tomorrow I'll be like random, silly, shenanigans version of me. Or another time I'll be going even deeper into the whole fire and [inaudible 00:10:32], but either way, I'm just going to be who I am, and I think this is one of the ultimate lessons that we all get to learn, and one of the ultimate shifts that we all get to drop into. Which is, always flow in ease if you just be who you are. So, this is not just with your free content though. Whatever you're putting out there for free, whatever you're sharing with the audience, even how you're communicating with clients, and then you're paid stuff and what you want to put out there into the world. It always gets to come from this place of, "This is just who I am, and this is what's real." It can be for the content side of things, and the actual stuff that you're putting together and delivering, but it's also the practical reality of what's going on in your world. Right?

I used to think I had to hide the noise of my kids if they're around for example, or I would have never answered client audios, or having my hair blown out, which is what I was doing earlier. So then they can hear the noise of the hair dryer in the background. I listened back, you can still hear it. But it's more that I would have hidden that earlier, because I would have somehow thought that people would think that's unprofessional or how dare I multi-task by responding to messages while my hair's being done, or while I'm walking down a busy street, or being on phone calls with a client when I'm being driven to the airport or whatever. I just don't hide anything ever. This is my situation, this is my reality, or last night teaching my live stream trainings to my private clients. I did two live stream's late at night. I was pretty wrecked. I'd been going for already 17 hours, travelled from Australia to Bali, which is only a six hour flight anyhow, but more so that I was already feeling a bit energetically fucked around, and I was pretty tired, and I was just in my pyjamas, no bra on, no make up, shiny face, all that shit, and just being who I was. I didn't allow that to be like, "I should cancel live stream because I'm not really looking that great, or feeling that great. Or, I should doll myself up, and be somebody that I'm not. I've just let business be so easy by being who I am, and so that's what I wanted to come on and share with you today. If you feel like its hard, if you feel like its awkward, if you feel like you struggle to know what to say or how to get it out there, or that some days you're inspired and the message finally comes through you, and then other days you're like, "Man, I'm not feeling it today." You've got to recognise and understand that there's always something there to share, it's just that you got to give yourself permission to be who you are. Okay? So I think this is one of the biggest break throughs that you can have. It is what it is, that's all it is, and whatever it is will pass whether its high or low, up, down, crazy around, and in between, and you are who you are as well, and you get to be who you fully are in this moment. If you can give yourself permission to share who you truly are, day in and day out, with the world, and let it be that easy, and that real, that is when you build an unstoppable brand. So that's my little message for you today. If you'd like to know more about working with me one on one, having me in your side ... In your side, in your pocket, on your side, in your corner, wherever the fuck you want me, doing deep dive alignment work, you know, work on mindset, like I said, we do transformations on a soul and cellular level, as well as obviously all the ins and outs of building a multi seven figure, online, personal brand business.

Message me over my Katrina Ruth page. I'll get you the details of the inner circle, let's talk. Have an amazing rest of the day wherever you are in the world, we'll see who I show up as tomorrow. And don't forget. Life is now, press play.

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Okay. Now I don't see anything. What's happening? Is this real? Is it a fantasy? Is it a dream? Can you see me? Am I in the dark? I don't even fucking care. It's just all fucking happening already. Bali woo-woo magic is all over me like a motherfucker. Hey Larissa. It was so light before and now it's so dark. Why is that happening? Let me look at it on my screen here. Let me see if Facebook's up to its usual tricks where I think that I can be seen from here up, and then if I go and look at it on the laptop I can be seen from like way lower down. I think I remember my posture.

Okay, let's see what's happening here. I'm not sideways any more. I did go live sideways before. Shannon, what did you think of my message? I nearly thought I should get that whole message transcribed, Shan, and write it into a blog, because everybody needs to hear that. I was just giving Shannon, my inner circle client, the smack-down of love about being a mom and an entrepreneur, and accepting who we are as entrepreneurial moms. Which is to say, we're so not like the other moms. You've got me on-side. Well, don't flash my boobies around all over the reno site. Or do, whatever feels good for you. Not dark ... Why am I dark on my own phone? It's annoying the fuck out of me.

You guys, I've been back in Bali for less than 24 hours and I realise now that I'm creating this. I realise I'm creating it. I gotta decide if I want to stop creating it, because the truth is, maybe I embrace and I love being Bali-fucked. Do you know what I mean when I say Bali-fucked? So somebody thought, Patrick thought, that when I said Bali-fucked it meant that it's really good, right? Like you're getting fucked and it's like, "Oh my God, yes", and I was like, "No, no". This came up in conversation, I think, last time I was in Bali which was a couple of weeks ago. I always talk about being Bali-fucked and I write about it, and then everybody who comes to Bali knows exactly what that means, right? So then he said something about how amazing it is, and I was like, "No, no. No, no. That's not what Bali-fucked means." Bali-fucked is like you're getting fucked over by Bali, and it's fucking tumultuous and it's insane and it's not necessarily fun.

It's kind of like everything that can go wrong does go wrong and will go wrong, and it could be anything from weird body shit going on, weird food shit going on. This morning I woke up feeling like I'd been put on a freaking spin cycle and gone ten rounds in a ring at the same time, and my head wouldn't move and I was just like, "What's happening?", and then just now this past hour I've just been feeling so nauseous but for no reason at all, or it could be wifi stuff. Like, I'm in a really nice villa, right? But then last night I get online to teach to my clients, to my private clients, and the wifi's not working. So I get it fixed, get the IT dude out. Today I get home, my [inaudible 00:03:31], my ninja, and I've gone, I'm going to be live in five minutes. I've got an appointment coming up in another 30 minutes, I'm like, "Okay, I'm going to do my livestream now."

Okay, Michelle says I'm freezing. I'm going to assume that that's not for everyone. I'm just going to pray and manifest that that's only happening to Michelle and that it will shift from Michelle as well. And so now I come in, and then the wifi's not working again. I'm like, "Fuck, okay." So it's kind of like all these things just happen to test you, and I noticed that I really get into ego a lot when I'm here. Not always, but it can happen to me when things are not kind of flowing smoothly and they're not working, or people are not understanding me or I'm not getting what I want, or things are taking longer.

Like even just now getting my hair done, he was washing my hair like he was painting the fucking ceiling of the Sistine Chapel, and I appreciate the intention, but I was like, "Please don't take 30 fucking minutes to shampoo my hair." But I'm sitting there and I'm trying to be calm. I'm like, "I'm a zen, I'm calm, I'm chill". I'm fine, and then I'm kind of like, "Um, can you shampoo faster please?", and I'm trying to talk really politely. But I just noticed this kind of ego edge that comes up from me when I'm in Bali, where it's kind of like oh my God, I just continually find myself wanting to tell people off and tell them to move faster, and so it's this message to surrender, right? And to learn and grow from it.

But then today, I messaged my friend. I'm like, "Oh my God, Bali's getting me good. I'm already like, my body's been trashed, I feel nauseous as fuck. This has happened, this has happened", and then I was like, "Wait, hold up." That is such a story. I'm so creating a story, right? And I literally manifest it, because I tell everybody all the time like an idiot. I'm continually posting about being Bali-fucked, where I'm like, "Oh my God, this is happening, this is happening."

But then I thought about it, and I was like well, of course I'm creating that. Of course I'm expecting it and creating kind of this energetic being fucked over, which I'll explain a bit more in a moment because it's actually a really good thing. I've started to create it and expect it. But then I thought, but do I desire to let go of that story? Do I actually desire to let go of that story? Because the truth is that there's definitely some ... Or maybe this is ego again, but there's some sort of pride that comes through from that, where I'm like, "Yeah. Fucking bring it, bitch. I can take it." So kind of like getting taken down in a gym, which is something I actually love and thrive on, and I guess I've got that masochistic side to me that a lot of entrepreneurs do. Or even getting all that stuff done on my back and my ribs and everything, where it's like, "Yeah, bring it on", because I know that it's making me stronger.

What I noticed with getting Bali-fucked, the energetic kind of fucking over all just the random shit that happens. Sometimes it's really little things, but then it just compounds, and sometimes there's literally been days, several days over this year where I've spent the entire day face-down naked in the foetal position on this decking here. Just couldn't move for an entire day, because ... I don't even know. I remember getting up and going, "Okay, I'll do one body weight squat and see if I can move my body", and I couldn't even. I just passed straight out again. There was no reason for it, right? It's just the energy. The energy is so intense here, and it can kind of throw you around when you first come back here.

So it is a story, and it is a choice, because of course I could tune away from that. But I think that I do consciously desire to keep choosing it, and here's why. This has got nothing to do with the topic of my livestream title, but whatever. We'll get to that when it's time and when it's aligned, and if it's not then it's not. Because it's like a detoxification, right? I can literally feel my body since being here going into releasing so much shit, metaphorically and perhaps not just metaphorically, that I've been kind of clouding myself with the last several weeks. I tend to pull myself a little out of alignment when I'm on the Gold Coast. Oh my God, I'm sweating like a motherfucker. It's just pouring off me. But I'm sitting in the sun deliberately because I want to get my tan on.

So yeah, when I'm on the Gold Coast, the truth is I'm not fully in alignment. I'm not fully in flow. That's something I get to tune into and look at, because if I desire to stay there or if I choose to stay there, then I'll shift that. At the moment my feeling and my choice is that this is not quite the aligned place for me to be, and then a couple of other things sort of came up that I got the opportunity to grow through over this past several weeks on the Gold Coast. So I feel like I let a bunch of, shall we say, not super flow energy kind of attach itself to me, right? And I think that we do that all the time. We're just going about the business of living, and depending on what situations we put ourselves into or allow ourselves to connect to, we get a bunch of not super flow energy that's kind of attaching onto us.

Now, this is not ... I'm not saying this is a bad thing or something that you shouldn't do, because it's all for growth and it's all for learning. Is that Batman water bottle? Of course, because I am Batman. It's all for growth and it's all for learning, so it's all exactly as it's meant to be. Oh my God, I'm literally dripping as though I'm in the Bikram yoga room. I always adjust back to Bali temperature in like two days. I come here every month. Within two days I'm fully adjusted, but the first day or two back I'm just like shed, shed, shed, shed, and that's exactly what I'm talking about, right?

So I could decide to change the story. I could make a decision, I'm not available to go through this kind of breakthrough fuckery that happens for the first day or two, or however long, whenever I come through into Bali. I don't choose that. I choose to just not have anything coming out of me, physically or metaphorically, and choose to not go into some form of release of nausea or feeling not well, or feeling sad or down.

This morning I think I've gone through the entire fucking emotional spectrum. I've gone through feeling completely beaten up when I woke up to I could barely get out of bed. Managed to kind of drag my ass from the bed to that day bed over there and had coffee. I was like, "Oh my God, I so don't want to move anywhere else." Went to yoga, that was extremely painful, and then came out of yoga feeling so sick and so unwell in my stomach, as though I'd eaten something bad, but I hadn't. Then went to get my hair done, which turned into just like ... It was like watching an iceberg move, watching this guy trying to do my hair. So I'm like, "Breathe through it, you don't have to make everything fast all the time".

So I went through that, and then I went through wanting to rip everyone's head off, and then I was feeling really sad and I wanted to cry, and then I was just kind of angry at the world. Then I just felt detached and disconnected, and I don't know what to do or what to talk about, and nothing is going to quite fulfil me. This was all within a 40 minute period, right? And so then I was coming back here and I'm like, "Okay, just do a fucking livestream. It's definitely going to shift you."

The reason that I think it's okay to keep allowing this, and that I choose to keep my story of Bali-fuckery and Bali fucking me over, is because I do let go of so much that I don't even necessarily realise that I've been holding onto, right? So it's like being here is this incredible fucking mirror. It's just like holding the mirror in front of you, and like oh my God. It's so full-on that it would be easier to run from it. It would be easier to kind of energetically shut yourself off from that.

But in my mind that would be equivalent to the person who wants to change their body and their health, and then they start to eat in a really amazing way and take care of themselves, and they start to have a detoxification reaction because they're not putting all that shit into their body anymore, and then they feel like shit or they get a breakout or they get sad or down, and they want to throw things at people. So then they're like, "Oh, let me go back to just eating fucking donuts and pizza all day, because I didn't have to feel all this and deal with all this." That's how I look at it.

So actually embrace it. I'm like, "Cool, thank you for the reminder to get even more back to core." I'm pretty fucking flow connected and soul connected day in and day out as it is, but when I'm here it's this incredible energetic mirror and it's literally like you can't hide from anything here. You can't hide from who you really are and what is really needing to come up and be expelled or expunged or purged from you, and quite often, it becomes a physically fucking expelling and purging. If anyone is a Bali person and comes here, you know exactly what I'm talking about. It literally starts coming out any which way out of all orifices on the body, and then it's all the emotional shit coming out, and now my computer is fucking overheating even though it's in the shade. Let's just put that over there.

So it's all the physical stuff, but then it's all the emotions like extreme sadness or extreme frustration or extreme anger, or extreme anxiety or whatever it might be. It's kind of like ... Like all day every day. Here's this fucking mirror in your face, deal with your shit. So what I choose to do is to lean into it. Okay, why are you saying, "You're welcome", Jennifer? Did you leave me a fabulous comment earlier that I didn't see? So what I choose to do is I lean into it, right? And I choose to smile at it, and I notice my patterns. I'll get into reactivity or I'll get into ego quite often here, because of maybe language barriers or just kind of like a different pace.

I'm used to just clicking my fingers and things get done, and if that doesn't happen I'm like, "Breathe through it, release. Everything is always perfect. Practise your own fucking stuff that you preach, Kat. You're always-". I nearly just called myself Chris randomly. I just nearly called myself Chris. I have no idea why that just happened. I think because I can see a little message on my WhatsApp there from my friend Chris. I just saw the name and then nearly referred to myself as Chris.

Practise what you teach, Kat, and practise what you preach. So any time anything comes up that's what we shall call a growth opportunity, or we're just not freaking feeling good and we want to be back in our flow zone, then it is always an opportunity to go deeper into ... The new [inaudible 00:12:55], yeah ... Always an opportunity to go deeper into our truth, to go deeper into locking in our own belief system, and to really coming from that place, right?

So those are some of the things that I've been thinking, and then part of that is of course, when we look then at business and when we look at what we're here to do as leaders and messengers and influencers, and the people who others look to and are inspired by, powered by, motivated by or want to learn from or buy from, I know that for more previously and I know that for my clients, when there's freaking shit going on is quite often when we would to freak out relevant to business, right? I've specifically had quite a few of my private clients in my inner circle go through extreme shit in Bali, because that's just what happens, right?

So I've had several of my ladies I can think of just off of the top of my head, even in the past two months, who've been here and have been like, "Oh my God." I can't even ... Like an extreme fever, or I'm just getting energetically fucked over every which way and in every possible situation. It just kind of becomes funny, and they lean into it and they understand the surrender process as well. But what I notice is that sometimes people will be like, "Oh my God, this is impacting my business. I can't fucking do anything", and not just with Bali.

I had this conversation with one of my other private clients in my inner circle just a couple of days ago about how she was like, "I just don't feel like doing anything. I'm just not in the vibe of livestreaming, I'm not in the vibe of messaging. I'm not doing my shit. Should I be worried about that? I'm feeling like I should worry about that. How is that going to impact my income this month? But I already had this much come in, so it doesn't seem to be impacting it. But should I worry about whether it's impacting it?", right?

So this morning I was talking with a different client over on [inaudible 00:14:30] on my private client channel, and she was talking about having this kind of realisation or breakthrough around not ... She felt that she had to, in order to be a better version of who she already is as a bad-ass entrepreneur, that she thought that she had to kind of go out there onto the internet and push people, like "Take this action", "Buy my thing", "Do my thing", right? And then she suddenly realised that she gets to just be her and just be in her energy state and that that's enough, and that just being her, people will come to her. I responded to that and I was like, "Exactly." All we need to do is to let the message be the message each day, and let who we are ... Let ourselves be ourselves each day. That's it, period, the end, right?

Which brings me full circle back to the title of this livestream, but then kind of this conversation of, well, what about when shit's being stirred up and you're feeling crazy and chaotic, all over the place energetically? Or you're on the fucking decking in the foetal position not doing anything all day, naked as the day you were born, and can't seem to get up and move. Or when you're just not feeling in that vibe of doing livestreams or messaging. Is that okay, and should we be kicking our own ass to get back into, I guess, the more obvious definition of super flow? So I talk about super flow all the time ... It's actually kind of nice having a bit of a breeze there. Alright. I talk about super flow all the time, and ... I'll switch the hair ... And I guess what I mean by that mainly is all the good things, right? All the really positive and good things.

Okay. It was reconnecting. I was like, "Please don't make a live example, Bali, of the wifi not working." By the way, since I just got paused, Mim, can you ... I'm eating my own hair now. Can you drop that comment about the inner circle? So-

Okay. Are you kidding? Has it switched the direction? What's happening? Am I now the other way? Which way am I? Oh my God. See, this is what I mean. It's just all these freaking little things. How can it do that? Did it literally switch the direction of the livestream midway through the live? Can somebody confirm that for me? Mim, what's going on? Can you WhatsApp me? The live video has ended?

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Hello world, good morning. Good morning from the back of my Towncar service, I'm on the way to the airport. It's totally gone super dark on here, hang on. There we are, okay, I'm back. Okay, I've got tired eyes, I'm super tired. Hey three people, give me a comment, tell me what's up. Hopefully Facebook is going to let me read my comments actually, because I don't have my laptop with me. Hey Anka, how are you? Hello, Rebecca. Yay, comments are working, sometimes they just randomly don't work. Tell me, is my Katrina Ruth Show banner at the bottom of this screen? Because I swear to God, it was just there, now it's not there. Hello gorgeous ladies, hello Leigh, hello Kristine, hello 20 other people who I don't know who you are yet, because your names are no showing. Facebook selectively decides whether or not you get to see your comments, I've noticed, and it also selectively decides who it will show you is on the live stream.

You know, like it says, "Such and such person is watching," I see Maria watching, hey. Thanks Hannah, hey Kristy, hey Hannah, hey Marika. Yeah, so it will say, "Such and such person is watching," but it's told me so far like three or four people who are watching, and there's 26 people here, it hasn't told me 26 people, I don't know what that's about. Early one, I know, and I feel like I've got really tired eyes going on, but it's okay, I'll get over it and present myself to the world anyway. I'm on my way to the airport, here's some Brisbane-ish traffic for you, it's very exciting. I'm going to go back to Bali, so if you're going to be in Bali this week, tell me, send me a message, we might do the things.

No, you're not doing anything wrong, Christine, I think it's just how Mark, I like to call him "Marky Mark", even though he's not actually Marky Mark, Marky Mark is Marky Mark, I think that Marky Mark Zuckerberg just likes to remind us that he's in charge, and just never keeps anything consistent. Okay, clearly I'm obsessed with this one bit of hair, but how do you like my white nails? I'm happy with them, thank you, thank you Maria, thank you [Renuka 00:02:23], is that how I say your name correctly? I know, oh Leah, you know me so well. Those chocolate caramel slices, that café better get ready for me, because they're going to be sold out all week. They're gluten free, and they're definitely not paleo, but they are gluten free.

Keeps going off, I don't know what keeps going off. I just had two calls with some amazing clients, well with two amazing clients, I had one call with each of those clients. Look at that, so Sam has just dropped a link in for me, Sam on my team, she's a cat ninja. It's not even a link, Sam's just dropped a little comment, that's what I'm marketing at the moment. We'll talk about that maybe later, but you can message me if you would like to know about mentoring with me one on one at the private client level in my inner circle, ongoing one on one mentoring, the inner circle is now open, unlimited access to me, plus access to the hottest and most badass mastermind in the world, of course, which I created, of course, for driven creators and entrepreneurs.

The inner circle has not been officially open for some time, it is 12 months one on one mentoring. It is unlimited one on one access to me, we do so much insane amazing stuff. In fact, I just had a call with one of my inner circle clients, and then I had a call after that with one of my rich hot empire clients, which is a six-week one on one that I have, and that's what prompted the live stream, so I'm going to talk about some of that stuff in a moment. Thank you for sending all the press play buttons and the 1% buttons everyone, I love them, they're so cool, those stickers.

What else was I going to say about the inner circle? Our next retreat is coming up in July. In my inner circle with my private clients, I do three retreats a year, actually I say that it's two a year, but then I always do three, so I should just change that in the little overview, I'll send you an overview if you'd like to know about the inner circle, just message me on my personal Katrina Ruth page, I'll send you a written overview. We do the LA one in July, which is not too far off, so you could be there in that room with me and with my high level private clients, it is fucking amazing what comes out and what happens in these days together that we do.

The most recent one prior to this was in Bali, so I do one in Bali a year, I did one in the Gold Coast last year, I may or may not do a Gold Coast one this year, depends on if I stay on the Gold Coast or not. Anyway, that's what's happening, that's what's up, and there's obviously a tonne more that goes into working with me at that level and being in the inner circle, but really all you need to know is, do you feel that I'm the mentor for you, is that something that you've thought about or that you're suddenly now right now thinking about, and if yes, then send me a message, and I'll just get you a full written overview of what that covers, how it works, everything that's included, which basically is everything, like everything that I create or put out there, and a tonne of other cool stuff.

Okay, Leah says, "I want my own stickers, I'm going to pout until someone gives them to me." Well, you know pouting may or may not work as a manifestation tool, I'm not sure, you could try that. I find that it does work for me on occasion. In fact, that's precisely how I manifested getting a rack of ribs delivered to me at dinner Friday night when they didn't have them on the menu. They went and got them from another restaurant for me, but you can try that with Facebook creator, or you could just use Facebook creator and make your own stickers Leah, that's another option. I didn't do it, a ninja did it for me, so I've got no idea how.

I'm sure somebody on the internet knows though, or you could ask [inaudible 00:05:37]. Okay, so I had so many good things come up from the ... No, definitely pouting worked for me, that's exactly how I got those ribs the other night. I literally just stood there at the host station going ... Well, I was kind of in a state of shock and pout, it was shock crossed through pout. "If you want to step into the fullness of your work [inaudible 00:05:59], get in on the inner circle," says Maria. Right, so that's what the inner circle is all about, thank you Maria, and just so lovely, and that photo you put up in the inner circle Facebook group was just so beautiful over the weekend, by the way.

Renuka, okay perfect. All right, so really the work that I do with my private clients is ... I'm going to not get distracted by the "shout" comment, Leah, is the inner work, the mindset work, and it's the shifting. You know, like it's honestly probably only 10% of the conversations I have with my high level clients are related to business strategy, except for the fact that the strategy is ultimately mindset, so therefore 100% of what we talk about is strategy, 100% of what we talk about is mindset, 100% of what we talk about is whatever the hell you need to talk about or desire to talk about, and it's just all different areas crossed over together, because everything impacts everything.

For me, a big breakthrough in my business came about when I just started to follow what was inside of me, and gave myself permission to be who I really am, which is not exactly a new conversation for us to have here. We talk about this stuff all the time, but I think that it doesn't matter how frequently you talk about it, you still can go deeper on this conversation. Just now, one of the phone calls I had was with an inner circle client, she had her first $100,000 month in her business last month in April, it was $104,000 to be specific. Obviously this is somebody who knows a thing or two about following flow, and creating from within, and getting epic freaking results, but yet we were still able to go deeper into this conversation of following soul desires.

One of the things that I said to her created the title of this live stream, which was, "You'll literally ..." Well, I don't even know now what the title of the live stream was, somebody post it in for me, but it was something about, "You'll literally create your soul blueprint by following soul desires," you'll literally find the way or you'll literally find the blueprint by following soul desire. Okay, I need to know what exact title I put in, somebody tell me if you can see it. Or Sam, if you're still watching, tell me what title I said.

That's what we were talking about, like we were talking about the difference between having or following obligation, like feeling obliged to do certain things in personal life or in business, like, "I must do such and such, I have to do such and such, or I'm not a good person, I'm not a good entrepreneur, or people think whatever they think about me," or that I'm letting people down or I'm being flaky. Okay, the title, is that what I said? Okay, "You literally just open your mouth and let what's inside of you out." See, I put the title in, and then I followed the advice of the title, but I forgot what I said prior to that, so you literally just open your mouth and let what's inside of you out.

Okay, well what I had also said, however, to my client, was, you literally create the blueprint to success by following what's inside of you. We were talking about obligation, we were talking about duty, we were talking about having to do certain things in your business and how that obviously drains you, and you feel like kind of exhausted, but you also feel resentful. Now you can create epic money results from that place, but is it really epic if you're not feeling what you want to be feeling? For me, I definitely built my business to where probably even over the 200k per month mark, a good chunk of it was still coming from obligation and duty, and so I got incredible results because I worked my fucking ass off and I did the work and I hustled hard, as you guys know.

How I show up now compared to there, where I now receive even more money in my business and even more so-called "results" that I guess people look at or consider success markers, but now it's just like the better it gets, the better it gets, the easier it gets, the easier it gets. Like last night, I was on face time with my mom, and well she said many things, many of which were quite humorous, and I posted some of them into the daily asking Facebook group. She asked me how was business, and she said, I think she was using my wording back at me, she said like, "Is it flowing?", or something like that, and I was like, "Yeah, I don't know what to tell you, like it's really good. It just gets better and better and easier and easier and more and more flow-based," and because there's always new things that I want to be stepping into and allowing and creating.

It's kind of like, but I'm already done at the same time. On Saturday, I went on a walk with two really close friends who are brothers actually, and I'm really just such good friends with both of them, they're soul mate friends. I hadn't seen them in awhile, I've not been on the Gold Coast for awhile, and we went on a big beach [inaudible 00:10:36], and I was talking about, I was saying to them, like or they were sharing goals and visions and stuff, and I'm like, "Yeah, I always feel like what do I even want right now? Like I've got everything, I've created everything that I desire, but then at the same time I'm like, I'm so not done, I'm so not complete, there's so much more that I want to step into and that I know that I will, and my visions just never stop expanding and expanding, but I also do feel completely like I'm there already."

I think that that's what it's meant to be about, and I think that from that place, you step into actual soul desire, in terms of creating or stepping through going on the path that you're meant to go on. Does that make sense? Tell me what you're thinking, because this is kind of what I was saying to my client. I'll come back to the "you just open your mouth" thing in a moment, I've totally forgot that was the title I put in, that was actually a conversation with the next client after that, but let me talk about this one first. Because we said, "Okay, well what if you drop obligation, what if you dropped obligation and you dropped the idea that there was ever anything that you had to do, and you just gave yourself permission to be free to come from flow and free to come from what's inside of you, and just use soul desire as the guiding force?"

I know that for some people, and an earlier version of me, I would have been worried, and some people are worried, that if I just did that, I would completely flake out and I wouldn't do anything, I would be so lazy in my business I would get nothing done. Check out this traffic, lucky I can live stream. I should be at the airport maybe in 20 minutes, so I've got a little bit more time. Yeah, so some people would worry that they'd be lazy, and I used to feel that way. I used to feel like I had to have a really strict set of rules and obligations for myself in every different area of my life, otherwise I wouldn't be moving forward, I'd probably just sit on the couch and eat all the time and waste my whole life, that's kind of how I thought.

It was like I held myself to this really high standard of accountability and discipline and structure in order to feel that that's the way I'm going to be successful, but it was kind of like that's how I'm going to save myself from myself, is how I felt as well. I'd be curious to know if anyone feels that way now, because you can shift that. For me, it was a process of gradually stepping into believing that if I gave myself permission to just be me and to not have any lists, not have any rules, not have any obligations, not have any standards that I had to be accountable to, that I would still be a driven person, and be somebody who creates amazing freaking things into the world and achieves incredible results.

It took me some time. Okay Olivia, it says I've filed that way, "Completely feel like I need to save myself from myself," says Amos. Right, so it's an interesting thought process, isn't it? That's 100% how I felt. No, I feel really proud of myself though that I created a successful multi-million dollar business, and all my different fitness results and lifestyle results from that place, rather than sabotaging in a big way and not moving forward in my life. I was sabotaging in lots of ways, actually, but instead of, I guess, like I felt an underlying fear that I couldn't trust myself to be myself, I felt an underlying thing that I had to save myself from myself, that deep down maybe I was a really lazy person and an unproductive person, and whatever other self worth shit that I had going on for most of my life, but yet I still managed to turn that into drive, and I turned it into hustle, and I turned it into grind, and I took it to extreme lengths.

Like for years, I would sleep like three hours a night, for years, night in and night out, and all I did was hustle and push and create. That was one way to go about creating success, and I would never change any of that, I would not change it. I'm proud of that period in my journey, and I think that we should be proud always of every period on the pathway that we've gone on, because it leads you to who you are and you learn so much from it. Now I look back though and I am grateful, but I'm also grateful to have been able to let go of that, and to have finally been able to step into giving myself permission to just be who I am, and to trust that if I have no rules for myself, no standards, which sounds really funny to say out loud actually, like, "No standards, what?", but if I have no rules, no standards, no obligation, no duty, nothing that I have to do for myself or for anybody else, like I have no obligation to my clients, I have no obligation to my children, no obligation to people in my life, that gives me complete freedom and it gives me permission.

How it works, and you might be thinking, "How can you not have an obligation to your clients?", obviously you do, they pay you. Actually I have no obligation to anybody, not to a single person in my life. However, I provide an incredible amount of value and support and energy and just my presence and whatever it is in each of those different relationships because I've given myself complete permission to just be who I am. Actually as it turns out, I'm not a lazy undisciplined person who would never do anything with their life if they had permission to be who they are, I'm who I am, but it's coming from a different place.

Many of the things that I do now in my business or in my personal life would be similar or the same as what I would have done previously when it was coming from obligation or duty. One of the things that we were talking about was like responding to client messages. I have lots of private clients, and they get unlimited access to me. As a private client in my inner circle, you have unlimited Kat on tap, anytime you need me, I'm there. People feel like, "Oh my God, how is that even possible, how can you offer that, or like how is it possible from a time point of view, or how is it possible, doesn't it overwhelm you or make you feel trapped or something like that?"

I'm like, "No, it really doesn't, but it used to years ago, before I did it the way I do it now," before I even offered unlimited access, I would feel always like it was hanging over me to have to respond to clients, I'd feel worried about if I hadn't responded, or like people are going to think things about me or something. It was an obligation and it was draining, and then I would get resentful at it, because I'd feel like, "But I don't want to have to do things, I want to just be in flow." It kind of exhausted me, and I started to think, "Maybe I don't want to coach people anymore."

Clients say this to me all the time, "I think I don't want to coach people anymore." I'm going to present to you the suggestion that that's probably not true, it's probably just the energy that's around it, and what if you shifted it? I started to shift it and started to believe that it could only uplift me and elevate me to speak to my clients and to listen to client messages and to respond to them, and that it was actually a blessing, and something that I was so grateful for. At first, it was like my mind didn't believe that, it was like, "Yeah, but you've still got all these freaking people that want your attention, and that takes time."

I was like, "Well, time is a very perception-based thing anyhow, right?" I get to consider what I mean by time. Okay, I'm just looking at the time we're going to arrive at the airport, and I'm getting a little bit worried about that time, actually. I think I'm going to cut it really ... How close to an international flight can you arrive at the airport in Australia, do you know the answer to that?

I suppose about an hour.

You reckon an hour? We're fine then. If it's 90 minutes, I'm going to be in trouble. Does anyone know, any of my Aussies know? I'm just here talking about how time is just a made up thing, and I'm like, "Oh shit, my flight's going in not too long, and I'm not there yet." It'll be fine, it's always fine, everything is always perfect. Okay, so coming back to this, like having a lot of people wanting your attention and having that feel like an obligation. That's all a perception, that's something that I am checking about, but I think the rules are different here in Australia anyway. That's all something that you just decide in your head, so I started to decide that it would be just really easy for me to be able to communicate with my clients, and that it would also feel good, and that it would be something that elevated me.

It's literally how I feel now, I feel elevated every time I speak with clients, every time I respond to messages, but I also feel zero obligation. I just dropped that feeling, and I decided to trust that I would show up for my clients, not that I had to make myself do that. I guess my question too for your business is, and whether that particular example resonates or not, my question to you for your business is, what would you be doing if you just decided to trust, or what would be available or unlocked for you if you just decided to trust, rather than feeling like you should have to do certain things? What does that bring up inside of you?

It might feel scary, it used to feel scary for me, you might feel like you can't trust yourself to just be yourself. If that's true, then I would start to play around with that, because it's not true. If it's true that you feel that way, then I would start to tune in on that and play around with that, like, "Who would I be, what would I do, you know how would I spend my time if I had no obligation, no rules, no duty?" It's kind of a very scary thing at first, so I'm not suggesting that you just drop all kind of rules or policies that you have in place for your life straightaway, but I am suggesting that you could, and that it would 100% work for you, I know that for sure.

I'm just kind of tempting you with that idea, but you could certainly start to play around with it, you could 100% start to play around with that and start to look at implementing that in small areas. What if you even gave yourself an hour a day where it's complete freedom and you're allowed to do what you want? This is kind of the conversation that I had with my inner circle client, the one who did her first 100k month last month. We were talking about going to 200k, going to 300k per month and so on, and what place that's going to come from, and it's absolutely going to come from this place of, "Well, I give myself permission to trust, I give myself permission to flow," because otherwise you could increase those money results through kind of hustle and grind and being a disciplined badass in that regard, but then would you actually be getting what you want?

Because you're not going to be living in that feeling of freedom and flow and ease, and surely that is more the real, genuine outcome, rather than a money goal, correct? Correct, I'm going to answer for myself, but you can tell me what you think. Rachel says, "Thank you for this, Kat, have to go, have a good flight," yay. "If you have trouble, just keep asking what else is possible," Sicily, that's a great question in general, I'm not sure when you said it though, hey again. All right, so tell me what you think, tell me what's coming up for you.

Sam, if you're still watching, okay, I want somebody to check the cutoff time for international flights, can somebody check that for me, is that really cheeky to ask? Because otherwise I could flash out of this screen and go Google it myself, but then the live stream would pause. Not that it matters, either way I'm in the car now, so it's nothing I can do about it, but it would be good to know. Okay, so that was the first thing, that was the thing that I thought I said I would live stream about, then I realised I said something else. That was kind of like my journaling prompt to my client, "What if I just gave myself complete permission to trust, what if there was no obligation, who would I be, what would I do, what would matter, what would I focus on and desire?"

That's really, that is 100% how I go about, now, doing business, as well as life. It has been a gradual process for me though, and it continues to be. I still catch myself, as we all do, you catch yourself responding to something that you think you should do. I'm pretty good with it, I just notice it straightaway and I'm like, "Oh, is that actually true?" It can't be true, it literally can't be true that there's anything I have to do, because everything gets to come from flow, 100% of things 100% of the time. Then what I actually titled the live stream was, "You literally just open your mouth and let it come out," and that was a conversation I was having on my next client call this morning, after the first one.

It was around letting your true content, like your free content and your paid content, just come from what's inside of you. She was speaking of how she'd struggled to I guess really know what the tangible outcomes ... All right, thank you so much, Hannah. Cool, I'll definitely be there outside of 60 minutes, I'll probably be there like right at 90 minutes before the flight. Traffic is like way heavier than it usually is, usually get there in just over an hour, and looks like it's taking 90 minutes today. Okay, Claire says, "Unlike Marie, Kat, it's hard to know when it's what I'm supposed to push through, versus what is flow."

Right, so to practise, because that's how I used to feel, so if you feel that, and then like I said, like now I catch it immediately if I start to do something from obligation, and I just know it is very rare for me to get stuck on something now to where I feel like I'm not sure what my soul desire is or what intuition is saying, or what the guidance from within would be, but it does happen on occasion, and when that happens, I just keep asking the same question again. I won't take action though, I won't take any action at all until I know that it's coming from flow, I just allow myself to sit in that place of I guess kind of limbo, and to be comfortably uncomfortable with that, and just be like, "I'm not going to move, here I am right here and right now, and so I'm not moving," physically or metaphorically as the case may be, "Until I know what the inner guidance is," like just like, "Nope, not going to do it."

Even something like, sometimes just through the day, I don't know what to do with my time. Yeah, I'm Bali bound. I don't know what to do with my time, so I might feel like, "Oh, should I do a live stream, or should I respond to team emails, or should I have a nap, or get to another [wicker 00:24:19]," or whatever, and even then, I'll literally just do nothing though until I get the answer. If I'm not sure, I'll just kind of stop, like physically stop, usually in the middle of the house or something, be like, "Wait, what is the answer?"

If it's something bigger, like actually, the one thing that I am stuck on right now, maybe I shouldn't use that wording, but that's what's coming out, is do I stay on the Gold Coast with my children, or do I move, do I move to Bali? Because we've been talking about that for a long time, but it doesn't feel quite right, but it doesn't feel quite right to live here either, I don't know. I don't know what the answer is, or it was, "Am I just going to move around the world again all the time?", but then like Gold Coast, Bali, LA, New York, that doesn't feel right either.

That's the one thing where I'm just not getting an answer, so therefore I'm just not taking any actions, I'll just wait until I know the exact aligned action to take, and part of that's caught up to do with schooling and that sort of thing. "Move, but not just yet, is that what you're saying?" Yeah. "Feeling you on the moving stuff, but not ...", Leah, are you tuning in on that for me, or is that just ... Yeah, I think I am going to move, but not yet, I think that feels right. I don't see myself staying here, but I don't quite see myself living somewhere else either, I just have to be in transit.

I'll live in transit, that's roughly how I live already, I'm always on the move. Okay, let me come back to this conversation, right? Yes, thank you Leigh. This client, she was a little stuck on, "How do I package up my message and my offering?" You might have felt that way, like, "What are the tangible outcomes that people get from working with me?" There is no fucking way I'm moving back to Melbourne, I'm sorry, that's a hard no, that's something I am certain about. Even though my family is in Melbourne, my parents and two of my siblings are in Melbourne, but my sister is now on the Gold Coast, just to confuse matters.

Right before I'm like, "I think I'm going to leave the Gold Coast," she just moves to the Gold Coast, I'm like, "Okay, now it's even more confusing." Okay, I'm going to stop going off on a tangent, maybe. You might have felt like, a lot of people feel like, "I don't know how to package up my offer, I don't know what the kind of tangible thing is that I'm offering or selling here, and so therefore, how can I market myself effectively if I'm just saying that ti's about transformation or whatever?" I said to her, "Well actually, what this means is that it's about the feelings then, rather than what are the so-called tangible outcomes, it's about what are the feelings, what is it that people would feel from working with you?"

Then the best way to look at that or to figure that out is, "Well, what do you feel from the work that you've done inside of yourself, what do you feel in what's coming through you?" She started to talk about, and I said like how she used to feel before she created the flow that she now has in her life, and how she feels now, so talking about those emotions before and after. It's like, "Well, that's the outcomes then, those are the outcomes that people get from working with you, and how you would share that with them or how you would market that with them is you literally just say what's inside of you." She said something to me at the end of our call like, "I guess this is now going to be hard or difficult to figure out what I need to do or how to bring this to life," or something like that.

I said, "Well no, it's actually really not going to be hard, because you're literally just going to speak in your own language that's already inside of you, like this is the whole thing that's already in you, it's everything that you think and feel all day every day anyhow, it's just that now you're going to share it with other people, so there's nothing to add to that, there's nothing additional that needs to go into that. It's 100% just what are you thinking, what are you feeling." Then I think she said to me something that I say all the time, like, "Oh, you literally just open your mouth, and whatever comes out comes out," I'm like, "Right." I said to her like, "Let's be real, you could present an entire week-long course on your own content right now on all this inner stuff and transformation stuff with zero preparation, because it's already in you, you could talk about it all day every day."

For each of us, this is true. Like if you think about what is the conversation that you could talk about all day every day and you would never run out of things to say, then that is the stuff that you should be sharing with the world, whether it's in your free content, or whether it's in your paid content. If it feels any more complicated than literally just opening your mouth and letting whatever's inside of you come out, then I can guarantee you for sure that you're not standing firm in your purpose work right now, you're not doing the true work that you were meant to be doing in the world, because it should be that easy, there should never be anything that you need to think about, it should literally just be, "I open my mouth and stuff comes out."

Exactly like what I've done here, so much so that already five minutes into the conversation with you, I'd forgotten what the title even was of the live stream and I had to get somebody to put it in for me, because I'm not sitting here going, "Oh, let me refer back to my title and make sure that I cover that." I am now covering it, because that's what feels good to do, but many times I'll do a live stream and I won't remotely cover what I said I was going to cover on the title, it just goes any freaking place, and those are often the best ones. They are the best ones, in fact. The best ones are always the ones, the best live stream, blog post, conversation with a client, presentation maybe even that you give at an event, or you know as a speaker or something like that if you do that, or at your own events, the best stuff is always when you don't think.

The less thinking the better, it's very much an overrated concept, thinking. Kathleen says, "Awesome info," thank you. Maybe I'm already getting into that Bali super-flow, and I'm not even in Bali yet. I'm already accessing it. Yeah, so not thinking, like when you would go to lunch with a friend or you'd go to dinner with a group of people who you used to be close to, or like when I'm walking on the beach with my two friends Ben and Steve the other day, I'm not thinking about what I should say. You're not thinking about how you should communicate or have a conversation, you're just letting it come out. You're not there going, "Oh my goodness, let me make sure that I have some good material that I'm going to share with my friends, so that they want to keep coming back, like how do I sell my friends on continuing to be friends with me? I've got to make sure that I come up with some really good concepts for today's conversation."

Or if it's a new friendship, or maybe like somebody that you're wanting to build a friendship or a relationship with, I hope you're not or I think that you're not usually going into that feeling like you need to prepare a bullet-pointed list of talking points. You just be yourself, and whatever comes out comes out, and we all know that that's how the best real life relationships are built, "bought", oh my God, built and carried on, but yet in business, people seem to think that they've got to prepare something, or that they've got to be coming from a script and there's got to be these talking points, otherwise people might not want to follow or buy or listen, and it's kind of crazy if you make that comparison or use that analogy.

Nat, you're so welcome, Kathleen says, "You're working with the subconscious mind and intuition, so much better than being analytical." I am, I'm just letting it all come from intrusion and from flow and from soul, and that's what I suggest and recommend. Maybe it's not for everybody, but it's certainly for everybody in my tribe, and it's certainly how I mentor and support my clients and my inner circle. Like my role, if you were to work with me at that level, that's what's in the pinned comment about that, is to help you access yourself more deeply. My role is not to tell you, "Here's a dot point list of ways to make money online or market yourself online, here's what I did, so you should do it like me."

I will show you what I did, I'll give you access to everything that I do and to my team as well, and they'll help you with all the things that they do, but really what I'm doing, you know that's just because of course I'm going to show that stuff, but I'm certainly not ever suggesting that a client should follow the way that I did it. Really, my role as a mentor is to help you to access deeper levels of your own soul flow and your own inner guidance, and then to come from that place. With your messaging, with your content, and this is true as I was saying to my client, whether it's free content or paid content, it is you just open your mouth, and whatever comes out comes out, that's the true goal.

That comes back to what we were talking about earlier, which is trust. What if you trusted that you could just open your mouth, and whatever came out would be gold? Mostly, people wouldn't trust in that concept, they would feel that that's a terrifying idea, or that it wouldn't be good enough. Then really what they're saying is, "If I'm just being myself and I don't try and trick it up or fancy it up, then I'm not good enough, and then people wouldn't like me, or they wouldn't buy from me, or they wouldn't follow me online, I wouldn't be cool, I wouldn't be successful," et cetera et cetera. Is that really a belief system that you desire to go through life with, and is it actually what you believe on a deeper, deeper level?

Because here's what I think is true about self worth stuff: we have all these layers and all these levels, so it's kind of like now, some people here might be coming from a place of not trusting themselves, not believing in themselves, not feeling like they could literally just wake up, do whatever they want all day, and that that would result in good outcomes, or that they could just wake up, completely be themselves, open their mouth and see what comes out, and that that would result in value. A lot of people wouldn't feel that way, they'd feel like that's a scary concept and that they couldn't trust in it.

But if you are in that place of questioning your own natural value and worth, then let me suggest to you that you just drop down a little deeper, like put that story aside momentarily, put your own emotions aside and drop down a little deeper. What's beneath that, what comes beneath that? Is it or is it not true that if you really go into your core and really go into who you are on a soul level, that actually you fucking know how good you are, and you know that you're [inaudible 00:34:12], and you know that you have powerful work to share into the world, and you know that what's in your heart is of value, and you know that you just being you is going to impact people.

Send me love heart shower if you know this, or send me some 1% stickers or press play stickers on the emoji thing if you know this, because I think that you know this on a core level. I think that deep, deep, deep down you know this. I think that on the surface, you might be running around with a self worth story going on that's holding you back from being fully you, or you feel like you can't trust in yourself, or you feel like you've got to have all these rules and guidelines, or you feel like you've got to fancy yourself up in order to be loved and accepted basically, but deeper than that, you don't believe that.

Therefore, you're not living in alignment with yourself if you're allowing that fear stuff to rule you. You're creating your business, and indeed your life and probably most of your relationships from the fear mind, rather than from faith and from trust. I see all these love heart showers coming through, so I know I'm right, and I know I'm right anyway, because I trust in myself. Julie says, "Yes, I feel that deeply," Kristine says, "Yes, of course." I remember one time, one of my inner circle clients was really freaking out, I think it was in our first month working together, and she was really freaking out about just feeling anxious or worried about, "What if I don't get to where I want to go, and how do I keep going in this phase of building my business and keeping my head above water when I'm just kind of getting started with that?"

I remember saying to her, "Well, there's only two things you need to know here. Number one, big picture, do you believe in yourself and do you know that you're going to make it?" Like just put aside all the drama, put aside all the bullshit, yes yes, Mabel, put everything aside, let's just go big picture, do you believe, do you have faith in yourself? I know it might be shaky, but do you have that faith? She said yes, and if you can't answer yes to that, keep fucking asking that question and dropping down to who you are at your core until you can answer yes.

There's no point in taking any action if you don't have faith that you're going to make it. You might as well focus on the faith thing first. It is there for 100% of people if you go really into who you are, because you were born knowing this stuff. Nobody on the face of the Earth is born to not be able to create their soul's desires, that's available, whether or not they do it is another matter entirely, but the belief is there. We are faith-based creations. Thank you, Marta. All right, so that's the first question, big picture, do you believe?

If you can't answer yes to that, just fucking focus on that question until you can, and choose and decide to have faith, because it's a choice. Then the second question, the only other thing is, "Well, can you get through today, can you do what you need to do today, can you take action today, can you survive today?" Yes, of course you can. Then that's all that matters. All that matters is, "Do I ultimately believe, and can I live my life today?", and then go and live your life today as best as you can from alignment. But when you're consciously or not consciously living your life from a place of fear and reactivity, and trying to do the right thing in order to get a result, and hoping that people will buy your stuff, or respond to your marketing online, or like you as a person, that is motherfucking exhausting, firstly, as we spoke about and as I was speaking about with my client.

That's very tiring, it is certainly a way to get some kind of result, but I would think that that's not the real result for any of us. What none of us desire is to have millions of dollars or millions of followers and an exhausted, depleted life that's not in alignment and it's all built on a house of cards anyhow, because it was based on not being who you really are. That's like starting a romantic relationship based on, like I don't know, a bunch of 10-year-old photos on a dating app that are not true and real. Well, it wouldn't really go anywhere anyway, or you know like people definitely build relationships in real life where they kind of pretend to be somebody who they're not, they hide who they really are because they're scared of rejection if they would show who they really are.

That's very exhausting, and it's not sustainable, it's really not. It could be sustained, but at what cost? At the cost of your happiness, at the cost of your life, basically. Same thing with business, it's one way to get results, it's possible to get so-called results by being somebody you're not, continually putting a mask on, coming from fear, push push pushing yourself to "do the work", and yeah, creating your entire life based on fear. That's not what I would call success, it's not real results. It's not sustainable, I believe, for so many reasons, largely because if you're like me, then at some point you're going to end up losing your shit at yourself and just cracking and walking away from the entire fucking thing, because you actually know deep down that it can be flow and ease, and/or you'll end up in sabotage or emotional wreck and ruin because you just can't live that way.

You just can't live that way, you'll end up lashing out at yourself, your business, your partner, whoever's around. Basically, that pressure has to go somewhere. Then the other way is the way that I now choose to live and the way that I teach my clients and the way we're talking about today, which is faith-based living, so faith versus fear. Faith says, well, faith is belief, "What if I believed, what if I trusted and fully believed that I was going to be safe?", financially, emotionally, spiritually, et cetera, "And that I would make good decisions, and that I would move forward correctly on my aligned path, and that everything would work out as it's meant to if I followed what's inside of me."

That's what faith means to me, or that's partly what faith means to me. I'm sure I would say different things each time I speak about it. Then coming from that place, the only thing that I need to know as far as what action to take, and this is true for everybody here, whether or not you want to live by it is up to you, is, "Well, what is my soul suggesting I do?" As far as content, what is coming out of you? Well, this is what's coming out of me right now, later on when I'm sitting at the airport, if I have time I'll write a blog post, and we'll see what comes out. Maybe when I get on the plane, I'll write up a new offer and we'll see what comes out.

I have no idea, I'm literally fucking winging it moment by moment, I'm winging 100% of my business right now, and 100% of my life, in all areas. I have very few things in any area that are kind of like a plan or locked in, or obviously there might be something on the schedule, like that's an appointment or a plan in that regard, but even then it's just an intention. Like if I say yes to an appointment, like let's say being on a podcast or travelling to speak at an event, or going to another country, or meeting up with somebody or whatever, then I'm saying yes because it's aligned in that moment to say yes, that feels right for me, but definitely make no mistake, if it came to that point and then it didn't feel aligned, I would not follow through.

I'd be like, "No, I changed my mind," however I would say it. That's the level, like that's the extent to which my planning goes. Even like a trip, like even the other day, I think the day [inaudible 00:41:22], I was like, "Do I actually really want to go to Bali? I don't have to go, like I would lose money or whatever if I didn't go, but I don't have to go. I'll go if it feels aligned to go." Here I am, it's obviously aligned. There's so much for you to think about, I'd be curious to know what's a big takeaway or aha for you that's coming up from this conversation. Type it into the comments, because I do love to come back and read my comments, I think I'm now 10 minutes away from the airport, or just under, so I'm going to wrap up in just a moment, but do let me know what's coming through for you.

I guess, my question to you would be, how can you look at applying whatever your big takeaway from this is to your business, and maybe to other areas of your life as well? What if you just trusted, what if you acted from faith, what if you dropped the story that you're not going to make good decisions, what if you started to lock in beliefs and fundamental underlying beliefs that I always make the right decision, everything always works out perfectly for me, I fully trust in myself. Or one of the things I love to say a lot, is when I say yes to my soul, life says yes to me, when I follow what my soul directs me to do, not just when it's fun and really cool and exciting, but also when it's uncomfortable when I step into that place, when I follow what's coming through, whether it's easy and feels fun, or whether it feels uncomfortable and scary, then I always am on my correct aligned pathway.

I said to my client earlier like, "You literally never have to worry again if you just follow soul desire and what soul guidance is, you never ever have to worry again, because that is how you create the path that you are supposed to be on. Stop sitting here trying to look ahead and figure out what the path is, and figure out how you're going to get there, and how you're going to take action to be on that path or stay on that path, and oh my God, what if I accidentally fall off the fucking path, how do I get back on? Oh my goodness, just follow what's inside of you, that's how you'll create the path. You don't need to know everything that's ahead of you as well, by the way.

"Like yes, you can do visioning work and that's a powerful way to manifest, but there's nothing wrong or bad if you can't see where you're going to be 10 years from now or five years from now or whatever, just be here now. This is the only time that exists anyway, so if you're so focused on where you think you're supposed to be in the future, then you're forgetting that life is now, and the only moment that exists is now, and you're actually denying yourself fulfilment and happiness and peace and all the things that you're trying to get to, which you could have now if you allowed yourself to be here now."

This is why I was saying to my friends on the weekend like, "I'm there, like I've got everything I need, what else do I need? I'm completely content and happy and done, and at the same time, there's so much more that I'll create." All right, I'm going to leave you there. The inner circle is now open, it is the highest level one on one mentoring with me. You get 100% unlimited access to me, it is such an incredible place. It's obviously not for everyone, because it's private client work. There's a significant investment around that, and it's also not for everyone because there's like tens of thousands of people who follow me online, and they can't all be in the inner circle.

It's for that person who knows already that I'm the mentor for them, that's definitely it, and that could be you, whether or not you've followed me for years, or whether you're just coming along, you know I've had people jump into the inner circle in several cases, quite a few cases, within several weeks of meeting me or hearing about me at all, and other times people who have been following me for years. It's just a calling and annoying in your heart, it's a soul thing. What it would be about is having me there by your side day to day to get you into a continual alignment and massive fucking action around creating the business and the life that you desire.

It is certainly not just a conversation around business, we talk all things in the inner circle. Everything connects to everything, and we just continually go into what you need in order to be in your flow state, in order to access your soul guidance and highest levels of intuition and personal power, and in order to create everything that's coming through and that's inside of you. The conversation is equally mixed with business and money stuff, with relationship and sex stuff, with fitness and health stuff, location free and travel stuff for those who are doing that, parenting stuff as well, it's all just a glorious blend. The conversations that go on in the Facebook group for the inner circle are phenomenal, it's such a cool place and space.

The powerful stuff that comes up when we do meet in person, and our next in-person meeting is in July in LA, that is just, that's like the most next level thing I've ever created in my life, it continually just awes me and humbles me. Then of course the conversation that I have one on one with you is a pretty much day to day thing, actually just continual audios, messages, whatever you need. It's like any relationship, there's a continual flow of conversation as and when it's coming through us and when it's needed. There's a really cool bunch of cool stuff that you get obviously being in the inner circle, so you have that one on one mentoring with me at the highest level, me there by your side, you know we spend time together in person whenever we can.

Like if I'm where you happen to be, then of course we would meet up and hang out. One of my inner circle clients ended up sharing my bed for the night in Del Mar several weeks ago, just because she couldn't get a room in a hotel that night. It's a real genuine relationship that builds, and I wouldn't want it any other way. I don't take people into the inner circle unless they feel that we would become soulmate friends and fall in love in that friendship/client way. It's really just mixed together. Then yeah, you get everything else obviously, I don't think I need to say, like obviously any other programmes, courses I'm creating, events, et cetera, it's all included.

I'd love to speak with you if the inner circle is speaking to you, and the best way to do that would be just send me a message, do that on my personal Katrina Ruth page ideally, rather than here on the business one. You can do it either, I'll get it both ways, but I more so prefer to interact on the personal one, and I'll send you through a full overview, as well as the short live stream that I've done where I talk about the true work that I do with my clients, and we can talk cost details and so on and so forth. If it's for you, amazing, we'll get in right away or very quickly, and if not, then that's totally fine as well.

All right, go drop into faith today, what would faith look like? Leave me a comment, leave me a love or share if you feel that this is something that would help other people. I am so so happy always to get to speak with you, and I will see you in Bali. I might drop a blog post before I drop on the plane, who knows. Don't forget, life is now, press play.

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Hi. Hmm. Hello. Okay. Sometimes I get really shy. What do you mean you accidentally clicked on it? It was divined. It's not possible that you clicked on it accidentally. Why, why, is my wifi choosing right now to freeze? What's happening? Reset. Oh my God. Hello, Tamara. Georgine, this jacket is so old. This is like my old faithful. But thank you. I love it. Hi, Tamara. This is like the other side of my studio, you guys. I'm here in my studio. My throne is right there. I nearly just picked up the laptop, and I was like, "Look, there it is." Okay, wait. Hold your horses. Or your wine. Or whatever else do you have. What do you have?

Leah, I must admit that when you commented on my post about the ribs, and you said that's awesome, I was like I don't get it. Where's the pun? What's the catch? I don't get it. And I was like, "I think she's being serious." I don't know if I've ever seen it before. Not on a normal Facebook post. I had to read it three times. And then I was just honestly so thrown that I couldn't reply. Mermaid cushions. Are they? These are some pretty cool cushions. I'm gonna share this over ...

Looks good, doesn't it? This is my backup set. You were fucking hungry. I was devastated. Devastated. I was in shock. I thought ... 100% I was like, he's joking. So, for those who missed it, I went to my favourite steak and ribs place for dinner tonight, where I go like, maybe four times a week. I really like ribs. And I know the restaurant manager there, Matt, extremely well. Of course. Because I go there so often.

And he was like, "Oh, have you seen our new menu?" And I'm like, "No, whatever. I don't need the menu. I have the same ribs every time I go there." He's like, "No, we don't have ribs on the menu anymore." And I'm like, "Oh, ha-ha." He's like, "No, no. We really took them off." I'm like, "No you didn't. You're just joking." And he's like, "No, no. We took them off. It's minimum four." And then sometimes I might order them up as well. They don't even deliver up, except for me. Obviously. Anyway. I manifested the fucking ribs. Obviously. Obviously. Where am I? I'm in my house.

Here I am in my house. Welcome to the show. Okay. I'm in my gangster outfit. Which just means like shiny black all over. With a wild top on. It says wild. Except I have my fluffy pink slippers on, because it matches the painting. By the way, how talented is my sister-in-law, Rachel? She's an artist, and I commissioned this piece behind me. She made it for me. I don't think I've ever shown it before, because I kind of got the painting delivered, and then I just took off, travelling. As I do. There's another one just over there in the corner. It's leaning up against the wall. You can't see it properly.

No, well then what happened with the ribs ... I'll show you the rest of the room in a moment, because you're in a different side of the studio. Yeah, but I've got a top on under it. What's the problem? So, what happened with the ribs was, he's like there's no ribs and no steak. They're pink slippers, Jason. Pink slippers. Matches my pink hair tie. Yeah. I thought he was joking. It's like, it's a steak and ribs place. That's what it is. You can't even make this shit up. When the hell does a steak and ribs place take steak and ribs off the menu? The ribs and the steak, they took off the menu.

So, obviously I'm laughing at it, because I go there all the time. And it's a steak and ribs place. He's like, "No, no. We're trying burgers and pizzas." I'm like, "Yeah, good one." He's like, "No, really." So, then I start looking around at people's tables. I'm like ... because I knew for sure he was just trying to mess with me. Because we always have a good chat. We're good friends. So, I'm like, "He's just messing with me." I'm looking at people's tables to find the ribs, and I'm like, "I don't see any ribs." He's like, "No, no. I'm serious." I was in horror. I was just in a state of being frozen in horror. What's the word for that? There must be a word for it.

I was in a shock state. Tremors were coming upon me, largely because I thought I was gonna cry, because I wanted ribs. And anyhow, long story short, I already wrote it on my personal Facebook. Ribs were delivered to me. He went and got them for me. Form another restaurant, and brought them there. All right, and here we are. So, that's roughly the whole story. I'm really not remotely in the mood to talk about anything much at all, so I feel like it's gonna be one of those live streams which is gonna be just very interesting. Having a day of being fucked with by the shenanigans crew.

Leah, I said to Alyssa afterwards, it must be topsy turvy day. And then she was like, "What's topsy turvy day?" And I'm just thinking, "Who raised you, girl?" What kind of child doesn't know what topsy turvy day is? And then I'm like, "Well, maybe I never told her." Because all this random shit just kept happening. Everything weird kept happening. So, then we make it through dinner somehow. I got my food, but the children's burgers that they always normally order had been changed into sesame seed coated burgers. Like kids burgers with sesame seeds on top. Has anybody ever heard of such a ridiculous idea?

So, of course both of my little precious offspring, who are reared in a manner in which they have come to expect that whatever they desire will be delivered to them, forthwith, and it is. They were not impressed, shall we say. At the sesame seed topped burgers. In fact, it's fair to say they were appalled. If my father was there, he would've said, "Bernard." And I would've said ... Nevermind. It would've descended. Only very few people have got that joke. Maybe Leah. But anyway. We would've both agreed that we're appalled. He would've said, "How do you feel about it?" And I would've said, "I'm appalled." And I would've said, "Well, how do you feel?" And he would've said, "Well, I'm appalled." And we both would've said, "I'm appalled." Anyhow. If you can name the show, I'll be very impressed that I'm not the only one who watches weird stuff.

So, that happened, and the sesame seed burgers were not a hit. Nobody ate them. By the time we got to the end of the dinner, and we discovered that they don't ... Okay. The one with the minister. The minister. The one with the minister, the British show with the minister. Now I don't remember the name of it. There's definitely a minister involved and then his off, right hand guy is called Bernard. And there's just this ... Surely if you watched Faulty Towers, you watched the one ... Minister. Sometimes with a minister. I don't know. Somebody knows. Tell me the show.

There were books as well. Get your wine. It's all gonna go haywire momentarily. It's just very funny when my dad says it. And then both of us go back and forth. Yes, Minister. Exactly. Yes, Minister. Right. So, then dad and I ... It's nothing to do with [Bernicky 00:08:23]. Dad and I would just go back and forth, back and forth, agreeing that we're both appalled, and we just think we're hilarious. That's really the whole story. That's all you need to know. But by the time we got to the end of the dinner, even my eight year old daughter, she says ... Oh, that's right. Because they had no chocolate ice cream. They've changed the children's ice cream menu, to no chocolate. They've got strawberry, but it's like some sort of woo-woo strawberry, and, wait for it ... Hazelnut. On a children's dessert menu. These are your two options. Weird woo-woo strawberry, which can't even possibly be explained, even if you asked me to, and hazelnut.

So, Alyssa says, "The only thing I can possibly consume at this restaurant from here on out is the water." She's eight years old. I was like, I'm dying, I'm laughing. And then we went to the grocery store and more weird shit happened, and basically I said it was topsy turvy day, and she didn't know what it meant. And then it was just ... I couldn't even, even, with the whole world. I had to go home and put the children to bed, and now her I am. So, check it out, because I'm gonna talk about the burn, and the pain, and I don't even really feel like it, but it's just the title that came to me when I was in the toilet.

There's my throne, so now you know where you are in time and space. Do you see where you are? That's where I usually am over there. There's all your fancy lights, there's one big fancy light up there. There's another one, and there's a ring light there. I'm live streaming without a fancy light on me. Who would've thought? I just felt like sitting on the couch. I felt like everybody's seen enough of the throne. Driven by the burn. Okay. Where are we gonna go with this conversation? I was thinking about various forms of pain today. I was triggered today. It happens to me from time to time, and I always flip it straight into gratitude as soon as I get triggered by something, or I feel uncomfortable by something.

Well, firstly I might have a little hissy fit, or crack it, or get upset, or whatever the trigger is. It's not usually very, you know, emotive in a big way. Not a huge reaction. But there'll be some sort of little blip, right? You know, maybe you see something online, or you see something out in the real world, whatever that is. Or something occurs to you, or maybe you say something, that's kind of like, "Why did I say that? Now I sound like an idiot", or now I look like an idiot, or maybe they now think that I meant this, and actually I meant this, and maybe they're analysing it, and maybe they don't give a fuck about you because they're pretty obsessed with themselves.

But anyway, these are the thoughts that the mind does. And then you just feel that like, ugh. And I don't know about you, but sometimes when I get that feeling, I then can't remember why I have the feeling, right? So, then you know when you carry around this weird feeling of like, I know that I'm triggered and I know that I'm upset about something, but I'm now not sure what it is, so I'm walking around feeling kind of naked and exposed. But I don't know if I have valid reason for it or not, and I wish I could fucking remember why I'm upset or why I'm triggered. I just know that there's a reason that this feeling's here and I've gotta shift it.

That might be just me. But I'd be curious to know. But anyhow, today I had a little trigger. It was like a little ... That's what happens. Energetically. You're just going about your day, you're cruising along, you're writing a blog, or you're doing your thing, you're walking down the street listening to client audios, whatever it is that you're doing. And sometimes happens, and it's just this kind of, uh. And all of a sudden, you feel like you're not on path anymore. You were merrily swimming in a sea of abundance and alignment, or seeking to as the case may be, and now you suddenly feel like somebody just grabbed you by the shoulder and pulled you off, you've kind of got this tug going on, and it's like, ugh. It's annoying, right?

So, then if you lean into the trigger though, it might get more annoying, and it might get upsetting. It might cause you to feel inferior, not good enough, same thing really. Frustrated, annoyed, disheartened, sad, et cetera, or worried, or whatever it is. I used to try and avoid those things. Or I used to get super reactive, in the sense that ... Okay. I feel like I've forgotten how to swallow. Something's happening inside of me. I'm sure I'll be able to manage it. Fear not. I used to get super reactive when I would get triggered. Like I would get reactive in the sense that I would probably retaliate to the trigger, which was not always necessarily the most useful thing, particularly because typically, or often anyway, frequently, the person who's triggered you has no fucking clue, because it's just some random post that they put on Facebook.

So, then I would retaliate though, via response, text, of minimum 2000 words. I don't mean private text message, I mean post on Facebook, right? You know when you do a Facebook post, you're just hoping that one person will see it, or some people will see, right? I used to do that. I would do a rant, or kind of a defensive post, or kind of a let me make my point sort of post. That is actually a really good way to avoid letting a trigger work on you. And letting it serve the lesson that it came along to serve. And all of these things come along to serve as a lesson, right? So, if we don't gain the lesson from it, or if we don't get the growth work that we're meant to get from it, then what can happen is we just ... or what typically does happen is we just keep on getting the same lesson again, and again.

It just keeps getting served back to us. Okay, I feel like nobody's talking to me. I feel like I'm being insanely boring. I'm now getting triggered by the fact that I'm pretty sure I'm being really boring, and I don't know what's happening. I feel like I've never live streamed before, or I've forgotten how to live stream. Do you think it's because I'm on the couch and not on my throne? But I really like to sit up here. I think it looks fancy. Am I being boring right now? Tell me something you want me to talk about, because I feel like I've lost my way completely.

I'm getting really squirmy inside of myself, and I'm getting kind of like ... Yeah, super self conscious. I just feel like I wanna dance and sing, and have some people around for a drink. But that'll be, maybe tomorrow night. Meanwhile, literally nobody's even commenting. However, the numbers are somehow weirdly going up slightly. So, I feel like you've all banded together and you're just refusing to talk to me on purpose, but you've got some kind of conversation thread going on behind the scenes on fucking telegram, or telegraph, or telepole, or whatever that app is that everybody's using without me.

Okay, no. The comments are all over here. My communication chakra might be out of whack. Okay, there was no comments on the phone. All right, I'm clearly just a bundle of insecure nerves, because as soon as I don't get a comment for like 10 and a half seconds, on my phone, I'm like, "Everybody hates me." But they're all over here on the laptop. Okay. Thank you. It's only 12:12 here as well, Jamie. Except not really, it's 9:12. All right. You're captivated. Georgina says, "Everybody's captivated", and Addison says, "Everybody's enthralled." Carla says is my communication out of whack. I don't know, where is the communication chakra? I know where the heart one is, I know where the self expression one is. Where is the communication one?

I know where the sexual one is. I'm all over that shit. Burn. Okay. You guys are helping me out. Thank you. I just didn't know the comments were coming over here. What's with that Facebook? It's trying to screw with me. What was I talking about? I feel revived. I feel like I've had an injection of self love and confidence, and enthusiasm. Maybe the injection of love came from you guys and not from me. Maybe I'm getting validated right now, and I need to address my own self love shit again. Instead of allowing myself to be validated. Oh, even the wine at the restaurant had changed to terrible wine.

I normally get the grated pepper jack [Chiraz 00:16:32]. It's $25 for a glass, and it's amazing. And they pour a big glass, so $25 is pretty reasonable for an oversized glass of wine. But it's not cheap for a glass of wine. They didn't have a single glass of wine that was over eight dollars 50. I was honestly like ... where's the kind of better wine? I find it very scary, and I said this to the guy, who like I said I know. The one who went and got me my ribs from a different restaurant and brought them to me at the restaurant. I said, "I find these prices a little scary, Matt. They're a little scary cheap. What's happening? Where's the good wine gone?" He's going, "I know." The owner's just changed everything. They're trying to cater to a cheaper crowd.

So, I couldn't even drink any wine at the restaurant. I had half a glass. So, now I'm just having some ... Of course, I only drink fucking Solo wine's Prophetic Wine. So, I'm having Witches Falls. I mean, ti's the best title ever for a bottle of wine, isn't it? Witches Falls Prophecy. I drink the [inaudible 00:17:36] as well. Isn't it much more fun when I'm not talking about the topic? Okay, let's get back to the topic though. How did I put the banner on the live stream? [German 00:17:44], no idea at all. [German 00:17:46]. We switch to German when we feel like it.

[German 00:17:52]. Somebody did it for me. I don't know. But something to do with Facebook Creative. You could Google it, I imagine. So, anyway. It's so nice to wine. I know, I know, you cannot buy a glass of wine for eight dollars 50 in a restaurant, Jason. It's upsetting, it's unbecoming to the wine, and it's probably unbecoming to your own self if you would drink the wine, because it's gonna be full of shit for that price. It's just, the whole situation was just upsetting to behold. So, the triggers, okay. I feel revived. I feel a little concerned that I got validated by comments in a really big way, when I should only be validating my own self, so we'll work on that later. We'll work on it later. We'll work on it later. We'll work on it later. We'll work on it later. We'll work on it later. I'll give you some affirmations. Love thyself.

That's probably [inaudible 00:18:45]. And actually I do. Yay me. And we already talked about that earlier today. I did the self pleasure blog. It wasn't really about self pleasure, but I was certainly thinking about self pleasure, and it was about self pleasure. The whole thing was about pleasure. Depends whether you mean masturbation or not, when you're talking about self pleasure. But that was definitely part of it, and it was involved. So, the trigger thing. If you don't ...

Okay. If you don't learn the lesson ... Just making sure everything's in order because I'm getting overheated. If you don't learn the lessons that you need to learn ... All right. Now I'm clashing with the painting. I don't match the painting at all. This is gonna have to stay on. This is why I can't sit in front of this painting normally. My art clashes with the other art. If I would turn my back to you, I feel like what's on my back would totally go with that art. No. Nope. Okay. I don't know what country you're drinking you're wine in, but you cannot go around having a glass of wine for eight dollars 50 at a restaurant in Australia. It's not acceptable.

If you're in a different country, I'll give you permission to have something for eight dollars 50, depending on where you are. Because sometimes wine here is expensive, right? So, if you see a glass of wine for eight dollars 50, that is a cheap ass, dodgy ass wine that you don't wanna drink, that's for sure. It's upsetting to see that price on a menu. Okay. If you don't learn the lesson from the fucking trigger, it's going to keep coming back at you, right? So, to ...

Okay, I was frozen in a most unflattering position just now on my own phone screen. So, it was just a little bloop of a trigger. Exactly it made that noise, as I was walking about doing my business. Which was largely that I wanted to sit in the sun. That was roughly the entire business for the moment in time. And I thought to myself, "Ah, don't even need to think about that. Whatever, put it aside." And I did, for a moment or for several hours, or whatever. And then it just presented itself merrily back to me. Via reappearing in my Facebook feed, like a mother fucker. Just so that I could be reminded again of the trigger, and this time it was like, ugh. Exactly like that, like an annoying fly on your shoulder.

And you're just like, "Brush it away, brush it away, brush it away. I don't need to know about this shit. You can mosey on along to another feed, not my feed." But then, then, then, I went and did some inner stuff, [meditationy 00:21:13] sort of zen situation that I had myself in, in the afternoon. You don't need to know all the details, and then from there, something occurred to me, which I found simultaneously fascinating and infuriating. Fascinated and infuriating. Which was that perhaps this trigger had been given to me for the opportunity of growth, which is always the case, actually. I think you'll find. I don't really care for the fact that these comments are not coming up here.

Trigger sound bites. Exactly right. The lessons will keep coming back until you learn them. I'm just ignoring the comments about my top. It's not like I was showing anything anyway. God knows I've shown a fuckload more than that on my own streams before. Largely by accident. All right. Check out my black and gold cushion. How do you like my styling of my own couch? I styled this couch myself. I styled myself with my black shiny leggings, and my wild top. I won't flash it to you again since you're all getting so concerned about it. And I styled this black and gold cushion to match that, and then I brought this pinky cushion in to match it. Now here we are.

So, all your lessons will keep on coming back until you figure them the fuck out. If you don't shift and learn from what you were supposed to, from each lesson or trigger that presents itself to you, then it's just gonna be like a persistent child in a candy store, just tugging on your leg, except in a much more annoying way and impacting you, potentially in your ability to make money. Something's beeping. Let's ignore it. Potentially in your ability to make money, or receive in other areas, or whatever it is. So, as I went into my zen meditation period within my day, it occurred to me, what if I was grateful for the trigger? Hmm?

How do you feel about that? What was the most recent thing you were triggered by? Do you wanna tell me? Put it in the comments. Let's hear. What was the most recent thing where you were like ... Or maybe you were like fuck you. Or maybe you were like ... it really deflated you and it made you feel sad. That's okay. You can own it. We all been there. We've all been there. Share your triggers. So, this thing was just kind of uncomfortable and annoying, but I wouldn't say it was majorly triggering me, but it felt a bit ... It felt like it was throwing me a little bit. You know where you get thrown and you're kinda like, I was on my path, I was completely doing my thing, and just like la, la, la, happy. And now I feel like hmm. Hmm, do I need to think about that? No, I don't want to because it's annoying, so I'll put it aside, but then Facebook just brings it back to you on your news feed, helpfully.

And then you go and you try and do your inner shit, and your meditation shit, and your zen shit, and you're like ahhh, and then it's like knocking on the door inside of your head. And so, it occurred to me that I could be grateful. I do indeed know ... Jamie says her most recent trigger was somebody's face. I love it. Jason says, "WB." I've got no idea what that means. Georgina says, "I think you know." I think I do. I've got to admit though, Jamie, I'm frequently triggered by people just from them existing, and frequently inside of my head I feel like saying something to somebody. Like, can you please just not exist near me? And that's 100% my own shit, for sure.

Because I do it to random people who did nothing at all. They didn't even bump into me, they did nothing. They were just existing in their own time and space, like being a perfectly lovely, wonderful person, quite likely. Or maybe a complete asshole, but how would I know? They were not doing anything to me, and I'm just like, "Stop existing near me." Is how I feel about the matter.

I suppose it's typically when I'm having one of those days, or afternoons where I shouldn't be seen around people, and I should hide myself from the world. Or something like that. Jamie was triggered by somebody's face in their email. That's awesome. Just look at you with your face, right there in the email. So, mine was may be somewhat similar to that. I was definitely triggered by a person for just being a person, and I was like, "I'm sure you're a perfectly lovely person, but I just don't care for your personness right now." And then you see your own ridiculousness, and you're like, "Just put it aside, just centre yourself and be a fucking adult, or a professional, or whoever you're supposed to be imagining that you're being for the day." And then it just keeps coming back and you're like grrr.

So, anyway, I decided to flip it into gratitude. And it was actually a real thing, right? It wasn't like I'm going to try and flip this into gratitude, or let me find a way to be grateful for this discomfort. Was I grateful for the person? Maybe. Yes, no I think I was. It was genuine gratitude that came along to me. It was kind of like, ahhh. It was an Unagi moment, for sure. Like, Unagi. Right? It was a moment of realisation and recognition, like ooh, this is good. And do you know why I realised it was good? Because of the burn. Hence the title of this live stream. Let's say it all together. Burn. Okay. Lately my voice has been doing weird things. Two days ago it broke, like a teenage boy. My voice just broke, mid live stream. It was pretty embarrassing. And now I don't know what that was. It sounded like a small piglet grunting.

Okay. People copying me, says Julie. That's a definite trigger alert. Trigger alert. In fact, even today when this happened, I may or may not have audioed my friend saying, "Trigger alert." And then I felt like an idiot. Spicy salmon roll. Exactly. Unagi. I thought it was salmon skin roll. Hmm. We gotta watch some Yes Minister, and some Friends. It's obvious. Yes. Okay. Got it. On the friends and the fuckwits.

So, I just 100% did flip into gratitude, and the reason for the gratitude was that I realised how good the discomfort was. It actually reminded me in that moment of the feeling, or kind of the philosophy that I have around the days when I do like six to eight hour day getting tattoo work done on me, and often it's about six hours, but the longest I've done I think is nine. So, let's say somewhere between six and eight hour sessions, where we'll have like a five minute fucking break, two or three times throughout, and that's it really.

And it reminded me of that, because the way that I've worked to get through that, and even to open up and embrace it, not just get through it, has been by opening myself up to the pain, right? Like I think the first time that I did ... I mean, I had like two little tattoos. One from 20 years ago, when I was 18, and one from about 11 years ago. But they were tiny. So, then when I started doing all the big work that I've now got all over my upper body, the first one which was on my shoulder, was a five hour session. That I just found so painful, I found it so traumatic. For some reason, the next morning my gums were bleeding like a mother fucker. I felt like I'd been hit by a truck, my body was so not used to it. I was just really whacked from it for several days.

But I was fine overall. It's not like I couldn't function. But it affected me. And then the next time when I came back ... And I really felt all the pain of it, right? I just found it such a painful experience, but the next time when I came back, I guess I was kind of psychologically prepared for it, and it was gonna be a longer session ... I think that was the first eight hour one, and I really just decided I'm gonna open myself up to this pain, and I'm gonna embrace the pain. And I didn't know if I'd fully decided that in advance. I know I had kind of psychologically prepped myself in advance, and thought about it. But it was within the first hour or so of that day that I noticed I was continually pulling away internally from the pain, and just kind of like we do when something triggers us online, right? Or offline.

Where you're like, ugh. You wanna avoid it, or it might just be a little bit annoying like that, which is how I felt today, just a little bit annoyed. But it could be a bigger thing, and then you feel really disheartened, or really sad, or really upset or whatever it might be. And so, you pull away, right? Or you turn away, or you kind of try and withdraw and you distract yourself with other stuff. And in this case, with the tattoo thing, back then that's what I was sort of trying to do. I was trying to pull away internally. You can't pull away physically, or you're gonna screw up the fricking art work, right?

And all of a sudden, I had this Unagi moment. Complete fricking hashtag Unagi. And the Unagi moment was ... and if you don't know what an Unagi moment is, then just chat amongst yourselves and figure it out. Hello. I did say trigger alert out loud. I'm definitely not as cool as I purport to be. That's for sure, right? I might walk around presenting myself to the world as somewhat of a badass. I'm pretty certain it's not true, and if I was interviewed extensively on the matter, and required to prove myself, really all I'd be able to present as evidence is probably this jacket, this gold bling-bling cushion, and my tattoos.

But probably get through on that. Just a little side tip there, just so you know. Total nerd. That's the problem. Just sneaks out from time to time, and it is what it is. We all have to live with ourselves in the end. So, anyway ... Oh my fucking God. Okay, my friend, who I said trigger alert to, has messaged me saying, "Oh my fucking God", right now. It just came through them. She must've had a trigger alert as well. We'll find out later. I'm not gonna read it now. I can just see the top of it. From time to time the geekyness just slips out, but I feel like I mask it well, and nobody's really quite certain what's going on.

Is she secretly like a massive bookworm nerd? Well, actually that part's true. Who sits largely at home watching old episodes of Yes Minister with her father. Well, he lives in another state, but still, on an energetic level perhaps. Or is she a total gangster badass who's just out there taking on the world, and doing whatever she wants, and making millions of dollars? Well, the millions of dollars part for sure. Gangsta badass? That's just a freaking thing that you put on. Right? It's like stepping into a performer. Oh my God, should we get back to the trigger thing in a moment and talk about something about sex for a second?

Because last night I was at an event about the bedroom and the sex things, and the enlightenment things, and being more sexual and sensual, and having more pleasure, blah, blah, blah. It was amazing, by the way. But people were talking about whether or not it's okay to be a performer sexually, either to perform to your partner ... you know, like to kind of put on a show. Or performing when you're having sex with your own self, which was an interesting concept for me, because it was like, "Do I? Do I perform when I'm alone?" I actually don't think I do. I genuinely don't think I perform for my own self during sex. I don't even know if I perform for anyone else during sex. I felt a little bit bad about it. I was like, "I don't think I do put on a show. I think I'm just authentic." Which could be a good thing.

But then people ... But no, performing is fine, because then people were being like, maybe it's not okay to be a performer, because they were saying it's not authentic or real. And I was still trying to assess my own sexual moves and whether or not I'm a performer. Okay, definitely have performed at times during sex. That's for sure. I feel like I need to bring out the performer more, the more that I think about it. But I was certainly feeling that there's nothing bad or wrong with being a performer during sex, or at any other time, because obviously I perform all the time, and that's really what being a badass is. It's just stepping into it.

And it's part of who you are. That's just one part of you. Be all that you are. Be a performer. Be the scarlet woman. Be the quiet book nerd. Be the person who embarrassingly yells trigger alert in a public place, if need be. So, it was actual gratitude, because I suddenly realised that this opportunity had been presented to me via the gods of Facebook. I'm not sure how many of them there are. The Facebook overlords, I feel, would be probably a more appropriate way to classify those people. Rather than Facebook gods. I have to rearrange my legs.

So, they had presented the opportunity for me to be triggered several times over, because I tried to ignore it, and then the stupid annoying post just popped merrily back into my feed and I had to see it again. So, I was like fine. Okay, I'll ignore it again. And then I thought about it later, and I was like, "Well, or I could be grateful." And I could imagine to myself ... I thought about the tattoo thing. I thought about how when I learn to lean into the pain of the tattooing, the long sessions, I became grateful for the way that it was strengthening me, and that's how I felt about it. In that moment, as I flipped into gratitude. I was like, yeah. This is strengthening me. This is making me into a warrior of inner power and strength, and resilience.

I don't think I used to word warrior, but I did send a message to my friend. I'll check what I even said, and maybe I'll read it to you if it's not too sneaky and cheeky. Well, it's kind of boring, anyway. I said I flipped into gratitude. That was the whole message. It's very boring. It's way more interesting the way I'm telling the story here. Because I just realised that all these things come along to teach us something and to help us to grow, and to become more grounded in who we are. Right? So, maybe you see somebody's post, maybe somebody's triggered by me right now. That would be an unusual thing, and probably the first time that it's ever happened, I would imagine.

Somebody should write me a letter and tell me about it, for sure. Don't worry, they already do. All the fucking time. Usually when they sign up as clients, and they tell me how much they couldn't stand me for three years prior to that. Not everyone, not everyone. Where's my comments? I'm getting no comments on my phone. Adidas and Lycra do go together. I have the matching pants for this jacket, you guys. I can go full gangsta. I wore them to a night club opening. It wasn't a night club opening, it was an app launch at Bootsy Bellows on Sunset Boulevard. A year ago.

They're like 18 months old, this jacket. How embarrassing. Whatever. But, old fashion. But always fashion. There's no point in time at which the three stripes are not in. But I do have the matching pants for them. They're low rider pants though. They're super low rider. You gotta stay as upright as a pin if you wear those pants. If you bend yourself just a little bit, your whole ass is hanging out the back end, which may or may not be a good thing. But it's an annoying thing when it's a windy evening and you're trying to wear some Tonne Ford shoes with a whole bling-bling black shiny Adidas, slash Adidas. Whatever it's supposed to be, get up going on, and you've got a bunch of bling chains on, and your hair in a top knot because somebody said that it looks fancy.

I'm just hypothesising. I'm not saying that that actually happened. So, anyhow, it's always a fricking opportunity to grow and become stronger, and grounded in who you are. If you ignore the triggers, when somebody triggers you ... That's right. I was talking about maybe I'm triggering somebody. I'm triggering people all the fucking time. They do seem to enjoy telling me about it. Well, sometimes my existing clients tell me the things that other people say about me, in enclosed Facebook groups or message threads, or wherever they are.

And I guess shocked and appalled, and then other times people tell me themselves how much I annoy the fuck out of them for how ever many years before they fell just wildly and haplessly, and helplessly in love with me. You're welcome. I understand, because sometimes I trigger myself as well, for sure. Sometimes when I watch my own replays, and I really was in full performer mode, sometimes I smack talk myself. But in a total self love way, because I do love and accept myself. I really just nailed that shit last year, actually. After much work prior to that.

So, sometimes though, I do smack talk myself. Sometimes I'm like, "Really? Like you really think that that was a smart move? Look at you. Who do you think you are?" But then I think what's happening is it's the performer within the performer, because I think when I'm smack talking myself, that actually what I'm doing is I'm kind of simultaneously playing several Seinfeld-esque type roles at one. So, kind of the voice of me that's smack talking the other version of me who was already on the live stream, that one is that new one who is doing the smack talking, is now quite impressed with her own hilarity and wittiness, and so she's becoming the performer, smack talking the other one.

So, then I get super clever at telling my own previous self off. It's kind of confusing, but if you think about it, it's very logical and entirely normal, I'm sure. But anyway, I do. I'll watch my own live stream replays probably half the time, because I have no idea what I fucking said, and then I like to see the comments coming in and what people had to say that I was missing. And it's not uncommon that I'll just be like, "Oh my God, I can't even look at this. This is so embarrassing to look at." Or it's annoying. There's been times for sure, many times, where I'm like, "Would you just shut up? Why are you talking so much? Can you ever possibly get to the point?"

Or if it pops on to my screen and starts talking, I'm like, "My God, she's so annoying. She just keeps talking, and talking, and talking." But I say it all with a smile, because I just still also do love it. And I accept it. And I just either way, and nevermind, I keep on allowing it out. So, there you have it. I think that's everything I came here to say. I'm not remote ... Oh my God. I've only had this one glass of wine, because I didn't even drink the wine at dinner, and I've already forgotten how to talk. I'm not ... What's happening? Told you it was topsy turvy day. I'm not remotely impressed with my own ... No, with Facebook's inability to show me the comments on my phone. It's kind of annoying having to look over here all the time.

So, the driven by the burn thing was simply, it is exciting to feel the pain, I think, right? I don't know. I get off on it. Not in a sexual way. Sorry, if anybody was hoping that. Nope. Not actually. In a life way, for sure. I find it exciting and fun, and definitely there's some ego in there for sure, I would say, about being able to take it, and enjoy it, and thrive on it, and I feel very self satisfied that I know that I'm getting stronger in situations where other people would flake out, or run away, and do exactly that, and I see them do that, right?

So, I feel satisfied with myself when I do like a six to eight hour session at the tattoo studio. I feel glad it's over, but I feel like I became stronger, and I feel proud of myself. And same with many situations in business and life. Many things that I've persevered through, which I just know other people wouldn't. And then I feel really good about myself. And this particular little minor situation today, which was sort of being relatively easy. I was gonna say so easy to brush aside and forget about as well, because it wasn't anything that's really even remotely connected to my world, but then it's so easy ... sort of so easy to brush aside, because really, things do keep circling back if we brush them aside when they kind of knocked on the door for a reason.

And instead, I allowed myself to feel it, and allowed myself to feel the discomfort, and to feel that trigger feeling, and to feel kind of that slight annoyance, or whatever it was, and really it's all fear. If we're being triggered by something and we're feeling discomfort or annoyance, or frustration, or whatever it is, being disheartened, it's actually all fear. It's actually all ... it all boils down in the end to some sort of version of maybe I'm not good enough, maybe I couldn't do that, or be like that, or show up like that, or whatever it might be, right? I think even when we're ...

Even Jamie said, she was triggered by someone's face. Where in there is there sometimes around how somebody else is showing up? And how you wanna show up, right? Just for example. So, for me, I find it really helpful and I think it was a good choice, to allow myself to then feel all of those feelings, and then to be like, "Oh, this is so good", because just like when I feel all the feelings of the tattoo work, it allows me to grow stronger, because I increase my ability to withstand that so called pain, I guess. Or I realise that it's not as painful as I thought, so I change my perceptions, I adapt, I do all these amazing things altogether. It was kind of the same thing, right?

I changed my perceptions, I adapt, I felt myself grow stronger, I felt myself grow more grounded in who I was, and so instead of something that was like a burn or a pain, or a discomfort, being that, and being a supposed bad thing or a negative thing, it became a positive thing, and it became something that was exciting, and that I genuinely felt grateful for that opportunity through the day to kind of heal or shift sometimes inside of myself, and become even more connected to my own self, my own soul, my own truth about who I am and how I get to show up in the world, right?

And I just think man, we have all these continual opportunities through the day and through, well, every day, and every week, and every month, and just day in and day out, to grown and to become stronger, better humans, more powerful entrepreneurs, more centred, more soul connected, et cetera. And if you allow each of those opportunities to be what they are meant to be, and what they came here to be, you become this ... Honestly, you just become an unstoppable success machine. Which I believe is how it's meant to be. I feel that that is meant to be the human experience, right?

So, I don't think that my, I guess, mindset, which is something that I've cultivated to a strong level, or however you wanna term it, for many years now. I don't think that it's anything special in a sense that it's not ... it is special, and it's special to me, and it's unique, and unique to me as well, but it's available for everybody, right? Yet when I go on occasion into environments with people who are not, I'm gonna say, as committed to their growth work as myself, or my clients, or my friends, actually it tends to shock me because it's quite rare for me to really connect in a deep way, or spend an extended period of time with people who don't kind of think and grow all day, every day. And continually up-level themselves.

So, obviously I would go out in the evening to places socially, or restaurants, or the beach, or an airport, or wherever. Clearly I'm around people all the time, but I would say that it's rare to be in a situation where you really hear a lot from people who are not like us, right? I don't know if you relate to this. But it's happened to me once or twice recently, and I found it quite shocking. Like eye opening, and almost like wow, I think I've become super naïve about how the world works. I think I've forgotten how little growth work the vast majority of people do, and how rare it is to actually continually up-level every single day, which is what I do, what my clients do, what my friends do. And I honestly think that 24 hours a day I'm doing mindset work and I'm up-leveling and growing. It's just become automatic, right?

So, for us, if you relate, for us then every single thing that comes along, becomes a growth opportunity and a healing opportunity, and I know with my friends and with my clients, and it's like a continual conversation every day, where it's like oh my God, this happened, and I felt this way, and it was like ugh, and then it's like hmm, and what I realised is blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. Right? Even random shit, like little road rage, right? I don't even mean something major, or maybe running late, or okay. I'll give you an example.

Last week, I was kind of snarky with the new babysitter who came along. A babysitter that I hired from an agency, and she ended up being like 20 minutes late, and I was going to a movie with my sister. And I was like, "I'm gonna miss the start of the movie." She's like ... Oh no, she was 30 minutes late by the time she got here upstairs. I kind of, I was [restrainededly 00:46:57] polite, but I kind of deliberately made my voice in a way where I showed that I was annoyed. And I knew that I was deliberately, I wanted her to know that I was annoyed at her, right? So, I was kind of being understanding, but in a snooty snort of a way.

And then when I left, I felt bad about it, and I kind of ... I was really nice to her right before I left, and I sort of tried to smooth over what I felt was my own bad attitude. And now, this is an example, right? Because then I left, and so I spent the drive to the movie theatre kind of going over it in my head, and then as I walk through the car park, I audio my friend. I'm like, "Right. So, here's what happened. Do you feel that I was in a state of ego? Or do you feel that it's fair enough for me to show my boundaries, and show what's acceptable to me when somebody's late? But then again, here's why I would be compassionate to her understanding of her being late, because of whatever such and such reason that I was giving her kind of like an out for being late." She wasn't just randomly late. There was like a whole confusion thing that had happened.

But it ended up being probably by the time I'd gone back and forth on audios with my friend about this, and then I spoke with my sister about it as well, while we had dinner, or while we had a drink or whatever. It ended up being probably 30 minutes of an analysis around this situation, which was not like fucking naval gazing, right? It was healing and correcting and understanding something like was I in ego? Or this is a trait that I didn't really feel that was attractive in myself, and then I was like, "Hmm, I notice that I do that from time to time." I used to do it a lot. I've shifted it massively, but let's say that you wait for ages in a queue, and then you get to the front of the queue, and you just kind of deliberately want that person in the checkout, the checkout person, to know that you're shitty about it, right? And that this is not okay, and I'm important, and I shouldn't have had to wait.

It's a very common thing that you see people do all the time. I very rarely do it at all anymore, but I definitely used to, and I see it a lot. I see it with people boarding planes, is another one. If there's been some sort of hold up, and so then I talked about that, and I kind of processed it, and I'm like, "Hmm, do I still do that? Because it's definitely not a trait that I desire to keep in myself if I do that." And it was just kind of this whole thing, and then it brought up something in my friend. And so then we spoke about that, and I don't know if it was that situation, or some other sort of similar, pretty low key situation, but recently I found myself saying to someone, "You know, this is not normal that people don't have hiccups in their day, or just random little disruptions or triggers, or they feel a bit bad about their own behaviour, and then they're not sure whether or not they should feel bad about it", or whatever.

But they don't then go an have an audio conversation with a friend about it, and turn it into a high level consciousness conversation. And then have all these breakthroughs and a-has and then connect it into some other part of their life, and then have a massive fucking revolution about something huge because you pulled at that one little string. That's not what people do. But that's what we do all day, every day. Every burn, every pain, every discomfort, every disruption, every little trigger gets turned into growth. And so, what I've found is that just through the process of being this person, that over the years, it's become, for a while now, a long time now I would say, like all day every day mindset work.

Everything is continually shifting and growing, and evolving, and the smallest things get to become kind of little threads that can be pulled on, and undo the biggest things. And sometimes it feels, I guess, kind of relentless or exhausting, or sometimes you just think, "Man, can I ever just move on and not analyse or seek to understand every single thing that comes along?" But it's not really about that. It's about being so committed to growth. Allison says, "That's the exact sort of friendships I want for me now." Well, I feel that you'll totally create that and call that in through Rich Hot Empire. And that's why I created the inner circle for as well. Not specifically continual shifting and up-leveling and analysis of little day to day situations, but that sort of environment, right?

Like a women's circle, or it's like women, men, whatever. But a circle of like-minded individuals who are connected by ... well, a like-minded desire, right? To continually grow and evolve. 100% of my friendships are like that now. I just can't even imagine a friendship that would be different. Yes, it's about sometimes just hanging out and being silly, and having fun, or whatever. Or just sometimes it's just kind of sharing what's going on, and connecting in that way. But honestly, every single thing that causes any, either of us, whoever's in the relationship, any sort of disruption or feeling of, "Oh, I don't feel quite in alignment now", or I feel like maybe that wasn't the best choice, or was I coming from this place? And what do you think? It's just continual discussion and continual evolution and growth.

So then, and that's exactly how it is in the inner circle, and there's a few inner circle people in here so you know this, right? But with all of my clients as well, in Rich Hot Empire, which you're in obviously Allison, it's a version of that. Julie says, "It's 24/7, even when I look like I'm doing nothing, I'm doing everything." Exactly. Right? Like I could be standing, waiting for something at the post office, or ... I usually wouldn't do that, so I'd send Serafina. But if I was, right? Or wherever I am, at a store or something, or pumping gas, or I don't know, getting changed in the gym, and you just continually kind of creating your life in your mind. And then on occasion, you go into an environment with normal people, not just okay, passing through the airport or whatever.

But where you're actually listening to people who are not like that, and hearing how they do life, and I do find it really shocking. Honestly, I do. I find it kind of like that, is how I feel. I kind of feel like, oh my God. How do you even live? And I guess I logically know that the way we think and do life is so different, but maybe I didn't realise it's so different, because I think you just adapt to, of course I'm gonna turn everything into an exercise and a lesson around alignment. What else would I do, right?

Of course every single thing that occurs or happens in my life is monetizable, if I want it to be, right? I don't take every single tiny thing in my life and turn it into content, or turn it into money, but a pretty good percentage. Of course, every random story, whether it's a funny story, or a silly story, or a an up-level story, whatever, of course that can be content. And money as well, right? So, I don't know, it's just ... I just think I'm so fucking happy to be the person that I am, and I'm so fucking happy to have created a community around me of like-minded individuals as well, because I think it would sound crazy if you were trying to explain this stuff to anybody else out there.

And of course, that's that's why many entrepreneurs end up alone. Hello, Sally. Hello, Kyra. I see you jumping on. Jamie says, "This reminds me of the beginning of our call on Tuesday." I'm in such a rambly mode. The live stream on Facebook, on my laptop computer over here says that only three people have been reached so far, from this live stream. I feel that that's quite a bunch of lies, actually. Because there's definitely like 28 people who are on right now live and there's been tonnes more before. So, my inner circle, if you don't know ...

Okay, that silver cushion was not supposed to be on screen. That was not part of my visuals that I decided. I wanted it behind my back. Let's fix that up. The inner circle is open, by the way, which is my private client, 12 month ongoing one on one mentoring. I have been actively promoting that for two days now, and I've had some amazing badass people reaching out about that. And starting to say yes as well. So, this is a really, really exciting time for me, because my inner circle is ... well, it's my most inner circle. My innermost circle, and it's exciting to really put some focused attention into the growth of the inner circle, for this current time. And just watch the badassery rise.

It is completely unlimited one on one access to me. It is the hottest and most badass mastermind in the world. Created by me, for driven entrepreneurs, creators, the crazy ones who just want more. And it's really the kind of thing to have an individual conversation about. So, there's not a whole lot more that I'm gonna say about it right now. If you'd like to know what it's like to mentor with me at the highest one on one level, then the best thing to do is ...

Actually, you can click on the cover photo, I think. Let me just double check. You can go on the cover photo of this page, or my personal page, yeah. And if you click on that, there's a little overview description. I'll even put a version of it here into a comment here. But really, you're just gonna message me, okay? You're just gonna send me a private message on my personal Facebook is best. Not this one ideally. I'm live streaming from my business page right now. But I do take messages on the business page, I just prefer them on the personal page. I prefer to have my personal conversations on my personal page.

Send me a message if you'd like to know more about the inner circle. I will send you a written overview that explains what it's about and how it all works, and what you get. Largely, you get being in my energy. You get me, you get coming into that space and that environment. You also get a tonne of other things, including amazing retreats and the next one is coming up in July. And then there's a video, or a couple videos even, where I talk about it more, and some other things that you can look at. But you can send me a message about it, and I'll get you all the details. So, I wanted to tell you about that.

Here's a small written overview. I'm popping it into the comment now. I really like the way this set looks actually, on my computer by the way. I should sit here on this couch more often. I've got so many cool bling-bling couches in this house. I've got two more really bling-bling couches way over there. So, right here behind this phone screen in my kitchen, and this is the studio, as you know. The throne's right there. And then, through the other room is a massive lounge. The big lounge. The main lounge, downstairs lounge. That has two hot as fuck couches on it. And this massive big painting that's over there, is supposed to sit above one of them, and I'm not sure why it's not up there.

And then there's another whole lounge room upstairs which nobody ever uses at all. Lounge room, living room, whatever it is. Anyway. I have the low down on all my living areas. And now you have the low down on the inner circle. It's in the page comment there. That's a small low down. If you want the whole low overview, you gotta message me about that. All right. I could ramble on and on all evening. Do I have anything else to say? Do you have anything else you'd like me to say? Tell me something interesting. Everything gets to be turned into a story about alignment. Everything gets to be turned into growth. That's really what driven by the burn meant, when I divinely had that title for a live stream given to me, whilst in the bathroom.

It was really just that everything gets to be turned into growth, and that I think if you embrace the discomfort or even pain, and you see it as purposeful, which it absolutely is and can be, then it becomes exciting. And that, to me, is kind of not even about the outcomes, right? Because the outcome of shifting through discomfort and pain, and triggers, or whatever it is, the outcome is actually like fucking abundance and the ability to receive. The outcome can be phenomenal, right? And absolutely will be, and it will connect into all areas, but for me, what's probably more exciting than that, to be honest, what I'm really driven by is not the outcome of getting through a period of growth, or discomfort, or pain, or whatever it might be. It's actually the feeling that I get from being in that moment, right?

Where I'm experiencing the so-called pain, and I'm like, "Oh my God", and I'm okay with it. I'm not only okay with it, but I've actually found a way to thrive on it, and to enjoy it. You know, it could sound a little bit masochistic? Or sadistic? Which ones the one that's to yourself? I don't know. I'm not up with my pain words, even though I'm driven by pain, or driven by purposeful pain. Right? So, it sounds a little bit like that. It sounds a little bit like ... trying to get off on pain for no reason, or something like that. I'm waiting to see if somebody tells me what word it is here in the comments. But it's not that. It's abour realising that these things generally are sent to serve us, and for us to grow, and that it's actually only positive.

You know, I think that we could really reframe the concept of pain and discomfort, and struggle, and realise that it's not a bad thing. It's not something to be scared of. No, it doesn't mean that it's gonna suddenly feel comfortable, or that if something feels painful that it will all of a sudden not feel painful. It's about realising that pain, purposeful pain ... it hurts, but then it feels better than what it hurts, right? It hurts so good. And I genuinely believe that. So, you can be feeling the pain and you're in the pain, but you're like, it's so good. It's doing me so much good, right? Same as working out. It's a really obvious example of that. Like, oh my God, I'm loving that I'm feeling this so much. Like oh my God. Fuck, I can't keep going, but it's so good. It hurts so good.

And you know that you're growing, and you know that you're becoming stronger. So, to me that's what it's all about, and frankly I'm really not interested in working with, or even collaborating, or communicating with anybody who would think that pain is something to be avoided, or that struggle is something to be avoided, or the discomfort is something to be avoided. To me, that's some of the most exciting stuff in the world. It's where you really have the opportunity to experience what it really means to be human. To experience growth, and to experience the incredible rush and the incredible power that does come from overcoming adversity, or looking I guess, your inner demons, or your inner insecurities in the eye, and pushing on regardless, on the path of alignment.

And I think maybe the final thing I wanna leave you with ... Alignment itself is such an interesting term that I feel like very few people understand. Alignment doesn't mean you're bouncing around on a fucking marshmallow cloud with unicorns, sitting by your side, and everything's la. Alignment is continual growth, right? And in fact, we're never fully in alignment. We're always slightly off course, and just adjusting, adjusting, adjusting, kind of like how a plane is never exactly on target for reaching it's destination, but then it does. It ultimately reach there, because it's continually aligning to the destination.

So, that's one thing about alignment. But also, the process of alignment itself is one that inherently contains and includes discomfort, and scary times, or confronting times. Or things that are thrown up at us to kind of test us and to help us to become stronger, and to help us become better equipped for the journey ahead, right? If you wanna create an amazing life, and you wanna forge ahead with all of the things that you have inside of you, you're going to need to have certain skills for that. You're going to need to be a person different to the other people out there. You're going to need to be able to handle, or endure, or overcome, but I believe also thrive on things that other people would run from.

And it really is a topic that I feel so passionately about, because I think that what actual pain is, in the sense of how most people would define the word pain, like what actually would fucking be painful is living your life in a way where you're not willing to face into adversity, or to face into discomfort, or to face into that growth because oh, it's gonna hurt. Or it's gonna feel uncomfortable, so no, I'll stay over here and stay in the safe zone. Or stay in the comfort zone, or whatever it is. And then okay, look how that life ends up turning out. That looks fucking painful to me. That looks painful in the sense of what people think pain is.

Actual pain, what I really believe pain is, in the way we've been talking about it, is so exciting, and it's so fulfilling, and it's so rewarding, and it's just like yeah, I'm doing this thing. I'm really in this life thing, and I'm fucking doing it. So, there you go. I'm gonna go and get more up in my life thing right now, which sounds really weird. I don't even know what it means, but I'm gonna go find something else that I'm gonna go do now, so thank you so much for being here. I feel like it was extra rambly for sure. I'm not sure if it was the change of scenery, or the jacket, or the wine, or the weird experience with the ribs. But whatever it was, it turned out exactly as it was meant to be, because it's always perfect. Everything is always perfect. And as it's meant to be. Which is another reminder when these things come along.

Okay. Thanks for watching. Thanks for watching, replay if you're in replay. Let me know if you are. Leave me a comment. I always like to look through my comments afterwards, so say something to me, let me know did this impact you? Did it give you something? Share with me what that was. Have an amazing, amazing rest of the day. I hope you get served up some really good fucking purposeful pain. Some massive triggers that are gonna piss you right off, and then you can sort that shit out, then you're gonna become stronger, and you're gonna join me as a freaking Adidas warrior. And tell me all about it.

And if you wanna join me in my inner circle, the most ... the most? The hottest and most badass mastermind in the world for creators, entrepreneurs, crazy ones, message me about mentoring with me one on one in my inner most inner circle. I will send you all the details. Message me on my personal page. Don't forget. Life is now, press play. Bye.

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Hi. Hello. Hmm. All right, welcome to the show. Welcome, welcome, welcome. I feel like it is going to be a fabulous show. Is it dark? What's happening? No? Yes? Not sure. Okay, let's get comfortable. Megan Underwood what's up? There's a name I feel like I haven't seen for a while. Comfortable as fuck. Am I in the dark? How's the lighting? It feels like it looks super dark on my phone screen. I'm obsessed with lighting you guys, obsessed.

Hey, Carly. Obsessed! I've just had the more hilarious afternoon ever. You can't even imagine the hilariousness of the afternoon. Okay, looks okay on my screen. Going to sit up straight. Thank you Emily, back at you. Queen to queen, hey Emma, hey Marie. Say hello if you're there people. Hmm, okay, okay, tell me there if you are there. If you're not there, I suppose you can't tell me to-

Why, why? I just made this face to Kelly. Thank you, I was doing filming all afternoon. Matt was over, my videographer Matt and Kelly was here as well. We were doing the most ridiculous shit. We were doing skits. So impressed with myself. And, I was going to say something important just then and now I forgot what it was already.

Why does the phone show a certain visual? And then when you look at it on the computer I can see other bits of me, and then I feel exposed. Because I'm like, like I don't have enough clothes on on the bottom half of me. That's for sure. If I sit with my legs open, it's going to be unfortunate for everybody. Or well it depends on your perspective I suppose. But anyway, I thought that I was perfectly only showing from there up, because that's what I can see on my phone. Now I feel obliged to hide behind my laptop just in case. But I'm just going to perch here and you know, somewhat, careless Marilyn Monroe-esque fashion, like I'm just casually laying here when actually I'm holding everything perfectly together.

Am I going to learn something? Why would I learn something? I don't understand. I'm teaching all the time. So your soul always knows. I just did the best skit on your soul always knows. I'm so impressed with my own hilarity right now. So Kelly, one of my best friends, and Matt, who's my amazing videographer, they've been listening to me go on and on and on for a very long time about how funny that I think that I am and that I want to do skits. I want to do little funny videos that you guys will share all over the internet and they'll go viral.

Okay, I'm super happy with my hair today as well. That's what's happening. There it is, all of it. It looks even better now that it's shook out, feel my head spinning a little bit.

We just filmed four skits, and one them, and I wrote the scripts myself. I mean there was really no script, but there was a concept. We went all in. For one of the skits that Matt and I were filming before Kelly came around, we had me doing a scene typing at the computer, a scene cutting an apple, a scene with me in bed meditating with an eye mask on. A scene on the couch where I was eating honey-soy chips and honeycomb Maltesers, and drinking straight out of a bottle of wine, all at the same time, because it was showing like the stages of grief. Like an emotional meltdown to do with, well you have to wait and see. Right, it's funny as fuck though, or at least I think that it is.

We did that, and then Kelly came around and we did a little thing that was based somewhat on truth that we think is funny that we always do. And then I did a your soul always knows script, and I'm so impressed with my own self about this. I messaged, I had Kelly go upstairs and call me and be like a pretend client on the phone, on the speakerphone, and then I'd send her a bunch of questions to ask. No matter what question she would ask, I would sit there looking like a wise, profound person, because I am. I would say, so the questions I gave her were, "I'm not sure whether I should launch my low-end programme next to my high-level mastermind, what do you think?" Then it was a question about a man, then a question about a diet, then a question about being stuck, and then, "Should I cut my hair?" And whatever. No matter what the answer was I was like, "Hmm, let me just tune in on that. Wait, I think you should check in with what your soul says, because your soul always knows." Then she would be like, "Wow, you're so wise Kat. You're just so connected." And I was like, "I know. I've been doing this work for a long time."

I'm so impressed with how well I held it together while filming these skits. I did burst out laughing a few times, but we had the best time ever. I just had two hours of hilariousness. I was like, "How is this even work?" And I don't know if it technically is. But I don't know if anything technically is. And then what was hilarious beyond hilarious, after that, is as they were leaving and I was going down to the basement to swipe them out of the car park, Kelly's saying something about whatever situation in her life, and I was like, "Well your soul knows the answer Kelly." Then I was just laughing even more. But I'm like, "But it's true. This is funny because this is real." Things are funny because they're real.

So I'm feeling kind of pumped, kind of high-vibe. And I'm kind of impressed with myself as well because I've been saying for at least a year, and lots of people have heard me say this, especially my close people in my life have heard me go on and on about I want to be doing these little videos, with an attempt for my videos to go viral. I want to do the funny ones because I think I'm funny. And I want to do the inspiration and entertaining ones about, "Christine's not learned anything, who promised you that you were going to learn anything. Not me, but your soul always knows exactly what you need to learn. So go and learn elsewhere if you're not learning it here. It's fine, I'm completely fine with it either way, but I can't promise anything. I definitely can't promise learning." You know what, fuck it, I promise soul shifts and deep frickin transformation, and hilarity, and sometimes shenanigans. And by the way, by the way, whatever comes out will be exactly what you need.

Okay, she doesn't give a fuck. She's like, "Bye," she's just like, "I'm leaving." She doesn't know what she's missing out on. You can all send her a message and tell her if you like. I feel like this could be a good device for fixing up your hair so that you don't have to use your hand while you're holding your laptop in the other hand. It does hurt a tiny bit. Ohh, it actually brushes the hair a little bit you guys. I don't know that it was entirely designed for that. Okay, now there's hair sticking out of it and it's a bit wonky. If you look at it closely this [scept 00:07:11] has had a bit of a rough time of it. It's cause sometimes I get overexcited and I whack it on things. Not on people, don't worry, but if they were here in the room potentially someone would get a good whack with the sceptre. Tracy's already learned seven things.

Okay, so we have several things we need to discuss as a community you guys. I shall sit here in my throne and discuss them with you and for you. One of them is we need to decide what my new name is. I feel that it should be put to a vote. Do you think I should have a competition to choose my new name? I'm going to drop my surname, I'm going to drop my old surname which is still legally my current surname. And I'm not going back to the previous name before that because that was my first husband's name. And I'm not going back, even though it was a good name for internet marketing, was a great fitness name, which is what it was back in the day. And I'm not going back to my birth name, because it feels weird and it's like from a 100,000 years ago. I'm going to make up a new name. I'm going to keep Katrina Ruth as it is, Ruth is my middle name. I guess the only question is, what does my soul know that my new surname is meant to be. But I think that it should start with R, so then it will be Katrina Ruth something starting with R, because it sounds like nice for alliteration purposes for fame. I think it would be a good famous person name to have a surname starting with R.

If it wasn't for Ruby Rose, I would probably go with Katrina Ruth Rose, because Rose is a family name and it's also my daughter's middle name that I gave her. So I think Katrina Ruth Rose sounds really nice. It's not fucking going to be Ruthless, but thank you. Katrina Ruth Rose sounds nice, it's sounds kind of like a famous person's name, but I think that we can do better as a community. If you have any thoughts on that, there's a post about it in the daily ass-kickery, you can contribute. If I chose a name that you gave me, I would definitely have to give you something super cool as a prize for that. I can't just go walking around with a name that somebody else came up with without honouring it.

All right, moving along. What do you want to talk about? Why do you even need a surname? I want one. I want it to be Katrina Ruth something. Katrina Ruth Rules. No, I don't want it, no I want a new surname. I don't want to change my legal, because you got to have a legal surname. I don't want to change it to Ruth, because Ruth is my middle name and I like it like that, Katrina Ruth. My mum used to call me Katrina Ruth, not when I was in trouble either, just like sounds nice inside my head.

Fuck a duck, I dropped the sceptre. We'll switch, we'll switch to this.

Have a friend who legally has no surname. Is that right? Okay I didn't know about that. All right, so anyhow, okay this could be a good scratching device down your back if you wanted it to be. Props are everywhere here. Oh my God there's two of these things. You're supposed to have a duel. There's a fucking cape on the floor over there, but it looks stupid as fuck. Madonna's real name's not Madonna though, it's whatever it is. Have a friend who, okay, anyway.

The whole point of the whole point is, you can laugh about it all you like, actually my clients always make fun of me and say that no matter what they ask me I say, "Well just tune in and what would alignment look like. Or what does your soul actually say about this, or what does your soul know." And I'm like, "Well, but it's true." That's why I did the skit, because I was sort of playing into that. Obviously I do say a few more things than that one when I'm talking to my clients. And sometimes I don't even use the word soul, it has been known to happen on the odd occasion.

But the reality is, you have this blueprint inside of you for, I'm going to put that down because I'm going to be serious now. I don't want anyone over here to think I'm being funny when I'm being serious. Let's pause for effect. I've been drinking wine straight from the bottle during the day, for the purposes of my filming, so I'm feeling slightly buzzed. I think I only had that much, but I don't drink during the day. And I don't know if this is just me or is this normal, but whenever I do drink anything during the day, on the odd occasion, I can have the tiniest bit, like three sips which is roughly as much as I had, and I feel like I had two glasses of wine. And then when you are literally putting wine into your mouth with chips and Maltesers at the same time, it's just a whole unusual situation happening up in there.

Okay, we're going to get serious. I'm not changing my surname to Reagan, that's my friend's name, her actual name. It's not going to be Rice either, it sounds like a man's name, like a man. I don't want to be a man.

Okay, I'm going to be serious and professional as fuck. I'm going to talk about soul blueprints, maybe, we'll see if it comes out. Let me just tune in on that for a moment and see what does in fact come out. Okay, I've got it, I've got it. It may or may not be anything to do with your soul at all, but it will be precisely what it's supposed to be. By the way, by the way, Wren, Ruth, Katrina Ruth Aura. Somebody suggested Chai before. I was like, I didn't understand why, but it's definitely not going to be Chia, because I'm allergic to chai tea.

Okay, Katrina Ruth Riley, oh my goodness. It's got to be a new and unusual word you guys. A word nobody else knows or is using. Oh my god, I'm just seeing that my team has posted onto my page. Okay, [Mim 00:12:33], that Amanda France's Vegemite video that's on my page has a spelling mistake in it. Veget-mite it says, but Mim, do you want to drop the inner circle link. By the way, not a link, that's not a link at all. Description, comment, whatever it is.

The inner circle is open, it is open. You can message me if you would like to know about mentoring with me at the absolutely highest level in my one-on-one, badass, hard as fuck, inner circle mastermind. It is indeed open. Message me on my personal page is better. Ongoing one-on-one mentoring, unlimited access to me, plus access to the hottest and most badass mastermind on the internet. On, just like, on, I think my voice just broke. Am I a 13 year old boy? For different creators and different entrepreneurs who just want more, and are willing to do what it takes in order to create it, obviously.

Okay Jillian says, "To those who are even remotely considering joining the inner circle, just pull out your credit card and pay now." You can't actually technically do that, I'm sorry, you got to message me and we'll talk about whether it's aligned for you or not. And then I suppose you could pay. You know what I'm going to do? Here's what I'm going to do, here's what my soul is telling me to do, I'm going to start posting frickin case studies and testimonials of my clients every day. Give me an amen if you would like to see that because I don't normally do it and I've started to now do it, I'm going to just relentlessly, ruthlessly flaunt that shit all over the internet and inspire you with the badassery of the women that I know and that I get to mentor, but also I'm friends with and connected with.

I'm starting my new show Conversations with Badasses. I've had that name for ages, and I've even got a backdrop made that goes behind her on my stands for the Conversation with Badasses show, but it's got red hair on it, so I have to change it now anyway. I'm going to be doing joint livestreams with the most badass people I know, and that will be the show. You'll get to meet lots of people from the inner circle and lots of my cool badass friends and other people that I know. It's going to be conversations with badasses. But part of it will be that I'll be talking a lot about results from the inner circle because I don't normally do that, and I get amazing results so I'm going to talk about it. And I'm going to promote, promote, promote, and find the exact perfect people who are meant to join us.

Here's what else, here is what else, earlier today, I finally pulled my fucking finger out, ohh Raven, that's an interesting one. Raven, Katrina Ruth Raven. I'm going to think about that. Haven, what about Katrina Ruth Haven. Hmm, the perfect name is going to come to me, and so it is, it's done.

You know I just said that I indeed pulled my finger out. Is that an Australian expression, or does everybody understand that expression? I don't know if everyone knows what I mean. I pulled my finger out means, sounds kind of dirty, but what it means is that I just finally took fucking action on something that I'd been holding myself back from and denying myself stepping into soul alignment around, which specifically was what I just said earlier, the videos, the skits, the little comedy things that I've been wanting to do for ages. It was such a good feeling. Firstly, I mean what else would you want to be doing?

Okay, you did think it was dirty. It Aussie only. We have some weird expression in Australia I think, but whatever. Everybody does in their own way. What else would you want to be doing on a Friday, it's not Friday, but you could do it on a Friday, on a Wednesday afternoon except for filming hilarious stuff and just being creative and kind of acting. I guess I was acting, and I fancy myself somewhat of an actor. I'm quite certain I should end up in the movies at some point in time. And I'm going to play myself, so I need a good fucking name for that as we've just been discussing.

That was fun, it was really fun. I had so much fun it was crazy. We were just in hysterics. Matt was just shaking his head, he couldn't even believe the ridiculousness of the entire situation most of the time. That's cool, but really where it's critical actually to receiving, and to abundance, and to stepping into whatever the next level is that's inside of you that you know you're meant to live into is, when you're flaking out and resisting and avoiding stuff that your soul is telling you to do that you know you should do and must do, then you dial down receiving.

This is what I want to talk about. You can take the statement your soul always knows, and you can do whatever you want with that statement right. Your soul always knows what you should fucking eat for dinner. Hello Lily [Babcock 00:17:16]. Lily you know you posted last night, I'm pointing directly at you with my massive, it's actually not that big but when you point it like that it looks huge. I don't even know what this is. Is it a pitchfork? I don't need a pitchfork, let me get my sceptre back. Oh, it's way over there. Wait.

Okay, all right, here I am. Why do I have to sit up? I don't like sitting like a normal person. Now I've got sequins in my bottom though. Just like kind of chewing away at it. Trident. All right, what was I saying? I'm going to tune in on that. Fuck, what was I saying? Lily, you posted last night about your hair like a mermaid, but I wore my hair mermaid style last night for a podcast, and I specifically had that thought because I had it on a side ponytail and it was very mermaidy. The reason was all the sweat from the hot yoga, and I hadn't washed it yet. Now it's cleansed and it's beautified. But last night it wasn't washed, and so I did the only reasonable thing that a person can do, which is put it in a [plut 00:18:26] for two hours before the podcast interview, and then it looked mermaidy. Then afterwards you posted that your hair was mermaidy too. I was like-

Oh my god, there's seriously sequins in my ass. Okay, it's the life is now, press play cushion. If you haven't seen it, your mind will be blown. I feel like everyone's seen it, but some people probably haven't seen it. It's going to mirror language, but you're going to get the idea. Ah, ahh, amazing isn't it. It says, "Life is now. Press play," in the cushion you guys, in the cushion. I've performed this trick many times before, but there's probably new people here who haven't had the joy and the pleasure and the honour. It would be selfish and rude of me not to show it to them. Again, that was all biting my ass just then. I was sitting right on the sequins. Okay, so that's about Lily and the mermaid hair.

Then the other thing was and is, your soul does always know what you should do about anything. Your soul knows whether you say yes when somebody says, "Do you want to be on my podcast?" I just go with what my soul says. You can ask me anything anytime, and sometimes I'm going to say no to you for sure. I say no to lots of people. And then you might be brave enough to ask me again another time, people do that on rare occasions, most people are not, and then maybe that day I'm vibing with it, maybe my soul says yes. That's roughly how I end up on Lily's podcast. Because typically I say no to everything, it's just a blanket rule of thumb. Everything that's not me creating my own content, but now, right now, I'm actually in a vibe of saying yes to a lot of things. So now would be a good time to ask me things.

Just so you know, I feel the openness. I feel that I am open to yes to things. I feel that that can often be a good state. And in theory it sounds like it would be a good overall general state to be in, but actually the answer is, what does your soul know? I know for me there was a period of, it's time to say no to everybody and go deeper into my own content creation, and so then that's what I was doing. I was just like, blanket hard no to everybody, except obviously if it was like James out to try something, I'm sorry, but that's just what's up. That's just the truth of the matter.

Okay, now your soul knows the answer to everything. What are you going to do after this? Should you even be here right now? Tune in. Does my soul say yes I should listen to Kat? She's going to drop some gold, or she going to shift and transform my emotional state in some way. And so that is a good to learn use of my time. Well one lady already left early, her soul did not care for me at all. After you get off this livestream, you go, what does my soul say that I should do, right? What is my next thing? Am I going to create content? Am I going to take a nap? Am I going to go to bed? Okay, of course you didn't, because people in my community are sneaky and badass, and supernatural as fuck. She says, "I telepathically asked you." Yeah, that doesn't surprise me at all. That would probably be the smartest way to things by the way.

For all the people who I love and adore in my life, I send them messages from my soul all the time by the way. I'm not sure if they always get them. It probably depends on whether they're tuning in or listening, but I legitimately do. This morning only, I was sending soul messages to somebody. I don't know if they got them or not, I didn't ask. I mean I could ask right now in my soul, but I don't really mind. It goes through an energetic kind of frequency anyhow, but sometimes they will then reply in a physical sense. Sometimes somebody will reply on a Facebook message when you sent them a soul message. That's pretty cool right? Your soul does already knows how to do it. They did get it. Emily says they did get it. Did you tune in on that? Cool. I reckon right, I reckon they did get it. That's what I'm feeling as I tune in on it.

I just love how fucking supernatural the world is, don't you? I wrote about this quite a bit in my blog today, just like the real gifts that we were giving and that we were born with. She did tune in on it. Thank you. I just wrote about the gifts that we were born with, and what's actually natural and real for us is as humans, how so many people think that it's kind of scary or bad to kind of access supernatural powers, and I guess to access the magic within, and to dive into the spiritual world and create from that place. If you didn't read today's blog post, you can go read that. I'm not sure if that's here on my Facebook business page yet or not, but it's definitely over here on my personal Katrina Ruth page. It's got a hot as fuck photo of me with my amazing client Amanda Frances, and she is an incredible client and super soul sister friend. It's just a hot photo, that's why I put it up. It's from a month or two ago. The title is, don't get scared of how much magic you are capable of, grow harder and deeper, run faster, and do more. I think I'll give you a link to it right now so that you can check it out after this.

Yes Facebook, I will add Malibu, California as the location since that's where it was. All right, so I wrote about this, and I think that we could talk about it. I think that it's powerful and I think that's really relevant and true, and that we're just limiting ourselves so much when we play only in the human realm. Okay, no, correct, edit, rewind, the human realm includes the spiritual realm and the supernatural realm, right? Right, thank you for clarifying that for me. Send me some cat emojis or a love hearts if you agree with me.

People can feel like, "Oh is that bad to operate in that sense in terms of I'm just creating shit inside of myself." I can sit in this chair like I just did, and I can sit in my throne, in my studio at home, and just tune in. Thank you for the cat emojis and the love hearts. I can tune in on whether somebody received a soul message from me, and then Emily who's here on live tunes in for me as well. She's not here, she doesn't know what person it was, she doesn't know anything at all. But she just tuned in energetically and she knows everything. Just like I know everything when I allow myself to, and so do you. Your soul knows. Your higher self knows every aspect of who you are inside and out. You already have the answers to everything, like fucking everything. Do you realise that? And all you've got to do is be willing to listen, right?

I did this little skit earlier, I was like, it was funny. No matter what the question was that asked, I was like, "Hmm, tune in to what your soul says." And I was having the funniest time ever doing the skit. But it's also like, well honestly, honestly, how I've created all of the results in my life. Business results, money results, fitness stuff, health stuff, lifestyle, travel. Even like where should I go next? Or if ever I'm not on tour, should I book, for example recently we were finding a location for my July retreat for the inner circle. By the way inner circle's open, read the pinch comment after this if you're wanting to mentor with my on the higher one-on-one level. You would be potentially then coming along to hang with me in July for our next retreat. We do three.

When we were looking for different venues for the retreat, even something like that, my assistant sends me through the details, and I'm just like, "Okay, let me just tune in for real, this one or this one?" And I'm like, "Hmm, I feel this." For sure I'll look at the website and I'll look at what's offered, and I'll look at pricing, I look at all that stuff right, like with anything. But it's not how I make my decision. I always trust my soul. I always trust my inner guidance. I always trust what's coming through me. Your soul always knows. I just feel like I've let my life become so easy, and wouldn't you love to let your life become so easy by just responding to what's inside of you.

Now earlier today I had a conversation with a new client, somebody who I know already through Facebook, but she's just stepped into Rich Hut Empire, which is kind of like the before step in a lot of cases for the inner circle, or it's not always the before step, sometimes people go straight in. But anyhow, it's my six week one-on-one which oversold and closed out the other day, and she was talking a lot about getting caught in fear, and getting caught in reactivity, and even by the time we got ten minutes into the phone call I was like, "Okay, I'm feeling that so far everything that's come through in this conversation is that fear is guiding and directing you a lot of the time, right? Firstly, that's clouding your ability to obviously connect to soul and create from faith and create from flow. But also, isn't it tiring," I said to her. She was like, "Well yeah." And I know that's it's tiring because I used to live that way. It's fucking exhausting right.

The thing is, you don't have to live that way. It's actually a choice that you can make right now. It's a choice that you have available to you right now in this moment to just decide, I'm going to choose faith over fear. I'm going to choose to access the guidance inside of me. I'm going to choose to access the superpowers that I was giving.

Hello. You can come in. Alyssa just got home from school.

Ohh. For you, mother's day, where do I put it?

That's fine, I'll take it. Okay, go get changed because we're going to go on a girl's day. Okay. We're going to go on a girl's outing after this.


Yay. So, okay, what is this, school notice. Oh shit, don't do that. I'm just literally holding a nearly, an open bottle of water over the laptop. Okay, totally lost my train of thought when I saw her walk into the room. I'm sure you saw that.

You can literally choose right now in this moment to let faith rule you rather than fear. That is a choice that you have available no matter what's going on. Especially when shit is going on when you feel stark, or you feel it's too scary, or there's too much riding on it, or you can't afford to or something like that. This is the leap of faith that it's time to make. This is the leap of faith that it's time to make. It is time to say, what does my soul have to say about this? What would I be doing if I were acting from faith? What would I be doing if I was coming from what's inside of me.

Why aren't they post a bed in my room?

Why are you talking so weird?


I don't know. Go get changed honey. No, no, no, this is the time to go get change.

Who put it in?

I don't know. I have no idea. I wasn't even in your room. Probably Diane. Usually I'm like, come on the live, but I know if that happens we won't go and do our girl's day thing. We'll just get talking about. I'll probably wrap up in a minute now anyhow.

That's really the whole thing right, I could, if I wasn't going to go on little adventure with my daughter, I'd go on and on about this for probably another 20, 30 minutes, like beyond what I've already said. But it would come back to the same core underlying message. This is the thing, you can go on and on about it for 20 or 30 minutes, or 20 or 30 years, nothing is going to change except for the fact that you have the power of choice right now to come from soul. You can sit here right now in this moment and say, "I'm going to commit to operating from faith, not from fear." You can sit here right now in this moment and say, "I'm going to start to fucking listen to what's inside of me, right." It's true in your business. It's true with what programmes you should launch or put out there. It's true with how you interact in your personal relationships. Who should you be giving your time and energy to? Where is a good investment and use of that?

Rather than being like, "Oh, what do you think about this? And I'm scared of that. And here's the pros and cons." And you analysing it with your friends or your partner, or your frickin dog, or even your mentor or whatever. Let's go into soul guidance. Let's go into being directed by faith. Let's go into being directed from what's inside. Even with me right, from my inner circle, my highest level one-on-one mentoring, it's a reasonable investment to work with me at that level as I'm sure you can imagine. If you message me about it, I'll send you a full overview of what it is and what we do, and how it works. Obviously we'll go through cost details as well. But I'm not going to sit there and tell you some kind of, "Well here's the secret strategy that nobody gets to know until they come into my inner circle, right." I think I said your inner self, or I might've said your inner guidance, or intuition state, something along those lines.

When I mentor my highest level clients, my role is not to provide some kind of step-by-step plan that was a secret before working with me at that level. My role is to connect with you on a soul level and to help you access more deeply what's inside of you. This is something that you can already do obviously yourself. Whether or not you decide to work with a mentor, whether it's me or not me, either way, you still have that ability yourself. Obviously it's powerful to have other people who are the alliance people for us to come in and support in that, and maybe help you to see things that you don't see, and kind of remind you of where you need to kick your ass or hold yourself to a level of accountability based on being that soul based version of you rather than a fear driven version of you. Either way and regardless, it is absolutely something that you have access to right now.

Guess the big thing that I just wanted to come on today and do was to remind you of that. Remind you that you've got access to everything you need inside of you. You don't need to be out there on the internet, fucking Googling and trying to figure how to get somewhere. You also don't need to be looking for the perfect strategy or plan. The strategy, the plan, the blueprint is the one you are born with. That's what's up. That is what I want to remind you of today and that's really all.

I could go on and on, but I've got a very important date with a very beautiful child of my own. So I'm going to go and do that. I'd urge you to dive inside of yourself, through your journaling, or through your months at work, maybe take a walk. Whatever you need to do or desire to do, and just ask, "What is my soul directing me to do today?" Honestly, I use this question any time I feel unsure about anything. Literally down to what I'm going to order off a menu. It's not like, like it's kind of an unconscious thing, or it just sort of happens in that moment, but I know that I always know what I need and what's right for each moment in my life. Whether it's something kind of little like that, or it's something that seems like a really big deal. Either way, I just allow myself to be intuitively guided. That is a big part of why my life has gone into such flow and ease, as well as receiving in epic and abundant way financially and through my business, and with all my soul mates and client, and people and so on and so forth.

If that's something you want to know more about, and you feel that I might be the person to support or mentor you around that, message me about my inner circle, I'll get you the full overview and all the details. And do not forget, life is now, press play.

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Katrina: Oh. Okay ... That's what I've gotta do ... Invite. Invite, invite, invite, invite ... Do that ... Okay. All right. How do I add you? I'm blind. I can't see anything. It says I can't bring you on the broadcast at this time ... Why? ... Invite friends ... Okay. That's odd. Do you know what I'm gonna do? I'm gonna restart this, because usually when I do this ... Oh no, hang on. Now it's letting me ... bring ...

Katrina: Adding. Hello, everybody.

Patrick: What's up?

Katrina: What's up?

Patrick: I don't know why I've got this thing hanging up here. A devil horn, demonic. What's up? I had to share in my group and on my wall so, rock and roll.

Katrina: Okay. Let me turn this up. My sound is super quiet.

Katrina: Welcome everybody. We have no idea what we're going to talk about but it's going to be amazing.

Patrick: It is always gonna be amazing, always amazing stuff when me and you get on here. Always amazing stuff when you're here, I'm like, damn! Everything I watch I always send people to you and everybody I meet I'm like, "Dude you have not idea. Cat's shit ... it's changed my life more than just anything I've watched, anything I've listened to."

Katrina: Thank you.

Patrick: I believe in it. I believe in it though.

Katrina: It goes both ways. I nearly tagged you in as my favourite live streamer apart from myself. I think you're the only person whose livestream I consistently watch, I'm very sorry to everybody else who's on here who livestream but I'm just going to admit that I'm not a huge content consumer, I have four or five people whose content I'll consistently consume but you're my favourite live streamer.

Patrick: Wow, wow.

Katrina: There you go.

Patrick: Well I'm honoured to hear that and you know what? Are you still in Baldi?

Katrina: No, it just looks like I'm in the jungle. Guess where I am?

Patrick: Yeah.

Katrina: I'm actually at my local shopping mall. I'm a mall rat, I work from the mall. This is just a cool little area. Whoa, shit. I just did my workout. I just got my sweat on, the gym's right there and I just hang out at the mall all day.

Patrick: Let me close this door for just a second before it gets too loud.

Katrina: Oh where are our comments? Who's saying hello to us? I just realised we're ignoring you guys and we're only talking to ourselves. I haven't said hello to anybody yet.

Patrick: Yeah, Ryan in the house. What's up Ryan, what's up Sage, Cody ...

Katrina: Hey everybody. I'm dropping all my shit. Brandon you must have not only see first notifications but you must have some kind of alarm that goes off in your house 'cause you're always instantly there supporting and representing.

Patrick: He does. I guarantee he does. He's ready to roll too as well.

Katrina: He's always ready to go.

Patrick: I have some good news as well today, again. I sold my second programme today. Number two.

Katrina: Of course you did. Congratulations. That's a virtual hug.

Patrick: Yeah, virtual hug. Get that out the way quickly.

Katrina: There's one for everybody as well. Hugs all around. Hey Mandy, Hey Theo, hey everybody just in. That's awesome. You're just owning that energy space that you need to be in, right?

Katrina: I saw something you said the other day. Oh, it was in the post that you did about your first sale and you said how you haven't done any funnels yet or any advertising yet or anything like that. It's all been mindset, you went all in on mindset which obviously is something that I was really excited to read.

Patrick: Yeah I did and it's one of those things you know? It's something I just want to stick to 'cause I got all the other things down. I can do all the other things. I can do funnel. I already know that that's something easy.

Katrina: Yeah.-

Patrick: But I wanted to do my take, cause I know that's just a winner. I can help people out. Much more so with that, it's a bigger fundamental change they can make in their life. Anybody can run Facebook Ads. You can get on YouTube and learn how to build a funnel. Doesn't matter. Build your shit with work press and work with word press everyday, no problem.

Katrina: So [crosstalk 00:05:24]. Me?

Patrick: What's that?

Katrina: Did you say I know nothing about funnels?

Patrick: Well I mean ... when I talk to you, you don't really concern yourself with funnels, I like that. It's such a fad type deal.

Katrina: I do. I run a programme for my community of funnels cause I was like I know everyone wants to know about it. And yes there are some things we could say about it, but largely my team taught the programme for me. And I just came on like a rock star and did the mind set side of funnels. Cause even when I talk about what should be in a funnel. What I talked about was creating the experience. When people come in to your community. Think about the first seven days and what is the experience you want people to have being apart of your community. You don't want them to fee like they joined another email list. Yay. It should be like, holy shit, what is this bad ass community?

Katrina: What's up John? What's up Linda? Linda. Hello.

Patrick: Who can you be apart of? Which can segway into my community and what we're talking about today ... cause mine is ... obviously yours is, yours is daily kick ass read for fucken leaders, but you have mostly women. By the way, the person who bought the programme today is a woman. I think she's one of your tribe actually.

Katrina: Oh cool.

Patrick: Yeah it'd be kind of wild to see how it plays out. But my view is Entrepreneurs Player Club. So it's for men. It's a men's community for men who wanted it all. Who want to take it to the next level no matter what it is in life. They wanna level all the way up. And so it's ... that's the experience I'm providing. You know what I mean?

Katrina: Yeah.

Patrick: Both have that aspect. So talking relationships I'm sure y'all do that. They were talking about relationships. They were asking about men and women communications on your streams?

Katrina: It's ... not on the live stream more on the client groups and then friendships conversations as well. In fact, Linda and I were talking about this last night. Linda's one of my besties on the live stream, she's staying at my house at the moment, she might even be at my house right now. And we were talking about it and we were having some laughs about a few things ... just common thins women do that should be made into viral videos. Ways that women analyse and obsess things that men say, for example. So we were cracking up laughing at things we know we do that are really silly.

Katrina: But yet, we still feel like it's a real true thing. But I have this conversation with clients all the time. Not ... I'm gonna say it doesn't happen ... Linda is my wife this week. I already had two marriage offers this week, no this is the third one. Callie Remy's offered to marry me, she's always offering to marry me. She gets very upset when she thinks that anybody else might get in there. Now Linda's offered as well ... it's fine ... I'm fine with what's the word? Polyamory.

Katrina: I don't think the relationship conversation happen as much in the daily asking crew as they might. Because it is men and women in there.-

Patrick: Yeah.-

Katrina: So maybe people don't put themselves out there quit as much. But it happens more in my inner circle client group. We do a weekly hot seat masterminds live stream. So for all my private clients, and I would say ... 30 to 40 percent of the conversation is to do with relationships. Then also on my private clients box me everyday and they just audio update me with their questions or what's going on. Probably 30 to 40 percent what my clients ask me about is their relationship stuff. And only 30 percent is business and the rest is whatever to do with labs.

Katrina: So, I noticed how when you talk about Entrepreneur Club, you say it's for male entrepreneurs but you say it's about up levelling in every are of life. How relationship all of that. And that's definitely what I feel like I do with my clients as well. That they are all entrepreneurs of some kind. They're coming wanting to up level their business, make more money. But it's actually about creating your whole life purposely. So that's where a lot of the conversations come from.

Katrina: But I thought it would be a good topic because I'm not ... firstly I find it a little bit funny that my clients continually ask me for relationship advice cause I'm not an expert on this. Like I can read your ... if they tell me something they said or did or this happened with a guy and what do you think? I'm like ... I'm still learning and growing in this area as well as all areas ... but probably this area more than others I would say, at the moment. So it's not like I'm a certified expert. But, here's my thoughts so here's my feelings. But then when I try and give clients supportive feedback ... and same when I have conversations with friends about something that's happened with a guy in their life. I'm like but I don't really know the male perspective. I only know certain things that I've learned and studied.

Katrina: You and I were talking about this last week on the phone. About how I've spent a lot of time over the last year or year and a half trying to understand male/female dynamics. And learning and up levelling in that, so I feel like I understand so much more than I would have 18 months ago. But still I'm like I don't know. I keep forgetting ... and this is what I wanted to talk about with you ... I keep forgetting that men don't think like women do right?

Patrick: Yeah.-

Katrina: There's a certain way that women think and that we approach things. And rules of behaviour that are just automatic for women. And I think that we as women, are prayed in the same way. So then if a man doesn't communicate in a way that we would, we instantly assume they're upset at us or they're annoyed at us, or that they're not interested or whatever it might be. Instead of just being like, men think this way in this situation and women think this way. Does that make any sense?

Patrick: Yeah for sure. It's a communication thing. It's like, I know several people that are trying to figure this out. One of the main things is people wanna know is how they communicate better across the genders ... male and female ... try to figure that out and crack the code. I know a guy who's working on it. It's actually his life goal is to figure this out and he thinks that whenever he has figured this out, he'll have solved it and be rich beyond his wildest dreams.

Patrick: Everybody, I think, is actively trying to figure it out. I hear this sometimes in my group. I asked the group to find out what they're looking for and what they want in the next ... what they want ... need frame or value on for the next thing that I drop.

Patrick: They do quite frequently ask about relationship issues, it's like all across the board. But what I've figured out is that it is always a communication issue. On the aspect is, they always have a communication issue or problem. And so, what I've actually learned recently and through training ... cause I actually looked in to this stuff ... and I've always been trying to figure this out better. It hasn't been always at the top of the list of what I wanted to do. Like I was more concerned about business and opportunities.

Patrick: Now later I'm trying to learn more about this. So the best thing that I've learned to do. And I've learned that works the best ... this is so cliché ... but it's just so fucken simple right? It's just being 100 percent honest about every fucekn thing. Like no matter what people just fear rejection.-

Katrina: Yeah.-

Patrick: That's one of the most basic things, humans don't want to deal with. They don't want to deal with rejection. So they're going to put a mask on, they're going to alter the things that they say and change the things they say. And not be generally honest person. But I think it works out ... this thing is shaking like crazy ... you gave me this thing, I don't know what the hell is going wrong with it.-

Katrina: The tri-pod. Sometimes of gets loose and the top and you've got to tighten that little wheel.

Patrick: Yeah, how the hell do you tighten the wheel? Oh there we go.

Katrina: You hold the other and then you move just the wheel bit.

Patrick: There it goes.

Katrina: That took me like six months to master. It used to drive me insane.

Patrick: It was just bobbing around.

Katrina: Hello.

Patrick: Hey there we go. Being 100 percent honest, so cliché, but its what people don't fucken do.

Katrina: But what if we just said what we think right? What if every time we communicated what I'm actually thinking or feeling, and maybe it is actually scary sometimes to say that or confront it. Okay. Fricken take a deep breathe and give yourself a slap on the cheek and say it anyway. Because it's never gonna serve you to hide your truth. Not in this era, not gonna serve you in this obviously.

Patrick: By you saying this, and what you do and what you talk about in every other business and aspect is the key. So should come to you with relationship advice, they should come to your with communication advice. This is the thing that works the best.

Katrina: Okay. Can everybody just note that Patrick said I'm an expert on relationship and now I'm gonna do a course on it. You heard it here.

Patrick: There you go. You've been dubbed.

Katrina: Of course I'm going the to do a course on it at some point. There's gonna be a course on everything. Your ideas of ... you said the things they want most from you is relationship stuff. It's funny cause I asked that same question yesterday in my group. And the thing that most people said they either want me to talk about backwards ageing or about sex. But then when they gave more detail about what they want about sex. I was like okay I'm not gonna do a tantra course or something. I thought they meant sex, the act of having sex. They meant the sexual energy and manifestation I think through sexual energy is what they meant. So a little bit different but still related.

Patrick: Yeah they are. I'd like to get in to see what you have to say about that as well too. You know just now getting into that male to female energy. Because males ... A especially ones that are good at communicating with women. They have a certain amount of female energy. It's a yin and a yang.

Katrina: Of course.-

Patrick: They have that inside of them. That's me to a certain degree. A lot more male ... a lot more on the male side. But when people notice I have this, they have more female in them. They can communicate better that way. And-

Katrina: Were they accessing it? Because they already have the male, they already have the feminine in you. It's whether you're allowing it through or accessing it.

Patrick: Right, exactly. So another thing I've also learned as well ... everybody's got problems right? I've got a problem too about myself but, I've got a forward free attitude about things. I'm not scared to die. So some people who communicate better with women, better across the sexes. Some men who do this, are men who are concerned with security. For example, men who don't like to fly or put themselves in positions where they could potentially die. They understand security and that is more attractive to women. And that allows them to communicate better with women.

Katrina: Why is that more attractive to women? Explain that.

Patrick: Because women are more interested in security, for the most part. I know you're gonna say, "Well I have my own philosophy."-

Katrina: Is that your impression of ...

Katrina: No, no, no. Was that Katrina right then? Cause it was appalling. It was worse than when you did the accent. Which was a British.

Patrick: I was gonna say, I saw the look in your eyes.

Katrina: No, no. Calm down. I was confused. If you think back to when we were on the phone last week, I know that I directly said to you was women want to feel stability and security but that has to do with ... to me that has to do with full authenticity with what each person wants and knowing where you stand and knowing what the other persons true desires and hopes are. You know? And what their boundaries or standards are, right?

Patrick: Yeah.-

Katrina: I feel stable and secure ... as best as you can know what somebody else is thinking ... but if I know what that persons really thinking and wanting. As opposed to marriage doesn't give security, living together doesn't give security, all these things that people think, when I get that in my relationship then I'm safe, then I'm secure. Then I'm set up. Well I've certainly learned that those things are, that's smoke and mirrors.

Katrina: I'm not saying you shouldn't have those things if you want those things, but that is not where security or stability is found in a relationship. And there can't be any security or stability if there's not honesty, right?

Patrick: Absolutely.

Katrina: And real honesty because I feel like most couples out there would say that they're honest with each other. But it's like to a point maybe. Because there's certain areas that are just taboo or consider acceptable. Or if my partner knew that I thought that, or wanted to do that then they would reject me. So it comes back to what you said before, that fear of rejection. Which is just fear of not being accepted for who you are.

Patrick: Yeah, exactly.-

Katrina: I was confused when you said about the thing about dying, that confused me.

Patrick: Well I was pulling something up. I had a conversation and I was talking about this too and it was more of an attraction thing to have ... I do believe the sexes are different on a DNA level, they're different.

Patrick: There's things that you guys find attractive about us that are totally fucking different ... totally fucking different than what we find attractive about y'all. You know? And what draws us to you and what we have to maintain. We have to maintain certain things with women to keep a relationship going. If we start acting a certain way, your DNA is gonna tell you, you gotta get the fuck rid of us. If we start changing our behaviour?

Katrina: Like what?

Patrick: Well for example if we went from attracting you with being more of an alpha male and we got into the relationship we start being more of a beta male. We started letting ourself go, becoming a fat fuck. And not maintaining that same energy and vibe. We weren't congruent with who you're originally interested in. And we started changing our habits and letting things go. Not only would you see not attracted, you would feel a certain thing inside you that I gotta get rid of this mother fucker or just tear him down to get him out of my life. Or a lot of women ...-

Katrina: You wouldn't feel safe. If I was in that situation I would feel emotionally unsafe. I would feel like this guys can't decide if he's going right or left in his life, and on a fundamental ... I think you might need to turn your lighting on ... your in the dark. On a fundamental level, from a survival point of view ... some women might be angry at me for saying this but women want men to protect them and take care of them.-

Patrick: That's right.

Katrina: On some level if come guy can't decide where he's going in the course of this day, then how the fuck is he gonna take care of me or protect me or have my back. That's what I would feel. Even if I didn't assess that in my conscious mind. On a subconscious level that's what I would be feeling. Then you'd feel unsettled, you'd feel destabilised. Then that would turn to resentment and anger at the guy because it would feel like what the fuck I thought that you were there for and I could depend upon you emotionally, if not in other ways. Then all of the sudden the floor just fell out from under me. So at first I'm gonna feel scared and I'm gonna feel upset. And then if it doesn't correct I'm gonna get angry. And then I think men ... women start to get angry and they turn hard and they turn into bitches and they activate their masculine.

Katrina: Then if you add to the fact that right now we're largely speaking to of audience of women who are driven, successful women or are already in their masculine in business. So then if you've got a relationship if the man's not being a man and not leading. Then the woman is gonna be so far in her masculine, which is gonna result in all sorts of whacked up shit, weight gain, angry bitch syndrome, or whatever you wanna call it.

Katrina: And it becomes this vicious cycle where the guys not becoming more and more in his power and the women is feeling like she's gotta be in the power and be in charge. But she doesn't want to do that ... maybe some women say they want to be the boos in the relationship ... not the women I know though ... I know women are out there who are like fuck men, but I feel like those women don't feel that at their core. It's just how they've learned to protect themselves.-

Patrick: Yeah.

Katrina: I know for me and my clients, we're all very driven, high achieving women ... but we talk about this all the time so I'm speaking from my heart ... we want the man to be the man. We want the man to lead, we don't wanna be in charge in the relationship. But if the guy ... like you said ... if the guys not being in his power and not being a leader and not being a "man", then the woman's gonna feel in order to feel safe and for survival reasons she gonna be like, I've gotta fricken run this game. And then be angry at you for not doing it.

Patrick: Exactly. And that's the communication thing that we're talking about. People need to know this ... like you have a great beat on this thing ... but most people are like what are you saying the DNA has nothing to do with it. It is, it's very much genetic survival level shot right here.

Katrina: For sure.-

Patrick: Doesn't matter if you're a woman or not. You're still gonna feel the same thing. If a dudes acting like this, you're still gonna have problems.-

Katrina: Yep.-

Patrick: You might not know where it's coming from. But if you trace it back to this, that's where it's coming from. It's coming from cave man shit. Cave man days.-

Katrina: Yeah.-

Patrick: If he's starting to act out like that and you're starting to have problems and you're wondering where these communication issues are coming from. You can trace it back to this.

Katrina: On a level were still cave women and cave men and our hormonal systems and our nervous systems operate the same way. And even if a women doesn't have children, psychological, hormonally, and from the nervous system she's wired to want to protect her young. Even if she doesn't have any kids, so that will come up as well, right? Even if it's a relationship with no kids, if the guys starts not being a guy, the women's gonna be worried about that for her own sake but there's also wiring in there hormonally that's like, shit you can't protect my babies, even if they don't exist.-

Patrick: Yeah.-

Katrina: So that brings up even more anger and hormonal responses. So it's just ... I feel grateful that I understand this from when I was in the fitness industry for years. Cause for eight years I actively studies hormonal patterns and advanced hormonal science, it wasn't just physical training that I did. So I get it all from that. So I've learned it all from business as well as my own relationships previously ending. And then watching so many clients end up in broken marriages or broken relationships. And then just looking at these patterns and it's like strong women need and actually want strong men, right?

Katrina: They don't wanna be the one who's acting like the men in the relationship.

Patrick: But they also need better men too. Because this is the thing ... all that stuff is true and you've got all the underlying communication going on right here. You've got the ... now we understand we've got to be this type of dude. I've gotta make sure I maintain that as well. But I've also gotta be an honest dude. I have to be congruent and say exactly what the fuck is on my mind. Exactly what the fuck is going on. Cause all this other bullshit, this hiding thinking I'm just gonna leave or whatever. That's not what a man does. A man doesn't have a problem with that. A man's not worried if she leaves her or not. That's not how she should be. It should be all of free, she should be free to do what she wants to do. If she wants to leave she can leave.

Patrick: But if she wants to be with you she should stick with you. All that stuff should be lined out and laid out honestly, from the get go. From the ... if you lay it out and have a clear map of what's going on. Otherwise you're gonna have these hairline issues, but your whole shits gonna be based on this milky murky service.-

Katrina: It's not stable.

Patrick: It's gonna be very unstable, yeah. That's why the one key that opens everything up ... and there's never really a problem when you're honest. If you already built something based on fucking lies and stuff already and it's got so far, then you're probably gonna have a problem.

Katrina: Yeah.-

Patrick: People are probably are married and shits already set up like this. So in that aspect ...-

Katrina: They didn't just set it at the start.

Patrick: Huh?

Katrina: Yeah, you're right. They didn't discuss it at the start. And I ... that's a hard one cause I'm no longer in the relationship that wasn't working, right? But imagine that you're in a relationship and you loved that person ... and I know quite a few people who are in this situation, right? They're in a really fucked up, toxic relationship. They're both being assholes. They're both hating on each other. The male/female dynamics are all screwed up. But what if they're still in love. What if they still love each and they want to make it work.

Katrina: Well then it's like anything ... it's like if someone ends up 50 pounds overweight ... if I remember one time I helped a client lose it would have been near 100 pounds. She went from being chronically obese to being a fitness bikini model, winning world titles, unbelievable, fucking amazing. But it took 18 months ... it was even a bit more than that. And in that time, she really fricken showed up, every single day. She did what I said to do, she gave her all to it, she completely changed her life. She wasn't just like, I want to lose weight so I'll go to the gym three days a week. She committed to her health and fitness 100 percent. And she ended with a result that is so rare for someone to go from being chronically obese to a bikini fitness model ... and by the way she was 44 as well when we did this. It was phenomenal. And to this day I think she's one of the most impressive things I've seen.

Katrina: And I think it's the same thing. If somebody's in a really toxic relationship but they do love that person, they wanna stay with that person. Well both can change but you'd really have to fucken be committed to that. It's not gonna happen if you go to a therapy session every weeks. Or if you do a date. Everyone's like we do date. Okay, I'm sure going to the movies once a week is gonna fix all your problems.

Katrina: What about ... how many people are communicating and actually being brave enough to share what they're really thinking. That's what it would take. I'm not an expert on it, I have done that, turning a relationship around like that. And I believe fully that of course it can be done. But it would require both parties to be committed and it would require that all in attitude, like my client had when she lost all that weight.

Katrina: There was something I was gonna say there.

Patrick: Well that ... look what Brandon said, he's actually saying something, he's not trolling today ... he says being able to express emotions is not from a place of weakness. That's good too.

Patrick: If you're doing the date night and stuff life that. You're on that and everything trying to make it work. But the guy has to be vulnerable with still maintaining all the other shit that we're talking right? All the other vibes the alpha vibes and things like that.-

Katrina: Still being a man.-

Patrick: All that same stuff. Free too. I don't give a fuck. I'm gonna do what I'm gonna do, but I'm gonna continue to be social, I'm gonna go out and do what I do and have a good time. And whatever still be that way, no matter how mad you get, that's still going to happen.

Patrick: But also vulnerable. Saying how you really feel about it. I don't want you to fucken leave. I don't want you to go anywhere. You're a huge part of my life and I don't want you to leave or do anything like that. To say something like that but still maintaining the other stuff, that is not said. That you just do, the behaviour that you have.-

Katrina: Yeah.-

Patrick: That's the way to keep it going the right way. So you're maintaining on the subconscious level but also with being vulnerable to a point. You still have to have that female come out.-

Katrina: Well that's huge for women for sure. I know I've heard this so many times in different relationships in my life. And I hear this a lot through client and friend conversations too. I think men will tend to assume that we already know how you feel. And they'll be like she knows I feel this way about her. She knows that I don't want her to go or she knows I love her. But you know what? We want you to say it, a lot. That's just what women want.

Katrina: And this is exactly something I wanted to ask you. I was gonna get your opinion on this. My female friends for example ... my best friends, so like Linda who was on the live earlier ... Kelly, whoever my friends are. We communicate with each other every single day ... I don't know if all women do this but my friends and I do pretty much daily ... we'll update each other pretty much about everything that's going on in our days. Almost like, it's a form of journaling. I'll be driving and walking and I'll be sending audio messages to my friends. All my friends, this happened and then I thought this, and then I'm analysing my shit or giving them feedback on this maybe.

Katrina: But then it's kind of like a continual communication there. Even if one of us is doing an event or really busy with something, there might be less communication but we still check in. And women check in with each other all the time. We have a continual communication. My point is that we do that even if there's nothing to talk about. Where what I've observed with men, it seems to be like, there'll be communication there is there's something to say or if there's something specific to discuss. Or if you end up talking to someone then you end up talking and communicating. But men don't do the check in communication thing.-

Patrick: Yes.-

Katrina: And I think women kind of want that ... well we do want that. And then when men don't stay in contact we feel like like maybe they're annoyed at us or they've forgotten about us or they're not really into us or something like that. Because we wouldn't do that. We always communicate with other women. But we expect to communicate with men and then I think it's like where's the line. I know when I was journaling last year, what's my ideal relationship I remember specifically writing down, I don't wanna feel like we have to check in with each other everyday. Like I don't want to feel like you've got to check in with me each day, I also don't wanna feel like I've gotta report back on my fucking actions or something like that.

Katrina: But then I want that communication. So what's your take on that, what do men feel about communication, if there's nothing really to communicate about. Communication for the sake of communication.

Patrick: That's definitely 100 percent. It just depends on the guy and how he communicates. The more he sends you messages the better, cause that's sign of good communication. He understand that a women wants to hear that. That y'all want to hear that. That you need back ... not even like check in ... but I understand like saying what's up? Just to let you know you're on my mind. That type of stuff.-

Katrina: Yeah, yeah, yeah.-

Patrick: If the dude doesn't do that very well then he's not communicating very well at all. I can understand how people get that way, especially entrepreneurs. Because they get so busy ... especially with social media, the computer age, your so inundated with information and your so inundated with things going and your life gets so busy that you skip past that sometimes.

Patrick: Or your just constantly ... we're constantly in from of the phone talking to tonnes of clients. It can get really hectic. That's the way it is in my life at least. That's the way that I'll find myself slipping up on my own communication. And not really doing the right thing on that end.

Patrick: Any guy ... every guy needs to know that you should do that. Women need to hear that, that they need to feel that. That you have to have a constant string of communication like that. If you don't then you need to find a chick .. you haven't really found the one that's worth it for you. You need to find someone that's worth it for you to do that for.

Patrick: If you've got somebody then you don't need to be with them. You need to go let them find somebody that will give them that.

Katrina: Yeah.-

Patrick: Any guy that knows what he's doing will communicate every day. At least that's from my experience.

Patrick: What do you think?

Katrina: Yeah, for sure. For sure. But I think sometimes also men just don't know this. I think they legitimately ... this is what I've heard or read or figured out from observing ... sometimes I think men think, what I said before. You said men need to be vulnerable and say what they're thinking and feeling. And a lot of times men think, oh she already knows that I feel that. But it's like even if we know, we still want to hear it. Kind of repeatedly.

Patrick: Yeah, yeah. Still say it even if you don't get a response from it. Keep on saying it. Keep on saying it. Just keep on going. Same thing with their life. Y'all can get busy too.

Katrina: Yeah, yeah, absolutely.

Patrick: It's the same way though. That's where the miscommunication comes in. But do never stop telling a woman the stuff that you feel about them. Should never stop doing that. It should be consistent. Consistent thing.

Patrick: As far as guys go, how we communicate. Me and my best friends we just send meme's back and forth I work with my friend. So we'll pick up the phone and talk business.

Katrina: Yeah.-

Patrick: Calling ... people don't fucking call anymore, you gotta call. And talk too. Pick up the phone and call.-

Katrina: Yeah.-

Patrick: Meaningful talking, tell them what's on your mind. Tell them how you feel, that's what all of this is all about feelings. All feels.

Katrina: It goes both ways cause I know we get really scared to say what we're feeling, cause it's just that constant vulnerability. Fear of being exposed or fear of feeling that you've opened yourself up. Vulnerability that you might get rejected or hurt. So if men what to say what they're feeling more, women need to be brave enough to do that as well. And ultimately realise that if you tell a guy how you feel and you share your truth. And then that scares them away or they don't agree or don't like it or they don't align to it. Then that's fantastic then you figured out not to waste your time. Better to say what you really think and you really want and having a discussion about or feel like, nope that's never gonna happen, that doesn't move it for me, I don't like it, I don't align to that. Well maybe you got hurt or you feel hurt but actually you saved yourself a fuck load of effort and time, rather than dancing around hoping you can ... what? Trick some body into wanting to be with you or something?

Patrick: Yeah, yeah, yeah. You also got ... sorry I was just reading some of these comments ... but you also got ... fuck I was thinking of something ... fuck ... my brain, I just had an aneurism ...-

Katrina: Just a minor little one. You look fine. You seemed to have survived. Marsha says you love the accent. I don't know if you means your accent or my accent.

Patrick: What I was going to say is if the guy also has issues in the past ... as I do .. I have issues in the past, that I've been fucked over before, plenty of times. All you have to fucken do is say it. Very fucken simple. Just fucken tell the situation.-

Katrina: Yeah.-

Patrick: You've been fucked over. Who gives a fuck, the same way as there are as many clients in the world. There's as many women in the world. So why don't you just be honest, you're gonna run into somebody. Just be fucking honest, say what the fuck ... say what is really going on.-

Katrina: Yeah, for sure.-

Patrick: What think she's gonna tell her friends and you're never gonna get laid again? Don't be stupid, and turn away getting laid. Say what you really ... don't lead people down this death trap. If you've got issues, if you got shit you need to work out. Bring that shit up to the front. Let em know, boom what you get yourselves into, that way they know. That way from there it's so easy to be honest. '

Katrina: Right. Totally. Women appreciate that. I don't know if men wanna hear all that. Actually I wanna hear your answer to this cause I saw guy the other day say ... I can't remember where this was maybe a post on Facebook or something ... I saw a guy say, I don't wanna hear all your issues, I don't wanna hear your shit that happened with your ex or something. And I was kind of triggered by it when I saw this post.

Katrina: Okay, I wouldn't want to be going on and on about my previous relationships all the time. But it does feel like to me it's relevant or important to talk about cause that's part of who I am in as a person and part of my growth that I'm currently doing ... for me personally for example ... is a lot of it is what I learned from previous relationships that I didn't want.

Katrina: So to me it makes sense that I would speak about that to some degree, with the person who's in my life. I saw this guy put a post up like, you know, men don't wanna hear that, we don't want to hear your stories about what happened to you before or what your feeling. It was maybe kind of an asshole post but I was like, is that true? Cause women do ... we do actually wanna hear those stories. We really wanna hear where somebody's at and what they're thinking or feeling. Cause then it comes back to civility and we feel safe. Okay now I understand it.

Patrick: Like if she's worth it. If she's worth it. Bad communication if she's worth it and you don't wanna hear her fucking past because that's all good shit right there. You want to know her demons are up, you want to know who her fucking enemies are because you want to go, her enemies are your fucking enemies, right? That's your job as a man. So you gotta ... this is all information you should wanna hear ... like I said, if she's worth it. If she's not then bounce down the road.-

Katrina: Yep.-

Patrick: But if she is, if she's worth it to you then that would be the lamest thing I ever heard. I bet she's probably not getting much ... like you said you were getting turned off ...-

Katrina: Yeah I unfriended him.-

Patrick: There you go.-

Katrina: I only keep how bad people and I was like ... okay thank you for showing me who you are. But I was curious ... then I felt insecure by it ... because then I was thinking that I've shared things that have to do with my past relationships even with you and then I was like, shit is that an annoying thing to do. Should I not be doing that? Then I kind of questioned myself on it. And then I moved on. But I was curious if other men think that or this guy was just random dude on my newsfeed that somehow snuck.-

Patrick: That's a random dude. You wanna know as a man who wants to be better man who wants his relationships to last, you should be more than interested, more than happy. And those people be like, oh my gosh I can't hear this. I know some dudes thinking this way. But fuck man you probably suck at communication. Look at your relationships. Look at what you got going on in your life. Look at the woman of your dreams, is she still there? Probably fucking not.

Patrick: You should wanna hear that shit. You should want to listen to that and hear it. You wanna know what her crazy is. You wanna take her crazy. You wanna be able to handle ... just drop it on me. Drop all the bad, drop all the negative, bring it to me. I'll take it for you. We'll play these games together.

Katrina: Yeah, yeah.

Patrick: That's the best ...-

Katrina: That's pretty cool. I think that's definitely what makes us feel safe. That's what we want. We want to feel that way, safe to express. And it's also because relationship are constant growth. There constantly giving you an opportunity to see your shit. Sometimes your shit comes up. I think the more a relationship is a soul alliance relationship the more that it actually can show you your shit and bring your shit to the surface, so sometimes it can feel a bit relentless or a bit fuck I don't wanna be faced with all my shit every fricken day. And it's kind of life with mentoring as well. With a solo mentoring, I know I'm such a mirror for my clients, that sometimes they don't want to hear it. They're like fuck off Kat. Get up, go away, I don't wanna be in that space. And it's well okay, they're gonna come back anyway cause this the growth that I know I need. Right?-

Patrick: Yeah.-

Katrina: This is what I need to step into. And I think with a soul alliance relationship it's the same thing. The more that there's a true connection there the more it's actually for your growth for both of you. For your growth and healing so it may or may not last forever, whatever that is, but either way when there's that connection and that time together, you're both going to continually get confronted with your shit and then it's, okay, yes it feels uncomfortable or I feel scared or I feel triggered or now I'm feeling insecure.

Katrina: So the two things I've really learned from that is, like what we've just been saying, tell the other person this is what I'm feeling. I'm feeling insecure, I'm feeling this. But secondly also look at, what can I learn from that? How can I grow from that? Because is that real and true or is this my reactive story. Maybe something happens and then it reminds you of a previous relationship, where that meant something bad or scary so then you automatically assume something bad or scary's gonna happen and you get into this reactive state and this reactive story rather than actually seeing for what it is. And being like ah ... like a huge one for girls is if they message a guy and then the guy doesn't reply, right? Or doesn't reply for a few days or whatever.

Katrina: We'll go into a massive tail spin drama, like clearly he hates me now. He doesn't like me at all, he's not interested and then ... my friends and I were talking ... I think Linda and I were talking about this ... and it was like or maybe he just didn't reply and that's the whole end of the story and there's actually no additional meaning to it at all. And you just created all this stuff in your head. Like maybe you did this, maybe he wasn't checking messages, maybe he didn't feel like replying. But it doesn't have to be, oh my God it was this and this and this and this and this.

Katrina: So for me when I notice myself having those reactions, like oh my God it means this this this and this and then I laugh at it. I'm like okay or it could mean nothing at all. I've got all my own stories and drama coming up so this is a great opportunity for me to process that, detoxify it and see where I'm living actively in, as opposed to casting in myself.

Patrick: Yeah. But he could also say something to to fix that. Like if you don't hear from me, and say like an hour or two hours after you message me just hit me back, you've probably got lost in the sauce. Probably got lost in the mix.

Katrina: Yeah, yeah.-

Patrick: Something he could fix right there.

Katrina: But without ...-

Patrick: If you're a man.-

Katrina: That's a good thing to say cause what women will think though. They would think that would make me look needy or insecure, if I followed up the message. Then he's gonna think I'm hassling him or I'm needy. So that's the female mindset.

Patrick: Yeah.-

Katrina: Right? Rather than being more ... go ahead.-

Patrick: What's that?

Patrick: Hello?

Patrick: We got a bad connection?

Katrina: No, I think I just cut you off. We're you still talking?

Patrick: I was just saying if you say something like that, then that kind of opens ... that lets you do know that that's cool to do, you know?

Katrina: Right. Yeah.-

Patrick: It opens it up.-

Katrina: Yeah. Alright I feel like we talked a lot about what women want from men but what do men want from women then?

Patrick: Well, it's pretty basic. Obviously if your a deeper thinking guy you want good conversation, good company, hanging out. But then there's always sex, the basic needs, sex ... I mean just want to ... you have to have something you really want to go for. It's like a [inaudible 00:49:22]. It has to be something you're really trying to achieve. And this could something more than, it's something you're trying to get over yourself. Something you're trying to level up yourself. You definitely want somebody you can speak with, that you can communicate with and just share stuff back and forth with. A companion is what a good girlfriend is, you know?

Patrick: That's pretty basic. Guys we don't really require that much. As long as those things are there that's fine. Also, and this just ... there's a lot of different flavours of what people are looking for out there. I can't tell a guy what he's looking for in a woman or anything like that, you know? But as far as my own wife. Being open, being honest, say what I wanna say and have somebody that's down with that ...-

Katrina: Shit.-

Patrick: Like I said, as long as I'm being honest then I don't have to worry about ...-

Katrina: Oh my God.-

Patrick: I don't have to worry about the other shit. That other persons gonna bounce off, that's gonna be my flavour. It's like the perfect client or the perfect customer.-

Katrina: Yeah.-

Patrick: As long as I keep on being myself and keep on saying what's on my mind out here, then they're gonna come.

Katrina: Be fully you.-

Patrick: My right person. I can't speak for all men on what they're looking for, all I know is that I keep doing this. Keep saying what's on my mind then the right person or right people are gonna come into my life no matter what. That's not a problem. I just manifest that.-

Katrina: Yeah.

Katrina: [crosstalk 00:51:13]

Katrina: It's the same as your friends, right? We don't worry about all this stuff in order to find any amazing friends that we've got in our lives. It didn't come about through some process surveying people, trying to be cool, trying to be whatever. You become friends with someone because it just happens somehow. Wherever you met them. There's a resonance there and you become best friends. And that's exactly how I've attracted all my friends. It just kind of happens. I just be who I am and they come along. It definitely had gotta be the same with relationship ... I think there's probably exceptions to this ... I think it can be super casual or whatever, doesn't really matter as much, it's just in the moment.

Katrina: But for anyone who you're gonna see ... for me at least ... anyone that I'm gonna see more than a few times, I've gotta have that connection, I've gotta have that resonance there. Or I'm gonna get really bored. But it's just not, it doesn't feel like a good use of my time. It would kind of feel like I would try and be friends with somebody just because they were my neighbour or lived on my street. I'm sure we could get a long and have a conversation but I'm really gonna not do that unless I absolutely have to.

Patrick: Yeah, exactly. Or just in a particular situation, you're out having fun or whatever and it's just something happens. That's natural. If you're a person who's congruent, people are gonna find that attractive about you. People are gonna find you attractive just cause you're a nice woman, you got nice hair and everything like that. So they're gonna find you attractive. I don't discount anybody out here having fun and doing all that. But for fun if you're talking about a soul connection and things like that, that just comes ... you feel that back and forth. It's just somebody who's easy for you to talk to.-

Katrina: Right.-

Patrick: It's so easy for you to pick up the phone and talk to them. Or so easy for you to text back and forth and speak to them and you can speak to them for a long time and you can speak to them for a long time, it's good conversation. If you don't have that and you've just got this shit pieced together because of the persons looks or you're feeling rejecting of that person to leave. If you don't have this back and forth then why the fuck ...-

Katrina: There's no connection ...-

Patrick: Go ...-

Katrina: Right ...-

Patrick: Just figure something else out, stope having a scared fish mentality about your life.-

Katrina: Totally.-

Patrick: You're scared this persons gonna leave. Or your scared this persons gonna think of you or whatever. And you just so forgetting that there's seven billion people on this planet.

Katrina: Yeah. It should only be soulful. The friend thing again. There's plenty of friends that I've faded out over my life in the past five to ten years as I've become more and more who I am, I guess. In business and life. There's been friendships lost along the way. It's not like I ever broke up with any friends or socked anybody as my friend. But it just faded away, like you would meet up and it would be like, so this is really hard going to have a conversation.

Katrina: So to me I have the level that I expect from all my relationships. Whether it's friends, clients, or romantically, where I'm just not gonna be in that if I don't have that conversation. And with men in particular, it wouldn't even progress beyond a certain point of that connections not there. You might have somebody and go out once or twice, but for me and my client as well ... I speak for my clients. I don't think it would get past two or three times meeting up with someone where your like, well if that conversation isn't there I can't do that. This is draining my soul and my mind. It doesn't mean I can't laugh and have fun and be social in different situations. But to spend time one on one with somebody, sex alone is not enough to keep you going, to meet up with somebody. At a certain point it's like I actually have to talk to this person as well.

Patrick: Yep. It's one that leads to deeper conversations. It just is. But with the internet now, with social media the way it is ... you're really wasting time ... I can understand back in the day with horse and buggy shit and they had to settle, settle for something out there. But you're an enlightened person, you're thinking higher level than you would be so wasting your time. And why would you do such a fucking thing? Why would you settle and trap yourself and be living in a prison the rest of your life? I could not imagine what that must feel like for some people, you know?

Katrina: Well people accept it as normal. They accept that that's just how it is. That relationships are a drain and that they're not something that I value to you. It's like something that cost you and I felt that way for a period as well, as you know. It was just where I was at in my journey that I bought into that belief. But fundamentally I didn't believe it and I wonder ... I see so many people who are so unhappy in their relationships and they just think that's how it is. But typically the people who I observe that are like that are the people who are not creating their life purposefully in other areas also. They're just accepting the status quo in everything. Where as for people like us, and people watching this. You don't accept the status quo in business or in lifestyle or in health. So why the fuck would we accept it in relationships?

Katrina: Even for me, even when I was settling. I was so out of alignment and I knew it. I knew that fundamentally I don't believe this is how it has to be, of course I can have it all, cause I create my reality in business, in fitness , with my money, with my travel, with my lifestyle. Why would I not believe I can have a standard of excellence and amazingness in that area as well ...-

Patrick: That's ...-

Katrina: You can believe that ...-

Patrick: That's a self love thing though. I think we've talked about this too. A big thing is self love. I started looking at this shit and I used to drink quite a bit and I started getting into these bad relationships. I started thinking about, I'd get into these bad relationships and I'd drink. When I wake up the next morning I would always think these things, I can't believe what you did, you fucken, I can't believe you acted like that, you drank, you piece of shit, you're fucken worthless. You're like garbage and I fucken hate myself.

Patrick: So I thought this was something that happened after I got drunk. After I would get drunk and wake up the next morning just have these thoughts. But then I really started getting into loving myself. Love myself, loving the way I talk, loving the way I speak, loving the way I do things, loving the way I write and do things in general. And thinking that no matter what, even if I'm out there fucking up, I got my meme, I love the way I fuck things up. I love the way I fuck shit up ...-

Katrina: Yeah, yeah, yeah.-

Patrick: Even if I fuck shit up, it's part of my journey and I'm having a good time right?

Katrina: Yeah.-

Patrick: I love the way that I do that. I love the way I get into shit. I get into some fucken trouble in the club, whatever, you know what I'm saying? I'm having a good time, it's fun. So then I start living like that, I started waking up and started feeling like, I would even get drunk and wake up the next morning and be like, fuck ... I wasn't having these thoughts anymore, you know?

Katrina: Yep.-

Patrick: I'm like I love myself.-

Katrina: That self acceptance, yeah.-

Patrick: It's not the ...-

Katrina: Totally ...-

Patrick: I'm not telling anybody just go be an alcoholic, I have a few drinks right? I've gotta control myself still. But, everything's in order. I'm not doing totally crazy shit like driving. I'll take an Uber as where I go. I just go have a good time. And even if I did, it's still self love. No matter what you do, still love yourself cause it's part of the fucken journey. That person that really, that person that needs to be in your life can come into your life, you know? And be part of your life, cause other wise you're gonna be building this prison cell for yourself.

Katrina: Right.-

Patrick: Around these people that you don't fucken life, cause you don't like yourself.-

Katrina: Right, it's gotta be total love and acceptance. Brandon said love yourself even if you eat those fries. That's a really relevant analogy for a lot of women in particular.

Katrina: Like I spent 15 years of my life if I would eat a fricken cookie I would hate myself for it and then I would do hours in the gym the next day. Now I'm like, if I eat something that doesn't feel good to me I'm like, okay whatever, either way I love and accept myself and from a place of love and acceptance I'm probably gonna make good choices.

Katrina: Like there's many times where I might say something ... in relationships ... where I then feel self conscious or I feel like oh my God that was stupid or maybe I said it the wrong way. But I let go of it instantly now, because I'm like, it's whatever because I'm safe to be me. I love and accept myself regardless. And either this connection is real and will go on or it's not. And either way is fine. Cause like you were saying before, there's so many people in the world. The soul mate people are out there. The cookies. They want cookies ...-

Patrick: They all sound good to me right now, I wish I had some ...-

Katrina: Cookies. I just think you're so grounded when you learn how to love yourself. I know I fully love and accept myself now and that's probably really been in the past six to nine months. I think we were talking about this last week. I had to actively learn to do that though. I noticed that I finally admitted and acknowledged that I didn't love myself. That I wasn't treating myself as a person who loves themselves. And I embarked upon a bit of a journey to do that. Really, through my inner work and set work but mainly through choosing it. And also it's a helpful thing to use as kind of like, in order to figure shit out, whenever you feel unsure how to interact with somebody ... in a relationship or this is true in business also ... then you can say to yourself, if I did fully accept and love myself, what would I say in this moment? Right? -

Patrick: Right.-

Katrina: Or what would I act like? Is it something I need or want. I feel like that person doesn't know that or maybe they don't wanna give that. Well if I loved and accepted myself I would say what want. I would be okay with saying this is what I want, this is what I need. And I'd also be okay with the answer regardless, right?

Katrina: Why would I need to be scared to say what I want if I love and accept myself?

Patrick: Exactly. Same thing with guys too. -

Katrina: So it's a practise.-

Patrick: I could see myself though, before this, cause I've heard this plenty of times before and when I was younger. So it's very hard for somebody that doesn't love themselves to hear this kind of stuff. I don't know what you're talking about loving yourself, what the fuck are you talking about?

Katrina: Yeah.-

Patrick: That shit. Life sucks, this kind of stuff. It's very hard, maybe this will change somebody that's right on the edge of that and get it started ...-

Katrina: Well people have to be ...

Katrina: [inaudible 01:02:49]

Patrick: What is that? You said ... a guy still needs to hear this stuff to as well. Cause you've got two voices going on in your head. You got this one that's saying, yeah you got this pump up voice that's saying let's go dominate the world, let's go crush it, let's go make this money. But you also got this one that say, you fucken piece of shit, I can't believe you fucken did this, I can't believe that you fucked up again. People do this all the time, you'll say stuff, like you just fuck up, I can't believe you fucken lost your keys again, when you gonna stop fucken losing your keys. Where if you've heard somebody talk to you like this, if you heard somebody saying things to you like this, you would tell him to go fuck himself you know? If they told you, if they said things like this in real life ...-

Katrina: Yeah.-

Patrick: You'd tell em to go fuck themselves. So it's like another, it's about self love right? That's a big ... that's a disconnect right there. You have to get rid of that voice, you have to love the stupid shit that you do ...-

Katrina: Yeah.-

Patrick: You have to love all the shit that you do no matter what, cause it's just your journey. You have to flip that, so I'm telling you, that's part of it. So if you cath yourself saying things like that to yourself then that's a problem. That's something you need to ... when you do, your life's gonna be better, your relationships gonna be better. Things are just gonna fall into place.-

Katrina: And it just makes it so easy well. You realise that you can't screw up. It's not possible to screw anything up. And then the other thing I like to use as a guiding question aside from love and acceptance is, reminding myself that everything's perfect and everything's as it's meant the be. So sometime when something happens where at first you're like fuck, that's not good, or that's scary or bad or whatever. To then go, oh but wait, if I fundamentally believe that everything's perfect then that means this actually meant to be what's happened. So even though I don't understand it right now or it feels confronting or it's just annoying or whatever it is. If everything's perfect, than that means this is perfect, that means I'm safe. That means everything's as it's meant to be, I'm on path, even if I can't see the fucking path. So therefore, I'm free. So what do I actually choose to do. What is my action that I'm gonna take in this moment. What do I want to say.

Katrina: I just think relationship in particular are built ... commonly built on so much fear ... like so much masking and ding and trying to say the right thing or trying to show not too much of yourself, cause then you might end up unsafe. But really you get that safety from inside of you and it starts with love and acceptance. And it starts with having powerful, fundamental beliefs in place. Such as I believe I always make the right decision. I fully believe that about myself, but I had to process that belief, I had to cultivate that belief and even when I didn't believe it. Cause at first my mind would have been like, uh no you don't you screw up all the time.

Katrina: So then I started practising that belief. No, I always make the right decision, everything is always as it's meant to be. It is impossible for me to screw up. Even if I say something and afterwards I'm like, why did I say that? Then I'll smile and go, well maybe I can't see the reason right now but I know that I always make the right decision. -

Patrick: There you go. -

Katrina: So therefore I was meant to say that in order to learn something.

Patrick: Yep, exactly. I know I'm doing the right thing. No matter what. Not only that you have better conversations when you're honest. You'll start seeing these conversations, you'll start having these conversations, like holy fuck this is a real conversation.-

Katrina: Yeah.-

Patrick: What the fuck are these mother fucker talking about? You listen to them. I heard one like, can we skip TGI Fridays today and go to this other place? TG what the fuck? Shit that you're talking about when you're having an honest conversation, like this is a different fucking conversation. It's a totally different thing. -

Katrina: It's a whole new level. It's a level that most people will never operate on the truth of the matter. And like you said, maybe some people watch this and they're like what the fuck are these people on about. They're just full of shit or whatever. But I think people have to be understood and pointed on their journey. Even if they don't understand this to be curious and be like, yeah I feel like there's something there that I can explore and want to explore. And I wanna open myself up to that.

Katrina: Why would you not open yourself up to complete freedom? Right?

Patrick: You should. And that's why, the thing about marriage, I just don't see ... there's so much fucking different, different problems along the way. If these people have built something and they've signed a contract. If they've built it on something and they've signed a contract on something that's not like this. That's not 100 percent completely honest, which most of it isn't, let's be honest. Then I feel fucken sorry for these people. I really do.

Katrina: Yeah.-

Patrick: It's just fucked up. Cause that's society, like we saying that's hypnotising, that's brain washing, that's why people wear these masks in the first place. That why people shut themselves down, and then they get in these fucken situations and then you know, next thing you know, get date nights and all this weird shit going on.

Katrina: Yeah, but I think. I know for me, back when I got married, I'd never heard of all this stuff. It never occurred to me to share my deepest fears. I know we did speak very openly and vulnerably about a lot of stuff I guess but there were certain things where you didn't or you wouldn't or I didn't have the level of communicating or understanding that I do now have. And most people don't ... like you and I and people here, we're doing growth work every single day.-

Patrick: Every day.-

Katrina: In multiple areas of our lives and we're unbelieving all the time. Where as most people when they enter a relationship or get married have not even fricken heard of growth work so they might try and have an honest conversation but they don't even understand what that would mean to have a really honest conversation. So it's kind of an interesting one. I think even if you had a massive awesome level of open honest communication and then you got married ... but with or without you have this relationship, an official relationship. Well the only way that that's gonna thrive is if people are continuing their own individual growth and continuing to have those open discussions together as well.

Katrina: It's just ... the reality is, there's just a few amount of people in the world, percentage wise, who do that. It still adds up to millions of people obviously but, it's not the norm.

Katrina: I hear people talk about their relationships all the time or you'll observe it or you listen in. I travel so much and usually I'm by myself when I'm travelling so I really commonly will go to restaurants by myself and I'll just work on my laptop. And it's so interesting to just observe couple together. Like you can see people sit there and for the whole dinner they don't talk. It's almost like, I feel so awkward for them, and I'm not even at their table. Like they will not talk the whole dinner or they might, what are you eating? What are you eating? That's the whole conversation. Or they'll be fighting under hugged breath. That's quite a common one I see in restaurants. Or they're conversation is just so, you're wondering how they didn't fall asleep right there at the table.

Katrina: And I really think that people think that's normal. The same way that people think it's normal to feel like shit and to look like shit physically. Or to not ever have enough money or to have a job you don't like. People thinks that's just how it is. I had somebody say to me. I said you're happy in your marriage? And they said, oh we're not happy but we're friends. And I was like, no I don't fucken know what that means. That's not a good answer, I don't feel like that's an okay answer. I don't feel like the answer that we get along and we have a lot in common and we're friends but no I wouldn't really say happy. Well, why would you not get to have full happiness right?

Katrina: People think it's just not available. They think that's unrealistic or self worth shit. They think I'm not good enough to have a relationship like that, I've got to stay with what I've got.

Patrick: Well when you're in a prison you kind of get used to it, you know? That's the thing. You get used it then that's fine. This is fine.-

Katrina: Right, yeah. That's interesting.-

Patrick: Deal with it. That's what different about us, your people, most of the people that I know and I'm friends with now, that I've cleared so many different people out of my life, that's mostly people that'd think like this. People that when they get into a situation, they'll change it. That they'll go and change it. But most people won't do that. People won't change their situation. They'll just sit there and just be there. They'll sit there and be there and be stuck. And they will not try anything or take any steps to make it ... until it's too late I guess. Until people are like, we gotta go to a marriage counsellor or something blows up or somebody fucks somebody else or whatever the fuck it is.

Katrina: Yep.-

Patrick: Then they'll go take shit about it. Once it gets too late. But all of us, we're actively pursing this stuff everyday. And then I just wonder for people though, we do this every day all day. We're watching live streams and we're learning from people and we're reading books and things like that. A lot of people are watching fucking Wheel of Fortune, and whatever Dancing with the Stars, and not doing any kind of work to themselves at all. And staying inside this ticking time bomb.-

Katrina: Right.-

Patrick: Downloading this information in their brain. Not even downloading information they're just downloading soup. Whatever the society wants to programme, whichever way they wanna programme them. And just rolling with it.-

Katrina: Yeah, totally. They're not even thinking of it.-

Patrick: Yeah, it doesn't make sense to me. I'm not saying I'm high and mighty and above anybody or anything. I'm just saying there's a very big difference in the mindset out there that people need to know about. If you're just joining this like whoa. It's gonna be like a huge red pill.-

Katrina: It's jus the reality of how you live your life, how I live my life, how people who live their lives. This is what we do. We do growth work ... even when we're not doing growth work, we're doing growth work because it's in our thoughts all the time. Even if I'm just hanging out with my friend, having a glass of wine and talking. We're naturally just talking about growth orientated stuff. Everything I do in my life, turns into content, largely. But it turns into growth work as well. So, that'd be a lot for somebody to try and catch up with or keep up with. At this point I don't feel that it would be remotely possible for me to have relationship with somebody that's not growth orientated like how the fuck could that work?

Patrick: Somebody just said that. One of your people just said that. Ashley Hogan said she couldn't be involved with somebody that's not involved with growth and build themselves up.

Katrina: Yeah. Because I'm just gonna keep going like that. I'm just gonna get better and better at being me and I'm just gonna keep elevating all areas of my life. So any person that's gonna come along for that ride, friends, clients, romantic partner, it's gotta be, they've gotta be doing the same thing in their own life as well. Otherwise I'm up here and where the fuck are they? Floating around watching fucking Netflix. How are you gonna resonate there? It doesn't ... it's not an energetic match. That's why we all ultimately find each other and we build these communities on Facebook where we are ... so amazing living in this day and age. That we're able to find the other people who live ... who are like us.

Patrick: That's why that's so important. People are always asking, "Oh you think there's so many coaches or whatever? Now you're out here trying to make coaches too, and stuff like that." It's like, "Dude, there is never going to be enough." Of Kat's ... you need to join her programmes and do her transcripts. Gonna show you how to do this, gonna show you how to speak, gonna show you how to keep putting this out there. There needs to be more of this shit. There needs to be more honesty out there. That's much need, you know? It's just a much needed thing right now.

Patrick: There never gonna be ... anytime I walk out the door I hear these conversations. I see this stuff going down, this bad communication. This bad communication, this bad vibes. Just bad conversations all the way around. That people can live their life whatever way they want. But I know what it's taken me to level up. I know what it's taken you to level up, to a point. Then we continually to level up. We definitely need more of it. A lot more of it.

Katrina: Yeah. And I think also we've got to be okay with letting people live their lives and ... you know sometimes you just wanna wake and shake everybody. But it is speaking to the people that have an openness and a desire to hear it. So, the more that we stand in our truth and share our stories, even like we're doing right now in this live stream ... it empowers people to respond to what's already inside of them.

Katrina: I know even though I'm not a relationship coach, obviously. But I have written enough, little bits here and there about relationships. To where I've have so many people say to me, "Thank you for writing about this stuff, cause it's helped me to realise that I don't have to accept what doesn't feel good in my relationship." Or, "That I could start believe that I could connect with that I have any amazing soul connection with." But then it works the other way as well, because a big part of how I learn that it's okay ... that I'm allowed to have what I want in a relationship. That I don't have to pretend that I don't have different desire than what I have, is through other people shining their light.

Katrina: Like Alexa, who I've not talked about a lot ... I'm not sure if she's still hanging out but she jumped on ten minutes ago ... she was the coach in my life. Like, "Hey you can say what you want to a guy. Like how you feel about non monogamy and these things." And I was like, "Whoa. What? You can say what you want?" It wasn't that long ago but for me I was so used to hiding that truth in that area. That my mind is blown, you can say what you want, you can be yourself, that's the answer. You don't have to learn how to communicate ... we're talking about communication right? ... that's were not telling you, "Oh here's what men want to hear in ten easy sound bites." And, "Here's ten text messages that you can send to a woman that's gonna get her to sleep with you." No were just saying, be yourself. That's the whole answer to this communication.

Katrina: So I've had connections that shines their light where I've been like, "Ah, yes. That makes senses. That's what I'm feeling." And it kind of gave me permission. And the more I speak and share about it, and you as well with your community and what we're doing here together. Then definitely for sure, after this live stream, there's gonna be some people that have some honest conversations with their partners. Or maybe firstly with themselves. And that to make shifts and changes. So it's a ripple effect. The more that each of stands in our power and truth and be okay to share that with other people. The more that we are able to create that butterfly effect or ripple effect and make a change.

Patrick: It's tough. There will be some tough conversations if people actually take it and apply it. But I saw it through my coach, as far as communicating. I saw in him and how honest he was and I was like ... just to see it in action, it's something else. It's something else to see somebody ... and I realised I wasn't doing that so much in my life, or how much I was lacking in it. So seeing them doing it, is a fucking punch to the face, you know? It's like, "Why?, Why?"

Patrick: Everybody says this shit, just be honest. But nobody's fucking doing it. So just to see somebody doing it. I don't know ... and I haven't seen anybody, I haven't seen anybody be as honest as this guy is with women, you know? I've never seen it in my life. It was a mind blowing thing. So to see that is like ... seeing is believing, right?

Katrina: Yeah. I think that you get inspired by that or it makes you think and do stuff differently to a whatever degree. And then from there it's like anything it then becomes a practise. I know I keep practising speaking my truth. And I get better and better at it everyday. I have a personal rule or philosophy around it. Which is for all areas, not just this area. This one I feel like I gotta think about it more, which is that I will require myself to say what I'm feeling. To always speak my truth. But if we're already communicating then I'm gonna be honest and speak my truth, obviously ... not obviously but that's what I try and choose ... it might not be obvious for everyone.

Katrina: But also if I'm going through my day and doing something or journaling or whatever. And then something comes up inside of me where I feel like I really wanna express this. And then my fear mind is like, "Oh my God. You can't say that. That's scary or that's wrong or that's not appropriate. Or that's gonna ... he doesn't want to hear that." And my rule is no you gotta fucken say it. I will require myself to say whatever's coming through me, not only if the communications already under way, and it if feels like that's not too full on to say. But literally, any truth that is coming up gets to be expressed, gets to be expressed.

Katrina: So one of the things I've set as an intangible for myself, just recently. Cause I keep going to the next next level with this stuff and always learning more. So my current intention that I'm really focusing on is, I'm safe to express myself in love. Self expression. Which just means in all relationships, this area about friends and clients, also same thing cause there's love there also. That is whatever is true and real inside me, I'm safe to express.

Katrina: And if it's coming up in me, like a knock on the door to your soul. Like, "Hey, you wanna tell this person that. Or you desire to have a conversation about that." Then you reach out and do it. You don't go, "Oh, that's a bit full on. Or I'll just leave it. I'll kind of let it slink away."-

Patrick: Yeah.-

Katrina: Because then you've put a wall up between you and that person. There's wall that just when up. And the whole damn point is supposed to be knock the walls down, not adding to them.

Patrick: The universe testing you as well, you know? What are you gonna do in this situation? Are you gone lie? Are you gonna fucking bitch up and lie? What are you gonna do? That's what it's doing ...-

Katrina: Yeah. Yes.-

Patrick: It presents you with one situation after another. You wanna decent ... are you ready for these clients? Are you ready for your dream clients? Who are all the way in and go all the way in with you and trust you and you get them amazing results? Or are you gonna play this bullshit and go back and do what the fuck they're doing. Act like everybody else does. Which way are you gonna do it?

Katrina: Yeah, and it not just lies, telling an untruth. There's also lies of omission. If you're not saying something or feeling or thinking then you're hiding your truth.-

Patrick: Right.-

Katrina: You can tell yourself a bullshit story that it didn't come up in conversation or it wasn't the right moment or whatever. No there's something in you that you're not expressing. Your literally living a lie. You've put a mask on. You've added another mask. And if you just committed to just full self expression your life would so much easier. It would be easy because you'll only have the perfect people in your life. It's like business messaging right? Maybe you had some thought that are not gonna be popular if you publish them on Facebook. Some controversial or polarising shit. So no you don't gotta say, who's gonna make you say? But if you don't say it ...-

Patrick: Yeah.-

Katrina: You're not really sharing who you are. You're lying by your omission and you actually make it impossible to attract your soul mate people.

Patrick: You're taking a step back. You'll get punished for that too, I think. Just by not getting to wear you're trying to go. I do it too, I do it too. I'm still constantly worry. And I'm totally totally free so. I hear you talking and I'm like, fuck. Like you're talking to me cause I do that stuff sometimes to. I was doing it last night. I made this video and I kept thinking, well the video is about this, exactly what we're talking about. I make it on the gramme. I was just like ... I kept stopping, going back and redoing it, you know?

Patrick: Not changing anything. Just adding more to it or trying to piece it together the same way. But I felt like I was fucking with it, you know?-

Katrina: Right.-

Patrick: Like I should've just dropped it that first shot and got it out there.-

Katrina: It was a self doubt thing.-

Patrick: Yeah. But I also think, I only have a minute. Trying to think of things I wanna add to it. So I was thinking ... but just by doing that I was thinking, "Damn, I'm really fucking with my art" I'm changing it up and changing the message here.-

Katrina: Did you post it in the end.

Patrick: God damn gramme. Yeah it's on there. I posted it on my wall too. You already liked it.

Katrina: Oh, a video? Oh yeah I did watch a video of yours yesterday.

Patrick: Yep.-

Katrina: Yeah.-

Patrick: Yeah. One of mindset videos.

Katrina: I think one of the biggest breakthroughs of all area of life is speaking your truth. But it's not just when you open your mouth that you speak your truth. I think the missing link a lot of people don't realise or wanna admit is, speaking all of your truth. Like whatever comes through you, if there is a relationship that's important to you and you're having thoughts of how you feel or what you want and you just choose to keep them to yourself then you not in full conscious communication and you're limiting your ability to connect with that person. You'll eliminating the ability to let the relationship grow and flourish. You're letting fear rule you and it's the same in business as well.

Katrina: You're either saying your whole truth or your not. There's no in between. There's no grey area there. It's a yes or no thing. So if you commit to full self expression. Of course there's gonna be many times that it feel uncomfortable or maybe even with that video where you feel like, I'm not sure it's as good as I want it to be, maybe I could improve upon it ...-

Patrick: Yeah.-

Katrina: That is what came out in that moment though, so it was actually perfect.-

Patrick: Right.-

Katrina: Right. I know for me, many things I've published over the years I'm like that was pretty shit, that was lame or half ass. Often are the ones where I get like, "Oh my God, that just changed my life." So you just don't know. You can't judge your own message either. I just keep learning over and over again that you can never go wrong with speaking your truth. The truth ... it's cliché ... but the truth will always set you free.

Patrick: Yeah it will, because it's the truth, you know? And the world just has to deal with it. That's why I'm glad I'm on this journey at 32 so I'm glad that I'm finding this out. You know it's all part of the plan, it's all part of my growth and my story. So it's at the right time that I've started settling into this. And I used to do it quite a bit, but there's things you have to watch out for. There's so many people, there's so many different ways you can get sidelined on this stuff. One is not knowing, not being aware of this.-

Katrina: Yep.-

Patrick: But now that I'm fully aware of what's going on I can defend myself against the influences that are out there who want to constantly beat this out. I used to speak it all the time. Like in 2011 I was on Facebook saying the most outlandish shit. But a lot of people weren't. Now we got all the PC bullshit coming through. And people are getting fired for saying shit that's on their mind and stuff like that. I'm one of those people that believes you should be able to to say whatever the fuck is on your mind. That's what we live in, freedom of speech, you know? Well here in America, that's what it's about, you know? Freedom of speech is what we're ... and I love that freedom more than ever. It makes more sense these days, you know? It just resonates with me so much now. That's why it's number one, it's the first amendment, you know?

Patrick: It's just so important. But anyway people started getting banned on Facebook for expressing their ideas and things like that, now its happening too. So there's all these outside influences that can get you to stop expressing your ideas, you know? When it's at that level, that's a big time, like big thing. A corporate industry is running everything. Trying to silence those view points so that's a big thing. You have governments that are trying to silence your voice too.

Patrick: But to me, I'm just saying these things happen on the outside. And I'm like, fuck. There's all these thing I notice now, I notice what's going on. And just like I notice them in other countries happening, I notice them coming from other people who want to try and silence you, cause they don't want to hear the truth. They don't want to hear your truth. They'll try ... I've had people slide in my DM's already. Slide in my DM's, try to say shit like to throw me off. They try to say the most deepest fucked up things to you, to try to get you to quit speaking. That's all it is. They come at you and try to pretend that they're saying something to you that's helpful for you. But really all they're trying to do is get you to stop being you. That's what there looking for.-

Katrina: Yeah.-

Patrick: You know?-

Katrina: And that's just the unconscious sheep coming up.-

Patrick: Yeah, the sheep.-

Katrina: Yep.-

Patrick: So anyways, just notice this more and more now. But now that I'm aware of it and see what it is. I'm so glad I'm having that growing experience, so now that I know that I know what I'm doing ... I know that I'm doing battle, whenever I'm doing it.-

Katrina: Yeah.-

Patrick: And I say doing battle, but I know to put my blinders on when it comes to these things, you know?-

Katrina: Right.-

Patrick: I put them on when it comes to these governments. I'm gonna be it on when it comes to Facebook. I'm not gonna think about it, I'm just gonna do it. I'm gonna do it and let the chips fall where they may. No matter what I'm gonna speak that truth.-

Katrina: Yeah. That's exactly it.

Patrick: And I'll always be good because of it. My life is gonna be great because of it, no matter what happens. It's always gonna be great because of it, you know?

Katrina: That's the thing. I think awareness is the biggest thing. We're all always gonna have times when we hold ourselves back or hide something. It's a continual process of checking. But if you've got that awareness and you catch it, you notice it. There's gonna be times for all of us where we still hide out or play small. Or then you notice it, we notice it. And then we're like, okay got it, I'm gonna make a different choice next time or I'm gonna check in with myself on why did I choose that? Why did I feel unsafe? Or I felt insecure or fear of rejection or putting my truth out there or whatever it might. So then you learn from it, you grow from it and you come back stronger.

Katrina: Over time it gets automatic, to where that's who you are. Then also then all those people that say hurtful things to you, they just fade away. The more consistently you just shine off and speak your truth, they see that you're untouchable, they can't shake you. Eventually they'll get bored right? There just looking ... the fear body in them is looking for a reaction, looking to feed itself and get some energy off of you. Id you don't provide that for them. What are they gonna do? The wander away or you convert them to your message, one or the other.

Patrick: Well that may be so. Maybe they will. I just think it's interesting. But you are so right about that too. It's getting easier and easier ... I remember when I first got started on this path it was the most fucking difficult thing in the world to do. It's like did I let them ... how far did I let these influences fuck my shit up, you know? Silence my voice ... how far did I ... how long ... why did I do it so long? Cause of this fear. And then once I unleashed that and I saw it's possible, and I saw what was possible. Now it's like, well damn. I want more of the that. What can I seek out more of that? Where can I find out how to do it more? I learn more from those people who do it.

Patrick: I listen to it more. Where can I experience it more? I'm willing to go, fly across the country to just be around people who do it to the max level. And it's getting easier and easier everyday. And that's what I need to do. Cause now I've got so many clients. Now I'm gonna have to deliver for them on that level.

Katrina: There you go. It's all happening. Alright I gotta go eat something.

Patrick: Travis says, far I'm dying. I don't know what he's talking about.-

Katrina: For far to fucking long. He's talking about when you weren't letting your be silenced.-

Patrick: I didn't read that.-

Katrina: He goes, for far to fucking long. Hey Travis.

Patrick: How long do we listen to it? Too long, too long. Oh man. Yes.

Katrina: Mind you mother.

Patrick: That was.-

Katrina: The truth is on.-

Patrick: Triggered by the truth.-

Katrina: Alright.-

Patrick: Triggered by the truth.-

Katrina: I'm gonna go get some food. If you didn't comment on our live stream people, comment and tell us what you thought. I think it's a good conversation.

Patrick: I'll drop back ... damn I went full redneck with it there, I don't think you heard it ... I'm gonna jump in here.-

Katrina: I missed that.-

Patrick: You did. Good.

Patrick: I'll just back in here, if they have any questions for me, I'll jump back on here and see what's up.

Katrina: Oh yeah. Put the link in to your group as well. Guys go join Patrick's group, Entrepreneurs, and he'll give you link and I'll put my link in as well. And I always read the comments later as well. I know when I'm talking or were talking we ignore a lot of the comments cause we're in our flow. But I always come back and read the comments. So leave a comment and catch you next time.

Patrick: Peace out. As always it's been a pleasure. Later.

Katrina: See yah.

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Katrina: We are live.

Matt: So you just wanna like rest that on you?

Katrina: Sure.

Katrina: Is this lighting gonna be good with the beach behind it for your videos?

Matt: It's gonna be a bit hard to get it all in.

Katrina: Hello.

Matt: [inaudible 00:00:19]

Katrina: I look amazing on my own live stream, but that's a one-time thing. We need it to look amazing on the actual videos.

Katrina: Hello, people. People of the internet. Hello and welcome. I'm gonna turn the camera around so Matt can say hi to you.

Katrina: Matt's gonna film, filming myself. I'll explain it in a moment.

Katrina: So we're gonna do, hello Michelle. Hello, Amber. See, I find that the only way I can sit properly on this throne is to sit up like this, in some sort of a lotus ninja position. But I don't want that-

Matt: It's gonna be like just wear your boobs.

Katrina: Okay, perfect.

Katrina: Hello, floating devil Katrina. Have you seen this? Come and check this out on my live stream. Centre more Katrina, so Matt can see. He's not seeing it yet. Look at those little floaty Katrinas.

Katrina: And look that says 1%. Send some press play ones, guys, be helpful. Send some press play ones. Where are the press play ones. It's so cool. There's some Katrinas. They look like little possessed demons. And that says press play.

Matt: That's awesome.

Katrina: How cool is it?

Katrina: Oh, and if you go watch this replay on my page, it has a banner down the bottom that says-

Matt: Oh, [inaudible 00:01:36] idea.

Katrina: Which is so next level here. High tech as fuck. I feel like my own live stream here is off-center. Who wants to see behind the scenes of creating my new funnel? Who? Who? Well, presumably all of you, or you wouldn't have jumped on. Hi, welcome. I'm gonna explain what we're doing. Hang on, I've gotta tell my team I'm live. I am live. Please share. Okay, don't forget. I'll just tell you right now. Do it right away. I'm messaging Kat [inaudible 00:02:08].

Katrina: I'm about to film, hang on, do you think I need my press play cushion in the frame there?

Matt: I wouldn't see it in this but if you want [inaudible 00:02:17].

Katrina: Okay, yes. Pass it over. Throw it over.

Katrina: It's happening here.

Katrina: You can never have too many sparkles in a live stream. That's a proven fact. It's in the Wikipedia.

Katrina: Oh, that's better. All right. Welcome to the show. Do you know what? Remind me always if we're filming and I have a hairband on my wrist, 'cause I'm always shitty about it afterwards. Lucky I just noticed. I'm shitty about it when I see the footage.

Katrina: So Matt's here doing my professional videography. He's gonna create a new episode of what's it even called? Katrina Ruth Unchained or is it still called Kat Unchained?

Matt: Kat Unchained.

Katrina: Kat Unchained, if you don't know is one of my, it's my publicly created and edited and put together show which Matt films, edits, creates,

Katrina: And it shows lots of cool insights behind the scenes of what I'm doing and what my team's doing and how I bring things to life. You should go check out previous episodes of that. You would get a real cool insight into the journey that is me. Even the journey of the evolution of Kat Loterzo into Katrina Ruth.

Katrina: And today we're gonna create a new episode of that, 'cause why would you not? We haven't done it for ages, 'cause people are just travelling merrily around the world too much.

Katrina: But we're also gonna film three videos, I think it's three videos. Let me find the three specific short videos that will only be like two to three minutes each and we're gonna use these videos, me and my team are gonna use these videos in my new funnel marketing. So i thought that rather than selfishly film only by myself and then you had to wait till you saw it on a Facebook ad and then you didn't understand what I'm even doing, why would I not just share with you the behind the scenes? If you love that idea and you think I'm amazing, send me extra love, hot emojis and extra press play ones. No, 1% ones, 'cause they're pink and they match the throne.

Katrina: How's your footage? Am I all set up properly?

Matt: Yeah, it's good here.

Katrina: Before we start, I wanna remind you, thank you [Min 00:04:18], for dropping that comment right there. Before we start, I would love to remind you that there are, or tell you, because you might not need reminding, 'cause maybe you don't realise this but there's only three places left for reach out empire. Reach out empire has just begun a couple of days ago. It is my most transformational one on one intensive six weeks one on one, you and me, me and you, us together. I will kick your ass with love and compassion every single day and sometimes a little bit harder than that. You're gonna get super accountability. Super alignment. Super ass kickery and all the crazy results [inaudible 00:04:52]. You should check out just all the testimonies we'll be posting everyday. They are bad ass as fucked. I real, as fucked? I realised I've been, this is a confession. Katfession, you should film this, Matt, we can use this for some kind of little page. Who wants a Katfession?

Katrina: Soon, I'll tell you what we're doing with the funnel. Here's my Katfession. Hashtag Katfession. I actually have two. But the first one is, I'm talking to this camera now, just so you know. The first one is I haven't been, pretty much in the entire history of my business or maybe back to the fitness business, I don't show client results. Like, I'll show them like once a year, or I'll sort of mumble mumble them under my breath.

Katrina: I consistently get insane client results, like people making crazy amounts of money. Fast. But better still, alignment, random weight loss, which just happens from alignment anyway, whole life up levelled, location free stuff, quitting jobs, getting into [inaudible 00:05:42] relationships, whatever it is. And my clients are telling me this stuff every day. And pretty much for years, pretty much since I was showing bikini body results, like years ago. I just haven't shown that shit. And I think, I wonder if anyone else has done this? I think that I had some kind of reverse weird ego thing going on with it, where I was kinda like, "I don't want people to think I'm just kind of flaunting myself on the internet".

Katrina: And so just kind of note it down and obviously, celebrate with the client, but then never tell people. And so I kicked my own ass around it. You've gotta kick your own ass from time to time. You can't wait for somebody else to do it. And I just got over myself and started fucking posting them everyday just since like last Sunday, but they're insane, the results that I've been posting and it's been so inspiring for me, 'cause it reminds me how bad ass my clients are. But I gotta admit, I've always been like, "What in the fuck? Do I not like making money?" I mean, clearly I make a lot of money anyway, actually, which is another thing just relevant to the fact that you make money from your energy, not from whether you post testimonials. But it does make a difference. So there you are.

Katrina: So if you wanna see all those, you probably been seeing them all week on Facebook anyhow. Reach out empire. Three places left. This will sell out. My estimation is, my prediction is that it will sell out by lunch time tomorrow my time. So let's say, maybe 24 hours from now. So you wanna message me, message me, message me on my Katrina Ruth personal page right away if you'd like the full details and overview of that. I don't know why this is my new thing. I think it works for me. And I'll get you the details and if it's for you, we will get your ass in, it is one on one. You get unlimited one on one access to me, by the way. And also this is the final chance to work with me at the intensive six-week rapid result level for the significantly lower investment than the only other way that you can work with me one on one, which after this will be my $72,000 Inner Circle. And at some point, of course it's gonna be on reach out empire again, but it's gonna be way later on in the year.

Katrina: All right. I had another confession, but I'm gonna save it. You can just stew about it and wonder what it is. It's super embarrassing for me. So we're gonna film three videos. Three videos. Here they are. What we're doing. I hate being under command you guys. I fucking hate it. So I know I said that I was gonna live stream this so that you can see behind the scenes of how we're creating my new funnel and I'll talk you through what I'm doing, because I think that's a nice thing for me to do and it's helpful of me. So I give myself credit for being a nice person and a helpful person, but if you wanna know the real initial reason that I decided to do that, it's because I fucking hate making things under command and then the way that I would feel happier about it is doing my own content at the same time. Even though, technically, this is my own content, 'cause it is for me.

Katrina: And [Frank Cohn 00:08:33], who's my private mentor, and is the most hilarious man on the internet and also fucking amazing marketer and the only person I'll listen to on internet marketing has asked me to do this and so indeed, I will.

Katrina: So what we're doing is were creating, I believe, a five or it could be five to seven small videos that are gonna be roughly two to three minutes in length each, I believe. Let me check the minute time over here of what they want.

Katrina: No, okay. So, Matt, what's your take on this? Hang on, let's put Matt on the camera. People who are talking should be seen. So [Brahman 00:09:05] says it could be up to six minutes, but it can't be six minutes just of Katrina talking, can that mesh together with other interesting random stuff, mash up with testimonials and client footage or be [inaudible 00:09:21] stuff? What do you think about that?

Matt: What's this for? Oh, for this.

Katrina: The videos.

Matt: Yeah, we can do that, yeah.

Katrina: We can do that. You heard it.

Katrina: All right. Of course we can. Like he's gonna be like, "No, we can't do that. I refuse. I won't do it."

Katrina: Okay. So basically, I don't know why I'm worrying about how long I should talk for, 'cause I think we all know that I'm gonna talk for exactly as long as I desire to talk for and when I'm done, I'll be done and not before, but really it shouldn't be longer than five or six minutes, 'cause these videos are for Facebook ads and as much as I do think people love to watch my shit, they're not gonna watch Facebook ad videos for no longer than six minutes and they're probably not even gonna watch six minutes either.

Katrina: Brahman says, "I would be okay with the video done professionally for six minutes long, but it can't just be six minutes of Katrina in front of the camera." I think everybody fucking wants six minutes of Katrina in front of the camera. I feel like that's offensive, but maybe not new people who don't know me yet. We would need breakaway shots of purpose-built footage samples from live streams and still images from the Kat archives. While I wouldn't wanna tell you what to say in each video, and indeed she should not, because good luck with that, attached is a high-level storyboard of what could be included in the videos.

Katrina: Look how fucking strategic I am. I don't think I've ever done so much planning in my entire adult life. I'm gonna go off script now and do whatever the fuck I want. But basically, what we're gonna do is we're gonna have five, there'll be no business to [inaudible 00:10:44], John. I think you've manifested that I always reply quickly to your comments, 'cause I saw you said that the other day, now I find myself responsively doing it. You've somehow trained me on it.

Katrina: I don't know if I care for that sort of neurological conditioning. So what was I saying? Five to seven videos. Here's how it works. You'll get the first video in your newsfeed. The first video is gonna be that one we made in Santa Monica, you know the one Chris produced from, the official one that shows the whole story and bad assery of me. That's a good video if you've not seen it. It's super high-level.

Katrina: And then if they watch 25%, this is how the campaign works. If they watch 25% of video number one, numero uno, then they get elevated like in a, what is it, video game. They go to the next level. They get to watch the next video, which is gonna be this one. Katrina talking about journaling. See, even though I love journaling, and I'm totally happy to make a video about journaling, when I read this, my inner mind just goes, "Katrina talking about journaling." Okay, fine. I'll talk about journaling.

Katrina: Why, what, when, where, how? We need the video to answer a question. Possible questions could be can journaling change your business overnight? No. But maybe. Okay, fine. Yes. Is this one thing the reason you're constantly stuck in your business? We gotta think of a question. Tell me a good question.

Katrina: Don't worry, we'll get it. And then we want breakaway video shots. Video shots of Katrina journaling, still shots of Katrina journaling. Shouldn't be a problem. Okay, so we're doing that. Then we're doing a fitness video. What? No, we're just talking about self-care and fitness. And then we're doing messaging, about messaging and sharing and unleashing what's inside of you with the internet. I'm sure I have many things to say about that. And we're gonna do a sales one, as well.

Katrina: Those are the four videos we're gonna film now. I may or may not livestream the whole thing. We're gonna let it be freaking real, right? So it's not supposed to look like no mistakes or something like that. There's gonna be outfit changes for this livestream, just so you know. Because that way, every time they get a new video on their feed, they're gonna see, I chose the scenery myself. They're gonna see the same background, but I'll have a different top on, so it'll look a little bit different in the feed.

Katrina: So then each time they watch 25% of a video, they go to the next video, 25% or more and that's what they'll then see in their feed. And so the four videos that I just talked through, they cover what you might know, 'cause I've talked about this a lot on my four daily non-negotiables, right? So some form of inner work, like journaling. Some form of self-care like fitness. Some form of messaging and sharing your work when you're out with the world, and some form of sales activity. I say over and over again, these are the four things that you wanna do each day to be super fucking successful as an entrepreneur creator.

Katrina: So the purpose of this funnel, this Facebook ad campaign, is to obviously indoctrinate people into me, into my message, into what I'm here to teach, get to know me, have some fun. We'll probably mash through some client testimonial stuff, as well, of course. And then at the end, or somewhere throughout, what it's gonna be promoting, what the funnel is promoting is my inner circle.

Katrina: So as I just mentioned earlier, after these final three places for reach out empire are sold out, then I'm focusing only on the inner circle for some time now and really investing my time and attention into my existing private clients who are in reach out empire, as well as into the inner circle and growth of the inner circle.

Katrina: And so, that's what I'm doing this campaign for, as well as obviously, general indoctrination into the Katrina Ruth community. And then there'll be other things that get marketed into the funnel, of course, beyond that.

Katrina: So that gives you the whole story, now you're up to speed. Are you good with how it all looks?

Matt: Yeah. Any chance we can move the front of it a little bit that way?

Katrina: Yes. Yeah, that's good. All right. Let me have some water before we begin. All right, so-

Matt: Do you wanna have a look before we shoot the whole thing?

Katrina: Yes. Okay, we'll go and look how I look on the camera, because-

Matt: Can you sit down for a sec?

Katrina: Oh.

Katrina: Can you get the whole Grateful Dead top in or not?

Matt: I can.

Katrina: Because one thing that drives me insane is that when I'm doing my own livestreams I can control my appearance, but when somebody else is filming, I have no fucking idea how I look and I feel very out of control.

Katrina: All right. So anyway, what I'm gonna film now. I look amazing. All right, show the people. Good job. All right. We're set. We are safe to continue.

Katrina: Anyway, so now basically, I'm just gonna talk to you about journaling, so really you can ignore the fact that I'm filming this behind the scenes and I'm just gonna drop some bad ass value and content on your ass and that way you don't even have to watch all the Facebook ads, you can save yourself the time.

Matt: So you just look in this camera?

Katrina: I can't talk to you guys, though. Did I put that back in the right spot?

Matt: Yeah, that's fine.

Katrina: I'm not gonna look at you. I'm gonna look at this camera. All right?

Matt: When you're ready.

Katrina: Do you know what? I'm having a moment of nervousness. I feel like what I need to do first is just watch a minute of Frank Kern's videos, remind myself of how he intros himself. That's right, people, sometimes I'm not sure of myself and I go into a mild panic. Label Frank Kern. We're all gonna watch a minute of a Frank Kern video now. He has 44,000 views on this video. I adore Frank. He's the president of the internet, if you aren't aware. Did you know that?

Matt: Nope.

Katrina: Just like I'm the queen of the internet. He has Tony Robbins on his video. I don't have that.

Video footage: My name's Frank Kern. About ten years ago [crosstalk 00:16:33]-

Katrina: What's happening? He seems to be talking fast.

Video footage: ... great joy and honour to work with Tony. He's just a real fun guy and the same person that you see on stage and on screen is the same person you'll sit across the table from.

Katrina: All right. I've got it now. I just needed some Frank Kern energy in my soul before I began. I got it now. Thank you, Olga.

Katrina: Isn't it funny? 'Cause I have no problem live streaming for like 59 hours straight and it would be such gold content and why couldn't my team just not fucking chop the content out of a live stream and use that for the ads, that's what I get shitty about. As soon as I've got like a topic, Matt notices this more than anyone, 'cause he's the one that has to put up with it, then I'm like I don't feel as natural and I get it done eventually, though.

Katrina: And then I'm proud of myself, because I'm continually just exploding past those comfort zones, people. All right, let's talk about channelling now. Do I need to turn like that way?

Matt: You can if you want. Yeah. That's probably better.

Katrina: So should we turn the whole throne a little bit? 'Cause in my-

Matt: Yeah.

Katrina: ... off centre now? If you know what I mean?

Matt: Yeah.

Katrina: Okay. Just the normal everyday sermon, should we turn the whole throne a little bit. All right. So now I'm not gonna look at you guys, but you're gonna get some gold about journaling. [inaudible 00:17:54] for five minutes, okay.

Katrina: I'd make a terrible camera woman on a news show. I feel so nervous.

Katrina: Hey, it's Katrina Ruth here from the Katrina Ruth show and today I wanna talk to you about the most powerful practise, which has transformed my business and my life and allowed me to bring in multi millions of dollars per year, just by putting my purpose book out into the world, connecting with clients who I consider to be my soulmate clients and doing the work that I know I was born to do in the world.

Katrina: What I'm talking about is journaling. Now if you've never heard of journaling, or maybe you've not really dived into this as a practise for yourself, or you don't know much about it, then I know that probably the response you might be having right now is like, "Journaling? How can journaling really change your business or allow you to create anything that you want into your life?"

Katrina: And that's exactly what I'm here to tell you. I feel so passionately about this that when I hear that people don't journal, or they don't journal consistently, I kinda feel like as if they would've told me that they don't drink water. I feel like alert. We need to tell somebody. This is the problem. This is like a national disaster. How are you living like this? I mean, I understand that you're somehow surviving and getting by, but do you realise how powerful this practise is to allow you to call in and to create everything in your life?

Katrina: Now I've been journaling since I was about six or seven years old. I don't think I was using journaling for manifestation at that point in time. I think I was logically documenting my day, like dear diary, and then when I got a little bit older, I'll admit I used to hide in the bushes in the front yard of my parents home and I would kind of take notes like Harriet the Spy. I would take notes. Some people as they were walking by and then I would make up stories about them.

Katrina: But by the time I got to about 18 or 19 years of age, I naturally or maybe I read it in some personal development books, probably heard about it from somewhere, but a lot of it just kinda naturally happened. I love to write, I love to be inside of my own head, I'm a natural introvert and I am a writer first and foremost, and so I started to just naturally journal about a lot of my hopes and dreams and I guess, use it as a way to process my thoughts, but also write down goals and ideas, do brainstorming, make little plans and slowly but surely, over time, I noticed that I had this pretty consistent habit of writing down the things that I wanted in my life, so kind of like, yeah, my dreams and my visions and the things that I wanted to bring to life.

Katrina: Probably when I was around 21 or 22 years of age, I started to learn about and understand about manifestation and I know I watched the movie the Secret when it came out, which was roughly around that age for me, as a lot of people did and I was sort of fascinated by this idea that you could just focus on what you want and then create it into your life.

Katrina: And pretty much like I do with everything to do with personal development and creating your own reality, I straight away believed, even though I didn't understand how.

Katrina: Now if you have that same sort of belief inside of you, even if you don't understand how, then I know that you have so much available for you, that you could literally step into within the next several months, the next several weeks, in fact even now, using the power of instant manifestation.

Katrina: And this is exactly how I live now and how my tens of thousands of followers and clients around the world and smaller group of private clients, obviously, but how my extended community and clients around the world operate. We call in our reality. We write into reality the things that we want.

Katrina: For me, I've now been journaling in that way since, well, at least when I was 21, 22, journaling my affirmations and dreams and goals down, I'm 38 years old now, and so for well over a decade, for a decade and a half plus, I've been actively writing down what I wanna create and I've been learning different things about journaling and the power of our words along the way.

Katrina: What I wanna impart to you is so powerful and so important that I feel like it's almost impossible to get it through to you, but I guess to just kind of make my point here, every single thing that I've written down, that I then held a belief with some faith around has come to life.

Katrina: When I look around me, like literally right now when I look around me, I'm in my own studio right now in my home. I've got full wall-to-ceiling ocean views on seven balconies in this home. This is a double story sub penthouse apartment. I've got my own studio. I make millions of dollars a year just by showing up and being me and writing and speaking to the camera like this.

Katrina: I work only with bad ass soulmate clients who really align with my message and who I feel like are the same sort of person with me. And they kick massive ass, they take names, they create incredible businesses all around the world doing what they love and on top of that, I've achieved my fitness goals. I continue to achieve and maintain my fitness goals, lifestyle goals, love and romance, fun and adventure, friendships, you name it. And every single one of those things started with me writing down my dreams in a journal.

Katrina: So here's what I want you to do. I want you to think about what is it that you really want. Firstly, are you admitting to yourself what you really want? I think one of the reasons that journaling is so powerful is it's kind of like a mirror in front of you, right? It's holding up that mirror in front of you. And you can't run from that. You gotta look there, look it in the eye and look your own inner self or your highest self in the eye and confess what's in there. I think that most people out there are continually running and hiding from their dreams and refusing to pay attention to the message that's coming through them.

Katrina: So journaling is a powerful tool to simply acknowledge and let what's inside of you come up and put it into words. Words are powerful. Words create reality. Yes, you can do that without writing them down, however the written word is incredibly, incredibly fucking powerful.

Katrina: And so when you write that down, you lay claim to it. You take a stand. You create some accountability around it and you already in fact, start to bring it to life just from writing it down. In fact, there's many different tips and tricks around journaling for how to word things in a particular way that brings them to life faster and that's something I can certainly teach you more on and talk about as we continue our journey of discussion together.

Katrina: But for now, I want you to think about what is it that's inside of you that you're hiding that you're not maybe admitting to yourself that you're running from. Can you put that into writing? And then from there, it's a matter of stepping into permission around it, right? So acknowledging first, this is what I want, this is what I desire, this is what I feel is available to me inside of me.

Katrina: And then through that process of writing it down, taking the time internally to go, you know what? I'm going to give myself permission. No, I don't know how, I have no clue where to start or what I would do to bring this to life, but I'm going to give myself permission that I do get to have this. That can feel incredibly scary. Journaling is a scary and confronting thing to dive into.

Katrina: And from there, though, it's faith. It's faith-based. So if I've given myself permission to have this stuff. If I've acknowledged that it's inside of me. If I then choose to believe and have faith that I could bring it to life, then what aligned action am I going to take as I go into my day?

Katrina: And so this simple process might take you 10 to 15 minutes in the morning of just kind of checking in, tuning down, writing down some of the things that are inside of you. You don't then have to go and make an action plan, but it's about the fact that you've set that internal compass. You've pointed yourself in the direction of what you want. It will impact your actions throughout the rest of the day. You can take a moment or two to think of what is an action I would take from a place of really believing in yourself, but you know what? Journaling is so freaking effective, that even if you don't do that, you've literally just moved yourself in that direction.

Katrina: So I can't tell you how passionate I am about journaling or I feel like I can't, but I just did maybe a little bit of a decent job of trying to explain that to you. I hope you found it really helpful. I hope you get out there and give this a go and if you have a journaling habit that you think that you could maybe increase a little bit, then I really encourage you to do that. Leave me a comment below. Tell me your experience about journaling and what are you gonna make some changes and shifts in that area.

Katrina: I'm Katrina Ruth.Have an amazing rest of the day wherever you are in the world, and do not forget, life is now press play.

Katrina: All right. First one done. I have no idea how long that took. How long did I go for?

Matt: Four minutes.

Katrina: Oh, is that all?

Matt: Yup.

Katrina: Great. I thought it went way longer.

Matt: Oh, actually, it's a lie.

Katrina: It's a lie.

Matt: Six and a half, seven.

Katrina: What do you guys think? Was that helpful around journaling? What's going on? People in the comments are saying they never journaled. Okay, John, you need to watch this whole Facebook ad sequence when it goes live. Everyone freaking journals. For the reasons I just explained. By the way, none of that was scripted. I had no freaking clue what I was gonna say, I just opened my mouth and it popped out. So I had a little few fumbles there, but we'll either leave them in or Matt will edit them out and put some other different footage in there or whatever is needed, right?

Katrina: So you just saw me like, I know I didn't freak out for ages. I am pretty practised, I guess at doing this sort of stuff compared to maybe a lot of people. But I still, it doesn't feel comfortable for me to do this stuff. I feel like out of my comfort zone. It's definitely why I put this live stream on, so that I would kind of put myself in that accountability and I knew that it would elevate my energy having you here so thank you and I appreciate you for that.

Katrina: I knew that it would provide good content for you, as well. Good content for the YouTube show, so I'm literally creating three pieces of content at the same time, if not more, 'cause then we can pop it on Instagram and all that sort of good stuff also.

Katrina: But I guess my point to you is, and this probably should be me just doing the messaging video now [inaudible 00:27:14]. But my point is, you've gotta just start, right? Like I feel so squirmy when I do kind of professionally created content. I don't do it anywhere near as often as I do my normal day-to-day messaging, so I'm less practised at it in that regard, but I still step up and I take that leap and I open my freaking mouth and I let shit come out and I get better and better each time.

Katrina: Like even now, how I'm presenting and even how I feel inside of myself compared to when we were filming when we first started working together a couple of years, it's a whole different thing, right? So just wanna remind you of that, if maybe creating a high level of content has been something that you're avoiding in your business.

Katrina: Okay. So we're gonna do next video now, which is around self-care. Oh my goodness, this is so good. I'm so excited to speak about this. We're gonna speak about self-care, health and fitness being non fucking negotiable for entrepreneurs, except I'm not allowed to say non fucking negotiable on a Facebook ad, so we'll see how we go. All right. Should I just go?

Matt: You gonna change?

Katrina: Oh, fuck. Thank you.

Matt: [inaudible 00:28:14]

Katrina: I better get changed.

Matt: Do you want me to, just change it all, that'd be fine.

Katrina: Okay.

Katrina: All right. We'll be back with an outfit change.

Katrina: All right.

Matt: Good to go?

Katrina: Yes. This is my favourite ever top in the world, 'cause you can see my tatties through it. Look you haven't even seen it yet.

Matt: Oh, I haven't. It's sick.

Katrina: In front of everybody else. It's like psycho. All right. Just a little intermission there. It's not done yet, though, you guys. Go around here next. I'm getting my boobs done in three weeks.

Matt: Are you?

Katrina: Yup. It's all happening.

Matt: Where you getting that done?

Katrina: South port. Dr. Ian McDougall. He's apparently amazing.

Katrina: I'm gonna do such a post when I get my boobs done. You know how everybody gets their boobs done and then they pretend that they didn't and they just kind of, they don't say anything about it and they just hope that nobody, but probably particularly their parents won't notice. I'm gonna do the opposite of that. I'm gonna post about it, and I'm gonna blog about why I haven't done it earlier, which was largely just that it wasn't a hell yes for me. But there was also a part of me that was like I'm already so out there, I'm already too much. Kind of like who do you think you are type thing. Like I've already got, you know, I've got like a super successful business and I'm in shape and now I've got tatties all over me and my hair is extra shiny and now what? I'm gonna have boobs as well? It's all too much for the world to handle, so I thought about it, but I felt like it makes me seem like I think I'm all that.

Katrina: And so then I noticed a lot of times men will post up about, "Ladies, you don't have to get your boobs done or whatever or change your body or any sort of work done." I haven't had any work done at all, actually, but if I wanted to, I will. And they think that they're putting a supportive post up, but I just find it interesting because women would never put a post up about what men have permission or don't have permission to do on their bodies, but it's kind of like women's bodies are up for grabs as far as conversation around whether you should or shouldn't do that. Like sometimes men will post like, "You should be happy to just be, we love you just as you are." [inaudible 00:30:53] a nice intention that maybe they're trying to be nice, but it sort of feels like it's reverse shaming. Do you know what I mean? Like that if you would do that, then you're not being authentic or real. I feel like I can get so much content out of this. And it should go viral. Right? Matt says yes. Okay, you guys heard it here first. That's happening May 29th. Everybody write it in your diaries.

Katrina: We should film a show, not the actual fucking surgery, but there should be a show about that, for sure. Because it's a transformational moment in somebody's life. I feel, I don't know. I haven't done it yet, but I would imagine so.

Katrina: Okay, and also I should probably be in the Gold Coast bulletin, 'cause I'm probably the last female in the Gold Coast to get her boobs done.

Katrina: Have I changed angles now? Oh, no. You just changed angles. Okay. All right. So now we're talking about fitness and self-care.

Matt: You good to go?

Katrina: Yeah.

Katrina: Hey, it's Kat here. Katrina Ruth from the Katrina Ruth show. Today I am here to give you a little bit of a smack down around fitness and self-care with love and compassion, of course.

Katrina: Here's the deal. I have worked with entrepreneurs, high performers, driven creators and bad asses for several decades long and I do indeed classify myself as one of those people and what I've learned in that time is that fitness and self-care is non-negotiable for an entrepreneur or should be, in my opinion, non-negotiable for an entrepreneur.

Katrina: And it is something that can drastically and massively improve the results that you're getting in your business, in your income, obviously in your energy, in your happiness, in your ability to access creativity and flow, and even in how much time you have available. Many, many other benefits also.

Katrina: Here's the deal though. I don't wanna come in here kind of like, all right, I'm here to kick your ass about fitness and you've gotta get to the gym, and you've gotta be in shape and you've gotta do this and this and this. In fact, not too long ago, I heard that there was some people [inaudible 00:32:51] who were kind of like, I guess you can call it, hating on me, or feeling triggered by me is maybe a better way to say it, because they said, "Oh, you know, that Kat, she just thinks that everybody has to be hot. And she just talks about being hot and being fit all the time". Now , if you don't know me well, then you might not know that my background was in fitness. I was a personal trainer for 13 years and my first online business, which I began in 2006, and which I built up to nearly a million dollars per year income before I transitioned into the business that I've created now, that was a fitness business.

Katrina: So it is something I'm very passionate about, that I have a really solid history in. I've been actively involved in the fitness industry now for over two decades, and it's part of my everyday life to this day.

Katrina: But let me tell you about this everybody should be hot and fit thing. I may have said everybody should get to be hot. I may have said something like that. In fact, I wrote a blog post around this topic not too long ago when I heard that people were getting like a little bit upset [inaudible 00:33:40], but what I mean is, when I talk about everybody getting to be hot and fit and in great shape is that hot AF energy. Why did I just say AF? Hot as fuck energy. That hot as fuck energy that we should get to experience and be able to [inaudible 00:33:54] into our businesses and lives.

Katrina: Hot is an energy, right? And it comes from when you're in a place of feeling really proud of yourself, really good about yourself, and when you know that you're in alignment with your values and with what's important to you and with how you're showing up in your business, in your life, in all different ways and areas. So that's kind of the hot thing, right?

Katrina: But if we look at the fitness and self-care thing in a little bit of a broader spectrum way, not just about how you maybe look or how you feel. Let's really consider and look at how this relates to entrepreneurs. To me it's quite shocking and I find it, I guess concerning or I feel sad or worried when I hear that somebody who's really wanting to take over the world and just create an amazing empire during their purpose work in the world is not consistently attending to their fitness and self-care.

Katrina: Now, I fully understand and have compassion and empathy around the fact that not everybody has that background or history. I am so grateful that I built this habit before I was even 20 years old and it stood me so well until this day and it's definitely crossed over into many other areas of my life.

Katrina: So if you don't have that background or that habit, of course it's gonna feel like something that you don't necessarily have time for, or it feels like it should come second to your business or maybe second to business and being a partner or being a parent or whatever it might be. It feels like something that you know is important maybe or that you do in some sort of a somewhat consistent fashion, but that it kind of gets left off on the days when you're busy or on the days when you've got a lot of balls in the air with your business or in the times when you don't really feel like it.

Katrina: So I fully get all of that and I'm the same as anyone else, I have habits that I'm still working to implement. Fitness, however, is a habit that's really well implemented for me in my business and life and I really, literally, legitimately consider it to be non-negotiable. It's something that along with journaling, along with daily messaging in my business and sharing what's inside of me, along with sales activity, these four things, fitness being one of them, I consider non-negotiable and I make sure that they happen everyday.

Katrina: The reason is, that I know that when those four things come together on a day-to-day basis, I'm moving the needle in all critical areas in my business and life. I'm progressing forward. I'm creating momentum. I'm creating results. And these things all work together to just create faster and faster momentum, flow, results, outcomes, access to the super powers that are inside of me, you name it, right?

Katrina: So I feel like when I'm taking care of these four areas, and this is what I teach my high-level clients in my inner circle for example, as well, that I've taken care of the big blocks that are really gonna move me forward.

Katrina: Of course there might be a million other things that I wanna get done for the day, which may or may not be given some time and attention through the day, but you know what? Even if all those extra things are ignored, if I take care of my own inner work, my mindset work like my journaling, my fitness and self-care in some way, shape or form, whether it's at the gym, or whether it's elsewhere, my messaging and sharing with the world and my sales activity, that's gonna get me going forward even if everything else got ignored completely, right?

Katrina: So where fitness really comes in is it's not something that takes time and energy, it's something that gives you time and energy. In fact, just the other day I was having a conversation with one of my closest friends and she was saying how she's just been eating so much more while in a fitness routine, and she was kinda like, "Isn't that weird?" And I was like, "Not really, because of course you're gonna overeat when you're not working out, because working out gives you energy". So if you're not getting that energy from going and moving your body and moving your digestive system and kind of moving your mind, as well, and clearing out the cobwebs, then you're gonna naturally go reaching for and looking for energy elsewhere.

Katrina: And particularly for an entrepreneur and somebody who's building a business from home and maybe you've got kids running around or you just got a hectic life going on and you're kind of on the go, or perhaps you travel a lot, like me. It's really easy to obviously just reach for kind of convenient foods that are not necessarily ideal or even maybe you're trying to be a little bit healthier but it's a load of protein shakes and protein bars and that sort of thing, which is not necessarily real food.

Katrina: Look, I'm not here to school you on this what you should eat. I actually don't follow a diet at all. I eat intuitively. I work out intuitively. But what I am here to say and to suggest to you, is that if you were to start making a small amount of space and time for your fitness and self-care everyday, even like 20 to 25 minutes where you gave some sort of time and attention to taking care of your body, to moving it, to expanding it, to freeing it up, to going into some kind of a physical, or mental or spiritual meditation, which can come about from that, that you're gonna find that you have time abundantly given back to you, energy given into you, you clear out any sort of kind of messiness that's going on emotionally, or you had that's distracting you form being in flow in your work. You sort out problems. I like to set intentions at the start of my work out time.

Katrina: There's so many benefits that go far and beyond the obvious kind of like, if you want a gym body type thing. If you want that, cool. But really what we're talking about here is getting your body working inside and out in the way that it was meant to. So I really urge you to consider what building blocks you have in place in your business and life at the moment.

Katrina: Are you taking care of the fundamental things that are actually gonna elevate you into being that next-level version of yourself who automatically has the energy, the confidence, the creativity and the access to super flow required in order to show up for all the different areas of your life. I don't think I gotta remind you when you're taking care of yourself inside and out, it's not about how you look, it's about how you feel, which dictates how you look and certainly also dictates how you're showing up and what you're putting out there for the world. So I know you have massive dreams and so much you wanna accomplish here and it's all available for you. Everything you feel inside of you is always available.

Katrina: We've gotta look at, if I'm gonna be that person, if I'm gonna be that next-level version of myself, and also accomplish all these fricken things in my business and life, I gotta take care of myself like a well-oiled machine, right? I've gotta treat myself as a premium machine. I've gotta treat myself as a temple, basically, that's gonna last for life and that is gonna be operating at a standard of excellence such that I can do all these amazing things that I wanna do into the world. Make millions of dollars. Impact millions of people and change the whole fricken thing.

Katrina: That's it for me for today. Leave me a comment below. Tell me about your fitness routine. I'd be happy to answer any questions. And don't forget. Have an amazing rest of the day wherever you are in the world. Life is now press play.

Katrina: All right. [inaudible 00:40:08] is watching. That's our second video completed. Cool. How long did that one go for?

Matt: Almost eight minutes.

Katrina: Eight minutes? We might have to chop some bits of it out. Actually, what do you think? Eight minutes? Too long? My brother's on the live stream. Okay, what are you guys talking about? We have shows here about that. About what? About the boobs or the fitness? Okay. I'm gonna go straight into the next one.

Katrina: If you jumped on late to this live stream, we're filming some videos here for my new marketing campaign, teaching people the fundamental stuff that I believe is really important and that can change your business and life, so you're getting all my best secrets right now. We're gonna make these into some bad ass Facebook ads and we're gonna open up the inner circle. There's so many new bad asses. Ash says can work with eight minutes. I'm sure we could chop bits of that out anyway.

Matt: Did you wanna change tops?

Katrina: Yes. I forgot again. All right. We're gonna go into the messaging video next so if you wanna hear me talk about how to message and why it fricken matters, communication with your audience, stick around.

Katrina: [inaudible 00:41:50]

Katrina: I think you could wear it over the, check it out, I'm wearing my bodysuit on top of my pants. Looks like I'm about to record a 1980s video for fitness. I'm gonna do a fitness video now. But you won't see that on the video. On my own video.

Matt: Where's the kids?

Katrina: They are probably at [inaudible 00:42:17] digging through [inaudible 00:42:18] toys. She picks them up today.

Matt: [inaudible 00:42:24]

Katrina: Oh my God. Ashley, I don't know. Can you remind me, you just reminded me that when we're in L.A., are you gonna be in L.A. July 11 and 12th still?

Matt: Probably.

Katrina: Oh my god.

Matt: I could.

Katrina: If you are, you can film [inaudible 00:42:36].

Katrina: And we're all gonna go to Ashley's new house in L.A. and have a slumber party there. But I'm doing, you know I did the retreat here in November. I'm doing the L.A. one in July at the Paley House in West Hollywood, which by the way, I haven't told any of my clients yet and I just randomly announced, so just so you know.

Katrina: Can you get me some let warmers and then we can do a fitness video?

Katrina: All right. Yes, Ashley or John O., remind me we're gonna film a hip hop music video with my clients and we're definitely gonna film like body suit and leggings fitness video together and Matt's gonna film it. He just found out about that right there.

Katrina: Everyone's gonna go to Ashley's place and we're gonna have martinis. 'Cause she's moving to L.A., my friend actually. I don't know if you'd remember, but you would know her if you saw her. She's from Sydney. So she's moving to L.A., so we're all just gonna go sleep there.

Katrina: All right. Now I've lost my train of thought 'cause I got very excited about we're gonna do the hip hop video and the fitness video. It's actually critical. If you're joining the inner circle, just to let you know, you're gonna be involved in shenanigans. It's actually a requirement. It's part of the initiation, except the initiation just keeps going forever after you joined.

Katrina: We leave tomorrow. Shit. Shout out. Following your dreams. Moving to fricken L.A. Bad ass.

Katrina: Okay, now we gotta focus. Freaking focus. People stop distracting me. So now we talk about messaging. Katrina talking about sharing her message. Why? What? When? Where? How? Possible questions could be how to create and distribute your message anywhere. Spend 6% of your day on this? I spend my whole day messaging. My whole life is message. My whole life is monetizable. I'm just like, if you come into my life, just know that you're gonna be turned into content. I'm just letting you know. Literally.

Katrina: All right. I'm ready. Maybe give me like some kind of sign when I get to five minutes, though. I feel like I'm just gonna get longer and longer with each one, 'cause I'm getting more excited.

Matt: [inaudible 00:44:45]

Katrina: Yeah. Cool.

Katrina: All right.

Katrina: Hey, it's Kat here from the Katrina Ruth show. Today we are gonna talk about one of my very favourite things to talk about of all, which is messaging and specifically, unleashing your message, your ad, what's inside of you onto the world. And the reason that you would wanna do that is, because you wanna do it. Actually, if you're watching this and you resonate with me and the things that you've maybe been seeing and you feel coming through from my bad ass little videos that I'm making for you, then I'm gonna guess that you are naturally one of those people like myself, like my incredible inner circle private clients, who wants to be seen and wants to be heard.

Katrina: Let's just be honest. When you're having a party or you're having a dinner, or you're at someone's thing, you are the one who wants to be the centre of attention and you get kinda loud and kinda shouty and kind of excited, and you tell amazing stories and really, everybody should just shut up and listen to you, right? Right.

Katrina: I know this for sure, because it's how I am. It's how my eight year old daughter is. It's how every single one of my inner circle clients are. In fact, it's hilarious when we all get together, because you've basically got a whole room full of people that all think that they're the one person who should be talking and I've even had clients tell me that they get kind of shitty at me when I'm presenting my own retreat or event, 'cause they're kind of like, "When will she shut up so that I can talk?"

Katrina: So if that's you and you know that you have powerful stuff inside of you to share with the world, you know that people should actually be paying just to listen to you and to be around you, then I've got fabulous news for you and you may already know this, but I'm just gonna kick your ass with it a little bit more. You can get paid to do this stuff. You can get paid to share your message. Like literally just what you're thinking and feeling with the world on a day in day out basis.

Katrina: It is actually exactly how I built my online business to where it now makes multi six figures per month, so it's a multiple seven-figure online business, continually growing. All I actually do is live my life and be me. Okay, I feel like I'm gonna hiccup. It's under control.

Katrina: And document that. And show what's inside of me. And so I write a daily blog. It's called the Daily Ass Kicker. I love to write. I'm a writer first and foremost, so there's no rule that you've got to write a daily blog post or anything like that, but that's what I like to do.

Katrina: I like to create videos, as well. I do a lot of Facebook live streams. In fact, right over here I've got a Facebook live stream happening at the same time as filming this video for you.

Katrina: So I'm continually sharing my message. So messaging is simply the process of sharing your message with the world. And by me doing that and doing it consistently for some time now, for a period of years in fact, on the internet, I've been able to attract in my soulmate clients from all around the world. Women and men who think like me, who know that they're born for more. Who know that they're that 1% within the 1% person, who always also have something to share with the world.

Katrina: I've been able to build a location-free lifestyle where I'm never bound to any time or place. I can go where I want when I want with my children. I made amazing friends with people all around the world. I've been able to get this amazing apartment that I love and I guess all the other dream things that I've got in my life.

Katrina: But mostly, I've been able to step fully into my purpose work and into a life where everyday I get to wake up and all I gotta do is open my mouth and open my soul and be myself.

Katrina: And that's the crux of my whole entire business. I would certainly love to share with you a little bit about how that works, because here's the deal on messaging. There's a lot of people on the internet who are posting stuff online, right? I don't gotta tell you. So posting blog posts, Facebook live streams, YouTube stuff, Instagram stuff, you name it, it's out there.

Katrina: However, what is very rare, and the reason why powerful entrepreneurs [inaudible 00:48:26], perhaps even including you, and not getting paid the way that they should be getting paid, is that they're sharing the surface space.

Katrina: They're sharing something where it's like okay I told a story. Or I wrote an inspiring blog post or a motivational blog post or I totally [inaudible 00:48:42], or yeah, I did a Facebook live or I did a video or whatever it is. It's got to have the soul in it.

Katrina: For me messaging is firstly so easy, it's not something that I find difficult or that I've gotta think about like to think about how to write a blog, how to do a live stream. Yes, I get nervous. In fact, I was freaking out before I filming these videos, 'cause I just felt self-conscious about doing professional videos, which I'm doing today for you.

Katrina: All right? So it's not about not having all that. But I don't have to think about what to say. I don't think about what to say ever any day of the week at all, and I create a lot of content. And the reason is that I don't think about it, is that I give myself permission to just say what's inside of me, right?

Katrina: So messaging kind of all the time. I write a lot of content and I produce a lot of content, but yet I feel like I'm not really doing anything. I feel like I'm just expressing what's inside of me and that's what I love to do as a person, anyhow. Just the same way as my eight year old daughter and my four year old son want people to shut up and listen to them. And they're not like this is work. I've gotta get paid in order to express myself and make people stop what they're doing and listen to me. That's what they want. Just like that's what I want and that's what I know you want.

Katrina: But for this to work, it's not only understanding that it is about just sharing what's truly inside of you and not making it complicated. Not trying to plan it out, not trying to think it out. It's also about understanding that for messaging to work and for you to build a business, based on you as a messenger, as an artist, creator, leader, then you've gotta be giving people the whole truth. The truth, nothing but the truth, and also the whole truth.

Katrina: So yes, that means the stuff that feels really vulnerable or scary to share. Or maybe you think like a lot of my clients think and I have this conversation frequently with my high-level clients. Oh, that's like embarrassing, or I feel self-conscious or is that good enough or who am I to speak about this or I already said that a million times. I feel like everything I'm saying is being repetitive.

Katrina: These are all exactly the sort of things I fully understand because I've had all those thoughts myself and I work on it continually with my clients and what it's about is plain and simple.

Katrina: What if you got out of your own way? What if you dropped your story and dropped all the bullshit about whether or not what you have is good enough or whether you're good enough and what if you just gave what's inside of you permission to live and permission to be expressed and permission to get out there into the world.

Katrina: So when I feel stuck or unsure or when my clients feel stuck or unsure, I remind myself or I remind them, it's not about you. It's about the message. Take a deep breath. Do what you gotta do. Put some music on. Put some [inaudible 00:51:06] on. Have a coffee. Whatever. And then let what's inside of you out. Imagine the power of what could happen in your business and life if you just consistently, every day, starting today, began to share what's inside of you in an unfiltered and no holds barred way.

Katrina: I challenge you to do this. Drop me a comment below. Tell me when you went and posted a new message. Leave a link, even. I'd love to see it. Have an amazing rest of the day and do not forget. Life is now press play.

Katrina: Okay. Hey, Laura. Get out your own way and save lives. Exactly.

Katrina: All right. Shot out to everyone that's just jumping on. We are over here filming behind the scenes here. Filming for my new funnel. There's Matt. He's doing my video work. He's gonna match up some amazing Facebook ads from what we're doing today. I'm just live streaming so you can see behind the scenes. We've got one more to do, I believe. And that is around sales activity. So if you'd like to hear me talking about how bad ass, how bad ass? I don't know. That doesn't really relate to what I was gonna say.

Katrina: If you'd like me to talk about sales activity. I'm gonna do it whether you'd like it or not. But if you'd like to listen, then you can listen on for this next final video.

Katrina: Hang on, wait. Ashley, if you're still in the live stream. I sent you a what's app that I need you to enter. Okay, I have a client here. A bad ass client, who's like do I wanna meet you in New York or L.A.? I think both. Oh, do I wanna do fourth of July in New York or L.A.? What say you, Facebook? Where should I do New York, or where should I go?

Matt: L.A.

Katrina: Matt says L.A. You recon? Why?

Matt: It's fun.

Katrina: [inaudible 00:52:44] fun here.

Matt: I'd rather be in New York on the fourth of July, so L.A. was fun.

Katrina: Okay. L.A. it is. You've heard it here.

Katrina: All right. Oh, hang on. I've gotta change again. Forgetting every time. All right. One more outfit. One more video. And then I think there was one other little video, but we'll do that off camera.

Katrina: Okay, I'll be back and we'll do the sales video. Hey, hey to everybody who just jumped on.

Katrina: All right. I'm making a rare appearance in a t-shirt. I basically never wear sleeves. Look at this cool shirt. [Collette 00:53:32] bought it for me. By the way, you don't have to wait for the, my hand looks massive. You don't have to wait for the Facebook ads to drop in your feed if you know that you're already supposed to be in the inner circle and by the way, you could still get into the room for our July retreat. Oh my goodness. Next-level [inaudible 00:53:55] and money making is what goes down on those retreats. It's always next-level inappropriate shenanigans. You should message me about that now if you know that that's the level you wanna play at. I can tell you all about it.

Katrina: Okay, so now. What? More videos? I thought it was only one. All right. Okay. We're gonna do sales activity. So now I'm gonna talk to you for a few minutes about sales activity. Katrina talking about selling naturally. Electrolytes. Going out shirt. How good is this? Just so people know, I'm not going anywhere. Sitting right here on my throne. I guess we'll go out later then. And so some footage of me drinking espresso, 'cause we haven't done that enough times.

Matt: And it's Friday.

Katrina: And it's Friday. So clearly, it's required.

Katrina: Sales is not a dirty word. Do you know what? I don't even wanna fucking market to anybody that thinks sales could be a dirty word. They can all go mosey on along to another town. How selling is a daily non-negotiable in my business. So I'll talk about that. All right. I think we can do it.

Katrina: Actually, I'm gonna put some more pink lipstick on for this video.

Katrina: [crosstalk 00:55:43]

Katrina: Do you think that there's a single man in the world that thinks having those plumped lips where it sticks out on the side is a good idea? I think John's the only man on this live stream. But Matt said no, so John, add your vote.

Katrina: We were just talking about it while I was in there fixing up my lipstick. All right. Ready? Do the five-minute thing again.

Matt: Okay.

Katrina: Hey, it's Kat here from the Katrina Ruth show and I am so fricken [inaudible 00:56:19] excited today, 'cause I'm gonna talk about one of my four daily non-negotiables, which is sales activity. If you've been watching my videos pop through your feed, then you'll know that my four daily non-negotiables are in fact, daily mindset work in journaling of some kind. Getting connected to that inner game. Setting your internal compass so that you go in the right direction. Fitness and self-care, of course. Non-negotiable for entrepreneurs and driven bad asses like you and I.

Katrina: Some form of messaging, because you are in fact a messenger, a leader, an artist, a creator, and you wanna share what's inside of you with the world and then fourth and finally, selling. Because guess what? If you wanna be an entrepreneur, if you are an entrepreneur, [inaudible 00:56:58] of course, but if you want to have a successful business, you are going to need to sell. You're gonna need to make money in some way. You need to ask for money.

Katrina: Whether you're asking energetically or like on the actual internet, by telling people on Facebook to buy stuff from you. I did not really make any money in the first three years of my online business, actually, I must admit. So I started marketing in 2006, except I wasn't marketing at all, I was blogging.

Katrina: And for the first few years, I made no money at all and it took me maybe two and a half years before I realised that the key reason that I wasn't making any money was that I wasn't actually selling anything. So I just kinda laugh about it, but the truth is, I didn't set out to be a marketer, I set out to write or be a blogger and then gradually, back then, twelve years ago, I gradually kind of started to learn that this internet thing was somewhere that you could make money.

Katrina: I've actually always been really good at sales, and so, you know, from a young age, I've been selling things and I've always had a hustler side. Hustle. Even as a little kid. When it comes to online marketing, I've been marketing online for over 12 years now. I've made millions and millions of dollars on the internet. I've gradually evolved and fine tuned my business to where it's completely based on me getting to wake up each day, do what I love, make money for my purpose work and live my life on my terms so somebody I met recently said to me when they kind of connected on Facebook and how to look at my life and my business like, "Wow. You're really living the dream, hey?" And I said yeah, I am. And I did the work for it. And so I'm really proud of myself, with what I've created and I'm very passionate about sharing how to create a business and a life that's location free and freedom-based and purpose-based for women and men who are like me.

Katrina: And when I say like me, I mean you've always known that you were born for it, that you were born for more. You've always known you're here to make millions. Impact millions and even change the world. And you've always known that there's something powerful inside of you to get out there to the world. And so if that's you, well, probably if you're watching this, then you're already showing up online in some way, shape or form.

Katrina: You might be early on in your journey or you might be well down the track and you're already making a lot of money. Sometimes I have clients come to me who jump into my inner circle working with me privately, who are already making 10, 20K, 30K, 50K a month. Other times, they're completely starting out and there's no money coming in yet. But what joins my clients together and the reason that my clients get such rapid results, big money leaps and bounds, big alignment leaps and bounds, big lifestyle shift leaps and bounds, as well as all other areas, is because they are that person who has that inner flame and who's always known that they're gonna do something amazing with their life.

Katrina: So if that's you and you relate and maybe you are already selling on the internet or selling off the internet, or wherever it is that you're selling, I just wanna remind you, though, that if you just make something like daily selling and sales activity part of kind of who you are, if you make it inherent to who you are, and you make it habitual, then you can elevate your income 10 times, 20 times, I believe even 100 times more in a very, very rapid period of time.

Katrina: Now this is obviously not just about how much freaking money can we make on the internet? That's amazing and it's super cool. And it allows us to have an incredible impact into the world doing our purpose work. I don't think I need to school you on the reasons to make more money, though. But I do wanna tell you a little more about daily sales activity and how it works really well for me and my clients. How I let it be easy and how I let it be flow-based.

Katrina: Like a lot of people, I've had times in my business career where I felt uncomfortable with selling and I felt a bit unsure of it. I have always sold in some way, shape or form anyway, like I said and I've always had businesses, but for sure I fell down a pattern and a pathway, like a lot of online marketers and feeling like there's a right way and a wrong way to sell.

Katrina: Now I understand that the only thing that would be wrong is if I was in any way going against what feels good for me. So I used to learn about sales kind of scripts and how to overcome objections and how to close people. I'm really good at that. I know how to apply it and you know what? I don't want to. I'm not interested in going through a scripted process in order to get somebody to wanna be my client.

Katrina: The truth is, I'm creating these videos to put great value-based content out there so that you can literally watch my videos, walk away and maybe never, ever speak to me for the rest of our lives, and you're gonna get value and it's gonna impact you.

Katrina: But I'm also creating these videos because I know that they will naturally resonate with, magnetise and call in the bad ass 1% within the 1% revolutionary leaders who are supposed to be my soulmate clients and maybe even jump into my inner circle.

Katrina: So this is actually a form of sales activity right here. But I'm not here to try and put anybody into some kind of complicated questionable system where I'm gonna come at you with a whole bunch of scripts and overcoming objections and try and sell you into working with me. I'm not interested in that.

Katrina: What I've learned about selling is that the very best way to sell to your ideal clients is to be you. Sell them on you. Just like when you meet somebody in the real world as a friend or a lover or something like that, they're magnetically drawn to you or not. You don't give them a list of features and benefits and then overcome their objections if they're not actually becoming your friend or a partner or somebody that you would date.

Katrina: So I just see it the same way. It's about building a relationship. I've allowed daily sales activity to be something that feels really effortless, really flow-based, really automated. Where all day, everyday, if you follow my page on the internet or you jump on Instagram or something, not just my Facebook, you're gonna see that I'm always making offers, I'm always putting myself out there. There's [inaudible 01:02:14] sort of touch points each day on [inaudible 01:02:16] platforms of where I'm selling. It feels easy because I've just connected it into who I am.

Katrina: So continually seeking to give value. You might've watched one of my early videos on messaging. I'm continually connecting and communicating. I'm continually sharing what's inside of me and then I'm simply making a call to action at the end. And so for example, today's call to action might be that if you're resonating with what I'm putting down, if it's like if you're picking up what I'm putting down, as the saying goes, that maybe you're gonna send me a message, right? And say Kat, I love your video. I'd love to talk about how I could work with you. I'd love to know more about your inner circle. That's it. That's my sales call to action. Pretty freaking simple, right?

Katrina: So what I'd love you to do is to think about how could you let selling be easy? What if selling was just a natural extension of you being you? What if you being you was in fact, the sales process and then all you had to do was say, "Hey, here's my thing. Here's what I think is cool. Here's a link or message me about this."

Katrina: That's actually the way that I do it. And then the way that it works is, I'm freaking consistent, whether or not I feel like it, I'm gonna show up, I'm gonna do those four things that I've spoken about. I'm gonna do my inner work, I'm gonna get my head in the game, I'm gonna take care of my body inside and out, I'm gonna express myself and share my message with the world, because that is what I was born to do and then I'm gonna tell you, message me if you wanna work with me.

Katrina: Have an amazing rest of the day. Go take some action in the sales side of your business today and do not forget life is now press play.

Katrina: Nailed it. All right. Coolio. So there you have it, ladies and gentlemen. That was our behind the scenes on my new Facebook funnel, Facebook ad, marketing campaign. Giving people a little bit of education and information and empowerment on the things that I know are critical to build a multi-million dollar business online but more importantly than that, one that is on your terms where every part of your life and business is working together harmoniously and beautifully, so that's gonna give people some cool information and education and the right people are gonna resonate with that stuff. We're gonna work in some calls to action and how we're presenting that through the Facebook ad stuff so that people can message me and reach out and talk to me about the inner circle or get dropped into a funnel and marketed to with other stuff at a lower price point if they're not inner circle peoples.

Katrina: So that's pretty much what we just did and I'm gonna jump off this live stream now. Gonna film a couple more videos for some of my offers and then we're gonna go drink my teas. What else would you do? Thank you for watching, thank you for watching. Follow my show on YouTube if you don't already follow it. Kat Unchained and I don't know if I have anything else to say. Life is now press play.

Katrina: Life is now press play. Bye.

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Hi. Yodelo. Um ... Hello world. How are you? Are you fabulous? How are you? Are you fabulous, and have you been having too much fun? Because I feel like a beautiful Saturday on the Gold Coast is a good day to have too much fun. Why do I look blurry? Why? I'm gonna sit here and I'm gonna finish eating my bowl of steak with salt on it, because my appetite is insane lately. I don't understand what's happening. I've got my chocolate green smoothie, chocolate flavoured green smoothie, which is my own supplement brand product by the way, which I still have not fucking launched, but I do have it and it tastes amazing.

I've got that. I've got my black triple shot ... coffee. And I've got my bowl of steak with Himalayan salt on it, so I'm pretty set. Hopefully ... Hopefully ... Hopefully, I'm not gonna end up with steak in my teeth. But it's a risk I'm willing to take. How are you? What's happening in your world Sarah [Bendell 00:01:48]? Daria? Whoever else is there? 22 fabulous people. Kiana, Christina, if you're there, say hello. And if you're not there, I suppose you wouldn't be able to say hello.

Maybe you could be energetically sending a message if you're not there. So, I did my blog. My blog was badass as fuck today. If you haven't read it, I don't know what you're even thinking. You should go read it. Not now, after this. So good. And it went extra long. Okay, I feel like this camera's super blurry. Am I making that up? I did my blog. I was sitting in my kitchen, which is right there, eating my steak, doing my blog, and then answering everyone's inquiries about Rich Hot Empire, and then I wanted but I was still eating, and then I was like, "Well, what the hell has that got to do with it?"

Is it illegal to eat steak on a live stream? Potentially I could lose a few people who don't care for that sort of behaviour, but I suppose I'd be okay with it. Okay. I'm having the best day ever. Thank you, Daria. My secret is that I'm lazy. Daria says, "I love tuning in to you. You're so blunt and fabulous." You know that I have to say the word fabulous like that. I said, "Fabulous." Because it's how I feel about it. It's fabulous.

So, me being so blunt, and fabulous. Thank you. I'm pretty certain it's because I'm really freaking lazy. Oh, hi Dee. Hello there Rich Hot Empire badass. Although I haven't even replied, I haven't checked your latest reply. I could check it right now. It's two to confirm. Yes. I'm confirming what you just wrote. It's done. Okay. I'll write back to you afterwards. I'll get your link and stuff.

So, anyhow, I was conducting my personal business right ... well, my business, business. Which is my personal business. It's all intermingled. Me being so blunt, and people like that, and they think it's funny, but I'm pretty certain it's just because I'm very lazy at my core, and what I mean by that is, when I ... Okay. Why do I have fluffy bits? I tried to do this side just perfectly so that I would look, you know, just kind of casually beautiful on the live stream. That was the look that I was going for. I was going for casually beautiful and feminine and sweet. Did I nail it?

If I kind of play with my hair a little bit and look a little bit girly, I can definitely nail feminine and sweet. Even though this morning I was grunting like a beast in the gym, doing leg presses, super set, with walking lunges. Man, I smashed the fuck out of my legs. And then I did, at the end, I finished with three sets of 20 reps of leg extensions at kind of my maximum weight. For that many reps, for sure. It's just probably the most vile and disgusting beautiful thing in the world, getting those final five or six reps when you're doing high reps of leg extensions. It's excruciating.

But now I've flipped from gym badass into feminine sweet person with Superdry tee shirt on. Drinking black coffee and eating steak. So, I got really bored at ... Well, I was bored with myself, and I was exhausted. Exhausted, from trying so hard to not be me. This is back in ... I can remember ... This steak is so good, you guys. I don't know how I don't just snack on steak all through the day. Well, largely I do is the truth of the matter.

Been so hungry this past week. I swear to God I'm eating probably 10 000 calories a day at the moment, if I would be counting them. I have no idea what's happening. It's insane. If I didn't know better, and I do, then I would think that I'm pregnant. I'm 100% not. I don't know, but I've been training like a machine. I'm getting stronger and stronger, and I'm already fricking strong, and my legs are getting just so rock solid defined.

So, I'm just eating all the carbs and all the protein. I'm welcoming all of it. Anyhow, in 2014 I think it was, I did an event at spiky building down yonder. I'll show you. Do you see that spiky building there? Can you see the spike? I'll go show you properly. Let me turn it around. See that spiky building? It's called Q1. There's the beach. There it is. All right, here I am again. It's the world's tallest residential building, apparently. I used to live in it. In 2014, I was living in that building for the first six months of the year.

I ran an event there, a one day business event. Actually, Dee's here. She was at my one day San Diego event a few weeks ago, the Soul Shifts and Money Making Day, which was so fun, and so amazing, and so flow based. It was Soul Shifts and Money Making. But the week before that, I did the same event in New York, and I ran into one of my clients the night before the New York event in the lift. Christie [Berley 00:07:06], actually.

And she said, regarding the event, do those sort of things exhaust me and tyre me out. And am I gonna be tired out after the one day event the next day. Thank you, Dee. It was so amazing. The energy of everybody in the room just made it so incredible, because I only attract soul mate clients in, so it certainly makes my job enjoyable [inaudible 00:07:26]. I think I need to turn the air conditioning on. I'm overheating already. Or it's the steak.

So, Christie said am I gonna be tired after the event. And it is gonna drain my energy, and I was like, "Fuck no." It does the opposite, yeah. Your coach. It does the opposite of that. It elevates me, I said to her. I said to her, I'll be levitating through the ceiling of the Union Square W Hotel, which is where we were at, and that's indeed what happened. I get so much energy from seeing my clients in person. Even brand new clients that I've never met or hung out with like an event. Oh, hey Mandy, who was at the San Diego event also.

So, I get so much energy, I get high vibe as fuck. I get kind of silly and crazy because I get really elevated. If you've ever seen me go super silly and crazy on a live stream, which I'm pretty sure happened just one time maybe in like 2017, or something. I've still got this same piece of steak in the side of my mouth. But I'm just gonna go ahead and add another one. I'm like screw it, just keeping bits of steak in the side of the mouth. Or chewing it up until it becomes, into like a mushy thing that you would then feed straight out of your mouth into your babies mouth.

And if you've never had a baby and fed them straight out of your own mouth into their mouth, you think that's probably gross, but it's actually ideal. There's even properties in the saliva of the mother that are good for the baby. So, I'm just giving you so many tips here. I'm giving you freaking parenting tips, nutrition tips for babies, I'm all over it. My daughter's first food was when she was four months old, and she grabbed a T-bone steak out of her dad's hand at the dinner table, and just started chowing down on it. Like, um-num-num. Kids love steak.

All right. So, yes. Sometimes I get high vibe and distracted, and a little bit silly, and I lose track of what I'm doing. It happens just on the very odd occasion. But anyway, after the Soul Shifts and Money Making days, I was so freaking elevated that I even needed 29 orgasms instantly, or probably like a three hour massage in order to bring myself down to life. And some wine, and some more fun times with clients. And so, actually what I did was I ended up going to bed with one of my clients. The fabulous Amanda Francis. Nobody had any orgasms. Don't freak out.

But we did do a two hour live stream together. That helped. In fact, it made us even sillier than we already were. And eventually we came back down to earth, probably several weeks later. And my point is, in 2014, I did a one day event in that building that I just showed you, the Q1 building, and I just remember being exhausted. Hello Debbie, hello Theo, hello Addison, hello everybody jumping on.

No, the orgasms are for the point of release, because I go so freaking high vibe from doing my own work, that I'm like, my head is going to explode, you guys. It's a serious genuine problem. Driven women need a lot of sex. This is an important conversation that we could get into or not get into. But like somebody said to me recently about it. Like I'm a man and need a lot of sex. And I'm like, "Excuse me, that's actually not a man thing." It might be a man thing, for sure. I'm not saying it's not a man thing. That's a driven woman thing. So, don't be like, "I'm a man and I need more sex than you." That's not how it works. Driven women need more sex than anybody. It's like in fucking Wikipedia. You can look it up. No need to look it up. You all agree anyway.

We all know this. So, where was I? So, I did exhaustive horrible event down there. It was so exhausting. So exhausting. I was high with a hot flash and the sweats, and blurry dizzy vision, from trying so fucking hard to be a professional business fucking coach. I even wore a tight ... trying to remember the names of these different skirt things. Driven people, says Pete. I'll agree with that. I'll take that. Well, it's people who are alive with life. Let's face it, sex is the creation of life. That's what it is. So, if you're lit up with life, then you're gonna require and desire a lot of sex, and also for the purposes of after you've done an amazing live stream or event, then somebody's gotta fricking deal with all that energy that's going on. Who's going to deal with it?

If nobody comes along and deals with it, then I have to freaking walk around with that shit. I can deal with it myself, and often do, obviously. But otherwise, I seriously get so high that I'm like, I cannot ... I can't ... I'm just spinning. I'm spin, spin, spinning into the sky. I need all the things all at once to just try and keep me somewhat attached to earth. I don't always wanna be attached to earth. And sometimes the sex makes you go even more off the earth. Anyway, it's a very fascinating conversation. I'm sure you'll agree. I'm writing two books about sex at the moment. One is called Three ... This is not a joke. This is the title of my book. It's nearly done. Three Orgasms Before Breakfast, semicolon, The Truth About Driven Women and Sex.

The other one I don't even remember what it's called. But both of them are gonna be amazing. So, I was wearing a pin skirt. What's it called? A tight skirt that's a pin frame, where it's kind of like ... it goes down like a pin. I don't know what it's called. What kind of skirt is that called? And it had stripes on it, because I felt like it made me look super professional, and then a tight fitted blouse. That was my professional Barbie look. Business coach Barbie. And I just wanted to impress people. I wanted to ... Pencil skirt. That's the one. I knew it wasn't pin. Thank you, Debbie.

I just wanted to impress people. I wanted people to think I was a good business coach, I wanted them to take me seriously. I didn't believe in myself, or I hadn't given myself permission to be who I am. Everybody knows this except me. Pencil skirt. Why did I say pin skirt? I don't know, I'm just making shit up. I should design pin skirts and sell them. Yeah. I guess, I just didn't give myself permission to be me. I didn't think that I could just be myself, and be a business coach, or a coach of any kind and make money doing that. It was all about showing people that you're so fricking cool, that you've got your shit together, or something like that.

So, I'm sure people had a decent enough time at the the event, but I was not one of the people who had a decent time at that event, or any event in that sort of pre ... That era. It was roughly early 2014, that exact time when I went fuck this shit, and started going all in on my own message, and doing exactly what I wanted, and saying exactly what I wanted. So, that would've been probably the last thing that I did like that, where it was just so fucking exhausting, and all of this is just because Daria, I think it was, said, "Kat, you're so blunt and fabulous." And I'm like, "Let me explain why I'm so blunt." Because I got so fucking shit of that, sick of that, I got so sick of trying to not be me and trying to present myself to the world as a successful person, and it was so tiring and exhausting, and it would just wear me out.

And so, why I'm so blunt now, and I just hang out here, being myself and saying whatever I want, the same way as how I talk with you, with me in person, nothing will change, right? People say it to me all the time. They'll say, "You're exactly the same in person as you are online." I look exactly the same, I don't look like a completely different version of myself in my photos and shit online. That does my head in when people do that, and then you don't even recognise them in person. That really kind ... I'm like, "Why? Why?"

And I talk the same, and I ramble on the same, and I'm the same, right? And I think it was because at my core, maybe I'm really fucking lazy. And maybe my whole business is because I'm fucking lazy, because in the end, I just wanted to be myself and take it or leave it, and I guess some of you took it, and so here you are. Thank you. Now I'm free, says Candice. And unapologetically me. That's good coffee. Good. I didn't wear a pencil skirt recently. I feel like I could do it for a skit though, Melissa. If I did a skit about being a Stepford-preneur. I don't have any anymore, but I'm sure I could get some from somewhere. No need to qualify for anyone's approval, says Tolepa. When we let the goal do the fucking work. So true, but I didn't really know that then. And now I know. And now I teach it.

Today we're talking about faith though. I don't know why you guys are getting me so distracted with all these other conversations. It's exhausting to try to not be who you are. That's right, Theo. It's exhausting and counterproductive, and then do you know what the worst part of it is? The worst part? It'd be like ... I've never done this, but imagine ... I can imagine what it would be like, if you made up a fake version of yourself on a dating profile, and you used old photos that were not current. Obviously I just said the same thing twice.

Or if you pretend to be interested in stuff that the person you are interested in is interested in, that sort of shit. And then you think that maybe you got the outcome that you wanted, like you tricked somebody into being with you or something. Do you know what the huge problem with that is? You then gotta keep fucking being the person that you're not. How you gonna do that? Wine. Obviously. I prefer to have the wine and be myself.

So, what do we call this live stream? Faith, something about faith. Okay, the reason I wrote this is because one person, who's an amazing badass person, who literally just took the second to last place in this round of Rich Hot Empire, right before I did this live stream. We were messaging, and she was talking about fear, and wanting to step up obviously, and be that version of herself who she knows she's here to be, but I guess the fear and uncertainty of investing and working with me, and investing in herself energetically in that way, and all the feelings that come up with that, and I talk a lot to people about fear versus faith.

And she said something about how she'd been in faith late last night, and ready to say, "Hell yes", and then fear had come up again. I am Batman, Christine. Somebody has to be. Nathan, my son, swears that I'm not Batman, but what does he know? I am Batman. He think she is. So, yeah. So then I said to her ... I just copied this title of this live stream straight out of the message thread where I was talking to her. I said, "It is a practise and a discipline to release fear and act from faith." And then I thought this is a good topic to talk about.

But then, meanwhile, by the time I'm finished setting up the live stream and getting ready and coming over here, she had already said, "Fuck yes", and she signed up. And that was the second last place, just hint, hint, hint. All right? Message me if you still want in. I can't even promote it anymore, because it's gonna sell out instantly. Probably sold out already right now while I'm on this live stream. Okay. There's like a little bit of fat there that I don't wanna eat. I'm fine with eating fat, but sometimes I don't like the taste of it.

Okay, I'm done. Now I'm gonna eat chocolate after this. A perfect diet is chocolate flavoured green smoothies, super strong black coffee, triple shot espresso, multiple times per day. As many times as is required, plenty of steak with salt on it, and some Seashell Guylian chocolates. That's all your food groups in one hit, you guys. That's a perfect diet. You heard it from me here. In fact, another book that I'm writing, and this is not kidding either, is called The Red Wine Coffee Steak and Chocolate Diet for Women, or something like that. No, not steak. Red wine, the wine, coffee, protein, and chocolate diet for women. That's a real diet. I've been living on it for 20 years. It's working fine. It's working fabulously.

Okay. Is it kinda grossing you out that I'm eating on the live stream? Yesterday, one of my clients was eating a bag of chips, very noisily, while she Voxxed me her audios, and so I figure of someone can crunch chips while they're talking to me, I can freaking eat while I'm on a live stream too. Okay. It is a practise and a discipline to act from ... to release fear, and act from faith. What do I mean by that? What do I mean, what do I mean, Anna [Shelly 00:19:37], respond. I'll just bring somebody to the mic.

I'd love to just bring somebody on to the the live stream right now. Huh. What's happening here? Oh. Callie just sent me ... My assistant Callie, just sent me, "Hi Katrina, we ..." From Facebook. "We reviewed the profile you reported since it violated our standards, we removed it. Thank you. From Facebook." Thank you Facebook. So, somebody was trying to be me yesterday, and a bunch of you guys helped out and reported that. Thank you. Okay. I'm ready to talk.

Now, 100% of the way that I live my life, is acting from faith. Sometimes I say acting from faith, sometimes I say acting from soul desires. I kinda mean the same thing. Because I believe that what my soul desires, and also requires, which is a critical word that we should dive into momentarily, what my soul desires and also requires is gonna be based on faith also. Those two things will not be in conflict.

Somebody said to me this week, something about feeling like her soul desires, what felt aligned, did not feel the same as what's in integrity. And I was like, that's not a thing. What is in alignment for you is in integrity for you. You might feel that it's not integrity because maybe it's breaking some rules. The workout live stream? What workout live stream? Anna says yes. Lizzie, I finished eating. I could get the chocolates and start on the chocolates now. I don't usually eat chocolate in the middle of the day though. Of course you can eat on your live stream. Eat whatever you want. You need to get practise tattooed too.

Oh, when I get a tattoo ... [inaudible 00:21:24] She just randomly drops into the conversation. What's happening? Send me a photo of it straight away. As soon as it's done, or while it's being done. Add the word practise on, right now. Why not? So, it's all about living in accordance with your values. The whole fricking thing is about being in accordance with your own values. Back in the day, let me think which day it was. It would've been roughly in 2013, I believe, or 12 even. Yeah, 13, I was pregnant with Nathan. I would always drive up to whichever gym I was going to at the time, back where I lived in Melbourne, and I would sit there early, at like 6AM. I would leave Alyssa with her dad back when we were still together then, and I would go early to the earliest café that opened nearby. I think it opened even at five, I'd go super early. And I'd sit and do my morning study and reading, and then my journaling, and then I'd go workout. Same as roughly now.

Same as I was doing for many years before that also. But I'm thinking of this one particular café where I used to go all the time, because I can specifically remember being in the corner of this particular coffee shop, and writing a lot to do with my values, for like a good year, I think. I mean, I'd just dive into all these topics repeatedly. But I think that I've had things through different aspects of my journaling and inner work, and I remember that my theme for a long while then, and back when I was going to this coffee shop was around my values, and really just getting clear on what do I believe? What's important to me? What are my values and priorities?

Which are essentially like the rules that you wanna live your life by, right? So, one of my values is obviously health and fitness. That's important to me. I will prioritise it. Family is a value, inner work and mindset work is a value. Spirituality, connectedness to God. Fucking steak is definitely a value. It's a value that's empty now. Shenanigans. Can you actually say shenanigans on one of your values? Can I put that on my list of values and laminate it?

Definitely shenanigans. Fun is one of my values. Being myself, and so on and so forth. So, anyway. Living in alignment is simply living in accordance with your values. And the whole idea of the whole damn thing is that when you know what matters to you, and you know what your values are, and what's important to you, and then you live in accordance with that, you live in alignment with that, that you create the life that you're meant to have, and that you can't fuck it up, and that everything is just created and done and available for you, right?

So, it's your blueprint. I like to do a mic drop at the end of when I do a live presentation. I bring the fire and the brimstone, and I kick people's ass about being themselves in business and live, and how I like to finish my keynote ... I don't have a script or anything, but I have ... I guess it's inside of me to a degree. I like to finish with being ... Start with something like, stop looking for the goddamn blueprint that's gonna make you millions of dollars, and impact millions of people, and allow you to live the life you fricking want. You were born with the damn blueprint. The blueprint is inside of you, but you gotta go looking for that shit, right? You gotta take time to find it. Not just one time, either. Not just for 2013. For every day. Practise.

It's done. Coffee's done. Steak is done. Chocolate green smoothie is not done. Live stream is definitely not done. So, here's the thing, right? This is important. That's why I add the sceptre. Just to emphasise my point. You gotta be tuning in on this shit daily. In some way, shape, or form. Okay? Wait, there's a piece of steak up here. I'd forget it's up there and it would just sit there until that mid afternoon, I'll probably find it while I'm having a massage, and then have a little steak snack. It's done now. I sorted it out. Look how fabulous my teeth are. They're super white. Just by all the steak eating.

Stop looking, you already have. I feel like there's a word missing there, but I like the undertone of it, Candice. Okay. You've gotta go turning in. Not really looking. Maybe you've gotta go looking at first if you've not done any looking, and you don't even fricking know what your values are, but that's a bullshit lie. Of course you know what your values are. Of course you know. You do know. You may not be paying attention. You may be pretending all manner of bullshit. And just making things up, and living the wrong fricking life. But at your core, you already know. However, for me, the inner work has been a daily thing that I've done for many, many years, and it's just a daily way that I connect to my soul, to my core. I remind myself of things that I already know.

I often write down a load of stuff in my journaling. It's like, that I've repetitively in some way written or acknowledged, or kind of connected to for years, and years, and years. And I reinforce my beliefs, I reinforce affirmations and things that I'm wanting to create. Sometimes I've sort shit out, or kind of detoxed, or brained up a bunch of stuff. But a lot of it is really just reinforcing and reconnecting to my belief system, my values, and naming and claiming what it is that I'm here to create in the world.

Also connecting to my soul. Exactly what I'm saying now Christine, is how you find that blueprint every day. So, I'm kind of getting ... I'm leading into the how of the, yeah. The how of that. So, it's kind of like taking the time to connect in what am I feeling, what feels important to me, and to remind myself of that. What is it that I believe that I can create into my life? Yes, I write it down and so done. I am. You guys saw that I put you are, on Facebook this morning? It was interesting to watch people's responses to that little Facebook post.

I don't care what people respond to it, because obviously they can perceive it however they wanna perceive it, and it's fine. And some of the responses were quite funny. But actually, the reason that I wrote that is that I was doing my inner work at the time, and my study. I always do like a morning kind of spiritual soul shift type study, which just means reading something for a few minutes that speaks to my soul. And then I go into my journaling, and I was reading and setting intentions around focusing on who the words I am, are the most powerful words that we have available to us, right? I believe.

Because I am is a finite statement in itself. You are complete, you are whole. I am, period, the end. And that's everything. Everything is already done in those two words. But also in journaling, and inner work, when you use the words I am, that's incredibly fucking powerful and you create it to life. That's why I wrote you are. And not that I expect everyone to read my mind and know the reasons that I wrote that, but a few people seemed to pick up on it, which is cool.

So, coming back, coming back, coming back, the whole alignment thing. What is your soul desire? Acting from faith, it's a practise and a fricking discipline to release fear and to act from faith. Well, the process that I just explained, like some form of daily inner work and checking in and tuning in, whether it's journaling, whether it's through your own messaging. This is me doing inner work right now, right? I'm reinforcing a bunch of stuff for myself. Also, every time I write, or talk to my clients. And I'm sure for you, maybe when you talk to certain friends, or mentors, or you hang out in my communities and groups, then you reinforce that stuff and you look at it and you connect back to your core. You remind yourself of what matters, and of what you value, and of what you choose to believe because beliefs are a choice.

And then, and then, and then, and this is how I do life, this is how I play life and decide what action to take and where my energy and time should go, is I connect to well what would faith have me do? With all of these things being in place, my values, my beliefs, the way that I choose to see the world, and knowing that of course I can create anything I desire and anything that comes to me, if I truly did believe all that, then what actions would I be taking today in my business and in my life, and in all areas?

How would I be showing up, right? So, I take the time to connect to these things, even just for a few moments a day and it's kind of a running mantra through my mind all the time anyway, just because of how long I've been doing this shit for, and it's how I think all the time. But certainly, if there was anything where I was experiencing fear, or I was coming from a scarcity mindset and I would feel and notice that for sure, then I would really very deliberately practise coming from faith, not fear. And what most people are doing, and what you might be doing, is reactively living their lives based on fear. Not a good idea, all right?

What that means is, if you've got underlying belief systems running through you relevant to money, relevant to business, relevant to getting soul mate clients, maybe relevant to your health and being in shape, maybe relevant to attracting an amazing partner and finding the people that you wanna connect with in your life in that way, then that is gonna create you the wrong outcomes for you. Not an aligned outcome, because you're literally creating your life based on a fear and scarcity mindset.

A lot of times, I mean, down there, people out there, places that are not here, people don't even know this, right? They're not even conscious enough to realise that they're reacting from faith. The Four Agreements, I've heard of, but no, I've never read that. And thank you for bringing that book to my attention, Kyle. I've definitely heard it mentioned, and I think I said that I would read it, or I noted in my mind that I'd like to read it, but then forgot. I read so much different stuff all the time though.

So, yeah. Mostly people are not even conscious of it, right? They don't know they have a fucking fear mindset or a scarcity mindset. They believe that's how the world is. That's how life works. This is how it is. Well, I'm not really here to preach to those people. Occasionally I'll meet one of them in my travels, one of the real people in the normal world, and then something I say, or something they say will make me aware that they're actually like us, and then I would open up the conversation more. But I'm not here to try and convince people to even start thinking. I'm here for the people who are already conscious around this stuff, who already have awareness around it, who already have these underlying beliefs around abundance, and getting to have it all, and have it on our terms.

But maybe you've not full stepped into owning it yet, right? Your consciousness is returning. Exactly, Mandy. So, for those people, and this could be you, you'd be aware when you've got a fear mindset going on, or a scarcity or a lack mindset. Sometimes you might pretend that you don't know, or you just allow that fear to rule you, or you go into some kind of razzled, panic type situation. Like oh my God, the sky is ending, the sky is falling, the world is ending, everything's not working, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. The world hates me, and so on and so forth.

But you do know, right? And so, it's a practise. That's what I mean by the title of this live feed. It is a practise to release fear and act from faith. Now, for me, my business, in business and money, I practise that shit so fucking much for years, because I really just decided to apply myself and to shift it. The truth is I don't have to consciously practise it at all anymore. However, it is still a daily practise. It's just not something that I think about doing it. It happens automatically for me.

I always act from faith, which is to say what does my soul direct me to do? What am I guided to do from within? And I act from a place of believing that I'm safe, and I believing that I can have it all, that's how I choose to directions that I take in every different element of my business. Whether it be what I'm selling, what I'm saying, how I'm responding to somebody who's inquiring about working with me, how I do my marketing, how I do PR, everything. The question is always what is my soul telling me to do? Simple.

And usually I don't even need to ask the question. The answers just come up automatically, right? In other earning, fitness, in fitness and food, same thing. Exactly the same thing. It's 100% intuitive for me. I used to do all the stupid diets, I used to live in so much fear to do with my body, and I can't eat this, and then I'm gonna gain weight, and now I gotta do extra cardio, and it was just very tiresome. Probably for everybody that had to put up with me as well as myself.

It was not fun. I didn't enjoy it. Even last year, I slipped back into a fear routine with food and training, and I got heavier. How much, maybe six or seven pounds heavier than I am now. So, not a crazy amount, but I felt like a lot bigger than I like to be, and I can remember being in so much fear where I was like man, I really want toast this morning with my breakfast, but I really shouldn't. I'm gonna gain weight, and I shouldn't eat this, and I shouldn't eat that, and then I just snapped myself out of it in December last year. I was like what the fuck? I'm gonna eat what I fricking want, and believe that I make good choices for myself. That's faith, right? I'm gonna give myself freedom. I'm also gonna fucking remind myself that results come from mindset. I don't care what anybody says, right?

And I have a really fucking extensive background in nutrition, in advanced nutrition, in hormonal sciences and studies. I know all the fricking science of what you should be eating, but your mindset is way more powerful. If you believe that you can be lean eating fricking pizza and donuts, you will be. I'm not saying to eat it. I'm saying your belief's fucking matter. Right? Like now, for breakfast this morning for example, I had a massive serve of french toast, with syrup on it, berries, bananas, bacon, scrambled eggs, then went to the gym, smashed out my legs, now I ate a bowl of steak just then. You saw that.

Whatever. I eat what I want. I don't base it on anything except what do I desire, and I choose to trust. And so, it's intuition and flow, and it's freedom. Freedom. Like great, I get to have the body I want. I love that. I love feeling hard and looking how I desire to look, but what's more interesting to me and powerful is freedom, and that's what I'm here to share, in all areas. Now, where I personally ...

So, with the money stuff and the business stuff, I don't really gotta practise around my food and nutrition. Even when I go to the gym, I'm like what is my soul telling me to do right now? I'm not like well, I gotta do this style of lifting, and this many weight sessions, and this much fricking cardio, and this much yoga. I do what I'm directed to do each day. If I feel unsure, because I always move my body every day. If I feel unsure, I literally will stop and I'll be like, should I do gym or yoga today? What is my soul telling me? Or is it just a walk or something?

Occasionally it's nothing, but that's extraordinarily rare. Like maybe two days in the whole year. Right? But it's not like I go to do this much gym, this much cardio, this much yoga, this many walks for stress relief. Oh my God, imagine you had to live that way. How exhausting, right? But I used to live that way in all areas. So, it's not something I gotta consciously practise ... It seems that my sceptre has a little bit of mould on it. That seems unusual. Or it's just some green stuff that's being revealed. I don't consciously practise it, but I'm definitely practising in the ... what's it called? Nutrition and fitness area anyway, because my practise is the way that I live my life, right?

And even when I do something like eat massive indulgent breakfasts that I had this morning, then I'm kind of reminding myself. I sort of smile to myself and I'm like, huh, look at me, being all free and eating what I want. And I feel really proud of it as well, by the way, because I spent 10 to 15 years obsessing over every fucking thing that went into my mouth. So, there's a massive sense of self satisfaction that comes from eating the damn french toast, or the cake, or whatever it is when I eat that sort of stuff, or even when I'm just eating greens and lean protein, and stuff, which is a lot of the time.

Either way, I'm continually reminding myself yeah, I get to choose what feels right for me. I trust myself. I have faith that I'll make the right decision for myself, and I know that my results come from what I choose to believe, not from how things add up. My results don't come from what I eat or how I work out. My results come from inside of me. Same with money. What if you trusted yourself? Imagine. Can you just imagine how fabulous your life would be? It's so easy. You literally just get to sit around all day fricking waving things to people on the internet and doing whatever you want, having a good old chat.

You're not sitting here worrying. I spent my whole adult life up until a few years ago, and even in some areas still recently, worrying, always. Like there was always something hanging over me. Am I gonna look good enough for that event tomorrow, or you know, do I need to go and do another workout today, or did I eat the wrong thing earlier, or did I say the wrong thing earlier on Facebook, or am I gonna ... How should I make sure I follow up with that person and close the deal? Or what should I be selling? Oh my God, there was so much fucking energy just being exhaustively drained out of me all day, every day. And it was so exhausting. I said exhausting two times, but it was how I lived my life for years. I really gotta give myself props for being able to stay upright and standing the entire time.

No wonder I needed so much sex. But I think I need even more now, because I'm even more alive with energy, and vibrancy. So, the practise can be automatic, is what I'm saying. The practise can be the way you live your life. Now, the only area where I still gotta consciously practise more, is my love and [remomant 00:37:41]? [remomance 00:37:42]. Love and [remomance 00:37:43]. Love and relationships and romance area.

But I'm getting so into flow there also, right? I spoke about this a lot recently. But I just take a little bit more time and attention in that area. I'll notice myself coming from fear something still, or I can feel that a fear reaction is rising, or I can feel like what I would maybe say or do if I allowed fear to rule me. I just catch it. I catch it always. I don't act from fear or scarcity, or lack or neediness in that area anymore. I don't believe I do. I think I've shifted that now. Touch wood.

But I notice that I catch it quite frequently, and then I I kind of process it, I do my inner work around it, I do journaling on it, I tune in. I notice when I'm like oh my God, I'm freaking out about something, or what somebody said or didn't say on a message, or what I'm gonna say to him, or whatever. And then I catch it and I'm like, okay, and I sit down and I fucking journal that shit. I write it down. Why am I feeling this? What is this really about? What story is this that's springing up from previously? What do I need to understand here? What do I wanna choose to believe, feel, what are the emotions and the thoughts that I desire to bring in around this, and then finally, okay.

What aligned action, if any, should I take in this area? I set my intentions, these are the desires and the results that I want, I fucking release and detach from it, because that's a critical part of manifestation, and then yeah. I go what action, what aligned action, if any, should I take around this? And that's roughly my process, right? So, I take time to do that. I had a freak out thing earlier this week, and insecurity that came to the surface that I noticed, relevant to a conversation with a man, and then I just, I probably spent an hour working through it in my journal.

I took the fucking time, because I believe that I can have it all, in that area, the same as how I do with my money, my body, my lifestyle, my fun and adventure, et cetera, and I am willing to invest the time in training my fucking mindset and shifting my soul into that place of flow, and into faith based response, but it did take time and attention. And then I took completely talked myself down from that hill of freaking the fuck out, to where I felt totally grounded, totally sure of myself, totally in faith, totally in abundance and certainty, and like yes, I get to be who I am, and I get to receive love, and I'm a fricking badass, and I feel hot, and I feel amazing, and bring it on world.

And then, from that place, I'm like cool, cool. What, if anything, is the aligned action I need to take in that area, right? And that is my practise in that area. It's not automated exactly like the other areas, as I'm explaining to you, right? My point is, that for me to get to the level of ease and flow that I have now around money, where it's like I have ... Of course money just flows to me every day, as much as I just kind of pluck out of the air, more and more every month, with greater and greater ease, soul mate clients only. I don't gotta do anything, I never gotta worry about it, it's just always there.

Same with my fitness and health. To get to there, to get to here, I did that. I did that fucking inner work. I took the time. Every time my shit came up, I sat my ass in the chair as soon as I could, and I did the journaling work on it, and or I spoke with whoever it was that was supporting me at the time about it, and I ran it through my head while I was maybe working out, and I figured it the fuck out. And I noticed where fear was ruling me, or scarcity was ruling me, and I asked myself repeatedly, every fucking day in my journaling, for years. I would ask what would alignment look like right now? What would I be saying, selling, doing in my business if I knew I was completely safe with money, if I already had a million dollars in the bank, and if I was completely in alignment?

It was a fucking practise, you guys. I remember that question I asked every morning for years, like two to three years I would say every fucking morning. I remember sitting in café up there, in Broad Beach, which is the next town over, café that opens at 4AM down there. I always know where all the early morning café is. Wherever I am in the world. And every morning it was my practise, right? I just cannot emphasise enough that you've got to have a mindset practise, and if you're not willing to do that, please, for the love of God, leave the fucking live stream and leave my community because I cannot help you. If you're not willing to invest into shifting your own soul and into being that next level version of yourself, there is not a single fricking thing that I can say to you or desire to say to you that is going to help you to make money, reach your soul mate clients, make a fuckload of money, I already said that, why not have some more?

Have your dream body, have a soul mate relationship, have it all. I do the fucking work, and by that I mean the work of how my thoughts or my mind and my beliefs and my emotions operate. I am disciplined enough to train my mind. Your mind is like an errant fucking monkey child. It will do whatever the fuck you want if you don't give it direction. You get to choose. And when you take the time to choose how you're gonna think, and to cultivate a mindset of abundance, and a belief system of abundance, you get to the point where it's fucking inherent to who you are, which is how I am with money, how I am with my fitness and body, how I am rapidly becoming with love and romance.

I'm so just on the edge of complete, complete flow and ease and certainty in there as well, and it's shifting every fucking day. I've already shifted so much from like two months ago, or four months ago, or a year ago, because I've been doing the work. I've been applying myself. I've been committed the it. I refuse to accept anything except the standard of excellence. I know that when I'm next in a official serious, committed relationship of some kind, where it's like an official thing, that it's gonna be something that people are like, oh my God, I wish I had a relationship like that.

And I'm not saying that because I want people to be envious of stuff that I have, but more so to impress upon you, like I know that people wish they could make the money I make, live the lifestyle I make, have the body and have it all. Well, you gotta have that practise. And you've gotta be committed that you get to have it that way. There is no fucking way I would have any relationship of whatever sort of classification or labelling, and this is already true in the current way that I do love and romance, that this ...

Any connection, however that connection is playing out and carrying out, my current connections are all fricking based on what feels right and aligns for me, and what is in keeping with my goals, and even the guy who is important to me in my life, right? Who I talk to all the time, we talk all the time about communication, and learning new communication, and growing in communication, and expressing your true actual feelings. Like oh my God, imagine, right?

And it's a continual growth thing from both sides, and that is something where I'm just ... I'm not available for anything other than that. How can people be in a relationship where there's not openness and communication? But I was. Fear, obviously. Right? So, I know that people can be. But my point is, I've committed myself to getting to have it all in all areas. So, in this area, like in other areas, I just do the work. I do the fricking work, and I only bring in people into my life who are doing the work in their area, in their life also.

And people who I was giving my time and energy and body to, et cetera. For example, last year, well I still have fun to go on a date, and that sort of thing. That's fine, I've got nothing against that as a general sort of social thing, or a fun night out or whatever, and yeah. That's totally fine. But as far as me continuing a relationship with somebody, like really, when I get to the point where if I've seen somebody two or three times, if that's not a growth orientated person, if we're not vibing on a soul level, it's not like I'm trying to just be superior or something like that.

It's just that, that doesn't align with how I choose to live my life. Just like my soul mate clients and my soul mate clients, I'm just not gonna work with somebody who doesn't choose to apply themselves to business and life in a certain way. So, even part of my growth into greater alignment and flow in this area, was I just allowed some connections with guys that I had been seeing to fade away, but I was like, well, yeah. I still have a great time every time we catch up, it's fun, we go to dinner, we do all the things, you know, have sex, et cetera. Yes, that's a need and a requirement as well, so that's certainly part of it, but it's kind of like ...

If the conversation's not flowing, if it's starting to feel like a little bit of hard work, if it's kind of like, well, I'm pretty much just doing this for the attention and the sex, then okay, well I could still certainly do that if I choose to anytime, and I would, right? For sure. If I choose to. But it's also, hmm, how does this tie in with what I actually believe? How does this tie in with faith based living, right? How does this tie in with the knowledge that I have inside of me, that I can have only epic soul mate connections?

And people say it's really hard to find a conscious guy, or it's hard to find a man who's growth orientated, and then their hot, and they're whatever, and whatever, and whatever. And I'm like, well, you're gonna get what you expect to see. That's the truth of the matter. I started journaling earlier this year on being surrounded by conscious men who are freaking smart, fun, funny, successful, who totally honour me as a goddess and a queen, and tell me the nice things, and treat me in a way that I love to be treated. And elevate me and take care of me, and I didn't even just mean romantically, right? I meant in a general sense, being surrounded by conscious men.

Only the other day, I think it was like a week or so ago, I remember just thinking holy shit, today alone I've had four amazing epic conversations with incredible conscious men. I am surrounded by conscious men. My friends, my clients, people who I connect with online, and also in the romantic area as well, right? But really, like all my male connections now I just ... I have such amazing male friends, who are so fricking conscious and elevated, and I'm only gonna date in that way as well, and I'm only gonna give my energy in any sort of [inaudible 00:47:28] sense in that way, and it's also what I expect and what I see in the small percentage of men that are actually in my own community, several of which are here on this live stream. Yes. Exactly.

Pete's just like, "Here I am." And Brandon's here as well, right? So, there's two examples right there. And it's just all these things come about when you choose to believe, right? I'm using that area as a big example because it's an area that I've been particularly focusing on for me and my life, as you know. And like I said, because I've practised, because I've repeatedly practised releasing fear ... I didn't have fear around attracting conscious male friends or clients. Actually, that was more so obviously for the love romance area, but still, I gotta practise that. I've repeatedly practised it. When fear's rising, when you say to yourself maybe that's unrealistic, or I couldn't have a connection like that, or I can't tell I'm what I'm really feeling like this.

And it's like, well is that true? Or is that fear? What would faith say? What would my soul tell me to do? What would alignment look like? And then you fucking practise. And the practise maybe scary as hell, super fucking uncomfortable, insane, right? In that area. That's why you practise. You practise so that it becomes easier and easier to show up as that version of yourself, okay? So, right now, where is the area where you most need to practise? What is the area that you've gotta practise in? Because I could tell you that you can get to absolute flow and ease, as I have shown and demonstrated, and as I continue to create for my own self, you can have all of that. You know it.

But you've gotta be willing to take the time to catch it when fear is ruling you, and if you're not even sure, then fricking, start getting your ass in the chair every day and looking into that in your journaling, and figuring it out, or working with me, or whoever you wanna work with, and getting it all sorted. And then you practise what would faith look like? What would soul alignment look like? What would I be doing if was coming from belief? That's the blueprint. Michelle says, you totally get what you expect. Just expect differently and what ... Right.

And there's so many things that I've written in my journal, where I feel like that's outrageous, that would be too good to be true, right? I think even the conscious man thing, I felt that at one point. I was like well, you know, a lot of the really conscious men seem to be kind of like not my type, like super ... I'm sorry. But super hippy-ish, which is not my type. And so, I kind of had a belief system there, and then I was just like and what if I chose to believe that the conscious men that I call in are super in their kind of alpha masculine, and in the way that I'm attracted to?

And so, that's obviously what I then created, because I chose to believe it. But I remember thinking that it wasn't really possible or available, and then I decided to journal it every single day anyway, which is what I do with everything, right? There's many things that I'll journal where I'm like it seems so far off. And I'm like too bad. I keep claiming it as available now. Manifestation is all in the now.

Woo. Okay. By the way, I got one place left in Rich Hot Empire. Six weeks to work with me one on one. You and me. Build your soul mate cult tribe, make money doing what you love, create a multi seven figure empire and beyond through low end, high end, whatever you wanna do. What is your calling, what is your soul work? Do you need to do the mindset work on that, and would you like to know everything about how I've built this business? Rich Hot Empire is about all of that and so much more. It is unlimited one on one access to me.

It is going to be closed off very, very, very fricking soon. It'll probably slightly oversell, because I've already got several conversations in the works. But in theory, I can do one more place if you message me ASAP about that. I will send you a overview and details, and we can talk through it all, and yes. Well, there you go. Dee's just claimed that last place, right there. Which I kind of already knew anyway. The conversations that I'm still having with people right now are all closed out. Those conversations obviously, right?

So, as always, I sell things out, or I slightly oversell them even, if I've had like four people that are messaging all me at the same time for the last final place, which tends to keep fricking happening, because I call in the energy of it. And that's how it's done. And this is a faith thing as well. I teach about that when you're a client. I teach about it anyway, in lots of different ways obviously, with my free online content.

so, leave me a comment, send me a message. Tell me the things, say yes to you. Press fricking play, and I already said press fricking play. I'm gonna say it anyway. Don't forget, life is now, press play. Thank you for watching. Bye.

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